#and im really fucking lazy

[bishicat]

Night City's cutest braindance techie ~ ❤️🧡🤍💖💜

#im thinking about doing a series of portraits but im a bit lazy lol #best girl Judy #judy alvarez #cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk 2077 fanart #cp2077 #my art #digital art #really digging this style! It's way faster #i kept fucking up/forgetting her tattoos ha ha #while coloring her hair I kept thinkin of that cosmo and wanda meme #bishiart

[rakkuntoast]

in 2021 i made a colorzas drawing that looking back at it hated it so much that out of pure spite i decided to redraw it two years later <3

more under the cut :

each colorza and ik phil isnt there this aint about him /j

and the old 2021 post for whoever that wants to see it (its awful im embarrassed abt it who let me cook 2 years ago)

#philza #zablr #colorzas #redza #orangeza #yellowza #blueza #purpleza #pinkza #greyza #voidza #cumza #i am in absolute misery im never doing drawings this big ever again on GOD #this took two weeks to be done mostly cuz im a lazy fuck that cannot get anything done <- gets distracted easily #but god im really happy with how it came out #also if you saw the og post 2 years ago im sorry you need finantial compensation its SO BAD #my art

[puppyeared]

ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

[musubiki]

once again thinking about limes very quick descent into madness surrounding the time when he realizes he might like mochi after the first night he spends cuddling with her. always love the slow start of "Okay she's kinda cute I guess. She has cute tendencies sometimes. There, you happy? I admitted it. Now leave me alone." which in the span of about 3 days RAPIDLY spills into being unable to think about anything else to the point he can barely hold a conversation with anyone because his mind keeps daydreaming back to holding her in his arms. All day feeling like "I can still feel her warmth on me..." and has to keep being snapped back to reality by everyone around him

he can barely even talk to mochi because he keeps thinking about it. has no idea what to say to her the next day. is very quiet. and mochi thinks hes mad/uncomfortable with her now, since hes always so standoffish to girls at school she thinks she might be in that category now. so the next night while lime is about to go to bed, STILL THINKING ABOUT IT, and he gets a text from her that reads something like: [Hey lime!! about last night- sorry i fell asleep on you!! i know your not super comfortable with that stuff!! it wont happen again!! 🙇‍♀️ see you tomorrow!] and he feels his heart drop to his fucking stomach. lays there reading it back over and over with his thoughts a mix of "Yeah I guess that makes sense, it happened by accident. It was never gonna be a repetitive thing." vs "Won't happen again...? Like....ever? Are you fucking kidding me? I never get that ever again?"

eventually after an hour of tossing and turning, thinks up some bullshit excuse to sneak over to her house and climb up over her little bedroom balcony, knocks on her window and says something like "Hey uhhh you forgot one of your socks over at my place so I brought it back." or something that is absolutely stupid and could've definitely waited for the next day. manages to weasel his way into crawling into her bed with her because every bone in his body is telling him to.

huheuheu love to see lime aching for her eheheh

#rambles because i need to study instead of draw #but i want them to be soft and cuddly #he ITCHES for her after that first night #i think growing up lime always thought he would like. end up with some bombshell blonde hot lady or something. #since everyone around him is like (wow hes so handsome!!) as a kid hed think ahh im gonna end up with some supermodel or something for sure #but he didnt really know what to expect with romance cuz hes too lazy to get to know someone new and go through the notions of dating #so he figured for him...finding a girl he liked might be one of those love at first sight things #like hed see some girl at a baseball game or something and shed be the one #and all of a sudden all at once he starts feeling things towards mochi and its NOT AT ALL how he expected his love life to kickstart #hes like ahaha no way.....mochi?? nahh....why would i like her?? pff....haha.... #(a few days later) i want her everything and i want it right fucking now #and this all happens about a day before he finds out shes a witch

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

When you made your NSFW account, was it a side blog or a completely new account and email address?

I'm taking notes in case I decide to make my own private space for spice.

oh no yeah it's just a Side Blog!

#but thats mainly because #a) im lazy i dont wanna deal with logging in/out or making a new account #b) i keep my online space Very separate from my real life. no one's gonna track me here <3 #so! it really depends on You! #if you're that worried about it #yeah make a new acc #if you're meh then a side blog works <3 #rambles from the bog #technically all of my active blogs are side blogs #i simply Couldnt Be Fucked!

[box-off]

Feeding you a doodle because I didn't do much art recently

#i really need ideas for actual drawings but meh here you go #there is a backstory for this doodle because you see p1 talking and shut but im not going to tell anything because im a lazy fuck #box art #postal #postal dude #postal game #postal 2 #postal 1 #postal 1997

[xamaxenta]

to nobodies surprise but mine using reference helps

#guess who actually looked at Ace’s actual face for the first time in half a year #that’s right my stupid lazy ass didnt fucking reference shit and im always left wondering #wow my Ace is so off recently whys that :(( #its really nothing special #i just frustratedly drew this out #i dont feel better for it honestly rly numb ?? oh nyoh burn out ??? disgusting lmao #anyway set a reminder hey look at Ace when you draw guarantee it may make you feel better about the end result #the limbo of maybe i like it but in half an hour l hate it

[bred-is-a-dumb-name]

I swear to God if one more person tells me "Well you look fine" during a flare up or otherwise disabling moment I might just snap. What part of invisible illness doesn't register. Do you want me to show you my fucked up organs??? Do you wanna see em??? Is that what itll take for you to admit im not healthy???? Augh.

