#but I just got overwhelmed for no reason

[choolz]

mastered the art of repression so hard I broke down sobbing at home for hours and throwing up after a perfectly good day after my new well paying job with good pay and nice colleagues and a nice wholesome dinner at my parents’ home

#stfu juls #not a joke btw. #nothing even happened. I was just in shock at the state my apartment has become after being stressed and severely depressed and broke down #and the whole past year hit me at once #I was ill and couldnt stomach food all week #ig i now know why lol #wish I was normal fr #only my niece and my dog are keeping me from kms atp #literally nothing today triggered this #it just… happened #I mean. I’m always depressed #I’m kinda taking anti deps for that #but I just got overwhelmed for no reason #it’s a lot of things #I think of what my ex told me after he cheated on me despite dating for 6 years #or well. indirectly told me #by letting everyone we knew know #that I was always hard to love #I’m never getting that out of my head am I lol #ahhhhhh #vent #i’m gonna listen to deftones until I pass out and hope I don’t wake up #and tomorrow I’ll just go to work again and continue the cycle

[dailyloopdeloop]

DAY 17: tasty boiga

#codacheetah #isat #loop isat #tw food #they call me mister weird bad perspective shots. on account of the #look im an american when i realized i had never drawn a burger before i felt a bolt of shame. #also for whatever fucking reason for a solid 3 week span in february i had the overwhelming desire to draw this. loopburger haunted me #and now i have an excuse to make it real #'mr codacheetah sir why is that star person holding that burger so aggressively?' you may ask #idk a burger killed their grandma okay #i didnt really sketch this drawing out i just blacked out and a burger was on my canvas and then there was a loop around the burger #im on ms paint here i aint got layers. this burger is being gripped for burger crimes. thats just the way it is.

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Hate that feeling of desperately wanting a certain food dish but also being just completely devoid of the time/energy needed to actually make the damn thing

#i got super excited to make pesto primavera #bought all the ingredients yesterday when i had energy (thanks mostly to sleeping 12+ hours on friday night) #but now it's cook time and I am just completely deflated #not to mention the idea of dealing with all of the dishes afterwards is x_x #another reason to wish i had someone to spend time with #i could cook and have someone else to do the cleanup #that's the dream #why is everything so overwhelming #this never-ending fatigue sucks #damn you long covid #texts to nobody

[taegularities]

hi hi. uhm small thing regarding cmi. if you're a reader, do lmk what you think please 🤍

#so i got an ask regarding cmi that discouraged the hell out of me #they weren't talking badly about it but kind of comparing me to another author on here and asked me #to postpone my update so they're not overwhelmed with all the reading they'd have to do #i usually don't compare myself with my friends or other writers on here and don't care about posting dates #but that discouraged me more than it should've and i can't get much writing done rn lol #just wanna ask.. if i absolutely had to and didn't finish.. would you guys be okay if i posted cmi8 next weekend instead of this week? #and if i do finish... will y'all be around this saturday? #i'm extremely down for some reason lol but i've been outlining planning changing writing etc this chapter for months now and... #want to make sure you guys are around to read and interact #the community labels are already very bleh so it'd be bleh too if cmi8 didn't get any interaction yk? #in any case.. yeah lmk #and please don't ever compare authors to each other guys :') it no feel good #or ask someone to postpone cos of another writer.. #fic: colour me in

[lavender-radio]

rare ooc post but I've been inactive on pokeblr for a while and i really miss it now so I think ill be posting again, maybe revamping the blog a bit?

but anyway if you're new to pokeblr or even just here from the past few months and are down to interact you should like this so I can find u <3

#pokemon irl #pkmn irl #pokeblogging #just in time for spooky season lol #yeah sorry to everyone that sent me asks that have been sitting in my inbox for #(checks notes) four months #I got really overwhelmed with this blog for no reason #And I realized its not that serious actually #Side note I'm not comfortable interacting w minors i am 18+ ty

[martyrbat]

so many of you talk about the cruel adults in your childhood that negatively effected you and caused lifelong insecurity yet you're still perfectly fine with being that mean stranger to any kid that has the misfortune of existing around you and thats just really gross !!!

