#also like an attention seeker

[goldensunset]

you know you’ve lost when you keep editing the drawing that you’ve already publicly posted and sent a bad version of to your friends

#like everyone’s already seen the cringe fail flop version of this … i can’t just send the same drawing again that would make me look bad #also like an attention seeker #should’ve just waited man! #should’ve just let my perfectionist tendencies take over back then #peach rambles #on an unrelated note earlier today i stumbled across a few truly atrocious drawings from early 2021 and almost lost my entire mind #normally i don’t have such a knee jerk reaction but like they were my own ocs so. it hurts more #because i know i’m the only one capable of creating representations of them and i let them down #so it’s like if they only exist within that which i create of them then if what i’ve created of them is bad then. that’s all they are… #hurts my soul #i reacted so quickly with such horror that i impulsively hit delete on two of them… #and now i regret it so badly… i killed them… #i shouldn’t have done that even if i didn’t like the drawings anymore that’s a part of me that’s a part of my history as an artist #we can only learn from looking back at our mistakes! and i try to have empathy for my past self

[uncanny-tranny]

The frustrating thing about having good days with pain or bodily irritation or mobility or whatever else isn't that it's a "good day." It's the feeling that you are either greatly exaggerating your suffering or worse, that you're secretly wanting attention/admiration for your suffering. I think people sometimes are confused as to why good days in terms of disability can be distressing to some, but it is precisely that you almost... overthink the Implications of good days.

It isn't that you want to be suffering, it is that you are taught you will only be "worthy" of help if you are suffering in the Right way (and having any good days are often seen as a sign that you aren't "truly worthy").

#disability #internalized ableism #internalized ableism tw #ableism #ableism tw #it's also for me like... 'are my aids helping me because i am disabled or am i just an Attention Seeker' #i just don't want people to get the wrong idea of people who aren't... happy about having 'good days' #because sometimes you are almost expected to be Grateful to Not Be Disabled Today when you have a good day #but it's like... you're still disabled but your body (for whatever reason) isn't suffering as much as it might other days #i was really weirded out these past couple days because my back pain is almost nonexistent... #...and it makes me worry because: 1. this is temporary 2. is it because my aids are helping to prevent pain or is it something else? #3. again it's temporary and i am really really scared that these non-pain days are going to fucking bite me in the ass #you tend to get caught in this cycle where good things make you scared because it feels temporary and reversible at any second

[basofy]

ive never talked about their dynamic but this is one of the many thoughts i have about them

#ive been having power outages all day help me #my stuff #lisa rpg #bo wyatt #lisa garth #lisa the painful #i imagine hes saying do you liiiiike it :) with a deep yet nerdy voice #ok deranged thoughts time #yes i in fact like them becuz theyre both artists #but heres the thing #theyre both STRUGGLING artists who have a very deep bond with their art which reflects who they are as people #they both also suck at it lol #yet they continue cuz their art is their life pretty much #and i like to think that having another artist buddy would feel nice for them #especially in garths case it's like dude lives pretty much under a rock feels ignored by everyone cares too much about others reactions etc #either it becomes some sorta onesided artist rivalry or he becomes obssesed with the fact that there is another guy in the team #who knows what it's like #he would be all like YOU. YOU UNDERSTAND!!! and bo is just like lol #becuz while he struggles too he doesnt make a big deal out of it doesnt care about being underappreciated #like garth who is A BIG ATTENTION SEEKER #so imagining them hanging out and having this weird artist bond is cool to me #id also include jack cuz they all make an artist team but yknow SIGHHHHH #also i have different thoughts on what does art mean for jack since hes younger #these are definitely not all of my thoughts i am insane about artist characters #and yeah it could be said gart in this post is trying to get bo's attention #through a mix of what bo likes and what garth likes and it's a funny and cute thought to me #lisa ramblings #still love this post

[uzumakiheart]

idk if this is an unpopular opinion or wtv but like naruto and sasuke’s respective traumas are super integral to their stories because their entire personalities would’ve been completely different if they hadn’t gone through what they went through. it’s fine when ppl write their families to still be alive but then they write the two of them to be the exact same and it irks me sometimes idk

#naruto would not be a silly attention seeker with no knowledge of anything like social cues or manners or whatever #i imagine him still being a little silly and like liking to prank ppl but he’d be quite serious at the same time esp under the influence of #his father the fourth hokage #he also wouldn’t struggle with kurama/chakra/his ninja studies in general so much with a proper support system #sasuke would be completely different like i can see him still being serious but much more lighthearted depending on how the uchiha clan #storyline plays out #at most i can see sasuke angsting over being seen by everyone as itachi’s little brother. maybe a little jealousy going on there #but still i think he’d be more relaxed than canon #WOW this is not that deep its mostly a critique of fanfiction canon divergence type aus #that maintain their canon personalities but change everything around them

[feral-radfem]

Oh my God I'm so surprised that super persistent but consistently flawed debater on Tumblr is actually a child. I never saw that coming.