#i called oit yesterday but was able to walk arpund and be fine today and my coworker told me that i look3d fine implying i was lying yesterd #ay and it just really fuckin sent me tbh. like bro am i not allowed to have good days after bad days?? what?? #having an invisible illness is impossible. if im displaying symptoms im faking it. if im not displaying symptoms then i was clearly lying. #if i go to work while sick then im clearly not actually in thay mich pain #if i call out then im just being lazy #etc etc etc #like i am seconds away from quitting of i get one more passive agressive comment abt not actually being sick #i literally threw up and collapsed from pain yesterday. just bc i can walk tpday doesnt mean im lying. fuck off. #aughghggh #bred.txt #vent #vent post #rant #young disabled #actually disabled #physically disabled #ableism #disability #cripple punk #cpunk

[bowelfly]

What are imaginal discs? That’s something I see mentioned about insect larvae, but I’m unclear what they are exactly?

okay so. to begin with, you have holometabolous insects, that is to say ones with grub-like immature stages rather than ones whose immatures are basically smaller versions of the adults, so things like flies and beetles and moths as opposed to grasshoppers and true bugs which are hemimetabolous insects. the advantage of the holometabolous lifestyle is that the larvae exploit entirely different ecological niches from the adults and thus don't compete with them for space and resources. like a maggot and an adult fly live in different places, eat different things, and so on. additionally, when your body is basically a big flexible sac with a mouth, you can eat a lot more and grow a lot faster, while immature hemimetabolous insects have to go through the whole molting rigamarole every time they outgrow their chitin.

the problem of the holometabolous lifestyle is how the hell do you transform from a grub or a maggot or a caterpillar to an adult insect? they're entirely different body types built for different things; again a simple sac with a mouth vs a complicated adult with wings and legs and genitals and all that fancy stuff. when a larva pupates, it doesn't just completely liquify and regrow all those parts from nothing, that would be ridiculous. so instead what happens is that the larva has these imaginal discs, which are clumps of special cells throughout its body that, as insect grows and nears pupation time, develop into the precursors to all the adult limbs and organs. imagine them as sort of deflated versions of the adult organs, tightly packed into little disc-shaped bundles that, when the larva pupates, evert and inflate, while all the other non-imaginal cells liquefy.

#bflys science corner #fuck ive done enough of these posts i really need to make some kinf of consistent tag #or maybe i dont #im lazy

[hella1975]

ive got an essay due at 3pm tomorrow and ive not even looked at it i am so so unserious about my degree and by the grace of some higher being i somehow keep managing to crawl through it's actually getting a bit funny

#me and an old friend of mine used to have a running joke during a-levels that im just one of those people where shit Works Out #and it started bc we shared two a-levels (english and economics) and in BOTH classes i regularly didn't do the homework #or the reading etc and yet it would ALWAYS work out for me #like we'd walk into a class neither of us having done the homework and they'd get yelled at while i went under the radar somehow #or that one english essay i got the highest score in the class when i literally hadn't even read the fucking book it was on #and when we pointed the theory out it started just becoming really prevalent #like no matter how late i am for things i'll arrive and by some miracle the thing im late for is also late (e.g a train or teacher) #like im just one of those people that has very very mundane luck #and low and behold i am fighting this degree with bloody fists putting the absolute bare minimum in for my own sanity's sake #and i SOMEHOW keep pulling through. literally failed two modules last year and STILL got a 2:1 average #and the last essay i wrote was the worst essay id ever done in my life and i get my standards are higher bc ik im good at essays #but the point still stands and you know what? i got a FIRST #literally was pure waffle i have never blagged it so hard and i got a FIRST #and all this shit just makes me cockier and cockier and go even more by the skin of my teeth and it ALWAYS WORKS OUT #it's soooo silly but im not complaining. anyway ill keep u posted about this essay <3 it's econ history so is actually interesting #but the most ive done for it is ask the sc ai lmao and for context degree-level essays usually require a good few days of graft #live love laziness #hella goes to uni

[computer-boy]

ranpoe gay

redraw of this screenshot. i only have it with the text though

#bungou stray dogs #bsd #ranpo bad #poe bsd #karl bsd #i WILL tag him he is important to me #tumblr really fucked the quality badly im so mad. why #you can tell i have no idea what im doing with the shading #eh. i kinda got lazy near the end it was taking me forever #oh well #also karl. ily but for god's sake you are hard to draw #my posts #my art #ranpoe

[pashatalks]

trying to understand clara's hair day 24. this time i did kinda good job as well as with simplifying it. i really adore this wing-like strand on her left, idek if it was implified to look like a wing in the first place tho, but that gives her kinda angelic vibe.

this image is supposed to be my simplified design reference for vk public ask because im going to make small web comics 🗿🗿 this requires some level of simplification for my quality of sleep and for my aesthetic preferences.