#like i get kids can be overwhelming for a various amount of reasons but its not going to kill you to treat children with basic human decency #adults can be just as overwhelming or annoying—if not more. yet if you talked to an another adult the same way you do to a kid #then ppl would fucking hate you and not want to be around you because youre not being cool and witty—youre just mean!!! #everyone has experienced the frustration of being a kid being mistreated by an adult. some more than others #rather its ignoring your bodily autonomy (from sa and assault to hugging you when you don't want to be touched to not letting you #make your own harmless choices like a haircut or whatever). everyone has been talked down to or had their opinion treated like its nothing #or that their thoughts or input doesn't matter. everyone has a childhood experience with a mean or judgemental adult #yet over and over ppl are fine just repeating that cycle of abuse and hatred #like youre a young adult and youre still getting treated like shit by older ones. but youre able to have a drink or you graduated or smthn #so now you feel like you earned that right to be judgemental & angry & mean to a group of people that didnt fucking do anything to you #anyways. this is because im sick and had to go to the store to get groceries and meds #so its a 20 minute walk to the nearest store in 108 degrees bc i dont have gas money and then in the store im ofc using a face mask #like im sweaty and feel disgusting and like shit but this kid was SO fucking excited about his spiderman toy and wanted to talk and #his mom said ‘i told you no one wants to hear about that crap leave her alone’ and like?? no fuck off let a kid be happy?? hes not fucking #doing anything wrong?? so we talked and he showed me the little tiy that lights up and asked if i saw the new spiderverse movie #and i told him i havent! so he asked why so i explained i have photosensitivity and what that means and why i cant see it #(‘even though i heard its super cool!’) and HE WAS SO SWEET... like immediately hid the toy because oh! flashing lights can hurt me! #and then immediately said dont worry because he'll tell me about it so its like i saw it instead! #and like. guys imma be honest with you. i stilm got no fucking idea what this movie's plot is. #but you bet your fucking ass i was pretending like i was following along & was going ‘no way!’ ‘so it's a parallel universe...?’ ‘oh wow!’ #like yea its unnecessary. i felt oike i was gonna collapse and im still struggling to breathe at home now. but also i been the kid #who just wanted to talk about my interests and no one wanted to or was dismissing it. #i know it's not a end of the world deal but i also know that crushing feeling. you gotta be the kindness you want to see in the world yknow #anyways. be nice to kids or im not going to be nice to you. they're one of the most vulnerable members of our society and deserves kindness

[dahldahlbills]

I really need to get serious about personal projects again

#I think I said something like this last year too lol #currently in a weird headspace about it #the biggest reason why I lost focus on them was bc I prioritized engaging in fandom #(something that I never really did when I was focused on publishing a few years back) #so part of me feels like in order to make considerable progress on projects again I need to cut myself off from fandom #and I kinda have been weening myself off a bit from animanga but not really for that reason #it was mostly bc I was getting overwhelmed by how much I was consuming and I wanted to appreciate things fully #I don’t think I’d cut myself off from fandom completely either I’d still try to keep up with stuff #but the idea of not engaging in fandom anymore kinda.. scares me? #idk I feel like a major loser admitting this lol #it just feels like I’d lose a lot of connections with people #and would lose a lot of the love I have for stories if I’m not actively interacting with them :( #and then there’s also that stupid feeling of being a ‘fake fan’ because I’m not dedicating every single second of free time to fandom #which is dumb bc like I have a life and need to make money yknow I got things to do #im just Stressed bc I’m at such a critical stage career wise and im getting closer to 26 so hhhhh healthcare coverage will be up in the air #so I really can’t afford to dawdle #there’s just so much I wanna do and while I’m not necessarily racing to get it done I still want to take advantage of the time I have #but it also sucks feeling like I’m giving up a part of myself to progress on another part of myself #I don’t think any of this makes sense sorry I just needed to dump my thoughts bc I am Terrified™️ #anyway personal projects! gotta get back to those ! #blahblahbills #delete later

[thaliagrayce]

just saw the barbie movie and honestly i can't believe there aren't more posts about Gloria??? like i understand that it was The Barbie Movie and Barbie is the main character and it's About Her, but it's only about her because it's actually deep down about Gloria

