#which is stupid

[mccromy]

I've seen sometimes people arguing that Shen Yuan as Shen Qingqiu is constantly performing, faking his personality, and therefore Luo Binghe fell for someone who doesn't actually exist.

And fortunately that is wrong.

Shen Qingqiu has to act like an aloof immortal to keep his image, but he hasn't acted anything remotely like og!Shen Qingqiu since the skinner incident. And even with the OOC locks on, he kept losing points for acting OOC.

So, he's not acting as Shen Jiu, he behaves in a way he thinks an immortal cultivator should, which is basically himself but more calm, with Shen Jiu's muscle memory helping him to keep a blank face.

The thing is, that's how most people act. If you're as thin faced as he is, as easily embarrassed you tend to avoid embarrassing situations, refrain yourself from saying embarrassing things, constantly trying to pretend you aren't embarrassed at all.

His internal monologue is different to what he shows, but that's how it works for most people. Put yourself in a situation in which a friend asks you about something you absolutely don't care about, you think inside your head something along the lines of: " I don't caaaare" "I don't give a shit" "THIS AGAIN. WHY. I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE." etc, and depending on your personality you might answer differently. If you're blunt you'd say something like "Couldn't care less", if you're cruel you'd say "Nobody gives a shit" if you're kind you'd consider what they asked and answer even though you don't care, if you're assertive you'd answer and also say something like "please don't ask about it again" and that's without taking into consideration how much you care about said friend, how you behave with this person in particular.

Shen Qingqiu, would say to Shang Qinghua. "I don't give a shit," he feels comfortable enough to be crass and doesn't care much about his opinion of him, to Liu Qingge he'd say something like "Liu-shidi really focuses on the strangest things" doesn't want to hurt his feelings, but feels comfortable enough to hint that he doesn't care about it. To Ning YingYing he'd answer and then change subjects, cares enough to not hurt her but doesn't feel comfortable enough to show he doesn't care about whatever she said. To Luo Binghe, he'd take the time to answer and then add something like "This master really doesn't care about such things" because he doesn't want to hurt Binghe, but he is comfortable enough to confess how he really feels about it, he answers and then kindly informs him about his feelings on the subject.

That's not faking, that's something everybody does.

Shen Qingqiu doesn't lie more than the average person (who has a nightmare AI clinging to their soul) to others, but does constantly lie to himself (even though when you read you can tell he's aware of the truth, but actively convinces himself that it can't be, that that's what a less informed person would think, but not him who knows PIDW like the palm of his hand and therefore knows better etc, etc.) If he obfuscates his real thoughts or feelings, it's not in an attempt to deceive others, but a result of his constant inner gaslighting and paper thin face.

"But he didn't act like that as Peerless Cucumber!" If you behave the same way irl as you do online you need to spend less time online.

Logically, it's impossible to keep a facade 24/7, so it can be argued that Luo Binghe saw him in a more relaxed state, consolidated his love for him when he got to know him while sharing a home for two years. I don't believe that Shen Qingqiu kept his Qingqiusona on at all times, but I do believe he would've been more reserved in front of his disciple. And, as I said before, you behave differently depending on who you're with, and of course never say out loud all the things running inside your head.

I believe that if Shen Yuan transmigrated into some random NPC and not Shen Qingqiu, he would have behaved pretty much the same, but would've been far more easier to read and less formal, although formal enough as according to whatever station he belonged in such a case.

It can also be argued that, after acting for almost a decade as how he believed an immortal should act, it became an actual part of his personality, being aloof and reserved, keeping quiet when in doubt instead of spouting a cutting remark (as I picture he would pre-transmigration).

People do change, they can become louder or quieter, kinder or crueler, less or more confident. Such changes happen according to your choices, choices that become easier and easier to make as time passes, until the choice to be loud or quiet, kind or cruel, becomes your instinctive response.

So no, Shen Qingqiu hasn't put on an act beyond what's normal (trying to appear calm when you aren't, trying to seem unbothered when ashamed) since the skinner arc.

So, does he keep acting like a cold master after he and Luo Binghe got together? No. He doesn't. He's never been cold to Luo Binghe, unless forced by the System or when he was scared out of his mind with fear in Jinlan City. In fact, after they got together Bingqiu acts very much like any other couple would (... When the couple is bingqiu.)

For example, we can see them being playful in the extras, like in the Honeymoon Chronicle:

Shen Qingqiu feels comfortable enough to fool around with Luo Binghe, as long as It's the two of them alone.

