#and the other half never woke up

[aleki-lives-here]

#mdzs #mdzs fanart #lan sizhui #a yuan #wen yuan #today I decided to practice drawing children and my sketches accidentally turned into this #and I thought why not share it with people #in my hc lsz chose the only black bunny as his favorite when he first came to cloud recesses #when he told it to lz #lz stood silent for half a minute before saying that it was his favorite too. #he probably wouldn't be allowed to wear a red ribbon but I still left it in #because i like the idea of him wearing his sect's (and dad's) color #he gets a new red one the moment he learns he's a Wen. in my hc #in the third drawing I have him wearing almost the same clothes I draw young lz in #I think it'd be really cute if at some point lsz copied lz #(I want him copying wwx too! gods I must draw him in black and red at some point it would be *so cute*) #there are no other colors cuz I actually suck at drawing in color. and it was supposed to be a quick sketch before I focus on studying #i skipped a lesson today and my teacher called me to ask what the hell while I was drawing #i told her I just woke up (lie. i woke up at 6 again) #I don't think she appreciated my response. if there's never another post. know that i was brutally (tho justly) murdered #anyway #my art

[schrodingers-catgirl]

wondering whether i should like. talk about my situation at all? (okay i ended up rambling in the tags so here they are)

i just want to say that im terrified. everyone i know, everyone i care about, could be dead right now. i have no way to know. its so scary. everything i know has been ripped away from me and im just. scared. i miss having a normal life and im sick of this. its been more than 3 weeks and i dont know when itll ever end. nowhere is safe and i dont know if my house is okay and i just want everything to be normal again

#like. concerning palestine #because i dunno if i could do it justice? and im not sure what to say #shit sucks and we have no water or electricity and we can almost never call other people #meaning we're essentially isolated from the rest of the world #like. i can almost never get wifi #and the only reasonwe have lights is ebcause of solar #most people dont have that. #and more than half of palestinians. including me. have been displaced #im currently living in a tiny apartment with another family #we dont get much food #and we can almost never shower #and im just. #i cant see how people consider this a conflict #this is genocide #war against hamas my ass #the majority of people killed were citizens #theyre bombing residential buildings without warning #the buildings right. beside me were bombed #it was terrifying #i woke up to the windows breaking and dust EVERYWHERE and i couldnt. breathe #thankfully the hosue is still up so i still have a place to live #BUT SO MANY PEOPLE DONT #THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE ARE CRAMMING INTO SCHOOLS #WHICH DONT HAVE CLEAN WATER OR FOOD #i feel like im screaming into a void but #yeah. ig #palestine #free palestine #dont know how to tag this <3 #long post

[jils-things]

i went wandering off in my pokespe gallery and had to relieve how wonderful this scene played out. no kidding

