#and cry and pray about it

[bluesidedown]

:'(

#I'm so lonely and it really really sucks #i can ignore it 80% of the time but im just so so lonely that nothing feels really genuinely ok and good #i miss my friends. i miss my community. i miss singing in chapel and hearing all the voices #and i just want to go spill my guts all over the floor of my friend's room and sort through them together #and cry and pray about it #and then go be ridiculous and unhinged and joyful #and i am so tired of knowing that the good things ive clawed my way into over the past 4 years are over forever and i cant go back #and yeah i still carry so much good with me #and yeah there qill be other good things #but I cant go back and have it all over again. and i miss it. #and it really hurts. and im lonely.

[civetside]

howdy tombies here's an astronaut AU i thought would be funny, we taking the space part of lesbian necromancers in space and we making that the main thing

#tlt #the locked tomb #griddlehark #gideon nav #harrowhark nonagesimus #SPACE AU #tlt shitposting #you know how your either an outer space kid or an ocean kid? #yeah well im an ocean kid so i dont know jack diddly about space #so if anything here is even a lil TINY bit unrealistic dont worry about it i will correct these mistakes in the remake #crying and praying i didn't make any typos

[bamboozled-distress]

omniman doesn’t even need his whole redemption arc, him simply saying “i think i miss my wife” has like actually altered my brain like he’s already redeemed to me like do you know how insane it is for literally everything he’s done and how uncleansed he is and how he knew he couldn’t go back and through everything when he knows he’s going to die he just. he misses his wife. he misses his wife he misses his wife he misses his wife he misses his wife he misses his wi

#i csnt stop thinking about it #like I don’t think I ever can stop thinking about it #it’s so strange bc when I read the comic I literally didn’t give a fuck about him and just was praying for his death because I hated him #but idk looking at it now it’s so weirdly beautiful #like to go from everything to what he is now it’s honestly so amazing and it makes me want to cry #somebody tell me to work on my stupid fucking essay #invincible season 2 #invincible #omni man #nolan grayson #debbie grayson #invincible show #invincible spoilers #laz.exe

[tea-cat-arts]

Redraw of that one Onion article ft Aki

Part 2

#csm #chainsaw man #aki chainsaw man #akiangel #‘Your pronouns? Those look a lot like MY pronouns. You should give them back to me’ -Power probably #Angel praying to god for self control? #Himeno deserves to make dad jokes #working on learning to draw these lads #Himeno and Angel are my drawing comfort zones (cute and gnc) #I gotta figure out how Fujimoto makes Aki look like he’s about to cry at any given moment

[justastrugglinghotchocolate]

Hi, I’m so sorry, but your boyfriend got his ass beaten by a gopro twice and is an atheist now. Yeah, he had a whole crisis of faith and is murdering the entire council as we speak. We can try to read him the word of God, but judging by how he’s parading the councilor’s head to the citizens of heaven, I’m not optimistic. Sorry.

#Ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #boyfriend meme #I’d say pray for him but he’d start yelling and crying at me about how sky daddy is dead

[chheese-mmmhh]

buck is actually the most bisexual person to ever exist methinks…doesn’t even matter if they make it canon because LOOK AT HIM…listen to the words he says and you tell me that’s not a bisexual

#911 abc #evan buck buckely #evan buckley #anyway #that being said if they DO make it canon i will cry 100% #sob actually #maybe even bawl #i’ve already started tearing up just thinking about it so pray for me… keep your fingers crossed #kiss a crystal #what have you

[greyias]

I just realized when rewatching the Karsus's Folly scene...

...with Gale kneeling, looking up at you with guilt and repentance, his hands clasped together as if in prayer.

#grey's bg3 tag #bg3 posting #it's crying about sad sopping wet wizard hours #and if you romance him #just the extra layers of like #'with you i forget my goddess' #and the scene where he reveals everything to you has him looking like a sinner praying for forgiveness #😭 #gale of waterdeep #gale x tav

[xbomboi]

misc. bribelle thoughts

prefacing this by saying bribelle is my favorite ship. actually might be one of my favorite all time ships considering whenever i catch 11:11 i make a tweet on my priv twitter saying “11:11 bribelle and rarijack” because i’m insane.

