#because i’m insane of course

[juuuulez]

watching the bear just makes me realise how fucking sensitive i am….like i am just a girl and i can’t handle pressure or loud noises or stress in general.

like there needs to be more fics that..acknowledge that? not being sensitive, but just that carmen is genuinely creating a toxic work environment 😭😭 like BRO if he yelled at me like that i’d start screaming the fuck back because i am so goddamn defensive.

and maybe JUST MAYBE guys i’m not perfect but i think i’m always in the right because i dunno i’m stupid or something! so i would absolutely not survive a day in that kitchen one shift would end in tears and someone would definitely be bleeding.

anyway these are my thoughts for today…….its because i’m a leo guys blaming all my flaws on my star sign.

#carmen berzatto x reader #thoughts #gonna write something like this #after the thousand other drafts i have to finish #there’s wip’s for: lip carmen x2 richie x2 annnndddd uhhh a an idea for a 10-part fic? #because i’m insane of course

[starlesscitiess]

i just think that once you read unholyverse you can never go back. you’re a changed person. now in a completely convoluted backdoor sort of way, catholicism is in your head forever

#also #reading it the first time with mcr brain rot was of course An Experience #but reading it this time round with fall out boy brain rot? oh boy #because i’m like the exact same level of insane but this time it’s for side characters who literally show up in one part #at least im pretty sure they’re only in the second one but im still partway through that #unholyverse #rpf #sorry to everyone who get psychic damage from me mentioning this fic in 2023 btw #i typically don’t believe in the concept of a guilty pleasure but boy if there ever was one. #juno band tag #ryan brain moments

[lunarrolls]

i’m sorry i’m still laughing about basically the entire table trying to set fearne and ashton up and taliesin basically looking his attention starved orphan with trust issues and terrible social skills up and down and going. yeah no

#cr #cr3 #cr spoilers #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #crshipping #callowmoore #I MEAN. THEY COULD STILL GET TOGETHER #but i’m losing my mind. my aro ass. ashton’s never had a family before of course that’s literally all they want #i hope taliesin goes through with that because it’s hilarious and also incredibly fitting for ashton #fearne and ashton would be insane chaos siblings let’s be real

[alastoridiot-meta]

I CANNOT let this continue to be the false narrative throughout the fandom so let’s just talk about Alastor and whether he will be redeemed.

The simple answer I have to this is… absolutely. Like what do you think the message of this show IS.

Alastor is a charming and likable character. He’s edgy and soft and rigid in all the right ways for fandom to take and hold onto him. Viv has said before, along with what is shown in the show, that he tends to have a weird and sort of warped morality.

On one hand, he has no problem threatening Husk, torturing overlords, and overall being a nuisance to every powerful male character that he comes in contact with.

But on the other hand, he believes in being able to control YOUR OWN fate, as said in his fight with Adam “you should know more than anyone what a soul can do when they take charge of their own fate”, implying control over one’s personhood, destiny, and general LIFE. In fact, it’s this sentence that just speaks to so many of Alastor’s true ideals in consent and soul contracts. Like yes he owns huskers soul and maybe nifty’s, but husk only furthers my own agenda of “Alastor targets people with power”, for one reason or another, those people are overlords. HE EVEN IMPLIES IN STAYED GONE THAT HIS TRUE INTENTIONS ARE DISTURBING SYSTEMS OF POWER, GOING AGAINST THE STATUS QUO.

And i know it’s wordplay for destroying the Vee’s, but with the combined evidence of: the Vee’s being the main metaphors for exploitation and taking AWAY control over one’s fate, along with heaven and what the hotel stands for, this makes perfect sense as to WHY he joined the hotel in the first place. Because it’s not for entertainment, and I highly doubt it’s any sort of power. This, along with the previous weird obsession with Lucifer and destroying overlords in general, his friendship with an overlord who values the people she employs to such an extent that Charlie still has to WIN THEM OVER… it just goes against everything the fandom would LIKE to say/think about Alastor.

So I guess what I’m getting at here is that the fandom is acting like Alastor is this big bad villain guy with absolutely no redeeming qualities to build off of, people are acting like defying powerful systems is NOT at all a redeeming quality that Charlie can’t build off of or use to make him gain other qualities.