Look, there's things that adults shouldn't say/ topics we shouldnt bring up around children and should be able to create spaces away from them. If I'm being completely honest, radical feminism almost entirely falls in this category of 18+ content. We are constantly talking about sexual violence and other extremely adult topics that aren't appropriate for developing minds to be constantly bombarded with. It's bad for your young minds and it's bad for the movements that you seem to think you care about.

If you want to be a child activist then volunteer for your local community, don't get in online spaces with adults. It's simply not safe for children and creates an unproductive environment for adults. Children will learn better skills and build more fulfilling relationships and achievement doing local community activism anyways.

If you're a minor you need to put that shit somewhere so that we can tell that we're talking to a literal baby. I really don't enjoy this increasing trend of purposely not telling people when y'all are minors because you think that it's going to make people dismiss you, when you having limited life experience is a legitimate limitation on your analysis. You're being deceptive because someone placed a social boundary that you don't want to respect. It's high key gross.

On the same note, different tune, I hope this serves that is a reminder that people can literally be lying, either outright or by omission, about everything they claim about themselves on here. We, people in general, have created the online culture where it's completely normal to lie about important identifying features about ourselves for social clout/elevation. While I know there are some of us that may not participate in this practice, I know plenty of radfems do. We've caught a few doing it red-handed and all they're doing is breeding distrust amongst us in these spaces.

Can y'all not just act like normal honest people?

#I really thought you were a stupid attention seeker who everyone just gave way too much attention to in her mid/early 20s #just an adult with way too much time on her hands who knows how to act the same questions and chronically online #so I'm actually very happy to learn that you are actually a child. because I spent like 2 years thinking you didn't know how to read/argue #however #I do disagree about lying about your age by deception or omission. you knew that most people on here thought you were an adult #though that was definitely their own dumbass mistake #you should have been honest with your age in the bio because you knew it would have given people context to judge your content better #I'm really sick of y'all pretending to be adults on here until it is convenient for you not to lie anymore #you get more leeway for the stupid shit you say when I think you're a kid but I also don't think kids should be actively in politics #adults don't want to talk about adult topics with children it makes us uncomfortable and it stops us from being able to have open debate #lily responds #really this is why I encourage you to get offline and join local political movements #okay I'm done ranting I'm just so tired of figuring out after the fact that y'all are liars especially about your age #I also just don't like feeling like I've been lied to so maybe I'm taking this more personally than I should be

[greentrickster]

Sometimes I have to remind myself that it’s okay to describe myself as having a disability even if it is ‘just’ ADHD. Me being in the ‘more manageable’ section of the disability spectrum doesn’t take away from people in the ‘more difficult’ section or take me off the spectrum entirely; it just puts me in the ‘more manageable’ section. It still comes with its own difficulties and things I need to work around, and it’s okay for me to admit to and claim that.

#my life #adhd #my relationship with my adhd is so freaking weird #in that I tend to have such a good relationship with it #that it makes it hard for me to own up to the parts of it that make my life hard #and makes me feel like a faker or attention seeker when I point out to people that adhd is considered a mental disability #(also it's apparently been a protected disability in the US since 1973)

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Hpd culture is finally having a partner and delicately balancing wanting all of their attention while also trying to not scare them away with mental illness

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#cluster b culture is #hpd culture is #cluster b #hpd #Mod Reef #anonymous #unsure if hpd but Mood #or even with anyone we enjoy in general #most of our relationships are transactional. the only one that isn't is our relationship with our Person™ #and part of that transaction for us is ATTENTION GIVE ME ATTENTION GIVE ME PRAISE AND LOVE AND ATTENTION #but also most people don't like attention seekers. so

[literaila]

hi, i want to start writing stories, and i admire your work, and i have a few questions if you don't mind, have you always been good at writing, do you write something everyday and how did you feel confident enough to start posting your work?

have i always been good at writing? no. absolutely not. i have always written things (evidence: the 1k novel i wrote in third grade about a dolphin adopted by a lobster which lacked quotation marks) if that’s what you’re asking.

writing, like all things, only truly improves with practice (and reading, absorbing information is no joke). sometimes i read things i wrote in the last year and have to sit and question myself for a good hour on exactly what i was thinking. my first work on tumblr was god awful, but i can admire it from afar because it got me where i am.

i personally think i lack the natural affinity for writing because i struggled in school and couldn’t really read until i was 10, but you’ll find your niche and it’ll work out.

do i write something everyday? ummm unfortunately no. i certainly think about writing every day, but typically i write 2-3 times a week during a good writing period. though! i wish i was disciplined enough to write something everyday because if would probably make writing a lot easier and less strenuous for me

(take that with a grain of salt though because i have a terrible attention span and can’t sit still for periods longer than 10 minutes. recently i’ve been writing when we’re slow at work, if that means anything to you)

how did i feel confident enough to start posting my work? simply put, i didn’t. i still don’t most days. writing is an entirely debilitating experience in my opinion and it sucks! i hate it! it makes me feel like walking on a thousand legos!

but if you’re feeling nervous about posting something, i encourage you to just do it. don’t worry about what others will think. when i posted my first story (on here, don’t ask about the eras before) i didn’t really like it, but my readers did. and that made it worth it to keep posting more. if you’ve got an idea that you’re passionate about, go for it! no one’s going to write it like you will.

honestly, i try not to take my writing too seriously (and i do a terrible job, obviously) because it’s supposed to be an escape from all of the terrible things about the world. so i’ll keep pretending it is an escape (wink wink). so, write whatever story you want, and post it on every platform across the earth. someone, like me, will love it.