i'll post it finished in @pasharuu eventually, for now i gotta sleep (8 am here btw)

#honkai star rail #honkai star rail fanart #hsr #hsr fanart #hsr clara #clara #and kinda svarog though he is really hard to notice cuz i didnt make lineart of him yet #but maybe its obvious by clara's posture that its a redraw of her splash art so that you can see what im talking about #and yes i took photo of my fucking tablet because im a lazy ass and exhausted

[shepards-folly]

Like an angel crushed underneath god’s boot [+ wip images under the cut]

#shep arts #content smp #csmp #arathain #mason arathain #tw eyestrain #cw gore #<- its very mild I’d say. i kinda just fucked up one of their arms... in my defense it was annoying to draw so I just didnt draw part of it #the eyestrain isnt too bad either in my opinion i just wanted to tag it just in case #honestly just tell me if this needs more tws I'm awful at knowing what I need to trigger warning and what I dont #okay uh art rambling time so i made him a bug for this one honestly just cause i thought it looked neat #this was a really fun for a drawing that took like an hour to sketch and a million years to finish #it's just an experiment in coloring a lil different and using layer styles other than multiply and add... #there are add and multiply layers in there if i remember correctly but its mainly color/linear burns and hard/soft light i think #fun fact there was supposed to be more paint but uhm I got lazy and it was already a pain trying to balance the values on this one #so yeah its just the pink splatter behind his head there. imagine that there's more pink paint there for me pretty please #I have a dozen versions of this with various overlay layers will probably end up adding those to this post in a rb or something #this post was supposed to go up earlier but yeah I was comparing overlays for like two hours... #honestly im surprised my procreate didnt crash in the middle of this since it crashes everytime I do anything with a lot of overlays #it did die immediately after I finished it though so then I had to wait several hours to just sign the damn thing :/

[shleemies]

2015->2023

It gets better

#was looking at old photos and put these side by side. wow #in the first pic i was miserable malnourished and so depressed i didnt think id make it to 2016 #the second pic was a few months ago in too lazy to take w newer one today lol #im still depressed but not like i was. ive come so far and its so hard to see it from day to day sometimes #i never thought id live long enough to go on hrt. top surgery felt completely impossible #but i got to live #i got to transition #i wish i could go back and show that scared kid how far we've come #idk these pics just had me feeling really sappy #maybe one day ill make a more intentional transition timeline post #but these photos really show a lot #transgender love transgender peace transgender joy #it gets better i promise #sounds fake and shallow but it's so fucking true

[reel-fear]

Just a little follow up on that last post but just in general I think one of the reasons I've really stopped caring for railing on the Playtime devs... Is just because it feels like so much of it is just speculative nonsense trying to make every single thing they do secretly evil or lazy or bad. Why isn't it enough to discuss the Actual bad things they did [the fact they used to run a shady content farm before doing game work, the fact they tried to sell lore to their fans via NFTs, etc] it's hard for me to engage with content that rightfully critiques that bc oftentimes they then spiral into speculative 'so now we have to tell you why this moment where an employee blinks in the game is code for the devs secretly stole all their code from Bendy and kill babies as a hobby'.

Which makes me turn off my brain and not want to take any other points they make seriously, bc like I said if you lie to me to try and convince me of your point, I'm not gonna take anything else you say seriously bc I won't know if it's true or just something you made up anymore.

It honestly feels like everyone just keeps making shit up bc Poppy Playtime used to be the internet punching bag but now that the NFTs thing isn't the hottest topic to discuss about it anymore we all just need a reason to make fun of it and the people who like it. Which just kinda feels like unfair cringe culture, because if our real problem is the devs being greedy and shady why isn't the same effort put into roasting similar devs like the Bendy team? We can't suddenly say 'well actually being a bit greedy isn't That bad' when it's a team we like instead of one we all decided is 'cringe n bad'.

#ramblez #I hope all this makes sense Im not saying u cant dislike the devs of any of these games #just that the double standards on display really drive me nuts #sure playtime co tried to sell nfts but kindly beast laid off almost all of its employees and tried to sell its fans at full price a game #made by two people in three weeks last minute #if being greedy and lazy is really as bad as the internet says it is why arent the bendy devs the internets punching bag too #you cant have that sort of obvious double standard and then still expect me to think you take that topic seriously #bc when you only bring it up in relation to devs you clearly have a bias against and dont bring it up against devs ur bias towards #its clear that the greediness isnt actually the problem you care abt at least thats how it reads to me #anyways both of these devs suck but I dont think that means everyone at playtime co is secretly evil and in on it #a lot of effort is clearly on display in the writing animation coding etc and we shouldnt pretend its all awful just bc the ceos suck #same way I only level a lot of my problems with bendy towards mike n mood and not every single person who works on the games #bc clearly someone at JDS and playtime co cares a lot about what theyre making and thats really nice to see #its just that the ceos keep fucking up the product esp when it comes to Bendy-

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right????? #this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh. #when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like #two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that #time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore #is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and #when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up #and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not #that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on #listening. if that makes sense #IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive #like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!! #idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that #im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy. #epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