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juneviews · 7 months

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axelle judges non bl shows > The Jungle

summary: The Jungle are a group of good-looking men that meet regularly in the secret bar Rendezvous owned by the mysterious bartender Hunter. When certain special women approach them, their whole self-built image shatters.

where to watch: youtube

grade: 7/10

pros:

the cast is awesome!

the acting was good from everyone, though the ones who impressed me the most were my already faves off, pat, nanon, mild & lookjun, who especially slayed considering it was her first main role! they didn't have to go that hard for this show lol

the aesthetics of this show are beautiful, be it the lighting, locations and especially the outfits! each girl's wardrobe was incredibly gorgeous!

cons:

GIRLLLLLLLLLLL. the writing!!! this is one of the worst writings from gmmtv, like... ever bruh! let's analyse everything that's wrong with it:

this show is some of the worst marketing failure ever. they really done advertised a silly 6-stories romcom like a dark, mysterious murder drama bruh!!! so when the viewers started watching the show, obviously we were not gonna like it & feel like it's super surface-level & dumb, bc they had built up our expectations for a completely different show. if this show has been advertised to be in the same vain as the three gentlebros for example, we would've have accepted its three gentlebros writing. but the issue is that we expected something on the level of ps: I hate you & we didn't get anything near that.

focusing on each story one after the other impacted everything badly in this show. first of all, it makes it so every ship (except pineaugust bc they got the most screentime) looks rushed AS HELL, especially the earlier ones like lee & mook, so the romance that we were supposed to feel? isn't here babes. secondly, bc each story is so separated, the link between them feels close to non-existent and the friendship between the jungle guys feel stick thin. MOREOVER!!! since each story is so separate, once a ship get together we barely ever see them on the show again, and the later characters like nathee, hack & pine, whose stories only start by ep 8 feel non-existent during the first part of the show! you literally cannot win with this way of doing the show lol. ALSO!!! bc each story is separate, every viewer had their favorite and the one they don't care about, which means that some entire eps were super boring & people got mad some ships got better development & screentime than others.

they made their female characters look so fucking dumb & useless, oh my lord. honestly it's even more insulting considering the same team created some of the most interesting & complex female characters ever in ps: I hate you, like... makes me wonder what they were on for this. only august is written with layers & an interesting storyline, and florence is alright since she flips the usual conventions of the male lead pursuing the female lead relentlessly on its head.

the male characters aren't much better, there's so many cringy parts where they try to look cool & be defenders of women but it doesn't work at all when they've been established as players who don't respect women. btw they look pathetic bc we are TOLD that they are players but never SHOWN so they have no credibility, also I love the boys & they're all good looking or whatever but idk they weren't emanating this cool, badass energy the showrunners wanted us to feel lol.

leemook's story gave me nothing. it was the most disappointing bc it was the first so that's when I realized my expectations of a gritty series wouldn't happen, but even then not only is their story basic but there's nothing to it, it's so basic & forgettable.

the nanonpunpun story was alright, imo naanfah was probably the most interesting male character in the show (he's black from not me but in a different font lmao), but their story was rushed & didn't have a satisfying conclusion at all. also they didn't really have much chemistry compared to nanonmild imo. lastly, bc their story is so early in the show but contains what was set up as the center of the show, kaewta's murder... once it's done & we know the truth we're just left like... alright there's 8 eps left, what's even the point lol. their story should've been done differently & solved at the end imo.

the plot twist of nanon playing twins... could've been good if it was actually a plot twist??? bc the viewer is aware there's two nanon characters it just fell so flat, the reveal to punpun's character seems so ridiculous & straight out of a low-tier lakorn from 50 years ago bc the viewer is not surprised one bit bruh.

hack's character is so icky & terrible. not only is he INTRODUCED into the show using his power imbalance to fuck a student's mother, but then he has sex with irin while she's blackout drunk & thinks he's pine, which is... r*pe obviously. but then he keeps playing these games & he's just fucking terrible & icky and made me feel so gross while watching this, which is such wasted potential since he actually had really great chemistry with lookjun. but yeah throw his whole character in the trash!

nathee & florence's story is so rushed & underdeveloped, which is kinda sad bc they had good chemistry & also were very fun together. but also tbh florence's insistance on having sex with nathee when he said no 500 times is literally coercion babes, if florence was a man doing this to a girl we wouldn't find it cute.

also please for the love of god luke I'm rooting for you, but why did you have to growl like a werewolf everything you wanted to look hot & angry 😭 this man is so unserious as an actor, wishing him luck in getting better lmao

as for the augustpine storyline, imo it should've started and ended the show. the "past" should've been at the beginning of the show so that 1) we immediately get context of what brought the jungle guys together and 2) we actually FEEL the 10 years wait that pine had to feel on the show for august to come back. it would've given so much more weight to the show imo.

would I rewatch it: only the offpat parts

This was in my top 5 shows I was the most looking forward to watch this year, and goddamn did it disappoint all of my expectations except for offpat being one of the best ships ever. I would not recommend this show except for the pineaugust storyline, honestly don't bother.

#axelle judges non bl shows #the jungle #the jungle the series #bypiningbisexuals

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blackbird-brewster · 2 years

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I'm going to make some predictions for Criminal Minds: Evolution. It is officially two months til the premiere and here's what I think we're going to get (lots of this will be based on that sneak peek interview):

UPDATED: 26/11 (Ep 1-2) GREEN is correct prediction. RED incorrect. (Subscript is comments)

Emily: She's section chief now. She has grey hair now and there is a 50/50 chance they will write a line that's like 'LOL Wow Prentiss, the job is so hard you went grey!' but also equal odds no one says ANYTHING about it. Emily gets the band back together and she's just a v good badass. I DO NOT for a second believe they're going to make Emily canonically queer. They're probably going to double down and give her a sex scene with some generic dude. But she'll be able to say 'FUCK' and that's great. I love that for her.

JJ: I STG if they give us some wild Willifer sex scene (I had to witness that innuendo and Emily saying people were getting laid so it counts!) ....dksjlahdlksahl. *CRINGE* Henry is *14* now, that's bananas y'all. He's in HIGH SCHOOL. Michael is also in school now?!?!?! HOW???? She'll talk about it but we may not even see her fam bc it's ten episodes and they only ever get brought out of the prop closest like once every three years. She and Will went to NOLA for a while then moved back to DC. She'll talk about how nice it was to be away for a bit but ultimately 'I missed the BAU because this is my family' bc we have seen time and time again how she makes excuses to be at work vs being with Will lmao

Tara: They're going to give Tara a love interest and I honestly doubt it's not gonna be a dude. She and JJ have teamed up to go over every single case request for however long and so there will be JARA, which is delicious. But again, I won't for a single second hold my breath thinking they're going to suddenly make an MC queer just because it's streaming or whatever. Being on network TV was never the issue, so I don't feel like streaming isn't going to flip a magical gay switch in the show runners.(SO FUCKING HAPPY I WAS WRONNNNGGGGG!!!!!) I think we'll get some good Tara storylines though which will be SO SO good because she is the perfect character!

Rossi: I think it's SO obvious they're going to kill his wife. Probably via the pandemic. Because this show is so obsessed with trauma porn. He's unit chief now which is funny considering how much he hated it when he was interim UC before Emily came back. But it's pretty on brand because none of the show runners have ever understood continuity, why start now? I think they're going to use his wife's death to fuel him being like “I know I'm old but I just need something to do and something to make me feel useful and this is all I know. So I'm back!"

