#anyway yeah hi I finished the book

[kingdomoftyto]

"Carlos, if you could just pause your experiment for a second--if you could only hear me out, hear my hypothesis! I think once you understand the science of the situation, you--" Carlos opened the door. He was crying. She had never seen him cry. He was overwhelmed and unsure of how to express his emotions, since he usually only did so in carefully worded sentences, not with water from his body. "The science of the situation?" he snarled. "That Otherworld. I was trapped there, Nilanjana. I couldn't see Cecil for ten lonely years. I was kept away from the people I love, in that desolate place where you never get hungry and you never have to drink water and so you never live. It is a place that devours. It is a place that is empty. That is the science of the situation, and I study it so I can fix it. Only I can do that. Only these experiments can do that. I'm sorry, Nilanjana; I'm not going to stop so you can tell me what science is."

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#Tyto listens to WtNV #spoiler warning I guess for a book that came out a few years ago now #anyway yeah hi I finished the book #the resolutions to the plot and to Nils' character arc were pretty good. nothing to write home about but fun and serviceable #I personally get annoyed whenever a story pulls a ''you thought this romance would end with these two TOGETHER? lol NOPE'' #like we get it it's more realistic for whirlwind romances to end in a breakup and sometimes it's better for people to just stay friends #but firstly this isn't real life; it's fiction. with narrative devices and such. #and secondly WtNV of all media does NOT get to preach about realistic relationship trajectories when its lead fell in love at first sight #lmao I'm just saying. I'm not MAD about it or anything it just made me roll my eyes. #ANYWAY. that aside: it was good. and I do genuinely like the friendship Nilanjana builds up with Darrell at the end #but obviously the real star of the show was Carlos and the completely unprecedented character depth that they smothered him in. #not ONLY recontextualizing over a year's worth of the podcast but ALSO saddling him with LAYERS of guilt over the events in this book #he *KILLED* the *GODDAMN* *CENTIPEDE* #after his beautiful little speech about not killing things just because we don't understand them! #he was just SO traumatized by his time in the Otherworld and SO afraid for his family after Janice nearly got Got that he KILLED IT!!! #and THEN!!!! not only do they find out that the centipede wasn't responsible for the destruction!! #but it turns out it was HIS OWN MACHINE THE WHOLE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #his attempts to keep everyone safe were what actually caused the danger!!!! AUGH HE WAS ONLY TRYING TO HELP #HE'S JUST SCARED AND HE WANTS EVERYONE TO BE SAFE AND NOT EXPERIENCE THE SAME HORRORS HE DID AUGHDUSHGHDH #...anyway yeah back to my regularly scheduled episode listening tomorrow

[applestruda]

Haven't been able to draw a whole lot, but pls accept a very late phasmo doodle

#i wanted to doodle more from it but i didnt finish the vod until like 2 am and was too tired to draw anything else #also i both can and cannot believe they didnt tell scar it was a horror game #but yeah #this was one of my favorite moments #scar and his safe spot #along with him talking to a book instead of the spirit box #and more moments here and there #still sad i couldnt watch it live #OH #but i really really want scar to play phasmo with jimmy joel and grian #i think itd be funny #anyways those are some of my stream thoughts #overall i absolutely loved it #goodtimeswithscar #my art

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

yeehaw just wrote over 3k and i can't publish Any of it without miles of fantasy au context

#technically its a full scene and a half #brain: hey what if a solid thousand words was just silly puppets having breakfast #and then i said 'damn youre so right' and yeah. silly puppets having breakfast and arguing over ale vs mead #i love writing from barnaby's pov. im so unfunny that its ruining his reputation #i go There Could Be A Joke Here #but head Empty so there isn't one. i continue on. rinse and repeat #anyway big scene of barnaby and wally bonding #as i was writing i was honestly like 'the wallaby enjoyers would have a field day with this' #am i one of them? no. however i know my 'qp barnaby and wally' belief bleeds into my writing #so yk. its easily read either way. #of course i immediately counteract it by sprinkling in a laughingstock crumb or two but yk yk #fantasy au is so fun to chew on... everyone gets to say Fuck and threaten genuine violence... #absolutely unprompted #speaking of writing im actually going to Attempt nanowrimo this year #im gonna try to belt out the roughest rough draft of a standalone book idea #i still need to finish the outline but! im sure i can do that in 10 days! #but anyway ive been having so many fantasy au feelings lately idk why #i think i need to rewatch lotr! extended editions of course im not an animal. #well i am. but - yeah whatever yall get it #im craving that sweet sweet high fantasy & worldbuilding & high quality cinema

