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nachofuck3r · 5 months

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ᴊᴏʜɴɴʏ ᴄᴀɢᴇ x ɢɴ!ᴘʟᴀʏᴇʀ/ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴꜱ

After a high I flood of demand we are gonna have some of Johnny Cage x Player headcanons!! Because everyone is loved by him, shut up! He loves the player?!!!

CW: meantions of you having a dick (it could also be a strap), lotta dirty talk, mentions of breeding, daddykink, slight degradation. the nsfw section is devided into 4 different categories, Johnny being dom/sub Bottom/Top, so everyone is provided for.

SFW:

First of all I do really hope you are looking for needy, because in game Johnny is so very needy and desperate for you and your attention. He'll do absolutely anything to grab it and impress you. He's already an attention whore when he's not trying to rizz you up. But with you he doubles down, tries legit everything from sweet to sultry.

No touching, means double the verbal affection, so so much flirting. There is not one taunt he doesn't do for you.

"I'm packing more than a punch, baby" "How do I look from behind?'' "Your smile, is my fatality" "What if, next time, you finish me?"

At first you are freaked out and taken aback, when it comes to your attention, that Johnny shouldn't be doing marriage proposals, in the middle of a match. You're game must be bugged in some very weird and fanservice providing way.

If you indulge his advances, by flirting back or taunting him. He's freak! There is no way the sexy person controlling him is also flirting with him?! Over the moon, that's him right then.

But if you don't or actively reject his flirting, he will suspect you are playing hard to get. So he'll most likely double down and get more risque with his propositions.

"You're like, super tiny, man" "I'm not tiny, I'm in a game, but I can, 100% guaranteed, still rock your world"

Banter becomes a regular occurrence, with you all the while, improving your gaming skills and him mostly just longingly staring at you and trying to impress you with taunts, brutalities and special attacks.

"Why didn't you do the fatality?!" "Because you already performed one this round" "what- "On my heart"

Groan

If you get easily flustered and don't like the flirting, DONT change this mans skin/clothes. The teasing will be endless.

"You like dressing me up, baby?" "Stop calling me that I'm a grown person..." "You're right I should be calling you my spouse"

"Are you looking at my ass?" "No, I'm just checking- uhh" "Just admit you want me, it'll make everything so much easier."

Also don't stop maining him. He'll survive if you play other characters but if you do it long term and the come back to him, he'll be twice as needy, a little pissy and a lot more desperate.

"Is it something I did?" "No, I just wanted to play someone else" "So it was something I did?" "What does that farm boy have that I don't?" "A hat" "Not if you dress me up as Illinois"

At first his very obvious, overly flirty self annoyed you incredibly.

Yes he's sexy and he's also technically single.

But he's also in a game so?? What is a guy gonna do.

This is what a guy is gonna do.

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Subby Top:

If you like your men whiny but also want them to wreck you, talk about convenient. Johnny is 100% the provider for your needs. Will not stop whimpering and whining outside of sex but when it gets heated. He cannot stop.

"Please, I need to be inside you so bad" "Fuck I just wanna breed you, want to see you so full, please" "I wish you could ride my face, I need you so badly"

Since he's kinda well INGAME, you two find other ways to be intimate, if its just masturbating, you playing with toys mostly.

SUCK HIM OFF! Or well pretend to, seeing you suck on a toy. Boom man is combusted and on the floor. There is nothing he would love more than paint your face with his fuck-juice.

Seeing you ride a dildo will absolutely kill this man, he'll be a needy mess through out every other match he has the same day.

"Sorry, I couldn't stop thinking about you riding my dic-" "Johnny I swear to every god available"

Subby Bottom:

If the thought, of Johnny being inside you isn't your speed, that's fine! He's a flexible and very versatile man. Plus let's be real, he does this stuff anyway. No way, this man hasn't fucked his own ass.

Subspace Johnny is a fucking mess, just picture him endlessly fingering his own hole, very sloppily.

"If only these fingers were your dick!" "I wish you could spurt inside me, I need you so much baby" "Gods, I need that cock in me or else I'll die"

Dramatic as fuck, but these sentences are just scares throughout the fingering. He'll mostly just be a whimpering mess. So it's very likely you'll have to provide the teasing and dirty talk this time around.

The sound of your voice, taunting him, while fucking his own ass, will make him squirt. Makes a mess of his own mansion floor.

"We should do this before every match!" "Be real- ugh as real as can be, you wouldn't win a single match after something like this..."

Dom Bottom:

This is essentielly the cocky and less whiny version of sub bottom.

You can expect so much taunting from this man, especially when he's pounding his own hole. Will not stop god damned talking.

"If there's a way for me to get out of here, the first thing I'll do if ride your fat dick." "Just thinking about your dick makes me cum" "That's a good boy/girl, stroke that dick thinking about my tight ass"

My guy prays every night, that he can become real and actually just absolutely destroy himself on your dick.

"Are you okay? That's the second match you lost today?" "Sorry, I did not get much rest"

Dom Top:

This is kinda the end boss of Johnny Cages sex life, this is just a part of him. This'll happen eventually, of course only if you want to. But being a dominant top is probably something he'll have to do every once in a while.

"I'm gonna fill this tight litte hole with my seed" "You're such a needy whore for me, for your Daddy" "I'm gonna paint your insides so fucking white, flooding you full of me" "You look so good sucking my dick baby, it's like this is what you were made to do"

Of course it's all pretend, it's just you needily fucking yourself in front of a screen. But both you and a man can dream that he is absolutely destroying your hole with his fat dick.

If you have a pussy he'll ask you to slap it, 100% wants to slap your cunt to get it sensitive. It's also like his favorite thing if you can squirt, he wants that all over him, making you squirt is like his main goal (if it's possible). So he'll often have you fingering yourself into an absolute mess.

"One more baby I feel like this is the one"

If you have a dick, he'll want it super sensitive. Will make you fuck your own fist for hours on end, even if you're spent. Bro wants to see you massage your own balls. He gets so excited thinking about you spurting all over your own stomach. Looking so needy and desperate for him.

"Come on, baby. Make a mess of yourself for daddy"

Little plus here for my T-Dick people.

He adores your dick. He'll ask you to show it to him every time you two get intimate. Wants to see you stroke it and finger yourself (only if you're comfortable), he loves how stiff it can get. Wants to get his mouth on it so bad.

"I want to suck you off so bad. Wish I could frot our dicks together, baby"

#johnny cage #x reader #johnny cage fanfiction #mk1 fanfic #mortal kombat fanfiction #x gn!reader #x m!reader

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follivora · 3 months

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what I don't understand is that why people are calling whatever jan & nace are doing "performative" and "queerbaiting" (ffs) , while being seemingly okay with jere, who's out there fully gaying it up with every single man that comes within five feet of him, while being in a steady relationship with a woman (and probably straight?). this must sound like I'm bashing jere, and I'm absolutely not, I love him, and I commend him for pushing the boundaries. but it's just interesting and weird to me that is he allowed to play with his identity like that, but if jan and nace do it, even just a little bit, it's performative queerbaiting. that smells like hypocrisy.

this is exactly what i cant wrap my head around either. i do love jere to death and i do love him just doing whatever he likes and whoever he likes for that matter, but exactly as you said, out of all of the guys, he's the only one in a confirmed relationship at the moment but we all love him and his boyfriends right. JO are probably all single rn because of their insane schedule, but even if they weren't, nace and jan never pretended to be dating? i dont know what they have but its fucking beautiful, they very apparently adore each other and they love to be close to each other, it can be fucking platonic and thats okay but its real? why would they fake it? what would a guitarist and a bass player with 30k followers each would get from it?

how dare you like say that jan, who's always been super comfortable with being close to men, said his crushes are male, had a fucking hot line call to be a male, dresses however he wishes and is fucking very open and free minded is queerbaiting? how dare you say that nace, who's had a fucking pride flag profile pic long before becoming famous, has been super comfy with being touchy with every man around him since we've known him, someone with a little fun dingily earring and extremely kind heart would just queerbait and trick fans into thinking something?

the insane attempt at proving that nace and jan are straight first on twitter and now fucking here actually screams of homophobia, i dont see anyone trying to prove that kris is straight 24/7 even tho he mentioned dating someone in the same interviews like nace did, why do you care so much about if nace likes dick or not jesus fuck let him be himself without dragging him down and comparing him to stereotypes

i am not saying they are queer. i am not saying they are not queer. i am just a very strong believer in letting people living their lives, loving people around them and i dont have any reason to think people would fake their existence for getting 128 hundred more likes lmao

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gale-gentlepenguin · 1 year

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Gale's Analysis: Ron Stoppable is the Epitome of Secret Badass

Ron Stoppable, The buffoon, the sidekick, the loser, the guy with a naked mole rat.

Suffice to say, Ron at first impression is just a weird teen. And for those that have made that assumption, you are right. Ron is weird. He follows the beat of his own drum. Yes he can get swayed by fads, yes he is afraid of monkeys and yes he is often losing his pants more times than a person should.

But today I will be talking to you about why this guy is not only a secret badass but the best example of one.

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To be a Secret Badass.