Not only this, but with Mimzy and his entire relationship with her, how he just lets her walk into his life knowing that she brings trouble and he only banishes her when she proves once again that she brings trouble… like, I’m sorry but it just feels like people actively ignore these things because they’re looking for logical morality systems. Even people who know that this is an aspect of his character, tend to lack the capacity to understand that Alastor can and IS very contradictory.

He CAN own husks soul and make deals with people in exchange for goods or favors, while also disliking the idea of a soul not having independence and/or charge of their own fates. It’s contradictory. It’s supposed to be.

And I guess it’s this that always makes me confused when there’s fanart of a redeemed/angelic Alastor that is FILLED with comments like “I’m sorry but Alastor will never be redeemed” “it’s impossible for his redemption” “cool art but it’ll never happen”, GUYS.

WHAT. IS. THE. MESSAGE. OF. THE. SHOW.

It’s FORGIVENESS. It’s CHANGE. The entire fight in heaven is literally the angels spewing the same rhetoric when talking about Angel, but of course the show has to take baby steps to say that yes, everyone deserves redemption. Everyone deserves the right to change. Everyone can change. Everyone WILL CHANGE.

Alastor already believes in redemption, I know that based off of his conversation with Adam ALONE. What makes you think he can’t work towards it? Even if that’s not now, don’t you think a person would try anything to escape a contract? It’s probably the main motivation for Angel at all.

And I just. I guess I don’t understand how people could be watching and believing in a message about change and forgiveness, while simultaneously refusing to see that a character like Alastor could change. Abusers can change. They should change. If not for themselves, then to stop the abuse they instill in the people around them.

#alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin angel dust #hazbin adam #I tagged them because they’re kind of relavent to this post #anyway the misunderstanding of his character is insane it makes me want to kms #to me I guess I feel it’s obvious but it’s so. annoying. it’s really really annoying. #because people just want to see a bad character that just likes to be bad and there’s nothing else to it #when even in that interpretation there’s so many contradictions to that #‘why does he want power? why to want power of course!’ #do you guys just want the mustache twirling trope #be honest #anyway I’m raw dogging this post I didn’t even re read it so hopefully it’s legible

[itsalwaysforyou]

one trick ahead of disaster

kenny ortega, descendants / alan menken, one jump ahead (reprise)

#HI. ITS ME. THE GUY WHOS BONKERS OVER JAY ALADDIN PARALLELS #this came to me in a vision #i just think!!!!!!! that jay inadvertently being like aladdin!!!!! #the charming thief. deeply lonely and insecure. protective. gets seriously fucked up by jafar. etc #no but seriously like. like #your father never sees you as his son; only his worst enemy #your fate was decided long ago. this was inevitable #jafar seeing his offspring has some distorted mirror to the boy who bested him. he becomes determined to never let that happen again #(which of course doesn’t work. jay is wily and quick and everything aladdin is. ie everything jafar isn’t) #these two halves of a coin constantly straining against each other #no jay without jafar no jafar without jay no aladdin without jafar no jay without aladdin. you know #they’re both street rats. both stealing because they have to. GHHGGHH THEY. ARE SO SIMILAR. EXPLODES #i was trying to keep my tags eloquent but i CANT #anyway i will shut up now!!!!!! i’m #i’m too insane!!!!!!! #descendants #jay son of jafar #descendants web weaving #shining pearls

[ohitslen]

WOA SOMETJINH ABIUT OOOUHHGG WAIT FUVK

OKAY.

Clingy Wolfwood something, but like, he doesn’t even process he’s being it because he is not explicitly clingy but is always like hovering around and like always has a hand somewhere, like touchy something IM INNDWNFN

#this is about. Vashwood because. I’m insane of course it is. #and because im enamoured with the idea that WW is just as touch starved as Vash is #but he’s less obvious about it. but guess who notices these things without having to be said out loud. GUESS WHO #IMMANFNQND AAAAAAAAAAA #Tbh it’s just projection all the time that is the fun about this! #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #lenssi rambles #vashwood #vash #wolfwood

[ducktracy]

reuploading a handful of clips to replenish my Daffy Doodles tag since the quality of prior videos makes my skin crawl; it almost feels like a cop out to call this my favorite Bob McKimson short because it’s his first! doesn’t that accidentally imply it’s all downhill from there?? that’s furthest from the truth!