anywho…

i think it’s a lot easier to justify saying faybelle potentially has feelings for briar in a canon context because even aside from her diary, her behavior in epic winter can most definitely be read with flirtatious undertones, especially after witnessing the dream sequence

but i’m always trying to justify things to myself in accordance to canon without feeling ooc, because i’m the type of creative who would rather write my own original thing than make alterations to a pre-existing work. that’s just me.

and briar is trickier to do so with. in the show alone, she only actually verbally responds to faybelle once and it’s a line that also adds exposition. “but it’s forbidden!” girl come on throw faybelle a bone at least…

by epic winter, i’d say briar could potentially have had surface level attraction to faybelle, but it isn’t until having that dream and probably especially post-epic winter when she’d get time to actually reflect on it that she’d start to develop palpable feelings for her.

i’ve kinda noticed something about briar: she likes attention. i guess she’s kinda like faybelle in that respect.

briar grew up with neglectful parents. fill in the blanks. why wouldn’t she want attention when she lacks it properly from the two most important people in her life?

along this line of thinking, briar especially values explicit displays of affection, particularly from a potential romantic partner.

so, regrettably, let’s look at her relationship with hopper.

i.e. briar’s behavior in the webisode “Here Comes Cupid.”

when she first confronts hopper about his unconventional advances, she’s disinterested and borderline repulsed.

but after hearing him profess his love via the recording, she’s taken aback and actually grows endeared.

until this BAFOON fumbles the bag and does some really creepy shit by leaning into her personal space and calling her hot. understandably, this miffs briar and she once again loses interest.

(side note, too many people ignore how blatantly creepy hopper is to women, ESPECIALLY briar. he needs to be held accountable, not rewarded by getting the girl.)

even then, despite not necessarily returning his affections, she’s somewhat comfortable in the status quo that he devotes his attention to her. which is exactly why i think in bunny’s diary (bunny is wrong btw she doesn’t know a damn thing so idk why the one wiki that’s not the official wiki list hopper as briars crush when the source is bunny’s word like fuck all) bunny mentions observing briar appearing disappointed when ginger asks hopper to the dance and he accepts.

to briar, it’s like she’s losing one of the few things she’s familiar with, the few constants in her life. in this case, her only plausible option who she’d have reason to believe would accept. and we all know how briar is about losing things.

briar sorta settles into this state of fondness towards hopper’s affections, despite them being unrequited. because at least he gives a damn about her.

faybelle—at least, outside of her diary and up until epic winter—might as well be any villain; faybelle just wants to cause chaos for the sake of ruining somebody’s day. and i don’t think briar likes it that way.

i’d assume around the time of faybelle’s introduction to the series, briar’s stance would be one of upset towards faybelle, believing she doesn’t take their story as seriously as she(briar) does. that her role in sleeping beauty isn’t as important to her as being evil in general.

i have half the mind to say that this could potentially be read from briar’s behavior in faybelle’s diary.

first off, that underlining wasn’t added; the underlines are in the official print. meaning briar is putting emphasis on those words specifically. sure it’s a lesson to faybelle about not being an asshole, but also it reflects on briar in a way. like it could be her saying, “you’re supposed to be my villain, but you act like i’m no different to you than anyone else.”

now, this next part is obviously a surface-level gag about faybelle making a malicious act seem so thrilling, but if we close our eyes and pretend that we’re in a different world called I.D.G.A.F. dimension, we can now analyze this in a different light.

briar’s confused by faybelle’s verbal expression of almost-affection. it doesn’t help that she’s most definitely barely awake. but i’m willing to say her confusion is partially born out of actually having heard faybelle say such a thing. it’s gotta be surprising and hard to believe in that moment, because briar has every reason to think otherwise.

in the show, like i said, faybelle just does whatever the fuck. open a sweat shop? sure why not. assist her peer’s mom in attempting to turn the entire world into her own dictatorship? count her in. make a deal with the mafia? just a regular tuesday. but god forbid she focus on being the one to make the sleeping happen in sleeping beauty.

i think that irks briar. or at least make her generally act indifferent when faybelle comes waltzing around to do god knows what; if she won’t care, why should briar, right?

then there’s epic winter. or, as i like to call it in bribelle terms, “they finally fucking interacted”

when briar explains faybelle’s inclusion of herself to crystal, she simply says it’s her thing and cites the sleeping beauty story. like “hey crystal this is my villain btw, trust.”

later when briar’s yapping about the story, some may say it’s counterproductive in relation to briar’s arc that ashlynn brings up the miserable part of it only for briar to talk fondly of it, but i know briar personally, and have been filled in as to what the truth is.

