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psycho-slytherin · 5 years

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Strangers ch. 33

You and Yoongi make a choice about your relationship.

Pairing: Yoongi x (female) Reader

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Genre: fluff, angst

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“No.”

“Mr. Min, it’s the only way–”

“No. I won’t do that to y/n. The fans would kill her.”

Blood roars in your ears, and your knees turn weak, the ache in your left leg feeling far more prominent with the memory of last night.

“I need to sit down,” you say faintly, and Yoongi turns to you, alarmed.

“Are you going to pass out again? Do you need water?” He returns his gaze to Bang PD and Avery. “Y/n shouldn’t even be here after she collapsed yesterday!”

You lower yourself into your chair, grateful for the weight off your injured leg. “Don’t worry about me, Yoongs. I’m not going to faint. I just...”

“If you were... dating.”

“My fans would kill her.”

“Y/n, honey...” Avery approaches you, her eyes full of empathy and... something else. “I know I’m not your manager, but I think it would be in your best interest to go with this idea. If you and Mr. Min pretend to date, it would explain why you were together yesterday, and it would boost Moon Over the Sea’s publicity.” She sits down in Yoongi’s chair and rests her hand on your leg. The proximity of her touch to your injury forces you to swallow a whimper of pain. “It would be temporary– you could ‘break up’ whenever you needed to, as long as the show’s promotions were over.”

“Surely you know of BTS’s fame,” Bang PD adds. “To be seen with Yoongi would do wonders for your public image. Millions of people would give anything to be in your place.”

“Stop trying to convince her!” Yoongi says, his eyes narrowing into a glare. “We’re just friends.”

“Of course you are– I know you’d never actually date y/n. But everyone loves onscreen/offscreen couples. And think about it, Yoongi.” Bang PD’s voice lowers, and you barely catch his words. “If you don’t do this, everyone goes down. You. Me. Y/n. The other members. Yoongi, it’s your only option. Besides...” Bang PD leans in and whispers something. Yoongi goes very pale at the executive’s words, shooting a glance at you before sighing.

“Ugh. Well– let me talk to her alone,” he asks his producer, his tone gentler, softer now.

“Take as much time as you need to come to the right decision. Miss Lee?” Bang PD leads Avery outside to an adjoining office in the BigHit Entertainment building.

As soon as they’re gone, you let out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding. “We fucked up.”

“Did we?”

You stare at your friend in disbelief. “Gee, Sherlock, you tell me– we got fucking photographed at our spot, and now your boss and our director and my best friend and everyone else on the fucking planet knows that we know each other out of work, and a thousand percent of them think we’re dating, and now we’re being told that guess what? We have to pretend to date to keep my job, and yours, and the jobs of the other members!”

Your breath is getting shorter, your leg hurts, and you feel cold, so cold. “I fucked up. I fucked up. Yoongi, it’s my fault, I ruined it, I ruined you, I fucked up–”

“Hey. Hey! Y/n, shh...” Yoongi pulls his chair closer to yours and wraps an arm around you. “Deep breaths. You’re okay. You’re strong. And personally? I don’t think we fucked up.”

“How can you possibly think that?”

Yoongi shrugs. “I hated lying. Now I can meet your friends, and introduce you to other idols. Now I can talk about you during interviews– it’s so hard not bringing up some dumb thing we’ve done during our Truth or Dare or Drink games. We don’t have to pretend anymore.”

“Dingus, did you forget the fake-dating part?”

Yoongi presses his lips together. “Right, that...”

“Whatever. I don’t really need this job– I can go back to working in the cafe. I’ll delete my Twitter and change my hair.” If you drop off the face of the Earth, ARMYs will forget about you, and Yoongi and the other members of BTS will bounce back from That Photo quickly. It’s best for them that everything returns to normal as soon as possible.

Yoongi freezes before leaning back and folding his arms with a sigh. “Fine. If you don’t want to be an actress, leave. If this role isn’t worth fighting for, leave. If our friendship isn’t strong enough to get through this, leave. If you think the best way to fix this is to give up, leave– because that’s what you’re doing, isn’t it?”

“W-what?”

“Come on, y/n. I know you like I know my own mind. You think if you make some heroic sacrifice, it’ll be worth it because I’ll keep my reputation, right? You don’t want to go through with dating, because you know I’ll lose fans.”

“It was my fault,” you mutter, abashed. “The photo. I heard footsteps, but... I just wanted to see you.”

“And I wanted to see you, y/n. I was so scared last night, I thought that you were– well, whatever. But what’s done is done, and we should make the best of it.” Yoongi shrugs. “I’m okay with the fake-dating, if you are– you’re the better liar anyways.”

