#also why the fuck did this explode

[theboxfort]

[Image Description: A white text box: "Accounts created after May 8th, 2023 have the 'For You' tab as the default dashboard tab. Other existing users' dashboard tabs are not changed. We are also working on making dashboard tabs even more customizable, including adding the ability to choose which tab appears first." End ID.]

From the latest update (June 2nd, 2023)

Oh, fuck this. If you're a new user, don't forget to set your dashboard to Following and turn "Based on your likes" and "Best stuff first" off

EDIT: A few corrections

For new users, you can't change the default back to Following. This means that whenever you open up your app/go to your dash, the first tab you'll see is the For You tab

Note for the previous point, I can't confirm this since my account is rather old, if anybody has an examples, I'd appreciate it

Yes, some people mentioned that you don't have to turn off Based on your likes and Best stuff first, but that's mostly my preference since (to me at least) it does not work, it just shows me random shit that is absolutely not based on my likes

My main problem with this update is that it strips the user from being able to choose what they wanted to see. It's totally cool if you use the For You tab, but it shouldn't be the default option

Additional points from the tags and reblogs:

You can turn off public likes and followings, again, not mandatory, but it's an option

Make sure to turn off Tumblr Live (pretty sure it's only available to US users, which I am not one) since it apparently drains mobile data

There are (browser) addons and extensions that allows you to block elements or make your tumblr experience better, like uBlock Origin (an adblocker which can be used to block certain elements from showing up) and the XKit Control Panel/New XKit

#pink posts #what the fuck is this update hello??? #one week later edit: yeah a few corrections #also why the fuck did this explode

[thesaltwateremu]

with less than 24 HOURS until protocol, here are my final hopes/predictions/general ramblings

First off, jmart. Jmart my beloveds. My babygirls. I need them ALIVE AND WELL AND HAPPY, but you know I’ll take what I can get. Ideally it’s our jmart not an alternate universe jmart, but again. ILL TAKE WHAT I CAN GET. And if there’s no jmart, I’ll be sad but I’m sure I’ll get over it as I get unreasonably attached to new characters (that’s a lie. I listened to the finale like 9 months ago and I’m still not over it. I understand that having them in protocol would kinda undermine the whole ambiguous ending they had going on, but you know. I need them to be ok. Also, if they’re not in protocol I’m very curious who’s voice was in the announcement audio thing if it wasn’t martins)

Secondly, Agnes montague. Agnes my love. My darling. If you have seen my previous post with my “how Agnes montague can still win” theory you know where this is going, but anyways the theory is that protocol will be desolation focused and will have Agnes in it. I go more into detail in the post. (Also, this wasn’t in the original post, but I noticed that there’s embers in the promotional material, so more fuel for my ridiculous fire baby)

Next, I would like Gwendolyn Bouchard to bpm (brutal pipe murder) someone. I’m sorry, I don’t even know her, but I need it. It would be funny

Finally, a happy ending. I know this is completely unrealistic, and almost definitely won’t happen, but that’s not going to stop me from hoping. (Jonny and Alex if you’re reading this, shut up stop laughing I know they all probably die or something, just let me HOPE)

#ngl kinda expected this to be longer #my brain sorta went jmart agnes end thought #I’m so fucking excited for protocol #I keep thinking it’s thursday and then it’s not aaaaaa #Protocol has been my only motivation to do my homework #I’ve decided that if I get enough done I can clear my schedule for tomorrow and just process everything #also did you know were getting TWO EPISODES?? WHY DID KNOW ONE TELL ME??? I FOUND OUT ABOUT TBIS YESTERDYA #i’m exploding #tma #tmp #the magnus archives #the magnus protocol #magpod #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #agnes montague #tma theory #i guess?? #tmagp

[snekdood]

"if we make america worse and more of a dictatorship that will be even harder to unravel and make it the way we want the country to be, maybe then everyone will join our Glorious Revolution!" bb girl you cant even be in the same room with someone who thinks you should vote, how in tf do you think you're gonna unite people to fight in The Revolution with you? it's gonna be you and your 5 friends, i hate to break it to you.

#i dont think you realize how repelling you and your politics are to everyone else #you get all of your validation for how Smart You Are from your friends and ignore any kind of feedback that suggests you should #change or do something differently. thats the only reason you're so convinced average people will go along with you bc you keep getting #affirmation from the people who ALREADY agree with you- but you have NO IDEA how to bridge the gap between people who agree #with you and disagree with you. you're horrible at convincing people of your side of things outside of straight up guilt tripping them #or bullying them like a highschooler. im sorry but the tools you learned to survive with as a kid aren't gonna help you in this situation. #the ONLY THING you can come up with to bridge that gap is a bloody revolution. thats how bad you are at this. #and you're also so bad at this and unimaginative that you dont even realize how THAT might not even be enough. #you cant imagine ANY kind of avenue to getting people to change AT ALL outside of blood and fire. and thats why people call you #an authoritarian. #i'll be honest- i really do think the world would be a better place if we did incremental change under a democratic president who wont #set the world on fire vs the godkingemperor republican WHO WONT EVEN LISTEN TO YOU AT ALL EVER AND MIGHT KILL YOU #FOR PUTTING UP A STINK. idk if you noticed but if that evil fuck gets into office we are severely outnumbered if he gets police #n shit to go after his own citizens. letting trump win is making this battle so much harder than it needs to be. #you are choosing trying to fix the world while its exploding vs trying to fix it before it explodes at all. #what is this like a procrastination thing? you wanna wait till the last minute to try? idfgi. wtf is wrong with you #throwing minority lives away to prove a point. and then you try to tell me you care. gtfoh. #accelerationists should never be taken seriously.