briar dropped that attitude because faybelle was there. she started talking up the story, almost as a cue to faybelle, like “hey remember how you’re like a big part of my life’s purpose???”

faybelle butts in about it. and briar doesn’t get the chance to respond, but i think she was almost expecting faybelle NOT to gaf, so her doing so threw her off just a little. maybe she expected to hear something like “who cares?” instead.

then of course when they get to the castle briar’s little act is dropped and her deep fear of the sleeping beauty destiny is once again present. and of fucking COURSE that’s when faybelle decides to CARE ABOUT THEIR STORY.

listen to me, LISTEN. briar looks at faybelle BEFORE faybelle actually says “no, there’s another room far more important to our story. isn’t there, briar?” she looks at her BEFORE she actually talks. she was looking to see if she’d react, then when faybelle does speak she looks away, then she bumps her to get her attention so briar has to fight the adhd and lock in.

and faybelle just keeps instigating which honestly kinda takes briar out of her typical sulking over her destiny mood and more of like ‘what is your game here exactly’ mindset.

there’s so much to that look briar gives her. so many emotions in there.

after this they go up and faybelle taunts some more only for briar to almost actually prick her finger yada yada. and like i said, it’s a lot easier to understand faybelle’s pov. it’s very clear she doesn’t actually wanna go through with cursing briar, teasing and all. she makes as much obvious by her reaction alone when briar gets too close.

but once briar’s fine she’s like ‘yeah, okay, back to normal,’ meanwhile briar is kinda just done because faybelle is acting a fool. but she never shoves faybelle off of her unlike she did when hopper intruded on her boundaries huh briar why is that what’s that about briar still, briar has yet to have any indication from faybelle about how she actually feels in regards to their story and her role in it. or how it pertains to their relationship with each other. rather, faybelle doesn’t take it seriously much to briar’s chagrin.

then the dream sequence happens.

to me, this is the turning point.

it’s a stupid music video for an insert song, but goddamnit it confirmed darabella and even hunter got to be there with ashlynn so i’ll die standing on business.

this is what briar’s been waiting for from faybelle. that frenemy status is something i think briar wants to figure out which one to see faybelle as, depending on how she really wants to proceed with the story. and i’d say faybelle surprises her; hell, she even shows her a side of her rarely seen.

like with hopper, an outward display of affection such as this is something briar is drawn to. faybelle’s display towards briar in the dream sequence is something briar would be endeared by, as she goes out of her way to prevent her from experiencing the very thing she’s been dreading for so long. that’s gotta fit briar’s love language.

side note, i think it’s very very interesting to note that faybelle is the one to swoop in and save briar in this case, without any other characters present to show a significance in the ending of the story. i say this because hunter gets to be in ashlynn’s sequence and the bears are in blondie’s, despite none of them being in the tower asleep. all this is to say, if briar really did have feelings for hopper or really was gonna end up with him or some guy, they’d be there, right? but nope, just faybelle. I Understand.

after that we don’t really see them interact at all again, but there’s the general disdain for faybelle’s actions as a shared sentiment amongst the others. either way, by the end she shows remorse and seemingly ends on good terms with everyone, meaning i don’t see why briar wouldn’t be left thinking about the dream, seeing her in a whole new light. honestly briar would probably be kinda intrigued by the idea of the bad girl having a soft side for her. briar and i actually spoke about this the other day.

either way, this is briar learning that despite the general ignorance faybelle portrayed, she actually does care about her.

faybelle demonstrating, proving to briar that she is capable of showing affection and actually does care for her is what i think is enough for briar to begin to start falling. (which is kinda reflected in how i approached their relationship in fable fest.)

because briar knows there might actually be something there.

or maybe it’s a kid’s cartoon and one girl mean other one nice, idk.

#guess how many mental illnesses i have #2 digit number #that’s an exaggeration #point still stands #i cry when i think about bribelle #eah #ever after high #briar beauty #faybelle thorn #bribelle #briar x faybelle #briar and faybelle #ramble #duncontent #i’m half asleep so i pray i hope i don’t wake up going “who let me post this!”