please dont read the tags i got emotional there /lh

#the.plot felt a bit confusing to me admittedly but oras did so well in trying to make franticshipping incredibly satisfactory since #at the end of rs we couldn't really tell if they settled with each others feelings yet (APPARENTLY NOT BECAUSE THEY'RE PRIDEFUL AND DUMB/JJ) #but at least sapphire still had some thoughts about it but i was kinda mad WHY DIDNT RUBY GIVE HIS HALF OF THE FEELINGS PROPERLY!!! #WELL THIS HAPPENED WHERE HE OPENLY CONFESSES ABOUT HOW MUCH HE CARES ABOUT HER AND THE WHOLE WORLD CELEBRATED #in r/s they were constantly separated from each other by WILL BECAUSE they despise each other so much #in oras - after confessing - it literally ACHES for ruby to not see her like take a fucking shot everytime he says wheres sapphire???? #THEY WERE ALWAYS AWAY FROL EACH OTHER HERE AND HE FEELS SO GUILTY FOR EVERY TIME SAPPHIRE GETS HARMED #FOR EXAMPLE; FIGHTING WITH ZINNIA AND FALLING OFF THE ROCKET - LOSING HER VOICE - RUBY HOLDING THE SECRET FROM SAPPHIRE BY PROMISING STEVEN #LITERALLY EVERUTHING SHE DOES MAKES HIM FEEL ALL THE MORE GUILTY AND HE CANT EVEN TELL HER STRAIGHT HES SORRY BECAUSE THEY'RE LITERALLY #FUCKING AWAY FROM EACH OTHRHADHDHRHSBRBDBSHSHSHE #AND WHEN THEY FINALLU MEET UP VIA TROPIUS AND RAYQUAZA SHE TELLS HIM TO SHUT UP AND HOLD HIS EMOTIONS FOR NOW. THAT'S HOW DESPERATE HE WAS #TO SEE EHR AGAIN AHAHAHAHTDTHHGG IM SO INSANEEE #AND AT THIS MOMENT HE ALMOST EMOTIONALLY CONFESSES WITH TEARS HE DOESNT WANT TO LEAVE HER AGAIN BECAUSE WORST COMES TO WORST HE'LL NEVER SEE #HER IF HE TRIES TO SAVE THE WORLD BY HIMSELF FROM THE METEORRRRRR AKAAJAHAAJ #AND THATS WHY HE INVITES HER TO SAVE THE WORLD TOGETHER AS CORNY AS IT SOUNDS BUT ITS BECAUSE IF HE'LL DIE HE WANTS TO DIE WITH HER AAAHSGDV #AND SAPPHIRE'S REACTION WAS FAINTING WHICH TBH WAS A COMEDIC MOMENT FOR SUCH AN IMPACTFUL DIALOG FROM HIM BUT AJDHSJHDS MAKES ME HAPPY #y'all don't even get me started how this plays out when stevaide is in here DON'T EVEN #~ rambling #i just woke up and i chose violence (franticshipping) #pokespe hours

[deer-with-a-stick]

At this point I stay exclusively on this website and Ao3 for fandom stuff but DAMN what the hell happened with the reviews

Castlevania Rotten Tomatos below for comparison

#*long suffering sigh* more than half of these are because of Annette aren't they #people giving this bad reviews because of the annette thing aren't valid sorry not sorry #if you have actual critiques beyond “omg!!!! woke!!!!” you can stay. at least for a little bit #you don't need to like the character rewrites and race changes but if you're basing your reviews and stuff of it then yeah you're racist #oh dear lord there's homophobia popping up too #urgh #this is what i get for looking at rotten tomatoes -_- #people complaining the show talking about the french revolution...bruh #im only paying attention to the few that don't mention “woke” “SJW” or other shit and some (SOME <- key word there) people are valid #LMFAO PEOPLE WITH DARK SKIN EXISTED IN THE 1700S WHAT THE HELL ARE SOME OF THESE PEOPLE ON #some of these reviews are just insulting to fanfic writers #those people have obviously never read a good fanfic in their LIFE #I am willing to tolerate/engage in a polite discussion with some of the people who thought that a few of the themes should have been subtle #i will agree with some of the people who said that richter should have gotten more screen time #but i think it's just a result of trying to juggle too many plotlines at once #oh dear lord this is getting long #ok i'll shut up now #netflix castlevania #castlevania nocturne #castlevania #castlevania netflix #castlevania: nocturne

[fingertipsmp3]

Had a dream last night that two of my best friends came to stay with me and also Mabel was alive 🥹