Did he speak, or merely stab you in the chest? For a second, you can’t rightly tell.

“Lisa would be so angry,” you croak, panicking. “If she thinks I’ve lied to her again, she might hate me for real.”

“Lisa’s your friend, she’d understand.”

“And the fans?”

Yoongi hesitates, biting his lip. “It’ll be fine.”

“You said they’d kill me.” They’ve already tried.

“They can’t really touch you, and they’ll love you soon enough.” Yoongi flashes you a small smile, but you only shiver, the memory of the redhead’s hands on your chest feeling real, far too real.

Yoongi notices. “Are you cold? Where’s...” his eyes darken. “Y/n, where’s your coat?”

In the river.

With my phone.

And my blood.

And nearly the rest of me, too.

“I left it at home.”

Yoongi stares at you silently, his eyes posing questions you can’t answer. You’re about to say something else, explain why you haven’t responded to any of the texts he’s surely sent you, but there’s a knock at the door and Bang Si-Hyuk and Avery reappear. You automatically shift away from Yoongi– the authority figures can’t think you actually like him.

“So?” Bang PD asks. “Have you come to a decision?”

“Up to you,” Yoongi murmurs quietly, and you blink hard.

Your ARMY self is screaming, dying, rolling on the floor and thanking every deity you can think of. Dating Min Yoongi– even as a lie– is all your dreams come true.

Some other part of you, barely a whisper in your mind, is saying not like this.

You don’t want to force Yoongi’s hand. But you’re scared, so scared of the consequences of agreeing. Still, if it’s the only way... and Yoongi’s right; his friendship is worth it.

You swallow, the singular action taking with it your doubts, fears, and a little bit of you.

“Yes. We’ll do it.”

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You stare into Yoongi’s eyes. “I have to say, my life was much easier before you came along.”

Yoongi smiles mischievously. “But much less fun, I hope.”

“Cut! Nice going, guys– I think that’s our take!” Avery claps twice and you rise carefully from the beautiful period set. At Avery’s words, the room is once more filmed with the hustle and bustle of film.

“Okay, next we’re going to finish the countryside scenes– Yoongi, y/n, you’re done for the day. Good work. And,” Avery lowers her voice to a whisper, “make sure to leave together.”

You smile weakly and nod at your director. What else can you do? It’s been several weeks since your near-drowning, and since you and Yoongi began ‘dating’.

“Tell me this,” you grumble, catching up to Yoongi on his way out the door. “How are we supposed to leave together if we go in opposite directions?”

Your friend laughs, shrugs. “Beats me. On the bright side, the show is getting a lot more publicity.”

“That’s ‘cause of you, not us,” you reply, punching him in the arm.

“Y/n, haven’t you learned anything?” Yoongi asks, exasperated. “You are special, and people really like you.”

Not everyone. In the several weeks since your near-drowning, you got a new phone and, well... everything is back to normal.

@bangtan-news: Is love in the air? BTS’ #Suga spotted on a romantic evening walk with #MoonOverTheSea costar @yourname! @captainkookie21: @bangtan-news they’re faking they have to be @BTS_twt pls deny these awful rumors @jkthighs: @captainkookie21 are u still leading the anti @yourname movement lol I support u (^w^) @largebaguette: ugh why does @yourname have so many haters?? Just let BTS date who they want to they’re grown ass men

@queenyn: I love #YoongiAndYn honestly the best ship uwu I’m so happy they’re dating @jiminhasjams: rt if you’d pay money to slap @yourname for stealing yoongi

@captainkookie21: I think we should boycott @yourname until they agree to recast yoongi’s LI in #MoonOverTheSea tbh. #boycottyn let’s make it happen! Fighting!

You sigh, shaking your head to rid your mind of the daily flood of hatred. Ever since first being seen together with Yoongi in public, your social media mentions have increased a hundredfold.

“Penny for your thoughts?” Yoongi asks, seeming to pick up on your mood.

“Oh, nothing." You say quickly. “The dating thing is just weird, you know?”

Yoongi shrugs. “It’s not like we have to kiss, or even hold hands. It’s the same as always, except, you know...” he gestures at the sun shining brightly overhead. “We get to see that.”

“That’s true. Hey,” you check your watch. “I have some time before my next job... do you want to get coffee at my place? I’d suggest a cafe, but I don’t want you to get swarmed.”

“Sounds good. I’ll have my driver take me there separately. If your address is still secret, you should keep it that way.”