Now there is a trope called Crouching Moron, Hidden Badass, this trope often involves an unassuming character (usually seen as a joke or weakling) and then revealing that they are actually super powerful, competent in some way shape or form.

Now I actually dont think this works for Ron because, with this trope, the individual KNOWS what they are doing is a front. That unassuming action is mainly something they put out there while the true self is the competent individual who is either Super smart, super strong, or super skilled.

But here is the thing, Ron isnt putting up a front, this is his personality. He is a bit of a slacker, doesnt follow trends, is obsessed with cartoons, goes trick or treating, gets caught up in kid stuff, everything Ron does is because he is Ron.

But thats why I think he counts as a Secret Badass, because Ron isnt Hiding the fact that he is a badass, he has NO IDEA HE IS ONE. He just performs the actions by accident or instinct without it really having it sink in.

Now to go further into what I mean. Ron thinks he is an untalented slacker idiot, a coward that struggles with girls, and a guy that cant fight or be the cool athlete.

But in truth Ron is actually a genius, athletic, smooth fighting badass.

Yes, I am being 100% serious. Ron is all of those things

Please bare with me. I can explain

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Ron the Genius

Now throughout the show Ron doesnt really make much of an effort to do his homework. usually settling for a passing grade. While Kim, his best friend and the star of the show is constantly getting A's and showing her intelligence on the regular. At first glance it is very hard to see oneself think that Ron is smart, ESPECIALLY compared to the intellect of others in the show, Like Wade, Tim and Jim,Dr.Possible (Both her parents), the super scientists they have helped or fought. But Ron is actually pretty smart.

Ron's intellect shines when he takes an interest in something. Like cooking, able to easily ace Home Economics, create the Naco (Ron received a $99 million royalty payment on the further sales of the Naco up to that point in time "Ron Millionaire" ) A testament to his cooking genius. Figure out Niche connections that Kim had overlooked.

Ron's most impressive intellectual feet was actually when he was pretending to be a genius (Naked Genius). Rufus had snuck into Drakken's brain gain helmet and became super smart. So Ron had Rufus do his home work, and the result was having people shocked by how brilliant he is. Resulting in Shego and Drakken kidnapping him to make a doomsday device. Which he actually manages to create!

And after that, he was able to complete his math homework with ease, even earning an A on the next assignment.

But for those of you who think thats a fluke. Allow me to introduce, evil ron

After getting his good swapped with Drakken's evil due to a faulty invention gone wrong at Villain con (Episode Badboy). Ron becomes a super villain. Able to create SEVERAL evil weapons of destruction. Creating schemes to COUNTER Kim's approaching his Lair and even stall Kim for long periods of time to prepare for his True evil plan. He created a plasma catapult, a weather generator, and several gadgets that helped him keep Shego in line. (He was so smart and evil he MADE SHEGO INTIMIDATED).

Ron is often inhibited by his self doubt and laziness. Often feeling that the world around him is so vast that it is not worth the effort to try, but when push comes to shove, Ron is smart enough to rival intellects that surround him. He just needs to have a bit more confidence.

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Ron the Athlete

Ron is typically portrayed as clumsy and lacking in bravery. He tends to "trip over his own feet" in most episodes, often in comical or socially embarrassing ways, and during missions it is common for him to comically fail to do something that Kim has done flawlessly—for example, he might ski backward down a mountain and collide with a tree just after Kim has successfully navigated the slope. He also loses his pants often on missions.

But in truth, we as the viewer fail to realize how impressive Ron is. Sure he will accidentally do some insane feat in extreme sports but its seen as a fluke. But we dont actually understand how athletic Ron is until the movie "A Sitch in Time". Where Ron is half way around the world and has trouble meeting Kim for Missions. So Kim's solution, have Monique help her out. And Monique is a pretty typical teen, seems decently in shape, and strong willed. It would make sense that she could be a possible replacement.

WELL THAT IMMEDIATELY BACK FIRES. Its revealed that Monique is WAY OUT of her depth, she comments that maybe after 10 years of training would she be ready to take on another mission like this. Which really puts into perspective how impressive it is that Ron is able to keep up with Kim in most situations. Ignoring the comedic relief.

But another clear example of his athleticism is his ability to run. While initially using a super suit to make the football team and become the QB, (in season 4). Ron eventually lost the suit and had to play the game with his own skill, and he won the game by Running so much he out ran everyone on the opposite team to the point of exhaustion and scored a touch down. Becoming the team’s Running back instead. While played for laughs as this was because he is so used to running for his life, it is still should be noted that he ran fast, and dealt with very athletic individuals.

He also is shown to have incredible reflexes, avoiding traps and danger through dance and rather amazing feats of physical prowess. (And this is without mystical monkey power)

There is more to it but Ron is a surprisingly good athlete, and probably one of the few people that could keep up with Kim. Making him such a reliable side kick.

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Ron the Smooth Player

SMOOTH RON STOPPABLE

But in all seriousness, Ron's luck with girls is actually not that bad. He had girls take interest in him through out the series. His first crush being Amelia (an attractive upper classman that developed a thing for him when he got a new haircut “The New Ron”. And flirted with her with some success in "Ron Millionaire"

Then there was Tara, a Cheerleader that showed Ron interest for sometime. Such as in "Sink or Swim" when the cheersquad was trapped in Camp Wanaweep

Even using terms he used at times. like "Badical"

Though Ron never did catch on that She was into him and she ended up dating Josh who was Kim's former lover interest.

Next there was Zita Flores

The ticket girl at the theater Kim and Ron often went to. And was Ron's love interest for most of season 2. Ron managed to win her over and even dated her for a bit, tried to impress her by playing a game that she and her friends played. But unfortunately it sort of fizzled because they both didnt really agree on what was considered a date.

And next up we have Yori

(I had a crush on Yori as a kid, so I am including her image solely for that)

Meeting Ron when he was part of the student exchange program, for the Yamanouchi Ninja School. n the episode "Exchange", Ron shows repeated interest in Yori. He was having trouble fitting in yet she was kind and helped him out every step of the way. Ron proves himself when he helps save the school and Yori believes in his abilities. Though Ron like with other girls failed to see that Yori "Liked him liked him" until their second meeting.

Though the third time they met Ron and Kim were and Item and Yori was cool with it. Which is nice to see they are gone good terms

Bonnie was on the list but it wasnt because of liking Ron it was more about liking either his Money (Ron Millionaire) or His popularity in "Homecoming Upset"

But interestingly most of these relationships, Ron is not trying to be someone he isnt (except Bonnie). And he is winning these girls over. Showing he has some sort of charisma. But for main proof, lets look at the main Relationship we are here for, his one with Kim.

This right here is proof that the boy has some sort of charm. Sure they had been friends for years and it had been slowly building up to the point when they FINALLY admit it. Sure the guy that Kim Fell for in So the Drama was basically just a calmer and more Confident version of Ron but actually an evil robot.

But the beauty is the relationship itself. Ron goes to such lengths to show Kim how much he cares and is willing to do anything for her. Fearing she would dump him because its senior year and Cheerleaders only date jocks/Popular stars. Boy joins the football team. Kim wants to go on more romantic dates, boy gets a job to pay for it. Ron also shows to be encouraging and while a bit of a worrywart is great for Kim.

So in conclusion Ron can be smooth... in his nerdy true to himself way

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Ron the Fighter

So did I mention he has mystical monkey power?

During the Season 1 episode "Monkey Fist Strikes", Ron was exposed to ancient magical energy from four jade monkey statues which imbued him with "Mystical Monkey Powers", including an instinctive knowledge of the martial art of "Tai Sheng Pek Kwar" (大圣劈挂, translates to "The big saint divides hangs") as well as superhuman speed and strength. Though after the episode its believed to have been lost.

Until the Episode "Exchange" in which has him at the Ninja school. He gets some training. Allowing him to learn how to fight better. Even letting him tap into the martial art he thought he lost access to. He was able to wield the Lotus Blade and Beat Fukushima (a talented student and traitor of the school)

Ron may not always fight in the show but when he does, he unveils his true ability. One example is during the Movie a sitch in time. When he found out Shego had basically ruined Bueno Nacho and seperated Kim and Him by sending him to norway. In his rage he flipped an incredibly buff and genetically enhanced Drakken with one move and destroyed the Time monkey, thus saving the world.

Ron also showed that when turned evil he is actually a very vicious fighter (his reluctance and more timid nature removed) he easily bested well over 30 super hero clones in seconds, and was agile enough to out match a super strong Hego.

Ron in the finale "Graduation" shows his greatest feats of fighting, besting the super strong alien invaders (see picture above), then proceeding to go super saiyan blue.

And he threw the two aliens into orbit into their crashing space ship presumably ending them. (I am not kidding its right here)

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Ron is an absolute fighting badass, only held back by his self esteem. But at this point, I think he really is unstoppable

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Ron the Secret Badass

All that aside, sure there is the monkey kung fu, the bouts of brilliance or even the impressive game. Ron was basically a normal guy flung into a world of crazy super powerful people and because he wanted to keep close to his best friend managed to climb insurmountable odds and become someone spectacular.