[cirrus-grey]

I know it's kind of the point, the passions of man versus the indifferent cruelty of nature, but it is amazing to me how much the Whale in Moby Dick just does not give a fuck.

The whole book sets it up as this malicious, intelligent demon that has it out for humans and wants to kill them all, and then when the Pequod finally catches up to it it's just... puttering along, enjoying the weather, having a grand old time. Even after they attack it and it destroys one of the boats it just kind of sits in the water nearby swatting at debris with its tail and ignoring them. Even at the end, the final destruction of the ship and deaths of all the crew, it kind of just has this attitude of like. Hey. You. I thought I told you to fuck off. Like -

Ahab: From Hell's heart I stab at thee!

The Whale: Oh, not you again. 🙄

#yes yes themes and symbolism but. its also really funny. #moby dick #moby dick spoilers #original post #i kid but that was a really gripping ending #one of those books where you read it and go‚ oh yeah i can see why this is a classic #...but also‚ oh wow writing styles have changed since then #556 pages to Hunt The Whale. 5 pages to Realize We Fucked Up. 1 paragraph epilogue. #barely any mention of our narrator or his [boy]friend at all during the final chapters #multiple long ass speeches bringing the action to a screeching halt #and a ~dramatic metaphor~ to finish it all off #anyway. glad i read it‚ would recommend to others‚ but certainly not what i expected going in

[rhymaes]

Mysterious Lotus Casebook // Anne Carson, Autobiography of Red

(continuation of x)

#and YES I USED THE SAME PIC TO BEGIN HIS. BECAUSE WHERE HIS STORY BEGINS #IS WHERE LI LIANHUA’S ENDS AND GOD. HE THOUGHT THEY HAD FOREVER #fang duobing’s turn because time is rushing toward them!!! and he believed they had it and then didn’t and then did again #and then it’s—all gone. like a light snuffed out. there is always a dark darker than the dark you know #and what li lianhua believed he was freeing fang duobing from is what he will spend the rest of his life mourning #& it’s. you have enough time. and then you don’t. and then you do because he told you so and you wanted to believe him even after everything #so you did. and oh. it was so much worse to think you could have it. that you had it together. and then finding he knew it was never a #possibility to begin with because he exchanged his death for your life but he doesn’t understand he wrote the eulogy you will roam the wide #world with for the rest of your life without him #just. holy shit. it’s a cruelty that li lianhua truly does not believe is cruel. he believes it’s a blessing. and it’s the worst thing #fang duobing has ever experienced—not his father not his illness nor his run away marriage or obligation as a young master he hates—its this #ANYWAY. yeah. yeah. finished the book today so natural I had to take the last quote completely out of context for my own selfish reading for #them bc what can I say I’m a selfish reader in any regard #mysterious lotus casebook #fang duobing #li lianhua #li xiangyi #di feisheng

[letapollojusticesayfuck]

smile for the camera (and keep your fingers crossed) Chapter 2: Interrogations, Interviews, and Impromptu Not-A-Dates

So instead of the food trucks, he’d bought a sandwich and a soda from the convenience store (and maybe a magazine too, shut up, he needs the physical proof that yes, he had in fact kissed Klavier Gavin). He’d also bought a pair of nondescript sunglasses and a baseball hat, in the hopes that he’d have a good enough disguise to head back to the office without being recognized. What Apollo Justice had failed to account for, however, was the fact that unlike in the movies, paparazzi aren’t stupid.

Well. Whoops! Didn't mean to take so long to post this chapter, but...here we are, more than a whole year later. Hopefully the chapter's interesting enough to make up for it?

