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becauseplot · 8 months

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(Cross-posted on ao3, if you prefer to read it there. Reblogs still appreciated!)

Missa wakes up, and he thinks he might be doomed. This doesn’t scare him nearly as much as it should.

Missa is awake early—by his own metric, anyway. His nocturnal nature causes “early” for him to mean “early night” and not “early morning.” Regardless, “early” means that Philza is not asleep yet, still going through his nightly rituals. “Early” means that Philza is sitting up in (his? their?) the bed, pillows propped up behind him, notebook in his lap, sketching away.

And when Missa wakes up to the soft scritch-scratch of a charcoal pencil on textured paper, his forehead just so happens to be brushing Philza’s hip.

Missa can hardly breathe.

Oh no.

He knows that if he gives any indication that he is awake, Philza will stop sketching, close his notebook, shift himself over until he is politely seated on his side of the bed, and greet Missa with a friendly smile. Philza has done it before, when Missa wakes up early. That’s how Missa knows he’ll do it again.

Thus, Missa can hardly breathe—his breaths have to be the slow in-out of sleep. He can’t so much as twitch, either. He has to keep quiet and play dead or else he’ll be found out. Seen. Caught living the lie.

“Husband,” Philza calls him. They’re not married. They share a bed. They’re hardly ever in it at the same time. They have a son and a daughter. Neither of them know Missa very well. Philza has had an extra set of armor and a skull on his backpack for months, waiting for Missa. Missa doesn’t even know Philza’s last name.

Philza is a good man and a good friend—and Missa doesn't deserve him. Still, he takes what he can get. Curls around it. Hoarding every innocent kindness Philza extends like a starving creature: the generosity of a backpack fully stocked with equipment; the trust Philza places in Missa to watch the kids when he’s asleep; and now, the courtesy of not moving his hip from Missa’s forehead to ensure his “sleeping” isn’t disturbed. Missa clutches all of these little offerings in his greedy claws and hugs them into his chest, even as the guilt eats away at him.

Because, regardless of the lack of mutual feeling, he loves Philza. He loves him so, so much, and that is why he is doomed. He can’t afford to lose what little he has. He can’t cross that line.

So Missa lies beside Philza, forehead pressed against Philza’s hip, pretending to sleep so he can imagine that they’re not just lying in bed together, but lying in bed, together; and later, when Missa truly wakes, he will sit on his side of the bed and look at Philza’s face soft with sleep and think about how lucky he is that he still has a side-of-the-bed to begin with.

Missa doesn’t mean to drift off. When it starts to happen, he’s hopelessly torn between shaking himself awake and thus giving himself away, or remaining how he is, silently fending off the inevitable. In the end, Missa clings to that scritch-scratch sound of Philza’s pencil on the paper for as long as he can before the fog at last pulls him under.

Eventually, he dreams. In fact, he dreams of the calloused fingers he dreams of every night, hands like his own, an artist of Death, cradling and shading the contours of his face—a softness dashing charcoal across his jaw, and over his cheekbones, and perhaps on his lips, too, if he’s lucky. Defining every edge of him.

~*~

A deep sigh. Phil stops sketching as Missa shifts in his sleep. He tilts his head up so that the tip of his nose is now just nearly brushing against Phil’s hip. The motion disturbs the wild splay of his dark hair, revealing more of his face: eyelashes, cheeks, warmth. Tender blush of something Stygian and otherworldly. New.

Phil’s lips tilt upwards. He turns to a fresh page, and he starts again.

#qsmp #pissa #qsmpshipping #qsmp missa #qsmp philza #i hesitate to put main character tags bc it's shipping content but i think we're all p much okay with that?? we chill??? we chill thumbsup #my fics #ficlet #anyway would you believe me if i told you this took me a week to write. hhourgh.#i'll prolly make small edits as time goes by if i dont scrap this version entirely.#i really like it rn but we'll see how i feel abt it in like a couple hours or a day. the sheer number of times ive rewritten this hhhhh.#this little character/relationship study is primarily for me to try to work them out in my head.#so if this doesnt quite hit the exact vibe you know why.#im still getting acquainted w missa's character but i gotta start somewhere ya know #i didnt actually get to explore missa's feelings of inferiority as much as i wanted to but thats bc i found trying to tackle that As Well-#-as everything else saddled the fic/setting w too many Things and made it cumbersome and muddied the story being told.#so another time perhaps.#anyway i adore them. beloveds.