#mj talks #barbie 2023 #i don't know i just think that Gloria was the actual heart and center of the movie #a woman felt so out of place in her own life and left behind by the passage of time #that these feelings brought to life and forever changed someone in another dimension #like. Gloria's loneliness is the only reason any of this happened #and her love and kindness and continued grasp on hope is why anything got solved #yes barbie had an incredible transformation and you love to see it! #but can we please talk about Gloria? #the woman who still has enough childlike wonder in her to keep a barbie at her desk #the woman who makes up funny ironic dolls to deal with her own overwhelming emotions #the woman who hears that barbie is real and IMMEDIATELY decides she needs to help her #i loved the moment when she said she was going to help barbie because she wanted to! #because she never gets anything she wants anymore and this is something she wants to do! #YES we are going with barbie to barbieland. NO i am not going to feel ashamed about it. #Gloria shows that we don't have to be ashamed of our interests and our femininity as we age #keep that childlike sense of wonder! hold on to that imagination! #idk i just had a lot of feelings about gloria

[shalegas34]

just got a prescription for drugs i had to sign for at the pharmacy. lets fucking go

#i had my specialist appointment today and i was DREADING it. everything was going wrong #the bus didn’t come. i didn’t have food. the doc was running an hour behind #by the time i got there i was half starved having a mild anxiety attack #but then she pulled out my ultrasound results and it showed fucking adenomyosis which means i likely have endometriosis too #let me tell you boys i almost started crying in there #after years of doctors telling me to suck it up & stop being a pussy i have actual proof that i’m not just being a pussy. CRYING #also the specialist told me my gp put me on estrogen for no reason (what i needed was progesterone) and i was so mad bc #that shit gave me feminising features i did not want and which are now irreversible #aside from not actually solving the problem… #anyway i’ve now got paperwork for surgery and different kind of progesterone pill plus the insane ass painkillers i had to sign for #i’m very happy with how that went. we are winning today boys #i feel bad for her bc i was so overwhelmed when she was flinging info at my starved brain at the speed of light #i kinda just shut down & was acting like a corpse in there. i must’ve looked really rude lol #it took me the hour’s walk back into town (was not taking the bus again 😂) to process everything #life

[kyouka-supremacy]

Not to say one can't consume media they don't 100% agree with (I do the same so like), but you talk a lot about how the core views of TPN vs BSD change your entire way of enjoying these two, and I was wondering what drew you in into BSD if there are so many aspects of it you disagree with?

(Not meant as an attack or as a questioning of you enjoying it, I always am interested in your analysis so this is just out of curiosity, and also I am planning to pick up TPN again sometime this year)

#I've probably already mentioned it somewhere but this was the exact picture that made me start liking sskk wwwwww #And by extension made me stick around bsd #That said do I really talk a lot about t/pn???? To think I was doing my best to keep it at minimum‚ sorry‚ I sincerely didn't realize 😭😭😭 #In the end sskk is just a ship I particularly enjoy consuming (and producing I guess) content of in this particular period of my life- #about that I know for sure I would definitely have hated the pairing when I was 14-18 ahah. #And tbh I hope next I'll hyperfixate on healthier ships #But I just. at this time of my life I find the idea of someone loving you despite you not being a good person strangely comforting. #The idea that even the most evil of people can be loved is oddly reassuring #Besides I like the fandom! I mean‚ in the perfect world at this point I would still be in the p/p fandom... But my p/p hyperfixation ended– #up burning out sooner than how it would have done organically because the fandom was nearly non existent and the canon content was– #untranslated and extremely difficult to access. With bsd the monthly chapters release is ideal in the way it’s both a constant influx of– #new content without it being overwhelming. And it's enjoyable to be part of an active fanbase! #I like receiving asks. And celebrating character birthdays together. #sskk #people asks me stuff #That being said please read t/pn if you can!!!! It's really a fabulous story with incredibly insightful themes. #But also remember not to watch the anime since it's not a good adaptation!!!!!!! #As for the physical reason why I got into bsd: it was to impress a girl. duh

[knife-dad]

Having Bo-Katan replace Cara Dune as Din's new bestie would be so so good but I am more than a little concerned that the actual end goal is a romance. I don't want to see that :/

These concerns are happily assuaged by the presence of mythosaurs. Hell yeah man let's see some space dragons!

I am also delighted by the fact that he really got his baptism in full armor. Idk what else anyone expected, after all taking it off was what got him in trouble in the first place...