[baeshijima]

it is now officially the 25th which means...

merry christmas everyone !!! regardless of whether u celebrate or not, i hope u all have a lovely day with whoever u spend it with or with urself <33

#sophie's idle chatter #this is scheduled so im HOPING it posts at 12 am.... prays.... #i havent been super active in the past month or two bc life is kicking my ass (<- has said this countless times already but its still true) #also !! i see asks and ill try and answer them when i actually have the time and energy 😭 ik i say this a lot but ive been drained good god #(not so) mini life updates : #the new lovebrush chronicles main story update has made me weep so much... ive done both clarence and ayns routes and.... #my god.... this story is darker and honestly im loving it AND i love how they did the chara roles in this world (alkaid... ourgh...) #my tear glands arent tho bc ayn ending 3.... what the fuck was that i couldnt sleep after doing that ending??? ITS WAS SO SAD AND FOR WHATF #currently having to wait until the 27th so i can do lars route 😔 #the recent ep of apothecary diaries.... ourgh my heart.... jinshi and maomao beloveds :(( #oh !! and ive gotten back into my ace of diamonds/daiya no ace phase and have been rewatching the series... #sobbing chris and yuki and miyuki my beloveds.... kissing ur foreheads and holding u gently..... #the way i got back into it bc im catching up on s2 of a clean sweep (a korean baseball variety show that i love with all my heart ;w;) #my mum is a traitor tho bc she watched every new ep that came out on tuesdays while i was in uni 🧍‍♀️ so now im catching up on the 30 eps #on my own 🧍‍♀️ #OMG AND ALSO DR STONE S3??? WHY WAS I NOT NOTIFIED THAT PART 1 CAME OUT MONTHS AGO AND PART 2 WAS MORE RECENT??? #i havent been doing that much writing recently tho bc the fingers wont type but the brain is exploding with ideas i cannot handle this #i do want to get back to the haitham sxf series tho.... and also my oc various x reader series....... #tbh ive been contemplating abt publishing the haitham series on ao3 once i write more chapters before publishing them #idk i feel like the series would be nice to have on ao3 as well as tumblr JHDG #thats abt it i think? #anywho if u read this far then know i am giving u a warm cookie as a condolence prize for getting through this life dump <33 #ill leave it off here but i hope u all have a lovely day !! mwah mwah merry chrysler everyone 🎄🫶 #queue... ueueue

[grimalkinmessor]

Yes Reigen becoming Hanazawa's new parental figure and essentially adopting him but only post-s3 finale to make it clear that he's filling a Mob-shaped hole and only if Mob gets super jealous and guilty and weird about it 🥰

#mobreimob #mobrei #reimob #hanazawa starts living with reigen and when mob finds out he fucking. hates it #like hes happy for hanazawa bc he seems much happier but also why did HANAZAWA get to see his shishou's living space before him #mob would know that he's being irrational and that reigen and teruki look far more like father and son than anything else but it would CHAFE #and reigen. reigen is missing mob and trying to let him go since he doesnt need him anymore and. well. #hanazawa needs someone #he doesnt need REIGEN specifically but he likes reigen and reigen is an adult willing to help #hes already gone up against claw and he knows how to deal with espers #he doesn't mind teruki being a little arrogant and haughty bc reigen himself is arrogant and haughty sometimes lmao #they get along really well #mob almost explodes when he comes by one day to hear dimple saying something about how reigen finally found an esper that wants him around #bC HE WANTS REIGEN AROUND. HE WAS HERE FIRST DAMMIT. FINGERS TWITCHING FOR AN EXORCISM EKUBO #mob psycho 100 #hanazawa teruki #reigen arataka #kageyama shigeo #mob #mob is vibrating with how jumbled up he is #he sees hanazawa and reigen having ramen at THEIR usual place and every firs hydrant on the block explodes #momataka #just for teruki tho

[withdenim]

I am going to redesign all of the Camp Cretaceous kids teenage versions. They were at best Odd and at worst Ben /LH

Starting with the number one most chilling of them all, I have redesigned 17-ish year old Ben to not strike fear into my heart.

#he rolls his sleeves up intentionally bc he wants to look cool #any kid that exploded shit as much as Ben Fitzgerald Pincus NEEDS hearing aids that’s my opinion #also i headcanon Ben fucked up his wrist when he landed from the pteranadon ordeal #he was wearing a wrist brace for four seasons TO ME #and he continues to #Mae is his mom. I don’t take criticism #he couldnt grow more facial hair if he tried. this is what he’s cultivated over YEARS #dear god get him out of that stupid fucking red shirt #why did his eyes turn brown also like I Kept that bc I like Ben with brown eyes but Why #ben pincus #Ben Fitzgerald Pincus #jwcc ben #jwcc #jwcc Ben Pincus #jurassic world camp cretaceous #camp cretaceous

[running-in-the-dark]

and I'm having thoughts again

so I've been watching that John Larroquette interview that I reblogged on repeat for half an hour now and I'm just. man I am so very....... okay I'm trying not to say that I'm stupid anymore but god what else is there to say. it's making me feel like my brain just turns off and all there is is static and [insert very high frequency screaming sound].

like I would love to be able to have actual thoughts about this shit but I am not. I just love love love people who think about shit and face their issues and work on getting better. and talk about it. like it's just a thing that happened. because it is. it's not 'oh you did bad shit in your past so you're fucked forever now'. it's 'bad shit happened, I did bad things, I confronted it, I made different choices' and that's it. I just. man I'm feeling really emotional and am probably gonna have a good long cry about this now.

