#and also i have nothing to do at work rn lol

[charmac]

just wanna say I agree wholeheartedly with your tags on that fandom post. I have been following sunny on here since 2015 and there is a constant cycle of sensitive, and frankly delusional people, who claim the show, make crazy headcanons and justifications to make it tolerable and acceptable to them before they eventually shun and condemn the show altogether. it was very bad in 2018 and made me withdraw from the fandom lmao. I remember being most annoyed with the endless woobifying of charlie and the absolute condemnation of dee above everyone else. like, they're all bad. that's the point of the show. I just don't understand how they could stomach it in the first place

You are a warrior, dude.

The reason it took me so long to join Sunnyblr in the first place was the fact that ~early 2020 I was rarely seeing anything here that was based in canon, mostly weird headcanons that made no sense to me, and Reddit genuinely seemed like a more based place to exist for this show.

I literally needed a friend to give me specific accounts to follow because the tag was (and, sorry, lowkey still is) a nightmare. (Though to be fair I’ve been in fandoms on Tumblr for over a decade and literally never liked scrolling tags.)

I got into Sunny and I fell in love with Sunny because of canon. Because it’s so fucking weird and fucked up but it’s FUNNY, and there’s genuinely nothing like it. The characters are horrible stupid terrible people but they’re actually deeply complex and rich to study, so much so that you feel extremely compelled in a multitude of ways to dedicate yourself to some part of them, or all parts of them. But.. if you strip them of those core identities, of what the characters stand for, that compulsion is gone, void, irrelevant.

Because it’s the extremely raw, almost purely acting on basic instinct, unfiltered humanity, worst parts of the self, inability to recognise or follow societal norms aspects of these characters that are relatable. It’s relatable in a way that *should* make you uncomfortable, feel unsettled, and maybe a little relieved that these parts of people can be acknowledged... That’s a unique and interesting feeling, something people engage with media like this to explore and expand upon, and it’s often something that genuinely helps or supports people who wrestle with a lot of the heavy concepts Sunny satirises (and sometimes just, shoves at you head on).

When people start to disregard all of this, for whatever reason they do, that’s when you end up with the Fandom using Sunny Characters as an “ability to project” or (much worse) a “near blank canvas to play with” (because, yeah, if you strip them of their literal reason for being created and continued existence, ofc you lose their whole identity!?)

The problem seems to be that either 1) they just don’t understand the show well enough to get that they’re disregarding this aspect of the plots and characters, and so they genuinely don’t recognise that the fandom for Sunny exists because of these terrible compulsions and insane trauma exploration and that’s why we enjoy discussing and playing with these characters or 2) they do understand this but they can’t engage with it without some kind of personal moral conundrum or extreme discomfort, so they have to sanitise or completely alter the characters to enjoy them.

The thing is, if you fall into category 2, you just don’t belong in the depths of it all, and it’s an unfortunate truth you have to face. If you cannot enjoy canon, if the actual show makes you extremely uncomfortable and you’re only here for a gay ship or to project your gender and sexuality onto one character, you need to go stan something else. I say that with the greatest intentions for you. As Anon here has stated, it’s an insane cycle in this fandom over and over, you’re just going to upset yourself and resent the show and the people here, because we like the canon and the fuckery because that’s what the show is for. That is the literal point of the show at the end of the day.

Now if you’re in category 1, I heavily encourage you to actually *talk to people about the show and the characters*, read analysis, watch the episodes with different frames of reference and in alternate states of mind. Do your own analysis or character work, try and just write out the plot of your favourite episode and put to words *why* you like it. Hell, try and write a fanfic or a spec script from the mind of one of the characters, even if you think you can’t write.

Honestly, honestly, honestly, if you genuinely like this show at face value but you’re only engaging with fanon because you feel like you ‘shouldn’t’ openly enjoy the canon because it’s seen as ‘bad,’ the best thing you can do is have a conversation with someone, or multiple people, who get the show.

That being said, I do wanna open this shell Discord I’ve made to people. For people who *enjoy* the canon, who want to discuss actual Sunny (and also have fun with it, of course!) you’re welcome to join.

