#and i haven't even met these people

[thronealigned]

no it's fine this mind flayer is totally my friend and 100% honest with me all the time it's ok it likes me everything's so normal

#bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #i love how raphael directly calls you out on this. 'if id have known you were so gullible i wouldve tricked you into selling your soul for #a bowl of beans when we first met' #and then just keeps insulting you more if you keep insisting emp's really your ally #oc: impulse #sure this'll go in their tag #everything about impulse's Thing with the emperor is so funny to me. and then deeply fucked up if you think about it long enough. and then #really funny again if you think about it even longer #one day i'll do their 2.0 playthrough so i can fully form all my thoughts. and get better screenshots and the ceremorphosis ending #i mean there's nothing stopping me from loading an impulse 1.0 save and going ceremorphosis from there but idk it'd feel wrong #impulse has more tadpoles in their brain than synapses by act 3 and it does really fundamentally change them as a person #tfw your chaotic neutral act-first-ask-questions-never no-impulse-control 17 CHA bestie becomes one of the most detached calculating people #you've ever met. all their old casual wit and humor is still there but they think before they speak now and that really shouldnt feel as #sinister as it does. they have this look in their eye and it feels like they view everyone around them as lesser beings #not because they view other people as subhuman or worse than they are but because they view themself as something *more* #if they have any raw unfiltered emotion left you haven't seen it in weeks. there's one person(?) who gets Unrestrained Feelings privileges #and it's the fucking illithid that lives in their mind and not any of their actual non-monster normal-ish-person friends. that human #connection is fading so fast now. when did they change so much? it happened so slowly in the moment but suddenly now they seem like they #were never the person you became friends with at all #and like impulse is a pretty selfish person from the start but they *did* genuinely like and care about the rest of the party. they were #friends. and by the end of act 3 that friendship should be the deepest and most meaningful it's ever been. but. it just isn't. #so on and so forth etc etc like that. All That Bullshit makes their relationship with lae'zel so interesting (and upsetting) too #they encourage her to side against vlaakith and then they never even try to free orpheus for her and her people's sake. they never even #think about it. they never consider it as an option. they just don't care. and then they EAT HIS BRAIN. #very possibly RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER. #and she's just left adrift. a rebel with no rebellion to lead and very little hope #i'm unwell. #ok i'm done this is a silly meme post. but god i have so many thoughts i have barely been keeping contained

[your-dads-filing-cabinet]

MLM enjoyers having three very different experiences on the trending tab today

#hello fellow old people #spn #hello even older people #911 #i haven't met you but i am offering cookies you're going through a lot right now #alien stage #🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪 #gods i hope there isn't anyone that's all three they're gonna be unlocking shrimp emotions

[heroes-fading]

tw for pretty in-depth discussion of fictional suicide attempts/suicidal ideation ///

i just. think a Lot about how the idea of “well ellie should have had a choice!” often ignores the implied fact that ellie, on the day she was entering the hospital, was struggling with some degree of suciidal ideation to the point where joel opened up about his attempt and ellie’s immediate response was:

“i know why you’re telling me this”

because she’d been so nonresponsive, so far removed from her usual self in her depression, that joel was worried for her and thought the story of him recovering from his attempt, feeling that hopeless, would resonate with her.

“yeah, i reckon you do” -- that’s....yeah. 

and she goes for the “time heals all wounds” to wrap it in a bow-- the cliche of “it gets better, you just have to give it time” that we give to people struggling especially with suicidial thoughts and joel in a moment of rare vulnerability says “it wasn’t time that did it” -- him telling her that he loves her and cares about her, that that is what healed him, that that is why he’s opening himself up because he doesn’t want her to hurt like he did. that it’s not just going to be time, he’s here and he’s not going anywhere whatever healing looks like for her. and it hits her like a gut punch because it’s the last thing she’s expecting and the thing that breaks through to her.