#one thought that I had when my brain stopped just loudly screaming at me was #oh I totally always think I wouldn't ever end up in a cult. because it's not something that would appeal to me and shit. I'm suspicious of #anything like that. one person claiming to know everything and all that #and it just hit me like. DUDE. you would absolutely 100% end up in a cult if the right guy was leading it #like if he had a cult that I could join right now? oh dude I'd be so in. kinda joking but also like. come on I am so fucking obsessive I #would absolutely fall for that #(and lets not even get into the whole thing of actually getting attention from the person I'd be obsessed with. oh it'd be bad. it'd fuck #me up. I'd be so easy to convince if we're being honest....) #but anyway I just. I don't know #honestly though? I just love studying one person at a time from afar like. hi I would immediately explode if I ever met this man I could not #handle it. but I can absolutely find out everything I can about him and study him like. something that normal people would study idk I'm #insane. #anyway man that was a weird tangent #true tho. #I don't want to make light of actual addictions like alcoholism. I'm not. addicted I guess. but I'm absolutely fucking obsessive about shit #and I absolutely know it cannot be healthy to keep doing this #like dude you have no life because all you do is watch other people live theirs. why am I studying this man's life like it matters. it's not #making anything better. knowing every damn thing he did in the 80s will not make up for the fact that I don't have. anything. #fuck now I'm really crying oh well this really took a weird turn #fuuuuck. #personal

[fellhellion]

90s run PAD has this rlly annoying trend where he very often write a female character being in love w miguel and suddenly her entire character shrinks down to the scope of what drama this provokes and it's near continually in service to the narratives of men (Gabriel and Miguel interpersonal drama for example). even when there are actually interesting things to be mined from this angle like w lyla its like. this is a pattern w you dude.

#my GOD we lost kasey nash in the wars skdfhjkdshfkjs #like. it sucked. the fact she goes from a revolutionary to primarily a wedge between gabri and miguel SUCKS. #for some reason its like folks pretend PAD also literally wasnt writing the kronom arc where character assasination is happening #left and right to prop up dana as a martry. when like he was literally just writing that. #like im sorry i love the 90s run too and i have a lot of sympathy for the strain the team wouldve been under while corp bullshit was #exploding above their heads but like. the fact PAD appears to like. just not be fucking bothered to explain what #danas thought processes are flipping from one belief to a wildly opposing one is just bad and tbh LAZY writing #and this is happening dozens of issues before the worst irl circumstances for the team even cropped up #tunes talks critical #can u tell im on my period lmao #tunes talks 2099 #like even regarding xina. i think she escapes the worst of this writing treatment from PAD but like. the fact that the dimension PRIMARILY #explored in the text w her is around her relationship w miguel is honestly really disappointing. i LIKE that dimension yes but there is so #much more to explore with her! does she have friends outside of miguel (and if not does this tie into her apparent isolation from alchemax) #how does xina operate as a relatively independant and implied self employed individual in this world of corp monopolies #she CARES about the truth and fighting back against false narratives spun to consolidate power and profit so how does this extend into her #normal life? does she know about downtown when education wise this seems to be something utterly ommitted? what does she think about it? #what kind of hope did she hold regarding angela's work? #if she believes miguel to still work at alchemax why is this not a point of conflict between them? does she fear losing him? did she give #up trying? etc etc etc there are SO many compelling dimensions to explore w her and the text keeps them #largely sublimated to background details in the art. or what we can interpret as sublimated conflicts the characters dont want to address #but in terms of what is in the TEXT i want more. i want more as someone who really loves this fucking thing lmao

[chokehoe]

Sobbing somebody save me from alnst

#alien stage #alnst till #alnst #alnst mizi #i can’t take it anymore #these gays are making me depressed #where is sua?? #why’d they kill her so soon #why is Ivan now dead to #these aliens are homophobic as shit #the only time I’ve seen this many gays kicking the bucket was with toji from jjk #they need to put the jjk mangá down these aliens got to many ideas from toji #what do you mean the bullets make peoples heads explode?! #that’s fucking sick!! #why do you need that?! #also they clearly didn’t hit Ivan with them #if they did the man would’ve exploded #he would have been looking like gojo from chapter 236 #would’ve broke like a dam Kit Kat😭 #son of a bitch someone save me from these tragic gays #does till even like Ivan back?!?!? #like how does till feel about this?? #man is going through one of Hercules trials I swear #till don’t worry baby I’ll save you!! #I don’t know how but I will!! #also mizu are u ok? #that was a dumb question of course your not #aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #also Ivan calling his love shallow aaaahhhh #LET ME OUT!!!!!!!

[steakout-05]

hey g uys yesterday i got this weirdo radfem-y person following my blog yesterday (for some reason???? i think they misread my dni as an int list), so i'm making this post to reiterate that TERFs, radfems and gender crits are NOT welcome on my blog and they will immediately be blasted to the shadow realm as soon as i see them interacting with me or my posts. this blog is meant to be my silly little safe place to shitpost and i will not tolerate bigotry towards anyone anywhere on this blog.