Ron may not think much of his abilities but he really is Unstoppable

#Kim possible #gale's analysis #ron stoppable #ron the secret badass #I miss this show #analysis posts #Youtube

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mordcore · 1 year

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oh also it just hit me why queer men *and* incels like anime

anime doesn't have the same toxic gender ideals as mainstream usa media has. probably has different ones but men are allowed to not be performing toxic masculinity and not be immediately troped as creepy perverted weirdo who's weird and freakish about sex and in general (i hate hollywood so much).

there's even a kind of anime trope about a guy whos a big loser and over the course of the story he gets to be cool and badass and maybe even the things that made him a loser inspire his power later on (i'm thinking about SAO right now but only got the abridged version in my head so im not 100% certain kirito is cast as an irl loser in the og sao too but for sure the "likes videogames" is what gives him the advantage).

and the thing about men is that there's two classes of men. the incels call them chads vs virgins or alpha males vs beta males. queer men might call them cishets vs queer people. or privileged men vs opressed men.

the two classes thing is true about women as well btw, mainstream feminists these days will pretend there isn't two classes of women but who got bullied in highschool vs who got bullied is by no means random and it works the same way for men. it's about how gender conforming you are perceived to be. are you "a real woman"/"a real man"? or are you a defective one?

queer man and incels are groups that are very different obviously, but they share the trait of being in the class of "defective men". they can't measure up to toxic masculinity standards because they're gay or they don't even like all that stuff or maybe they do but they just suck at imitating it. the difference is that queer men, once they (we) identify as queer, often learn to embrace this second class as liberating and stop trying to match up to societal standards. same goes for queer "defective women" people and when the freaks from both sides join forces gender roles get thrown in the garbage and only taken out to play with and that's why -- in my personal experience -- among queer folks the gender you are or were or whatever doesn't really set you apart from your peers as much as it does in cishet/ "first class gender" circles. or at all even.

but the incels somehow didn't find that liberation and instead hunkered down in their toxic blackpill communities making each other worse. they know they are defective men and their analysis of gender conformance among men has some good points, but. i don't know maybe they are too authoritarian to even consider that breaking social norms can be a good thing or maybe they're too white and cis-straight to even want to join the same group as the queer freaks or i dont fucking know why someone becomes an incel instead of joining forces with other freaks and lift each other up.

to return to anime. i think it's because anime gives what men from hollywood-poisoned societies can perceive as freedom to be a second class man and still being a person.

anime conventions are strange places, i don't know any other places where so many queer and queerphobic people occupy the same spaces. (anecdotal evidence: all but one queerphobic remarks i've had said to me in public (men's) bathrooms were at anime conventions)

(wip but posting cuz i dont trust drafts)

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gadunkie · 10 months

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spiderverse 2 sucked shit and was performative twitter.com fuckery. hi reddit in this rant Im going to talk about why I think the second spiderverse movie gave me a queasy uneasy feeling after I left the theater. spoiler warning and all that.

Ive been seeing a lot of praise for this movie lately and a lot of fan stuff and while that is cool I think spiderverse 2 really doesnt deserve it. to me it feels like baffling performative bullshit where they checked off certain "woke" categories and forgot about everything else. Im bad at formulating rant posts so Im just gonna randomly bring up my feelings on certain things.

ok so first of all the number one thing that pissed me off was the in-movie dialogue of people telling miles, the first black spider-man, that he was never supposed to be spider-man in the first place. that is incredibly tone deaf, especially when the first movie's message was that anyone could be a hero, regardless of who you are. you could argue that this story beat is used to reinforce that message being that miles' reaction to that line is rejection and finding his own way to become spider-man after all. but thats stupid because, again, anyone could be a hero no matter what, even if theyre not supposed to be 'canonically' a spider-man. what this tells me is that theyre going for the same fucking message, again, but this time its padded out in 2 movies rather than the one that weve already seen.

second, and this one was much more brief, there was a disabled spider-man amidst the roster of the multiverse spider-mans whose only line of dialogue was making fun of their own disability. thats some travis mcelroy bullshit, I thought we were past the point of making disabled character's only personality being their disability. to me that was also incredibly tone deaf and just completely unneeded.

third, there was an Indian spider-man by the name Pavitr Prabhakar whose only personality was that he was Indian. of course theres nothing wrong with Indian culture or just being an Indian person, but to me its like if they had a Japanese spider-man and made them only talk about katanas and sushi. theres no way that indian people act like that and constantly boost about their own nation, it just rubs me the wrong way and makes them feel less human.

fourth, that "gwen is trans" shit is utter queerbait, I cant believe anyone is fucking falling for this shit. it literally infuriates me that I see fellow queer people look at the most basic off to the side decoration in a room / police officer's uniform and jump to the conclusion that what we are seeing is trans representation. like sure she could be trans! but it can also be read as her just being an ally, same with her father. "what ally has a trans flag in there room?" are you fucking kidding me? like are you being serious? hey heres famous content creator Ludwig, who is cis and has a trans flag in his room:

fucking anyone, literally anyone could have trans iconography anywhere in their house regardless of their gender. side bonus, heres how you can have a real confirmed trans character in your art without it being bait! - have them taking transition medication in a scene - have them wear gender affirming clothing, like chest binders - have them tell another character that theyre trans - have them literally look into the camera and say "Im trans." crazy how easy it is to do all of these things and yet gwen did none of it! dont fucking search for crumbs and pretend that its a feast.

fifth, theres a character called spider-punk who goes by Hobie and his entire character is being a punk and making fun of The Establishment™ and Capitalism™. I thought he was dumb because it just reminded me that anti-capitalism is just a form of entertainment now and not a real message to start a change.

sixth, there was so much fucking nostalgia pandering and repetitive dialogue. there were many scenes showing footage of older movies, cartoons, or real life actors that were only there to be pointed at the screen by audiences. next, the dialogue was so expository that any time miles' parents were on screen they would only talk about miles and how worried they were about him. I swear to god that 70% of spider-man 2099s dialogue was about his disturbed past and wanting to capture miles. at several times throughout the movie I thought "ok I get it" and hoped that were was something new to be seen in the next 5 minutes, which wasnt the case most of the time.

seventh, evil miles was fucking stupid. you cant just reveal such an easy counterpart villain and expect me to believe that he has any bearing on the story whatsoever. that shit was so laughably bad that I can easily imagine him getting defeated in the same old hero vs villain shit in the next movie. here let me have some fun and say that miles is going to do the most predictable "Im going to fix you to become good" trope only for evil miles to deny it and fuck off forever in some weird way.

anyway this post is already too fucking long so Im just gonna add personal peeves onto it because Im on a roll. I had a hard time paying attention to several fight scenes because they were mixing with too many visual styles, like the vulture scene at the beginning of the movie was too disorienting for me. I think there shouldve been subtitles, sometimes characters were inaudible for me and the audio mixing during some scenes didnt help either, unless there was a slow moment in the film I just couldnt understand what the characters were saying.

I thought the movie sucked so bad that what they got right in certain aspects (cast diversity, parent and child struggles, etc.) felt like nothing to me after how they treated the parts that Ive listed. its like they fucking checked off a Progressive Bingo Sheet and left everything else in the dust.

I left the theater disappointed and feeling worthless because all I felt was that these movies were just trying to sell me something and didnt push for a change like the first one did. what a fucking shit show.

conclusions. if you liked the movie, awesome Im glad, and you should decide for yourself how you feel about it and what it means to you. Im simply just putting my frustrations into a little text post because that is how I feel. Im not in charge of your enjoyment and you should decide that on your own regardless of my opinions. be responsible with your enjoyment.

but I wont, if you try to argue with me on any of these topics then Im blocking you forever and if you dare type "let people enjoy things" on my post then Im killing you,

#gadunka is fucking pissed

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hanarchy · 7 months

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ok. because i love to talk about how jisung deserves to get the most parts and i STAND BY IT. i want to also say some things the other members bring to the table that none of the others can do or that they excel at beyond the others’ abilities.

like i dont like to pretend they are all equally talented in every area bc they aren’t. and i like jisung partly because the things he’s good at are what’s important to me (singin, rapping, songwriting)

but that doesn’t mean the other members aren’t talented in those areas AND i want to also say that kpop is a genre/culture where visual content, music videos and variety content are almost as important as music.

people love to argue about music quality and i think it’s a discussion that’s worth having BUT i personally believe that the main reason for kpops insane global expansion and popularity is that the industry is entirely unique in how well it uses the internet and social media to generate support and that means variety content and visual media.

and i believe editing/filmmaking/music video making and dance are art forms that stand on their own and that groups need a clear identity and creative vision.

ok so let’s go. unique talent by member.

bang chan:

music production. this one is obvious but it also needs to be repeated over and over. he is an insanely and uniquely talented producer.

work ethic. the dedication and willingness to sacrifice for his work is a LARGE part of what makes skz skz. they would not exist without it.

singing. he has a clear and open vocal that can serve SO many purposes.

lee know:

dancing. again this one is obvious. lee know is such a dance leader because he can not only execute choreographies but explain and develop them.