A lot of you get it. I’ve made some amazing friends in this fandom and regularly have extremely stimulating and insanely throught provoking convos with the people I’ve met here. I love it, it drives my insane passion for this show and I am eternally grateful to have found people who love this show for what it is. I hope, if you’re struggling to figure out why you like this show or struggling to accept that you like media like Sunny, you reach out or join a conversation and learn to love it too. And if you don’t, if you genuinely hate the canon of this show and only like the version of Macdennis you saw in a dozen different Tiktok edits to Taylor Swift songs, I really hope you move on for your own sake.

#iasip #main tag fuck it #ask #and i’ll say in the tags here #macdennis would be ‘proship’ in literally any other fandom #accept it and make peace with it okay? #all of their canon moments are non con or dubcon at best #and that’s FUCKING FINE THATS WHY ITS APPEALING. #this is not the fluffy gay ship you want #and you’re just gonna get hurt when canon continues to canon #sorry for formatting i’m at the office so i had to notes app this #also im at the office so bare with me if you’re joining the discord rn lol #but i wanted to respond to this #and also i have nothing to do at work rn lol

[fumifooms]

Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.

His grey hairs are so earned

#Chilchuck tims #dungeon meshi #analysis #HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY #You know what yeah understandable have a good day #Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose #Spoilers #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm #I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s #how he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺 #I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many #compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol #He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!! #I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers #He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help #Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’ #is nice in his opinion #This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost… #OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level. #‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc #Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡 #Laws are important to him bc he knows how bad punishment is if you break them and how they’re the key to getting better rights

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[b4kuch1n]

the legends speak of it as a kind of enthrallment: the life ended by the tiger is tied to the tiger. in this way there is a line of souls following the beast, for no reason except to show that they were killed. that they could be saved - if only the beast would die [...] in the dark of the wood you see it walk, shadow to shadow, followed by loss after loss after loss, a tail trailing seemingly into the deep death of night [...]

#bakuspecial #cw: body horror #cw: nudity #ask to tag #hi. this is actually not at all the piece Ive been sitting on. I just suddenly really wanted to sketch this at 4 last night #and now. it got done before the one Ive been looking at for uhhhh four days! awesome #this legend I only know like colloquially but it is real btw. iirc #like if a tiger mauls u ur soul has to follow it around until it does #dies. I mean dies. when it does anything is kinda why ur there in the first place #this is very divorced from its full context tho lol tigers and most big animals were generally thought to be long lived and uh. magic? #like they become sapient. when they live long enough. and they start learning spells n shit #so when u become tiger thrall its assumed the tiger actually has stuff for u to do. ur not just following it doin nothing #granted the stuff its assumed it'd want u to do's probably fucking up people's lives or find more stuff for the tiger #greed is also assumed for these beasts generally. so yeah #okay holy fuck I should NOT be awake rn. my brain is not working anymore #have a good night lads. had a really fucking good beef stew tonite. here's to many more of those and for u guys to have some

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

fire and the thud came on my spotify shuffle while me and my sister were listening to music this afternoon, and at the end of it she turns to me and goes “who was that? the lyrics sound like the kind of thing you’d write” and honestly i think it’s one of my favourite unintentional compliments i’ve ever received

#the fact that she’s been reading my writing since we were both kids and knows that side of me better than anyone too #idk it just made it really hit with that bit more weight #also something about it was weirdly validating #because like that whole album has such a special place in my heart #i have never heard anything that connects me so fundamentally with my creativity in the way humbug does #and so to have someone who knows nothing about am go ‘hey these lyrics remind me of the way your mind works’ #when hearing those songs for the first time sometimes felt like someone had reached into my brain #was just #yeah #i don't even know actually #i'm not trying to claim i can write like alex btw #i'm not delusional lol #but i do hear echoes of myself and the way i connect with creativity so often in his writing #which is i think why i connect with it so much #even if i express that creativity differently #(and with less skill) #sorry i'm just rambling at this point #i feel like i'm not explaining this well at all but my brain is so foggy rn #so i'm going to shut up now and go back to my book #thanks/apologies to anyone who's read their way though this whole ramble #humbug #lulu posts

