#and now he's sad and abandoned

[mellowthorn]

Do you all ever think about how Fitz must have felt immediately after the Fool's Fate breakup? Like, before he begins properly courting Molly and using that as an escape, back when he still lives in Buckkeep? He largely speeds through this era in his narration, but how was it actually like for him, living through it day by day?

Waking up in the bed of Chade's workroom, expecting to feel the Fool's back against his, but then realizing that no one's there. Listening to nobles and servants gossip about Lord Golden and when asked, having to come up with some sort of an explanation, all the while trying not to show just how much even the mention of him hurts.

Walking past the door to Lord Golden's chambers and resisting the urge to try to pull it open, just in case the Fool might still be there (even if he knows that it would be impossible). Reciting the poem the Fool left him over and over in his mind, searching for any clue that might hint to his return, yet finding nothing. Drinking apricot brandy alone.

For the first time since he was a boy, having to live without either his Wit-bond to Nighteyes, or his Skill-link to the Fool. All by himself, entirely disconnected from the two beings who made him whole.

#i got carried away imagining this and now im very very very sad #but for real. we know how badly fitz handles losing the people he loves #we saw how he reacted to nighteyes and molly's deaths and to chade briefly abandoning him in AA and to burrich and molly's 'betrayal' in AQ #yet this is the one 'mourning period' he refuses to describe at all. and it happens immediately after he regains his full emotions #so it really can't have been good #rote #realm of the elderlings #rote spoilers #fool's fate spoilers #fool's fate

[astarlightmonbebe]

i'm only at the beginning of li tongguang's descent into obsession (eps 17-18), but already it's both hurting and hitting. hurting, because we know li tongguang's capabilities, and his level headedness, and the potential he has, that he seems to throw out due to this obsession. hitting, because when you think about it, the obsession storyline and characterization does make perfect sense. obsession like that is a double edged blade, which can turn from love to hate, childish belief and joy to embittered rage in a second.

on one hand, it's painful to watch ltg's childlike desperation when faced with ruyi again. we want to grit our teeth and think of him as idiotic, unable to take a hint. but the reality is that it's a completely normal response to be expected from him. i mean, it's a dream come true, to see the person you 'love' the most in the world to be whole in front of you. it's probably what he could only dream about, especially being the one to apparently find her bones and bury them.

on a deeper level, ltg's initial reaction is very much a manifestation of his inner child, almost peter pan-like in the 'child that never became an adult/grew up' way. by that i mean to say the desperate urge to please, the constant worrying, and the oscillation between hot and cold moods are all so indicative of someone who grew up in an insecure/unstable environment, usually with volatile or simply unavailable authority figures. from what we can gather, he had no father, his mother wasn't in his life ("she doesn't want him around, nor can she bear for him to be away, so that's why he's like that" per empress zhaojie's words to ruyi). the one authority figure that entered his life to offer some semblance of guidance was ruyi, and even though it's clear that she held care for him, she was also a twenty year old assassin used to training subordinates, not children. her mentorship style is clearly so different when you hold ltg and yang ying side by side, and we know from ruyi's own mouth that she doesn't consider herself to have taught ltg well, and wants to remedy that through/with yang ying (i'll probably make a whole different post comparing this and the affects of this after watching some more episodes lol - there are bullet points in the drafts). so even though ruyi was his authority figure, she was still an emotionally unavailable one who couldn't meet ltg on the level he probably needed at that time in his life, and which no one probably ever did. hence his up and down reaction and actions.

it intrigues me, too, because i think, in a very subtle way, ltg is very much a character foil to ruyi in that he reflects some of her worst attributes, or more accurately represents the sort of person she was, or at least acted like (yuan lu's comment about how ltg has ruyi's gaze was meaningful outside of the jealousy arc - to me at least). i saw someone make a really interesting comment on how ltg's devotion to ruyi parallels ruyi's own devotion to empress zhaojie, which i'll also probably comment on more later.

obviously, ltg's obsession stems from an issue much larger than ruyi herself - she just happens to be the unfortunate target of it. and, clearly, i know his descent into it will be ugly, if understandable. i understand ruyi wanting to leave that part of her life behind, but also - to think that maybe many of the issues faced in future eps could have been avoidable if she'd been upfront with li tongguang about her identity early on.