#we were all tucked up in my bed with me in the middle #every time i opened my eyes one of them was like ‘omg do you need anything??’ #she tried to bring me an energy drink and a glass of water. and then turned on a tv i don’t have & put on a movie with the sound down #i ‘woke up’ still in the dream and one of them was gone so i went downstairs to make the other one a hot chocolate #it was a ridiculously complicated hot chocolate. it was like the luxury hot chocolates i used to make at work #and i look round and i see mabel standing at the kitchen door patiently waiting for her lunch and i’m like ‘MABEL. BABYYY’ #so i tried to let her out the patio door but the key wasn’t in the patio door and also the garden gate was open #i couldn’t find the key and i was like ‘mabel must need to pee. like. she must’ #i ended up putting her on a leash (she was deaf & senile & had zero recall so couldn’t be unleashed even on the driveway) #and we were about to walk down the driveway into the garden so she could pee there and then i was going to close the gate & try to find the #patio door key. i woke up before i could do any of this or finish making the hot chocolate #i was happy but also sad that i woke up. i miss my little mabel. i miss her face #at some other point in the dream i remember seeing her half asleep in her basket and i was just like 🥺🥺🥺 #i just wanted to stand there and look at her because i knew she wasn’t supposed to be there and i wanted to enjoy however long i had #with her. and that’s something i don’t think i always did when she was alive. and the guilt eats me up #she was so loved. i loved her so much. but i wish i’d given her more. i wish i’d been less annoyed by her quirks #like how she could never be let off a lead and how she used to stare at me for hours even though she didn’t want anything (had been fed #recently; wouldn’t go for a walk or play with me if i tried; wasn’t receptive to attention) #if she came back for the day and all she wanted to do was stare into my soul i would be so happy. i feel so awful for ever being annoyed #by her habits. she just wanted to know where i was 😭 #personal

[bloodgulchblog]

Going through Fall of Reach again at 3x listening speed on my way to and from work this week because I guess this is how my life is now.

Say what you will about how it's just okay-tier gamer fiction because it is, but. But. It 100% establishes the duality of John's capability as a soldier and his vulnerability as a human person.

The earnestness of the character is lain out here, in our earliest non-game source, and I think that's so important to why I ended up caring so much about him. It's always been there. John's a weird dude because the UNSC brutally shaped him, cultivating that sincerity and feeding it with belief that everything being asked of him is necessary, he's the only one that can do it, and if he doesn't then the consequences for everyone he's trying to protect will be terrible.

No ego. No malice. All sacrifice for other people, because other people are what matters to him. John's loyal to the UNSC because it's what he knows, and the UNSC is his only source for information about how this is his purpose and the correct way to perform it. He is carefully and deliberately isolated in order to preserve this.

This is why it's possible to view him as a decent person, despite loyalty to the UNSC and our understanding of how fucked up the UNSC can be. Because of the lengths Halo goes to in order to establish John's sincerity and this fucked up violent kind of innocence, it's possible to want better for him and hope that somehow, someday he'll finally get to understand it all and maybe be okay. We can believe that if he ever did have and accept all the pieces, John would be able to adjust his view of the world and come to a place where he'd make choices that prove he's worth liking.

...Even if we know the odds of that are very, very against him getting that chance, and it's horribly sad.

#my room mate's cat woke me up by knocking over half my bookshelf at 3 am and this is what happens when that happens #also this goes for other spartan-iis a lot too it's just like #john is probably the most perfectly isolated one because he's trying incredibly hard at all times #john ate every bit of what they fed him about how this was all his responsibility now and his fault if it goes to hell #the man never met a responsibility he wasn't gonna worry about forever #grey team for example is more cynical because they never believed as hard as john believed they saw more of the brutal edge earlier #john halo please go to therapy challenge #master chief #halo: the fall of reach

