#but like. i've been here for six months

[chaoticbooklesbian]

So, I got the permanent job I've been doing as a temp for six months, and in a fun twist of events, they're making me attend a virtual orientation. For a job I've already been doing for six months.

#pedanticblah #at least i actually have the job #but like. i've been here for six months #is this really necessary

[keymintt]

assorted honeybee things

#art #drawing #ocs #honeybee #digital #grimm #yarrow #my art #doodles #i think everything here is at least a month old and some of it is at least six months old i've been hoarding it hdgklfdhgl #as you can probably tell my the mermay yarrow. that i did in like. june #i have a few more unposted things but they're like. suggestive and i'm NERVOUS abt posting that #i do think abt making an 18+ bsky on occasion. we'll see #i KNOW i could do it on twt but twt is like. Too public. my brother is on there. he doesn't need to see that.

[starrystevie]

au where eddie is a classic motorcycle guy. he started with a hand-me-down harley, learned how to fix up choppers and opened his own shop once he had enough saved up. he has a disdain for the newer bikes, the loud sport bikes that zip through traffic like they don't have to follow the rules, the riders in blacked out visors and trendy racing suits that try to race him when they both get stopped at a light. they unnerve him, annoy him, get under his skin and have him rolling his eyes because they can't appreciate the classics.

steve is a sport bike guy. he's a proud suzuki owner with a dark blue suit to match his bike, likes to speed around the corners of the backroads no one goes on and feel the adrenaline coarse through his veins when he hits speeds he probably shouldn't. he knows it isn't a classic bike, knows that most bike shops don't take him and his fancy non-american made bike seriously. he expects shops to turn up their nose at him when he needs things fixed.

but then steve stumbles in eddie's shop. his accelerator is starting to stick and it's scaring even him, so he takes it to the first shop he can find when he's out for a drive in a podunk town and hopes they'll take him. and eddie turns up his nose and almost kicks him out until he takes the pretty bike guy's eyes into account, lets his own eyes trail over the way his dark blue suit clings to all the right places. matches pretty bike guy's smirk with one of his own and invites him into the office while his guys work on his bike.

eddie decides after, when steve's back on the road after a race around the backroads and more than a few purpling bruises on his neck, that he doesn't hate all the people who drive sport bikes, especially when they can kiss as well as steve can.

#do i know anything about bikes? no #do i want sexy motorcycle eddie and sexy sport bike steve to make out in eddie's office and then go for a race after? yes #like just imagine it! wind in their hair! laughter bouncing through the trees! fucking in a field when they decide they're tired of racing! #also i've been sucked into six of crows/wesper brain rot and am trying to get back into steddie brain rot #and work has been just the worst for the last month #so sorry for being incredibly inactive and only coming on here in spurts #steddie #steddie au #steddie headcanon #my writing #steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie drabble #steddie ficlet

[the-deadlock-south]

good morning yeehan community

#overwatch #overwatch 2 #cole cassidy #yeehan #art tag #im lying it's like six o'clock it's well in the evening now #also i finally drew OW2 cass :) idk if ill ever get used to everyone getting thicker beards but ig i have four months until OW2's launch so #BUT ANYWAY i've been MIA from the internet and i'm only just now learning there are charms in OW2??? and cass gets hanzo's lil bottle??? #OW really gotta step it up after the #wait who were the gays that got confirmed recently #yeah them anyway OW really better step it up after THEM this aint enough but i guess its a start #this shit been going on for six years if yall dont just jump right into the bush and stop tiptoeing around it im losing my mind #i was gonna draw a mini comic of cass just being a dork and hanzo being Himself but i have a pounding headache #plus i really havent been in the drawing mood as of late however i felt a responsibility to at least doodle something with this #anyway hanzo thinks its stupid and says so In Hanzo Fashion but cass knows better #hanzo's always had a funny way of saying he loves something Is What Cass Is Telling Himself #there's a junkenstein joke here #idk theres a lot of potential with this dinky little charm but Again. Head Hurts #also hence the very sketchy and I Dont Give A Shit RN nature of this scribble #so forgive me everyone i can only give something subpar #i hope someone does better than me #but for now im gonna go lay down or something- maybe have dinner #my head's REALLY killing me

[gillianthecat]

Thought my physics lab was two days late and I had only three hours left to get it in at all, but it turns out that there was no lab this week at all.

Hallelujah 🙌

I fucked up absolutely everything else last week but at least I accidentally didn't fuck that up.