#terfs fuck off #seriously your bigotry and hatred are not welcome here. shoo. begone. #terfs and radfems permanently deactivate your blogs right now get out of my house #also i'm a trans man so why did they even follow me???? they'd probably hate me just for being a guy already i'm so confused #and this is also a barry steakfries blog why are radfems following me help #technically a vent #i dunno man i'm just sorta pissed and bewildered that this even happened #apparently SOME people don't bother to read things before they follow........ #so here's to say that if you hate ANYONE based off their sex or gender or skin or neurotype you are NOT welcome on my blog #also transmeds can fuck off too #this has been a public service announcement thank you for reading #sorry if this post is kinda angry sounding or negative #i just hate terfs so so so much i wish they would explode

[whatyoutaughtwasfear]

did we know that the qsmp eggs were failed bird hybrid experiments? bc that feels huge and i havent seen anybody talking about it

#(not fit fans anyway) #its not explicitly stated but. #'surplus of cats from a failed experiment' -> 'instead of incineration' -> 'residents will be taking care of them' #surplus of eggs -> a1 being burnt to death -> residents taking care of them #also madagios a fuckin hypocrite? #'make no attachments' but LOOKS AFTER ALL THE FAILURE CATS!! GET FUCKED!! #ALSO WAS MADAGIO A FED WORKER IF ALL HIS FRIENDS WERE FED WORKERS?? #why did they even want energy #and why did they save the islanders when og quesedilla exploded but not the people on vacuus? what even HAPPENED to the people on vacuus? #if its an atmosphere issue then how is madagio alive? #are they the failed cats? are they the CURRENT cats? #much 2 think on [finger tents] #also @ fitmc why is madagios text box pink. why does it not match his colour scheme. what went into that decision. #lauratexts2024

[hauntingblue]

BACK TO ONE PIECE LETSGOOOOO

#nami put luffy in a cage.... dont let sanji see that.... again nami demonstrating how she is the strongest ever..... #why is franky the boat akshaksjskqjqk ROBIN NEARLY 1000 MILLION YEAAAAAHHHHH #sanji exploded </3 rip the smoking got to him..... luffys snapshot in the cage beaten up akdhsksjsk #jinbes theme is a banger.... buggy lmaoo chacho means president??? that is so funny... CHACHOOOO!!! also buggy owning croc money... banger #these two divas sitting cross legged on the couch bullying buggy.... ajhdkajsa buggys bounty akdhsksjsks #this whole episode was so funny lmao buggy.... #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1086 #luffy wanted yamato to join the crew omg....... i mean of course but he was maaaad.... i kew yamato was a nakama for sure #marco telling luffy ace would be proud of him and smiling.... didnt that happen before and he got sad??? development #SERAPHIM?? THE NEW PACIFISTAS?? why tf does she look like hancock??? OMG MARGARET!!! FUCKING BLACKBEARD??? IN AMAZON LILY??? #baby angel mihawk too??? what is this.... KILL BLACKBEARD YES!!!! THROW HIM INTO THE SEA!!! LET THE SEA RECLAIM HIM!!! #so pretty sure what garp was talking about were the seraphim pacifistas..... just keep making things worse old man sure #koby is gay confirmed see.... helmeppo got got... the downsides of being bisexual... #BLACKBEARD GOT HER!!! GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF HER!!!! #episode 1087 #hancock lying on rayleighs legs omg... those are her parents ALSO SHAKKY EX KUJA CAPTAIN AND EX EX EMPERESS??? RAYLEIGH????? #why does amazon lily have a giant portrait of luffy on the palace facade akdhaksjaka i mean i DO know why..... #who tf is wang zhi and what did koby do.... and blackbeard is NASTY!!!! RAYLEIGH GET HIM!!! this reminds me of shanks in marineford... a lo #koby kidnapped by blackbeard?? omg kuma....... he is alright.... why the cherry blossom petals in between them ajdjsksjwk #see how sabo is alive.... but why does koala have blue eyes and orange hair now.... luffy having a crisis #i was thinking is carobou om that fucking barrel and YES why us brook crying akdhsk what do you know #zoro using luffy's words against him.... but i dont think ace is a good example of this.... zoro and sanji fighting about who is on top.... #luffy asking robin for news.... BUT ROBIN I WANT TO KNOW!!!! omg this ending???? WHAT DID LUFFY SAY???? that was beautiful............. #he said he wants to give everyone freedom i know it... and he needs to be pirate king for that.... he knew since he was a child..... #omg....... the one piece is freedom for everyone and for some reason roger couldnt do it he wanted his son to do it..... #back on my theories grind.... #episode 1088 #LUFFY!!!! THE MAN THAT YOU ARE!!!!

[randomwriteronline]

One day, when Irida was little, the Freak went out and didn't come back.

He was sitting all jittery yet still in a corner of the hut, looking into the floorboards with his hands rasping his knees; then he stood, said nothing, went to the door, and left.

Irida did not think much of it: when one wants space, one seeks it - and that's that. But that had happened in the morning, and she had passed lunch and the first half of the afternoon, and the Freak still wasn't back, and now it looked like the Bird of the Storm was going to start a fuss of frigid winds and snow, and so she went outside to Avalugg's legacy, to see what had become of that weird thing.

She spotted his footprints in the white and began following them, jumping into them for fun when simply walking by them started getting boring. Then at one point she heard something behind her, and turned: the Freak was walking over to her, arms folded on his chest to scare off the cold, feet slotting perfectly in the imprints of his shoes - she didn't know it yet, but he had been walking in hexagons for hours.

"Hello," she cried out to him.