discipline. it is not a coincidence that he has taken on the role he has. it’s very obvious that he is dedicated to his job and inspires others to work hard in turn.

versatility. so, this one may be controversial and lino is definitely not the best vocalist or the best rapper in the group. but because of the second point, he has become a member that can fill spots that the others may be unable or unwilling to. he develops himself to become what the group needs and it has been apparent since he pivoted to rapping in the variety show.

changbin:

rapping. again, obvious. changbin has a sense of rhythm that is almost unparalleled in kpop. his experiments with it are jawdropping. (if ur interested u shd check out the carkpop youtube channel though i bet most people here already do)

lyricism. similar to bang chan, he is a very talented producer and songwriter but his mastery of language makes him stand out. this is not my opinion btw bc i do not know korean well enough to make that assessment, but i trust the people who say this.

personality. now i started out this list trying not to do this but. he is so stable and reliable as well as just good natured and supportive of the members. he is the older brother everyone needs and that translates to giving the members freedom to grow and develop, ultimately making the group and the music better.

hyunjin:

performance. of course hyunjin is an incredible dancer but it’s the demon that possesses him on stage that makes him so magnetic in my opinion. the combination of how much he loses himself in performance and his proficiency in dance is why he stands out.

visual. i hate doing this to him but. it needs to be mentioned. but being the visual or whatever doesn’t just mean being pretty. modeling takes skill. and he has it. dressing and presenting yourself takes effort. and he puts that in.

dedication to his creativity. hyunjin strives to become the best he can be. he understands that creativity is a knife that needs to be sharpened and he does it. every day and all the time and in many different disciplines. his rapping has improved immensely but so has his singing and his dancing and his painting and and and

jisung:

versatility. jisung has a range of rap deliveries and singing tones and registers that no one else in the group can touch. and versatility is so intrinsic and important to the group identity. this is of course taking for granted that he can even do both this well.

self-confidence in performing. jisung is the cheat key and the swiss army knife of the group because he knows he’s capable. he can take over almost anyone’s part because he knows he has the talent

joy in being an idol. he enjoys experimenting. he loves performing. he was born for this fucking job. i’ve said this before but it’s so rare that you get someone who is both a great songwriter and someone who truly thrives while performing. both of these qualities make skz skz and jisung is the poster child for both.

felix:

he draws people in. (this is 3 points wrapped in one) felix’s personality is what makes him invaluable in the group. he shines in variety content because he makes it brighter and kinder every time. he stands out by being talkative and sociable in interviews and taking on a speaker role alongside chan. many people you ask say felix is the first member they noticed. both his performance and his looks are part of that. both also take skill. much like hyunjin he is a great model and he very obviously takes care of his look and style. he may not always get big parts but he’s always showstopping and his rap skills have developed and grown to fill that role. he may have gotten his deep voice through sheer luck but the way he uses it (for example in victory song) is not luck. and again he shines when he performs. it’s in such a variety of ways too, half the fandom at one point seemed to have originated from that one tiktok. that’s not something any other member can do.

seungmin:

vocals. obvious, serious, so beautiful. skz could not do the balads they do without him.

dedication and discipline. much like lee know, he grew into the role he now fills in the group and he did so by working hard and looking for areas where the others can’t step up. and much like lee know, the other members followed him in that regard. they developed their singing skills partly because he did it first.

reliability. seungmin is the most obviously reliable member of skz. he is only so rarely absent from content or performances, he is present on bubble and on socials. he does well in variety content. the group couldn’t stand without him in the way it does now.

jeongin:

vocals. again again. i urge you to listen to him sing busan seagull. you can never get tired of that.

joy. he is the energizer bunny of this group. he gives the members energy when they are out. they obviously want to care for him, they obviously want to protect him.

willingness to grow. humility is so integral to skz and while innie has always been talented and always been dedicated, he so clearly has high standards for himself and looks to improve every day. that’s a core value of skz so much that they never stop talking about it.

ok. novel over. if you read all of this thank you. if u wanna chime in with what u think makes each member unique i would love that. if u wanna send me anon hate about this, honestly that’d be funny too.

#stray kids

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specialagentartemis · 9 months

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for the fanfiction ask game: fake/pretend relationships? that either do or dont transmute away from fakeness, if thats not unfairly doubling up on tropes

Hah, yeah, this is two fundamental tropes for me

[F] Fake Dating Becomes Real Dating. They are faking a relationship/dating/marriage/etc. for Reasons and then fall in love for real. I find this INCREDIBLY boring, and so contrived as to just be irritating. Overall I find premises that contrive a reason for characters to get together romantically that is not "they have been spending time together, or going through an Ordeal together, and realize they want to" to just be boring tbh. It feels like a shortcut and rarely feels like it's based on the characters' personalities or relationship at all.

[B] Fake Dating Does Not Become Real Dating. If the fake relationship does NOT have them fall in love for real, my interest suddenly gets a lot higher. When played for comedy, this can be hilarious - two people who are absolutely not into each other have to awkwardly pretend to be - or drama, it can be intriguing - the Fake Dating ends up straining the actual friendship. I also like when characters who LEGITIMATELY do not like each other have to pretend to be shmoopily in love while going "I am going to murder you when this mission is over" and not in a teehee actually they like each other way. I think it can be funny or dramatic, playing at the surface performance scripts of Being In Love while truly not actually liking or wanting it At All. (Wow, I wonder why I would find that appealing as a narrative :P )

#I still have this idea where for Philanthropy Reasons Snake and Naomi have to be Fake Married for some undercover mission #and the tension comes not from 'will they fall in love for real' but 'will they complete the mission before she gets fed up and murders him #deathofthetext #ask game #fanfiction

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madaboutmunson · 1 year

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Again - Part 16

Part 1 | Part 15 | Part 17 | Full list of Again series links

Steddie fic where Steve and Eddie are in their mid 30's and everyone has sort of drifted apart

Notes: A special extra part courtesy of the Easter Bunny.

Just to be transparent, I dont celebrate Easter in a religious context, I just like chocolate Easter eggs, and easter egg hunts.

Taglist: @adaed5 @grtwdsmwhr @swimmingbirdrunningrock @mightbeasleep, @jewellthebooknerd, @fentiibratzz

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Steve leans back on the reclined sofa. The TV is on, he's looking at it, but he's not really watching it. He doesn't even know why he switched it on. He has all the entertainment he needs right here in his lap. He's still wearing what he slept in and the t-shirt Eddie was wearing yesterday.

Eddie throwing his t-shirt from the day before for Steve to wear the next morning had become a daily habit. Steve glances at the clock creeping into the afternoon now. His one hand gently rests on Eddie's chest. The other is absentmindedly playing with his hair as he lies back on Steve's thigh. The gentle beat of Eddie's heart and the rumble of his voice explaining the plot of the book he's reading reverberates against Steve's palm and fingers. Steve files it away as one of his favourite symphonies. It's a small file. He only has two more in there. Steve can remember the last time he felt this at peace. The night they brought home Corey.

Jenny was understandably exhausted, but Steve had prepared everything she needed to relax and hopefully get some rest and everything he needed to take care of their newborn and five-year-old until she felt up to joining them. Mackenzie had gone to bed, and it was just Steve and Corey. His tiny baby boy. Steve cradled him in his arms as he put on an old basketball game he had recorded and talked him through the game. His little hand moved and lay against Steve's chest, and he was unnecessarily worried his scratchy chest hair might irritate Corey's skin, so he reached to move his hand. As he did so, Corey's little fingers wrapped around Steve's finger, and he melted completely.

"I'm here", he whispered, "Just don't want you losing your hand in there" He smiled hugely down at his son and manoeuvred his hand away. "I'm always gonna be here. Nothing is ever gonna hurt you. We're gonna keep you safe. "

Steve tunes back into the present. He knows the book Eddie is talking about. He just has yet to focus on everything he said, "So, is there a movie of this book? Sounds like there should be."

"Oh, but there is. There have been, like, animated ones, but new ones are coming out, and the trailers. My God, Steve. The fucking trailers!" Eddie says, hands stretched towards the ceiling.

"Do you need to read the books to understand it? Could someone like me watch it?" Steve asks. There is a pause, a silence, and though the vibration of Eddie's voice is missing from his fingertips, his heartbeat is a little faster, harder.

"You wanna watch it?" Eddie asks, and Steve can hear the surprise in his voice.

"If I didn't go and see a movie based on my boyfriend's favourite book, what kind of boyfriend would I be?" Steve says in mock alarm. "What if someone else asked him to watch the movie, then they'd have little secret in-jokes I wouldn't get and then bond over it, and I'd be left out. And then what if they fall in love and get married, and I'm just sitting at the back of the church like, damn, if only I went to see the movie, I could be the one with pointy ears on and ribbons and flowers in my hair, getting married to my love by a pretend Wizard?" he amps the horror in his performance, and Eddie is shaking with giggles. "Glad to see you find my potential heartbreak amusing, honey."

"I'm only laughing because you think you're an elf. You are from the realms of men, Steve, sorry." Eddie delivers the terrible news holding back his laughter.