[adelaidedrubman]

—LOCAL CRINGEFAIL MASS MURDERERS WALK INTO SEX THERAPY. (template found here. | credit to @derelictheretic for both oc portraits used!)

was alerted to the existence of this incredible meme by dearest @henbased and obviously had to do it for the flop couples and try starting off a game. below cut is blank template (+ full res johnjess version for easier reading because tumblr decided to be difficult with me on preserving transparency) and tags to play if you have any failsex couples to share!

tagging: @florbelles @henbased @derelictheretic @nightbloodbix @mccarthycormac @corvosattano @shellibisshe @socially-awkward-skeleton @voidika @fourlittleseedlings @blissfulalchemist @clicheantagonist @cassietrn @firstaidspray @josephseedismyfather @cloudofbutterflies92 @stacispratt @strangefable @nonfunctioning-queer @nowandthane @risingsh0t @direwombat @ladyoriza @g0dspeeed @inafieldofdaisies @deputyash @afarcry5fromstraight @orionlancasterr @wrathfulrook + nsfw games opt in here!

#praying tumblr doesn’t do the ‘‘ignore format and throw images in post body at random’’ thing it definitely did when i saved to drafts #anyways. ignore the johnjess complaints being mixed from multiple verses. they would cross time and space to have bad sex. #i was going to say the only thing referenced in theirs that hasn’t happened on screen in canon at some point is john unsexy crying but. #ig he did cry just *before* their second fuck in wildfire so maybe that counts. #also with the private vs. loudmouth thing i wasn’t 100% sure if that meant to the general pop (brags about sex life) or with partner. #so sorta split down the middle for answering for everyone. #also clarification for faith leaning conservative slider did not mean conservative like. prudish. #she’s not taking the risks herself because she’s Just Laying There #oc: deputy jestiny ellen #oc: jenna swann #otp: stop bothering these nice folks #otp: a neurochemical con job #nsft

[corpsentry]

april 28

now that i have caught your attention with the largeness of my deltoids. april 28. 6:30 and 8:30 pm est. my senior dance showcase (livestream link forthcoming). it will have taiko and spoken word and modern dance and jeff the livestream guy at the helm, if he likes me. it will be the best thing i have ever made. save the date

#i am so fucking excited about this i am going to shatter the barrier between my irl self and my online life #i haven’t hyperfixated this hard on anything since that 50k atsuhina royalty au june and i wrote in 2020 and boy am i ready to go #it’s going to be kind of wild i think. i think it might make people cry. i hope it does. i hope it makes people want to live #or something else really fucking ambitious. but this is a fucking ambitious piece of art so that’s ok #we’re going all in. no butt plugs. all plugs unplugged. stoppers unstopped. balls released #see you in 6 weeks #gelmo #life updates #in the meantime please pray for my sleep schedule #which is fucked

[larphis]

More delusional queer thoughts:

Guys remember that David Jenkins basically teased “When Doves Cry” as Ed and Stede’s reunion song?

And the fact that the song playing in the teaser was “The Beautiful Ones”

Okay, so David also said that the usage of purple in season 1 was supposed to show Edward’s feelings for Stede becoming stronger and him blossoming around him.

Now both of the songs above are obviously from Prince’s album Purple Rain.

So what if (this is where I get delusional again) this season really ends with them getting married or at least proposing and the song Purple Rain starts playing in the background?!!! 😭

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd theory #ofmd observations #i think I would cry on the spot #give Ed the Prince themed wedding he deserves and let him wear that pretty dress that he wants #Edward teach #Stede Bonnet #gentlebeard #ofmd headcanon #i’m sorry I just can’t stop thinking about them #they make me so happy and sad at the same time #let them be happy please #david jenkins #praying to you

[jeanmoreaux]

need to throttle nora. this is so bad for me. this is fueling my delulu.

#SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP i dare say. so very unwell about the first third of this book. #i just pray i won’t have to get out the clown makeup 🤡 #but i fear i fear i fear #tsc #mish reads tsc #tsc spoilers

[hella1975]

complicated relationship with taob be damned i have never peaked higher than i did when i was studying tragedies for my english class and wrote the fever dream chapter

