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spitinsideme · 3 months

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What are some other gay ships you like besides ragapom?

mae x jules from.the show devil in ohio .. i dont think ajyone understands my love for this ship and i jate how little fanfiction anf fanart tgere is of this show in general. i love this show so much devil in ohio os 5hr best show rver but i jst wsnt to say rigjt now that theg fucked the ending uo bevsude it coukd have been MORE like it shpukd hae bern MORE !!! tbe thing that happened between mae and jules was literally made up fakr drama tjat jules would have never even started at that point in their friendship, it was drama athat wpukd have nrver occured woth the way they were progresseing and the friendship stage they were in ajd i jate how it was played out it wad so fake it was so forxed and i hated it. i hated the ending i jated everything aboit the last fee episofes becaude it felt rushed it felt like the point wss to just show how fucmed this girl was and how she ruins everythinf and how manipulative she is in just 4 episodes and it wad so .. weord becsude she was progressing so well !!! itwas so out of noehere, especially taht drama between jules best friend oscar or soem bullshit and mae ??? likr its not maes failt tjat people went to her or that she got popular, and jules wpuld havr mevrr blamed it on mae at thay point becaude cjaracayer develolment had occured !!! idontknow .. i really like that ship and id love to makr fanart for it one day

claudia x grace from tbe movie my first summer. this movie was suorrduorr amaizng it was a lesbian movie i watxhed last yesr when i was on a lesbian binge mmovir and i estcbed many obscure lesbian videos ( i remdver i wtched an italian bdsm gay mpvie whrre these two girls played .. sensual sadistic hide and seek ????? it was odd .. 10/10 movie ) but ky first sumer wad greta i mens it wa sad it had an ambiguois open ending as most lesbia movies do but overall i llved itsoosmuch and tbeir kiss wss so fucking sdorsble everythinf about it wad sosos adorable and i hate hoe its not even popular ??? not many peope have wstxhe dit when its the BEST lesbian mocie ever its my favrouote literlaly ever !!! theres nnot much fsnart of fansgiction for ir rither whoch SUCKS !! i wsnt to ome dya mske it for them

laura lee x lottie from the show yellowjackets. i feel like ay this point you understand that i love my ships to have religious symbolism, something religious is going on behind it, and also, blonde x brunette !! i dontknow if aby of you have watched it but SPOILER INCOMING !!!!!!!! aftet they had their HOT AND SPICY AND HOMOEROTIC baptism scene on thwir lake i was lime woah !!! i wa ssososure they woukd have had a little will they wont they situation, a little ooo they might kiss but they probbaly wont because laura lee is cathcokix and has intrrnalised homiphobiaaas !!!! or whatrver ixonfknow bit then SHE FUCKING DIES. AND I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW WHEN SHE DIED I STOPPED WATCHING I NEEDED TO TAKE A BREAK !!I TOOK A LOMG THREE WEK BREAK FROM YELLOEJSCKETS BECAUDE EVERYTHING I SAW, EVERYRHINF I WATCHED, EVERYTHINF REMINDED ME OF LAURA LEE AND IT HURT ME !!! IT HURT THAT I CPULDNT SEE MORR OF HER AND THAT SHE COUKDNT HAVE BEEN MORE AND THAT SHE WAS JUST THE CATHOLIX GIRL THATS ALL SHE WAS AND THATD ALL SHE DIED AS !!! AND I HATE THAT EVEN NOW I HAVE MEVER GOTTEN SO ATTACHED TO A CAHARCYRR !!! SOMETIMSI CRY REMDMEBRRONG SHES DEAD AND WILL NEVER GET TO BE MORE AND HAVE MORE AND BE COMPLEX AND SHOW HER COMPLEX THINGS !!! IT SUCKS !!!

emaline x kate from the show everything sucks. firstly, the show fucks anf i think metflix shpuld like lesbians more i mean comeon ee get ONE lesbian canon relationshio and sufdenly CNACELLED !!! we have to fucking neg for scrapes and secondly, MY FUCKING GOODDD !!!! GOOD FUCKING GOD !!! BECAUDE WHEN I SAW KATE REACH ITO HER TROUSERS WHILST LOOKONG AT THISE SEDUCTIVE PITTLR IMAGES OF WOMAN I SCREAMR DI FUCKING SCREAMED I SCREAMED LIKE A FUCKING BANSHEE AT A PRIDE PARADE !!!! I WAS SO HAPPY SHE WAS GAY !!! and when kate and emaline kissed .. i was so hapoyy i had to lause to jsut love in the moment for a bit .. theyre the best evet .. i esnt to make fanart for them .... sigh ... not enough fabart of fansfiction about them ...

enid x wednesday is also prety cute !! im not like reallyrealy imto it but its alright also im going to take a moment to beat that fucking xavierd ass i hate him do much i hope he dies its nlt even because he was a love interestedi mena that sucmed too but its becayse hes so fucking annoyong oooo my dad id alwayd on the roll or whatever and im depresseddd so i male art because im a sad fucjing srtist god go fucking get therapy stop fucking being a cunt i hate him so much

thats it .. i think .. if i remeber more ill uodate this ...

#yippeee !!!!#my ships !!!#as you can tell they are ALL blonde x brunette #and most have some little catholic spice #some religious symbolism #i fucking eat that dhit up

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every-marveler-ever · 2 years

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New York Coffee

📄 STARKBUCKS BINGO ROUND 3: I2) Coffee Shop AU

😒 TONY STARK BINGO MAKR VI: AF) Coffee Shop AU

PAIRING(S): Tony Stark/James 'Bucky' Bingo

RATING: Teen

WARNING(S): Implied sexual reference, Kissing

(Ao3 Link)

Days in New York are hard, they’re filled with paperwork and meetings and Obie breathing down his neck anytime he says anything of any nature, coffee helps with all these things (or at least most).

Tony Stark is certainly more difficult to work for in New York.

Days in New York are hard, they’re filled with paperwork and meetings and Obie breathing down his neck anytime he says anything of any nature.

They also commonly coincide with the firing of assistants and secretaries who learn that Tony’s job isn’t easy. He just wishes that Obidah would realise this as he sits across from his current assistant to explain the difference between his coffee order and the coffee he was handed this morning.

“This,” Tony displays in one hand, “is a caramel macchiato, with,” there’s a pause as if it disgusts him “whipped cream,” and it does. A smile returns back on his face that is much too sweet for any more sugar to be added to it. “This,” he gestures to the drink not in a Starbucks cup and instead in the paper cup of the current establishment, “is the beautifulness of an Italian espresso with caramel syrup, no added sugar,” he adds with a tight smile.

Bucky can be seen laughing from the counter watching Tony and his assistant, (Becky he thinks he remembers) have their ‘important lunch meeting’. Tony watches him laugh lifting a single eyebrow and Bucky quickly shuts up.

Turning back to the assistant (Ginny? Bucky’s not really sure) Tony continues his ‘teaching’. He sighs as if this is a big deal, the make or break of an assistant, “coffee should only come from here, this particular coffee shop, no other and certainly not a Starbucks,” Tony once again shudders. Passing a mug towards the girl Tony smile again and she’s honestly not sure if what she’s about to drink is poison, “try it.”

The assistant tries it (Pheobe? No that’s the Friends character, (No the character’s Rachel!)) and her face seems shocked, which pleases Tony. “It’s the same as the malibu office coffee,” Tony nods shortly.

He looks over to Bucky but directs the next sentence to the assistant, “all my coffee some from here, same beans, same workers,” he turns back to here to make his point clear, “but when in New York the coffee must only come from this shop.”

Lifting his shoulders and putting his phone in his pocket Tony takes the takeaway coffee in one hand and shifts the Starbucks monstrosity towards his assistant (penny?), turning away and not allowing her to get a word in.

Moving swiftly towards Bucky Tony smiles leaning over the counter and Tony can see him looking at his best assets which he knows look great in this particular suit, “pick me up at 7?” He asks back with that sickly sweet smile.

Nodding Bucky yells to the back, “Stevie you’re closing tonight,” knowing that his co-owner would have heard the loud shouting. It’s so loud that Tony’s new assistant (maybe it’s Kelly?) jumps slightly. Tony kisses Buckly lightly, his boyfriend tasting of coffee as their lips touch.

Coming out of that mood Tony quickly changes his demeanour turning back to his assistant, “Jamie put it into my calendar that I have a date from 7 till whenever I say tonight,” he stops for a moment looking back to Bucky, “actually I’ll have tomorrow off as well.”

Bucky bites his lip wanting to laugh at the ridiculous look that's on Jamie’s face, quickly grabbing Tony’s bag, forgetting her own, and running after Tony.

Tony Stark is certainly more difficult to work for in New York, and that may have to do with a certain Bucky Barnes.

Bingo Cards: @starkbucksbingo @tonystarkbingo

#tony stark bingo mark vi #tony stark bingo round 6 #tony stark bingo #tsbmvi #tsb6 #starkbucksbingo #starkbucksbingoround3 #starkbucks bingo round 3 #tony stark #bucky barnes #bingo fill #every-marveler-ever #every marveler ever

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p1xim0th · 2 years

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How does one simply reflect from love bombing? How do I see past the bullshit? When are you ever change? How do you feel okay leaving me soulless? Ruining my mood on important days. My dad's birthday. My birthday. Mother's day. Yesterday. Me crying about my mom when she had cancer. You found a way to make it about yourself. You found a reason to be in a bad mood. You toxicity is filling and influencing everyone in this home. Why can't I think about every single thing you said that was completely horrible and just LEAVE? You've said alot of horrible things to me. You makr me feel horrible by bringing up my past, my past when we weren't even together, was never thought of. You slut shame me when you've slept with alot of people. But it's different cause I'm a girl right!? (Sarcasm) You say things like "I'm not gonna lie about -"

And it's thing you should've kept to yourself like

1. You check our girls asses out for a second.

2. You complaining about my food.

"What, do you want me to lie???"

Just about things like that I'd rather not know.

You bring up one specific thing how I betrayed you, something that happened 10 years ago. We was in talking stag, but we wasn't dating. I had one night stand. A drunken one. I shouldn't of lied. But I figured you wouldn't want to date me if you knew. I heard things from your close resources that you was just playing me so I felt hurt. I shouldn't have had a one night stand. It wasn't worth it. You claim it was cheating but we wasn't even together. You hold that against me, still. You remind me how of a piece of shit I am. You made me literally delete facebook, the one thing as a stay at home wife has for commutation. You say if this never happened, we would have friends. We would have social media. You blame all of those things because of one thing ive done. I've cried and apologize and pour my heart out how sorry i am. You don't care. We still have this same fight about a guy who is a nobody to me. I have changed so much. My old skin has shed. I do everything to make you happy. I have became the house wife while you work so you don't have worry about responsibilities here. And yet, it's not good enough. But you don't even bother helping with anything anyways. Guess you just see me as your sex maid slave. You can't even flush the fucking toilet when you piss. Yet you're "getting a little tired of the laziness" you said that because I was really sick and sitting on the couch. But you haven't even mowed the grass in a month. You was off for two weeks for work. You didn't do a single fucking thing but sit there. I love seeing you happy and relax. I love having lazy days with you. But you can't be a hypocrite. I am going crazy.