"I could be a fucking elf, alright? I'm graceful as hell, I'm tall, I've got great hair, and I'm super stealthy. So I'm an elf, Eddie."

"You keep being grumpy like that, you'll end up an angry little dwarf, but you are not an elf. At least not in my mind. You aren't." Eddie jokes ending on a coy note.

"Oh yeah? Been thinking about me in one of your fantasy stories, have you" Steve teases, but Eddie doesn't get a chance to respond as the doorbell chimes. "Did you order food or something?" Steve asks, looking down at Eddie.

"No! I told you I'm smoking that brisket outside the RV for us. I swear to god, Steve, do you listen to me at all?" Eddie answers with a hint of his annoyed little goblin voice slipping out.

"I literally was just talking about Elves and Wizards. Of course, I listen to you," Steve thinks for a moment as there is a gentle knocking at the door and a tiny yip.

"Oh fuck! Ms Montarello," Steve exclaims, leaping out of his seat and sending Eddie's head down to the sofa with a thud, and frantically searches around for some trousers, but there are none. There haven't been any trousers for two days now.

After the Sunday night sleepover, Steve's home had basically become a love nest. They'd stocked up on decadent foods and drinks, got a pile of movies and a stack of records, and had yet to be apart since then. The lack of jeans or any kind of trousers was because it was hot as hell and just comfier. Or at least those were the reasons they had decided on together. Eddie parading around in a snug set of boxer briefs all day was hardly the most taxing thing to look at. Steve got the feeling that previously they must have spent a lot of time this way because it just felt natural to do. Despite their outfits and closeness, nothing further than a heavy make-out session had happened. There was almost a moment on Monday reasonably early on after breakfast, and if you had asked Steve a few weeks ago to put money on who would put a stop to that, he would have lost the lot.

Eddie had been in Steve's lap, busy kissing him into outer space, and his hips had ground down towards Steve's. Once. Being a man almost trained to pick up on these queues, Steve, maybe a little too eagerly, had merely suggested they take this upstairs, but Eddie looked at him with those big eyes and shook his head in a no. He said not yet, and Steve was obviously ok with that, he wasn't in a rush or frustrated, but he was curious. So he asked if Eddie was ok, was he worried about anything? Eddie had just laughed and said no. He explained that he just wanted a little time to have those in-between experiences with Steve. Like they might have done if Eddie hadn't left. He said he found that as he got older, those steps got thrown out quickly or skipped over entirely, and he wanted them. Needless to say, Steve was more than happy to oblige, and, truthfully, it had a whole lot of fun and made the anticipation of the ultimate deed that much more exciting. Deep down, Steve agreed. Sure, sex was great, but it had become so expected in his and, from the sounds of it, Eddie’s experience, it was refreshing to do things a little differently. Plus, there was the added bonus of feeling like a kid again. The only disappointment was that he’d gained no new memories, which meant all this was uncharted territory.

"I'll be right there, Ms Montarello!!" Steve yells at the door stumbling towards the staircase.

"Graceful, as shit", Eddie chuckles, waving his hand at Steve. "Want me to stall for you?" he asks, but Steve freezes and looks wide-eyed at Eddie. He can see the mischief blooming on his face.

"Do not open that door, Eddie. I swear to Christ, she's old ok. She'll have a heart attack or something with you dressed like that," Steve says in his firmest tone, pointing an accusing finger at Eddie.

"Hey, if she's old, she's seen plenty. She'll be fine. They're like shorts, really," Eddie says reassuringly.

"Eddie. I mean it. Do not open that door! Everyone knows her around here!" Steve says, panic in his voice, and looks hard at Eddie, waiting for him to confirm he'll do as asked.

"Fine! I won't open the door, ok? Relax!" Steve takes that as his opportunity to run up the remainder of the stairs. "She'll have to meet me eventually. You can't hide our forbidden love forever, Steve." Eddie shouts up the stairs after him.

As Steve throws himself into the closet, rapidly pushing hangers out of the way, trying to find a nice shirt and slacks combo, he sing-song yells back, "I'm not hiding you, and you know it, I'm hiding your current outfit."

He hurriedly puts them on and finds a set of Oxford brogues, lacing them up quickly and racing back down the stairs, almost slipping down the last two, remembering to halt at the last mirror before the front door, smooths over his hair and quickly slaps on some cologne, adjusting his collar to hide a small blooming bruise on his neck. His next step is halted. He smiles hugely. Usually, he is tugging at his collar to hide scars from traumatic events, but today he was just hiding evidence of his overly enthusiastic lover. Finally, he gets to the living room, and there is a worrying absence of his boyfriend. "Eddie?" He calls out quietly, but there is no response.

Steve opens the front door to greet his client, but she's nowhere to be seen either. Then he hears her laughing and follows the sound, and there she is, sweet, little Ms Montarello in her mid-70s, sitting on the grass with an ice-pop in her hand, giggling. Next to her, lying on the grass, is Eddie, just in his boxer briefs, laughing and pretending to hold back the small dog that is desperate to lick his face. All the sirens in Steve's head go off at once, but he has to not lose his shit in front of a client. Sure, he didn't need to do the job, but it kept him in the community circle. He swallows down his worry and puts on his customer-facing mask. He smiles so wide it's hurting his face and gives a big neighbourly wave as he calls out to her, "Ms Montarello. Hi! Sorry about the delay. I er…"

"Got caught up on the phone, didn't you?" Eddie adds, making goofy faces at the tiny Brussels Griffon on his chest, before turning to Ms Montarello. "He's so in demand these days, must be wonderful customers like you spreading the good word Ms…" Eddie pretends to be thinking, and Steve is trying desperately to hide his annoyance.

"Oh, call me Monty. All my friends do" She beams at Eddie and taps his arm. He turns back to look at Steve with a smug grin. She'd never told Steve to call her Monty. She giggles and turns to him, "Oh yes, Flossie and I thoroughly enjoy our classes here. It would be selfish of me not to share, now, wouldn't it? I was quite perturbed to not find you already set up outside as normal. So naturally, I was worried."

"Naturally", Eddie echoes, playing with the dog. Earning him another pat on the shoulder from his new best friend, Monty.

"But then your lovely friend here informed me through the window you were caught up on the phone." Steve's hands naturally migrate to his hips when he looks back at the window and can see the faint markings where various parts of Eddie had been pressed against the glass. Steve's eye twitches. He needed to remember to be more specific when asking anything of Eddie. "Then he offered me a drink, but I thought we'd be underway soon enough, but I did ask if he had another ice-pop on account of it being so warm out."

"So warm," Eddie repeats.

Steve desperately tries to keep the smile on his face when he realises that telling Eddie what to do, had somehow sent him into rebel mode. So not only had he talked to the client, through the window, with only his underwear on, but he'd been sucking on an ice-pop the whole time too.

"Unfortunately, he said it was the last one, but he'd only just started it and was happy to trade if I let him play with Flossie here. Which I thought was awfully kind of him, on account of it being so terribly hot," she says, and her eyes trail over Eddie on the grass.

"Was absolutely worth the trade. Flossie, here is a credit to you, Monty. She's such a good girl," Eddie says, deepening his voice, eyes focused on the dog, and Steve can see Ms Montarello slowly losing her grip on the ice-pop stick in her hand as it drops to the grass and she tugs at the collar of her blouse, with her other hand, her eyes shamefully still trailing over Eddie.

"Well, yes, that sounds great. Thank you, Eddie. I'll take it from here." Steve says wanting this whole thing to be over as soon as possible, and maybe his brain will let him forget this, too, one day.

"Well, it was lovely to meet you, Flossie" Eddie ruffles the dog's fur, reaches out for Ms Montarello's gloved hand, and kisses the back of it, "And you, dearest Monty."

"Yes, probably best to get inside now, Eddie. The weather might turn, don't want you to catch a cold or anything," Steve tries to joke. Eddie smiles at him and gets up to his knees before Ms Montarello stops him.

"Here, dear, in case you do catch a cold" She reaches into her purse, pulls out a few wrapped hard candies and hands them to Eddie.

"Awww, Monty, you're really too kind" Eddie smiles sweetly at her, and she blushes back, "Now where can I keep these, hmmm" Eddie tucks the two candies in the waistband of his briefs, gets up and walks pasts, Steve. "You're welcome," he whispers as he walks past back into the house, turning back to send a dainty finger wave back to Ms Montarello.

"Get inside!" Steve says through his gritted teeth smile.

"So bossy, Steve!" Eddie teases back, "No candy for you, big boy" He laughs and wags a finger, closing the door behind him.

Steve claps his hands together, "Let's get started, shall we?"

He extends the crook of his elbow to Ms Montarello, who takes it, and with Flossie at his heel, they walk around to the tiny agility area.

"Mr Harrington, a question if I may?"

"Absolutely, Ms Montarello, ask away" He knows he can't refuse or upset the matriarch of the area. Especially seeing as Zee was moving on to high school in a year, he needed to be on the right side of the right people, so she could have her pick. Zee was plenty smart and talented, but that wasn't always how it worked around places like this.

"Your friend, Eddie. Is he just visiting?"