In all seriousness, thank you so much to everyone who's read, commented, and reminded me that there are people out there waiting for the continuation of the story. Somehow I thought I'd already posted the start of this chapter?? Maybe I just thought about doing it so much that I thought it had happened already.

But anyway...I'm going to make sure the gap between this chapter and the next is significantly shorter--you guys deserve to not have to wait for annual fic updates, lmao

As ever, huge thanks to @cubedmango for providing some incredible spot art! And for understanding the "oops, what do you mean i didn't post that?" moment I went through like two weeks ago.

#lucy's thoughts #my writing #klapollo #klavier gavin #apollo justice #klapollo fanfic #ace attorney #ace attorney fanfic #me: yeah the part i left off on was right after the ramen date right? #me actually checking the fic: WAIT FUCK #thanks for the patience though #it's been a busy year and my brain has been all over the place #i think ive mentioned before but i always intend to finish all my wip fics #even the ones i never finished from when i was 12 years old on ff.net lmao #should i give up on those ones? yes! but something in my mind just goes 'what if?' #next on the agenda: the jukebox musical fic's final chapter #and writing the next half of the next chapter of this fic #and so on so forth #ANYWAY hi people who read all the tags #how soon is too soon to reread a book after you finish it #for example: if a book youve been waiting almost a year for just came out today and you read all of it already #should you wait until tomorrow to reread it? #should you reread the whole series again? #these are my questions i guess #ANYWAY ENJOY THE FIC

[saphira-approves]

Coming to the realization that much of my favorite dragon media, both growing up and recently discovered, had some stealthily normalized queer rep, including but not limited to:

Memoirs of Lady Trent (some genderfluidity, an asexual character who experiments to determine for sure)

Temeraire (a canon queer couple and some Strong vibes for another) (if you know you know)

Seraphina (trans character, gay saints, a fairly central queer relationship)

Priory of the Orange Tree and its prequel (lesbians all the way down, queer rep all over the place)

Eon/a (technically my first introduction to the very concept of being transgender)

So now here I am, politely staring down Paolini, raising a gnarled finger and intoning in a dread voice, “YOURS NEXT—”

#mr paolini please im begging you. we all know the elves are largely bisexual. #inheritance cycle #dragon media #saph speaks #yeah hi i just finished the second seraphina book and I Am Not Sane #im wishing i’d kept my friends apprised of my thoughts as i read because the seldaphina vibes were Immaculate™️ but i was like #‘psh. it’s a 20-aughts YA fantasy novel. it wouldn’t have flown.’ #I WAS WRONG. IT FLEW. IT FLIES. #who let me only read the first book as a kid. I COULD HAVE HAD MY BI AWAKENING SO MUCH EARLIER. #anyway moral of the story dragons are inherently queer to their core pass it on

[soldier-poet-king]

Okay so a strange and stubborn endurance is maybe not the best book I've ever read peak high literature or whatever, but I'm only 1/3 of the way through and I've cried multiple times and been beset with that distinctive grief of a book really getting /me/. The title intrigued me and oh oh is it very much the heart of the book. A broken creature of odd endurance despite it all.

And I think it's because it manages to combine a serious emotional plot of assault/mental illness/homophobia/recovery with a fantasy intrigue setting. Most books do one or the other. You've got teen contemporary YA dealing with heavy issues but with teens in highschool, but I am 27 and tired of teen protags, or you've got intricately plotted fantasy masterpieces. This is neither. But it puts that recovery front and center within a larger fantasy setting and I cannot stress how much I need and crave that and how hard it is to find done even semi-decently.

Velasin makes me want to throw up from crying. His fears and shames, his desperation, and love, and nonexistent self esteem. His humour. His loyalty to his only friend. His Whole Deal with his father. Every chapter just brings a new. Huh. Recognition of the self through the other. Gut punch.

Idek what I'm saying. It's not the most insanely perfect book in the world. But it's doing something For Me that objectively better books don't. Idk. Idk. All I know is that I'm sick with weeping from it.