I just hate how everything reminds me of you. Being together for 9 years. We've made a lot of great memories. A lot of songs we claimed that are ours. We've watched and binged so many shows together. Spent hours playing games together. Made a family. We traveled. We've had a lot of adventures and experiences. We've laughed until we cried. We both made each other feel so special. Date nights and backrubs. I love you so fucking much but you're destroying me. You will make me feel like shit by yelling at me and how I did something wrong, you stonewall me, tell me you need space, because I finally stood my ground, civily. Then I spend the next hour crying because you're mad at me. My mood is ruined... then 2 hours later you trying to hug me, love on me. Flirt with me. I am having a hard time deciding what my life truly needs. I imagine a life without you, there's a good side where I'm free, I am able to do what you don't allow. Then the bad side where I miss you so fucking much it hurts. I can't bring myself to leave you. It would ruin me to see you with another. I just want your goodside.

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musicfeedsmysoul12 · 4 years

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Oooo. For the soulmate prompt, can you do dickinette? I don't think I've ever seen them as romantic soulmates before!

Holy shit this got away from me.

The day it changes is the day she finds out Adrien is Chat Noir.

It’s nothing… to personal.

Okay it is but isn’t.

Adrien to her was this kind and sweet boy with a good heart who was just a bit bad at expressing his feelings or his thoughts.

And he was that. He was. It was just…

Chat Noir.

Chat Noir was a flirt who wouldn’t take no for an answer and treated the whole thing as a game. And it wasn’t a game! It was serious! It was really serious and he just acted like it was one big joke!

She hated him in a way. But also loved him dearly. He was her partner, her best friend.

Her soulmate she found but she didn’t want him. Not anymore.

She perhaps could have put up with it. If he hadn’t been getting worse. But he had. He had and it hurt and maybe it was silly to just give up. They were teenagers. Teenagers do stupid stuff all the time. There was a reason people were highly discouraged from dating their soulmates as teens. It just put things completely out of whack.

Chat could change. He was a sheltered kid who was free now. But… it wasn’t enough to know that for Marinette.

Her soulmark was on the back of her neck. Music notes in green- his favourite music piece she knew because she had heard him talking about it.

On his arm was a red needle and thread.

Alya thought it perfect but agreed to her wish to be friends and get to know him first before they started dating. Her parents had done it. Her mama had noticed her favourite flowers on her papa and knew the rolling pin on her back was for him. But she’d waited.

“Love takes time and soulmates take time.” Her mom has told her. “I had one before this but we rushed to much and we were to… different. Our marks Changed.”

Changed marks. When you learned something about your soulmate or when you and your soulmate just didn’t click enough for your souls to settle into one another. Changed marks happened about eight times a year and they always made news. It was shocking.

There were rules about Changed marks, and Marinette followed them when she checked her neck and found a bright yellow and red robin on her neck.

She went and reported it to the local branch involved in soulmate hunting and when asked why she explained she discovered her soulmate wasn’t like she thought and she couldn’t deal with it. They said she was young and she agreed.

“But what he does… I can’t do it. I can’t deal with that.” She told them. They accepted and didn’t ask.

Of course someone leaked it to the news and everyone knew there was a case of a Changed mark going around in Paris. A teenager with a Changed mark.

Marinette wore her hair up, exposing her neck and waited. People gave her double looks. Legally she had to expose it so people would now know not to speak about it to her soulmate.

Alya stared at her with wide eyes and looked at Adrien, a dark look passing over her face. Marinette shook her head.

Of course they all cornered her, even Adrien though he wasn’t sure why, and asked.

“Your mark Changed girl! Why?” Alya asked and Adrien gasped. Marientte sighed, as the others eyed him. He didn’t know.

“I found out I was friends with him online and he had a crush on me. I told him no because I had a crush on someone else, but he wouldn’t take no for an answer. He wouldn’t leave me alone about it and didn’t take anything seriously. There are other reasons but when someone says no, and means it? You have to take it and back off. It’s not cute or funny. I got upset and told him off and he laughed at it. He laughed at my anger. I told him no and he said we were soulmates and I was just playing hard to get. I mean we were soulmates yes. But it doesn’t mean I have to say yes.” Alya looked pissed but Marientte shook her head. “I’d known who he was for a while. My soulmate I mean. I just wanted to get to know him first before telling him. My mama’s mark Changed to and she always told me to take a step back and make sure we were good friends. Not just think soulmate means yes. He’s a nice guy but I think he needs a reality check and to get some actual advice. His parents aren’t the greatest.”

They backed off, and Adrien was still confused she could tell even as Nino made him read a bunch of sexual harassment notes and watch a seminar.

He still didn’t get it and she wondered about his father after that.

But her mind was pulled away, towards the Teen Titans who came to Paris and had heart attacks. Apparently the French government had been playing the Akuma crisis off as a prank, and learning it wasn’t…

Marinette wasn’t sure what extactly was happening but she knew a lot of politicans were losing their jobs and going to jail. Which… good.

However it opened the door for more heroes to come to Paris- which was a good thing. Marinette could breath, getting advice and help. She loved it all. Chat didn’t but that was because he got a few scoldings for not taking things seriously. His mullish ‘everything gets fixed’ answer was shot down by Batman.

“What if your action kills Ladybug and you can’t use any of the other Miraculous to reset time?” And he had gone very quiet.

Spending time with other heroes felt amazing. She spent a lot of time with the Teen Titants, in particular Robin who laughed and joked with her. They traded quiet cackles over things and bonded being leaders.

It was with their help they beat Hawkmoth. After which, Marinette confronted Adrien. He took one look at her and something clicked, his face going pale.

“No.”

“Yes.” she told him. He looked heartbroken and she’d given him a pained smile. “Your makr with Change to you know.”

“I don’t want it to.” he breathed. She shrugged.

“Sorry.” with that she left. She took the Miraculous Box and left Paris, unable to stay. Unable to stay and look around see where she had been hurt. Where chaos had reigned. Where she had beaten Hawkmoth. Where Hawkmoth, in his final act had murdered her parents.

With a missile. She couldn’t bring them back.

Gabriel Agreste was going to prison for a very long time and Marinette was darkly pleased.

He deserved it.

Marinette left Paris without a backwards glance and no plans to contact anyone. Lila had destroyed her bonds with the class and Adrien was leaving to. And she wasn’t sure he would want to stay in contact with her after this.

Marinette headed to Gotham where she was accepted by Batman- or Bruce Wayne- and his family. She had a room for the Miraculous Box and Kwamis, she went to a fashion school.

She had Dick. Dick who was Robin and kind and sweet. Who tried to hide the ladybug on his shoulder but she smiled to herself.

She wasn’t ready. She wanted friends first.

But one day...

#ml au #maribat #soulmate fridays

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hpdabbles · 3 years

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More on the Pretty Ron Au. Does he suddenly ask Lavander and Parvarti for help, advice? Become Dobby’s student? Take over Harrys wardrobe (we all know he also has horrible clothes outside uniforms), Hermione’s hair? Just. I really like that this seems something that can makr him happy. Suppotive friends while he tries things.

Ron glances over at the Witch Weekly, attempting to follow the photos that are demonstrating how to properly style curly hair. He has rapidly become a fan of Miss. Trends- the pen name of the woman who does the hair and makeup advice column- but he’s hasn’t actually been able to try her techniques until now.

“Am I hurting you, Hemione?” He asks worried that he may be tugging on her hair too roughly to place into the buns. Miss Trends assured the coconut oil would help the curls be easier to work with but he isn’t sure if he’s been as gracefully as she is in the pictures, especially on those twists.

“I’m fine Ron. You’re being very gentle, it actually feels lovely.” His best friend assures. She gives him an encouraging smile through the muggle full body mirror her parents sent. They had set it up in a corner of the common room, using some chairs as a makeshift wall to mark their area, and slowly but surely, Ron been transforming the corner into his workshop.

Nothing too extreme, mostly he just worked on anyone’s hair that allowed him to- at first that was only Hermione or Harry but slowly more and more Gryffindors wandered closer as he got better- while he started to collect fashion magazines, articles of clothes to practice. Dobby would appear at least once a day to teach him, all the skills he learned as a house elf for the Malfoy family, and for an hour Ron would sit in his corner soaking up as much information as he could.

Harry had even gone a step further, ordering mannequins, clothes, and the basic tools he needed to learn to make clothes. The first thing he did was adjust his school robes to finally fit him, and he beams in the body mirror when the adjustments make him seem lean.

Was that always how he looked? Had he always naturally look that well?

For a while, Ron feared people would mock him, but after Fred and George made it clear they would retaliate if anyone so much as snickered, the Gryffindor house let him be. Ron of course was confused about why the twins would do so- and a bit weary he admits- but his brothers had winked and promised they would sell his clothes in their joke shop if he needed help in getting his name out there.

It took Harry pointing out that Ron’s new goal of being the pretty Weasley could be a career, especially if he made and sold his own designs. The twins took that as another Weasley wanting to own a shop like them, thus making Ron a kindred spirit and they show him the support they wanted all along.

The sentiment may have caused the youngest Weasley male to tear up but it also opens his eyes. He could have a store. Ron could make clothes that would help everyone who ever felt like him- ugly, unimportant, trapped, insecure- and let them blossom and glow.

He may not be the first Weasley to own a shop, because Fred and Goerge weren’t going to let anything stop them, but he would be the pretty one with the pretty outfits and that was all his!

“It’s looking amazing Ron!” Lavender gushes as she hurries over. Ever since the Yule ball a few months ago, she and Parvarti had taken to stop and chat with him. At first, he was a little confused, especially since as long as he could remember Lavender had always been a bit odd around him. She giggled too much, had dry eyes since she blinked a lot, and generally seemed nervous all the time.

Then four days after the ball she walked up to him when he was alone. “I just want to know...you and Harry...is it true he flies both types of brooms?”

Ron knowing Harry didn’t mind people knowing he liked males and females after double checking with his best friend nodded. He had been used to people asking him the question, even after the news of Harry’s sexuality being broadcasted the very morning after the ball in all wizarding publications. She had taken a big breath before squaring her shoulders. “You only fly one right?”

“That’s right.” Odd no one really asked him, but he only noticed girls before. Not that he isn’t curious about boys but he doesn’t think it counts to be curious. He’ll have to ask Bill when he sees his brother next time.

“Okay. Thank you for being honest with me.” Lavender's eyes had gotten glossy like she was on the verge of tears but before Ron could ask she turn and fled. Weeks later Lavender approached him again but this time she did so after overhearing him trying to explain to his clueless friends what Winter and Spring colors were. Hermione looked best in winter while Harry was definite Spring he felt which she agreed though Harry had to be shades of green for his eyes.

Soon he found himself a new friend. With her came Parvarti, who Ron concluded was madly in love with Lavender, and the three often spent an hour going over trends and hairstyles.

“You should tie it with the silver-blue ribbons. They make her eyes look even lovelier.” She suggested handing over the ribbons and Hemione beams at her. It always made him happy to see her getting along with more people in the house.

“You’re right. I just have to get it to fall around her face to frame it-there it is!” He stepped back nervously running his hand over his other hand as Hermione turns her head to see the messy rose bun he made her. She lights up in glee.

“Ronald! It’s perfect! Oh, and it looks so nice with the dress you picked for me” She stands to twirl in the light blue sweater dress that he coupled with a black outer robe and wool cap for her date with Victor. She would be spending the trip to Hogsmedes with him while Ron walked around with Harry. Thus the life of he single friends.

“Would you like me to do your make-up?” Parvarti offers kindly. “Something light of course.”

“Yes please.”

Ron steps back, letting the girls put the finishing touches on Hermione happy he managed the difficult hair style. He looks at his reflection while he passes to take a seat, grinning as the adjustments he made to his clothes recently make him appear as good looking as Harry.

Casually handsome, like he is trying but it’s not obvious he trying. Ron is very happy Harry has allowed him to take over his wardrobe, because while he was hesitate to waste his gold on himself, the Boy-Who-Lived saw no reason to say no when Ron order new outfits for him. He got better at picking the right clothes and soon Harry was not only famous but one of the best dress in Hogwarts. It excited Ron to be his personal fashion designer.