Luke: Obviously Luke and Garcia went on a date, that's been confirmed. Again, I dunno if we'll get to see Garvez on screen. At least, not how we want! I think maybe they dated a bit and now that they're back, there will be a moment of adjustment to seeing each other and things being slightly awkward but then they'll go back to their banter and shit. I just don't think this show is going to actually give us an inter-team romance on screen. I will be SO happy if they do, but I'm not holding my breath

Garcia: Obvs what I said about Luke. I think Garcia will be the one that's hardest to convince to come back. She left because those last few seasons were SO hard on her. Like this ray of sunshine had SO much shit happen to her and I think she would very much be hesitant to come back. Someone, (Rossi) (should be Luke but probably will be like JJ) will convince her to come back because the team really needs her. There will be an emotional scene where she talks about her PTSD from the BAU but then she'll just be like 'yeah, okay I'm back'. Because this show never actually addresses trauma (CANNOT BELIEVE THEY TALKED ABOUT GOING TO THERAPY!?!? WHAT A CONCEPT!)

Place your bets guys, gals, nonbinary pals. WHATEVER we get in two months, will be a TRASH FIRE. I don't have any doubts about that part. I do not expect the reboot to be any better than the show, which is an absolute dumpster fire....but it's our dumpster fire. So here we are!

Also, you are allowed to have other opinions. This is mostly a post for me to write my thoughts so I can check back when the show airs to see if I was right or not. This is not an invitation for discourse, my nerds.

#criminal minds #cm reboot #cm evolution #cm meta #emily prentiss #jennifer jareau #tara lewis #david rossi #luke alvez #penelope garcia #cm head!canon

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care666bear · 1 month

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Ok bare with me I swear I’m not crazy like something fishy is going on up in here

My best friend and I have FaceTimed for bong rips before bed since I was 17 & moved out of the city we lived in ok. Never an issue like ever

My mom passed away a year and a half ago, at the one year mark- ish, our calls started getting all sorts of glitchy. We haven’t thought shit all of it until a couple months ago, it started getting really consistent and weird lol. Like it started as, I’d call and it would just ring, she’d say she answered to nobody there though. Figured connection issue. Then, she’d call & tell me I had answered the last call but I wasn’t saying anything even though I definitely didn’t get a call from her. like every night for the last two months, something else answers the first two calls then we get the third ? 🤣 obviously we’ve been joking that maybe it’s mom & she’s just saying hi.

THEN a couple weeks ago, T calls me and her camera isn’t on but the button on phone says it is okay? She jokes and says “are you there ghost?” And while packing a bowl!!! No hands on the phone!! The fucking camera turned on, we actually almost shit ourselves.

Last night, it happened again but I called back after hanging up on accident, we were about to smoke a bowl & I said fuck calling back, we’ll just smoke bc we were ready to go lol. I jokingly said “mom stop fucking with the camera” after we cheers our lighters lmao and while we’re ripping our bongs, camera turns on. I choked so hard 😭

While I know spirits can be a touchy subject for some. I was raised incredibly spiritual & very in touch with the afterlife as a whole concept as my mom reeeeally believed in ghosts & other shit a lot of people deemed a bit peculiar. It was just thought that the world was a much more complex place than just being ppl on earth you know? wisest lady I’ll ever know. So lucky she was my mama. But anyways, I’m sure this is my mother fucking with me bc she said SO many times that when she passed, she was gonna haunt my siblings & I but, not until it wasn’t gonna traumatize us lmfao.

partially, a part of me also thinks I just need a way to have my mama still close enough to say hello but idk as I said, I think something is fishy 🤣🩷

#Big overshare trauma dump sorry guys #I needed that off my fkn chest #it was actually making me insane but if I said this anywhere else it might be grounds for “are you okay” phone calls #I don’t want any of those 🤣

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lemonhemlock · 9 months

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IMHO the shipping wars will continue as usual, no matter what happens on screen next season. Why? Because some people just can't accept that other people genuinely like a different ship and lash out using the usual arguments - accusations of self-inserting into the female character, liking incest, misogyny, etc. - things which are bound to get reactions from the opposite side and keep the conflict going. If anything, things have gotten a little bit worse since you "left", at least with Helaemond vs others, like most of the new Helaegon shippers have turned out to be just antis who've joined their Alysmond friends into constantly bashing them. It's also a bit funny considering that, in the beginning, most of the first Helaegons were also Helaemonds, but since then, the ship has been taken over by antis, which made it unpalatable, at least for me. I think though that you did receive some complaints about this new wave of Helaegon shippers just before you closed off your inbox for anons, if I remember correctly. Other than that, I guess there have been some Daemyra vs Alysmond conflicts, at least on Twitter from what I've seen, which involved the former piling on the latter simply because they disliked some theory or interpretation on the text. This is obviously unhinged behavior, but I still support the Daemyras doing this considering that Alysmonds and other green antis have done the exact thing, or worse actually, to fellow greens like Helaemonds so it's a bit hypocritical for them to complain when team black stans give them a taste of their own medicine. Sorry, this got a bit too long lmao, I guess you can take it as an update of how things stand when in comes to the shipping wars.

Hey there, anon, thanks for this very comprehensive recap on the state of the fandom. That's, um, a lot. 😅 I don't know what to say about the helaegon v helaemond thing - for me that is just beyond, bc I also remember people used to ship both with absolutely no issue a couple of months back. I, for one, also ship both + helaegond, so I really don't have any desire to engage with any of that, wow. 🤖

And that is the same advice I would give to anyone else - just stop bothering with the antis and do your own thing. As a general observation, I think that people get sucked into bickering way too often instead of just talking about the things they enjoy & making content for that. I get that, on some level, everyone feels the need to defend themselves when they encounter hate and nasty attitudes, so some level of that is perfectly understandable, but I don't think it's really worth it to let it take up the majority of your fandom experience. As someone who's literally been through hell & back these past months, I can promise you, it's not that serious. ☠️

There is something happening in fandoms of all kinds with the breakdown in communication and just general social norms and manners, where, upon encountering even a slightly different take from their own, people will start losing their shit and engaging in petty fights. They're just some ships, lol. None of these people are real! You can imagine scenarios in which even crackships can make sense. Fans are forming parasocial relationships with fictional characters nowadays - I've lost count of how many "MY Aemond would never do that" I used to see. Girl, what? I mean, it's fine as a joke, but then again you see them getting really belligerent with others, so you really have to question how much of it is truly horsing around and how much is just unhealthy investment and compensation for something else.

#and not just aemond lol people get really defensive with a whole host of characters like it's their own family members you're talking about #ask #anon #shipping wars #i don't really remember getting asks abt helaegon v helaemond before i closed off anon #but then again my brain is mush atm #anyway it's the dumbest fucking ship war i've ever heard of

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laurasbailey · 3 months

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original anon here, i'm real grateful to you and everyone else for taking the time to respond and share your input!