Twenty minutes later, you’re brewing coffee in your thankfully upgraded coffeemaker. Yoongi sits at your small table, munching thoughtfully on a muffin.

“So how’s life?” he asks, and you snort.

“We’ve seen each other almost every day, Yoongs. Do you really need to ask?”

“I guess I’m just used to not knowing much about you,” he says, accepting your offered mug of coffee.

“Look who’s talking, Agust.”

“Oh god,” Yoongi groans, snickering. “I can’t believe I gave you that name.”

“I can’t believe you said you were an accountant.”

“Hey, I’d make a great accountant,” Yoongi replies.

You roll your eyes. “Your hair was blue and you’re twenty-something. Even if I didn’t know BTS, I’d think you were lying.”

A light breeze hits your back and your heart stops. Cold. Your breath quickens and your teeth begin chattering.

“Y-Y-Yoongi, could you c-close the w-window?” You thought it was closed, you haven’t opened it since that night, since you felt the cold so deep in your bones it felt like you might shatter into pieces.

“It’s... it’s not open,” Yoongi says, cocking his head. “Are you okay?”

“Mhm. Just gotta grab a jacket.” You’re already wearing a sweater and a shirt underneath, but it’s not enough. You pad to your hall closet and grab your new coat.

“When’s your next job?” Yoongi calls, still sitting at the coffee table.

“At five. What time is it now?” You ask, pulling your arms through the sleeves. Your phone is on the table, so you can’t check yourself.

“Just past four–” Yoongi’s voice cuts off and an eerie silence fills your apartment.

“Yoongi? What’s wrong?” You reappear in the kitchen only to see Yoongi looking paler than you’ve ever seen him, staring openmouthed at his phone.

No... not his phone. Your phone. And your notifications.

“Y/n, what...” Yoongi’s voice cracks. “When were you going to tell me?”

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rageprayer · 6 years

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kinneypride · 7 years

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“Fans” complain about diversity and representation in comics, and why is pretty obvious. Thor - Bill Masterson was Thor in the 90s, and there was the whole future Thor thing with Thor 2099 and the Dargo Ktor Thor too. These “fans” didn’t actively complain until it was a woman in the role. A woman I might add, that’s been proven to be worthy of the hammer since the beginning and has been a staple of Thor’s comics from the beginning. My reaction is more towards why did it take so long to do this story that’s been foreshadowed since Donald Blake himself first raised the hammer. Her comic also outsold original Thor’s by quite a lot, and even the drop off of readers still held above the dropoff of readers in original Thor’s comic. A complete unknown white male can pick up the hammer with no problems, but the second a woman who has a long history with Thor does? Oh lordy, shut the internet down. Captain America - In the 90s, John Walker became Captain America for awhile. And in recent years, Bucky became cap(a hero with a prosthetic arm), and currently Sam Wilson is, two characters that have been sidekicks and partners to cap for almost his entire run as opposed to a complete unknown white man. Yet they get all the hate for “replacing Steve.” It’s Sam Wilson’s turn with the shield, and someday Nomad will pick up the shield too. Cap’s early comics are rooted in this notion of the sidekicks/partners eventually will pick up the shield for him. It’s a golden age comic staple of the genre. Taking Captain America and making it about the legacy of what the mantle means to each individual. You can see it over in DC too. Legacies do pick up the mantle eventually. Ms. Marvel - Kamala Khan has been a great read full of personality and fun, but people are still crying out for Carol as Ms Marvel and whining about Carol’s shift to Captain Marvel. Yet that is the natural growth for both their characters. Carol to full take on the mantle of the source of her powers, and Kamala as being a hero who was inspired by another in her youth like many of the greats started themselves. Kamala’s title has been outselling the original’s for awhile now at that.

As for Carol, in one Avengers cartoon that had Carol in it, she can take full on punches from the hulk, but a random pebble while she’s flying a ship incapacitates her and knocks her out so the male characters have to fly the ship(none of which were even pilots!). Yet not one peep from anyone how that didn’t make sense. It was accepted. And you want to tell me this isn’t about sexism towards her character to downgrade her from a military rank that gives respect to her air force days back to a no rank title that uses “Ms.”