"Well, that is yet to be decided, but I think he'll be here the rest of this week at least. Now, what were we working on? Retrieval?" Steve starts to feel very eager to return to the safe topic of dog training.

"And is he a business associate, or an old friend, or maybe something else" Steve could hear the hint in her voice.

"Oh, he's definitely something else, that guy," Steve says, trying not to laugh and decides to do the right thing, "Eddie is my partner," Steve answers. "My boyfriend…you know…romantically," he corrects and braces himself.

"Well, now, isn't that nice?" She chuckles to herself, "Such a sweet pair you make. Though I dare say there will be a few upsets in the area, now you won't be our most eligible divorcee any more." She removes her little white gloves, "You've made the correct choice in my mind, though, Mr Harrington. If I was in my prime, and my choices were someone like your beau or one of the prim and proper, stuck-up little bore fests living around here. I know I'd happily be living on ice-pops for the rest of my days," she laughs, and Steve relaxes a little, laughing with her. "I appreciate I'm held high on a pedestal around here, but it is refreshing to be treated normally for once."

"He's good at that", a newly relaxed Steve adds fondly with a big genuine smile, "Seeing people as the same, being kind and also, I should give you fair warning, kind of a menace."

"How long have you been together?"

"A few days", his reply caused a super surprised look on her face. The fact even surprises himself. Yes, it had been a few days on paper, but it was more complex than that. "I know, I know, it's weird, it's complicated"

"Well, it looks good on you. You don't look so tired, and your eyes are sparkling like they used to. A few days! My, my. Do they bottle him?" She says kindly, patting his arm and laughing.

"Thank you. I was worried how people might respond to me, having had a wife and kids and now a boyfriend. I wasn't gonna hide him. I was worried about how people might react and would deal with the consequences if they turned up. By the way, please don't tell him about that bottle idea, Ms Montarello. Like I said, he's already a menace and doesn't need that ego of his any further inflated than it already is."

"Don't you worry about that, Mr Harrington. You've got Flossie and I on your team. If I hear anyone say a peep about it, consider them done. Not even welcome at the Halloween pie contest. "

"You'd shut them out of the pie contest??!" Steve gasps like he just heard the most scandalous news of the century, and honestly, round here, it really was. It was one of the significant events in this community.

"And then some!" She says emphatically.

"Oh well, do I have a replacement baker waiting in the wings" Steve starts to tell her all about Morgan's baking talent as he sets up the mini-course for Flossie.

An hour and a half later, the lesson is over. It was only supposed to be an hour, but Steve threw in an extra thirty minutes of free time for the inconvenience, and her driver waited with no complaints as usual. He waves Flossie and Ms Montarello goodbye and heads inside.

A freshly-showered-dressed-in-some-of-Steve's-clothes-Eddie sits at the table staring at something on it. His hand rubbing at his chin, and his brow slightly furrowed in thought.

"Eddie? You ok?" Steve asks, sitting at the table next to him and observing the object. It's a conference telephone, and he can see that Eddie has plugged it into the wall. Steve feels a slight pang of tension when he sees that Eddie has tampered with the phone line, but he presses the button on the conference phone, and the dial tone works fine, and he relaxes again. "Eddie, you might have thought you did. But you haven't answered me. Are you ok?" Steve tries again. A habit that Steve picked up quite quickly about Eddie in the last two days when occupied by thought or task, he has totally heard you ask him a question but doesn't reply. Steve at first thought he was ignoring him, but it turns out that Eddie just has a chatty brain, and sometimes he thinks he's answered, but all he has done is said it in his head.

"Yeah…so I went to find a towel for my shower, and I opened this cupboard, and it didn't have towels, but it had loads of cool, weird stuff in it, and this is the first thing I saw, and I thought" he looks up at Steve, "I thought maybe we could call them?"

Them. It's such a small word for so much. When what Eddie means by the look on his face is everyone. Everyone that knew them before he left. The way he'd waited for Steve before taking any action indicated he needed some help. He was worried about something, so Steve takes a guess. He reaches out and holds Eddie's hand, "Listen, if you do or don't wanna tell people about us, I'm happy with that, ok? And you don't have to answer if they ask you about something you don't want to talk to them about. I'll be right here to run interference if you need me to, ok? You don't need to tell them anything you don't want to" Eddie silently nods at Steve, and a small smile grows on his face as he squeezes Steve's hand.

"I thought maybe we could start easy? Call Wayne? I mean, he knows, but, um, he hasn't spoken to you, and I think he'd like that. Then maybe Dustin? If we asked, he could be a little foghorn of gossip for us?" Eddie looks at Steve in a way that he's looking for guidance, another squeeze on Steve's hand.

"It doesn't have to be so official, you know, honey? People can just find out when they find out. I don't feel hidden, and I hope you don't either" Steve studies Eddie's face for a reaction, "Earlier was just about how you were dressed, that's all. I told Ms Montarello you're my partner, my boyfriend. I didn't hide you. I don't ever want to do that." Steve chooses his following words carefully, "I care about you so much. I'm so happy you are back in my life, and not only that, but you're mine, and I'm yours."

"Ok. I guess I just thought if I tell people over the phone, then I don't have to see their reaction to…me being…er…you know…out" Something's gnarled twists in Steve when he thinks about Eddie opening up to someone and them making him feel bad about himself, especially about something that wasn't anything to be ashamed of. He wishes he had the name and address of whoever it was, so he could beat them down so bad their new address would be 1 Earth’s Core. But, instead, Steve channels his anger at these unknown persons into the call button on the conference phone by aggressively pushing it, the dial tone ringing out.

"You know what honey if you wanna call every goddamn person in the phone book, and we just leave answerphone messages like. Hi, I'm Steve, and this is Eddie, and we're gay for each other, and there is nothing you can do about it. I say let's do it. Let's call them all." He yells, stabbing his finger down hard into the table several times. Eddie's face seems alarmed, but a smile teases at the corners of his mouth. He seemed to like it when Steve got worked up in his defence. Steve decides to file this away for later.

Steve uses his hand to pretend he has a phone to his ear, "Hello? Hello?! Is that the white house? Yes, patch me through to the president. I have some huge news for him" Eddie smiles bashfully at Steve, his sweet dimples starting to show. "Hello? Is that Mr Hetfield? Yeah, yeah, uh-huh, just calling to let you know you missed out big time. Wait, what do you mean Eddie's the love of your life. No, do not. Don't you dare come round here. I swear James-" Steve looks horrified at his imaginary phone, "Can you believe that guy? Rockstars, man, so rude!" Eddie’s dimples are in full bloom, a slight flush of pink on his cheeks, and his shoulders shake a little with quiet laughter.

Eddie gets out of his seat and sits on Steve's lap with a sigh, running his fingers through the side of Steve's hair and looking happily into his eyes, "How d'you know what to do all the time?" Steve gets completely lost in the connection, smiling up at him, blissed out.

"I don't. I just try stuff and see if I can get your beautiful smile to turn up," Steve says dreamily in reply.

"But it's not just with me. It's with your kids and how you handle all that, like another guy being involved, and you're just like, oh, it's fine, we’re best buds. Even before, people looked to you for what to do, even if it was someone else's plan. Then, when things started to go south, the kids still looked to you, and you were always there for everyone. You keep everyone safe. How can one man do all that?" Eddie mutters, absent-mindedly twisting at a small curl piece of hair that flicked out at the nape of Steve’s neck.

"Oh well, that's the thing. I don't do it all myself. I do all that stuff because I can't live without the people I care about. Without them, I'm nothing. I need them. So when I try to make you laugh, I'm not just doing it so you get over something; selfishly, I'm not just doing it to cheer you up. I'm also doing it because when you laugh because of me, I feel worth something. So when I threw myself into the stupid situations first, yeah, I wanted to protect them, but not just to keep them alive, not to be a hero, but so I had a purpose, a use. I can do things that matter, for the people I care about, so they can be around because I need them."

Eddie's ringed hand take hold of Steve's jaw and tilts it up for a kiss, "You're my hero. Always will be." He says before kissing him again. "And you are gonna have to act the part right now, in fact."

"Huh?" Steve replies, half-dazed from the last spine-tingling kiss.

"Well, let me ask you this. If I randomly just brought up one of the names of one of your favourite basketball players in an attempt to cheer you up. How would you feel about that?" Eddie gently asks the fingers of his other hand, massaging the back of Steve's head, making it very difficult to concentrate on what he's saying.

"I guess I'd think that was really hot" Steve's brain manages to give him some simple words to barely say. That's not all he's thinking, though. If Eddie even remembered a sports team that Steve liked, he'd be so blown away by the effort he'd probably have to restrain himself from pouncing on him. Steve furrows his brow in thought and looks at Eddie, who is raising his eyebrows and smiling to encourage him.

"And just in case you forgot, not only did you bring up one of my musical heroes, but before we were rudely interrupted earlier, you were talking about Wizards and Elves?" Eddie tries to helpfully suggest, gently stroking the side of Steve’s neck, and his eyes flick up to the ceiling and the penny drops for Steve.