[savetheghost]

wanna be put in a room with craft stuff for 10 years

#i cant focus on anything rn but the stuff i wanna make and its turning my brain into mush #the weird brainfucked fear that if i dont get these things started Soon ill forget it #my memory is so fucking borked man and my brain runs too fucking fast to hold on to anything #i make so much that i went and made my own hell lol #the two jobs thing i think is probably the crux rn cause ive got even less time than i used to and my time blindness gives me troubles #ill get adjusted to it #sometimes with all my fucked up processing issues makes me feel like im kind of stuck in a weird bubble #like i have no idea whats happening or whos around me or what people are saying and i just have to stumble through it yknow #shouldve been born as a tiktokers pet snail #not tryna be complainy or in a bad mood or nuffin im fine i literally just want to be making stuff rn #even though works like a big Thing its also been understimulating the past week because theres nothing to do i just gotta Be Here #i need to be put under pressure i need squeezed i need smushed and i aint getting that #if i ever make something for u plz hound me about it #so i can explain in excruciating detail what step im on and how im doing it and what still needs done and how ill do THAT #i should make tutorials #i feel like im way too stream of consciousness to make anything actually helpful #idk i want a toast chee

[vivitalks]

Six ways Nico says "I love you" to Jason.

this is me cheating legally on @jasico-challenges bingo by using up seven bingo prompts for this six-chapter 5+1 fic: one for each chapter and one for the work as a whole. however i am posting the whole fic together because i think it makes the most sense, and also, i want to.

#jasicobingochallenge2024 #fanfiction #tw anxiety attacks and unhealthy coping mechanisms and lots of trauma and guilt complexes and brain problems abound! #jason grace #nico di angelo #jasico #jasico fic #pjo #pjo fic #fic #my fic #if you want more trigger warnings they're in the specific chapter notes #or you can ask lol #stuff #ill probably make a moodboard for this fic at some point and make a new fic post with a moodboard and make it pretty #but icba rn #it's 5pm i have done literally nothing of value today #also oh shit i think i was supposed to do something for work that i didnt do #seriously what is this 'wfh' nonsense. it's a snow dayyyyy #anyway i should get dressed bc im going to a thing in an hour #and i should eat something lest i fuckin starve lol #i have turkey bacon but i dont think i can be bothered to make it #so i will probably have for dinner what i had for lunch: leftover box mac and cheese babey

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

bye bela :(

#she doesnt come back in liams run sadly ;; #i can never get her approval quite high enough oops #(tbf tho im not making a Huge Effort since thats how it happened the first time and its a replay run anyways) #laya plays dragon age #liam for his part is. so so pissed rn #what the FUCK isabla what do you MEAN you need that relic??? #like. what. you would trade having one guy off your back for having THE QUNARI hunting you down???? #he is. VERY goddamn angry in that qunari compound. at isabela but also just in general at Everything #that being said he still cant bring himself to tell the arishok that isabela has the tome #in part out of spite towards the arishok but also bc he genuinely doesnt know if the relic was there and/or if bela has it now #and if it wasnt then isabela might get hunted and killed for nothing #and if she does have it? well theyre gonna find out soon enough #stop fucking acting like this is all his fault somehow #if it were for him once the qunari attack he'd frantically gather up his friends and gamlen and evacuate somewhere safe #he does NOT want to be in the arishoks line of sight when he goes on a rampage #(hah. we all know how that works out LOL)

[non-un-topo]

"It's not dysphoria" I say as I write an entire assignment on my own invisible queerness and gender identity, and as I feel like tearing my skin off and crawling into a cave forever

#i love that this seems to happen every october sdfghfd #those who have been here long enough know the pattern by now #but what am i gonna do about it? nothing probably. idk maybe something when i'm 45 #i would be more okay with all this if i wasn't fucking 5'1 with the biggest girly baby eyes ever #god when cis people say 'but you're so pretty' all sad like it's a shame i'm not dolling myself up. #maybe i can pass as an 11 year old boy. and maybe passing isn't the point. but i would at least like a CRUMB. #....ah. that's why i'm so messed up rn. probably this assignment / research topic i'm choosing #and also having to keep my partner's transition a secret. it's not hard i just worry that someone in the family will find out #that's probably why i've procrastinated working on this assignment for so long lol. it's too personal. #i also had one of those days yesterday where i felt like everyone was scrutinizing me. and maybe a few old men actually were #but i mean who cares? but still can't queer people just exist without being a spectacle? #without cis people constantly trying to 'figure them out'?