#gillianthecat goes back to school #my life with adhd #instead of doing hw cleaning my apartment or seeing people i want to see #i've been reading terrible romance novels that i've hated. decent romance novels i still kinda hated. watched lots of figure skating. #that i often enjoyed. decided to find every bolero skating program in existence to see which of any of them worked #(there's about five or six imo. feel free to ask more) #started to watch the entire pairs event from the 2022 olympics to figure out my feelings about pairs #uhh. slept and woke in strange overlong cycles. #got a migraine and slept for like two days #watched His (the series) and two thirds of His (the movie) which were my first bl in over a month. i think. #gave random people on reddit recommendations for kdramas and bls. #and #bookended it all with two live dance performances that were both transcendent #and which i would love to talk about on here if it didn't make it too easy to figure out what part of the world i live in

[coffeeghoulie]

I'm traveling next weekend, and I'm going to be on a train for a total of twelve hours, so if anyone wants just about anything written, feel free to shoot me an ask

#i have a couple fic requests that'll be posted this week #but i do not want to be sitting on my phone for six hours at a time so please send in ideas if you'd like #(i'm going to an out of state concert) #(i've been looking forward to this for seven months and it's almost here and i'm freaking out)

[mrs-kelly]

Even as hard as I've fallen for Charlie, I feel like there are so many more levels deep I can fall for him. I feel like there's so much time and so much more, waiting. It's like... scary, but exciting ajfklds

#the depth of love i feel for him is so much more than i've ever known #and knowing that it goes even deeper than that... i just can't imagine how that will feel #it's been such a short amount of time and he's already changed everything #i dont even know what itll be like once we've been together six months. a year. longer than that #but all i know is that i will love him even more. even if that doesnt feel possible i know i'll love him even more #he's just. he's a part of my soul now #he's a part of who i am #ren speaks #renlie #im gushing out here folks

[withleeknow]

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#(ignore please) #(or don't idk idrc i just wanted to ramble lol) #man. i feel like a blank canvas here #and it's been so refreshing tbh #i loved the other place and it did make me so happy but it's also been sullied by so much bullshit in the past six months #not all of it is even stuff that i experienced directly on the blog #most interactions i come across just seem so insincere and idk the vibes are so off #like damn. maybe it did become a popularity contest and *coughs* an ass kissing circle #://// #this is definitely bc my 2-year blogiversary is coming up and i'm reflecting lol #if you follow me on both blogs then you've probably noticed that i've been a lot more... idk comfortable here? #i'm still blissfully unaware of a lot of things here and i would like to keep it that way lmao #damn the most disappointing part over there is still the boatload of moots i thought were cool who just ended up jumping on their- #high horses the first chance they got lol. made vague posts that didn't even really say anything but other people just latched onto the- #buzzwords and clapped along like possessed sheep lmao #smh i miss tumblr back in 2022 #tldr: jen is emo about the blogiversary #jen also kinda hates a lot of people over there lmao #jen rambles

[madamescarlette]

You ever have to be like, "no babe you're not bone-breakingly heart-rendingly sad, you just had less than five hours of sleep"? Yeah.

#lack of light november really doing a number on me this year! #this is not a worry-for-me post btw. it's like that comic of the raccoon advising you to shower to eat or to sleep when upset #it's my last full week of being a student going about doing student activities and i keep doing things going what if that's the LAST time?? #which i've been actively trying to avoid doing because when i left my old school i overdid it and i was actively mourning leaving my place #there for the last six months like someone constantly picking at a wound #and while it was the most beautiful time of my life and it might always be i really regret having spent so much #of my final moments there being sorry that it was final because i just grieved it! twice! #i grieved it afterwards and i grieved it beforehand and i kind of wasted my precious time grieving it beforehand #so this time i've been TRYING to practice restraint and not spend my time brooding and just be here instead! #and not say goodbye to every doorway and every leaf and every brick in the pathway until i'm actually saying goodbye #but it suddenly burst into proper fiery colors on all our foliage over the break and i came back and suddenly it was ablaze #with perfect color and i'm walking around this week with my hand on my heart going oh!!! i love you so much #thank you for sending me off like this!!! i loved being here with you!! #so. tis hard not to mourn. but till then there are papers to write and chapters to be read and then girl has to scurry #and write her daily poem before sleep #so it will be alright it will be alright <3 this i believe! #i may delete these tags later because they might be overshare-y or too despondent and not need to be said #but i figure where else can i pour out my heart into a lovingly enfolding void like this <3 #happy Tuesday tumblr i love you all dearly! #thank you for all your tags today btw I will come back and reply to them tomorrow when i'm a bit clearer-minded #thinking out loud

[no-i-cant-decide]

Just wanted to give y'all a heads-up so you won't wonder if I've disappeared but I'm not gonna be on here much for the next few weeks (probably mid-January) so I thought I'd wish you all happy holidays and all the best for 2024 ❤️