i'm usually better at distancing myself from online spaces, i've just kinda "relapsed" lately and went on a self-destructive deep dive ☠️ like..."i've been checking reddit", kind of self-destructive. what a long break does to a mf, i guess

i do agree with what you've all said & I'm aware that it's basic common sense in fandom spaces and beyond - if i've been enjoying c3, there's no reason to let someone else's opinion bother me. i think one of the issues is…if there's stuff that i've been enjoying less on my own, and then i see negativity around that same stuff, my brain tends to take it as confirmation that it's true lmao and i find myself suspecting that i would enjoy a sandbox-y vibe a lot, but that's not happening with the characters and story that i've been invested in since the beginning. am i making up problems in my head? definetly, and i'm actually a bit ashamed to admit that, but hey

all that being said, i absolutely love those same things you've mentioned (the focus on the ladies, this romance, the high stakes and having ashley full-time) and more, even as i have less context for it being unusual since it's my first campaign! and i obviously agree that it's not anyone's game but theirs. i wouldn't wish for them to cater to anyone's desires but their own and i'm 100% sure that what i loved from the beginning is common in every campaign - the joy and fun we get watching them enjoy themselves

truly, the negative thoughts are more related to getting too bogged down thinking of the story itself, in a way, and wishing i could see these specific characters chill a bit and explore…so basically the ticking clock problem haha i generally worry they're never gonna get to talking or resolving interpersonal issues before the campaign's over and they're not the main party anymore

sorry for the lenght of this and for bringing it to you out of the blue haha i've been overthinking on loop and since literally no one i know watches the show and i don't want to be annoying to them, i'm annoying on the internet. again, thank you so so much!!

i think i get where you’re coming from and i think you’ll enjoy c1 and 2 if that’s the case! there’s definitely a lot more meandering, and c2 doesn’t even start tackling what i would consider “the main plot” until like 50+ eps in lmao. meanwhile c1 has the high stakes of c3 but the main plot starts early and stretches for a long time.

i think since i’ve experienced both of those campaigns already, c3’s shortcomings don’t worry or bother me enough to care too much. whether the plot “sucks” or it’s “too fast” is really not that deep to me bc i just love the show in whatever form they’re willing to give it to me. it’s still funny, emotional, well-acted, etc regardless, and that’s the reason i watch to begin with, which could be different for you! also i’ve made my peace with the fact that we probably won’t get a ton of character focus this campaign, and while that is disappointing, i think being realistic helped me be chill about it all.

for other people, it’s the opposite and they expect every campaign to be like the one they like and they throw a tantrum when it’s not. if people are content to do that, that’s on them! c3 might not be for you, or you could have more of an appreciation for it after watching the other campaigns. it seems like you’re going to keep talking yourself into not liking it, whether it’s true or not.

you could always try watching another campaign and take a break from c3 stuff? it might be helpful to engage in something else if you’re stuck in a spiral of searching for the negativity. and if you do end up hating c3, it’s not a big deal either. it’s the people who don’t shut the fuck up about hating it that are annoying as hell lmao

#anonymous #ask #no worries at all btw! i’m totally happy to answer asks like this

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tightjeansjavi · 11 months

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Hiii!!

Idk if you do requests and I know you have a lot of on going stories but I wanted to share an idea with you!

Reader is Tommys girlfriend in the QZ and lately they’ve been fighting a lot about him wanting to join the fireflies. (Obviously reader also knows Joel and they do get along well) and eventually Tommy just leaves without saying goodbye (bc he’s a little shit lmao) and of course reader is a bit sad but mostly she’s absolutely pissed at him. Especially once he never reaches out the her, even once. She only knows he’s even alive bc Joel checks up on him. But reader is a badass so she’s like “alright, fuck you too” and starts working/smuggling with Joel to get ration cards and all of that. And they kinda become a good team and reader starts to like Joel. And at first Joel is like “nah I can’t.. she’s tommys girl” but when Tommy never even asks about her on the radio he starts to warm up to the idea. They flirt a lot, like cheeky winks and little grins and little make out sessions. They’re both hesitant to label anything bc issues ya know? 😂 but they clearly really like each other.

When Tess and Joel meet Ellie, reader isn’t there with them. So when they get to the apartment Joel is like “I gotta get someone bc I’m not leaving without her” (Ellie like ooop- 👀) so they all leave the QZ together and everything happens blah blah.

And when they get to Jackson Tommy is obviously like “oh shit 😳” because he thinks reader is there for him and wants him back and he’s obviously with Maria and got her pregnant. And reader is like “lmao you wish. The second you walked out that door you were dead to me. Hell, you did me a favour!” And basically like fuck you Tommy. You’re an asshole. And he’s a bit of a dumbass and doesn’t realise it’s reader and Joel now until Ellie is teasing them about something and then he’s like “😳 my girl Joel really???” And Joel is all like “she’s not your girl anymore, you didn’t give a shit about her. And she’s the only one that gave a shit about me the last few years” and he’s fighting for her and putting Tommy in his place for doing what he did. And then obviously they leave again and Joel gets stabbed and the hospital and all that. But when they get back to Jackson, Joel and reader don’t give a shit and just life happily ever after 💕💕💕💕 with Tommy glaring at them in the distance

(If you can’t tell, I don’t like Tommy lmao 🥰

and I know this is kinda long but I just wanted to share my idea with someone and you’re my favourite writer but you absolutely don’t have to do anything with it!!! It’s just been stuck in my head and I needed to get it out of there lmao)

Ummm this itches my brain in the best way possible?? I will have to throw this on the back burner with all my other WIPS laughing at me rn but I think we can definitely make this happen ;)

Thank you for sending this in! 🫶🏻

Joel really said yeah I fucked your girl. What’re you gonna do about it? 🤨

#talkswithgi #mailbox💌#mail received🫶🏻#let’s add this one to the overflowing platter of works I have!#i love this idea #like fr

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akkpipitphattana · 5 months

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‘ever realised one of your friends is a terrible person’ SPILL

if i were to spill completely, we’d be here all week because this has happened to me on MULTIPLE occasions, but i’ll give a brief rundown of The Big Three as i’ve come to call them

-the toxic codependent homoerotic adolescent girl friendship is basically a trope at this point, but i had one of those and she was like. a genuinely awful and terrible person. i met her in like kindergarten and dealt with her bullying/manipulation/abuse until like eighth grade when i finally dropped her. they reached out to me in like my senior year of high school to apologize and explain themselves and i have forgiven them and we follow each other on social media and stuff now. they’ve grown and learned since then, they were a kid in a really shitty and abusive home so like i get why they were the way they were - especially cause their parents did some insane shit to my family as well which was a whole thing. but still they Were shitty and awful to me and there’s not an excuse for that, so i doubt i’d ever be able to be real friends with them again, so we stick to liking each others posts occasionally on insta

-had a friend from fourth grade until my sophomore year of high school who just completely ghosted me and the rest of our friend group after they got really depressed and stopped coming to school. and here’s the thing, i obviously know how bad mental illness can get and we all were really sympathetic and worried for a long time. when i tell you it took a year for this friendship breakup to happen because we were all really forgiving and trying to be there and understand what was going on with them, i mean that. we had multiple interventions, multiple attempts at getting them to talk to us. meanwhile they were also constantly posting on their twitter and communicating with their online friends but couldn’t send a single response to our pages of texts asking if they were alright. there was one time when one of us texted them to check in and then they SHITTALKED HIM ON THEIR TWITTER like lmao?? he was trying to be a good friend?? one time we showed up at their house to drop off something and try to invite them to see a movie with us that weekend and they HELD THEIR DOOR SHUT so their mom couldn’t open it and let us in. and they were also REALLY WEIRD AND FETISHISTIC of our trans friend when they were around. like “uwu smoll bean” levels of weird

-friends with her from fifth grade until literally this past summer, but she was just genuinely a horrible friend and person for so long and it took me so long to finally cut her off cause i didn’t wanna risk losing the rest of my friends but they all had issues with her too lmao. she always seemed to target my insecurities and make me feel shitty about things she knew i already felt bad about. and she was also a huge hypocrite, insanely self centered, and also weirdly mean and judgmental?? like she had the weirdest shit to say about the queer community despite BEING queer herself and i was always like ??? girl what. and her victim complex was fucking crazy, she somehow managed to make three of her closest friends telling her she had been a shitty friend and should probably be better about that into us saying all that cause she’s black. like girl in what world does me pointing out that you’re really weird about my mental health and are acting like a hypocrite have to do with racism. what does you inviting our friend to visit you and then nearly abandoning him to go to a party bc he doesn’t like them and also pressuring him to drink after he told you he doesn’t want to have to do with racism. answer quickly.