#star stumbles #a journey to love #一念关山 #cdrama #my thoughts #li tongguang #eps 17-18 #sorry if i jumped from one point to another this is just a stream of consciousness #and by that last sentence what i mean is that if ruyi had acknowledged him #and then told him something like 'i'm on a mission right now so don't do this or that' etc #even without explaining her situation. i think he would have been much more toned down #of course there is a chance it would have fed his delusions but really anything she did would do that #but not acknowledging him is worse in so many regards #especially when he has a whole thing (elephant in the room sized issue) about abandonment and acknowledgement #his future irrational behaviors are a child demanding to be seen/heard #which is like. embarassing! because we know his potential we saw it but now he's just reduced to this #but i think it's true to the sort of character and story he has. which is the sad part. #ok...i had one more thought but i've forgotten it twice now so uhhh #onto ep 19 in a bit. i will be cringing through it #yeah but i just can't get over his personal reaction right after leaving in ep 17 #because that is EXACTLY how children with emotionally abusive/manipulative parental figures act #the anxiety about pleasing them the dread you messed it up the desperate urge to fix it.... #it's really sticking with me #honestly some have argued that ruyi was abusive and i don't combat that but it's out of pocket #for the time period/context lol. also not really the point if that makes sense

[stizzysupremacy]

until I see s2 imma keep daydreaming about a Stizzy flavored reunion. Ed is too heartbroken and angry to deal with Stede when he returns to the Revenge and shuts himself away in the captains cabin. Stede is forced to work as a crewmate until he is accepted back as co-Captain. He’s gained some muscle and lost a lot of he complaining-about-the-discomfort-of-physical-labor and he’s turning into a competent fucking sailor finally. And he’s not dressed like a ponce anymore and he’s working hard and obey orders. Even the ones Izzy gives to fuck with him. And Izzy sees Stede, tits barely contained in a worn shirt, blonde beard, a nice set of sailor’s crows-feet developing. And oh fuck, the idiot is handsome and not quite as idiotic anymore. And Izzy can’t just ignore him because izzy has to run the ship while Edward is hiding. And as the only one Edward trusts, Izzy is forced to be the go-between for him and Stede and pass messages. Maybe it’s not so annoying after a while because Stede is trying to avoid annoying izzy into kicking him off the ship, so the first mate is getting some damn respect from him finally.

#stizzy #ofmd #izzy hands #and maybe he starts to feel a little bad as he witnesses Stede being repeatedly disappointed by Ed refusing to see him #he tries to hold on to his anger from before. it’s turnabout. fair play. Stede took Ed from izzy #izzy isn’t the one keeping Ed from Stede now but for a minute there he was enjoying standing between the two #but Edward is sad and confused and tortured about what to do with the man who abandoned him #and Stede is so earnest and loving and Izzy has lived decades believing Edward deserves everything offered to him #only jealousy ever made him deny that Edward deserves love #steddyhands

[redrobin-detective]

You better learn it fast, you better learn it young 'cause someday never comes

Father was coming. Months and months of waiting for him to reach out and, finally, Father was coming home. It wouldn't be to stay, no, he had his own life outside of the ice. As much as Ice Thing who had once been Gunter and before that Orgalorg missed him, they knew father had earned his flesh and freedom back. The crown had been Father's prison but it was Ice Thing's bright new future. Once upon a time, they would have never been satisfied with this; paltry powers and a minor kingdom but Father's influence had shown them the beauty of a simple life.