"Oh! Oh, I see…well, in that case." Steve scoops Eddie in his arms to carry him and then stands up, making Eddie squeak excitedly. "Let me tell you more about what I know," Steve says, walking towards the stairs. 'I know some wizard names Gandalf, Radagast, Saruman" Eddie makes an approving noise and unbuttons one of Steve's shirt buttons as he carries him up the stairs, "I know that if you roll a 20 on one of those funny-looking dice, it's a critical success, but even then in some cases that doesn't mean you automatically can do anything you want" another button is popped open. Eddie gently plants kisses along his jaw as they reach the second part of the staircase, "I also know that the guy in Megadeth used to be in Metallica, and his name is…." Eddie kisses Steve's neck, and all the names in the universe apart from Eddie's leave his brain, but then Eddie stops and waits as Steve carries him up the last few stairs, "And his name is…oh come on, brain,” Steve says kicking open the door to his room, "his name is Mustang…no it's Mustaine!! Dave, Dave Mustaine,'' Steve says finally, Eddie still in his arms, looking wide-eyed at Steve.

"Hey, you don't have any plans tonight, do you?" Eddie asks.

"Just spending time with you," Steve says, spinning them around.

"That's good news because what I'm about to do, is definitely gonna put you out of action for the rest of today" Then, faster than Steve can fathom, Eddie completely turns the tables and has Steve over his shoulder. "And then, like the awesome housewife I am, I'm gonna feed you the best damn brisket you've ever had in your life. How can I be sure of that, you ask? Well, because in about two to three hours, once you've come round, you are going to be absolutely ravenous" Steve is giggling furiously just because of the surprise, but before he can catch his breath, Eddie has dropped him onto the bed "Hold on tight to something, sweetheart. I'm about to rock your world," Eddie laughs before straddling Steve's legs and leaning down to kiss him.

#steddie #steddie fan fiction #eddie munson x steve harrington #steddie fan fic #steddiefanfiction #steddiefanfic #madaboutmunson #madaboutmunsonagain #eddie munson #steve harrington

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ssreeder · 11 months

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mmk letting you know I’m alive

even though I’m still lowkey sick??!?! sick under situations of duress (ie my sister sat on me like I was a GODDAMN HORSE and induced a coughing fit despite me thinking I was recovered) (my sister is not a small sister though, my sister is 21 and Tall so maybe coughing was a reasonable bodily reaction idk)

anyways suki thoughts: I would literally be devastated if I were her and the boy I liked appeared to reciprocate my feelings and then I found out that not only did he FULLY LIE TO ME ABOUT ALMOST EVERYTHING but also was actually interested in somebody else. I would not have been the bigger person that suki was I would’ve told sokka to go fuck himself and then gone off to wallow and shit talk him with the girlies.

but then again when the katara lying to zuko about being sokka sitch went down I wouldn’t have hesitated to pretend like she did so… maybe I’m just a bad person. (jokes, I totally think suki was valid for her response and I actually think it was an insanely emotionally mature response???? like being emotionally mature is about recognising your emotions and reacting appropriately so you don’t hurt others in the process unnecessarily, NOT ignoring your emotions/not having them to begin with so you can always put the feelings of others before your own and have the “ideal” reaction… not to be too deep about this AND I DONT THINK PEOPLE MEANT IT TO COME ACROSS LIKE THIS but it also makes me feel kinda iffy about the fact that suki a teenage girl is being criticised for letting her own valid emotions get in the way of her assisting sokka a boy through his trauma.. kinda giving women expected to perform emotional labour for men all the time…….. OBVIOUSLY A LOT OF THIS SENTIMENTALITY IS BC WE KNOW HOW FUCKING HARD SOKKA HAS IT AND HOW ITS THE TRAUMA THATS CAUSED HIM TO BEHAVE THIS WAY but it’s still not sukis job to “fix him” especially as a priority to her own well-being. and idk it makes me think about whether the reaction would be the same if the situation were reversed. MAYBE IT WOULD BE !! sorry I just have a lot of thoughts about arbitrary expectations regarding traditional gender roles T-T)

anyways this was supposed to be a short ask to let you know I’m alive and once again it got out of hand. SMASHING YOUR LIGHTBULBS *mwah*

~also I’ll share my iroh theories next chappie reaction REMIND ME TO DO IT I CANT FORGET SREEDIE PLS I HAVE SO MANY OPINIONS~

LEEEEEEEEKKKKKKIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE

hi.

Ok you had better not still be sick or like WTF. you need a dr.

Hahaha - the way you rationally state the facts of the situation between Sokka & Suki is so funny because you actually bring up a lot of great points & you do it with so much flare.

Is Suki responsible for catering to Sokkas emotional reaction to his trauma by being overly understanding and making justifications for what he did?

Should Suki have stayed and allowed Sokka to drag her back into a situation that made her emotional and uncomfortable?

Should Sokka have accountability for his actions & not be allowed to blame his trauma for hurting sukis feelings? Or was he justified for what he did because he is obviously in a bad place and we know how mentally fucked he is right now?

Is Sokka or Suki responsible for the others emotional well being in any capacity if they are just friends? & how far should they be willing to go? At what level does it become too emotionally draining and toxic?

I DONT KNOW LEEKIE,,, I JUST DONT KNOW!! I love how you look at gender roles and I think the situation is interpreted differently by each individual who looks at it based on how they would react and the expectations they have for characters to perform a certain way.

I love complex situations & how many different right & wrong ways it can go…. Hehehe *skips happily*

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Hey, maybe you have spoken on this somewhere, and I just missed it, so if so my apologies, but I would love to know why exactly you dont like 1995 p and p, my family and I have always loved it

I've talked about it many times over the years, but only a little lately, which may be how you missed it since I can be fairly tedious on this point. There are so many different things I dislike about it that it can be difficult to summarize (though I particularly dislike its approach to Darcy).

To attempt it, though:

Taken on its own terms, the 1995 P&P is quite good TV and a good period drama. Taken as an adaptation of Austen's P&P, I think it combines a superficial appearance of fidelity with variously caricatured, over-simplified, or simply bad interpretations of the characters and relationships. This is so consistent across the entire production with the exception of Jennifer Ehle's Elizabeth—who I don't love as Elizabeth but who doesn't seem treated with quite so heavy a hand—that I don't see this as an acting issue, but more of the vision of the creators which is executed quite well by the actors, but which I dislike.

For instance, Benjamin Whitrow's Mr Bennet is well-acted in terms of what I think they wanted him to be, it's a good performance, but also, a lot of the bite of Austen's approach to him is minimized (all the more by contrast to the very OTT Mrs Bennet).

So when I say that I hate Colin Firth's Darcy in particular, it's not that I think CF does a bad job as an actor (though I do think he was miscast for other reasons), it's that I think the production's fundamental approach to the character is ill-conceived and that carries over into writing, direction, framing, all kinds of things. Even when I first watched it as a teenager and liked a lot of it, the presentation of Darcy always bugged me. I don't like the treatment of the Darcy-Elizabeth dynamic at Netherfield, I don't like how they handle his letter, I don't like the wet shirt scene, I don't like the general humorless oversexualized brooding.

On top of that, the fact that its very specific interpretations are often regarded so completely uncritically makes it difficult to be impartial. You get things like Elizabeth's lines about marrying for love and joking about ending up a spinster—a moment invented by the 1995 P&P and not necessarily true of Austen's character, but re-created over and over in subsequent adaptations because of the 1995's enormous influence on perception of what P&P is. As a consequence, it can be intensely frustrating for those of us who disagree with its interpretations and dislike the P&P 1995-inflected fanon that permeates Austen fandom, because we can't get away from it.

I got into Austen fandom just a couple of years before the 2005 came out and so many 1995 fans were so offended that anyone would ever make another version of P&P because most of the fandom took it as an article of faith that Austen's vision had been perfectly distilled and represented in the 1995, and that everyone agreed with them. Even before the 2005, that utterly uncritical perspective on the 1995 was so inescapable that it was deeply aggravating for me as a fan of the book who didn't much like Andrew Davies's whole deal and would only dislike it more with time.

So I'm not pretending to be unbiased, but I truly believe it is very flawed as an adaptation of the novel, that its portrayal of Darcy is especially flawed, and that the issues in Davies's approach to Austen, which would become more glaring in his later Austen adaptations, are already present in the 1995 P&P and it's far from the one true version of P&P that so many of its fans present it as.