so if you’re asking the teenager with sucidial ideation, who has spent her entire life being told by an institution that she is inherently expendable and her life is worth nothing, coupled with her mom’s friend echoing that same sentiment -- of course she would have said yes. marlene with the “what would she want?” gee i wonder how putting her in a system that sees her as expendable would affect like worldview on top of countless traumas! and joel is the one person in her life who does not see her as worth sacrificing, who would mourn her and care about her to the point where he’s unwilling to mourn her even if it means she hates him. 

when people we love and care about go through something like that, we don’t go “oh i guess it’s your choice”. it’s “i will drag you kicking and screaming to go on with me if i have to because i love you and i don’t want to do this without you, because you are worth more than how you’re feeling right now.” it’s what tommy did for joel. he dragged him out of that ditch, took him to a medic camp even though joel swears up and down it’s what he wants and never lets him do it again and he can’t go on and do this. it’s what joel does later for ellie. 

so yeah.

no i don’t think joel should’ve woken up ellie like

“r u sure?”

#suicide tw #tw suicide #also #just want to say #if you're reading this and you're feeling this way #you are so many things you don't even know yet #you haven't experienced so much of what your life can be #and you haven't met so many people who you love and will love you #that's what i wish i could tell myself when i was a teenager who felt that way so much of the time #and there will be a day where you'll just be really grateful that you stuck through it because it got you to a better place #anyway #tv: the last of us #lmao how unhinged for me to leave it with that tag #i just cannot get this out of my HEAD

[vulpinesaint]

staring dumbstruck at these tags on one of my little saint sebastian posts. what kind of life are other people living

#'who is out here lusting after saints' you've met someone who was fr about saints and NOT lusting after them????? #i don't think you do love catholics on the internet if you haven't talked enough with one of them to hear them be a freak about a saint #to be fair i am asexual and i don't give a fuck about sex really so 'lusting' to me means any number of things #fixating on saint sebastian. joan of arc gender moments. religious ecstasy of any kind you know how it is #or maybe you don't know how it is. probably the point of it dkfjghs #extra silly though because the whole phenomenon of lusting after saint sebastian is actually extremely well-documented in art history. #maybe my post just jumped to the wrong side of tumblr for people to be generally aware of that though haha #anyway i feel like anyone who believes in saints or is even just strongly connected to the concept of saints #has to be a fucking freak about them SOMEHOW. like i don't think you exist like that without being Weird about it #whatevvvsies anyway haha #valentine notes

[mcrbrainrot]

My Chemical Romance for ever and ever and ever

#I'm never recovering from this #like #i haven't been able to think of anything else since monday night #i met incredible people. i felt such intense emotions. i cried for half of the set. and i just. never even thought i would see them live #mcrla5 #mcr #my chemical romance #mikey way #frank iero #gerard way #ray toro

[jeromesmith]

Found family?.....

I- Well. The only family we have right now is me, Magnus, our two cats, Gravy and Biscuit, and possibly this girl we have been taking care of lately named Stella. No others.

#Well- Hunter and Lily are under my watch.. #But that doesn't necessarily mean that they are part of my family #Just means I'm watching over them to keep them safe #And there is also that kid who keeps getting attacked by that raccoon.. #I think his name was Raddy? #But Raddy can take care of himself #He has people who can help support him already #So I doubt he counts #And then that girl who is part of the fangs and asked me to be there to support her if she needed it #But we haven't even really met in person yet so it definitely doesn't count #So yeah! Magnus Gravy Biscuit and maybe possibly Stella are my family #just role(play) with it #jerome jrwi #jrwi jerome #jrwi rp #jrwi the suckening #in character #jrwi suckening #the suckening

[filet-o-feelings]

Forever grateful for the SC fandom for bringing such amazing and supportive friends into my life.

