#because it's so goddamn stupid

[fckingflaminghomosexual]

love island in a week??? fuck yeah i love trashy het tv

#no joke i love it so much #love island is hands down one of my favorite shows #because it's so goddamn stupid #last year wasn't giving as much though #so hopefully this year we're back on track #love island #shut up jay

[dotoil]

What are they looking at

#lethal company #lethal company fanart #nutcracker #jester #That nutcracker that I hate #That jester that I hate #Im posting this separately because I think its silly #Stupid goddamn toys #Why are they like that #I have to put them in a jar and witness them fight to the death #I know jester has a design on the yellow circle thing but Im soo lazy #I love going on tangents in tags #So hows everyones day been

[beckyblah]

We don’t talk enough about exile happening directly after Tommy’s brother has a full on mental health crisis and then is murdered by his own father (in Tommy’s eyes). Like yea he was “alone” for two weeks before getting suicidal. But those two weeks were directly after the most traumatizing circumstances you can conceive of lol

#dsmp #man I avoided dsmp discourse because one time dream Stans tried to hack my twitter (lol. lmao.) #but holy shit cDream sympathizers were so goddamn stupid

[senselessalchemist]

Bow problems (+ other nonsense)

#saroart #dead cells #the beheaded #the collector #they just wanted a nice bow #the collector can do a lot of stuff but i don't think he's good at bows #i was drawing a lot of antagonistic beheaded/collector content so i wanted to do some more cute junk #okay a lot is an exaggeration. still #need some guys being buds content sometimes #weird monster guys doing domestic shit is my favorite genre #i got a bonus at holiday time and im tempted to buy a tablet i can use portably #esp because holy fuck i don't know how to draw anymore #but also i just spent stupid money on tickets to live podcasts so i probably shouldn't #unrelated im very upset today because fucking UPS didn't ring my goddamn doorbell and so “”missed me“” and couldnt deliver my specialty meds #why must i get my meds through ups #because the us is a hellscape and i am beholden to my health insurance company #ups who has literally never managed to get a package to this apartment #tbh im stressed as fuck about having to go through this every goddamn month

[gale-force-storm]

I'm really just Feeling Things tonight about the conversation with Gale after Elminster's visit and like. Gale is So Insistent that if Mystra says he needs to blow himself up, then it must be the best option. The only option. And of course he is! Because what's the alternative? If there's another way, any other way, that means either

1. Mystra doesn't care enough to consider whether there might be another option. Gale blowing himself up is the easiest solution, so that's what she goes with. Or, even worse,

2. She does know there's other options, but tells him to sacrifice himself anyways, because it gets rid of two of her problems at once.

Gale doesn't just assume she's right because she's a goddess. He goes along with it because of what it implies about him, and her, and how she sees him if there is another way. He has to believe that this is the only option. Because the alternative? That he's disposable at best and actively unwanted at worst? That's just too much to bear.

#bg3 #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #meta #i'm sure this is nothing that hasn't been said before but like. goddamn i've just been thinking about it and it hurts my soul #and tbh i feel like the fact that everyone else in camp is like 'that's a stupid idea we're not doing that' really drives the point home #even elminster has that line about how 'even the waves of fate can break upon the shores of will' #which is as close as you can reasonably expect him to get to outright agreeing that yeah this is shit and you should look for other options #but at that point gale is the one person who can't imagine that there's another way. can't stomach the thought #because it would mean some things he's really not ready to face yet #i'm like. banging my head against a wall the writing is So Good and it makes me So Sad

[isan0rt]

I'm very tired of hearing the "why doesn't Kingdom Hearts cater to ME, a person who doesn't want to have to care about it. Kingdom Hearts should stop rewarding the people who are deeply emotionally invested in it and should instead care only about Me, Casual Fan who only wants to give a shit every 5-10 years or so, what about MY feelings" argument. Jesus fucking Christ. It's been 22 years. Suck it up and go play a Halo then.