Shen Qingqiu is not putting on an act, and hasn't done so since the first year after he transmigrated. This is his real personality. Would he have behaved differently had he not transmigrated? Yes, of course. And had he transmigrated as someone else? Yes, obviously. Our experiences shape us. He would've been different but not unrecognizable. To become drastically different, he'd have to also live through some drastic experiences. But, in the same way you can recognize yourself in the person you were 10, 20, 30 years ago, despite all the glaring differences, despite all the ways you've changed, Shen Qingqiu would've remained the same at his core.

#which is stupid #lmao #jk jk #svsss #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #these are just my humble reasonings #mip #made this on my phone sorry if the screenshot looks like shit if you read this from your laptop lol

[onerudegentleman]

it was

(dont look at me)

#underfell #undertale #underfell oc #sans #fell sans #i think about THEM more than their UT variants #which is STUPID #oc x canon

[daily-ethoslab]

[461] rewatching terrafirmacraft and nothing will ever be funnier then what happened to nuggets #1

#etho #ethoslab #ethos terrafirmacraft #etho fanart #ethoslab fanart #day 461 #man I've been feeling a little dissatisfied with my own art #i kinda like this one tho #this one is fun #i tried using foliage brushes for once #i always avoided them cause I had this weird thing where everything I drew I had to draw myself #which is stupid #i should just let myself do them #idk #I'm still figuring out what I want my art to look like #i like how people add texture and like grunge?? to hair art but I can never make it look right #i try to add noise and stuff but like idk it's not the same effect

[yanderemommabean]

There's a lot that pisses me off about the world of today but one thing that's gotten under my skin is the fact even if you HAVE a dishwasher you're expected to hand wash anyway before putting them in, which just negates the point of a fucking dishwasher

-Mommabean

#mommabean #personal #it's a scam I tell ya #im not talking about scraping the extra bits off #talking straight up just hand washing before putting it in #which is stupid

[burritowitch]

I can't be the only one who thought of this

#diana prince #selina kyle #wonder woman #catwoman #dc pride #pride #like theyre both bi dc #its probably because dc doesnt want any of its SUPER marketable characters to have queer stuff pop up when you look up their names #which is stupid #catwoman is especially important #because shes a bi woman in a mf relationship #which hardly ever gets shown #and she still kisses girls sometimes

[cryptidkey]

I have to go to school on Wednesday, devastating.

#I can’t do this I am TIRED of school I’ve been on break and I do not want to go back #I’ve finished physics English and bio for this year so hooray #BUT #now I have chem math and social which I do not want to do #And the chem teacher I have DOESNT LET YOU TAKE NOTES #which is stupid #like how are you supposed to do chem without taking notes it’s impossible #I’m going to go insane if I do bad in chem because it’s one of the classes I need for early uni applications in the courses I’m considering

[halfelven]

don’t know how to explain but the kind of nightmares i have would make one want to kill oneself

#i’d be cancelleddddddddddd #which is stupid #i don’t want them #txt #personali #cptsd

[chaos-cousins]

Okay he just wanted us to help welcome some new people

Which

Kinda jealous that those guys didn't get the whole "You're an outsider don't expect people to trust you" spiel but I can't be too jealous because it's probably because of us that they don't have to get the spiel

Also he said something about "I am prepared to make harsh decisions in order to protect Jubilife Village" and I swear he was looking directly at me when he said that

#pokeblogging #rotomblr #kinda worrying! #especially since last night he implied the possibility that the lightning thsts frenzying the nobles was caused by us! #because we all came from the space-time rift????? #which is stupid

[demonsteapot]

wow im really fucking needy sometimes holy shit

#this is about wanting to not be alone all the time #WHICH IS STUPID #BECAUSE I CAN'T HANDLE NOT BEING ALONE EITHER #HFHFHGHGHFH #nova rambles

[ashyslashyy]

my phone is at 3% but im listening to mad world and its more important that i finish the song

#i cant have my headphones AND my charger plugged in #which is stupid

[moreespressoformydepresso]

Would you be interested in this theory of Jay being Aladdin’s son? I’m writing it now.

👀

Gotta say that’s a semi-new idea for me. I’ve heard Son Of Jasmine floating around but not son of Aladdin from what I can remember. Yes, I would be very interested in seeing that.

#aladdin #jasmine #descendants jay #descendants #disney descendants #theory #that’s just a theory #anon ask #the Jasmine’s Son theory is solely based on the first letter naming convention as far as I can tell #which is stupid #because Jafar also starts with JA #but I mean I ain’t gonna nitpick what’s clearly just a contrivance for the plot #it’s just that I like more detailed explanations and fully fledged theories

[larjb3]

Hello wonderful followers and non-followers who are seeing this post because someone reblogged it!