#and none of that is including online friends <3 #asks #nonnies

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oliviaabaker · 1 year

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My random thoughts ( might be spoilers idk idc sorry):

Jordan and Simone being soft as fuck with their current relationships bc they did that with each other first. HELP! They brought that out of each other. It’s a little fast for some of these lines but… some how it’s fitting bc Jordan was always the girl obsessed boyfriend. Now PLEASE PLEASE! Send both Limone and Jordan / Layla on a damn date in a public setting. If I see that studio one more time.

I truly want to see Layla with an actual storyline. Like I am so serious. A stan got mad that I asked but like what is it??? She’s been doing music since what s2??? She had the depression one / almost dying one but outside of this music, what else is there??? Give her something! Sure there is Jordan but come on now. Girls can be more than a love interest!

I want to see her connect with Liv again and work on rebuilding their friendship. It just feels like they are roommates. Even Layla didn’t believe Liv 😭

I want to see her maybe explore college even if it’s just online or night classes. I want her to go to therapy for her issues with JP’s raggedy ass. We need to see it on screen. It just feels like she had lost herself then found herself again then it just stopped. These are 18 / 19 year old young adults… who was career orientated at that age lmao.

It was great to see Patience do something. However, her story line still sucks and she still has no love interest. why does coop get one?! I do not trust that fan girl. It’s giving Carrie 2.0 and VORTEX FANDOM? Nasty. They need to dead that work immediately, I am so serious. It’d be nice to see Patience bond with Jaymee or something.

She is mostly seen with Layla obviously ( Latience rights granted it will never happen!) but we need to move on from Catience and have P do whatever she wanna do musically bc a tour?? When the album flopped does not make sense. If they want drama for Patience, have Clay snatch her up.

I need all the girls to flourish and have fun on this show ( HC too! Coop too!) bc the men having fun / throwing parties / having story lines etc is very very annoying at this point. I get it’s necessary for Spencer and I am so happy that my baby girl Simone has found a potential sister hood in her line sisters but the beginning scared me bc simone and hazing? NO! SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH!

Back to my babies, Jimone not have been the ideal relationship to some shippers but they had so many soft moments and it was just as cute being that it was a fast burn. She altered his brain and made him grow up no matter how you spin it. I love that for him, we need to see more mature Jordan bc WHEW!

Funny, I can accept their current relationships with new people but Alicia and Noah??? Oh girl!

IMMEDIATELY NO.

Matter of fact, give Jabrielle and Limone a double date.

Interested to see how this plays out considering Spencer now knows about Jordan’s relationship and also Nate caught Simone and Lando in 2.08. I think they need to build new sets or something. We need to see them somewhere other than the dorms / tennis court / salusons and that damn studio.

Matter of fact burn the studio actually. And the beach house.

#they can never lose me #even if I accepted both of their relationships #except Dimone that is where I draw the line #but limone and jordayla are growing on me so bad #but like Jimone still holds priority over them in the long run in this house #Alicia and Noah however? immediately no

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moonlight32 · 2 years

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Wow what an episode for Kacy. Truly amazing, I loved it, personally I always enjoy all the drama and the angst, and this episode definitely delivered.

Now if only Lucy would listen. Like I’ve realized they’re both bad at communicating but Lucy does not listen to Kate at all, or to put it better she doesn’t even let her speak, she constantly shuts her down, and the moment the conversation gets serious she has her walls up and proceeds to run away. Now this is obviously because she is hurting, but I feel like a lot of the issues in their relationship could’ve been solved if she just let Kate talk and explain her side of things. She can’t just blurt out all her feelings and then going “don’t say anything” like?? This is not how conversations works.

And it would be better for her as well, she’d find peace and healing if she was willing to just listen. I’m not saying she has to forgive her but a conversation goes both ways, if she wants to talk to Kate about things she also has to be open to listen to whatever Kate has to say, the Kahuna helped but she clearly still has unresolved feelings and a lot of anger and hurt.

Now this is just my interpretation but I think that a lot of Lucy’s hurts comes from the fact that she was all in into this relationship but she got burned in the end, thinking she was a side piece she might have assumed that what they had wasn’t as important to Kate as it was to her, which we know it’s not true, but she doesn’t because she is not hearing Kate out. Prime example is the “I loved you”, she dropped a huge confession and didn’t even let Kate reply, maybe bc if she heard “I loved you” back her resolve would’ve crumbled? Who knows.

I really don’t believe Kate was being dishonest by not mentioning the promotion, we don’t know for how long she knew, but in the end it was about her life and her job, so it’s up to her when to tell Lucy, she said she wanted to but things went downhill and she lost the chance to do it, makes perfect sense, I bet the promotion was the last thing on her mind when the Cara mess happened and after the break up there was no point telling her anymore.

To me Lucy got all worked up about the promotion because it made her realize that to Kate she meant so much she was willing to give up a job in DC for her, and it was a huuuge (maybe feeling a little overwhelmed, not expecting it at all?), it would have allowed them to truly build something, her frustration comes from the fact that now it’s too late and she can’t do anything about it, because as she said Kate ruined everything, it made her think about what they could have had but went lost.

Now our poor girl Kate, she got a cracked rib and her heart broken once again, I loved her expression when Lucy told her she loved her, like she was so surprised, but also happy and hopeful for a sec right there, she truly did not see it coming, but I genuinely believe she wanted to say it back, maybe it gave her the hope and the push she needed to try to win her girl back. These two idiots truly had no clue of the extent of the other’s feelings, they’re both madly in love but didn’t seem to realize it was mutual lmao

Some highlights of this episode I enjoyed among this emotional mess, first of all their banter in front of the ambulance, Lucy being all bossy was so cute, and their little jokes in the bullpen, I do think they love seeing each other’s smiles (they’re so soft🥺) and Lucy beating the sh*t out of the woman who hurt Kate, like she was mad mad and it was cool af. Also can we talk about the fact that Lucy finally dropped Whistler’s name??? Like she called her Kate, I could not belive it, and made it feel so personal and real, it hurts. It was so so good.

The end of this season is approaching, we have two episodes left but since Lucy is still very much in pain, I do wonder how things can go in the finale, because they still have A LOT to work on, and after what we’ve seen I’m not sure a ‘grand gesture’ will be enough to fix things. To me it wouldn’t feel earned and realistic that for Lucy an ILY/grand gesture from Kate, would be enough to forget all the pain and get back with her, it just doesn’t feel right to me. Rather than a public love declaration they really need to talk about everything, being honest and from there decide what they wanna do, if they’re willing to try again or not.