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rasberrii · 4 months

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Going so beyond rabid

Shadow carrying Sonic bridal style. “Hang on Sonic” the FEAR in his voice. His grip on Sonic tightening as he fades. Holding him so close.

Speeding toward a safe place as fast as he can. THREE sonic booms. To save Sonic’s life.

WHILE BEING CARRIED BRIDAL STYLE I CANNOT GET OVER THESE GAY IDIOTS. They care about eachother so much, SO much. Even if you do not view them as a ship, they do have SO much care for eachother and im here for it

Both of them show thay they care in so many ways throughout the series and oh do i love them <3

#theyre the most adorable ever #and i am brainrotting SO hard over them #i think the expired cheese I ate is making me 10x more insane #THEYRE JUST #SO CUTE #MY GOD HOW ARE THEY THIS DAMN CUTE #cough anyways #tags —->#shadow the hedgehog #sonic fandom #sonic prime #sonic the hedgehog #sonashadow #sonashadow my beloved #sonic prime s3 #sonic prime season 3 #sonic #shadow #sonadow

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 19 days

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teacher!geto/curse user!reader :3

i have NEVER thought of that before

what would that even look like?

hehehe …. well anon. i’m planning on making it a whole series, so if you happen to read it then i hope you’ll see the vision >:3 but i can tell you the basics of the dynamic i have planned out so far!!

honestly it’s nothing complicated!! at first glance anyway. you can think of it as a role reversal au of sorts — as in, suguru doesn’t defect and becomes a teacher with satoru, while reader does defect. they end up murdering civilians in a fit of rage just like geto did, take over the star plasma cult just like geto did, aaaand eventually get killed by suguru during the au’s equivalent of the night parade of 100 demons. suguru can’t bring himself to destroy their body, they get taken over by kenjaku, aaaand….

then they end up surviving :3 somehow . some way. haven’t figured out the kinks yet but bottom line is: satoru & suguru are somehow able to kill kenny without harming reader, and what’s left of their own soul is brought back to life. they then coax/threaten the higher ups into postponing reader's execution, in hopes that they can be redeemed. aaand that’s where the fic starts!! so… a fix-it fic. basically.

so now reader has to live under the supervision of suguru, who is their ex, who they still love and who still loves them even though neither of you can seem to talk about it. it’s just a lot of tension and bitter feelings and some kind of tenderness that wants to make itself known but can’t yet. that kind of good ol slightly angsty slowburn with a happy ending <33

buuuut yeah!! i have the overall plot and dynamics figured out :3 curse user!reader is similar to how geto was as a curse user, but also a bit different in some ways…. they’re cynical and bitter and kind of pathetic and very lonely. and teacher!geto is just a matured version of the suguru we see in hidden inventory. the students are the same with the addition of nanamimi, and curse user!reader has their own dynamic with each of them.

… as in . nanamimi hates them (the feeling is mutual), they hate maki and megumi (toji ptsd), they couldn’t care less about any of the second or third years and have a mild soft spot for nobara and yuji. lmao. they’re just kind of a cunt tbh but i think they’re sooo meowmeow i like them a lot <33 and suguru does too !! reader is more antagonistic towards him while he just. grapples with the softness he still has for them. and the aftermath of what they said to each other before suguru Did The Deed (satoru was actually reader's assigned executioner, but suguru stepped in to do it instead)…….

i’m starting to ramble pjhgjjgh.... but yeah! i’m super fond of this au and sooooo excited to write it !! :3

#curse user!reader is my beloved Ever they’re soooooo funny #i like to think that they go ”want me to kill that guy for you?” at every minor inconvenience and suguru just bonks them like. Behave. 🤨#it’s kind of a bit but also kind of not #anyway i love them i adore themm #ty for asking anon!#ask tag ✩

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squidkid15 · 1 year

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"I thought you said water hurt you?”

“A little. But I like the rain. And if you’re enjoying it, it’s worth a bit of pain, right?”

#lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk sun wukong #lmk macaque #lmk ghost au #not shadowpeach #doodles #im #this au hurts so much #but #hghghgfd #i do love it #i've had these two less than 12 hours and i adore them both already #ghost wukong my beloved #he's so lost #but i love him anyways

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deerlisteners · 8 months

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thinking abt felix being protective of areadbhar and feeling entirely normal about it actually

#deertalking #feposting #few3h #ITS SO. LIKE THE WAY HES DEPICTED IN THIS GAME DRIVES ME CRAZY #like i haven’t thought this through i don’t have a point here exactly #i’m just thinking abt the screencaps here from the king awakens & him giving ingrid glenn’s spur & his support w mercedes & the cat #where mercie points out the cat likes him & he goes ‘well i can’t keep it. It’s practically a kitten what if it has parents that miss it’#not to even mention wildflowers for the future!!!!#like. ROLLS ON THE GROUND #it’s abt ‘i’m not immune to emotions you know’ it’s about it’s about #it’s abt how he feels like his emotions were disregarded since childhood (esp after duscur) so he pushed away the #sentimentality because he’s seen where it got his friends (revenge quests & death wishes)#but he can’t help but follow his friends down those paths anyway because he loves them so much!!!!!!!#like him acknowledging the spear’s importance to dimitri bc it’s all that’s left of lambert but ALSO #in that moment it’s all FELIX has left of DIMITRI. ykwim #like felix babygirl my beloved y do u think it makes u sick to see areadbhar in the enemy’s possession……..#he is just so hypocritical i adore him. he might be the character of all time to me #bro is trying so hard to b a lone wolf but was NOT built for that he was built to be loved and cherished by his friends #and so he shall be. thank you #um anyway idk what my point here was. i just like thinking abt how much felix loves everybody #someday i will make a coherent felix post. today is not that day #dmlxposting #dimilix #yknow what yeah.

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adorablegorilla · 10 months

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I FINALLY completed the Tomb Of The Seven Expedition and achieved the real prize. No, not the stat gains or admittance to the Colleges of Benthic and Summerset. Nay, the real prize is this:

#fallen london #shroomy my beloved #on my last character I got them by Making My Name in Dangerous #which I don't remember taking as much time or resources as investigating the Tomb Of The Seven did #but my last playthrough was a long time ago so I can't say for sure #and besides for this character I'm much more interested in Persuasive and Watchful #anyway aside from having great stats they're also just adorable

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girlmadeofclockwork · 7 months

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I do find the, well maybe not historical revisionism, but perhaps profoundly misremembering and or just changes in tastes that has gone down when it comes to Zevran and dragon age: origins to be quite interesting, like now that he’s very openly being compared to the newest hotness of Astarion, people talk about him as if he is/was the most popular because people love broody elves (even though Zev is the farthest from broody in his demeanor, and which kinda go hand in hand with people comparing him to Fenris, which isn’t new mind mind you, but it was fucking rare I saw anyone make that comparison 9 years ago) but I was there mind you, I was there 8-9 years ago. I remember clearly Zevran being the least popular romance option in origins when it came to the fandom.

#dragon age #this isn’t a digg on anyone I like all three of them (Zev. Fenris and Astarion)#but like the only thing I’d say these three characters have in common is being elves and having a terrible and horribly abusive past #well Zevs is different because he had an fucking awful and still not distant child hood (both Fen and Astarion don’t recall theirs)#but I think what’s really the kicker is that despite all that Zev dosen’t really hate the world at large and Is still nice to people #like yes he lies and manipulates and definitely offers to sleep with the warden out of self perseverance to a degree #but like Zev cares so fucking much about other people that finding out he was tricked into killing Someone he loved #made him stright up suicidal #another interesting fandom shift is with how the fandom treats Blackwall (who I also adore he’s my canon romance for my inquisitor)#like he was also the least romanced character in inquisition and people were fucking nasty about him (and very ageist)#but these days he’s much more beloved and people can understand and see that his story is likely the most completed and interesting #our of the companions in that game #anyway I’ll stop my musings now I doubt anyone actually cares much about what I have to say about it

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ghoul--doodle · 2 months

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I hate watching horror content and gore in almost all its forms but I have successfully made at least a horror and/or apocalypse au for every single one of my dumbass little ocverses

#and straight up just some apocalypse stories on their own #shoutout to the horror comic I started in high school that you’ll never see because dear lord it was bad #the horror and gore can be good when I am the one regulating what happens #and I say ‘almost all its forms’ because I fucking LOVE reading about horror movies #reading about saw and final destination my beloved <3333 #watching them??? never I will die #I HAVE watched the resident evil movies tho. horrible in plot that they are.#i adore those shitty movies #anyway. 3am thoughts I can’t sleep.#thinkin about my birds (+ finch)

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cynoglav · 8 months

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OMG ENKI HI!!!!!