Also will Bo-Katan have to be like, his witness or notary or something? How was he planning to prove that he did it for reals (i mean we know he's not a liar, but i'm assuming the armorer will want proof. Right?) Is there like a legal document. That's the real question

#the mandalorian #star wars #the mandalorian spoilers #for the record i dont think he just like. sank like a rock for no reason (although that would be funny) #i think the next episode will have answers. maybe it was the force. he got overwhelmed by the space holy spirit or something idk

[izzy-b-hands]

There's a man vomiting loudly outside (potentially in our parking lot, but I'm deeply in an overstimulated autism thing rn and i simply cannot be arsed to get up and check)

I would normally, but there's already a man out there interrogating him and like. I'm sure he's well-intentioned, but I lost my shit at his opener of 'Hey buddy, you having a good day?'

He's being violently sick in public; i think you can assume he's not enjoying this day.

#text post #im hitting the shower in a few minutes then after letting myself have an edible (held off all day for various reasons) #then i wanna get as close to wizard high as possible and disappear into Minecraft with Housemate for the night lmao #don't get me wrong today was actually very productive for me #resumes sent out decent amt of prolific done a new fic started and some drafts worked on #plus dishes done #but like. idk. my brain is very fast and angry and tired and i don't wanna be in this headspace #and i think i just overwhelmed myself with stuff a tiny bit today bc like. i know when im at the edge of it sometimes #but it's too easy to force myself past it in the name of productivity then deal with the fallout after #as i type this i realise i also need to clean the downstairs bathroom fan and forgor #but!! i forgot to mention i was able to get a belated bday gift out to my mum! got it ordered to b shipped to her at least lol #v glad I got that done #tw emetophobia #anyway i feel terrible for this guy and hope by the time i leave the shower he's doing better

[ereh-emanresu-tresni]

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#oh fun. amazing incredible. just what i need #day immediately after finding out I urgently owe thousands i don't have #i get jolted awake by like a billion per minute pulse borderline convulsive fit and a feeling that i got hit in the gut w a rusty sledge #i cannot fucking deal with needing to go to the dr w no insurance rn either ughhhH someone please just take me out back and shoot me instead #it was an ok run but this is too overwhelming from so n many directions rn #I'm really glad I'm seeing family in a few days tbh ik it's part of the reason I'm in this situation lol but it's a needed break

[maryibgarry102]

This is a "complain into the void about being annoyed" post so feel free to ignore lol

ok like i get being mad about the a/c not being fixed as fast as you'd like and the various other legitimate maintenance problems ppl have been dealing with when they shouldn't have to be. but pls don't get mad at the maintenance workers not being able to give you a timeline for a fix because of the ADMIN not having tracking info for a part they need for your a/c repair as if they were the ones who manufactured the part and handle it's transport like babe not only do the guys who come in to do your work likely not handle this shit themselves separate from the admin, but the housing org and the a/c part ppl are seperate businesses, ran by people with limited time/resources/staff and high demand like. The ppl could literally just not have stuff to tell you because THEY weren't given a way to track it themselves by the a/c part seller? You don't always get tracking info, like when a teacher i know had issues with getting a part shipped for an oven issue they were fixing or with some international orders. Did ya think that maybe they aren't purposefully trying to slight you in any way but are just ppl with limited info and resources who ALSO would rather just fix your issue and be done with it like? Be mad about the high cost of living with an administration that isn't as efficient as it should be considering the scope of their work and the high demand, be mad with issues like your a/c or water not working properly considering the price you pay for maintenance and the space itself, but don't get mad at the repair workers for issues outside of their control or make a fuss because of a "problem" that really is just how life goes sometimes, instead of acting like it was meant to be a personal slight just cause it's not the most convenient or what you wanted

#i'm mad over stupid stuff #because most of these complaints are legitimate #but i hate ppl complaining about dumb shit when there's plenty of reasonable things to be upset about #i just feel like sympathetic to the repair staff who is overwhelmed with a ton of maintenance requests and poor admin #like they can't be happy with the state of the college repair admin either so i don't get why students act like they're equally at fault #or straight up blame them for issues that aren't in their control #like if a worker tells you they don't know a timeline for fixing the a/c because they need to wait for a part to ship and that can take time #THEY PROBS MEAN IT BABE. #idk it's like the same ppl who yell for respecting workers will also be so critical of workers for shit that ain't even their fault #and over something like not having a timeline due to shipping. SHIPPING. which could have so many variables #like if it's an international order that shit could in fact take weeks or have wonky tracking info just cause it's like that #idk man #i love how i'm literally just mad bc this one person got annoyed over one dumb thing even though everything else was reasonable #rose's notes #rose's vents

[thaliagrayce]

can i have number nine for jasico, please?