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

oh my god everything makes sense now

#ive had so much troubke sleeping for the last like. 3 weeks. like i havent been getting more than 4 hrs of sleep most nights #and its SUCKED so bad and ive had the worst dreams ever like #its either mind empty blank 0 dreams whatsoever (<< which ive learned also sucks! feels bad and empty in the morning) #or like..trauma nightmares. like im back in high school type nightmares. and a few work stress dreams sprinked in for flavor #lkke this has been. An Issue. #I JUST FIGURED OUT WHY. AND I FEEL SO STUPID #ITS BECAUSE I DONT HAVE LOKI LIVING WITH ME ANYMORE. #im at my parents house for the weekend and . got here at like 8pm last night. #laid on the couch. loki jumped up on thr couch with me to cuddle #and ive always said hes so good at this bc hes warm and he lays on top of me so hes like a weighted blanket #and i cant move my arms to look at my phone or anything so its SO easy to fall asleep w loki cuddles #AT 9PM I FELL ASLEEP. i havent gone to sleep before midnight in like 2 months. #and when i had 2 get up to move to the guest bed he followed me. #and i just woke up from a nightmare and he was on the other side of the bed so i reached my hand out 2 pet him #and he laid his little chin on my hand and oh my god everything makes so much sense now. #ive always kind of half joked abt loki being an esa. because im like. he is. but not officially #hes never been trained for it and we dont have like. documentation for it bc ive never been officially diagnosed for anything (hell world) #so i feel bad calling him that bc it feels like im. disrespecting people that Actually Need esas #(<< coming from.a guy who Actually Needs An ESA Apparently.) what the fuck #head in hands. everything makes so much sense now #and normally id go all science brain on this like oh it was just one night iwas probably just too tired i need more evidence to be sure #but like. i have loterally not slept this well in a month and a half. #I have not gonento sleep before midnight in AT.LEAST the last two weeks. CONSISTENTLY . #head in habds.

[marcsnuffy]

Nagi, Ness and Shidou exist on some type of venn diagram in my head

#a venn diagram of them as the half of a duo #objectively shidou might be the best case scenario given that he never lost his creativity unlike the other two #however there's another venn diagram with reo kaiser and sae #but nagi and reo are interchangeable to an extent #txt #i just woke up but i had to type this out for some reason

[ezraphobicsoup]

so it turns out i don’t need music to go to sleep but i do need music to wake up, else my brain replicates it incredibly loudly in my own head

this isn’t what’s just happened but if you know rex tremendae from mozart’s requiem. you will understand my fear when that’s the main thing i heard for a full dream and upon waking up

#also yes it’s half 4 my timezone i have slept i just woke up #but like i went to sleep before midnight so i guess this was inevitable #(is that a fuckin. a guy who didn’t like musicals reference) #uh in other news i’ve never stressed over going out like i am about this surprise birthday shit #the anxiety is unreal hence why i have been dreaming about it so much #like it’s replaced the school dreams somehow #i’m sure it’ll be fine but yeah that’s my life right now that’s the most interesting thing that happens #hope you are well

[ronanlynchbf]

"all this foreshadowing abt declan dying and then he didn't even die" well personally i think declan got murdered dead by mstief in greywaren so. actually 2 me he did die. Badly.