"Please," he shouted back as he approached faster and faster with his stiff gait, "Remove yourself from the tracks before you get hurt."

"The Bird of the Storm is going to make a big fuss soon," she replied as she stood her ground fearlessly - certainly he would have swerved away from her, and if he didn't then she would have stopped him right there: "You should come back to the settlement."

"Please, remove yourself from the tracks," he only repeated. Irida noticed that he wasn't looking at her, that he was gritting his teeth like a Snorunt, and that he sounded angry.

When he finally arrived up to her, the Freak did not stop. As a matter of fact he trampled her and kept stomping into his own footprints without so much as sparing her a glance, not even grimacing when she shrieked or turning around when she threw a snowball at the back of his head, making him shiver and stumble.

Irida showed him her tongue and threw more snow at him, furious. Then she ran, because he was very quick and she had short legs that weren't as fast, and he was walking right into the coming storm.

"You'll freeze to death, Freak!" she yelled as he closed in his own shoulders: "Teacher will find you in a block of ice, like the waterfall!"

"Return to the station," he yelled back at her without facing her, "It's dangerous out here."

"It's dangerous for you too!"

"Return to the station!"

"You need to come back with me! You're running into the storm!"

"Return to the station! Leave me be!"

"I'm not going until you come back with me!"

"Leave me be!"

"You need to come back!"

"Leave me be!"

"Come back!!"

And at that the Freak screamed.

He screamed so loud and strong that she fell back on her bum for the fright and the coming snow held itself up in the air for a moment, as if even the Bird of the Storm had been taken aback; then his cold hands, all white and red, started scratching at his face and neck and hair in a frenzy like he was trying to rip himself to shreds, clawing right into his mouth to either dislocate his jaw or bite his fingers off, and he screamed and screamed and screamed so angrily --

So Irida ran away from the storm and from the howling Freak.

Big Sister Lina saw her when she came back home, scared and jittery and crying, and asked her what was wrong.

"The Freak went out in the storm," Irida sobbed, "He went out this morning and before the storm I went to see where he was, and he screamed at me, and I think there's a Fox in his head now!"

"Calm down," Big Sister Lina said, combing through her hair while she cried, "Why would there be a Fox in his head?"

"Because he was so angry! And his hands were all red and he scratched all over his face, and he didn't want to come back and now he's out there in the storm!"

Then he's dead by now, Big Sister Lina thought but did not say, because Irida would have just cried harder: "Then we must wait for the storm to end, and then we will tell your teacher and we will see what to do."

Teacher came back all covered in snow, so the storm was still going strong even after all that time.

"He's a fool to think he could walk through that with how scrawny and unprepared he is," he said solemnly, very much not happy. "But we can't look for him now: the Bird is right above us and more furious than ever. I will go look for him once it quiets down a little, and it's less dangerous."

The storm howled the whole night, and began stopping only when the sun began inching again at the center of the sky.

Irida knew Teacher would be going soon, so she prepared herself to go with him; but as she was going for his hut Little Lian approached her, stumbling around in his boots because he was still small and unsteady.

"I wanna see the Freak," he sentenced.

"The Freak went out in the storm yesterday," she told him: "Teacher and I will go look for him now."

"But I wanna see the Freak."

"You'll see him when we find him."

"And where is he?"

"Out there."

"There where?"

"We don't know. That's why we're going to look for him."

"I'm coming then."

"No you're not, you're too little."

"But I wanna see the Freak!"

"You're too little! When we find him, you will see him!"

"I do not remember saying you would come with me," Teacher said at that moment, closing the door to his hut.

Irida still ended up getting her way and coming with him, because Teacher loved her very much and could not tell her no, and she would have been safe and trained anyways; Little Lian got his way and came along too, because otherwise he would have made a scene that would have gone on for days and days and days, and Irida didn't want to be blamed for that - even if it meant she would have to carry him on her shoulders half the way through because he got tired.

They searched all throughout the Icelands. They storm had cancelled any footprints, and there were mounds of fresh snow where even Teacher would sink in up to his knees: they searched those too, just in case the Freak was curled up inside one, all frozen blue. But they didn’t find him in any of them.

“Last that you saw him, where was he oriented?” Teacher asked.

Irida thought about it and looked around. He finger stuck out right in the point she had last seen the Freak: “He was facing that way,” she answered.

“And when you found him, where was he?”

She pointed again: “Behind me,” she replied, “And he was walking in his bootprints. I know because I was walking in them too, and when he came up to me he walked all over me.”

“Liar,” said Little Lian: “The Freak is nice.”

“Well, he wasn’t nice at all! Because the Fox was in his head!”

“If that is the case, you two will have to be careful,” Teacher interrupted them with a very serious voice: “Foxes are very dangerous. Even when they are only in people’s heads.”

The last place they had not explored was the Snowpoint Temple: it did not seem like a place the Freak would go to, considering where Irida has remembered he was walking towards, but they had checked everywhere else and even asked Lord Avalugg, and he was still nowhere to be found; and the Southern Giant offered hospitality and safety from storms to all travelers who walked into its house; so it was no harm to visit it too.

It was cold inside. The Bronzongs made low ringing noises, like heavy bells; Little Lian insisted to be put back down on the ground and stared to the side insistently, pushing his lip around with his thumb.

“Stay close now,” Teacher warned them.

Irida held his hand tight, and grabbed Little Lian’s too so he wouldn’t get lost. She got tired of it quickly though, before they had even reached the stairs, because the smaller kid refused to walk and her arm was getting sore from having to keep dragging him across the floor.