[mapofthemazeinthemirror]

I'm convinced people who leave their blog blank are people who just go through writer's masterlists and don't actually follow or view the rest of the blog, so they don't even see posts begging them to not be blank or explaining why.

#i hate that 90% of interaction i get is from blank blogs. because if i block them then who is going to read what i put out #also PSA i die a little inside when i see the same person liking big portions of work and not reblogging a thing #or when they reblog but add nothing except tags like “fluff” or “yeonjun” etc. #i got a comment from a blank blog saying “please make this a series” and it actually made me decide to start blocking blank blogs again lol #just PLEASE #because i shouldn't have to beg you to do what you should know to do by now if you're not engaging properly you know? does that make sense? #aka if you're just liking people's work without following or reblogging them then... i lost my train of thought I'm so sick rn 💩 #taking advantage or something? idk #i need to start protecting my account now that i know it could get removed because of blank blogs #this has been a rant into the void. now back to my unscheduled being unwell.

[cinnamon-grump]

If y’all know me, you know I hate asking for help…. So I’m very sorry to have to now.

I start a new (part time) job next tuesday.. but I gotta get gas to make it there before I’ll get paid. If you can help, anything at all would be so much appreciated!

Paypal

Venmo

Cashapp

It’s totally cool if you can’t/don’t want to.. sharing is of course helpful too

I can do some quick sketches / phone doodles in return, just message me and lmk if you want! I’m open to drawing most things (within reason..) here’s some recent examples, and my art tag

#help #how do u tag these..? im so sorry #donation post #is fhat the tag..? srsly pls help lol im clueless #this is far from an official commission post btw i genuinely mean just doodles right now #my hands and drawing tablet don’t work enough to do finished pieces rn #but seriously.. i hate asking for $ so know that i dont do this lightly #i have nothing left rn and im the only one in this house whose got a job for now #im trying so hard not to panic 😖 #also i feel weird putting all three links but idk what people use and i’ve had to download all 3 for different family members…

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry i cant shut the fuck up today. i think i just feel worse on the weekends bc i kno i shoulf b relaxing #ppl r telling me to relax. take a break. let me kno how i can help. let me kno if theres a problem. bc my behavior is apparently ya kno like #visibly somethings not right. but how tf am i supposed to relax when i have so much to do #so im stuck spiraling like dont work but also think insistently abt working. but get nothing done. its horrible #mostly rn im stressed abt all the grading i havent done and the work on my masters data i havent done #but its like. something in my head is on fire and it's burning thru all my cognitive energy. i am just trying to keep existing #how tf am i supposed to find the energy to read 45 lab reports? im like illiterate #and idk i just feel bad about coming into a new lab being so sick. i just dont like being a problem #it also does not reflect well on my future career that im being such a flake on things. like sorry if i have to work on my research #assistant data rn i might die ✌️ ugh. itll b fine. i just need to find a way to effectively manage my head #and i keep hearing my dads voice in my head talking abt personal responsibility but like i dont even kno how to employ that. i could suck #it up and double down on productivity but that way leads to burnout and self destruction. do i doubke down on relaxing? #i dont kno how to do that. like u would probably just have to drug me. which is y i do not partake in substances. that way also leads #to self destruction. so what am i do to? cross my fingers and pray for a fluctuation in my general mood? #hope that aliens invade and that an incoming invasion sharpens my focus onto only one single thing? #idk. but my sister is finally working on the fish i askrd her yo draw me. so i gotta think of how i wanna get it tattooed #bc shes not an art person and its an act of indulging chaos to get an imperfect image tattooed onto me #so i might have to do some things to make it make me not insane. i asked for this bc i like causing myself problems. also i was in a #slightly altered state of mind when i asked lol but i stand by it haha. anyway. idk things r just annoying and hard rn as i knew they would #b. and im good at catching myself before things get dangerous but it sucks that i feel like a ticking time bomb of destruction. ugh. #unrelated