either way, it is true his shorts don’t often boast such ambitious directorial maneuvers such as this one, which is why it’s one of my favorite parts of one of my favorite cartoons ever made. Porky crawling into frame could not be executed more perfectly, the momentum of the camera and animation swaying back and forth is genuinely hypnotic… it’s perfect. animated by one of animation’s many unsung heroes, Dick Bickenbach (with Tolly Kirsanoff doing the establishing wide shot)

#there are some shorts i would rank a little higher than this one just BARELY. but. BUT #this is the short i resonate with most emotionally/empathetic ally behind The Great Piggy Bank Robbery. which is of course why my art blog #is themed accordingly. i’m not completely insane! there’s a very real causation behind my cartoon branding #one reason why i love this short so much is because it’s sympathetic to both Daffy AND Porky in different ways #lt #daffy doodles #mckimson #vid

[kaylazer]

back on my bullshit (meeting men im in love with). Ben Schwartz is so kind and tall :-) I didn’t totally freeze like when I met the Jonas brothers but the selfies we took are blurry so 😔

(at least I have these bc I told sam to record the whole thing heheheh)

#also the show was great #I had to slap sam many times bc she was choking from laughter #ben schwartz #bro how did i forget my personal tag for ben #ben schwartz my beloved #me #also forgot me tag #editing tags after the fact to recount the entire experience #so we waited outside for about 10 minutes and I had no expectation of how long it usually takes for him to come out and take pictures #he comes out without a mask which is surprising to me and says ‘you guys wanna take some pictures?’ #we all just kinda form a non sensical blob (there’s maybe like 10 ppl total) around him #Brandon Katie and Eugene hang back towards the stage door unsure if anyone wants to chat with them #I’m gushing over how tall and handsome Ben is to my sister who is ready to record our interaction once he gets to me #as I listen to him chatting with the other fans I can’t help but smile and say to my sibling ‘he’s so sweet’ every minute #he meets someone who has a cool sketchbook of the skits from the show that he wants to take a picture of #but they need to write their handle so he says he’ll talk with some others and get back to them #so he does and then later I see the girl ready to talk to him again off to the side #so I tell her ‘you can go ahead and finish talking to him”’ and she’s like ‘are you sure?’ and I’m like duh! #finally it’s my turn and he looks at me and says ‘hi I’m Ben’ #yes Benjamin Joseph Schwartz I know #he sees me holding my phone and immediately sides steps to get into selfie mode as I ask him if he’ll sign my Jean Ralphio figure #he steps back to Be in front of me ‘yes of course!’ #what insane media training he has #he says ‘I’ve seen this! this is the first one I’ve ever signed’ #upon seeing the figure he says ‘it’s beautiful’ lol #he’s concerned that the sharpie I brought will not show up and I mention that it was probably a bad one to bring because it’s pastel #he signs and holds it up (as you can see in the first photo) to make sure it’s visible #he hands it back to me and I thank him and he says ‘do you want to take a picture?’ #and I say ‘I would love to!’ and then I hold the Jean Ralphio figure and he looks to my sibling assuming she’s taking the picture #she’s like ‘no I’m just here for moral support!’

[shibaraki]

idkidk it’s hard for me to sufficiently emphasise just how deeply plagiarism has affected me and the way I post. I think for anyone who has dealt with plagiarism or had their ideas lifted, there is a bit of a bruise that never really goes away? it can totally sap the joy out of not only writing but engaging in the community—having similar concepts is not a crime and can be a great way to connect with others. now it just makes me extremely wary and stirs up a lot of unpleasant feelings. I know it’s nice to have two cakes and you’ll all eat it happily but if the other person has used the exact same recipe I’m going to feel a bit shit. hell the other person might feel shit about it too idk 💀 this is poorly articulated ksksks

#obviously it’s clear when it’s actual plagiarism #but some people do and will still use ‘coincidence’ to excuse it #it makes you feel like you’re insane for even considering it #it isn’t that I have no confidence in my writing. I know my writing will be different. I know my cake tastes brilliant on its own #and of course it’s not always nicked. but the fact that the other cake is there at all is going to bother me for eternity #I guess I’m kinda like a hit dog except with fanfic LMAO #btw I’m talking very specific similarities. you and another person both doing the ‘shared a bed’ trope is not what I’m talking about #turning reblogs off because this is mostly a vent and not worded right and I’m sure someone will try come for my neck anyway #please don’t wilfully misunderstand what I’m saying #I know what plagiarism is believe me. as mentioned I am speaking on my own personal and specific experience #however you feel about it and how you handle it is valid and fine

[cryptidkey]

I have to go to school on Wednesday, devastating.