"Come on everyone, Father and the others will be here any minute and I want this place spotless," Ice Thing announced, clapping their way through the hoard of penguins careful not to jostle them. They were the master now but Ice Thing would always be one of them.

"Wenk," Guntilla said, flapping her fins.

"No, he's just visiting and if we want him to visit again everything needs to be perfect," Ice Thing explained impatiently.

"Wenk, wenk," Goonder noted bitterly.

"Don't talk about him like that, he may look and act different but he's still our father. I expect all of you to be on your best behavior or we'll have no snacks or cuddles tonight and that's a promise," the rest of the penguins wenked in dismay and hastily went back to cleaning the Ice Palace. They were just putting the final touches on the charcuterie board when there was a knock at the door.

"Oh they're here!" Ice Thing exclaimed, "Gonther, Ginty, open the door and let our guests in." They stood in the entryway holding the ice board of snacks when the group shuffled in. Big sister Marceline - elder only in years as Father's child and not in age- and younger brother Finn were there followed by friend Jake. The Candy Princess was absent, Ice Thing was neither surprised or unsurprised given her bad history at this palace. Father was hanging towards the back of the group, looking shyly around the place. He had on an obnoxiously big coat with his hands stuffed under his armpits. He was using the coat more as a shield than out of any desire for warmth.

"Welcome! Welcome!" Ice Thing exclaimed, shoving the ice tray into Jake's hands so they could shake everyone's hands. "I was delighted to get your message; I'm so happy you guys could come. Please stay as long as you like, here have some snacks, have anything you want. The fruit of the Ice Kingdom is yours for the picking!"

"Thank you for having us," Father said quietly. His mouth quirked up into a little smile as some of the penguins waddled up to him and flapped at his knees. "And hello there, how have you all been?"

"Wenk," Gunder elaborated. Father blinked in confusion at the various chirpings. Ice Thing had worried Father would lose his affinity for Penguinese along with, well, everything else. The others would be so disappointed but they'd deal with that particular heartbreak later.

"He says he's better now that you're home," Ice Thing translated before hastily continuing when they saw father's grim expression. "Of course I've explained that this is just a visit." They reinforced to the penguins still mobbing Father. "Father doesn't live here anymore, he has his own home to return to. He's here to collect his things from the Past Room, remember?"

"Father?" Marceline muttered under her breath with a guarded look.

"I mean it makes sense, Simon or wait I guess he was Ice King back then was always babying these guys and calling himself Daddy and stuff sooooo," Jake continued. He opened his jaw wide and ate the entire charcuterie board, ice tray included. "So I guess you don't speak penguin anymore, huh?"

"I guess not," Father said, hands awkwardly hovering over the heads of his penguins, children who had not seen him for months on end and demanded attention. Some begged for forgiveness for whatever kept him away from home. Some screamed at his absence, at his change. Some wept, believing he no longer loved them. Father, ignorant to their chittering, looked up at Ice Thing with poorly disguised anxiety.

"Gunter," Ice Thing said to his second in command. "Please show our guests to the Past Room so they can get stared. Ice boxes are all set for you down there. I'll let Father take what he needs from his bedroom and he'll join you downstairs soon."

"Why the rush? I think we should all go together?" Marceline frowned. They didn't know what she was jealous of when Father clearly favored her best.

"Marcy, come on, let them have some alone time. I think they got some Daddy-Alien Penguin Child stuff to sort through," Finn loudly whispered which everyone heard. Father's tanned cheeks turned an embarrassed red but said nothing. "Alright Gunter 2, lead the way!" He spun around to follow after the penguin and the others followed leaving Ice Thing alone with his father. They'd missed him terribly but now that he was here, they had no idea what to say.

"Your room just as you left it, didn't touch a thing. It's always open to you, if you ever want to come back, for a visit or for longer. The Ice Kingdom will always be your home," Ice Thing explained cheerily as he showed him the path Father undoubtedly knew. Father was silent as he walked quietly behind them.