[etherylelixyr]

Anyways. 10pm rant bc I can

#psych2 in 2 days. done. ZERO. revision. #gonna do a chem paper instead bc fuck that. and then another chem paper bc fuck doing psych ig #then watch some psych question tutorials/walkthroughs bc i honestly have No Idea how im structuring a few of the essays #yippee (screaming crying throwing upppp) #and X has left me 20 messages which i willnt read. for my own sanity and because i need to focus on work #and not whatever theyve sent in 20 messages #because ill definitely spend like an hour typing out a response to each of their messages #and i kinda dont wanna talk to them rn because stuff i wanna tell them is. personal #and nothings!!! set in stone yet!!!! #so i dont wanna tell them all my fun plans for the holidays and how im gonna change my name and style and hair and then none of it happens #bc i failed my exams- #because i dint think id b able to live after that #with someone else knowing i was. so close yet so far #yeah #so im chillin rn #also have some messages from their bsf which is nice but i think theyre normal ones lol #so plenty of time to respond to those #hmm i think ill text X back when im done w psych2 and finished the 3 chem papers #motivation to study ig...? #eurghhfhgh so tiredd thoooo #looking forward to talking to another human being tmrw bc im seeing one of my teachers to go over some chemistry papers

[kuiinncedes]

me puttingon the filters "remote" and "data science major" on this job site from my university and just scrolling thru and applying to a ton that don't need cover letter without reading the qualifications/requirements 😀

#data science major is enough LMAO i'm slightly qualified at least right #if they get back to me i can read/reconsider LOL #bitch has to write a goddamn cover letter at some point tho lmfao #tmrw i'm getting together w my friend who also needs to apply for jobs i'll surely write a cover letter then right for shore #bro there's this unpaid internship that is like pretty fitting for me #but it's fucking unpaid which is so annoying lmfao #didn't realize it was unpaid until today (i saw it like yesterday lmao) #anyway looked at my email and reminded that i have to reply to an email abt a job i actualy have rn lmao 😭 #and just didn't do this semester #but i want/need to get back to it #but i've spent the last week rotting and doing absolutely nothing #idk where the motivation to do things is gonna come from LOL but we gotta do it #i gotta put work time like scheduled out in my gcal or smth to make myself actually do it :\ #and even then it probably won't rly happen lol #ig i spent the last while lying here clicking apply -> submit resume to all these jobs that don't need anything else LOL #so i'm not completely doing nothing 😀 #i also have done a bunch of club stuff 😀 for the club that i am no longer director for but ya know #i need to wash my hairrrrrrrrrr lmao ;-; #jeanne talks

[mer-se]

excited for things to come 🧿

#thinking about her (my wndr fortune) #lots of hard work but #always wanted to sell prints (and post cards for some reason) #but I’m also trying to bring back the ‘08/‘09/‘10 version of me rn #let’s go have some photoshoots #but not be like 12 this time #the balls I use to have lol #shooting engagement and weddings looking like a hottopic employee #I mean do I still maybe #but like…now with way better tools resources and experience not just balls #we’ll see how it goes #could be nothing like I’m envisioning #it is what it is and I’ll find out #but stagnancy isn’t the vibe this year

[layalu]

getting lost in a video rabbit hole instead of being productive? more likely thank you think

#it did start out productive!! was looking for tuts on toon shaders in unreal #and i guess it is still semi-productive in that i am still looking at material and shader stuff lol but it has absolutely nothing to do #with what i am supposed to be doing oops #and only half heartedly bc my brain is Preoccupied. double oops #lay rambles #i have approximately zero motivation for this project </3 unfortunately it is the final assignment for two classes </3 </3 #will i put a lot the expected amount of effort into it? no <3 but i am very good at making something presentable with minimal effort 💪 #also i forgot to push my changes on github last time so i cant even work on my scene properly rn 💪😔