#some of the best people I know #even if we haven't met yet #but also those of you i have met

[princekirijo]

Finally graduated haha let's go 🥹

#im scheduling this when the ceremony is over just cause #but yeah um wow. can't believe it actually #desperately trying not to cry while typing this haha thing hasn't even started #but i think this is the first time in a while i genuinely feel proud of myself. like fuck me i did it #4 years was a wild ride but here i am!! and yeah im scared about the future but rn im just here with my paper #i also realized that yeah ive been on Tumblr as long as ive been in uni #which is crazy can't believe ive been on here for 4 years (roughly) #but for all the shit that i dislike about this site and as much as it drives me nuts #i do wanna say ive met some wonderful people on here! ive made some friends 🥹 #and yeah i haven't kept up with all of them something im so so guilty about #but i wouldn't be where i am without this blog like unironically #so yeah thank you gay people in my phone you've helped me a lot. more than i care to admit #hope y'all have a great day <33 #thanks for reading my sappy ass tags on Tumblr 😅

[gideonisms]

Also a great time to remember that if your religion tells you things about yourself that you wouldn't put up with hearing from a friend or partner, you don't have to put up with it from god either. You can leave just walk out if it sucks hit the bricks real revolutionary girls quit ❤️

#ladies if he tries to control your every thought & action takes credit for your successes while blaming you for all your struggles #says he's the one in charge of your life and it doesn't matter how you feel about it #makes you feel like you deserve to suffer for even the most minor transgressions like feeling different feelings than some other people #that's not your man! that's a toxic ideology #you can dump him!! #people will tell you that you haven't met the real him. he's actually so great #i promise you've met enough of him to make your own decisions #the thing about toxic boyfriends in your head is that they tell you you can't trust your own feelings #better just do what they say #classic gaslight gatekeep girlboss behavior #just kick him out!

[eugeniedanglars]

actually my hottest take re: buck's love interests isn't even that i like taylor, it's that i think ali is his worst love interest by an enormous margin and i can't believe she's generally the fan favorite after tommy. taylor and abby may have been kind of bad people but ali committed the far worse tv character sin of being boring

#admittedly i haven't met natalia yet but even by osmosis she's made more of an impact on me than ali did in an entire season #literally could not tell you a single thing about ali other than her name because she truly had no personality whatsoever #maybe i need to rewatch the earthquake eps i vaguely remember liking her in those #but the 2? 3? other times she appeared after that she made zero impact. sold paper. didn't chart. #literally every time she showed up i went 'wait they're still supposed to be dating??' #because they spent so little time developing that relationship i honest to god didn't remember they were a couple #and imo the fact that people like her so much says a lot about this fandom wanting female love interests to be silent and offscreen #but that's none of my business 🐸☕️ #911 abc

[boyslit]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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#z plays games badly #I'M SO EXCITED ITS GORGEOUS AND AAAAA NEW PEOPLE NEW PLACES JAZZ AND RAGTIME MUSIC #ART DECO ART DECO ART DECO I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUU #hopping around like a bunny rabbit #I MET MY SON HE'S SO POLITE #SQUEALS I HAVEN'T EVEN MADE IT INTO THE DREAM YET I'VE JUST BEEN RUNNING AROUND #TEAKETTLE NOISES

[kqluckity]

wait if qWilbur is cWilbur but on vacation does it mean his mom is still a samsung smart refrigerator?

#i think the people who haven't met him yet are focusing on the wrong thing (whether he exists or they made him up) #tbf i don't think anyone besides Phil and maybe Q knows about his mom #it would be a funny conversation tho #''you think he doesn't exist? if i told you how he was conceived you'd believe he doesn't exist even more lol'' #<- read in Philza Minecraft voice please #qsmp #mcyt tag

[biromanticbookbabe]

I hate being obsessive over someone. I feel like I'm heading there and I don't want to be overly clingy either. Ugh. I don't know if it's a bipolar thing, a possible crush thing, a loneliness thing or a combo of all three. My medicine has been working pretty good so far but I'm a little concerned that someone is taking up a little too much room in my headspace. I like this person BUT I do not want to slide back into my weird obsessive loops like I used to when crushing. That's embarassing and unhealthy. Ugh.