She turned to him hissing angrily: “Are you going to walk or no?”

Little Lian looked at her and stayed silent: she pulled him by the arm, getting a low reprimand from Teacher for her bossiness, but the child turned back around, staring into a corner.

“What are you looking at!” she hissed again, “What’s so interesting?”

Little Lian raised his finger from his mouth and pointed: “He’s there.”

It was so dark and murky, it really wasn’t any surprise that they had missed the coat when they had looked briefly into the dark and murky corners by the entrance of the temple. The Freak was all curled up on himself with his face hidden completely in the tall black collar under his big black hat; he did not look comfortable, or as if he were moving at all - although they did see he was trembling once they got close enough (the children behind Teacher, just in case), so he was still alive, which was nice to know.

“Hello,” Little Lian said.

Something weak and not at all sounding like the Freak hissed back, and that same something skittered a bit and wriggled beneath the coat.

“Are you alright?” Irida managed to ask.

The Freak’s voice was hoarse like that of someone who had been crying for hours: “Leave me be,” he just muttered.

“Is that the thing to say to someone who’s scowered the Icelands looking for you after you went missing in a snowstorm?” Teacher reprimanded him, in the way he would reprimand Irida for not being polite.

The something in the coat chittered back, piqued; the Freak closed in on himself.

“Come now.” Teacher ordered. “We’re going back to the settlement.”

“No.”

“Come now, I said.”

“No.”

“Don’t act so despondent. Get up. The Sun is sinking and it will be much colder to stay here than in a hut.”

“I don’t want to.”

Irida would always find that such a surreal, scary thing to have witnessed. It was not at all a horrid vision in the real sense of the word, nor did it make her shiver in the way a ghost story would; but the Freak had never behaved like that before. He had been polite and loud and confused: but seeing his big long body all curled up like that, speaking with a voice so weak and words that sounded right out of her own mouth when Old Calaba would tell her to go foraging with her, it made him look like the image of a kid reflected by a pane of deforming ice that made him look far too big. Just like his furious scream as he tore himself to shreds, this was not how the Freak was: and it scared her awfully with a type of strange immoble fear that sat in her legs and made them cold.

A little pink head poke out of the dark fabric: a little Gligar showed them its tongue and clicked it angrily, telling them to get lost. The Freak buried his nose against its scrawny little pink back to hide behind it.

Teacher’s eyes fell on the hand all red from the chill wrapped around the little pink body, on the blood under the nails: “What is with you?” he asked cautiously.

The Freak shook his head.

“Something must be wrong for you to act like this. You might be ill.”

“Leave me be.” then, after a moment, very quietly: “Please.”

The Gligar rasped.

“No can do,” Teacher replied. “Come on now, get up, Freak. We’ll get something to make you feel better.”

“My name is Ingo,” the Freak replied with that voice that wasn’t his.

Irida trembled a little.

It struck her that he had told her already, but nobody had ever called him that as far as she could remember; and that he had never corrected anyone before when they had called him the Freak.

Teacher must have realized that too, because he was honest when he talked: “You’re right. I’m sorry, Ingo.”

“My name is Ingo,” the man repeated. “I want to go home.”

“Where is it?” asked Little Lian.

He wanted to be helpful. Maybe, if it was close enough, they could have walked him over there and gone back home before it was too dark.

The man stopped shaking suddenly. The Gligar turned to him, confused by his stillness, and Irida looked as he pulled his dark clothed legs up closer to his chest and leaned his head on his knees, holding the little blood-sucking beast tighter, until he was so tense he looked about to burst into a thousand strings like a woven basket pulled too much.

“I don’t know,” he sobbed.

It was quiet.

It was really quiet after that.

They watched him sob in silence. Even the Bronzongs didn’t chime.

Then, after a while of sobbing quietly, Teacher did something that looked strange to Irida at first: he let go of her hand, and got on his knees, and put his hand out. The Gligar hissed at him, but he paid it no mind.

“It’s cold,” he just said - with a very gentle voice. The kind of voice adults use for deeply upset children.

The Freak Ingo remained still.

"You look hungry, too. Let's get you something warm," Teacher continued, gently. "And then we'll see what to do."

He knew they could do nothing, because they had tried to take him home already, but they had no clues and nobody could find any either way; but after a good cry children like to be reassured, and promised comfort, and he wanted to provide it.

So the Freak Ingo turned to him with his white eyes all red and droopy, sniffling behind the little pink body of the Gligar he was holding tight, and then looked at Teacher's kind outstretched hand. He took it; and as Teacher rose to his feet murmuring 'up you go' he followed suit, his legs a little wobbly, and he held tight onto the strong palm and fingers and did not look up, even when Little Lian gaggled over to him to grab his torn coat and tried to speak to him. Irida did not come close, because there were still scratches on his face from when he had screamed in the storm and his cheeks were all shiny with tear salt; so she held onto Teacher's other hand, and like that they walked back down to the settlement as the Sun sunk away behind the mountains.

The Freak Ingo fell asleep curled on himself on the floor after dinner, all dressed, far away from everything and everyone except for the little Gligar he wouldn't let go of. Teacher bundled him in a thick blanket so he would be more comfortable.

Irida watched him wake up in silence the morning after. He stayed laid down with his eyes open for a while: she did see his mouth open, but it still spooked her when he actually spoke.