#Christ Almighty #i almost had a physical fight with someone at a convention over this topic TEN ENTIRE YEARS AGO #I could not go ten feet in my Saix cosplay at a convention from like 2009-2019 without encountering like #MULTIPLE smug grinning chucklefucks making comments about the 'side games' all goddamn day everywhere i went #literally came this close to throwing down with the final one at like 10 pm on my way back to my hotel room #(I'm exaggerating about the physical fight thing but my friends did wrestle me off the elevator because i was about to tear that guy- #-absolutely a new asshole about 'haha every game since kh2 was stupid and bad I'm so smart for thinking so' #*) #they're always the SMUGGEST about how smart they are for being 'above' caring about the handheld games #sorry they feature women actually doing things and make you feel stupid but skill issue #God forbid you should have to care about Xion and Aqua and Namine and also use your brain

[sadquickchristmassnowman]

guys WHAT this might be old news but I’m just now realizing why 3x17 basic lupine urology (the detective & boiled yam episode) is called that. “lupine” comes from the latin word “lupus,” which means wolf. “urology” is the study of medicine & physiology regarding the urinary system.

the creator of the tv show law and order (aka the show that inspired this episode) is named dick wolf. dick (urology) wolf (lupine). then they frame it as a course title (obviously) so the solve: basic lupine urology.

WHAT

#I feel so STUPID for not putting this together #please tell me I’m not the last one to realize this because goddamn #they even credit dick wolf at the end of the ep and I just. never realized #that’s such a good joke like who came up with that I need to speak with them #anyway #community #nbc community #community nbc #basic lupine urology #law and order

[bread-tab]

"stop making [media] your whole personality"

ah... okay. yes. so.

first off:

there's this neurodivergent thing, where you use an interest as a filter for processing the world.

for some people that is called a "special interest," for others with different needs it is more of a "hyperfixation;" there are far more variations than i (or the field of psychology) know how to describe now. if you want to understand the difference there are people who can explain those variations better than me. but i can tell you what it feels like.

you discover something.

it doesn't matter what it is; you find something that speaks to you, something you can connect to, and it becomes a bubble of safe habitat from which you can rest from and explore and connect to all the other parts of this strange chaotic world.

a source of joy. a source of illumination.

it's like you're a person who has lived all their life in dark caves and you find something that glows.

these interests can be anything.

(literally anything; i personally derive meanings that you could never imagine from ✨ drainage ditches. ✨)

but very often, they are stories. tv shows, books, movies, comics, songs, podcasts, minecraft improv streams, cartoons, web serials, whatever

these things are:

tangible. you can hold them in your hands, replay them, turn on the subtitles, take screenshots, read the sheet music

and yet

real. they form a genuine connection from your (isolated, untranslatable) internal world to other (formerly unknowable) people and the rest of the universe

they create meaningfulness

and they exist because humans find these incredibly effective soul-deep ways of communicating to one another.

now, appreciating stories, that's not a neurodivergent thing. that's a human thing.

the point of relevance here is that experiencing an extreme love for stories is a neurodivergent thing.

it's a very common neurodivergent trait which often gets mocked, portrayed as childish, and used as a pretext for infantilization and bullying.

(and it is also a trait of young people in general, to take stories very seriously in a way that looks silly to adults, and that is something that many people (regardless of age) try to bully out of each other.

what good is that doing anyone?)

"stop making [x] your whole personality"

listen, you. get down off that goddamn embankment and climb down into this ditch with me. dip your toes in this oily water. watch the stars and city lights ripple into constellations you've never seen

now look me in the eye

you need to understand that no matter what lowbrow, cringey, problematic or otherwise not-to-your-tastes drivel you might be complaining about today,

you are talking about the phenomenon of creativity

you are talking about a transcendent catalyst of human emotion

and yes that includes the overmilked disney franchises, it includes the formulaic shippy fanfictions, it includes whatever brightly-colored cartoon this website is obsessed with this year (and will be having incredibly dramatic meltdowns over next year), it includes the cheesy action movies and the fanservicey anime and the badly-designed video games and the milquetoast tiktok "literature", it includes the indistinguishable scribbles of some random five-year-old and/or famous fine artist and/or precocious elephant

i get it. you care about real life and touching grass and shit. you have taste. just take the stilts off your horse for a second, okay?

i know you're probably sick of "let people like things" discourse

i would just like for you to stop for a second and take a deep breath, and let the stench of whatever is in this mud puddle wash over you (yeah i know, ew, but you'll be fine) and consider

what is so bad about having a cringey personality, anyway?