#wow i’m awful #sorry but i have so many thoughts on so many things (and am terribly long winded) #but i loooooooove thinking about all of my terrible little stories #every time i post something i’m like ‘okay so choose a new career path’ #and then i don’t #:) #also i work solely for validation from others (i’m an attention seeker) so i have to post my writing or i will never ever finish anything #or i have to work out of spite #whichever comes first #when i’m working on something and no one likes it i give up! which is a bad way to live and you shouldn’t do that #actually don’t take any of my advice #i just realized i don’t know what i’m doing

[gonnagocrynow]

playing my sad playlist with my listening activity turned on is just a cry for help atp

#spotify #sad playlist #posting this is also one lmao #sad songs #lol i feel like an #attention seeker

[dutchwinter]

i feel like i give so much and no one gives me the same in return. and i feel like im ignored all the time. but i know its not true not everyone will do what i expect them to its fine. people have their own lives they live. but i get upset anyway its horrible.

#im just such an attention seeker constantly. sometimes i get into moods where i want all of it all the time #and it makes me feel like shit like. the world doesnt revolve around me. how about you calm the fuck down instead of behaving this way #i also feel like the reason i even have social anxiety and i dont talk about most things is because i feel like im inferior to everyone #and that im dumber than everyone and everyones so much better than me. and theyd look down on me if i ever spoke about #anything. ever. think im stupid. ugh #sorry idk where all this came from

[welcometogrouchland]

Can't believe I considered the possibility that I'd given myself a mild psychosomatic illness over children's television before I considered the idea that my sick friend I was in close contact with all week might've also gotten me slightly sick. L for the logical thinking and self perceiving parts of my brain

#ramblings of a lunatic #ALSO this is not to equate psychosomatic illnesses with being dramatic! it's not the same thing! #but i was more willing to consider the idea that I'd made myself sick by being a doofus than i was willing to Use My Brain #I'm always overly worried that all my illnesses are just me being an attention seeker (I'm not happy abt it either but I'm workin on it) #but like. girl. think abt this for two seconds please #anyway it's been a very mild Whatever Is Wrong W/ Me #just light jitters and temperature sensitivities plus some nausea bad appetite and teeny bit shortness of breath #overall more uncomfortable than debilitating #but like. i also really hope it's a one day fluke bc i was planning on doing tasks tomorrow <3 #WAIT please don't let me still be like this by Tuesday i have to walk to my eye doctots appointment cause i broke my glasses :(( #idk a hot water bottle probably isn't the best idea rn but I'm mostly going for the vibe of comfort rn since i don't know how to treat this #if it even needs treating #probably doesn't #anyway yeah. interesting day

[jinxed-fates]

the tragedy of things never being able to go back to how they were because time only goes further and as it grows more distant even the happiness i once experienced seems like a delusion

#yeah its im like this hours #yada yada i know im annoying when im depressed just ignore it its fine #im a cry baby attention seeker etc etc but i mean #what else am i gonna do but scream when im dying #if i do nothing people blaim you more anyways #cant burden people with the responsibility of your life #but also not supposed to suffer alone because friendship or something #what am i supposed to do tell my coworker i wanna kill myself so i can get an awkward look and a thats rough buddy?

[kumikoumae-archive]

You know that thing people say,, that you should ignore people to make them chase you? That doesn't work on me because if I don't get a message back I instantly lose interest in a mf

#gi talks #ignoring?? is literally the stupidest thing?? #if i get 30+ messages from someone i get super excited and i answer to each topic #if i get no messages that just makes me lose interest. like. if you don't wanna hit up a conversation then what interest do i have in you? #also. i am an attention seeker so giving me attention is the way to win my heart. #we don't even have to talk abt me. the conversation can be just you telling me every detail abt your day and i'll be swooning because you #chose me to be the one listening to your rambles

[growing-gems]

"Why do you keep looking me in my eyes? My huge tits are down here!"

The short gem gestures to her shirt-straining rack

#aquamarine #bc of the trend going around. a great one at that #also could go for several other but like. aqua hasnt gotten much love #and shes def an attention seeker

[mothslimes]

everyone wants to romanticize the grotesque until i say i love how my selfharm scars look....curious

#mik talks #self harm #tw sh #second post i made about this sorry followers #ive just been staring at my arms like yaaay #also just to be clear i do not promote selfharm in other people i just like the way my skin looks after cutting regularly for 8+ years #mostly recovered now tho primarily because ive been called an attention seeker by my family again and again and its annoying #girls i do this for me..... #also i dont want another intervention

[mainfaggot]

people in this fuckass homesense are looking at me im going to kill msyelf

#i think i must look very tired and very pissed #bad look for the neighborhood lesbian.. #thie is embarrassing i feel like im being an attention seeker because the norm is to not sit on the display furniture but also i cannot #feel my wrists and im cold as fuck #i need ti sit #z.post