"I apologize for running you over and yelling at you, Miss Irida," he said, slow and rumbly and still a little hoarse, and very honestly sheepish: "I should have not taken my anger and restlessness out on you. It was awfully rude of me, as well as unprofessional. You were very kind to worry for me."

She did not know what to say to that. So she looked down and asked, after a moment: "Is it still asleep?"

He scratched at the little Gligar's ears: "Yes," he muttered, "She is very tired."

It was a really pink Gligar. And very small.

"Where did you find it?" she continued, because she didn't remember seeing many of them in the Icelands.

"On the path to the Temple," he replied. The little Gligar made a chittering sound and rubbed her fangs on his palm. "She was caught in the storm before she could safely hide away."

"Do you want to keep it?"

"I hope I'll be allowed to."

"Why?"

The man hushed for a moment, like he hadn't expected her to ask why, or like he was a little afraid of telling her because he found it to be a silly reason. He sat up very slowly, cradling the little Gligar in his white hands with blood still under his nails so he would not wake it, and Irida stopped staring at the ghosts of healing scratches on his face and throat and stretched her neck to better look at the sleeping menace.

"She has a very nice smile," the Freak Ingo told her simply; and he sounded so very terribly sad.

The little Gligar snuggled against him perfectly happy.

Irida looked at it, and nodded: "She does."

#pokémon #submas ingo #pokemon irida #warden gaeric #warden lian #random writing #blood mention #local man has SUCH a case of the Feeling Like Exploding that he loses his composure completely and almost dies #partially based in feeling on be nice to me by the front bottoms #also did i accidentally write ingo as age regressing (the coping mechanism) #if somebody could tell me and if i wrote it offensively id be very glad to be told abt it #a fuck i forgot to tag palina and tornadus. fuck it #in this fic ingo will be in hisui for several years hence why irida is still little #also he was walking in hexagons bc thats the shape of the single line trains tracks! the more you know #ableism tw

[justinefrischmanngf]

i need to get over myself and learn the languages i want to learn if i want to learn them like i just need to do it if i want to learn them then i should go out and learn them and like . fuck whatever else any of it means . yes it IS embarrassing to learn a language like the ones i want to learn as an adult but who CARES and yes i KNOW my grandparents will never want to speak to me in those languages but who CARES if it's important to me it can be important to me anyway

#had a moment last night bc i was apparently having an identity crisis which was random #but i had a moment where i was like well even if i learn all these languages no one in my family is going to want to speak to me #in those languages because of [insert reasons i don't need to go into here] and so ultimately none of this is like . cultural Really #it's just me wanting to feel as though i am connected to something when i will never be #and maybe that's true or maybe it isn't but if i want to learn them i should learn them anyway like . at the end of the day #i DO want to learn those languages and i think it would be interesting and i would love to be able to speak to people #in those languages even if the people i speak to aren't related to me and i would love to be able to speak languages that aren't english #and that all stays true even if i am not able to have the cultural connection through language with my own family #like i can go on and on about how disconnected i feel from my culture bc of everything that has ever happened in my life #but how i still feel alienated bc i'm Not White to white people and all of that is true but not learning a language doesn't make it #any better and maybe learning a language won't make it better either but i think it's a better use of my time #ALSO !!!!! NO ONE EVER GOES OH WHY WLD U LEARN FRENCH OR SPANISH [OR INSERT EUROPEAN LANG HERE] u have no real cultural connection to it!!! #so like why is it different bc i want to learn asian languages??? it's not! except in my head! or maybe irl too but i'm just saying #that i think i make all of this a much bigger deal than it has to be #that being said i did just try to look up classes and they r all for children and about keeping children culturally connected 2 their famil #l m f a o but that can't be ALL the classes ............. i'll work it out is what i'm saying and i need 2 get OVER myself #bc none of it is that deep and i can feel conflicted all i like but i should fucking DO smth about it at least #anyway i am posting this in the hopes that i can beat it into my own head bc i am sick and tired of being weird about learning #languages and i need 2 get over my weird cultural identity issues if i want to like . live a life where i don't want to explode and die

[avatarofwar]

i saw you talk about wolf a few times from sekiro and was wondering if you'd want to share more of your thoughts on him or sekiro as a whole, the game really interests me compared to other dark souls games so i wanted to ask

sorry for the late reply but oh boy do I have thoughts abt wolf. trying not to spoil the game, so I'm gonna refrain from talking about the story. might go into just restating known things about the game, but I'd much rather play it safe and not spoil the story

before going to that. the game is very much different from dark souls (setting wise, while taking place in a fictional country it is in a historical setting. I cannot comment on the setting properly bc I don't know much about the time period, however), most notably in the combat (primarily shifting from a dodge-centric playstyle to a parry-centric playstyle (significantly easier than dark souls/elden ring parrying, however), with dodges having significantly shorter i-frames and being very unreliable for dodging attacks). it's very different but something I really enjoy, even if I'm not as good as I am at typical soulsborne combat. it's really fun when you get the hang of it, and while I might not be The Best at it (which is mostly bc of how different it is from soulsborne games, so ofc I'm not as good at is as I am at the other fromsoft games I've played), it's something I can still enjoy

a huge thing about sekiro is the difference in how the story is told. in soulsborne games the story is something you have to figure out; progressing through the main path doesn't give you enough to piece everything together if you don't read any lore. with sekiro, however, the story is significantly more obvious, on account of the playable character having unique ties to the world and its characters, rather than going the soulsborne route of being one of many people (wording hard, but the chosen undead for example is no one special, just one of many undead trying to link the flame). it's a very different method of storytelling, but is still something really good. for as much as I adore having to actively hunt down lore and story in soulsborne games, it's also great experiencing story through natural game progression

wolf is also canonically disabled (loses his left arm at the start of the game) and has a really fucking cool prosthetic that is a whole part of the combat system (even though I personally keep forgetting to use it). so good for him. he deserves a prosthetic that can have deadly weaponry attached to it. like a mini-flamethrower. he deserves a mini-flamethrower, as a treat.