Like absolutely mind the author's note warning at the beginning, because it can be heavy, but it's never graphic or gratuitous. And it IS focused on recovery, just again, against a fantasy plot.

I really dk I'm rambling now but it's just. Oh. Oh. Maybe I needed this. Everything lately has felt either too lighthearted to be genuine or too desperately dark for me to handle. And I can only reread the cemeteries of amalo so many times. I eventually need other things that are both hopeful and dark, gutwrenching and reflective of the self, without grimdark. (Not that this is on the same level but who can compare to thara celehar To Me)

#franposting #i am not eloquent this is so badly explained and im so emotional #but yeah. everytime vel is breaking down. all the horrible guilt he carries.its like. well maybe so. #and the fact that the tithenai just accept him and love him #like YES obvs the author isnt going for subtle #but maybe sometimes i just need to see a sad broken man be loved and cared for by strangers #and have his homophobic fathers exile be the instrument of his grace and love and new life #and markel! i love a loyal best friend right hand man character. that stays platonic! #anyway vel is like. i need to kms and im afraid all the time and im useless #abd its likeyeah me too my dude. me too #his literally only driving factor is duty #he calls himself a dutiful creature made of falsehood in the FIRST chapter #and im like. OKAY THEN. #shout out to fantssy book tournament account for having this in their latest polls #its how i heard of it #anyway. im unwell but yknow. trying. got too sad to finish arcane bc viktor #havent watched snk in Months bc im avoiding erwins death #STILL dragging out the finale of cr2. i have 5 hrs left. ikithon just showed up. i cant handle it being over #im. hm. a mess.

[lesbiankordian]

now why did dazai say here he wanted to ask chuuya sth 🧐🧐...? WHAT WAS THE QUESTION SUPPOSED TO BE?! like I know it'd be probably another joke but what would he say hadn't he made that joke...

#also yk when you're scared of ur feelings / don't want the other person to know sth so you start saying sth and then stop mid sentence? #not bc u didn't realize what u were saying but bc there was some hope maybe you'd hear what you wanted to hear #or just that you wanted to live in the fake reality for a moment and imagine yourself asking that not necessarily wanting an answer #yeah that's what happened here 😍 #no but tbh i think sth similar happened in ch 101 #but actually not similar ahhhh I'll make a post abt that #anyways WHAT WAS THE QUESTION SUPPOSED TO BE DAZAI I NEED TO KNOW 😭 #and don't tell me it would've been a joke i listened to one too many skk songs today #soukoku #bsd #okay actually im not finished bc this is another time where Dazai purposefully acts like a person / character in love with the other #(character bc how he does that is stereotypical. like an archetype from a movie) (the Book thoughts in my head rn) #so yeah like you don't say such a think to a random person or a colleague like THE BONDDDD god #and the fact chuuya really gets scared.... #remember in 15 when they first met and Dazai was like 'will you let me go... if I talk?' and then he said chuuya ought to drink more milk😐 #imagine if adult!Dazai's question was meant to be 'have u been drinking milk?' with that blank annoying expression of his #bungou stray dogs

[bbreaddog]

.

#personal #just rewatched rwrb #the first time i watched it i was pausing like every 2 seconds to voice my live thoughts to my friends #and i was so focused on comparing it to the book #finished the film feeling all kinds of conflicted #but this time i watched it all the way through without pausing #and just watched the film for the film #and yeah #it’s good shit #it’s its own story #that’s usually how adaptations go #and i knew that logically the first time but obviously didn’t believe it sksdkfghd #anyway there are so many good things about the film and i will probably have more coherent thoughts about it later #will i ever get round to analysing moments from it? #probably. if others haven’t already beaten me to it #one moment in particular that’s sticking out to me rn is the way Philip was fiddling with his own signet ring right before the king enters #i don’t have the brain power to fully break that down #Something something philip fiddling with his own signet ring the same way Henry does something something family history of anxiety etc etc #ANYWAYS that’s for another time

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

hey so. was anyone gonna tell me that last year I wrote *the* most tender lonan & harrison moment in feeding habits ORRRRR (harrison cuts lonan’s hair):