"The penguins have missed you," so did I, went unsaid. "I'm sure they would love it if stopped by more often, or even just called."

"I didn't mean to abandon them," Father said slowly, carefully. "I will admit I was scared of coming back, afraid that being here would - I don't know - make me turn into him again or something. I didn't forget about them or you, I-I guess I hadn't framed our relationship as you had."

"You hate the Ice King," Ice Thing said, their voice becoming rough and losing it's whimsy as they stood in the entryway of his father's former bedroom. Blue mumus, various colored pencils and cracked ice sculptures were littered on the floor, unmoved since their owner last threw them there. Ice Thing had stood in this doorway many times, intending on tidying up the space but found they could not touch their father's abandoned possessions. Then he really would be gone.

"I don't really hate-"

"You deny all the things he loved in order to separate yourself from him. You stay with sister Marceline and care for brother Finn but we were your children the longest and instead you shun us." Ice Thing stated coldly, staring ahead into the vacant room and not at the familiar imposter beside him.

"The Ice King was silly and kind and full of feelings he could not understand much less control. But he was, more than everything, my beloved father. I understand he was not you and you were not him but you are the only thing that remains of him and so I must either build a relationship with you from broken scraps or accept that he is lost forever." They finally turned to look at the pale, stricken human. "My daddy is gone but I am willing to make due with a father if you are."

"Gunter," Father whispered softly, staring into Ice Thing's crystalline eyes. Father may have changed but his eyes were still pale wizard blue and just as sad. He wordlessly opened his arms and Ice Thing -a king and a god but also a parentless child - shuffled forward into his embrace. He was warm. It felt wrong but also strangely right.

"I'm so sorry," Father took a deep steadying breath. "I don't mean to but somehow I end up leaving the people I love behind. I know it must be strange to see me like this but the man I was... I was so miserable and confused and out of control. It took so long to escape from the crown that I kept away from anything reminding me of my old life. I wanted to be my own person outside of his craziness but by doing so I lost my connection to all the good things I had as Ice King and you all were one of my good things." Father pulled back and looked up at them.

"I'll be better. I'll stop by more often and bring treats and generally be more present. I... Daddy promises," he said awkwardly trying to infuse his old self into the words. But the attempt fell flat into the air, sinking like the dust on his father's old life. Ice Thing appreciated it but they had already made peace with their loss. They had watched Father and Marceline circle each other miserably for centuries. That would not be them.

"Thank you, Father," Ice Thing said, gently squeezing his father's delicate human shoulders. "Please take what you'd like from this room but I'm going to leave for you in case you need it. As I said, the Ice Kingdom was once yours and its lights will always be on for you. And if you ever need to talk, let us say I know what it's like to have your loved one changed and gone before your eyes."

"Yes, I suppose you do," Father muttered mostly to himself. "What did I ever do to deserve such kind children?"

"It was how you raised us," Ice Thing responded. They watched as Father took in the room, running his hands over the dust covered objects like they were ancient artifacts to be studied instead of his own belongings. He looked over at the drums hastily shoved into the corner and tapped a knuckle roughly on one of the cymbals which echoed through the room. "Do you still play?"

"I never learned how to play the drums," Father sighed. "Ice King did that all on his own. I never felt a calling to learn the drums but I guess it suited him. I-I think I remember songs, hours and hours of practice and how to hold a beat but I haven't touched them since I changed back. Not sure I really know how anymore."

"You taught me or rather you talked out loud enough as you learned that I picked up the basics. We could play together sometime, like you and Marceline do. Maybe one day we could play as a family." Ice Thing offered. Father smiled at him, sweet but also sad. 

"I would love to, honestly but I think I need more time before I'm ready to step back into those shoes again. I'm sorry, Gun- Ice Thing, really I am, but right now it's quite difficult to even stand in this room. I need to be Simon again before I can think about being Ice King." Disappointed but not surprised, Ice Thing led Father out of his former room and towards the stairs to the Past Room with the others.