putting the wolf thoughts beneath a read more because this is getting long and I might spoil some stuff (mostly relationship with another character, I'll try to refrain from story spoilers. also spoilers in general, but there might be some), and he has definitely become a blorbo (additionally, content warning for abuse)

first of all. wolf makes me want to throw myself off a cliff and I mean this in the most positive way ever. he is great and I love him but man he needs so much fucking therapy and he doesn't even realise it (therapy probably doesn't exist in that time period, but besides the point). he is very much traumatised and has been heavily shaped by it and doesn't even know it.

prior to the events of the game (I forgot how long ago it was) he was orphaned by war and got taken in by owl, a shinobi and also a piece of fucking garbage. owl raises wolf to be a shinobi under the iron code, with the number one rule being loyalty to his father (owl), with his master (kuro, the divine heir) a close second (and also to give his life for his master if necessary. which is also a whole other thing to get into).

owl is very explicitly abusive. he raises wolf as a tool rather than a person, and that upbringing severely affects wolf as a character - he is an incredibly capable shinobi, but lacks any skills other than that; he does not know how to be a proper person, he is a loyal wolf, but he does not know how to be anything other than that. hell, without spoiling too much about the context, there is a cutscene in which owl actively attempts to guilt trip wolf, going as far as using fake tears (saying anything specific is very spoilery. this isn't even the only horrid thing he's done, but I'm trying to refrain from too many spoilers).

wolf canonically does not value himself without anyone to serve (we see this at the beginning of the game, as events prior to the start of the game not yet known about leads him to believe he has no one to serve, and thus no purpose, so he isolates himself from the world in a well for 3 years). while he does have compassion for others (most notable example being concern over victims of dragonrot), he starts off the game driven primarily by duty. he is loyal to a fault, willing to do anything for kuro, but also valuing his service to kuro more than himself (cannot remember the exact wording, but when kuro expresses concern for how many times wolf has died for him, wolf states that it does not matter as it was in service to him).

there's also the fact that wolf canonically eats uncooked rice and genuinely doesn't know - as a fully grown adult - you are supposed to cook it, which is... genuinely something awful if you truly think about it and what more it implies about his upbringing especially considering it's one of the most basic things you could learn how to make (just... says a lot about owl if you seriously think about it).

he is a loyal wolf, but he doesn't know how to be more than that. he doesn't know how to just... exist for himself, to be his own person separate of his duty and he doesn't even recognise just how fucked up it is, because how could he, when he was shaped into this as a child, when his own father wanted him to be nothing more than a tool to use.

I could say a lot more about his relationships with other characters (that are actually good people) and how it just. makes me lose my mind, but this post is almost 1k words. so, simply put, kuro genuinely caring about him makes me so fucking emotional, especially bc of owl; his father might be horrible and an abuser, he might not know how to be more than he was raised, but at the very least he can serve someone who actively cares about him and his wellbeing.

#THERE IS SO MUCH TO DISSECT ABT HIS CHARACTER AND HOW HEAVILY IT WAS AFFECTED BY HIS UPBRINGING #I've seen a handful of people call him boring bc he doesn't say much and isn't that expressive emotionally and none of them are valid #I'm gonna explode those people with my mind powers. he isn't boring you just don't understand how to analyse characters #I need need need to get this man to some fucking therapy he so desperately needs it and doesn't even know it #if there ever was a fromsoft character most in need of therapy poll he would sweep and if he didn't I'd explode people with my mind powers #also I realise now a lot of my thoughts abt the game are just. restating known parts abt the game. I apologise for not being more specific #if you wanted to know my thoughts abt the story specifically. oops. I AM sorry but I do want to play it safe #I also do really appreciate how it was like. the (or at least one of?) first game in this time period made by a japanese company #which is part of why there are some things I do not know how to comment on bc I am very much a white canadian #also has a small poison swamp location. might be a plus for some people. I personally don't mind most poison swamps too much though #and ngl I kinda miss the iconic large poison swamp you have to traverse. it could be really fun being able to grapple #did I mention his prosthetic has a fucking grapple built in? well it does and it's really fun for movement.

[doodlboy]

These outfit combinations are a fuckin travesty

#WHO PUT THIS TOGETHER???? WHY????? #WHY DID YOU PUT THE UGLY ASS BROWN SUIT BACK ON LEVI IT LOOKS TERRIBLE ON HIM #im not even gonna comment on Lucifer's outfit besides he needs to remove it from his closet and possibly burn it #same thing with satan #i hate his pirate outfit he looks like a fuckin nightmare #like a snobby rich boy on a pirate themed cruise #anyway this event is garbo and I dont want 2 spend any more time on it #ALSO #i HATE that they release this event in both games at the same time. AND!! THEY DONT EVEN CHANGE THE FUCKIN STORY #you shouldn't be their attendant in the base game thats fucking stupid!!!! #im going to explode the greedy corporate ppl at solmare for fuckin ruining this gd game #obey me #elliot rambles #rant in the tags