and maybe you will think better of making "stop making [some silly moment in the universe] your personality" into your personality and maybe you will come off as a little bit less of a snob/ableist/ass and maybe you will have a slightly better outlook on life among humans.

that's all. yeah you can get out of the gutter now. thank you for coming to my ted talk—

ooh wait, look, a bottle cap

#''let people like things'' is not enough #let people find joy in the mundane stupid shit of life goddamn you #rant #*waves hands inarticulately* your sprouts! #protect your sprouts #idk if i'm making sense #i failed literature 101 three times for this #fuck it #maybe this is the semester i go back and pass that goddamn class #long post #actuallyautistic #adhd feels #neurodivergent breadtab #ableism #and that thing i don't know what to call it #where the intellectuals and the anti-intellectuals are fighting and it makes my head hurt because they're both missing part of the picture #and for me that part whatever it is it's foundational #sleep deprived #i have more to say about drainage btw #unfortunately it's more of a ''rotating in my mind'' kind of interest so it might not #make sense #per se #however i could probably get more poetic about this considering the thing I'm rotating in my mind is the sum and substance of how #humanity intersects with the water cycle of the entire earth #in summary: woder

[sharkneto]

any particular thoughts on how number would react to delores?

Do I! Do I!

The long and short of it is that Number would fucking hate Delores. She represents too much about how bad things could have been for him and begs for self reflection, which he is not going to do.

She's an immediate shorthand to show how desperate and insane Five got living alone in the apocalypse, with the added level of that Number is also Five. Number is also confident and comfortable in his identity as aroace - been there, tried it, didn't like it, he's good to go. And now here's this alternate version of himself that not only went so far off the deep end that he made up a person to love, but he then made that fake person his wife.

We know the nuance of Five and Delores (at least through my headcanon - Five was 13 when he landed in the apocalypse and had very limited examples and vocabulary for what adult relationships are and mean to build his Person with), but Number absolutely is not going to sit down and listen. He's out, it's too close and too real and makes how close he was to being Five too much. Delores' introduction to us in the show was a real What The Fuck; her introduction to Number would be a true mindfuck. She's where he's drawing his line for Too Far.

#i don't think i'm overstating when i say number would be repulsed by her #which is so sad for delores #who we all know i adore #but she forces too much self-reflection and he's not gonna do that #and also requries some true empathy for five which we also know he's going to resist #in the situation where delores was also in hit #rob would have had to take him to the side and have a ''you've gotta be more chill about this for five's sake'' #to which number would say ''fuck that what about my sake i could have been a crazy old man with a mannequin wife no thank you'' #“everyone should be a lot less chill about it i'm the correct level of chill which is Not” #for the record and five's side of things #delores would adore number and that would make him so mad #but he made delores to love him and i don't think he could do the mental gymnastics to separate that from any version of himself #as much as he'd like to because his wife should not be so endeared by how goddamn stupid number is #(no he wasn't that stupid at that age not at all for sure she's remembering that wrong) #ask response #hit #number

[scribbling-dragon]

when I inevitably fail my mocks this week/next I don't think my teachers are going to take "was too mentally ill about a minecraft series" as an excuse you know,,

#this is /hj #BUT there is one teacher i am THIS close to cryin at #because he CANNOT TEACH #and ive complained about him TWICE and nothing has been done to fix the problem (the problem is HIM) #and so now im struggling with my goddamn hazards geography aka the biggest damn part of my geo paper #chem and bio are fine. theyre entirely different beasts and organic synthesis is slowly finishing me off #but we're fine. we're rolling with bio. loving oxaloacetate and acetyl CoA and all the damn shit that comes with bioenergetics now #oooh yeah lets call it a proton motive force thats so fun. how about i call you stupid? #yeah lets make things really hard to spell. and what if i killrd you? #/lh #i love bio

[eugeniedanglars]

society if felisa valdez had been brought back as eddie's love interest instead of marisol