#like sorry 2 to say it but also not sorry the declan i know would never do to matthew what he did in gw.. #like obviously he has done some shit stuff to matthew (and ronan as well. this to mean ronan did shit stuff irt matthew as well not declan #did shit stuff to ronan. though he very much did and vice versa but like not the point here.) BUT i know he would NEVER strip matthew of his #autonomy like that and NEVER for so long. like i didn't write declan lynch as a character but also i know he wouldn't do that. that's his #baby brother........and i know he feels like matthew robbed him of his youth and his life and whoever he would've grown up to be but HE JUST #WOULD NEVER....i know this....like sorry but that is the most awful fucked up shit to do ever in the entire world. someone depends on you #and looks up to you and trusts you and you take away the thing that keeps them awake??? i'd even say the thing that essentially keeps them #ALIVE bc without a sweetmetal dreams aren't really alive they're just sleeping for eternity which is a kind of death. LIKE...... #that just baffles me so much u just have to be soooooo uncaring to do that....like if he just did it in the moment of anger - snatched that #pendant off matthew's neck so he fell asleep and declan wouldn't have to deal with him anymore and then immediately afterwards was like. #what have i done this is so fucked up to do to someone. and put the pendant back on matthew. and apologized prefusely for it. that would #have still not been fine but in bouts of anger ppl do stupid desperate things that negatively affect others and it would've been #considerably less fucked up than it is now. like declan kept that pendant away for UP TO TWO DAYS. he drove the whole way back put ronan #somewhere safe carried matthew out of the car and into the house carried him upstairs into the bedroom and put him in bed went back #downstairs went outside locked the car went back into the house ate showered slept woke up ate breakfast again go through the whole day and #NOT ONCE did he think to himself oh this thing i'm doing is genuinely horrible i can't just take away someone's like. awareness. like that #& went to go 'wake' matthew????? NOT ONCE????? ARE YOU BEING SERIOUS???? NOT ONCE IN THOSE ONE AND A HALF OR TWO OR POSSIBLY MORE DAYS??? #also just the whole. turning into his father thing. HARD NO. u mean the same declan who hated his father for very right reasons and hated #what he did to the entire lynch family both while he was alive and after he died the same declan that hated all the trading and buying and #selling dream things business and just that underground market in general (that btw. put the family he had left in life-threatening danger.) #the same declan who hated his father for dreaming a more perfect and loving unconditionally copy of his actual mother (rightfully so.) went #on 2 go into the exact business he always hated w/ a fiery passion?? ur also telling me he invited his father's killer to his wedding? fake. #trc #greywaren #<- needs its own tag bc i'm not putting it in the same category as call down the hawk my beloved call down the hawk. #anyway. that entire essay in the tags can be summarized w/: who declan ended up as & his entire arc is SO shit i hate it sm peace n love 🙏 #as i've said before. me: mom can we have declan lynch? mom: no we have declan lynch @ home. declan lynch @ home: declan lynch in greywaren. #<<<<< full experience of reading gw. 2 me. ARGHHHH AOUGH THE POTENTIAL IT HAD THE POTENTIAL IT WASTED... IT'S ACTUALLY SO SAD....

[absintheancandle]

ooouuuuuu eds dazai YES!!!! one time i dislocated my kneecap by sitting down wrong and my parents took me to the er but while they were getting ready to do tests i popped it back in on accident, i feel like dazai would absolutely do that to mess with people.

OH HE WOULD ABSOLUTELY DO WEIRD BONE THINGS ON PURPOSE TO FUCK WITH PEOPLE. i tthink its even funnier when its on accident though bc hes like.

i forgot what atsushi looks like. but like. i love the idea of him simply doing dislocations, subfluxes, and hyperflexing on purpose and on accident sooo much and people cant tell whats on purpose or not after a certain point. dazai emergency room and walking out of there perfectly fine my LOVE

#answered #i was gonna say i think i've never dislocated before but i think i just haven't been able to tell if i have or not #i feel like half the time i've woken up and my limbs did a really loud sound and felt like they Moved back into place mightve. #that mightve been something but i never realized it. #aspd haver moments "oh haha my collarbones keep making really weird sounds when i make them after i woke up today! #anyways time to go outside. :)'' #also unrelated but ive been to the emergency room once and it was recent. and they said they were gonna have to do surgery #and i was in severe pain so before that point they put me on A Pain Medicine (narcotic! a drug!!!) #and man i didnt care about the pain even when we drove there. it was the worst pain ever in my whole life other than the orthodonist thing #and my only reaction to the whole thing was OUUHGOOUU HG OOHOHOHOHO !!!!!! #(was way wy too excited and knew that it was strange so i had to keep it inside and keep myself from going off about how cool it was #how cool i thought it was they were putting a narcotic in me for no reason other than OUGH DRUG #and how exxcited i was that i might be operated on bc OHOGH GCUT ME OPEN ?? WHAT?? CUT ME OPEN??) #the pain meant NOTHING to me. i was just so excited at the concept of being opened up even though i was actually being potentially #threatened with dying a very painful and terrible death #death?> who cares. IM GONNA GET CUT OPEN!!!!! and then i wasnt because i had a different issue that could be fixed at home. SAD.