#december has been a shit month for my mental health tbh #and i've not been able to bring myself to watch ee since the dean recording linda's 'confession' episode #i'm kinda bummed because of all the six hype but i have like 5+ weeks i have to catch up on and i'm really not feeling it now #anyway i still have notifs for DMs on but i've blocked a bunch of ee tags and am gonna stay off here for the most part just in case #i am taking a 2 week vacation to visit some friends out of state over new years so looking forward to that :) #and i'll probably only be posting if i finish any of my wips over the next couple weeks #enough yammering on from me haha #love you guys 💜

[aceredshirt13]

Chapters: 1/1

Fandom: 大逆転裁判 | Dai Gyakuten Saiban | The Great Ace Attorney Chronicles (Video Games)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences 

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings 

Relationships: Benjamin Dobinbough | Albert Harebrayne/Barok van Zieks

Characters: Barok van Zieks, Benjamin Dobinbough | Albert Harebrayne, Original Male Character(s), Naruhodou Ryuunosuke 

Additional Tags: the original character is a prison guard, he's also in my OTHER benbaro fic about prison!, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Bad Ending, because if Capcom won’t write case-specific bad endings then I will, prison break - Freeform, is that a tag???, Despair, no it's still not danganronpa-flavored, Guilt, this didn’t start out as explicitly romantic but just became gay naturally, i blame capcom for making them so in love, punishing himself is one of Barok’s greatest skills, it’s my birthday today (this is a lie. it was last week. I am so late for this prompt.), so i get to post (checks notes) an incredibly sad AU of my favorite ship 

Summary:

Ryunosuke did his best to defend Albert, but ultimately lost the trial. This is the aftermath.

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For Benbaro Week, Day 5: Prison/Night

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boy i love bad endings

#red writing #ace attorney #the great ace attorney #benbaroweek2023 #barok van zieks #albert harebrayne #ryunosuke naruhodo #benbaro #y'all said benbaro week was still taking submissions up to a week late right? right??? #anyway here's this. i truly meant to finish it on the tenth but i got distracted and tired #i've been working on this for literal months. maybe it's been six months now. and it's finally done #i hope you like it #if it can make you even slightly as sad as it made me to write then i have succeeded #sorry i keep putting my favorite men through it #the great ace attorney spoilers

[kangaracha]

wouldn't expect a lot of queenmaker until ~christmas time, which is not what i would like to say but my body is just telling me to ease up after november and i'm hitting that pre-holiday slump so we're just chillin. we're playing a game for the first time in six months. we're doing a puzzle. my eyes are really blurry rn so i think i'll go to bed.

#i did manage to sit down and do a lot of planning for queenmaker specifically though #had a good chat with zom mom about pacing and stuff #i say 'ease up' like i haven't added more projects/tasks to the list #i've just half started looking at planning and editing rather than writing like crazy #picked up daily korean practice again #added my novel back to my wip list #we're now working on the basis of 'every time i hate my job and i want a new career i write 1k of my novel' #whatever works #this is a lot of tags for someone with very blurry eyes #the game thing actually doesn't help with physical illness my tv is too small and it just makes my eyes strain really hard #one day someone is going to give me the gs i'm owed and i'll get to buy a new one #technically i saved for a new tv six months ago my savings are just tied up in an offshore account called Someone Else's Pockets #these tags have gotten way out of hand #i just wanted to talk about my life idk #been too busy to talk to my friends about life? post it in the tumblr tags #anyway i'm sure z m or keeps or someone is all the way down here #Roundup! #queenmaker has like 16 chapters plotted #none of chapter 5 written but i'm definitely. looking at starting it. #nevermore i wrote 500 words #haven't looked at it in a week #know exactly where it goes so if i'm not stuck i'm circling back within a month #pirates is ongoing most nights #however i don't know what the scene by scene play is so #very much Just Vibing i added what i will call the cake scene today because i was emotional about an uneaten piece of cake from a month ago #so that's where pirates and my mental health are at #damn this is a full life update huh #systems check #heart (the novel) is truly at 100k now #i figured out the holes in the first part of it so i can actually connect all these dots now

[miodiodavinci]

you ever end up typing a rant in the tags so long tumblr physically cuts you off and the post publishes with probably only 1/3rd of the tags