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i genuinely think that that last ask you got showcases PERFECTLY how fandom has gotten too close to the creators of their shows. im not saying its necessarily a bad thing, but like the assumption that whats good for the Story thats being told MUST be what is "good" for the fandom (ie what the fandom wants to see) is so...yeah there are definitely creators who knew that what would be a good ending for their story would be what fans wanted most and purposely spited their fans (sobbing in s/pn fan rn lmao) but like... ultimately a story being told is always at the whims of the storyteller, not the audience.

anyway neo fan 🤝 cinder fan: people want my fave dead for hurting their ship even though narratively it makes no sense and would provide no catharsis/genuine development of the story for them to be violently murdered/redemption via death'd.

love u seraphina i finally got a day off again tomorrow so im gonna read more skimming eye and try to get into my drawing headspace bc i wanna draw cinder cradling jaune for you <3

Yes, the anon ask in question. I just want to clarify for other people reading your ask and my response here, I don't believe that anon intended it in the sense that they agree with the conclusion that fandom catharsis is predicated upon the fandom getting exactly what they want. Obviously what we discussed there and now here is that popular notion. I also think, given that it's a popular notion, people are not at fault for believing it, so I hold no ill will (even if the anon asker in question did mean it in the way they agree with it, or the ask was a gotcha of some sort). It's still worthwhile to talk about.

I should note that it can be really hard to tell the agenda of an anonymous asker, for good or ill. I know myself, having sent anons, there have sometimes been misunderstandings. I usually try to assume the better, though sometimes that is a task and a half and I want a fucking medal for it. On the upside, when you get a really good anon and I get to write something interesting (even if it's someone ticking me off), the experience can overall be very positive. So if someone has an issue with me and sends an anon ask, I'm still usually happy to answer it.

I draw the line at people not reading what I say and wasting my time or me not having personal interest in responding to something. It's otherwise a lot of fun. I love being a full-time diva.

Back to the question at hand: the intimate relationship between fan, work, and author is a bit weird to me overall. It gets weirder when the work acts as personal pleaser or personal insult. I mean, storytellers have outright come and said they've changed story direction based on Redditors figuring out the story, or because they don't want to give an obvious ending, or they don't want to give fans what they want purely on the basis of not wanting to give fans what they want... it is totally bizarre.

Then in the reverse, we get the sense of ownership - rather, entitlement - fans have over the way a story should be told, and that the authors should be directly addressing them. I don't think ownership over a story is necessarily bad... copyright has completely transformed the way we think of our relationship to stories... it's entitlement and personal insult that's more the issue. I love R/WBY. I love the way I interpret R/WBY. I like writing about it. My emotional response to belongs to me. No matter what happens, what I invested was meaningful. But that doesn't mean I control the creators. In fact, I think that in itself is the death of art... isn't art a doorway to other minds and worlds?

To speak frankly, I don't necessarily know what Cinder's redemption in canon is going to be characterised like - I can only draw that from other redemptions and make attempts at guessing the overall tonal feeling.

I have some idea of one storybeat we might hit (confrontation between Jaune and Cinder over the Relic of Choice). That's the last Relic and will be when some of the cast returns to Vale, well after Vacuo. I don't know what subsequent development is going to look like. Volume 8 was essentially the Cinder Volume when Ruby had the Ruby Volume of Volume 6. I expect that means things will be lighter in Volume 9, unless Volume 9 involves Jaune development in respect to Cinder. At the rate the story goes, I think we may not get more Cinder interiority for some time. Then again, I'm basing this off of the V4/V5 -> end of V7/V8 development pattern.

I'm not exactly busting to see Volume 9 in this respect - I want to see how they characterise katabasis for sure, and I really like the show lol - but I know we're still a long way off from when we get a definite answer for her redemption, and I don't know what it's going to look like in the meantime.

I hope to be surprised in a positive way. I was seriously shocked they went as far as they did with her (in a good way) in V8. I never would have expected they'd go so far as to make direct cinematic parallel with the Byronic hero painting of Byronic hero paintings with her.

anyway neo fan 🤝 cinder fan: people want my fave dead for hurting their ship even though narratively it makes no sense and would provide no catharsis/genuine development of the story for them to be violently murdered/redemption via death'd.

I laughed aloud, truly. Even if you're arguing from the point of catharsis, I don't think the case is that it is cathartic (in either the tragic or satisfying sense), and then to further that I don't think fans who avidly want her dead would, er, feel satisfied. To do so, we'd need to rewrite the story rather early on.

I didn't get into it in that post or other posts, but I have sort of gestured at the idea that Cinder is more personally offensive as a villain because she killed Pyrrha and not the other characters she has killed, despite the Pyrrha kill arguably being more 'just'. That's interesting! I obviously think Pyrrha is meant to be the symbolic representation of Cinder's misdeeds up to that point (and overall is in the entire story), that's why Jaune's tied to her. So it's doing its job.

It's just that Ironwood is more excusable for point-blank executing an unarmed councillor than the natural result of combat between Huntresses (and the final fight of the Vytal Festival, really). Or like, it was totally out of character or something. That's what I mean about what you're willing to extend towards the character and your perspective. Even seeing that act through Winter and Harriet's eyes doesn't convey the proper perspective conflict to people who are willing to overlook everything Ironwood does altogether. Wasp nest! Wasp nest! I kicked it!

The interesting thing about Cinder's redemption arc is the context it takes place in. Ironwood's corruption arc, chiefly, but we've also got the loaded tragic context of Pyrrha. It's not that I think 'revenge bad' is the ultimate takeaway. The ultimate takeaway is much more complicated than that, and if you validate Cinder's perspective - as I have said over and over - then she was right. She was right to kill Pyrrha. It really is kill or be killed.

The ultimate takeaway involves a much more complex upheaval of the relationship of the characters... and the ideals of the Huntsmen and Huntresses... and everything. That's why it's interesting. Part of the issue with the 'Cinder should die' statement is that the loaded thematic gun in the Maiden power which Cinder carries is waiting to be fired, and when you overhaul/redeem through her, you overhaul/redeem the story by extension. Things mean things!

It's not just coming from a place of, 'Me like Cinder me no want Cinder die', it's coming from a place of serious narrative consideration. Lol

So the more interesting question is how do you answer Pyrrha's tragedy in an interesting way? R/WBY is not a tragedy overall. Pyrrha's sacrifice in the story and the symbolic things her death represents (the death of innocence, the death of childhood) are very interesting. That these are pertinent themes in Cinder's own story is suspicious.

Pyrrha's death means something, Cinder's life could mean something. Come on!!! Life, death, and rebirth!!

Is it 'fair' that Pyrrha doesn't get that? I've seen this opinion expressed. It's not really about fairness because Pyrrha isn't real. It's a story trying to say something. From death comes rebirth, it's why Pyrrha's Fall Maiden candidacy is linked to Cinder. It's not tragedy all the way down forever. The character who believes that and perpetuates that perspective bringing down tragedy on other characters needs to be proven wrong.

love u seraphina i finally got a day off again tomorrow so im gonna read more skimming eye and try to get into my drawing headspace bc i wanna draw cinder cradling jaune for you <3

Love to you as well! I hope you have a lovely day off and my fic is a nice accompaniment to that! That's so kind of you as well, I hope you have fun drawing. I know the scene you're talking about; that's very choice. (o:

Hope you have a good evening and take care! Thanks for your ask. (:

#seraphina's asks #cindemption #cinder fall sadsack tag #user: rubyneo

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gompereatsall · 2 years

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Also if you wanna, juza hyodo and yuki rurikawa for the ask game too!!