[vzajemnik]

life is so crazy sometimes you meet a couple that you love so much and its clear they love each other so much and then you come home and have a dream how all 3 of you are in a relationship and its been a year and you still think about it. you know

#🗞️ #truth be told i met the guy first and was enamoured at first sight #(i stole half of his pizza without us saying a word once.) #that night i had a wet dream about him and a day later i found out he has a girlfriend #then i met them both half a year later and i bullied the guy for not knowing history while he was acting like he did . #and i told his girlfriend the whole entire plot of riverdale. and then i went home and was like god i wish i had them in my life #and then i fell asleep and had a dream truly betty x agent drake style about me and his girlfriend just living our life in a cottage #and i was bringing her breakfast to bed. then i woke up and had to travel half the country #and as i was falling asleep half the country away i had a dream about us 3 having a threesome. awesome dream. #i met the guy 2 times after that and both times he made me feel so wanted ive never met a person that cares about others so much . #i met the girl only once but the way she just let me babble on and on about riverdale without end .... lifechanging #and so yeah. i think about them from time to time. and considering how tonight i dreamt about the guy again. im having a Day. #so basically hey guys do you need a third i can be your purse dog or even a court jester

[mayonakano-archive]

i'm going to delete this later but i need to just. yell.

#delete later #vent in tags #anyway uhhhhh any time i even so much as think in the direction of college i start crying so thats a good sign /s #given that i. almost never cry :) #i am. terrified. in the optimal world i'd just drop out and live under my bed or something because my issues are. frankly overwhelming #at this point. i can barely sleep properly despite trying to keep a proper schedule (i woke up at THREE this morning.) #im constantly flipping between being almost suicidally depressed and feeling nothing at all and it's terrible. i don't have any real #desire to hurt myself and most of my intrusive thoughts go the way of 'you should break stuff/hurt others/etc' but man #sometimes i have to step away from stuff just because i see a knife or a fork and wonder what i can do with it. #college makes me terrified and i know my parents fucking suck because otherwise they'd care a little more about the fact #that i can barely do anything or function but nah. all they want is the perfect little child. and now i'm paralyzed #i don't trust my ability to work because of my exhaustion and i know once i go to uni i can't count on any support from my parents #whatsoever so i'm just... stuck. uni's meant to be less grueling in terms of hours than HS but... #stacking work and school sounds like fucking HELL but i don't have the money or support to NOT work... #so all i can do is stress and stress and stress and stress and struggle to even start my essay and feel everything slipping away #because god? do i even remember half of the days i live through anymore? do i even care about the work i'm doing? #no. i'm dogshit at programming to the point where i've been stuck for a month. i can barely do work without spacing out or ignoring class #entirely just to talk to my brother because at least THERE's a little joy in my life. everything else feels so bleak and pointless #i can't do anything meaningful with this godawful life of mine. but all i can do is keep muddling through. because nothing scares me more #than the idea of dying. so that's off the table. so i'll just keep stressing and crying and wondering if it's even worth it. #ugh... if anyone actually read all this just pretend you didn't...

[stephaniedola]

theres cliques everywhere, dude

at least let me get paid a living wage to deal with them

#thots et al #what do you mean im totally normal #definitely not having really bad RSD about like half the people i work with #those who haven't turned on me: how do i know that? when so many already have #literally woke up in the middle of the night and could not fall back asleep i was so paralyzed by fear about this #i finally got there but i dont even feel rested i didnt even before that #why do i always wake up like 10+ times a night like honestly idk how i even function #people will be like damn i slept really badly last night i kept waking up im just like is that not normal-- #anyway everyone at work hates me other than my husband and like 3 people #and I don't know how to convince myself orherwise when [counts] three people to my knowledge have been bad mouthing me behind my back #for what? because i dont work as long? because i sit around after I'm spent? #you fucking think i like this? bitch i have ADHD i would literallyyy rather die #whatever i guess i just needed to vent this off because apparently im literally losing sleep to this now #delete later #(thats a joke i never delete things)

[scoreplings]

also helpful for remembering that my ex is a shithead im better off not having in my life is the fact that whenever i tell anyone how our relationship ended theyre horrified by the way he acted.