#like i'd still be rooting for buddie endgame but god at least felisa is interesting #she has a personality and a backstory and a career and a best friend and. yknow. a goddamn last name #i would have enjoyed having her onscreen and i think her relationship with eddie would have been interesting #both of them dealing with past trauma... eddie navigating the weirdness of dating a celebrity... their fun skeptic/believer dynamic... #if we're still going for a repressed gay eddie storyline then instead of the stupid fucking nun outfit #we could have gotten something like eddie wondering 'i'm dating a woman literally thousands of men dream about dating #so why am i somehow still not attracted to her or in love with her? what am i looking for in a partner if she's not it?' #and tbh felisa seems so sweet and developed such a genuine friendship with eddie in her one episode #that i could honestly see him coming out to her first because that's less scary and less real than coming out to anyone at the 118 #we could have had it alllllll #911 abc #911 lb

[tokyoteddywolf]

Urgh

I'm debating posting The Fic, the fixit for the Teal Mask arc of Pokémon Scarlet/Violet. I've already written a sort of self insert slash fix it for the main game, and I was working on the second part, the Kitakami first part.

See, the problem is the fact that me and the guy who edited/helped/has a main character in the story are... no longer friends, to put it plainly. Ended badly, too, which I regret, but not like there's much I can do about it.

So do I rename the character? Leave it to rot in my docs? Keep everything and finish and post it? I don't know. And I can't exactly ask him. Like I said. We ended it very badly, and I regret it some, but the damage is done with no way to fix it, so we shrug and move on with our lives.

But anyways, my main deal is I don't want to leave my lovely labor of love to stagnate in my Google docs. I want to finish and post it. I want to make the story mine again, since it was my idea in the first place. Regardless of dead rotting friendships still freshly murdered and cooling, burned bridges and all that.

I'm gonna leave a poll then, yall decide what I should do. But I do plan to finish that fic and post it to my AO3 account. Peace.

#poll #writing The Fic #pokemon #i debated it for a while honestly but im still not sure what to do #all i know is i do not want to let something petty ruin something i genuinely loved working on #as much as i loved him and as badly as we left things i still care about him. and that means i still care about the Fic. #i mean i still care. as much as i dont want to my stupid bleeding heart still goddamn cares because i can never let things go. #we may not be friends anymore and i know i said all the wrong things but its not like i can drop it in the garbage like it meant nothing. #i love this fic and i love the characters and i loved writing all of it and i just- leaving it to rot makes my heart hurt #i wanna finish it. so badly. not publishing it is just not an option. i worked so hard on it and maybe- #maybe im just stubborn and sentimental okay? maybe i just want to share the last good thing i have of him. even if he doesnt care anymore. #i highly doubt he'll even see this- probably has me blocked like Jay. no surprise. so ill let the poll decide.

[mymarifae]

my favorite trans girl in the whole wide world isn't she so beautiful and pretty and special i love her dearly and i think prsk fans should explode

#apparently i got so mad earlier that i didn't finish blocking the person in the prsk tag using he pronouns for them #and i just saw it again and i'm so fucking annoyed #how do you see mizuki face blatant transmisogyny on a day to day basis and think it's actually because their fashion sense is too 'weird' #BRO mizuki is primarily bullied at school. where everyone is wearing a goddamn uniform #she's singled out for wearing the girls uniform when she's 'not supposed to' this has nothing to do with their girly kei/lolita fashion #don't 'japan has a cultural problem with individuality and westerners are missing that context' me that is NOT what mizuki's story is about #IN. THE SLIGHTEST. #i don't think i've ever seen a stupider way to purposefully misinterpret transmisogyny. you're Really going to say it's because they- #-have an 'unusual fashion sense.' like. really? because no the fuck they do not and you're being obtuse on purpose at this point #it's a blatant trans narrative. accept it and respect it or die

[bumblingbabooshka]