Maybe he could add that type of service for his shop...food for thought.

Ron does notice his hair has fallen to the side, and attempts to finger comb it, still not used to it being this short but he does like it more. He’ll have to couple the red with the dark brown beanie, scarf and glove set he recently bought with the small coins he made from repairing some uniforms for his housemates.

“Ron, I think you should pay Harry some attention” Lavender whispers into his ear as she helps push some stubborn strands of red hair under his hat for him. He blinks at her confused.

Tilting her chin to where Harry is watching with a tapping foot and crossed arms on a love seat alone, he looks awfully impatient, she smirks. “I think he’s a little jealous of the attention you’ve been getting lately.”

He rolls his eyes. “I’m spending the whole day with him. Why he always gets this bloody needy is beyond me.”

“He can’t help it. You are pretty good looking, and people are starting to notice. Harry is scared his boyfriend will get bored of him”

He laughs at her joke but does stand to walk over to his best friend, waving a hand. “I could never get bored of him.”

Harry’s green eyes light up at his approach and he scrambles to his feet. “Ready to go? I heard about this tea shop on high street. Madam Puddifoot’s”

“That’s a couple place Harry” Ron said which caused his friend to turn bright red, so he hastily adds on. “I can’t wait to have some of those famous couples cakes I hear so much about.”

Harry is still blushing but at least he doesn’t look so unsure anymore. Ron is glad he never wanted to make Harry uncomfortable. Plus his best friend seemed quite excited for the tea shop and who was he to deny the bloke his request to go there?

As it turned out, going to the cafe was the perfect idea because right across the little tea shop he spotted a closed down building with large circular windows that stole his breath. It may have been boarded up, but everything to the red bricks, white window sills and gleaming sign with the faded words fashion had him realizing he really did now have a dream.

Harry pulled out his chair for him as Ron gaped at the building. “That’s the one.”

“Hmm?”

“That building over there.” He pointed making Harry twist around to see, “that’s the one where I’m going to put my robe store.”

Harry gave him a soft smile. He did that a lot, like a part of him was utterly smitten and it made a strange warmth spread through Ron’s chest. “I think it’s perfect. Feels right. Tell me about how you would decorate it.”

Ron open his mouth and found he could not stop, babbling like a loon about all the ideas bursting to life in his mind, of the designs he’s been thinking of and the newest project he has been working on with Dobby. Harry placed his face in his hands and stared at him the whole time that strange soft smile never once leaving his face.

#ascending-royal #Ronald Pretty one Weasley #Hpdabbles #Harry Potter #In this house we respect supportive brothers #Ron wants to own a robe shop #Harry is in love let him simp #Everyone thinks they are a couple #Harry/Ron #Background Hermione/Victor #Ron having his own dreams #The twins are happy for him #Ron unaware of Harry's feelings

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genshimmies · 3 years

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Could you maybe makr the rules readable on mobile? :(

I’ll post my whole rules page here!

I use MikuMikuDance (MMD) for all my renders!!

Please don’t give vague requests - Listen, I struggle with coming up with ideas too. That’s kinda why do requests, to try and get something to spark my motivation. However, just getting “can you make something with x character” doesn’t really help. There’s not prompt and nothing to go off of so it will probably be deleted

There will be no kaeluc or any sibling shipping here - I feel like this should go without saying. But. No. Just. No.

Other ships are okay though - I'm a multishipper so I’m open to the vast majority of ships and usually even if it isn’t something I personally ship, I can still make art for it because I can understand the appeal. Just not family. Can’t stress that enough.

This blog will update sporadically. Fixations come and go and I struggle with keeping interested in things for long periods of time. However, even if this blog goes a month or two without content, it will update again. Seeing messages asking if the blog is dead is an instant motivation killer.

Don’t rush me - As I said, I struggle with motivation - a LOT. Putting pressure on an artist to put out content simply because you want to see more doesn’t motivate me and it puts unnecessary pressure on me when this is meant to be a fun hobby. So. Don’t do that.

We may not do your request - Requests can pile up and it’s not possible for every single one we get to be done. I might not be able to visualize what your request is, I not get any inspiration for it and that’s fine! I’m just one person and art is hard but don’t get huffy if I don’t do your request! Don’t send messages asking how yours is coming along or I will refuse to do it out of spite.

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Don’t ask for the models - Most of the models I use are already shared by miHoYo and can easily be found on DeviantArt but if you see me using a character that hasn’t been released, that means it was ripped by a friend and isn’t mine to share! Sorry!

Polyamory is a-okay!!

Your faves are bisexual and I’m going to do renders with them being romantic with girls or boys and that’s all there is to it. If you take issue with me “forcing homosexuality” on a character, I argue that you’re forcing heterosexuality onto my queer characters. If you don’t like it, scroll and move on cause it’s not an argument you’ll win, you’ll just get blocked.

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wolvesofinnistrad · 5 years

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Soulmarks AU part 1

Everyone get’s their soul mark around 16, it’s just common fact.

When Alec turns 16 he scours his body for anything, a small blemish, anything to let him know where his soul mate will first touch him but he can’t find anything.

He’s always feared this day, but before he was worried that it’d be a large handprint or something else that let others know he was gay.

Now he worries he doesn’t have a soul mate at all.

His family tries to console him, that maybe he’s a late bloomer, that maybe his mate isn’t born yet and that’s why he hasn’t gotten one.

That idea is almost worse that he’d be that much older than his mate.

It’s almost 3 months before he realizes he does have a soul mark, it’s just in a place he’s been studiously avoiding.

He’s in the shower, trying to block out the thoughts that always come to him there when he happens to glance down and something looks, strange.

Trembling fingers reach down and brush away the thick hair before he gasps.

He tells himself its just water from the shower streaming down his cheeks, but even he can’t believe that.

It’s hard to see, and afterwards he has to go steal a mirror from Izzy just to be able to see it better, but once he can see more he realizes what it is.

Most people’s marks show up on their hands, handshakes, high fives, things like that being first touches.

Next most common are things like arms, face and back, then less common legs, feet, chest, etc.

Least common are what are called the sexual marks, when your soul mates first touch is somewhere like a breast, your ass, your genitals.

Alec would have never guessed his soul mark would be the shape of lips around the base of his cock.

The moment it fully hits him he finally gives in to the urges he’s fought so long, because he can’t stop thinking about what it means, who it means.

of course he also wonders how in the world the first touch of his soul mate is him being blown.

He can’t imagine any future where he’s confident enough that his first touch with someone is like that.

Some nights he wonders how it’s going to happen and it both scares and thrills him.

It’s barely two weeks before Jace can’t take noticing Alec’s shy, private smiles when he thinks no one is looking and corners him about it.

Alec doesn’t want to admit it at first, but finally he tells Jace, who as usual is incredulous.

“There’s no WAY your soul mark is a stage 3. NO way!”

Alec, feeling the need to reassure himself it’s real, show just the very hint of it to Jace who promptly loses his mind.

“Your soul mark is LIPS around your COCK!”

Unfortunately his parents happen to hear Jace shouting this which leads to some absolutely mortifying discussions.

After that things slip back to normal, although he always feels the weight of it in others gazes if they know, wondering if he’s going to be some kind of slut that he has a mark like that.

Alec waits and waits, hoping that somehow his mate will find him without any outward mark and his own closeted status, but by the time he’s 24 he’s still a virgin and not out to anyone but his sister so he’s kind of given up hope.

And then Jace begins dating a girl named Clary and starts dragging Alec with him to meet her friends.

They aren’t soul mates, and Alec feels like it’s a waste to get that invested, but he’s trying to be supportive for his brother.

Clary’s best friend, Simon, has just recently met his soulmate Raphael and the group, consisting of them, Alec, Clary, Jace, and then Raphael’s friends Magnus and Meliorn sit around talking when the topic of soul mark comes up.

Jace’s mark is a hand print on his face, which everyone thinks is hilarious and, knowing Jace, seems fitting that his mate would slap him.

Clary’s is the more common hand mark from a greeting.

Simon and Raphael had SImon’s wrist and Raphael’s neck.

Melliorn also has his entire hand marked.

Only Magnus and Alec are left and before Magnus can say anything Jace buts in.

“If we’re really talking interesting soul marks Alec has-”

Alec roughly shoves Jace “Shut up.”

“Oh come on. It’s the best soul makr I’ve ever seen. Well, half seen since you won’t let me see the rest of it.”

“I’m nto showing my brother my...” Alec starts before stopping himself, groaning as he’s already given too much away.

“Show your brother what exactly? Alexander, do you have a sexual mark?” Magnus asks, voice playfully coy.

Alec tries to deny it, but Jace is grinning and nodding like a madman and Alec tosses a pillow at his head.

“Oh I HAVE to know what it is now Alec!” Simon is practically rabid to find out and Alec is pretty sure he’d rather die than discuss this.

“If you don’t tell them I will.”

“You’re a horrible brother.”

“My mark is me being slapped, and yours is what yours is, tell me who got the rough end?”

Sighing Alec finally gives in. He dutifully avoids everyone’s gaze as he begins. “My mark is... A pair of lips...”

“Where?” Magnus asks.

Magnus himself has his mark on his lips, but it’s covered up by lipstick at the moment, so it piques his interest.

Not that he thinks Alec is his soul mate, the man is so stuffy that he has to be straight.

Alec groans, glancing to Jace who is on the verge of tears with silent laughter.

“It’s a pair of lips around... Around my cock. Like my mate is giving me a blowjob...”

There’s a roar of laughter as the entire group breaks out over this revelation.

“And she must be really good too, because I’ve seen Alec in underwear, he’s a big boy to be lips at the base.”

Jace actually gets punched in the arm at that by Alec, but Magnus doesn’t miss the weird twitch Alec gives off when Jace says “she”

“Laugh it up, at least I’m getting sucked off by my mate...” Alec finally says, trying to salvage some of his reputation, even if he can’t believe he’s just said that.

Once everyone calms down Clary turns to Magnus, “So what is yours Magnus?”

All eyes turn to him before Magnus smiles and grabs a napkin.

“Funny enough, mine is also lip related,” he says with a smirk. Slowly he wipes away his bright purple lipstick to reveal dark soul marks covering his entire lips.

Alec can’t help but gulp and cough, because while he could clearly just be kissing his mate, there’s no mistaking that Alec has always known his own soul mate would have to have their soul mark covering their lips.

And, well, Magnus is the most gorgeous man he’s ever met, evne if he’s done his best to barely look at him.

Except now that he’s heard that he can’t do anyhting but look at him, having to pry his eyes away.

Magnus eventually catches him and he looks away, feeling heat creep into his cheeks, but when he glances back Magnus is still staring at him.

Alec is thankful that Raphael says he needs to go soon after, and since he drove most of them here, that means they have to leave.

Everyone exchanges pleasantries as they prepare to leave.

IN an attempt to be a little shit, Meliorn gently pats Jace on his cheek as he leaves with a playful “see you around blondie.”

It’s only a moment later when Jace and Meliorn both freeze as Meliorn walks away that everyone stops to stare at them.

Jace is touching his face with just his fingertips, right over his soul mark.

As they watch the mark begins to fade.

Meliorn turns around looking confused, his hand raised as his mark is fading at the same rate.

“I’m not even gay, what the fuck?!” Jace shouts as he turns to Meliorn.

Meliorn just smirks, “Wouldn’t be the first straight boy I’ve turned.”

Alec is, not surprisingly, the most shocked of anyone that isn’t Jace, since he’s never even heard Jace mention another man was attractive as a joke.