Father was alive but it was different than before. Ice Thing had no hopes that he would ever return to being Ice Thing's beloved if complicated Daddy. It stung, an ache that reached deep into their icy heart. Father would visit and he would laugh with them and maybe, one day, he would even play the drums with them again. But it would never be the same. It was up to all of them to accept this new reality, for all the good and bad that came with it.

"Let's bring some more snacks down, if Finn doesn't have something to distract himself he's going to cause problems trying to get the car working," Ice Thing commented.

"The car?" Father blinked, "just what do I have down there? I can't even remember."

"I guess we'll find out together."

#adventure time #simon petrikov #ice thing #i cannot BELIEVE I am getting emo over Ice Thing #they have a surprisingly healthy view of the situation and I believe its bc they're crazy old - older than marceline and way less human #but they still lost their daddy bc Ice King may have been a crazy nuisance but Gunter and the rest LOVED him as he was #Simon is back but there is a cost #Gunter and the pengies are def Simon's kids and don't you forget it #Ice Thing/Simon is like Ice King/Marcy and it makes me so sad #also just in general how our relationship with our parents change as we age #we can form new relationships as adults but its not the same as it was #I was talking about something similar to my therapist over how Ive lost my old relationship with my dad and now Im saddddd #Ice Thing just wants his Daddy but Simon has 99 complexes in a trenchcoat he needs to address before he can meet IT halfway #up on AO3 #song is someday never comes by CCR about abandoning fathers

[blu3cl0v3rs]

I'm here to hurt you feelings today.

Summary: Morro gets abandoned.

Warnings: Abandonment, describing a panic attack, hysteria

Prompt: Bed | Hope | "Where did you go?"

Extra: Another pre-canon oneshot set before Wu takes Morro in. It's one of the many ways I think Morro could've ended up homeless and parentless, this one being his father (his elemental predecessor) left, and so he and his mother become homeless because she can't get hired. She eventually decides to abandon Morro, and this is Morro's side of her leaving. Enjoy!

You won't.

"But Mama, I don' wan' you to gooo," Morro whines, sticking tightly to the woman's leg.

She brushes some dark strands of hair out of her hair. The woman sighs, "I know baby, but I have to go get food. I promise, I'll be back by nightfall, okay?" She hugs the young child, and carefully peels him off.

He has a feeling she's lying.

"O-okay, Mama." He sniffles and rubs his nose with the back of his hand.

She walks away, muttering something under her breath.

"I'm sorry baby."

Morro stares at the corner she passed, as if she'd appear again laughing, saying it was a joke, and that she'd never leave him. He tightened his arms around himself, trying to preserve what little comfort he could.

Eventually, waiting for Mama gets boring.

He traces the gray spaces between the bricks of the slim alleyway, tosses around pieces of trash that spilled out of the ripped open trash bags, and paces the entire length of the street… 10, no, 15 times!

The sun beats down harshly on the child, sweat drips down his face as he leans against the heated bricks, his groaning stomach reminds him of what he's waiting for.

He could wait for Mama.

…right?

Mama's gonna come back.

He clenches the rag of a shirt he's wearing, digging unkempt nails into the patchy fabric.

Mama's gonna come back.

She's gonna come back

She's gonna come back

She's gonna come back

She's gonna come back!

A stabbing pain radiates from his head.

Something's dripping down his face. Tears? It's fine, Mama's gonna come back.

His throat hurts. A lot. Mama can fix it, she's gonna come back.

Someone's yelling.

Is that him? Is he yelling?

Mama has to come back, she must hear him.

He wants Mama.

Morro doesn't want to be alone. He doesn't want to be forgotten.

Mama didn't forget him, did she? Maybe that's Mama, it's kinda dark, so he can't tell.

Did he do something wrong?

Come back, Mama.

"Where did you go?"

That night, Morro remembers crying himself to sleep, ignoring the loud rumbles of his starving stomach.