(i'll be real, it's been a while since I've consumed canon a3 content, so,,, some stuff might be inaccurate my bad)

it's the guy i share a bday with, juza!!

favorite thing about them: his whole deal about being self conscious about who you are?? like. like his whole portrait episode. my god. that alone made him one of my favorite characters. his character growth about being more confident not only on stage but in other stuff like life?? im in love

least favorite thing about them: I? I literally can't think of anything?? i guess just how much sugar he eats, i mean yeah it's hilarious but also guy please. please no (i mean this light heatedly dw)

favorite line: I'll be honest, I'll be skipping these ones because I cannot remember any quotes for the life of my lmao (I JUST SAW YOUR POST IT'S "Uh... what sounds so bears make again? Beeeaaar!")

brOTP: muku and kumon,,,,, I love when the family hangs out, those three are my faves <33 ALSO O High Boys are so good,, those three make the PERFECT asobi asobase au ever

OTP: juza x banri 100%, the rivals to friends to lovers,,, so good,,,

nOTP: other than the obvious kumon and muku, no one in particular? also no weird age stuff, like anyone in high school when he's in college

random headcanon: has acne bc of all the sugar he eats. also he has lots of energy bc of the sugar he eats. he has to bounce his legs or tap his fingers or SOMETHING, he also just lays awake at night because he can't resist eating something sweet before going to bed...

unpopular opinion: fandom makes him a big himbo and, in juban fics, only cares about banri and i?? I don't like that?? please expand on his family and his whole self esteem issues. I want fics about his self esteem issues please

song i associate with them: UHH AGAIN I DON'T HAVE A LOT OF SONGS... I'm also so bad at assigning songs to characters that aren't my OCs... ig Sweet Magic by Junky PURELY for all the sweets and desserts and not the actual meaning lmao. Also maybe Ado's Gira Gira?? About his scary demeanor and all. (Also just figured out that the songs don't have to fit them, just remind me of them. These two may not fit but I always think of Juza when I listen to them.) Also Akatsuki Arrival!! Makes me think of Juza and Banri everytime :)

favorite picture of them: This card is the good shit. I have no idea why, I just like his outfit lmaoo

YUKI TIME

favorite thing about them: he's so sassy, and i LOVE his quips

least favorite thing about them: uhhh idk, let people in more?? talk out your problems man idk

favorite line: skip, sorry

brOTP: UGH friendship with muku, first of all. I love those two so much <33 also I love his friendship with Azami and then bonding over their dislike of Sakyo working with like fashion and make up (idk, i've always related those two things closely together). Obviously he's very close to the summer troupe, but i love him hanging out with misumi, kazunari, and kumon just to be their sole braincell

OTP: actually no one?? because i headcanon him as aroace, I don't ship him with anyone. Platonically however, him and muku are very cute <33

nOTP: nothing really, just no weird age stuff (so no one from the winter troupe, and no one in college)

random headcanon: his arm has small, tiny injuries from missing the pincushion, and the pins just stabbing his arm. This only happens when he's REALLY focused and is 'in the zone,' so he doesn't really feel it when it happens.

unpopular opinion: idk, i can't really think of anything? yeah he enjoys wearing skirts and dresses, but only because women's clothing are more fashionable and prettier than men's clothing. He also really enjoys wearing guy stuff if it's really cool or fashionable. he also doesn't really like wearing make up; doesn't like the feeling of it on his face

song i associate with them: Jitterbug I feel fits Yuki really well! Surii's Telecaster B-Boy also fits i think!

favorite picture of them: UGH THIS CARD OF HIM HAS ALWAYS BEEN ONE OF MY FAVORITES, I JUST LOVE HIS CLOTHES i am,,, very weak for traditional clothing,,,

#thanks for the ask!!#ask game #mxddyhero

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hitomiheart · 14 days

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i need to rant abt men in kpop ❤️

first of all i am not a fan of any boy groups and know very little about them in general. thankfully this isn't twitter so i don't think i'll get shit for making a post on my blog with my own opinion butttt just in case ! my intention is not insulting or speaking ill of any boy groups. if i ever did (lmao) it would be because of their music (sorry) and not them as people because, again, i do not know anything about them !

that said:

i'm fairly new to kpop. i got into it in 2021 so there's a lot of ~history~ that i wasn't part of - whether that is fandom dynamics or kpop events etc. so, to my understanding, girl groups weren't always as popular as they are now. and i can fucking tell. there are two main things that annoy me when it comes to people's reactions or behavior towards girl groups: 1. fans making everything about a male idols and 2. men in the industry itself making everything about male idols. i know number 2 is a nuanced situation but i just wanna talk about my personal pov, as what i stated above: new to kpop, gg stan.

1. fans making everything about a male idols: pretty self-explanatory. i consume kpop content mostly through youtube and twitter. it drives me insane the amount of people constantly bringing up boy groups when they are NOT the topic of conversation lmao i know bts are hugeeee as well as their fanbase and i know that is an issue between fandoms but godddd these ppl drive me insane lmfao. i'm mentioning bts bc i know how big they are so it would make sense for them to be brought up by fans more often but it is also the case with other groups that i won't mention bc i already got my point across. given the competitive nature of the entertainment industry this is bound to happen but i can't help but feel like girl groups are constantly being diminished for not being as great or cool as the big boy groups are. one example is a very recent one: it was the first year anniversary of lee chaeyeon's knock, posted by the ggs anniversary acc on twitter which had around 3k likes last time i checked but someone quoted the tweet with a video of chaeyeon dancing with a seventeen member. dino, i think it was. no problem with the video itself obviously, i always look forward to seeing chaeyeon interacting with other idols especially if they are good dancers. point is, this tweet had double the likes the original one lmaooo and people were making chaeyeon's important step in her career about a male idol. i know fans probably don't mean to do this, to intentionally steal the spotlight in this case from chaeyeon but as a fan it just annoys me deeply. i also know people can be multi stans. but still. it's just something that personally throws me off. there is nothing i can do about that except this rant lol. nothing against seventeen btw i think they are very talented and it's one of the groups that i respect and sympathize with!

2. men in the industry: this is a tricky one bc the point i want to get across is based on the hybe game caterers thing lol and as i mentioned before it hasn't been that long since i'm a kpop fan and stan just a few groups so this argument is merely based on a specific situation that bothered me. ok, so. obviously i was watching this youtube series (again) bc i love le sserafim and fromis_9 <3 and it is through these videos that i actually got to know from the bgs and i was like you know what,,,, these gentlemen aren't so bad ! lmao. if you know what videos i'm talking about, you'll remember that the three finalists of the random play dance competition were eunchae, seoyeon and soobin. towards the end of the competition there's a bit where some male idols were gushing over how cute soobin is, how good of a dancer he is, etc etc (which i agree with! adorbs). basically leaving all the compliments for him and barely talking about eunchae and seoyeon lol. and not only that! during the majority of the game all the comments were about yeonjun, because he also knew all the dances. like damn, even with women being 2/3 finalists the attention is still all over soobin? 😭 i do have to mention that i gained hugeee respect for seungkwan, who was hosting along na pd, because everytime this happened he would actively redirect the attention towards the girls, complimenting them. love him. he was funny, witty, respectful. 10/10. now, this is where the nuance comes: i'm aware interactions between men and women in the industry are a touchy subject. idols are careful not to cross any boundaries and whatnot to avoid dating rumours/scandals. but either way the situation over all seemed so unbalanced lol and i'm glad seungkwan came through. a true ally. on the other hand, this a sort of major scale situation, a big event where 2nd, 3rd and 4th generation artists come together, which could be an indicator of this being a common ocurrence. and we do live under a patriarchy after all.

so yeah i think that's all. it's a bit frustrating seeing your favorite women being constantly swept under the rug, even when they are the ones ruling kpop at the moment.

if anyone gets to read this, let me know what you think. have you thought of this before? do you think there's been a positive shift in men's behavior towards women in kpop? can you think of other examples? am i being crazy and need to go outside? i'm open to discussions 🤍