-Remembers how T’Pring looked as she watched Spock & Chapel vanish into the bathroom together after seeing them kiss on the bridge (which she knew was for a mission and didn’t hold against them but perhaps she could sense something there since they do have feelings for one another), maybe attempting to calm herself and her suspicions as she’s left alone again (and later finds she’s been left out entirely this whole time) and how she doesn’t know that Spock almost told Chapel he loved her then and there, with T’Pring in the other room waiting, and how Amanda and Sevet both think she could have more confidence in herself and how T’Pring thought that she and Spock were in this together (her holding his hand, subtly letting him know to pour slower so the tea flowers would bloom correctly, a whispered ‘well done’, the ritual is over mother) and how mere hours after she expresses to Spock how she feels: Like he doesn’t trust her, like he doesn’t care to include her in his life, how she’s trying her best to show him that she will accept him wholly, how she wants to be his partner instead of an adversary or an obstacle, after all this he’s found Chapel within the hour and is kissing her.-

#I've seen people say 'it's not technically cheating because-' and once you've hit 'technically' in MY opinion it's pretty much cheating #'taking a break' isn't synonymous with being able to kiss/have sex with other people - that's something that needs to be discussed #in my opinion...BUT ALSO. Even STILL. Not even a goddamn DAY went by. #T'PRING!!!!!! SAVE MY GIRL T'PRING!!! #Can you imagine hearing your fiancee who you ostensibly like tell you (very vulnerably - especially for a Vulcan: I didn't mind this bc I #personally assume that Vulcan partners WOULD discuss and talk through feelings though probably with a different goal than humans) #that she feels hurt that you seem to not want to include her in your life and that she feels you should take a break #and then IMMEDIATELY going to find the girl you have a crush on to tell her that you and your fiancee are taking a break and that you feel #bad about it and then IMMEDIATELY after that you're KISSING her?????? #didn't feel TOO bad about it then huh! #Anyway I'm not earnestly like incensed I'm tv angry on T'Pring's behalf - love the drama bc I'm experiencing SNW from a very particular POV #I will only be angry if they make T'Pring into the bad guy somehow (like if the NARRATIVE says this is correct) #also off topic but I personally think star trek has had enough 'Vulcan culture is bad and restrictive' episodes/talking points - Enough. #Find some joy and peace through connection to an alien culture PLEASE. #I get it humans are great humans are so much freer and happier than Vulcans humans rule - Enough. #-turns to camera with a smile- anywaaaay I watched the episode once and I couldn't rewatch it for this post so <3 #if any of this is wrong just chalk it up to bad memory <3 #snw spoilers #idk how long an ep has to be out for that to apply #also just so everyone knows - I /do/ think it's stupid that Spock forgets how to act Vulcan when he turns fully human #but I also just expected it since star trek writers LOVE bioessentialism #I have NO doubt that if Spock turned Klingon he'd suddenly start talking about honor and being rowdy despite those things being #learned and cultural v_v #I SAY ALL THIS...and I DID like the episode! I'm complicated <3 #<- just likes episodes with fun hijinks as their thesis and also T'Pring is there

[running-in-the-dark]

god I'm literally just so stupid. I can't think the way you have to think to write a scientific paper. I can't. I try and I try and it just does not work. I can't do this.

#I just..... if I really end up not getting my degree after nine fucking years jusz because I can't think of A FUCKING TOPIC for my thesis I #might just kill myself #I could do the writing itself! somehow! I could fake that! just pretend! #but I can't do this part. I can't fucking figure out a topic #I don't understand what makes a topic okay. I don't. everything I've read just confuses me more #the book I'm reading has pretty clear definitions. but I can't make anything work with that #I. don't. know. how. #I'm a goddamn fucking idiot im so stupid I really just need to die

[zuble]

the thing about bearded dragons is that when they’re happy and healthy, they are absolutely the most wonderful silliest little beasts you will ever have the pleasure of knowing. you will have them snuggling into you like a kitty cat. getting sweet little kissies from them. just an all around good friend.

but also they are shitty little toddlers who hate being healthy and happy and will develop an infection the very moment the season changes. or will seek out the one single cricket with parasites to gobble up. or will refuse to eat their vegetables with supplements sprinkled on top and develop metabolic bone disease. or will shit directly onto their food.

and none of the veterinarians within a 100 mile radius know anything about herpetology.

#i still don’t know whether to get a cat or another beardie when petrie passes #because i am THE beardie person. i understand them. i know how to properly care for them and give them a good home #but also FUCK it’s like having an actual stupid baby #but they are so goddamn good and cute and sweet #it feels good to take care of them #but they require so much care and attention