On the floor, Harrison eases Lonan’s skull over his knee and mimics what Suzanna does for him every other month: a modest section between his index and middle finger, then a tentative snip. A section. A snip. As he cuts, chips of Lonan’s hair falling to the tile, he notes the geography of Lonan’s skull, rough with uneven hair. He’s so focused on taming it all to one length that at first, he doesn’t notice when Lonan flushes crimson all the way to his throat. How he blinks rapidly to dislodge the tears netting his eyelashes, and eventually covers his face with his hands. Harrison snips again, and Lonan makes a strangled noise, like an animal’s cry. Tentative at first, like a short clearing of the throat, and then ugly, like a caribou dying. Harrison clenches his jaw, knowing it’ll only be harder to cut Lonan’s hair if he too starts to cry, but that doesn’t matter. Within seconds, his eyes swell, and as he snips, hair scattering like both of their old lives dissipating, he smooths his free thumb over Lonan’s forehead. He doesn’t know what else to do. How to imbue comfort. He’s not like Suzanna who understands that sometimes a person just needs another person to appear with a plate of papas, or a rented chick flick, and just be there. Within minutes, Lonan’s hair is at a new normal: shorter than it’s been in years, but in shape to regrow. Harrison sets the scissors onto the tile. He cups Lonan’s cheek with his palm, brings his forehead so close to his that they nearly touch. And he’s there. A bamboo stake waiting for a strand of ivy to give it new purpose.

#THE WAY I HAVE NOOOO RECOLLECTION OF THIS SCENE #WROTE THIS IN 2022 IM WEEEEEPPPINNGGGG #not harrison not crying but wanting to cry because lonan is crying #ohhhHHH IM HURTTTT #this is so hallowed bodies Lonan coded too like if there’s one thing HB Lonan will do #it’s cover his face with his hands and cry (THE CHERRIES LOL) #yeah this LITERALLYYYYY healed me I love seeing them like this #MW 3……… PLSSSS #if u don’t know the feeding habits lore #Eliza who’s Lonan’s girlfriend lol cuts off his hair because biblical references #and it looks… bad LOL but it’s a big thematic moment because Lonan’s hair is 90% of his personality #anyway so Harrison’s fixing it here #I cannot imagine Lonan with short hair tho lol but that’s how he looks in the second half of the book!!!! #THE NEAR FOREHEAD TOUCH AT THE END I JUST NOTICEDDDD OMGGGGG #OHHH I AM NOW JUST NOTICING THE THUMB THING IM CRYYYINGG THEY ARE TENDYYYY #I was looking thru FH for Harrison quotes since I finished his aesthetic!! now I’m just reeling!!!

[bookwyrminspiration]

fuck whatever Ana and Christian have going on, Taylor, the chauffeur/servant guy whose just always there being super polite just minding his business doing his job driving them around and arranging things is the real star of this series

#50 shades trilogy #finished book 1 everyone #what the fuck was that ending that was so abrupt #anyway I don’t care about any of these characters except for ray bob and taylor #Taylor’s my favorite <3 #he’s just There #like yeah I’ll just drive while you climb into his lap in the backseat and make out #u are sobbing have this handkerchief miss steele #i will say nothing else as turn on music for you #best guy ever

[rotisseries]

I JUST FINISHED REREADING LEGENDBORN AND STARTED BLOODMARKED LAST NIGHT AND COME ON HERE AND YOU'RE ALSO READING IT 😨😨 WE SYNCED