#hopefully i'm not forgetting anything #i know this is very chronically online of me but i am unemployed and emotionally dependent on my girlies #and a raging feminist #and a hater #so.#i mean i don't think anyone's gonna read this anyway 😭😭😭#maybe that's a good thing !#discourse #kpop thoughts #can you tell i have a degree in a humanity field #i hope the bg stans don't find me

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lockedtowers · 20 days

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im supposed to be getting ready for work so heres some run ons

aka brina rambles, also this is not rebloggable for a reason. this is shit ive worked on for ages. across blogs i have deleted and everything. i dont want random ppl rbing it without permission and taking info and i want it set up so if the info is taken it can still be traced back here. esp with how long ive been deciding on names for those courts lmao. they’re not the most ingenius or anything but i still put work into it yknow.

so anyways basically cassies bio dad vas is ofc a full blood fae, and a hybrid of the two main ‘courts’ by wonderland standards bc ofc im going with the basis that is shown both in syfy canon and ouat canon of wonderland denizens have a very different physiology to other realms, Jefferson in ouat remembered everything in his original life and just had the new memories shoved into his head too which drove him upending, i write that into cassie she has her old memories because of her physiology but the new memories didnt really settle in her head at all, so she only has vague understanding of it all. her twin brother has all his old memories but he also has the new ones so he very much so leans into the ‘im gonna fuck around and see what happens cause this is great’ bc hes a clown, but anyways. and yes i play it as jefferson is from wonderland, i write my jeffy on my sideblog, i also write grace, ima do what i want, but abc kept going back and forth with it, they mention his home in ouatiw but then in ouat they imply hes not from there so they didnt give a shit either, i can do what i want

but again main point, there’s no reason why other realms faeries would have the same physiology as wonderland faeries would, and ive played it into threads too before, the general descriptions of cheshire cats generally lean heavily faerie like, cassie is the cheshire while her twin brother is the dormouse, in syfy verse those are more titles than actual being. but shes a faerie she has an animal transformation which makes that also an actual being, and while her title is generally just ‘cat’ to most people, she is aligned with and technically a cheshire cat, she has the grin they associate with cheshires and she often times acts as a sort of guide, but also a very annoying pot stirrer in multiple ways, and a main thing that i play on a lot is how she guides ‘oysters’ aka humans to hatter, which is something people dont bring up a lot. in aaiw the cheshire cat is essentially toying with alice and leading her on to where she should go, and while alice is following the rabbit, the cat is manipulating the system in its own way as well. im actually gonna go buy another crappy edition of aaiw just so i can annoyingly tab it and stuff and im debating a cruddy paper one or a good hardcover— anyways

so like obviously creative liberties here, faeries arent really canon to wonderland at all but like fair folk magical aspects are still present, like the pig turning into a baby and shit, all the wildcarding that happens. creative liberties, its free media now to do whatever the fuck you want. i know many people hate adaptions and im sorry they hate fun im gonna do what i want.

now most commonly people separate fae by seelie and unseelie, or ‘good and bad’ faeries is often how they describe seelie and unseelie. and whilst im sort of doing similar (but giving them new names bc again, wonderland is not the human land, theres no reason that they have to have the same names) im also adding to it, adapting it, etc etc. Even in the separate courts, there are subtypes, but the royal families of each court would have at least a basic gift with all the powers of the subtypes, which is essentially why they’re the ‘royal family’ despite their own powers being so much weaker than an individual only showcasing one subtype of magic. more equals greater, despite the obvious issues with that, more or less.

The two ‘courts’ or ‘good and bad’ as the ‘good’ would have one believe, the current names i have going for them would essentially be translated to Deyreins, the ‘good’, and Bludveils, the ‘bad’ (i still have to fix the spelling on my bios on the sideblog tho lol). Bludveils centuries ago were cursed by the Deyreins to an eternal binding of honesty, which means they have to be truthful in words, but they can use twist the truth through twisting and confusing tales, purposefully manipulating it to sound like something else while theyre still being truthful, and basically just using loopholes to get their way. And the results of that curse is used against them to frame them as massively villainous, cruel, and evil creatures. What the Deyreins did not count on was the Queen of Hearts using this to further her own gain, and villainizing both sides as a way to essentially wipe them out from the face of Wonderland. Those that are left on Wonderlands main plane hide their species, and the rest had to escape to an astral plane to protect themselves from her.

But a large portion already had to escape because of Cassie’s father. Most will only recognize him by one of two names, the White Knight who destroyed the house of black and gave reign to the Reds and Whites, or as the monster, the creature of everyones darkest fears, the creature accused of slaughtering villages for fun and embarking on chaotic destruction for the thrill, The Jabberwock. By all accounts, he is both. His animal transformation is the monster itself and he was always the one taking the head, but never the one given the crown. Which is ironic given his existence is due to a romantic tryst between a noble of the Deyrein court and a royal of the Bludveil court. The twins didn’t get equal parts of the bloodlines the way he did, Cassandra inherited a lot more Bludveil than Deyrein, the curse affects her too, but Mason got almost nothing from it. It’s recessive in his body, but the curse doesn’t act on him. he has nothing to worry about, she does.

They’re only have fae though, the other half is Witch, their mother is the Queen of Spades and an extremely powerful sorceress, and trysts like that are not meant to happen according to the Deyrein courts, they are not supposed to exist. they’re essentially not allowed to because that threatens the order the deyreins built for themselves centuries ago and regularly slaughter bludveils for trying to fight against. no matter which way its sliced or diced, they’re in danger from just about every single point. if their family bloodlines got out, from the hearts for threatening the fact they stole the crown from the rightful heirs, from the deyrein fae for threatening their control over the other plane because its proof they can coexist in ways other than treaties and threats and submission.

and ofc jack is just a bitch whos mad cassie didnt bend the knee to him, is obsessed with her anyways due to her fae magic, and doesnt want his crown threatened that he never earned in the first place. he’ll say otherwise like ph i played my mother and i worked for the resistance, bitch you stole that land you stole that crown get fucked, anyways.

thats all my rambles on that bc funnily enough this was supposed to be about what blood does to cassie lol and i never got there.

#i tried to rewrite it but i can’t | canon #across blogs ive hinted at this for like four years i think now??? just never put it into words #this was in thread hints even before i changed cassies backstory to make her the cat #:)#out.#i want ppl to be able to join in my bullshit but indont want people to steal my bullshit #esp since i didnt have the time to slash words so they woukdbt show up in tags #my headcanons. mine. and my actual canons. still mine #stuff thats not mine idc but stuff i put together and worked for i do care #murder cw #mass murder cw #uhhh idk what else to put

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omegapheromone · 3 months

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Coming here to vent about dating, romance/love, and a bit of misce/omegaverse stuff bc I don't feel like putting any of this on main

I'm having a lot of thoughts about like... dating, especially w being queer and dating, at this age and how impossible it is (dating apps are something that legitimately scares me so I'm like. No way will I ever use those)

But also wondering if maybe I'm just not cut out for it. I've been managing it alone for a good few years now after a really toxic relationship with who was, essentially, a predator, ended, and while it's not a bad thing to be alone, I guess the sad part is seeing all my peers enjoy happy long-term relationships where they have the unconditional support and affection of someone at all times

I guess what I'm trying to explain is, I feel really starved for romance and affection and honestly? Over anything else? Just someone I can TRUST. Feel safe around. And so on. Like... having a person represent a "home", considering I never feel at home anywhere.

Of course, there's also the omegaverse/misce stuff. It's secondary to me and not a necessary consideration for a romantic relationship, but I also just worry it'll be seen as a weird kink or something. Just one more thing in the pile of things that make me "too much to deal with" for most, I suppose. In an ideal world I'd meet someone who already knows of it and potentially identifies as alpha, too (though it's not like I'm picky lmao) but ultimately that doesn't mattet.