All-New Wolverine - I don’t even know where to begin on the ignorance of the complaints here. She’s been building up to becoming Wolverine since her premiere on TV. Her second set of origin comics literally start off with her stepping into Logan’s feet. How anyone can call this “forced”, well, they’re probably an idiot anyway. Wolverine’s comic has never been this fun to read before. Ironman - Riri Williams makes sense taking over the mantle, and even so, she took on a new name for herself anyway. The only other character to come close would have been the niece of James Rhodes. “Fans” will cry and scream that only Tony Stark is Ironman. Yet they’ll conveniently forget that James Rhodes was Ironman in the 80s while Tony Stark was out of commission. Now with Rhodey gone, and plus he’s already been Ironman and has created his own various hero Identities after the fact, it was time for a new person to step into the shoes to begin their own legacy. Makes it hard to believe that those “fan” complaints aren’t anything more than thinly veiled sexism. And lets be honest here, Tony hasn’t been that smart since, well, his creation. He is arrogantly smart, which has led to lots of personal issues and dangerous mistakes. It’s time someone else wore the armor that’s not that arrogantly smart(stupid) to see how she handles it differently without that life threatening flaw that self-creates problems. Especially ones of such magnitude that’d let Ultron turn Tony himself into a puppet because Tony thought nanites and computer parts in his body directly was a good idea. Hulk - Bruce Banner’s original runs have always been about him seeking to rid himself of the hulk. He’s succeeded several times in the past. To the point Rick Jones ended up as a hulk. So “hulk” has had stories in the past of new characters taking over and becoming a Hulk. Now all of a sudden it’s an issue when an asian american man becomes a Hulk. One that has a longstanding history in Marvel as much if not more so than even Rick Jones did before he became a hulk(and then much later A-Bomb). Banner’s wife/Ex-wife Betty becoming a hulk was derided non-stop as well, no matter how fun it was to read. Yet as a story, it makes sense because of how much Banner’s gamma life impacts those around him. Women in his life can get maimed, killed, or even tortured, but heaven forbid one actually get powers of her own because of how Banner’s life impacts them. I mean it’s not like there is history of that happening to loved ones or relatives even from the simplest things like a blood transfusion. Spider-man - The hero costume itself has always been about it could be anyone under that mask. The full covering suit is a metaphor for the fact the kid underneath is any kind of bullied underdog with a good heart. But people whine nonetheless, and even with their whining, many of whom are whining don’t even read the comic. Which is rather obvious by their complaints. They claim this true fan moniker but can’t even recognize an older character reappearing and cry out that Marvel is trying to turn Spider-man into a girl. (*Facepalm.*) And in actual new changes, the alternate universe version over with Spider-Gwen is a fantastic read. One of the best new interpretations of the lore in ages.

“Fans” call it diversity killing comics and heroes. I call it the natural evolution of the characters, and their impact on their world and those around them. The natural progression of stories that should have reached this far in decades past if Marvel back then wasn’t scared of their straight white bread audience that was scared of change. So what’s all the hate really about? Because the rise and fall of sales in comics is nothing new. This happens, and has been happening for the duration of comics as a whole. It’s nothing new. And often enough, it has nothing to do with content. Especially in this day and age where sales are trending towards digital, and print comic sales(floppies) were dwindling much worse before these alleged new “experimental” forays in story telling as people wait for trade paperback collections and hardcovers to read it all at once. Are we really going to call this an experiment when Marvel has done this previously to core title characters in the past? My personal comic buying habits have slowed, and I know it’s not because of “diversity” in the comics. It’s because of the personal finances cost. Much of the material is better than it’s ever been in the past. Heck, much of it is better than it was back during the early 2000s, and here we are nearing 2020. Why can’t comics evolve and their world evolve naturally? Do we really need to leave characters in cryo stasis and telling the same story six ways to Sunday repeated over and over in a slightly different way? Why can’t we have actual new stories? Are you really going to complain about the slowing of the sales of ‘floppies’ when those numbers are still higher than the past? Now also boosted by digital? And an increase in trade paperback sales? So what’s the hate really about? Longstanding comic tropes of heroes naturally evolving as per their character history? Or the fact in some of those cases it happens to be a woman? Or in Captain America’s case, a black man. Or Hulk’s an Asian American? Why can’t Marvel be allowed to tell new stories like they have in the past even with new male characters? We wouldn’t even have War Machine today if not for Marvel doing that in the past. These characters will grow into the mantle, and some will splinter off into new identities. It’s a comic staple that’s as old as comics itself, and if we limit that, we’re cutting off a large chunk of what future comics could become and grow into. If over in DC, the new Wally West took over for Barry, as it happened previously in the comics pre-reboot that brought Barry back, how do you think people will react to that? It’s happened in the past, so it shouldn’t be an issue. It’s part of Barry’s character history. But logic has never been part of a hater’s repertoire. I guess we’ll see how that pans out coming up in the Flash TV series itself. These shifts are nothing new to comics. So why is it ‘now’ an issue when it’s someone that’s not white or not male? This shouldn’t be an issue at all.

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