I absolutely hate doing this, but when I learned that if I take medical leave from my job it will be unpaid, I started a GoFundMe. The reason behind this is because I was recently diagnosed with Ewing Sarcoma. But what is Ewing Sarcoma, you may ask? Well, it's a rare type of cancer that affects bones and soft tissue, and typically affects children and adolescents (mean age of onset is 15-years-old). Needless to say, I am neither a child nor an adolescent. I am an adult, and have been an adult for several years now.

So what does that mean? Basically that this specific type of cancer was beyond super unexpected to my care team, and that I will need an aggressive form of chemotherapy to treat it.

Now, for those who know me, I have already had cancer and gone through chemotherapy in 2012, starting a month after I graduated high school. It was a different type of cancer, with a better success rate of remission. However, going through chemo then was absolutely terrible. I constantly felt terrible - both physically and emotionally. I noted the toll it was taking not only on me, but on those around me who cared for me.

Unfortunately, this time it's a more aggressive form of cancer, which means a more aggressive treatment regimen.

I'll be honest with you, I am absolutely scared. I'm scared about going through chemo (and possibly radiation) again. I'm scared about how this is going to affect my cats. I'm scared about how this is going to affect those around me who care for me and love me. I'm scared about probably losing my independence again. I'm scared about the probability of having to take unpaid medical leave. I'm scared about how I'm going to make it through this financially. I'm honestly scared that I won't survive.

So what am I asking of you?

I'm asking that you keep me in your wishes (and prayers, if you're religious). I'm asking for a potential donation to help me maintain financial stability throughout this coming year (but super not needed if you can't/don't want to). I'm asking you to reblog and share this post so it may reach more people. I'm asking you to take me seriously just this once, because I rarely ask others for help due to a need for hyper-independence (which I'm working on).

Essentially, what I'm asking from you is hope.

I know this diagnosis is affecting me, probably more than I do actually realize. I know I'm losing weight because the numbers keep going down and someone actually commented on it today; and I'm not intentionally losing weight. Would I like to in the long run? Sure. Do I want to lose weight due to the stress of having yet another diagnosis? Absolutely not. I'm always cold. I'm always on the verge of tears. It's constantly on my mind, even when I'm meeting with clients (I'm a therapist). I worry about how others are coping with this, and how I can help them potentially cope a little better. I'm so worried.

So, if you are able and willing, once again here is my GoFundMe link. The story of how I got to this point in my diagnosis is on there, and if you want more information you are more than welcome to reach out to me.

Even if you are unable to donate, I still want to thank you. Thank you for reading this post. Thank you for spending whatever time you did on this. Thank you for existing.

And because friendofthefellowshipsnerdblog told me to tag them in this post, they are being tagged and (hopefully) will see this.

#larjb3 #chemo #chemotherapy #this sucks #ewing sarcoma #ewings #ewings in adults #oncology #this medical life #medical #go fund me #i hate asking for help #but finances are going to be tight #which is stupid

[metamatar]

what is wrong with canvas i uploaded an assignment last week before the deadline and i can't see it anymore. this shit is not good for my paranoid tendencies im convinced i forgot to submit it now. i last went to school before the pandemic and all this online shit is annoying and badly designed.

#i think when the assignment is locked they hide it for whatever reason #which is stupid #what if i wanted to see it for myself to study

[clare-with-no-i]

someone yell at me to finish this theogony side-along oh my god

#I honestly feel like I can't get the next chapter done without finishing it #which is stupid #also my writing brain is on sabbatical idk what to tell u #actually I do know what to tell u: turns out mild personal turmoil is not in fact a recipe for publishing fanfiction on time #who woulda thunk! #clare shitposts #theogony

[angry-roomba-army]

im crying do y'all think king's dad reproduced through mitosis?????????? this could very well be king's mom

#angry roomba whirrs #i mean‚ SOMEONE had to fertilize that egg #the owl house #the owl house season three #the owl house season 3 #btw im not saying that that IS kings mom like that could be a titan trapper too we haven't ruled out all the possibilities #toh season three #toh season 3 #toh watching and dreaming #the owl house watching and dreaming #watching and dreaming #oh crap i forgot to add context so uh basically some ppl think that this is supposed to be kings dad #which is stupid

[alastairstom]

I am now Experiencing Anxiety

#which is stupid #ive met cassie 3x before #and never was anxious #i guess covid fucked me up