“This... Cannot be happening,” Jace says, looking from Meliorn to Clary

“Like, it has to be a mistake right, right Alec?”

Alec just stares at Jace, then to Meliorn and back to Jace. “Uh, I’ve never heard of a soul mark disappearing without meeting your mate and having it touched.”

“If its any consolation, plenty of people don’t realize their latent bisexual tendencies until later in life,” Magnus says, “I mean I’ve always known I was a raging bisexual, but it’s not as easy for others.”

Hearing that definitely make Alec’s stomach flip, but he tries to ignore it.

“But, if I was gay I could do so much better...” Jace says, let down..

“Like I’d have picked a puny blond white fucboi as my mate?” Meliorn says, but he’s grinning.

“Shut it you asshole!”

“Make me.”

“Oh I’ll make you I’ll shut your entire mouth up I’ll...” Jace stops, realizing he’s gotten right in Meliorn’s face.

“Uh... I, what I meant was, um,” Jace panics, but before he can do anything to back away Meliorn grabs him and kisses him hard.

For about 3 seconds Jace seems like he’s going to bolt, then he very clearly moans and grips Meliorn’s arm and kisses back.

Alec’s jaw drops, Clary looks like she’s about to cry, Magnus and SImon are both cheering and Raphael looks bored.

When they finally break apart Jace looks dazed, it takes him a minute to process before he turns to the group and simply says “Well, I’m definitely Bi.”

Clary actually starts crying then, running off and Magnus gives one last lingering look at Alec that makes Alec’s heart beat faster before running after her.

Alec goes home alone, laying in bed wondering how both he and Jace didn’t realize this. He tells Izzy only enough that she knows Jace broke up with Clary at the party and that Clary, who she still hasn’t met, was inconsolable.

The next day he sees Jace trying to sneak in the house before breakfast and he opens the door for him and hands him some coffee.

“Really? The first night Jace? Yesterday you didn’t even think you were attracted to guys.”

Jace has hickies all over his neck, along with what look like bite marks.

“What can I say, I’m a fast learner.” He winks at Alec and takes a long swig of coffee..

“Besides, like you can talk Mr. my girl is gonna suck me off the first time we meet.”

“Not my girl.”

“I mean she’ll be your girl after it happens.”

“No, I mean. It’d be my guy. My soulmate has to be a guy, I’m gay Jace.”

“WHAT?!”

“Why do you sound more shocked to find out I’m gay than you did to find out you yourself were bi?”

“Because you’re... You! You're like, the straightest person I know!”

Alec grimaces at that.

“I’m not sure how to respond to that”

“YOu know what I mean, most gay guys are all sparkly and fun and sexually liberated and shit.”

“Way to stereotype Jace.”

“I’m just saying you don’t seem gay.”

“Well I’m sorry Im not constantly sucking a cock Jace but I mean... I am gay.”

“What in the world did I just walk in on?” Izzy asks, rounding the corner into the kitchen.

“uh, Alec was just, um” Jace stammers, trying to cover for his older brother.

“She knows I’m gay JAce, its fine.”

“Oh thank God,” Jace sighs. Then, “Wait, you told her and not me!”

“I figured it out, it’s not that hard.”

“Funny since Jace just called me the straightest person he’s ever met.”

“Well, I mean, if you just took everything you did at face value, sure, he’s right.”

Alec turns to Izzy with a stern look.

“I’m just saying, it’s a very convincing façade you’ve created Alec.”

“Well anyway, I guess that means we’re down to only one straight sibling,” Jace says, laughing.

“Yes, it’s a pity only women have to deal with you Jace.”

Alec and Jace both share a look then turn back to Izzy.

“Wait...”

“Iz?”

“Oh come on, please tell me you both didn’t think I was straight!”

“Gaydar machine really, really broken,” Alec says, patting himself down like he’s lost it.

“Hey at least you knew you were gay Alec, you should have caught this, I’m new to this shit.”

That makes Izzy turn to Jace, “What does THAT mean?”

Jace smirks, and it’s only then Izzy realizes his soulmate mark is gone.

“Oh my god, your mark is gone! When, who?”

“Last night. His name’s Meliorn. I call him Mel.”

“HIS name! You’re Bi?”

“Apparently.”

“You didn’t know?”

Jace laughs, “I mean I always said I was everyone’s type, I just didn’t know everyone was my type.”

Alec groans along with Izzy at that joke before he realizes. “Wait, so none of us are straight?”

“No.”

“Clearly not.”

“Wow, our parents are REALLY going to be angry when they find out.” Alec says.

“Totally unfair I’m going to take the brunt of it since I met my guy first.”

“Please, you literally got to find out you were Bi the moment it happened, I’ve had internalized homophobia since I was 11,” Alec deadpans. “Get on my level.”

“I mean we can just all, tell them together? They still have one shot at a straight kid with Max I guess.” Izzy looks both nervous and excited about the prospect.

“The odds aren’t looking good for Max,” Jace says, and they all crack up before hugging.

#i swear this was meant to be malec only but the jaliorn jumped out #malec #magnus bane #alec lightwood #jace herondale #meliorn #isabelle lightwood #jaliorn #jeliorn #mine #my fic #fanfic #saphael #simon lewis #raphael santiago #clary fairchild #100

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stoopsbookstore · 5 years

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"Nothing I can Do"

Warning - Use of the C word said in moment of anger

"So that's it? 6 months for nothing? For you to say you want to break up and no good reason?" Y/N stood next to Kino's bed, the boy holding his head in his hands as the situation in the room grew more tense.

"I'm sorry, Y/N. It's just between my schooling, the radio station and the guys, I never have time and maybe we could be frie-"

"And we discussed that beforehand. We will text every morning and night, and we'll meet up when we can!" Y/N was exasperated, "and you don't think I have a lot on my plate, too? With fucking 6 classes, my job and an internship at the news station?"

Kino bit into his hand, he knew Y/N was right, "I just feel like we should work on oursel-"

"Save it," Y/N grabbed her bag, running out of the door and almost slamming into Wooseok who had opened the entry.

"Kino? What was that?" Wooseok sat next to his older friend, patting his back as tears flowed out of his eyes.

Kino curled up in the tall boy's lap, sobs coming out, "my biggest mistake."

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Shinwon and Yan An had to drag Kino out of the radio station's rundown studio they let him use for his music. The trio walked to the cafe, Port Town's Caffeine, opting to sit in a booth.

"You need to eat, Kino, Ms. Hyuna said you locked yourself in there and you've been there since yesterday," Yan An sat next to him as Shinwon ordered the drinks and snacks, "Hui told me he found you asleep at your computer the past 2 weeks, that's not good."

Kino kept quiet as Shinwon handed him his iced coffee and a muffin, picking at the wrapper.

"Is this about that bit-"

"I told you, Shinwon. It was all me. My choice, ny regret, my decision," Kino perked up, his eyes void of all emotion, "she's not anywhere in the wrong for this."

Shinwon sat back, bitter as he noticed Y/N walking in with another boy, "holy fucking shit, that slut."

Yan An and Kino turned around, taking notice at the pair, the boy with his hand on Y/N's hip as he guided her to a chair.

"We're not together, bro. If she wants someone else, that's fine, that's what I wanted her to do."

"We can leave if you'd like," Yan An started picking up the wrappers and empty cups, "we don't have to stay. I know it's still fresh."

Kino shook his head, "guys, I'm fine. I mad-"

"Kino?" The guy with Y/N pulled his mask down, walking over to the group as Y/N kept her eyes down, "what's up, man?"

"Hey Vernon, what's been up with you?" Kino offered a seat next to him as Vernon waved Y/N over, the girl bitterly walking over.

"Oh, I've been good," Kino lied through his teeth as Y/N kept her eyes on the table, fiddling with her fingers while Shinwon glared holes into her head.

"Cool!" Vernon turned to Y/N, "Let me introduce yo-"

"We know who she is," Shinwon barked, crushing his cup, "he used to fuck her in our dorm. How is his sloppy sec-"

"Shinwon!" Kino and Y/N yelled at the tall male, his drink covering the table.

"That's low," Yan An scolded Shinwon, "what he meant to say is they were together. I'm guessing Y/N told you?"

"Yeah. She had mentioned she had a class with a Hyunggyu and they dated for a bit, but I didn't think it was him," Vernon felt the sudden awkward tension, looking between Y/N and Kino, "we can go if you'd like."

"Um, no. It's fine, Kino and you seem like you need to catch up, I'll actually go order food," Y/N stood up before being cut off by Kino.

"Actually, if it's okay with you, Vernon, I'd like to talk to Y/N."

"It's up to her, dude," Vernon helped Yan An clean up the now liquid-free, but still sticky table.

Y/N bit her tongue, nodding, following Kino outside.

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"What the fuck did you tell them?! Why did Shinwon try to attack me like that?!"

"Because it's Shinwon, he's impulsive. And I told him that I broke up with you, he took it as I did it because you hurt me, cheated on me, did something to me."

Kino and Y/N stood in the alley next to the cafe, both of their faces red with annoyance, anger, bitterness, regret.

"Have you told him it was you?! Not me! Did you tell him I cried myself to sleep or that Roa had to basically rip me from my bed to go out?" Y/N's words were like knives in Kino's heart, "I'm not saying this to makr you feel guilty! I'm saying this because Shinwon's accusing me of cheating and all this shit, calling me a slut, but it's been hard for both of us and I'm not going to be talked to like that by someone who eats his entire weight in trashy fast food!"

"I've tried telling him! I've told Hui! I've told Yan An, I've told Yuto. I've told my entire group of friends that it was me! It's not my fault that he wants to be an asshole!"

"Well, birds of a feather flock together! I wonder he got the idea of me being a horrible person from! Calling me a slut?! What the hell?!"

"We've been broken up for 2 weeks and you're already on your knees for some fucking other cunt! You're already in bed with Ver-"

"Who said I'm in bed with him?! We're partners in an acting project together and we figured we would take a fucking break before getting back to the scene! At least I'm not the fucking asshole who broke up with someone and couldn't give them a real fucking answer!"

"I broke up with you because I thought you'd be better without me and with someone else! I felt like I wasn't there enough for you to be happy and I didn't want you to feel trapped out of guilt!"

The venom in both of their words raced through their veins, both of them embarrassed by what they just said. The reality hits them both as the tone in the alley went from angry hatred to heartfelt sincerity.

"I've told him it was all my decision, you had nothing to do with it. He's just annoyed at the aftermath."

"Is that Hui texted me saying he found you sleeping in the radio station's record studio at least 4 times last week?" Y/N walked over to Kino, the space between them closing as the two looked at their feet.

Kino's voice wavered in defeat, "maybe."

"Hyunggyu," his real name a gross taste to both parties, "You need to take care of yourself. You need to eat and drink, make sure you're getting some rest."

"Why do you care? You sounded so angry before," Kino looked up to see Y/N holding back tears.

"Because even though it was a shitty breakup, I'm still going to care for you," Y/N grabbed his hands, "we may not be together, but we can still care for each other."

Kino and Y/N looked at each other, both of their cheeks wet with tears that they didn't even notice until now. Kino took his sleeve of his sweater and wiped at Y/N's years. The two sat in comfortable silence, Y/N making the first move to hug.

"Hey, Kino!" Shinwon was at the beginning of the alley, watching the two like a hawk, "we're needed at the radio station."

Kino broke the hug, Y/N with a soft smile on her face as Kino kissed her cheek.

"We can talk more later," Y/N wiped at the last tears falling.

"I'll facetime you when I'm out. Sounds good?"