#I can’t do this I am TIRED of school I’ve been on break and I do not want to go back #I’ve finished physics English and bio for this year so hooray #BUT #now I have chem math and social which I do not want to do #And the chem teacher I have DOESNT LET YOU TAKE NOTES #which is stupid #like how are you supposed to do chem without taking notes it’s impossible #I’m going to go insane if I do bad in chem because it’s one of the classes I need for early uni applications in the courses I’m considering

[itspileofgoodthings]

Taylor returning over and over to the falling through the ice accident in the Bolter—everything to me

#like. just. the shock of it all #there’s something about Taylor where her experience of life is so ….. brutal #like I don’t know how else to say it but it just is. life is not easy on her it is always ready to CLOBBER her #and in a way she’s not easy on life. there’s some kind of magnets/opposite poles stuff where she’s just always drawn to the worst things #to feeling them and experiencing them and almost ??? creating them #like I don’t mean to overstate it. and I know she has a family who loves her (thank GOD) #and also she’s very practical and industrious about creating this very Instagram worthy life full of Fine Things and a Fun Time #and of course all the resources in the world at her disposal to create all the trappings of it #whether it’s a celebrity Fourth of July party or the eras tour #and she’ll do it and love it. but as all the best critics know and point out the most fascinating thing about Taylor is always the music #and it’s where all the weirdness and stubbornness and difficulties of her life. her a c t u a l longings her actual fears #her actual terrible awful experiences that she charges headlong down the paths of #is set free! and it’s breathtaking in the most shocking way #like falling through the ice! I always say the first thing that always hits me about a Taylor album is the bitterness #just this blast in the face. and her music is so gentle! in so many ways #and the packaging is so appealing and her voice is so soft and expressive and there is none of that weird experimentation #even musically (remember when she shut down imogen heap for putting a minor chord in clean she was like absolutely not. I’m obsessed) #(with that moment forever) #but like. so much of Taylor’s packaging and life and HER really does SEEM so basic or ordinary or just rich girl ordinary I guess #she likes basic things and wants basic things. but also she is so hungry so restless so angry so wounded the rich internal life is CHURNING #all the time. every second. and it’s spectacular to watch and also I will worry about her until the day I die #or just—-I don’t know. it’s going to be spectacular and it is sometimes going to be awful #but she will keep furiously writing her way through it!! #there IS such a woundedness to her. and it makes me love her so much because it’s packaged in such a way people think it must just be #whining or privilege. but it’s not! it’s just. the human condition and Taylor’s own flaws #okay I’ve lost the plot here a bit in my ramblings but yeah the ice metaphor. insanely perfect

[inkykeiji]

Dabi is here to CHEW ON UR FACE because u are SO CUTE, and he's MAD about it!! (And yes! I live in Canada, the big ol' rectangle 😂😂 easy to draw... hard to spell 🤣🤣)

NOOOOOO HE IS SO CUTE ACTUALLY oh my godddd oh my god oh my god stop it this brought actual tears to my eyes!!! (*ﾉ∀`*) he is absolutely precious i love him so so so much <333 he can chew on my face whenever he wants to (*´ρ｀*)

AH YES!!! okay you are quite far from me i am in ontarioooo

#because *of course* i’m an ontarian #like i feeeeel like that is unsurprising LMAO #but wow!!! omg ur far away!!! #fuckin canada is so big it’s insane #don’t get me started on our housing market vs the amount of fucking SPACE we have #ugh 🙄🙄🙄 #anyway little dabi is sooooo so so incredibly cute <333 #sending him all of my love oh my gosh #and sending u all of my love too!!! #i hope you’re having an awesome thursday and that you have a great weekend!! <33 #as always keep safe out there n stay hydrated <3 #clari gets mail

[isdalinarhot]

Trans sadeas is a hilarious concept for being a guy who did the Super Fucking Transgressive Thing of jumping gender ship in fucking Vorin society (strictly fucking gendered) and then living mostly stealth for 35 years and going Dalinar you’re not a real man because you like killing people slightly less than you used to. With zero self awareness