CLOWN TO CLOWN COMMUNICATION. OUR UNBREAKABLE BOND

#come talk to me when you finish bloodmarked I reread legendborn last night and got to the gala bit #that I'd completely forgotten about where bree says something about how her nick and sel are all bonded to each other #and like. combined that with bloodmarked as a whole but especially chapters 51 and 58 #I am absolutely fucking certain I'll die on the polyamory hill like THEY ARE ALL FUCKING BONDED ALL 3 OF THEM IT'S CONSTANTLY REITIRATED #NO WAY SHE PICKS JUST ONE IT WOULDN'T BE RIGHT #WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT THE POLY CODING. WHAT THE HELL. #every time I'm in the bathroom I start looking into the nearest mirror and start talking to myself crazily #about how actually fucking insane it is like I'm losing my mind tracy deonn what are you on can I take a hit #so yeah keep me posted on your reading progress lol #speaking of rereading legendborn though I'd forgotten just how mean nick and sel are to each other in the first book #and it was like. actually crazy to see that continue pretty much right up until the end bc they don't really get a chance for reconciliatio #and then to compare that with having also just recently finished bloodmarked #which is literally like. a complete fucking 180 #idk if nick's month being kidnapped by his dad just gave him a lot of time to reflect or something #but he never has a genuinely bad thing to say about sel. like right from the start and his first appearances in bloodmarked #similarly for sel lmao #contrasted with the. everything in legendborn. like it's actually fucking crazy #what spending a month away from your magically bonded bro does to a mf #anyway. in regards to us always reading the same shit have you been keeping up with chloe gong's books? #bc I read foul lady fortune and last violent call earlier this week as well #ask #lyoshaland #hi lyosha!

[thaliasthunder]

*taps on mic* hey i started red white & royal blue for the first time, anything yall want to say about this? *passes mic* 🎤

#i mostly post this to commit myself to the book #since i finished pjo/hoo/toa i REALLY dont know what to do w my life now #so i said hey why dont u fill ur inner void by starting w another book? 😄 #and i remember rwrb was pretty popular time ago and i did want to read it like 2 years ago #i even had a pdf in spanish and all #but i couldnt go pass the #like #6 first pages?? #u know when alex's still talking w his sister in the beginning right? #yeah that part #so like i said #to commit myself here u have this post 👐🏼 #but also i know many of u love this book so i figured u may wanted to tell me something #u know; for a beginner #i dont know if i will be posting updates of the book tho #since its self-conclusive maybe i should part them in mini updates #anyway i'll see #still; any thoughts to share to the class? 🎤 #rwrb #red white and royal blue #red white & royal blue #yes grecia reads sometimes #casey mcquiston

[pippuns]

hi, what is tai sui about? ive found the translations but no summaries or anything

OH BOY WOULD I LOVE TO TELL YOU ALL ABOUT IT

the summary is

If I had a choice, I would only want to be a little insect in the mundane dust, born in confusion, dying in mediocrity, never seeing the light of day beneath the fog of Jinping City. Better than taking this wrong road to heaven.

which, baller summary, and it says a lot more than i originally thought it does, but it doesn't really tell you much about what tai sui is actually about. so.

it's a deconstruction of the xianxia genre with fantastic, detailed worldbuilding, and takes place in this wonderful blend of high fantasy and steampunk. it speaks a lot to the implications of the cultivation genre on class inequality and environmentalism, and it has a lot of really interesting commentary on the relationship between mortals and immortals and the cost of immortality. the most simple summary i can give of the plot is that it follows xi ping on his journey from your average, deeply insufferable (but incredibly delightful) noble brat, to becoming something like a god.

#i am trying so hard to keep this short and without spoilers #xi ping is genuinely so funny #the book can get really heavy at times so his commentary is really good for lightening that #also the side characters are!! so good!! #i have cried!! which rarely happens. so like. yeah #pip speaks #anyways. i've only just finished book 2 but i strongly recommend it

[jovial-gender-jester]

it's so sad grif has such a bland first name. dexter doesnt have ANY swag to it

#sitting & stewing... im sure he wasnt the favourite kid & his mom had him earlier than she was ready for... i know it #[also. isnt saying much cuz i dont think adults were pressed to wonder 'am i ready for kids?' until after they've spent years assuming #and then somewhere in their 20s a kid pops into the picture and even /if/ someone's Really sure they wanted a kid. there's still factors #they didnt finish planning out. and def other they never even expected or thought aboutlo #& yeah baby books exist but there's thousands to comb through. amd a lot of good info's either redundant or hard to find among the clutter #anyway. anyone else up at night thinking about the grifs #rvb posting #dexter grif