"Yea," the pair shared one last hug as Vernon and Yan An showed up, Kino and Y/N walking towards them, "take care of yourself."

"You too. Good luck on your project."

"Good luck on your recording."

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"Happy Thursday, this is Kino's corner and I'm your host, DJ Kino with my friend, Shinwon," Kino talked into the microphone, a melancholy cloud over his head, looking at the sheet of songs he was suggested to play, "I know it's been a long week, a long day and I don't want to bring anyone down."

Kino stared at Shinwon, the older male nodding in approval as Kino took a breath in.

"I don't want to get too depressing, but I want to talk about break-ups, make-ups and regrets. We all go through them at one point in our lives. Sometimes all at once, two at a time or one right after another. Here's my story about a break-up that I regret and still do, but I've come to terms with it."

Kino started tearing up, the pain in his chest dull as he focused on making sure his voice doesn't crack.

"We were together for a good amount of time, 6 months, you know long enough to fall in love, find each other's quirks and fears, learn about each other. I felt like she could find someone better. I wasn't there for her and if we did see each other, it was only for about 5, 10 minutes top between classes. I broke up with her, giving her the reason we were too busy. I didn't want to tell her that it was because I felt like I wasn't enough, I knew she would feel guilty and I guess I'd rather her hate me than her feel guilty about me not being enough."

Kino watched his phone light up with a notifcation.

"I'll admit, I've been one of those exes who would look at their Instagram, snapchat, line, kakaotalk, Facebook, all that shit. She does look happier and I'm glad for her. Yes, we still talk and see each other out, but I don't think there's any chance of us getting back together."

Kino unlocked his phone, a text from Y/N, her classic snarkiness coming through.

'You know I listen to the radio show, right? :P'

"I know there's certain people listening," Kino chuckled as he queued Shinwon to play a song, "I think there are some people who may need to listen to what I'm about to play. As you know, me, my cohort, Shinwon, as well as our friends Hui and Yan An, have a group, we're called Pentagon, we're recruiting more people, at least... we're trying."

Shinwon laughed as he played the intro, "auditions tomorrow at 2! We have 6 spots open!"

"Thanks, Shinnie. This is a song we just did, I hope you'll like it, it means a lot to me. It's called 'Nothing I Can Do'. I hope you all like it."

#pentagon imagines #pentagon scenarios #pentagon au #pentagon #pentagon kino #kino #hyunggyu

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the-coolest-mallard · 4 years

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Like a Kickass Guy | ASC

Louie gets high at Mei’s party and texts Nemo and Tae.

@justkeepdancing-nemo @moon-yeongtae

Louie: holy shit u guyyyyyy Louie: shit has been going dowwwwwwwwn. Or upside down? down and up really lol Louie: i may not have muscles n shit but guess WHAT I DID Tae: hulked out and killed someone? Louie: woah man no! Duuuuuude have u seen me? impossible Louie: i'm too cute to go to jail yet Louie: i mean EVER Louie: im too cute to go to jail EVER Louie: did a keg stand lol. sorta Tae: whoa nice Tae: how you feelin? Louie: a m a z i n g Louie: you won't BELIEVE how good i am Louie: i felt like IRON - no. i felt like CAPTAIN AMERICA. LIKE A KICK ASS Louie: GUY Tae: nice dude i'm glad ur having fun Tae: is mark there Louie: he was here somewhere. he asked me to come Louie: dunno where he went. maybe he's with johnny idk Louie: but who cares lol Louie: i'm great Louie: no more sads Tae: wow you're really drunk huh? Louie: nooooooooooooo Louie: haha I was gonna drink Louie: but then this weird girl showed up Louie: and now i'm super

Tae: but you said you did a keg stand Tae: that's like drinking isnt it? Louie: is it? i thought it was just a hand stand on a keg lol Louie: who knows? not me Tae: i mean i guess Tae: what weird girl Louie: idk blond. weird. she wanted me to CHEAT ON MARK WTF Louie: i mean she seriously helped me out but also Louie: wtf Louie: weird. so weird. but we went to the bathroom and she Louie: gave me t his stuff n i'm like Louie: wow i mean i can't stop talking Louie: i think I've said some seriously stupid shit Tae: wait Tae: what? Louie: what? i didn't tell you anything stupid did I? Louie: i don't think i did. thank god. imaigngi f i told u that Louie: lololol i'd die forever Tae: louie what are you taking about what stuff Louie: stuff? which stuff Louie: im not tellig Tae: what did she give you Louie: ohhhhhhhhhhh Louie: oh i can tell u that haha Louie: she called it all kinds of weird stuff like snow white or whatever which is bizarre af but whatever Louie: i like sniffed it and it felt super whack Tae: LOUIE WHAT THE FUCK Louie: and then it was like Louie: wow Louie: idk man i wanted to not feel sad and i feel good now Tae: holy shit what the fuck i cannot believe Tae: louie that was so dumb Louie: you're so dumb! Louie: no that's not true Louie: you're my faovriedgof person ever Tae: where the fuck is nemo why isn't he here to tell you how stupid that was where are you Tae: you're at mei's right Louie: yeh i crashed lol Louie: well no mark and johnny wanted to crash Louie: and since mark's been cool and let me stay at his place i was like Louie: well i should probs go Tae: yeah well THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD'VE FUCKING DONE COKE OR WHATEVER YOU DID jesus fuck Nemo: wait wtf did i just read Tae: yeah Tae: i have to go fucking get him Louie: why are you maddddd? im not bugging anyone! i'm having fun! Nemo: wait whats going on! Nemo: louie are you okay? Louie: i'm FINE Louie: i'm super Nemo: he did cocaine? Louie: super human Tae: he's at mei's party and he fucking YES Louie: you could say Louie: ughhh stop making this so big Tae: do you know how many kids my brother had to see in the hospital bc of drugs louie? Nemo: yeah that stuffs really bad Nemo: its human chemicals Nemo: do you feel okay? are you dizzy? Louie: do you know what else is bad? life. being sad. freddie mercury leaving too soon. presidents. earthquakes Nemo: louie D: Louie: tthe hunger games Tae: hey louie seriously how are you feeling like Tae: in your body Louie: that's a weird thing 2 akks dud Louie: im fine! Tae: okay but like Tae: if u close ur eyes and like idk try to feel what's happening like is your heart beating really fast? do you feel like puking? do you feel like you're moving? Louie: oh i mean yeah lol Louie: my heart is skipping faster n when i Louie: wait i gotta shut up shut up Nemo: tae yah is that bad? Nemo: would jun hyung know? Tae: i'm asking him right nwo Louie: so fussy you guys are fussy im gooood Nemo: louie just keep texting u ok Louie: look how good i am Louie:

Nemo: very pretty Tae: yeah gorgeous how's your breathing Louie: wouldnt u like 2 kno Louie: how's your butt Louie: bet its still kicckable Tae: you have literally never kicked my ass at anything Tae: nemo does your appa know about this stuff? you probably shouldn't ask him huh? Louie: DON'T AOISFJPDOGN Nemo: its human drugs Nemo: so not really Louie: 4 THE LOV OF GOD Louie: that guy lredy probs haaaaaates me Nemo: his magic wouldnt work either i dont think Louie: im a toxin to freidn parnets Nemo: yeah if he ever finds out we woudl be banned from being in the same school i think he'd transfer me to that catholic place and appa hates catholicism Nemo: this is why you shouldnt do drugs louie :heart: dont yu wanna keep being my friend Louie: :cry: :cry: :cry: Louie: you're my best mate wgodidpsdggdfh Louie: you too tae Tae: wow rude Tae: oh okay Louie: wow Louie: dont be such a bitch tae Tae: well you started it when you did cocaine Louie: i used to think u were the coolest but maybe im demoting u n promoing Louie: nemo Louie: nemo ur the new hottie Tae: the what Louie: what? Tae: louie i'm coming to get you Louie: whyyyyy the partys still partying Louie: ppl be FITIN Louie: man ud fit right in with your muscle bod Louie: well cept one fitghts girls Tae: where are you in the house Louie: idk the dance place. the life space Louie: where everyone is? Nemo: is jun going too? Nemo: aghaldkfjaskldfj Tae: yeah Louie: wait wait wait wait wait Nemo: ugh im sorry i cant be there Louie: where u going Nemo: louie im so sorry just keep texting us Louie: no Louie: i should dkslefadkad Tae: hey louie what's your favorite queen song Louie: skedlolde Louie: what? ohhhhh wow tough choice man i mean Louie: there are soooo many good SONGS Louie: lately i've been listening 2 somebody to love a lot cause i been dfpsogdpsjsd Louie: buuuuuut Tae: i like don't stop me now Louie: that's my OTHER FAVORITE Louie: man u vibe so well with me i hate it Louie: ha ha ha Louie: j k this is why we're bffs Nemo: hey queen was on the CD you gave me Nemo: ive been listening to it! Louie: reallyyyyy? did you like it? Louie: hey hey tae tae. taeeeeeeee. tae you should send a slefdie Louie: slefit Louie: sel fie Nemo: course! i love it Nemo: maybe i'll pick a song and choreo a dance for it Tae: you want a selfie? Louie: oooooo yes please nemo Louie: and def yes pls tae Louie: do smehthing cute Nemo [deleted]: ugh louiealkf Nemo: where's mark again? Nemo: im gonna text mark Louie: idkkkkkkk Tae:

Louie: he went to do some stuff with johnny Louie: woahhhhhhhhh Louie: waogdisjdpsgjosg Louie: shit Tae: that's me coming to get ur dumb ass Louie: wait ur coming to get me? Louie: shit shit shit wait i gotta skedoled Louie: skedadled Tae: what? Louie: well much as i think ur great im ok Louie: also i thinkk hoooo shit Louie: gotta ifnd a window lol Tae: louie if you don't stay there i will fucking murder you Tae: i'm serious Louie: deth by tae or tdeth by uncle d when he fins out Louie: shit mn if i stay its a double featur Nemo: :/ Nemo: please louie, we're worried about you Nemo: we love you! we just want to make sure you're okay Tae: yeah Tae: you're gonna stay the night with me okay Louie: oh god Tae: it'll be great Louie: hahaahahahahahaha Louie: N E M O Louie: tell him why i suddenly Louie: sgosigdsgsdg Nemo: louie i think you should Nemo: um drink water Louie: im good ill just find Louie: makr Louie: mark Nemo: that's also good please find mark Louie: n go to his place? Tae: what did i say Nemo: nothing he's on drugs Tae: i said stay put Louie: im really good thouuuugh Louie: n mark will look out for me Louie: marks nce Tae: well mark left u alone and you did cocaine so i mean not that that's his fault i'm just saying Nemo: ugh what if mark did cocaine Nemo: u dont think mark did cocaine did he Louie: dont blae me him 4 ME BEING ME Tae: DID MARK DO COCAINE Louie: honestly i dont dieossgodkh Louie: NO Tae: fuck Nemo: he might not have! we dont know Louie: i dont deesrve mrk naywayl ol Tae: nemo never do cocaine please Nemo: i cant see mark lee doing cocaine unless someone told him it was fun dip Louie: he n johnny were just doing fun stuff 2gether Tae: lmfao Nemo: id probably DIE if i did cocaine so dont worry ahha Nemo: big no no for fairies Louie: speaking of immenditd death Louie: we sure windows r no go Nemo: which is why u shouldnt do it solidarity c'mon louie Tae: if you aren't there when i get there i will be very upset Nemo: he will be Nemo: wont u louie Louie: im scared i dont want the lady 2 yell at me Louie: pls i wanna leave Tae: I'm almost there Louie: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD= Louie: what if i hid in the bathroom Nemo: its gonna be okay louie :heart: Nemo: just um, sing a little queen Louie: no its not ill be ded 4ever n dragged home n stuck with my asshole fam n never escape n ded Nemo: you won't be dead you'll be safe Louie: shit someone said its the COPS Louie: im double triple dead Louie: n thats bullshit Louie: my fam isnt safe they suuuuuuuck Tae: WHERE ARE YOU Tae: fuck there are so many people Louie: trapped in the prison of xistance Louie: a house of horrs Louie: horors Tae: i'm serious louie i can't find you Louie: just make urself taller Louie: ill see you Tae: i'm gonna yell for you Louie: ok ok ok Nemo: ugh fksjf

#justkeepdancing-nemo #moon-yeongtae #t: like a kickass guy #r: lemo #r: taekwonduck #r: afternoon snack club #tw: drugs #i mean that's a main topic

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alwaysmarais98 · 6 years

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Something Different | Chapter 3 (These Girls) | Jonah Marais

A/N: HELLO EVERYONE! Here we are, already at Chapter 3. Thank you so much for reading my story. I feel so so happy when someone gives me feedback or tells me that they liked it. It’s so motivating to know that someone enjoys my writing. Please please also tell me what you thought of that Chapter and also makre sure to reblog so more people can see it. I love you all so much and thanks again. The first part has already 50+ notes I really can’t believe that.