Maybe Mama will be there when he wakes up.

Mama wasn't there.

#ninjago #morro ninjago #morro #morro master of wind #morrotober #ninjago morro #morro wu #morrotober 2023 #angst #abandonment #if you want i can elaborate on why Mama left #just for the extra angst #my poor baby #he got abandonment issues now #doesn't this just add so much more dimension to wu not coming after morro? #like mother like son #leaving the people they love #if at least one person feels sad while reading this #then i've done my job well

[malmagmafr]

Why’s Coatl lore gotta be so sad

#flight rising #dragon #dragons #fr coatl #obsidian gets abandoned by his parent #now he’s my progen guardians’ charge #sad little baby

[kyros-tha-soldier]

HE DOESN'T KNOW... OH GOD HE DOESN'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON HE'S JUST A LITTLE BABY

#KUMA HAS EVERY REASON TO KILL EVERY SINGLE CELESTIAL DRAGON #HE LOOKS SO GODDAMN CUTE AND INNOCENT LOOKING AT THOSE CUFFS #I want to hug him and pat him on his head #His mom is so gentle with him like GOODNESS GRANCIOUS LEAVE THIS FAMILY ALONE #ALL THEY WANTED IS TO LIVE LIKE THE DOTING LITTLE FAMILY THET ARE #Kuma's backstory is way too damn sad #What's with Oda and chubby little kids being ostracized and treated like cast aways? #We have big mom who was abandoned by her parents #Sentomaru who was bullied by the village #And now Kuma who got enslaved THE MOMENT HE WAS BORN #ODA CALM DOWN BRUH

[tat-tletale]

I don't know if someone has pointed out this before but... Do you think that the reason why Will doesn't think that Mike is overprotective and carefully walking around him though we SEE him act all worried and follow Will like a mother hen is because... he has always been like that? Pre-S1??

Little Mike all worried helping a little Will get up after tripping and falling.

Little Mike saying they should go inside when he sees that little Will is cold.

And so on...

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers #mike wheeler i know what you are #byler nation #st headcanons #byler headcanon #this makes s3 even more sad #because now he feels abandoned by someone who always has been around #and mike shuts his dreams of spending their life together #auch

[hanzajesthanza]

if i thought the witcher was painfully realistic. i was wrong. it is a very clear fairytale that comforts and soothes. even in its realistic take on the genre, it inspires, even in its tragedy, it comforts.

evil is defeated epically in a final battle in the darkness, the valiant heroes fall together, the lovers die united, and all pass into legend and are remembered for ever and ever. and the spirit of our hero returns now and again to save and deliver us from evil… they become legend and in that legend they are immortal…

#txt #the witcher books #OK HUSSITE TRILOGY SPOILERS IN TAGS: #like i cant say that evil WASNT defeated in the hussite trilogy because he definitely was but not in an epic final battle but #the fact that its like in the very penultimate bit and its not reynevan who does it but his NIECE it is just so… #we came all this way and there was no ultimate showdown #i mean there kind of was but not in a big castle but in some plains with a windmill and #it wasnt really a final battle but a kill-eachothers-girlfriends bit #birkart didnt even get his hands NEAR samson before he died #scharley and reynevan just left… at the end… just like in the beginning of the first book EXCEPT NOT because everything has changed them #well has changed reynevan. kind of dandelion and geralt in that way as the second man remains a constant #reynevan no longer being like a young man but a. man. but this didnt come with grand heroism and valour. it just came with. pain and #the eventual wearing down and tarnishing of his zeal and belief and love #thats … literally so fucking dark but also so realistic and it scares me lmaooooo #and people say the witcher was anticlimatic and sad at the end LMAOOOO OHHHH NOOOOO #lux perpetua like damn that dude really was walking in darkness groping along like a blind man after losing his eternal light #ohhhhh i get it now so god has abandoned us and he also never really existed ohhh okay #his love died as he was helpless to save her and he didnt even avenge his brother and his friend trio crumpled #like like. just trying to put this all into perspective