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ereborne · 5 months

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✨⚡️ Seven(ish) Sentence Sunday ⚡️✨

Tagged by @acountrygirlsfun (a couple times by now, though not actually this most recent time, but I figure it still counts!) Thank you, Caitlin <3 <3 <3

Helix took a deep breath in, counted four flashes of the desperate direct-@ lights coming in from his side chat panels, and breathed out. His voice came out steady, and miraculously casual. "We understand why you did it. You were trying to keep our brothers safe." He watched Harp's eyes go wide at the 'our' brothers. Like he hadn't expected the rest of them to claim the Corries. Because he'd been hiding from them just like from the longnecks, he had falsified his— Deep breath in. Two flashes, no time for longer, leave no silence for Harp to panic in. Breathe out. Keep going.

This is not seven sentences, but it's also largely not complete sentences anyway, and it is literally what I just seconds ago finished writing. Still counts!

No-pressure tagging uhhh @ialpiriel, @goingsparebutwithprecision, @anaclastic-azurite, anybody else who might want to play?

#tagged by #acountrygirlsfun #I should be taking a shower and going to sleep but this scene isn't clicking so rather than getting frustrated I'm posting it here #I will have to go back through in my rewrites later and make sure everyone doesn't have their breakdowns in the same way #I do a bit better when the characters are speaking out loud #but for internal thought processes I tend to end up with them all sounding suspiciously similar to my own. whoops #anyway this is more of the good data management AU! we've just learned that the Corrie Guards Are Not Okay #and now most everybody else is also Not Okay! we're having bad times today folks #in the story I mean. I had a fine day!#and though it is emotionally fraught and currently fighting me I am still very happy to be getting back to my beloved Guard #Harp's a medic OC and I adore him and he and the Guard he's trying so hard to take care of really deserve a break #and now their brothers are a little more aware (seriously they have only just nicked the tippest bit of iceberg) of how not okay they are #a break they shall shortly receive!!#(it's gonna come with a double helping of Bother so they won't be very grateful. but they will be better rested and that's what matters)

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claitea · 5 months

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local 20 year old almost gets teary eyed over a mario game

#clai speaks #IT WAS GOOD. I LIKED IT SO MUCH......#i hate when friends have to part ways at the end of a story this is no exception GENO COME BACK #when he came down during the credits to watch the fireworks with them i was about to cry i cant do this i cant cry over MARIO #but anyway. very good game #i actually never ended up finding the yoshi place.... i've seen it before from other people talking abt it so i know its there #but how do i get there JDHFJJF #mallow's adorable :) beloved little tadpole #i love goofy characters who try their hardest to appear serious so geno was perfect to me BJDBFH #obsessed with how he's so mad at the start of the smithy fight he drops his whole act immediately. YO SMITHY #mannn i wish they'd make another one now. i cant imagine what it was like for people who loved this game longer than me #like admittedly i had no intention of getting into smrpg at first i was only intrigued bc the remakes trailer looked so good and--#--people were HYPED like the way every single person SCREAMED when they realized what the first trailer was #if this hadnt been remade i probably would have left it well alone so i'm glad i decided to check it out #you should play smrpg NOW ⚡⚡⚡⚡⚡

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lyxchen · 8 months

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Giggling, jumping around my room as I discover that there are old lesbians in the show I'm currently watching

#i'm watching broadchurch btw #damn i love this show so much!!#and now i discover that there are lesbians!!!!#(i was hoping there were some queer charcaters in the show but the first season didn't have any so i didn't really expect it)#and then they kissed and i was like cheering them on♡♡♡#anyways i love this show and alec is my beloved little man i really just wanna squeeze him hes so cute and i adore his and ellies friendship #broadchurch #lea's random thoughts

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dizzybutterflyanons · 4 months

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@glupiypryanik of course :D

these are admin 🦋’s pets!! My cat’s name is Patches. I also have a dog named Kokoa and a turtle named Miracle :]

AND THESEEE ARE MY (💫 admin’s) PETS!!! My toad’s name is Sapo (yes that is Spanish for frog I thought it was cute), my rabbit is named Hopper, tortoise is named spot, American bully (dog 1) is named Gia, and the German shepherd (dog 2) is named Jerry!! They are my bbs….