In case you missed the other parts: Chapter 1 (Tell me), Chapter 2 (Nobody Gotta Know)

Summary: You are Daniel’s best friend and go to one of his concerts. You meet Jonah and let’s say the feelings are directly mutual. Every chapter of this series will also be inspired by one of their songs and for this part we got ‘These Girls’. The plot doesn’t match the song completely but you get idea.

Warnings: None

Wordcount: 2k

Jonah drops his arms letting go of you “What are you doing out here? It’s past midnight” “I just wanted to ask you guys the same question” Zach laughs obviously being amused with what he sees. He takes a bite off his sandwich “Well I wanted to sleep then I got hungry. I made some food and I heard someone outside in the pool. Now I’m curious for your explanation. You two all alone here outside? I hope I didn’t interrupt something” he smirks. You blush all deeply and lift yourself out the pool. “Goodnight guys” you simply say and quickly grab your towel walking inside. You are way too embarrassed your cheeks turning dark red and all you could hope is that Zach won’t tell Daniel directly.

“Y/N. Wait” Jonah calls but you are already inside. He isn’t running after you knowing that will probably wake someone. “And you don’t tell this to anyone okay. You didn’t see anything”. “Yeah I’ll keep my mouth shut but what’s going on between you two?” Zach asks and Jonah sighs a moment knowing he won’t stop asking questions when he doesn’t tell him. “Well we kept texting and calling each other after she was at our concert. And well now I asked here to come down here so we can be alone for a bit. She doesn’t wanna say anything to Daniel yet. We aren’t official not even dating at the moment. I don’t even know if she..” Jonah starts but doesn’t finish his sentence. “If she? C’mon spill it bro” Zach smirks hitting his shoulder but Jonah shakes his head “No nothing”. Zach raises his brows making him give in “okay yeah if she likes me” he mumbles barely audible. Zach smirks feeling like he won as he got it out of his friends “Goodnight loverboy”

Kitchen, next morning, 9.38 am

“Did you sleep well?” Daniel asks as you two make breakfast together for everyone. You didn’t get a lot of sleep. All you could think about was Jonah and how you almost kiss him. You still feel his hands on your bare skin and his lips so close that they almost brushed against yours. You tried to get your head straight again but even thinking about him makes you feel dizzy. Do you like him? Is that how it feels to be in love? No, you can’t be. You just met him a few weeks ago and saw him in person twice. You don’t believe in love at first side. Do what your heart wants. That’s what people always say but what does the heart know anyways? You don’t believe in anything like that. But maybe the tall guy with messy chocolate brown hair and dark ocean eyes just changed your way of thinking.

“Y/N?” Daniel snaps his fingers in front of your face. You snap out of your thoughts nodding your head quickly “Mm yeah I slept good” you give him a smile so he is happy. He grabs some plates carrying them all to the table. You let out a small sigh. You never lied to him before. You knew Daniel since childhood. You told him everything and always cried in his arms when some guy broke your heart with 13. You need to tell Daniel because you know it won’t end good if he finds out or someone else says something.

30 minutes later everyone is finally downstairs. You all sit around the table starting to eat. “Should we go to the beach today? It’s really nice weather outside” Corbyn suggests. “Yes, beach sounds great. You are in Y/N? You brought a bikini, right?” Daniel asks. “Oh yeah she…ouch” Zach starts but you kick his leg quickly under the table before he could finish his sentence. He looks apologizing at you as he promised not to say anything. Well, Zach isn’t the best though to keep a secret as he always spills before he thinks. Luckily Daniel didn’t even notice and keeps eating his sandwich happily. The beach sounds good right? Seeing Jonah shirtless the entire time sounds great as well. Not being able to get close to him will be the bad part about all of this.

Your room, 11.02 am

You kneel in front of your suitcase deciding what bikini you should wear. You want to look cute but don’t show off too much at the same time. You choose your black triangle bikini and some matching bottoms. After taking it on you braid your hair into two boxer braids and throw on your white beach dress. Putting a towel in your bag then you also get your phone and some sun cream. As you walk outside you room Jonah opens the door of his at the same time “beautiful” he mouths shooting you a wide smile. You giggle some seeing his swimming shorts with bananas on them. “What? Those are sexy” he smirks noticing your facial expression just thinking how adorable you are. Your laugh is already his favourite sound. The others wait already downstairs in the hall. “Finally! Let’s go now!!” Jack runs outside the door already being way too excited for just the beach.

The beach is less than a kilometre away so it’s a short walk. You chat with Corbyn laughing about some stupid Instagram videos he shows you on his phone. After arriving everyone places their towel down in the sand and you get a place between Daniel and Jonah. What else should have happened. Zach and Corbyn run directly into the water as you sit down first. “Can you put sun scream on me?” You look at Daniel but he is already on his way into the ocean too together with Jack. “I will do it for you. C’mon, lay down” Jonah grins grabbing directly the bottle from you being more than happy. You give him a look as you lay down on your belly “Make sure to keep your hands where they belong to Marais” you laugh some trying not to show your excitement and also nervousness right now. “Yeah don’t worry but this needs to be open” he gently pulls the strings of your bikini making it drop to your sides. You feel goose bumps all over. At first you want to blame to the cold sun scream but it’s Jonah. He slowly rubs his hand over your back rubbing it in all gently. That guy really knows how to take his time. He makes sure to get EVERY spot. He lets his fingers trace along your shoulder blades then down your spine. “You have a really nice body, you know” he whispers some as he strokes his hand more down rubbing them over the back of your thighs now. “Jonah…” you warn as he gets his fingers a little too close to your butt. “Sorry” He chuckles some as he drifted off with his movements for a second “all done now”. You smile and after he tied your bikini again you sit up “thank you” you grin and touch his arm sending chills through his entire body.

“Guys come here as well now!” Jack yells from the water and you scrunch your nose a little while Jonah jumped already. “You go I’ll listen to some music” you turn to your bag but suddenly he just lifts you up throwing you over his shoulder. You squeal while Jonah runs into the water with you to where the others are. “Well now you are in. No excuses we are at the beach” he laughs at you. You splash him with water before diving under a moment to get your hair wet. “Let’s play?” Jack asks raising a ball he brought along with him. Everyone stands in a circle and you just pass around the ball for a while. After a while you get out of the water just laying down on the towels.

A group of six girls slowly approaches the boys giggling and whispering. “Oh my god you are Why Don’t We” one of them says squealing just quietly. “Can we please get a picture?” a tall brunette one asks and Corbyn nods “sure”. You lay down on the towel not really paying attention as all of the boys hug the girls and take pictures together. You do look up suddenly as you watch Jonah talking to a blonde one. She is tanned, taller than you, flatter stomach and her legs are well better than yours as well. You take one of your ear phones out to listen to their conversation. You normally aren’t the jealous type but with Jonah it’s something different.

“Well you are quite cute too” you hear him complimenting her back. She leans her weight on one foot making her body look even better, one hand in her hair the other one on his arm. Jonah doesn’t seem to mind. You stare at him but all he does his looking at her while she flirts. You try to calm down. He can do that, you two aren’t dating. But you would lie to yourself if you’d say it doesn’t hurt you. You liked yourself yes, but when you saw how easily other girls wrap a guy around their finger, you can’t help but feel insecure about your body. You look up again seeing how he touches her side now and you feel a bit of anger inside your stomach. After what he said yesterday night and how he acted you were sure he had feelings as well. But was he just like any other guy his age just looking for sex? You think about your ex-boyfriend Darren and the events that took place a few months ago. He broke your heart more than just once, made it hard for you to trust again. You thought Jonah is different. But you really had your doubts right now if he really is that different. You lay down on the towel closing your eyes. You can’t watch all of this anymore. For a moment you just see them hugging then your head turns the other way while listening to some music. You don’t even notice they all sit down again on their towels. Daniel touches your arm. “Hey, we wanna go grab some food. You want something as well?” he asks. You sit up taking your ear phones out “No, I don’t feel hungry. You just go.” “You sure?” he questions thinking directly something must be wrong. You normally never say no to food. “Yep. I’m sure. I just feel a bit tired. I’ll rest here” You lie laying back down. Jonah furrows his brows and grabs his phone “Hey boys I’ll call my dad quickly. I will come to the restaurant in a bit” he gets up quickly. He walks away a few metres just waiting till his bandmates got up and walked away to get food. He approaches you again. “Okay tell me what’s wrong. You already didn’t look happy when we came back here after taking pictures with the fans” he says looking at you. “Just leave me alone” is all you mumble being clearly upset. “No, I won’t before you didn’t tell me what’s the matter now” he says and grabs your arm. You quickly jerk it away “don’t touch me now” you snap a little at him making him raise his brows. You are bad at holding back your emotions. Maybe you are overreacting but you couldn’t care less in that moment. You don’t want someone to break your heart again. “You know what Jonah! Just go back to that Blondie. You looked way happier being all touchy with her. Stop telling me all those things about how beautiful I am when you’d jump into bed with the next best girl that shows some interest” you say rising your voice. He stares at you in disbelief but before he could say anything you already grabbed your stuff running to their house. You feel a tear running down your cheek but there is no way for you to walk back to that beach looking at Jonah. You need to be alone now.

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aintgot99problemsigot7 · 7 years

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Got7 Showcase (and me)

IT IS HERE IT IS BEGINNING OMYGOD

JJP praises maknae for raising the mood compares jjp showcase vs got7 showcase

Talking about bambam videography

Bambam got inspired on youtube

It’s YOUNGRISH TAIMU!!!!!!!!!!!