[bisexualjohnseed]

Nobody else gets chrisker except for me and like 5 other people I have managed to find on the internet

#the majority of chrisker content just does not scratch the itch #i need them to be tragic #i need it to be devastating #i need it to be codependent #i need it to be lethal obsession #i need it to be desire that splits u open like a knife #i need it to be the captain and his freshly abandoned guard dog - confused and sad and ready to pounce on anything to feel useful again #a weapon so finely honed by wesker and promptly left behind becoming a tool without a purpose #unable to fathom any purpose that doesnt include him so of course he follows and decides that now he has to kill him or something? anything. #as long as hes there #I NEED FUCKED UP MEN ON MY SCREEN NOW. AND MAYBE A RELGIOUS REFERENCE OR TWO #basically i need them to be the walking embodiment of change (house of flies) by deftones #lr wtv that song is #resident evil #chrisker

[moe-broey]

My all time favorite shiny hunts though ARE the oddly specific ones though. LIKE ESPP if they're full odds but have a gimmick to them --

Most famous one ofc is the HG/SS starter hunt!!! Where you can check all three starters for shininess before choosing one:

Unfortunately!!!! This guy has my deadname as the OT LMFAOOO but it was a cool hunt!! Just under odds (around 7000 resets)

BUT. THE SCARY OPTION.

Doing double battle hunts w any of the companions that can join you temporarily in DPPt is fucking WILD and STUPID and extremely rewarding! Unless if you somehow by some monkey paw's luck run into two shinies at once. Then your game freezes!!!!!!!!! 😇

MIRACULOUSLY I got my target though under odds (around 3000) no phases no game freezing catastrophies!!!! 🫡

They live in different files now! I. Have a bad habit of starting new files and then forgetting. And abandoning them at any point. And feeling like I need to start over again. BUT whenever I DO start over it's VERY cool to have a low level shiny to play through with!! 😅 And ofc in these files I can't really start anew without it being more trouble than it's worth, so. I may return. Eventually........

And. Not technically full odds but how could I talk Oddly Specific Hunts and not mention:

Sunchip................ (I have done the Odd Egg hunt more times than I can fucking count LMFAOOO -- honorable mention to Dizzy my Hitmontop as well idk where he is though and I hit image limit 🫡)

#pokemon #shiny tag #dizzy is in a box somewhere. lovingly benched as he was a main team member previously 👍 #in another file that had to be nuked. #actually not nuked!!!! just abandoned. that one wasn't my fault though my old 3ds has a broken hinge LMFAOO #one thing about me is my relationship w pokemon games completely changed after transitioning. it was so weird and so sad #like it sounds silly to say but i got so depressed about it... so much history... so many memories #esp early on i had to tear down everything that hurt. i couldn't bear to play games w prev memories attached #which is why awakening was so significant to me. that was the first game i was milo. #but all of that is to say i used to really value having master files and now i can't seem to get anything to stick..... #i'm always starting over. for fun or i forgor. or i got bored. which hey! that's what games are for!!! #though violet i'm p locked in LMFAO -- shield is. there. and it may be useful to have on hand. #i wasn't a big fan of galar though. very pretty game! p fun! didn't stick though. #chairman rose still confuses me. deeply. #and i forgot everything that happened 👍

[akagamiko]

here's my hot take as a shanks appreciator & a buggy stan: bro buggy's the one who left shanks! 😭