#am i embarrassed i put up with that as long as i did? yea #does it make me soooo happy im not putting up with it anymore? also yea <3 #helllppp a coworker asked me about it the other day so i explained it to him #and like a half hour later he put down the dishes he was washing and was like. dude what the FUCK i cant stop thinking about how messed up #that is #LOL yea dude i know. #n i wanna say hes evil but hes not really no one is. he just refuses to be accountable for what he does and makes selfish decisions. #he did not wake up and say ‘today i will make Aj soooo so sad and hurt him’ #he woke up and said ‘i want to date this guy but dont want to stop fucking this other guy. i will simply keep the boyfriend a secret from #the guy im fucking because i know they wouldn’t be okay with it. its a good thing im doing because they’d be sad if they knew!’ #or something along those lines. #dwelling on it is not good i think i am abt to go to sleep instead #makes me sad tho. good part of me hopes he pulls his head out of his ass and realizes he should treat the people who care about him better #selfish part of me hopes he ruins every relationship he has for the rest of his life and dies alone. (<- i dont actuslly want this id be so #sad. i am just mad because i am angry) #dwelling for 1 more second actually LOL he didnt even just keep the boyfriend a secret he lied to my face about it and spent six months #telling me he didnt even like the guy and wouldn’t date because he’d never want a relationship to get in the way of what we had. teehee #and that even if he did like the guy he’d never date him because he didnt want to hurt me like that. and he loved me. LOL. #after he told me he ghosted me for a week and when i finally got him to talk he said he regretted nothing and couldnt understand why i was #upset. hahaaha. and that i should keep it to myself and be happy for him. and that he was just with the guy because he was ‘more available’ #than i was. #teehee. sorry. i am dwelling again i just cannot get over how fucked it all is #and the boyfriend was my other best friend. teehee. and they are still together even though i explained what my ex did. <3 #i cannot wait to move oh my god i need to not see this mf every day at work or im gonna never stop thinking abt it. #whateverrr. i kiss my bf in two days 💚

[fandomitor]

it seems that my mother doesn’t understand basic math (geometry? but 3d) that you can’t fit a rectangle into a smaller square (even if it’s attached to a longer rectangle (stairs) if you can’t get it past the doorway)

#like her idea to fix it is to either squish me into the wall while i have like half an inch of grip space or just continue jamming it #into the doorframe to see if maybe this time it will work #her other idea is to put it in my room even tho i barely have space for my bed and wardrobe let alone a whole nother wardrobe #or to put it in the space between the wall and the end of my bed where i wouldn’t be able to stand and pull out the drawers #only the top drawers would be able to be pulled out #she also disregards the fact that i’ve measured everything in my room so i can put everything in the space where i would have the most open #space. and i have maybe a 2.5ft x 12ft (i don’t know how much a foot is) #of open space (that’s in quotations) it’s really walkable but also not bc there’s not enough space to store everything which is why i want #shelves so i can store things not on the ground or in drawers that take up too much space. like this room was supposed to be a laundry room #but instead we have a laundry closet and a small ass room that would probably be better as an office than a bedroom #it’s never been a good bedroom with enough space even when i had a loft bed #that loft bed was the bane of my existence #if i didn’t hit my head everytime i woke up i would end up falling off it on to the ground bc we never fully set it up to where you wouldn’t #fall off of it if you rolled away from the wall #also we have short ceilings so even if i slammed my head on the ceiling when i woke up and wasn’t able to fully sit up i also couldn’t fully #stand under it. i had rlly bad back and neck problems when i slept in that bed