#being a teenage lesbian darcy fan in 2003 with EVERYONE reducing interest in him to het women loving 34-y-o colin firth #when i passionately hated the 1995 and especially hated the wet shirt scene #was one of my formative fandom experiences #getting corrected on ff.net because i didn't go with 1995-based fanon was also part of it!#so yeah i am not at all unbiased but i do genuinely dislike a lot of it #eamonorus blog #respuestas #austen fanwank #austen blogging #anghraine rants #andrew davies critical #lady anne blogging #every time i see posts having meltdowns about rop specifically for doing things differently than our lord and savior peter jackson #not even that differently! just sort of differently!#i just. flash back to 2005 lol #long post

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augh okay sorry one sec. little thing about gender dysphoria and like............transphobia under the cut i just need to get it off my chest (haha.)

it IS the way ive come out to my mother ..... a number of times over my life and like. not always gender but most of the time gender. she accepted my attractions with grace but my gender would become a debate. a personal attack. my mother was never happy or identified with womanhood, she was moulded into something unhappy by forced femininity and age took even that from her. she doesnt like that i dont identify with it in a way that she was forced to. she doesnt force me but she resents that i reject it. that i want to be masculine but i am happy with being femme. she doesnt understand it. she thinks its normal to feel this disillusionment and ill grow to accept it. i dont know how to tell her that how i feel about my gender is not womanhood.

she seems to have gotten . used to it. that i go by different names. that i dont identify with womanhood. but she doesnt understand. she hears about other trans people and seems to make the connection to me when she tells me about it, but im afraid to bring myself up again in case the core of me becomes a topic for debate again. i feel like asking her sometimes if she knows im not a girl. theres a weight that keeps my mouth shut

i asked her today to call me rook. asked her if shed call me that if i asked, if i wanted. asked her to do that. she said its a lot to ask because shes used my deadname for my whole life, and she has a bad memory. i asked her to try. i dont know how to tell her that from her my name feels sick. that from her, "she/her" makes me flinch

at work i can pretend that its a performance, even if its eaten at me for months. im a 'girl'. i am assumed to be a girl. its not a performance i have to try at. i wish it was. i told someone that im not a girl this week because shes one of the closest things i have to a peer + friend at work. her surprise hurt me but not more than the relief of being able to say it.

#girl idk. sorry i just needed to sit here and type words

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idk exactly how to explain it but. just. 4 UR ENTERTAINMENT by chandler leighton is such a rise leo song. the thing in general is just so...im tired of who ive become. it feels like leo staring at the person hes become after the kraang and sighing softly, so, so tired. it feels like something hed sing at karaoke and reveal the him a couple layers deeper than he usually lets people see. every time i hear it i see him singing it with this wry smile, humming it under his breath in the kitchen, listening to it on loop after he first hears it and thinking too hard about it. its the name of one of my leo playlists that are more like 'leo would so make this', theres one called 'im so sick of my own shit'. here let me grab lyrics just to prove it to you (under the cut bc this got kind of long lmao)

this is just so. like. ofc insomniac leo but as for the the last two lines in the first verse. like i feel insane every time i hear this song and think of leo bc ive completely changed its meaning but it still feels so right to me?? just leo wishing he could be more boring, that this performance hes putting on could lose its steam. thats how the pre chorus applies, too, this song to me in a leo context is just about leo being tired of the act hes put on. tired of being there for the kicks and giggles, tired of having to pretend he doesnt care so people dont worry about him for being worried about them, this 4D chess game hes playing with his family to be who hes always been. ok moving on though theres more

this part is just so . ough. i hate the way everyone loves it. i can see leo stepping back with a rue smile as he sings it DO YOU SEE MY VISION. forget my own name can totally be metaphor'd into forgetting who he is too ok. and its like, when did i become this? when i did become someone so me yet not? YOU KNOW

NOBODY KNOWS HOW BADLY I WANNA GO HOME . GIRL. the lair the trauma after the kraang the person hes become CMON!!! they say that im built different. and now im just an actress, trying to keep up with the habits, trying to keep up with the joking act hes put up. DO YOU UNDERSTAND. DO YOU SEE MY VIISON!!!! this is bad for him he just wants to stop being what hes become hes backed himself into this corner. TRUST ME IT MAKES SENSE. ill have to make another post on my 'leo is leo but hes definitely putting up an act and the person he is has been suffocated' beliefs. or like. multiple that coalesce into the same idea i have so many leo ideas .

THIS LINE THIS FUCKGIHGLFANLDFJSGLKFJ LINE . god its the core of this. hes so so tired. but he cant change what hes become now because his family will worry. gotta give the people what they want. i cant turn it off, i cant calm down, i cant worry, i cant turn off the jokes and the humor, i have to be the levity. DO YOUS EE-

this part makes me nearly explode every time i hear this fucking song. take my face off just to put it back on, masks over masks, a brief reprieve before he has to keep acting like him but not-quite-him. no one really knows me, there are parts of leo hes hidden, there are parts of leo he doesnt let his family see, there are parts of him that will worry them that will make them see him as different that theyll tease. no one knows him, he just has to keep this up, find comfort in the box hes backed himself up into. god, if this is the show, then wheres all the applause. i cant even explain why that and the last line fit leo i just. why arent you clapping, god, ive done so much to make this perfect. i know its wrong, the ways ive molded myself, but here i am. YOU KNOW.

anyways this was my psa that 4 ur entertainment is a peak leo song. its been haunting me for over a month and its always been very leo to me plus it honestly slaps pretty hard so im glad to finally share it properly!! with the leo analysis and all, lmao

#i was listening to 4 ur entertainment on loop the whole time i was making this post adjfljs #4 ur entertainment my beloved ough #it also makes me go ballistic and so does leo so thats part of why i slowly went absolutely feral writing this post lmao #rottmnt #rise analysis #rottmnt leo #lunas lies

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Hey. I'm from the Netherlands, a 14 years old girl, so if you are uncomfy with a minor reaching out to you, dont feel obligated to answer this ask. This question also includes mental issues, so also if you are uncomfy, please delete this ask.

I have issues with my parents, since I'm a minor I cannot leave them. They aren't abusing me in any way, I just find their personalities not fitting with mine at all. Most of the time I feel like picking fights with them because they just make me hate them so much. They talk a lot about peoples backs and insult people. They fatshame people a lot and are really hypocritic. (I have a problem with hypocritic people in general.) They call themselves Christians while they (especially my father) are acting like total morons.

I am 14 years old, which means I have to live another 4 years with them. Another 4 years of pretending to be the perfect daughter, just because I cant permit to be in a '4 years hating each other' situation. I'm close to collapsing, I'm both mentally and physically tired. Once I can let down my facade, I have breakdowns non-stop, I've been cutting and I have problems with eating.

I have a dream, which is to become a kpop singer. Now, I might sound as a weird kpop fan. I love singing and music, I cant live without it. I would do anything to both get myself out of this situation and achieve my dream. (Kpop because they have those promotion things, which means performing more)

My parents obviously dont support that dream. They also dont support my sexuality, and dont know I have a girlfriend, they think we're having a platonic relation. This makes me sad, mostly because whenever I visit her and her family, they make me feel worthy of living. But when I return home, it's like my situation slaps me in the face and I have to pretend again.

Today, they discovered my wrist and now they want to talk. I don't want to talk to those people to invent my private space or tell me that they love me. They are intruders of my life, and they've hurt me. I have a brother, which is their son and they insult and neglect their own fucking son for his hobbies and the fact that he curses a lot. While my father does the same.

I don't want to live like this anymore. I'd so much rather live like a trainee, a life called difficult by most people. I'd so much rather live as a hated person like Wonyoung, because then I wouldn't have to see those hurt eyes from people that love me. Because I cant take that, my parents looking at me like that.

I cant live like this anymore. I don't want to see them anymore. I want them dead honestly. Please believe me if I say that I'm slowly dissapearing and only my worries are left. Because this is only a part of what's going on in my brain. I have autism and am highly intellegent. I overthink and overthink things. I'm driving myself crazy and am not blaming anyone. At the same time, I'm blaming every hypocritic ass. My parents, my school, my supposed friends. Will I be able to live like a human? Or is this just what human life is like?

I'm sorry for making this a long essay, but I'm asking you for advice. If you dont want to give advice, please delete this ask. If you do want to, thanks.

Okay,first of all it's fine, I don't mind. And I really really want to let you know, you are not alone. Sometimes being with your family is somewhere you don't feel like you belong. And you want more then anything to be somewhere you belong. You are not alone. I think my only advice is to not give up, even though it may feel like this if the only life you will ever know. That's just the circumstances talking to you. You just have to not give up, hang in there. Try to find a family within your friends. My best friend is like my sister and she's one of the people I trust the most in the world. And the moment you can spend most of your days with them things will feel so much lighter.

And four years feels like a long time. But it will go by so quickly so in the meantime research and save money and figure out the best way to reach your dreams and ignore anyone who tries to discourage you because you can do anything you set your mind to. And sometimes even adults have to keep secrets from their family, my family doesn't know I'm bi, they don't even know where I'm going or who I'm with when I go out at night. Sometimes it's hard to be who you really are with your family.

As for self harm and having issues with eating please be kind to yourself, you don't deserve to be treated like that You deserve love and kindness and I want you to try to treat yourself with love and kindness and forgiveness. I know it's so much harder said than done. But just try to find a healthier coping mechanism instead of inflicting pain on yourself. And I know you don't want to tell your parents, and I won't judge you if you pass it off as a scrape, a fall or a brush with a fence. I did that when I was your age.

I really don't know if you should tell your parents in my case I was sent to the psychiatric hospital and got therapy and put on anti depressants I still take. but I know in some cases the family reacts differently. If anyone has any better advice they could provide, that would be great. Sadly I'm still in the mindset I was when I was 12 to 15 about it and still struggle with it. But if anyone has better advice please give it. But I just want to tell you is to not give up or lose hope. It will get better.

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