#I don't think I'm quite obsessed yet but I talk to them a lot #We've talked every day since we met #Hmm that was dumb of me because I get easily attached #What would you do bipolar edition #I unfortunately have had obsessive tendancies in the past due to all of those reasons above #This is definitely something for my therapist who I'm seeing tomorrow fortunately but yeah #I'm on a new medicine and this is the first time since taking the new med (Vraylar) that I've crushed on anyone #Not that I haven't been looking or talking to other people since I started Vraylar- I have but this one person is sticking for me #bonus points if you guessed it was my new friend- my demisexual ass is so predictable #dating #friendship #bipolar disorder #bipolar #actually bipolar #Vraylar #Vraylar IS in general better than Depakote because I would already be obsessed and not even questioning it if I were on Depakote still #Sorry I HATE the cringy obsessive side of bipolar it's just gross #mychatter

[there-will-be-a-way]

It's wild growing up as a socially awkward child with little friends and then becoming popular in literally every group setting as an adult

#personal posts #I literally do nothing #but I got told I have an ~~~aura~~~ of calmness that makes people feel comfortable apparantly #I just can't get over this #shy 12 years old me would be so proud #literally everything I ever wanted #a social life I'm happy with #(I think it's important to be a good listener tbh #because if you pay attention to it most people only listen to wait until it's their time to talk about themselves again #which is kinda frustrating) #also #considering how much of a mess I am it's strange how often I get told that I'm unshakably calm #like 'calm' is The word people use to describe me with #like my number one trait #anyway #I'm very much enjoying the popularity my adult years have blessed me with lol #good for the soul and the ego #especially the ego #like yes my life is a mess and I haven't met many milestones but at least I'm a decent person #can't even remember the last time I felt lonely and if you've been following me for a couple of years you may know that's a big deal

[agnesandhilda]

my father is an olympic gold medalist in the sport of emotionally tormenting women

#bolo speaks #I've had him blocked on everything for the past two years because I was one of the women he terrorizes even when I was still a girl #but I'm only able to do that because *other* women in my family are on the frontlines dealing with him. which I am keenly aware of. #anyway I got a message from my grandma asking if I was mad at her because he'd been saying that I hated her (untrue and bizarre to boot #like just factually a man I haven't been on speaking terms with since I was seventeen has no leg to stand on whatsoever wrt to what I have #going on emotionally or in my relationships. but he's nothing if not adept at digging into people's worst insecurities so I get why she'd #be bothered) #and he has a new girlfriend now who I haven't met but who he treats the way he treated my mother before they separated #going into drunk rages breaking her things degrading her etc. and *her* family encourages her to ignore it because he's got money #and I don't know. I don't know my dad's girlfriend I've never met her but I am intimately aware of just how horribly #he treats every woman in his life. anyway [NAME] if you're reading this GET OUT ‼️ #and the worst part is that he is like. a genuine shameless misogynist like he'd go on these crazy rants about #how women are just vaginas and we're all stupid and hysterical anyway so it doesn't matter if me and mom are scared of him #because we're just dumb women. which has naturally torched his bridges with me and every other woman in our family right. #and his takeaway from that is that he's *right* and being put-upon by all these irrational harpies for no valid reason. #my dad voice: are women scared of me because I'm violent and unpredictable? no. it's those stupid bitches that are wrong.

[shrumgi]

astarion: meet me in the forest for a quickie

astarion half naked between the trees in the forest:

#I don't want to beegee 3 post but this was so fucking funny I don't know why #why he casually walks out of the woods half naked with that face #bro killed me twice (one by sucking then by this). what a silly bitch #the only two people who haven't made advances towards me are wyll and shadowheart lmfao even though sh is almost maxed out #she was like 'hey let's drink wine together as friends :)' and I cried many tears #I haven't even brought gale to anything and bro just straight up "HEY I JUST MET U. AND THIS IS CRAZY' #sdgjhsdg please let's keep it on the gloves eating basis pls #laezel keeps telling me how i miss out by rejecting her. i keep rejecting her but she keeps going #YOU'RE MY EVIL BROTATO CHIP STOP THIS. I LOVE U IN A BROZONE WAY #you will get your le sexe when I replay as a lady drow pls calm down until then #shit is wild #nadine's blah blah