#luke.txt #LIKE I FEEL LIKE SOMETIMES FANON LOOKS AT HIS QUEERCODED DISNEY VILLAIN SWAG AND GOES oh Sadeas plays with gender somewhat doesn’t he #NOPE HE IS 100% VORIN MAN ITS INSANE HOW MASC HE IS IN UNIVERSE #but of course he’s all about perfectly curating himself and I’m sure if he didn’t have like 13 layers of internalized shit going on #he wouldn’t also be. like. stealing food off Ialai’s plate like she steals food off of his. reading brazenly. shit like that #but alas you can’t give dalinar shit for not being hot anymore I mean not being a Proper Man Anymore #without also never doing any of that shit #drunkposting #sadeas you fucking weirdo #although maybe he’s like Dalinar 🥚? #and the thought of Dalinar as a woman makes him feel Bad for gender reasons because he’s staked so much of his dalinarfucking on being #a man fucking a man. so to have that retroactively untrue is uncomfortable to him #to which I say Sadeas that is a real person get over yourself

[fantasykiri5]

So. Just finished watching Summer Camp Island.

Damn.

Good shit.

#kiri rambles #IT SO FUCKING GOOD #up there with adventure time and Steven universe honestly. tied with those for one of my favorites #I super recommend it. you can find it loads of places honestly #summer camp island #summer camp island season 6 #julia pott #<- should I use that tag? it’s her show I might as well #I think she worked on adventure time as well #anyways yeah it’s great please please please go watch it it’s so great #also I’m insane so of course I have now been thinking of slapping together a hermit/life/empires AU of it because. y’know #soooooo maybe I’ll pop that out at some point. we’ll see #also this is my second time typing this fucking post because I hit post limit RIGHT before making it. mildly annoyed #anyways byeeeeee

[sonic-adventure-3]

important to me that you know squabble rocket jumps

she is always doing stupid stunts that involve excessive amounts of explosives. luckily she's basically incapable of getting hurt worse than a skinned knee or bruise here and there cause she defies the laws of physics. it's a very good thing this is the case otherwise carrion would find ways to murder the inanimate objects she gets hurt on

carrion waits on squabbles every whim gladly and will not make any attempt to stop squabble from doing the dangerous things she wants to, but as long as he’s in the vicinity everything will work out conspicuously perfect

jerryjack thinks squabble is incredibly entertaining and would absolutely never remind her of basic safety precautions. they up the stakes constantly

rig is wholly unaware what's normal for a 12 year old to do so instead of interfering she just offers practical advice like ‘that amount of c4 is unnecessary for what you're trying to blow up. using less will make a better explosion’. despite that, she’s super anal about gun safety (though she does not see any issues with giving squabble a gun in the first place)

#my ocs currently live in the status quo of a slice of life comedy with action elements #the postal trio go around delivering packages and doing hits and having heartwarming misadventures #and jerryjack shows up every now and again to cause trouble and be entertained #they’ve settled into that life for like a year or so #squabble is how she is because she’s plucked straight out of a gag comedy. jury’s out whether she’s aware of the 4th wall or not #but rather than any superpower or godliness she’s powered by like. genre conventions #of course she can pull out a massive rpg from her small bag. or course she wouldn’t be hurt by a 50 foot drop #oc posting #their origin story is an action packed tragomedy #god i’ve gotta post about it i’m insane about them #they kill carrions dad and overthrow the nyafia trying to monopolize assassinations #and cry about their myriad of complexes and betrayals from before they knew each other at all #and laugh about stolen planes and smile about chasing their dreams and love that’ll last this time #among other things #squabble the pigeon #carrion the cat

[val-made-a-mistake]

so do all demon professors just happen to be named todd or

#i have the most insane beef with this man #i have to write a paper due in a week. that’s fine. #EXCEPT THERE’S THIS WHOLE ASS BOOK THAT ISN’T ON THE TEXTBOOK LIST THAT WE HAVE TO READ #in ADDITION to the book we’re already supposed to have read!!! #and then write an 1000+ word paper about it #except every sensible thesis you can think of isn’t allowed because he’s a dick #i thought i was going crazy so i asked around and this dude is just generally a jerk #fuck you todd! #spent most of today crying because idk wtf i’m gonna do #oh yeah he never specified which version of anne of green gables he wanted #there wasn’t any at the campus bookstore so i bought it from a regular bookstore #GUESS WHAT OF COURSE IT’S NOT THE EDITION HE WANTS #i bought my textbooks all the way back in september and THIS is when you decide to say something? #fuck this! fuck you! val out