And perhaps it's my own stubbornness about refusing to use stuff like dating apps. Then again, I don't even know which ones the queer folk where I live use, AND I don't want to have to deal with the fear of opening up once again only to witness the other person struggle with the realization of how much trauma I have and how much of it I'm STILL only unpacking, and getting scared and just leaving because they don't want to deal with a broken thing. I'm not asking anyone to fix me, actually I'd rather do it myself anyway, but it's a bit disheartening to see how overwhelming even just a fraction of my issues can be to some people. This is not a bad thing- people have different tolerances for things and that includes hardship. Having to hear about some of the things I've been through and seeing the damage I'm still trying to mend could be extremely distressing and upsetting to some people solely because they're empathizing with it, and I don't want my pain to hurt anyone else

Again, it's all fine, I'm just rambling here obviously. Need to let these 4am thoughts out somewhere so I can maybe put it into better words and then later talk about it with the irl people that might care.

It just gets a bit lonely and especially, hopeless, I guess. Maybe life will always happen around me while I stay stagnant?

Also I'm falling asleep while typing

#gamietxt

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what-the-fuck-khr · 1 year

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Hi!

I am not a doctor, but I am concerned with what you described about the skin XD I have seen this skin thing before for 2 reasons ( I don't Mean to make you panic, is just info, so if you get anxious or paranoid about things do not read further.) :

1)What you just described that happens to your skin, sounds like an oxygen problem.

Usually when the lips and fingers get purple-ish it means the body is not receiving enough O2.

This happens with me when I have a hard time breathing, but its not quite an attack yet is just kinda ??? - I have asthma.

It also happens when I breath something I am allergic to like wall paint, then again, it's a breathing issue.

2) with blood pressure issues. My mom had very high blood pressure and whenever it gets wonky she gets purple too.

I am no doctor, so I really don't know XD it's what it sounds like! And you are not alone about being purple or red sometimes XD

I heard lack of vitamin D makes red spots appears, it may also be vitamin related?

Oh right, I only found out I had asthma as an adult ( I almost died ) but I did get purple like you before I knew. As i never felt ill I just brushed it of, like meh. Must be nothing. Well, don't do that XD

Don't overwork yourself! Be careful and make sure to see a doctor soon!

I am sorry if I caused you to panic or give anxiety. It was snot the intention it's just information purpose.

hi anon!!! thank you for dropping by; I’ve left this for probably much longer than I should have but with insistence from my sister I’ll be trying to make an appointment soon to bring it up with them

I didn’t know vitamin d could be a cause (since I have it, but again I’ve had low vitamin d almost my whole life so I’ve never bothered checking) honestly I’m not confident in being able to tell the cause for it though, bc I’m never able to check my blood pressure obviously, and as far as I’m aware my breathing is pretty regular (I only get out of breath bc tbh I’m kind of unfit lmfao and I struggle to exercise bc I’ve got bad knees lol), but other than that… hm 🤔

I’ll definitely make sure to check on it though, so thank you for the concern anon!! I hope it’s nothing too serious bc it’s been like this for a few years lmao. but during that I’ve gotten things like ultrasound, heart related tests bc of my dad, and any blood tests only ever shows low vitamin d as far as I’m aware so I don’t think there’s anything wrong with me…? but who knows lol. this all only happens to me very late though; I’m talkin’ about 11pm and to whenever I go to bed and sleep, bc when I wake up I’m fine and it never happens. so it’s never an issue during the day. guess I’ll have to wait and find out jdjdkck

#thanks again for the worry though anon!!!#I’ll definitely make sure to get it checked out lol #ask #lovely anon #ooc

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piplupod · 1 year

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do u have any advice for someone with dissociative ptsd who’s like 80% sure he’s multiple. i honestly don’t know what to do because i keep trying to explore and learning absolutely nothing about what’s in my brain if u know what i mean. sorry this is kind of out of the blue

im going to do my best to keep this as concise as possible bc i am so prone to ramble fjdskl but i’d like to help if i can and i know long chunks of text are unappealing

first thing is obviously the disclaimer of i am not a mental health professional or professional anything, i’m just a mentally ill disordered traumatised person/system, so take whatever i say with a grain of salt and also keep yourself safe, find professional help, etc. use your discretion when it comes to what we're saying here.

very brief rundown of my own experiences of system discovery: i looked into IFS therapy, things started clicking in the way of More than just IFS, a situation happened with a friend as witness where it was basically undeniable that we’re a system, and things just sort of kept getting explored and shoved into the light after that (turns out we had actually been looking into all of this stuff when we were 16/17 but had completely forgotten about it despite making several notes and messaging a couple people asking questions… good ol’ amnesia sdjfkl). so that’s the short version of our/my experience figuring this shit out in case that does anything to help.

so! with that out of the way, here’s what I’ve got for you! first off is to take it slow and don’t force anything (extremely frustrating advice, i am well aware fjsdkl), that’ll just make things more difficult and potentially cause you more issues. be gentle with yourself, and make sure you have a solid support system and that you’re in a safe situation before delving into anything. be cautious as you continue, and be open (and welcoming) if you do find any parts/alters/etc sharing the brain.

i feel like there is a good possibility that whatever you’re trying to figure out right now is either not meant for you at this moment in time or that (if you do have DID/OSDD) a gatekeeper doesn’t feel you’re ready for whatever it is. in that case, go at your own discretion ofc but just be extra cautious and maybe leave it to rest for now until things feel a bit more open and available (and obviously once again seek professional help if that’s available to you).

personally if i ever push to find something and i’m left drawing a blank, that’s always been our gatekeeper blocking me off from finding something. trauma is tricky to navigate, it’s easy to push too hard and end up in a worse spot than you were in before. but i absolutely understand the desire to know and understand what’s going on with the brain!

i think my only other piece of potential advice is maybe engage with systems/pwOSDDID online (or irl if thats available) and delve into some (more) research. educate yourself as much as you can about the experiences of having this osdd-1/did and about the medical terminology and research (i’ve got a google docs folder of some biographies and research papers if you’re interested). if you can’t know about your own personal experiences, it might still help to get to know about the experiences from a medical standpoint and from other people’s perspectives. and that may help you find more, as you may find you relate to things people are saying or feel something resonate with you and it’ll give you more leads (or perhaps lead you in the other direction, that you don’t have the disorder and it’s something else). if there’s a gatekeeper or protector etc blocking you off from figuring things out, doing this sort of research and engaging with systems/pwOSDDID might help them feel like you’re more ready for that sort of self discovery.

{Note from Nine: I tried to edit Juno's response down as much as possible lmao but it's difficult to get it any shorter than this. Quick POV from a non-host alter: if you do have DID/OSDD and your system-mates don't want you to know, there's probably a reason for that. It doesn't mean you CAN'T figure it out, but just be careful with it. We're obviously somewhat glad we know now so that we don't feel fucking insane, but it's really fucking hard to come to terms with and has caused us a shit ton of issues (and we often still struggle with denial). I'd honestly hesitate to do what Juno said in the last paragraph, but just like... go at your own pace lmao, use your own discretion. Don't get yourself in a bad place with this shit. Take it slow, make sure you're safe, don't push anything that will only end up hurting you more.}

#I don't entirely know how I feel about this but I'm trusting you to keep yourself safe lmao.#nine speaks #(as well as juno lol but they dont' have a specific talking tag for here)#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #asked and answered

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