#9: "are you crying?" i hope you like this!! send me a number or drop a prompt in my ask box for a jasico drabble!

Jason hadn’t seen Nico all day. He’d been busy for most of it, but it was still a little weird to not run into him—not when he knew for a fact that both of them were at camp. Usually, he found a little pocket of time to go see Nico, or Nico would find him while he was doing Important Pontifex Business, and they would be able to at least see each other.

Not today, though. He didn’t like it.

The Hades cabin was quiet, but that didn’t necessarily mean much. Nico could be sitting at his desk and drawing, or laying on the floor looking over his old Mythomagic cards, or using his fancy noise-canceling headphones listen to whatever super underground trust-me-Jason-they’re-really-good band he had found this week. He knocked at the door, half expecting not to get an answer.

“Jason?” The voice was clearly Nico’s, but it was soft and a little wobbly. “You can come in.”

Heart in his throat, Jason eased the door open. Nico was sitting on the bed by the window, arms crossed on the sill. Jason shut the door behind him and walked as gently as he could.

“Hey,” he called out once he got there. He rested a hand around the nape of Nico’s neck, half for his own comfort and half for his boyfriend’s.

“Hey yourself,” Nico mumbled. There again—his voice was wobbly. If that wasn’t enough, he sniffled and brought a hand up to wipe at his face.

Jason sat down next to him, hand sliding from the back of Nico’s neck around his shoulder. He shifted closer, and Nico leaned into him.

“Sweetheart, what’s wrong? Are you crying?”

Nico huffed and turned to hide his face into Jason’s shoulder. “No, I’m not. Shut up. It’s super dumb.”

Jason rubbed Nico’s back, bewildered. Nico didn’t sound upset, other than the fact that he had very clearly just been crying. He cast around for something that might have set this off. It wasn’t an anniversary of anything, as far as he was aware. There were no upsetting letters or photographs out. All he could see on the windowsill was the pink plastic glittery skull Piper had gotten Nico for his last birthday, the pile of borrowed hair ties Nico forgot to return, and the potted mint plant Nico had gotten a week and a half ago. Same as always.

Only… Jason squinted at the plant. Something was different. It looked a little taller, maybe. There was a teeny leaf at the top that hadn’t been there last time he looked, he was pretty sure.

“Nico… is this about the mint?”

Nico sniffed again, not bringing his face out of its cozy hiding spot. “It’s just… It’s not dead yet.” He could feel Nico trying to subtly wipe his face on Jason’s t-shirt. “I’ve been looking after it for almost two weeks and it’s still alive.”

The little ball of tension in Jason relaxed and he pulled Nico into a hug, smiling into his hair. “You dork. You absolute goober.”

“Hey,” Nico protested.

“Nope, I’m right. You’re crying because your plant grew a new leaf.” He pressed a kiss to the top of Nico’s head. “That’s goober behavior.”

Nico snorted and finally raised his head from Jason’s shoulder. Sure enough, his eyes were red, but he was smiling. He pushed at Jason’s chest, but there was no force behind it. “This is the longest I’ve been able to keep something alive, cut me some slack.”

Jason leaned forward, getting comfortable in Nico’s space. “I’m happy for you.” He kissed his forehead. “Also, you’re adorable. How do you feel about getting a spider plant?”

#mj talks #my writing #jasico #prompt game #i keep forgetting to tag that one. oh well! #i knew i wanted to get silly with the crying because i am allergic to angst and serious situations so. #i had my roommate help me come up with a list of reasons why they might be crying #highlights include: #they were watching the first five minutes of Star Trek (2009) #they got overwhelmed by how much of a good parent Uncle Iroh is #saw a video of a cheetah with an emotional support dog #nico made a new friend and jason was just. he was so proud #anyway hope you liked it!! feel free to send more in :)

[abysslll]

sometimes i realize that i have an entire life ahead of me to live and countless experiences and sunrises and i haven't felt as happy as i will ever feel yet and just. :]

#for some reason im feeling really hopeful today ?? #just like. Wow. just a little longer and i'm out of my parents house #and after that. i've got Life. i can do anything. it'll be overwhelming but it'll be amazing