#shanks standing in the rain after getting totally abandoned by the very last person that he had left #and that's AFTER buggy screamed at him about being a coward!! and then ran off yelling about how he never forgave him #like this was a totally messy scenario and buggy was clearly SO hurt by shanks not wanting to go to laugh tale right away #but he literally said 'i've changed my mind FOR NOW' #everyone making 15 y/o shanks out to be a jerk/EVIL over it #they were literal children but bugs idolized shanks SO much that he really thought shanks was gonna be king of the pirates in like a WEEK #have always felt like shanks is very in touch with his humanity and all these aspects of being human #but especially with the celestial dragon possibilities i feel like shanks wouldn't like that buggy put him on a pedestal because he's alway #seen he and buggy as being equals & wouldn't like being above everyone else #tl;dr: poppy is sad about shanks & the shuggy break up again :( #i know buggy is everyone's baby girl now (valid) but they were both victims in the break up scene okay!!! #buggy's hurt was valid but he overreacted a bit lbr and shanks didn't betray buggy by not wanting to go get the one piece immediately!!! #ANWYAY....i'm normal thanks :) esp after chapter 1082

[tsukisdiary]

sometimes i think about the fact that rick's mom canonically didn't give a shit about his achievements when he was growing up and after his daughter died he had to encounter multiple versions of her who were constantly frustrated due to having their potential nipped as a teenager because of something that happened when they were seventeen without even knowing that in multiple realities the same event that changed their lives was also orchestrated by the same fathers that abandoned them. and how angry he must feel with everything; with the citadel, with other ricks, with himself for even leading the fucking other ricks to begin with. and just being so angry he can't shoulder all the guilt so he chooses to project it on his son in law who happens to be an incompetent, egotistical, idiot

#like imagine seeing all the grownup versions that your own daughter could've been like only to see them be ... so miserable like sure #at the end of the day beth is now choosing to be there for her kids and trying to be a good mom but she cant erase what she has done to #summer her whole life like starting to change when shes seventeen I mean you're doing something and she appreciates it but is it enough? #canonically summer doesn't have enough self confidence to admit it to herself that she is in fact a lesbian and then she found out the #version of herself that is able to come out is the one that was properly taken care of by her mother #same beth that is allergic to fucking wine #and yes she can try to do better with morty but she just seems to associate him so much with jerry she ends up just letting her dad take #him whenever #and im not saying she doesn't love her children because she does #but i also think she doesn't know how to properly love them #which ultimately ends up being linked to her upbringing and her relationship with her dad and her abandonment issues and the fact that this #rick she has right now is not hers and she doesn't even know how important that detail is because even if she knows that's not strictly #speaking her father #he also is one of the two ricks who have never abandoned a young beth #rick and morty #oh my god these long ass tags #rick sanchez #beth smith #its just... sad

[blurryflurryz]

What could have been. If you had stayed

#final space #gary goodspeed #john goodspeed #sheryl goodspeed #final space fanart #blurrydraws #I'ts the life he deserved but wasn't destined to happen #You know. In a way Nightfall's phrase 'meant to be together but never meant to be' could also apply to Gary's family #Like. Gary is were he is now due to many factors. Nightfall being one of them but also having no parents through his childhood was another #Which is sad and tragic to think he needed to lose his father and being abandoned by his mother to get to this point #Maybe if he had a family or even just his mother he would have ended up being just another of the other Gary's who closed the breach #Or maybe he would have ended up becoming Nightfall's Gary #But anyways im just speculating #and at least he has his mother now so its something

[harapeveco]

So it seems like the fourth volumen cover of knk came out (idk if the volumen itself did but comic walker has it listed on its page with the volumen cover) and it’s funny bc that cover was supposed to be released in a post like days ago but didn’t which really shows the care and importance this manga has on the Eve management

Anyway it’s this if anyone wants to see it….it’s funny bc the first three volume covers are just people standing in there but the fourth is Yuu having unrestrained girl fun or something

#i hate his ass #anyway not going to give more than one opinion on this but I feel it’s sad that he has a manga going on #and doesn’t do more with it y’know what I mean? #i feel like idk it’s an abandoned project someome else is taking over for him and it’s sad bc i remember when it was #announced he seemed pretty excited for it but now….it’s just kinda there #you get what i mean?