Words he learnt in nyc: ‘thanks a lot’ in a very ny accent

Yj went for vocal lessons in ny

Jackson – talking about papillon g6 goes aite aite aite aite loool

Yugie – learning a new genre of dance OMG SMTM6 TWISTED BY JUNOFLO I AM DYING

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG HAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAH

DED DEEEEEEEEEEED

*cry* why do I love yugyeom so much

Yugie does more sexy dancing

OMG THEY’rE GONNA PERFORM PARADISE I AM DED and its not even begun yet omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

PARADISE SO GOOD

MARK IS LOOKING FIRE

THEY ARE ALL LOOKING SO FIRE I AM BURNT bambamstop it

Hahahah they all holding mic for yugie hahahha so cute

Youngjae giving us all the vocals yesssssssss

Vocal7 dance7 my soul feels blessed

OMG GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS YASS awwww that was so long ago

They look so cute doing this dance now I wonder if mark and js will do the flips omg

O shit I had missed jackson’s hip thrusts more than I thought

OH HERE COMES omg markkkkkkkkkkkk shitttt still killin it

Got6 cheers for Mark haha

SHITMARK I missed that ‘every lady wants a piece of me’ <3

Jackson dougieing oooooooo flips oh babies I love you

Hahha omg mark looks so done

Album spoiler beautiful songs

OMGGGGGGG they look soooooo gooooooooood in their casual outfits OMG

BAMBAM being praised for lyric vid hahah BAM DONG NIM

You Are MV bb starts explaining story... ahgases says not to say more hahahha ahgase basically saying they don’t want to be spoiled. Hhahahhaha

Bambam making fun of other members in the video

Yugie says bb was a pro – bb spent all night editing. Bb makes a bad joke

Aww bb

Talking about JB writing you are

Jb: about someone that we’re thankful for…expresses relationship with fans, parents, etc

As I was writing the song…. He watched animation that had beautiful skies. Beautiful Sky was the title but suddenly it was called You Are - JYP DID THIS LMAO

Teenager – once u like someone you feel young oooo chorus is by rappers in this aww jb so cute… hahha bb saying they got more parts,that’s why bb asked for it to be title song LOL yg and bb chose teenager

LOL YJ made a joke no one got it

bb first time doing a song Remember You. Director n producer bb ahahha ‘I wanted to kill it this time’

senti lyrics… it was meant to be in arrival but didn’t get included

he didn’t want it to be like a foreigner wrote it so he made many many edits

yugs – hahahaha so cute he’s so shy lol at got6 picking on him he is so embarrassed

to me – uses a different beat, latin influenced beat ahhahhah JUNOFLO COMES OUT AGAIn OMG I’m dyin why is he so darn cute

hahahhahhahah omg yugie pls

amerithaikong wrote face :D

hahahha got6 making fun of bb

missing your face isn’t just for gf bf it can be anyone you miss like your friends

hahahha mark is quiet

mark: LA gangsta coming out hahahha

‘the song is old’ ‘recorded this a while ago’

Theyre abt to play remember you

Bb: I think I need to go to the bathroom after this

Ommmmggggggh

Jackson singing OMG

IT IS SO SWEET IT SOUNDS SO SWEET

HOLY YOUNGJAE VOCALS

You can tell it’s v emotional… everyone is feelin it

They just performed FOREVER YOUNG <3

Bambam really went to the bathroom LOL

BB is back hahha

Jb: I was surprised, he wrote it well

Bb: I KNOW

LOLOLOLOL

Jb: im proud

LET ME <3

OMG TEENAGER IS SO GOOD

Rap line singing the chorus is the best thing ever

THANK YOU JB for this beauty teenager certified bop

Bb: this is why I wanted this to be title.. this is the bright concept u wanted

OMG over 250 mil hearts.. members are happy

Bb: sings teenager

Memebam came out while singing his own part in remember you

Jy yj: makes bb dab

LMAO they’re making the host do aegyo OMG DED

Jb: does ‘chic’ aegyo

Yg: rap LMAOOOOOOOOOOOoo o god hahahha im already laughing

Yg too hyped by himself. OMG :’D

Got6 making fun of papillon hahha aite aite aite aite

JS does papillon everyone cheers

YES YG WE WILL BE TOGETHER FOREVER I LOVE U MY PRECIOUS MAKNAE OMG

Ahgase: JINYOUNG!

JY: waeee~ *so cute*

Jy: talks about how happy he is that the title was by a member… I saw things I couldn’t working as 7 rather than 2

Got5 pervs: what did u see

LMAO

Mark: worked really hard on this, I hope u like it

(I LOVE IT ALREADY MAKR)

Mark: love you (I LOVE YOU MORE)

JB: pretends to read from card (lol him and his gdad jokes honestly)

Thank you for coming aww he asked ahgases if they could see alright from far away

Jb starts recoding yj… yj poses whilegiving speech hahaha

Yj recording bb now hahhaa

Aww bb dnt worry we love you no matter what

Js: I’m got7’s Jackson, thank you for coming *cutie*

Bb: now recording JS

WHY THEY SO SOFT

Js: more than words i will show with my actions of working hard (I CAN ALREADY SEE IT BBY)

YOU ARE coming up next

OMG THE CHOREOOOO

VOCALS… I AM SLAYED

I AM DED

#got7 #7 for 7 #got7 showcase #ded #you are #era: 7 for 7 #jaebum #bambam #jackson #jackson wang #mark #mark tuan #youngjae #choi youngjae #jinyoung #yugyeom #2jae #markson #markjin #2young

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mortallyinsaneobsession · 5 years

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To Zachary

To all those who broke me

Father, biological at most. You created me by accident, but left me alone on purpose. You were the first man to break my heart. You caused me to question myself and everything I stand for. I chose to call you by your first name instead of dad because you are not my dad, you’re a stranger. It hurts the most to know that your other kids are more important than me. You probably couldn't remember my birthday or how to spell my name. All the time you work 6mins from my house. The time you knocked out off of pills when I was over, instead of spending time knowing your daughter.

Grandmother, my “father’s" mother, you only asked me to come and visit because you felt guilty for not being a part of my life. No amount of gifts will even make up for the comments about my weight or the fact that you don’t remember my birthday. The gifts were always clothes I would never wear, 2 sizes too big. All the pictures in you photo albums are pointless. The night that you found out about my self harm and looked at me bawling my eyes out and refused to let me call my granny, that’s when I started to hate you. I stayed away for over a year and come back to tell you the news of getting in to my dream school, in to the number one liberal arts school, only for you to make me feel like I wasn’t good enough once more.

Michael, you were a father figure, but the worst one I’ve ever had. You drank beer till it made your temper uncontrollable. You made my mother in to a Monster. You screamed at me because I couldn't spell or didn't have good Enough hand writing until I was crying so hard I couldn’t breath. You tried to treat me like your child but thankfully I wasn’t. You made me question the reality of god. You made me miss so many days of school in second grade because the pain pills where all the way in Florida. You took away my childhood. I’ll never forget the time that you threw my dinner out the car window or the one when you pitched keys across the parking lot hitting me so hard the pain brought me to my knees.

Dad, or should I call you by your first name now? You showed me a lot about how to live life. You honestly helped bring me out of a dark place, for those things I am grateful. You however also caused me a lot of heart ace. I don’t blame the vodka or the drugs, those things were simply around. I blame you for always going back. It broke my heart to watch you have withdrawals so bad that you seized. It hurt me to see the track marks on you arms. I wish that you would have gotten better but you just left, that seems to be the trend here. You gave me a little brother, I can never thank you enough for that. But being replaced by a baby you had with a woman only a few years older than me, that really sucks. I wish that I could make you better, I wish that I could call you but it would do no good.

My first love, you made me believe love was a lot like hate. You made a church seem unholy. You made me feel like my body was yours whenever you wanted it. I changed so much about myself to make you happy, but I never was. You left finger print bruises all over my body and convinced me it was because you cared. You used me for years, me and any other girl you could get your hands on. You had a way with words both evil and kind. You kept convincing me to forgive you and I always did, that was my mistake. I distanced myself from you for over a year but I decided to forgive and forget. 2 months later you put your hands on your new girl. All I could think was that could have been me and that’s terrifying. You put me through so much hell, cheating, calling me 186 times when I tried to leave you, the treating text messages, the time you made me cry the whole shift at KFC and still took my clothes off when you drove me home. You made me believe sex was the way to love. That ruined my persecution of love.

The next, you convince me that you wanted me purely for nudes and sex. You refused to tell anyone we were “talking" you made me feel like I was something to be embarrassed and ashamed of. I’ll never forget the text were you told me you never actually liked me. I wanted so badly to be important to you, but I guess I was never good enough

Some boys, you never took the time to get to know me other than in the back seat of your car or in your bed. I tried the best way I knew how to makr boys love me, with sex, I guess it doesn't work that way. I was nothing to you. Most probably don’t even admit it. It makes me feel disgusting every time I think of you. I would never be what you wanted, ever.

Hotel room, you took me to your hotel to “hang out" and I was stupid enough to actually go. You took advantage of a drunk girl. I cant bring myself to call it rape, but I know that I didn’t want it to happen. I hope that you realize what you did was wrong and I hope you never make another girl have to take a cab home from the worst night if her life. I took so many showers to try and wash off the way I felt, it hasn’t worked.

Roof top, you made me open my eyes to a new way on seeing. You made me feel my worth for the first time. You were one of the only people that took time to get to know me, but you still left me alone. You heard all the people that had done it before then you did it again. You promised to always be a friend at least, but even when I was trying to decide if I should take my life or not, you left me on read. I poured my heart out to you for you to break it one more time.

The last, you tried to buy my love by putting gas in my tank and posting pictures of me. You wanted me to change so many things about myself. I was never the girl you thought you loved, that’s what you made me to be. I was never good enough for you or anyone else before. I jumped every time you moved your hand up my thigh because I knew what was about to happen. Your touch made me feel dirty. You made me feel like I wasn’t worth your trust. You brought up things from my past just to hurt me. You made me feel like I was so little and so insignificant to the world.

Myself, you do not go with out blame. You did worse when you knew better. You never spoke up to tell those who hurt you what they did. You took the blade in to your skin, you are the reason that all this kept happening. Your personality and body is the reason that boys never stuck around. You never know when to be quite. You have so many things that need improvement .

I am who I am because the things that have happened to me. I grew up with a horrible father, and father figures that were not any better. My mom wasn’t around much at all, but she's done a lot better these last few years. I talk loud because yelling is the only way what I said would be listened to. I have done a lot of things I’m not proud of, but I can’t un do them. I trust more than I should and forgive too easy. I’ve been told my heart is the best and the worst thing about me, I love hard but I forgive those not worth forgiving. I cant blame one thing for making my life hard because it was one thing after another. I have never felt like I belonged in a single place. I have no idea where I want my life to go. I’m not perfect, no matter how hard I try. I still have thoughts of hurting myself some days, no matter how long it's been. I still look in the mirror and see ugliness no matter how much weight I lose or how much makeup I put on. I try my very best to make everyone happy. I’d do anything for anyone. I want so badly to belong, but some how I always feel excluded. I cry when anyone raises there voice at me or is upset with me because it makes me feel like the biggest fuck up. I wish I was a different person most days. I wish I would have done a lot of things differently. I will never be what I want to be, but I’m trying every fucking day. I blame myself for letting a lot of things continue that I had the power to stop. I should have listened and I should have tried harder at times. Some days I’m on top of the world other days I cant get out of bed.

I ask that you tell me if you stop loving me the moment that you realize. I ask that you tell me why you love me from time to time when I need it. I ask that you hold my hand when I get nervous. I ask that you try to use kind words when you’re angry. I ask that you don’t let me push you away when times get hard. I ask that you open up to me when you’re ready..

I’m telling you all of this because I believe that it will make you better understand the reasoning behind me. The reasons I cry more than I should and the reason I need a lot of attention some times.

I appreciate everything you do for me. I feel more loved by you than I ever have. Thank you for taking care of me, thank you for never making fun of my laugh, thank you for braiding my hair, thank you for doing your best. You mean so much to me Zach. I hope that by reading this you may understand me.

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littlcdeath · 7 years

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//Another post about the alters, with some we were missing. This one was made by Becky like a year ago, and it’s definitely funnier than mine. Doesn’t include me because I hadn’t been out yet.