#I WAS WRITING AT LEVELS NEVER BEFORE SEEN. OFF THE CHARTS CUNTISM. TRAGIC LEXICON LEFT RIGHT AND CENTRE #'you scream with your lungs and you pray with your knees. but begging? #begging was in the hands. zuko's were empty. stained sunset red. /look. look at what you did/.' #'white bones charring until zuko remembered hearing of fortune-tellers - how they read the heat-cracks #of oracle bones. zuko wondered what the breaks in his skeleton lamented of. if he could read these scars #would they weep? /look. look at all that red/.' #'/look. cut-neck and red-stained. you wanted this/. the auditorium watched enraptured #whispering into ears. /this is the best part. the anagnorisis/.' #'this was a tale of honour and redemption. the playwright had woven zuko’s hamartia into his every action #doomed from the beginning. /you always thought it was anger that would damn you #that patronymic fury that snarls in your chest/. the director was grinning. /it is not. your fatal flaw has always been shame/.' #'redemption comes with the price of regret but you don't regret. you don't regret any of it' #'A GOOD TRAGEDY NEEDS A SCAPEGOAT; A TRAGIC HERO. ZUKO WOULD BE THEIRS. A MASK. A BOW. APPLAUSE. FURY. SHAME. #/LOOK/. THE THING WITH THEATRE IS THAT YOU PLACE A CHARACTER ONTO A STAGE WHERE EVERYONE CAN SEE HIM #AND YOU SHINE LIGHTS ON HIM TO ILLUMINATE EVERY ANGLE AND YOU MAKE HIM SAY THINGS THAT RESONATE. A TRAGEDY IS JUST A DECLARATION #/LOOK. LOOK AT ALL IVE DONE AND GIVE ME REDEMPTION REGARDLESS. LOOK AT EVERY FLAW. TAKE ME AS YOUR ANTI-HERO. FORGIVE ME ANYWAY/ #IT WAS ABOUT BEING SEEN. IT WAS A CRY FOR HELP' #like???? GIRL OKAYYYYYY <33333 truly give me a theme i like and i will run fucking RINGS #taob

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

actually I think the thing about being a youth leader is that 25% of it is teaching about God, 25% is playing fun games, and more than that though 50% of it is making a safe space for kids to be. not to try and make them believe, not so they'll be open or anything. just. a 100% no stakes, safe place for them to just BE. whatever else comes after that. and I don't just mean physically safe, two-adults-in-the-room-at-all-times, et cetera. I mean emotionally safe. I mean not hitting them over the head with scripture, not trying to help them feel better or any particular way. just... a no-judgment, emotionally safe place to exist as kids.

#I'm convinced that my time on Tumblr helps me with this tbh. idk how to explain it but it does #I had one kid this weekend really overtired and stressed out just uncontrollably crying and like. the goal there #is not to make them feel better or stop crying. the goal is to be a safe person for them to feel those things with #does that make sense??? #another one doesn't believe in God at all but told me about some really heavy stuff and like. the goal isn't to start #talking their ear off about Jesus it's just to be a safe place for them to come to. this kid didn't want prayer during ministry time #but I did casually tell them at the end of our conversation that I would be praying for them anyway. you have to keep it chill #and not put pressure on them yknow??? they're kids #idk. #adventures in youth group #anyway pray for a few kids in particular I won't share any more detail than I did here but some stuff got shaken loose for sure #Lu rambles

[mossytrashcan]

sorry for the spam today lol, hoping to have this little ref sheet done by tomorrow so I can work on other designs for bigger pieces

#maybe some nikolai designs #cuz like okay confession I was obsessed w a darkolai fic exactly 1 year ago #and I’m pretty sure that’s what put me on the path to drawing this dude #cuz like I think about it a lot and I lost it and I’m anguished #if anyone knows the darkolai fic hmu I think it’s here on tumblr #it had a thing w mouths but it was so well written that I was like yeah I get the hype behind mouths now #I’ve been like waiting for someone to request darkolai art for a YEAR #I’m that desperate for an excuse to think about this fic #OH ALSO IT HAD A MOODBOARD #patrick ireland was like praying in white and crying and covered in blood #which like um why wasn’t that in the show #what the fuck #robbed

[sweetronancer]

giggling and kicking my feet over the end st3 and st4 ronance.. I NEED MORE RONANCE NOW ITS BEEN 2 YEARS 😡😡

#percy pauses and yaps for a little #i hope the duffers explode #im actually going insane at this point please ronance and my gf are all i care about #praying for ronance canon #i need it.. #i have a horrible headache but im rewatching st4 for ronance lmao #im so dedicated to this ship its not funny anymore #nancy wheeler #ronance #robin buckley #stranger things #robin x nancy #im literally vibrating im gonna cry #im not ready to be crushed if it's not canon #my hopes are way too high #ronance >> rovickie (imo) #i could talk about ronance forever its not even funny help