Ok, since Fae promised yesterday, here’s a general list of the people inhabiting this head. I’ll specify who age-slides, and what ages we can be when we do. I’ll actually try to specify what age everyone is. Be warned that we are well above 50, although not everyone’s active at once. I’m sorry if this is confusing. Hope the list helps • Fae- Actual owner of the body. Has not been fully “herself” since she was like 6 (when Harl got here). Always co-cons with someone because she can’t stand being out alone. Doesn’t know or care what we do with her life. Terrified of people. Has left us alone for extended periods of time. If you think you’ve talked to her, there’s a 99% chance it was actually Claire, Amanda, or me. Actually a very sweet kid, but very hurt. Will go to the end of the world for her friends. Can hold a grudge like nobody’s business. Paints herself as a bitch but is a softie. Her mom cannot tell the difference between her and me. Diabetic, to Nidia’s displeasure. Closet Gryffindor turned Slytherin in order to survive.

• Amanda – Our system’s “guard dog”/Head Bitch in Charge. Much more complicated than that. The real author of Fae’s thigh scars (barely visible now), and maybe the only reason she made it through high school. The little voice that says “kill everyone and blame it on me”. Zero concern for consequences for herself. Impulse control consists on “Jail is awful and Fae doesn’t deserve it”. She’s over 30.

• Lisbeth (Sally)- Just…Sally. The other voice that wants to kill everyone but doesn’t because she actually thinks about the consequences of her actions. Max is technically her partner, but we don’t talk about that (you can ask). I think she’s 30-something, but might as well be Fae’s age.

• Claire- Possibly Fae’s projection of herself into different universes. She can be 6, 17, 24 and 35. Last name Constantine. From Liverpool. Awful accent. Please don’t call her Australian. Another closer Gryffindor turned Slytherin. Most of Fae’s friends are actually hers. Has been Fae for longer than Fae has been Fae. Likes soccer and we’re sorry. Punk. Hella Punk. Also hella broke.

• Mara- Claire’s sister (maybe twin). Stay away from her (possibly the sexual alter, can be the same ages as Claire) Responsible for most of Fae’s awful dating decisions.

• Valentina- Rarely comes out, but she’s apparently God? We don’t know. Seems like she knows everyone, though. She always looks 20-something, but we know she’s older.

• Nidia- Claire’s daughter and the pure incarnation of Fae’s ADHD. A Jedi. Weirdest kid EVER. Super compassionate. Wears heart on her sleeve. Can be 5, 9, 16 and 21. Impulse control is 100% artificial, but existent. Can, like Amanda, drink up to 3 cans of Monster Energy Drink in a row without batting a lash. Will eat ALL THE CANDY. The reason we need to carry an extra insulin syringe with us most of the time. Pours fun dip and sweetarts into her drinks. The kind of kid child leashes were invented for.

• Hellena- Mara’s daughter. STAY AWAY. Evil incarnate. Abusive A.F. Can and will destroy you. In her 20’s

• Christine- Hell’s identical twin. Remember that girl in Mean Girls who wants to bake a cake out of sunshine and rainbows and smiles? Christine is that cake. Rarely out. Same age as Hell

• Evey- Hell and Chris’ big sister. That one kid with the pink hair and lots of tattoos. Zero impulse control. Always looks like a teenager for some reason (not over 25)

• Vlad- Agender/Genderqueer mystical creature of the forest. Valentina’s child. Awesome person in general. Permanently 17.

• Harley- Yup. THAT Harley. You know the drill. She’s actually the one who makes all the fun plans because she’s the one who has the energy for it. Gets along with everyone until she doesn’t. Can drink us all under the table. Can drink you under the table. Has been Fae for longer than Claire has been Fae. Was the first one here, so she has tattoo privileges. And dating privileges. And everything privileges, basically. If I say how old she is, I may not live to see another day. Fae’s real mum. Will take you to Petco on exam week to pet puppies. Will yell “doge!” out loud. Pets every dog. Will steal Teddy from Max.

• Edward- Mr. Nigma, sir. Somehow has better makeup skills than all the girls here combined. If his attitude was as nice as his eyebrows, he’d rule the world by now. EVERYTHING HAS QUESTION MAKRS. Knows more than anyone. Is actually a genius. Wastes his time trying to school the little ones (and trying to get Naya to use proper words). Smug bastard. Probs 40-something.

• Cass- Also from comics. EVERYTHING IS YELLOW (yiyo). Doesn’t talk much, but is always fun to have around. Will make you watch animated movies and take you to Starbucks. Will also make you work out. Can be 5, 9, 18 and 25. Smol Cass is a fan of pokemon. If it’s yellow, it belongs to her. • Naya- Cass’ child. Has her own language, featuring words like “kaijukata”, “pakato”, and “omashii” (“Kaiju attack”, an insult of her own invention, and her word for “mother”.) There are no sidewalks, only pedestrian lanes. Biggest Kaiju Enthusiast. Wants to be Mako Mori.

• M.J.- Has been here for as long as Harley has. Isn’t around as much. The difference between her and Claire is that you can actually understand what MJ says when she gets mad. Probs 25 forever.

• Danni- Amanda’s daughter. Will also fuck you up. Has the weirdest kinks. 23

• Miranda- Danni’s daughter. Don’t ask. Also a sexual alter. 21

• Martha- Miranda’s sister. Level-headed. A psychiatrist. 21. Actual most mature person in this head, along with Tári.

• Alice- Nidia’s daughter. Also a psychiatrist. Likes psychoanalyzing people. Type 1 bipolar. Thinks all Arkham inmates are humans and wants to help. Will probably end up as an Arkham Inmate herself. Age slides. Toddler Alice is the devil. Can be 5, 9, and 21

• Alyssa- Mara’s best friend. Take Alice out of wonderland and teach her ballet, then add a sprinkle of Luna Lovegood. Permanently 17-ish. • Robin- Alice’s little sister. Wants to be Carrie Kelly when she grows up. Terrified of squirrels. Can be 5 and 18.

• Tári- Alice and Robin’s eldest sister. Asperger’s. Genius extraordinaire. Loves to talk to Eddie. Often one of them leaves the conversation feeling stupid (it isn’t Tári). Loves Legos. REALLY LOVES LEGOS. Forensic Anthropologist/wants to be Bones when she grows up. Vegetarian. Can be 12/21.

• Frances- Harley’s kid. Don’t ask, this was super weird. Frances herself is super weird. She hears voices. The voices tell her to do things. She rarely listens. Actually super polite. Has “opal” hair. 18-20. We don’t really know. If we’re gonna have a sub-system, it will probably be because of Frankie.

• Shilo- Shilo Wallace. Infected by her genetics. Her nightmares are the worse. Once made Amanda and sally fight over a pair of combat boots just so she could get to keep them. Probably my best friend in here.

• Bellatrix- That one got here on her own. Over 50. Still looks great.

• Cassiopeia- Bella’s biggest mistake. Best teacher ever. Resident hipster chick. Looks like Zoey Deschanel. Is actually here to keep a little group of alters from causing too much mayhem. 23.

• Ascella- Lesbian extraordinaire. Sees dead people. I’m not even kidding. Permanently 23.

• Jamie M.- Another one who got here on her own. Our self confidence boosts and power trips. Will maybe kill someone. Better than you and is not afraid to let you know. Fae’s teachers were terrified of her. Everyone’s terrified of her; I don’t know who we think we’re kidding. 32.

• Lestat- Fae’s gay vampire boyfriend. Is rarely around anymore. Probably for the best. 260-ish years old. Prick.

And I’m missing a lot of others, but I’ll now introduce myself.

I really don’t want to say my name, because…well, I’m still not used to all this. I’ve been here for a little less than a year. Got here to protect Fae from a possibly harmful relationship. Did not work. Voted “Mom Alter” by the little ones (and some of the grown-ups). Apparently, too much like the kid. They call me “morbid” for some reason (not my fault everyone here is super fainthearted). Always cold and always in pain. I also age-slide and kind of don’t like it. 20-25. If we cancel plans, it’s most likely my fault and I’m sorry.

So yeah. This would be the general list of people you may encounter here. As I said, I may be missing some, but they’re either rarely active or not here for the time being. Feel free to talk to any of us at any moment, or ask to talk to anyone if you’d like. We have some degree of control over who’s out, so…yeah. And we’re always happy to meet new people. Well, some of us.

Anyway, that’d be all for now. Thanks for reading, and I hope this isn’t –too- weird.

#Behind the Scenes (ooc)#fae's mental health #United States of Fae post #probs will delete soon #I swear this one is better than the last one #Freckles is actually funny

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crystalheartironbones-blog · 7 years

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Final Project Notes

•Bullying is a word tossed around but silently said. You rarely hear about it around this time in your life maybe but you heard it all the time during school.

•I was given a award for anti bullying, but when i recieved it, it felt hollow and unjustified. I didnt feel like i helped at all. Giving me a piece of paper with princess Dianas name and a celebrity presenting it to me does not make me feel like i deserve it. All i did was do posters of anti bullying; making awareness since i was 14. But only when they were posted did i notice how silent it was; the teachers striking out the statistics i wrote and correcting the cruelty i felt abd tried to show. I wanted to show the true side of bullying since a young age but got censored by others so it doesnt seem that bad. The school would rather have a look of no bullying going on whatsoever than to give a message from a girl that was bullied who wanted it to stop to say what she wanted. But i know the true reason why they gave me that certificate; it was to give me a false sense of achievement and that i conquered the bullies, trying to make me ignore my problems, when in fact, it only added to it.

•We are all mirrors; our actions defining us and people seeing who we are and their reflections in us. Our natures are the borders of the very mirror that people judge us for; a petty reason to be flaunted. Some mirrors shine brighter than other. Some are mis-shapen and crooked. Some hold cracks. These cracks are caused by multiple things and can even shape how we are as a person. These are the scars they bear, even if they are not visible to everyone. Most of these cracks could be bullying. Smashed by others for reasons the victim couldn't even be aware of. Some people makr the first crack and then others add. Some may slowly picking away at a old crack which is slowly breakibg the entire mirror. There are multiple things that can break a mirror. Even sticks and stones. Because they hurt more than anything. Sometimes in this cruel social world, some people push the cracks so far that the mirrors wish they could fall, smashing into a millions pieces of glass and dust, so they could never remember those memories and so they could never form another crack again. But, despite what cracks you make or the pieces of glass that falls; you can repair it, but you can never get rid of the scars you left. But, it takes someone, a friend, a acquaintance, to see the mirror and help those cracks heal. Not because they feel bad, or just because they know you, but they saw themselves in that mirror and saw the same cracks they have.

•Bullying is a tree. Whatever shape and form you wish is fine, but i mean a physical tree. The roots; the source of all the anger, hate and greed, feeding this tree and a victim being a new leaf on a different branch everytime. The leaf will only last so long without help.

•I want to stop bullying; but people aren't seeing the bigger view. I dont mean the physical bullying, the verbal bullying or the internet bullying. I mean the victims. The people who had to sit through weeks or years, wanting help but couldnt find it. I want to help the victims, the ones whose confidence has been crushed, the ones whose dreams whose been destroyed, the ones that held out til the very end, wanting it all to go away, and only finishing in two options; to go through the miserable pain or to end it all. Because victims shouldn't have to struggle to socially interact and feel like they have to be to your level. They shouldnt fear the rejection of friendship and feeling those cracks again. They should never have to feel like their lives are soley to be made fun of and that they deserve more than to feel than a lone leaf on a branch.

They had to sit through it all and learn lifes cruelest lesson; that lifes unfair. Some came out stronger. Some came out weaker, but at the end of it all, they came through it and pained through some things that some people couldn't experience. I want to stop bullying, but i want to help those who have been hurt.

#project 1

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