#had an interaction with The Leech™ and it left me feeling so frustrated and upset #tl;dr: i wanted to record today but she showed up and started talking so loudly my mic could pick her up through my bedroom door #and it hit me that it's fucked up that she's somehow just allowed to come and go as she pleases #(and is actively entertaining the thought of moving back in for a minimum of 2 months if she gets the surgery she's looking for) #(2 months to 2 years according to her words) #(despite the fact that she was literally evicted nearly a year ago) #(after 7+ years of sleeping on our couch and making our lives hell and generally dodging any attempt to get her to get a life and move out) #anyway after about 20 minutes of chatter i heard her go outside #find the plant i bought and planted myself this last week #(the first one i've ever had ! ! ! ) #(every other plant i've ever cared for has either been my grandmother's or a gift from someone else) #(most notably the two peace lilies from my dad's memorial service) #and dump. an entire bucket of water on it. left over from soaking her orchids she insists on keeping here. #spoilers: it's a desert plant that requires low moisture and well-drained soil #so i went out and got on her about that and she insisted she was just trying to help #(like how she was '''just trying to help''' when she nearly drowned both of the aforementioned lilies) #(because she literally kept putting in water until there was noting but standing water without soil in the pot) #and for a half hour after kept coming in to bother me about the plant #asking where i bought it and if she could have clippings and asking if i had the right soil or the right tools #and reminding me of how i tried to grow pumpkin seeds when i was six and they died #and INSISTING she knew more about caring for it despite the fact that i literally researched this plant for a solid week before #and jsu t #another instance of The Leech™ trying to jam herself into my life so she can claim she's a provider and i'm helpless without her #but also turn around and complain about how it's sooo hard caring for us and how it's //impossible// for her to get a life #if she's busy caring for us #fuck off and die actually

[lesamis]

probably the funniest part of academia is when you can slap clever-sounding words together put them through a search engine and learn that yes the thing you just invented is indeed a Highly Developed Concept already. like i've been researching intersections of emotion, literature & imperial legitimacy in romantic era britain for a while (thrilling stuff i know, riveting) and since i have a broad scope but a small brain one thing i do is make these giant mind maps. like just to visualize to myself how the prevalence of a Theme in literature (say, contagion, corruption, historicity) could allow us to draw conclusions about cultural moods (how's britain feeling? maybe a little anxious w all this talk about apocalypses and decline?) that could influence parliamentary debates. so NOW, half a year into making mind maps to explain my own thought processes to myself so i can draft better chapters, i was finally like "wait why don't i put these mind maps into the chapters themselves. as illustrations. and why don't i make them part of my methodology if i'm putting so much work into them anyway. hm but what could i call that method. maybe affective mapping. oh that's buzzwordy. i wonder if that exists" and wouldn't u know

lessons to be taken away from this: 1. if it has "affect" and "-ing" in it it probably exists as an academic method 2. this institute developed a fully free to use and v minimalist and intuitive mapping software you can use for your research or your fic outline or for whatever so check it out if you're into mind maps ig?

#intense niche posting and i know no one's here for this content but i've literally never been this thrilled to trip over sth #like this post is a self-own btw. just to clarify. i am stupid. #at NO POINT in these six months of making mind maps did it occur to me to put two fucking buzzwords into google #and yknow. academize the thing i do in an academic context for the purpose of an academic dissertation. #anyway #got a good alternative to commercial mapping options out of it at least jhfdsfg

[i-am-become-a-name]

What's your interpretation of the weird/annoyed look Five gets on his face when Tegan announces that she wants to rejoin the TARDIS at the end of Arc of Infinity? I know it was probably meant to be played for laughs, but it annoys me every time i watch that episode and i'm curious what headcanons people have about it.

My favourite thing I've read about it pointed out that the cybermen specifically used Tegan as a weakness against five, that she's what it took to manipulate him (and through no fault of either of them, Adric's death was part of those consequences.) The novelisation really goes in to the descriptions of the doctor transfixed with the blood running down Tegan's chin from her bitten lip, the building tension as the cybermen get closer and closer to killing her and he's shaking trying to hold himself back from admitting his hearts are so easy to twist, just by threatening his friends. (Does Nyssa ever leave the TARDIS when it's on the spaceship? The cybermen don't even know she exists til they come onboard do they?)

As for why he looks so annoyed? hmmm. Does anyone want someone around that constantly needles them? Really, I think pre Arc of Infinity that even though Tegan had chosen to stay, they still had that power imbalance or even just tension between them that she had not come on board willingly. So five is expecting that to be the continuing, I don't know, continuing manner between them and it hadn't been good. It had its moments (mainly in the audios) but as an arrangement it was not ideal as friends to explore the universe together, all that terrible beauty and awesome monsters.

But it doesn't continue on in that manner - oh they bicker and make faces at each other, sure, but Tegan's conscious decision to step back onto the TARDIS irons out those imbalances, removes that bitterness and the past of her aunt's death. So when he makes that wee face, it's in expectation of the previous status quo. And never let it be said that Tegan's one to do exactly what's expected of her.

Anyway I really hope this makes sense and I may add some more thoughts later but it's 1:50 am Christmas Eve and I couldn't sleep for thinking about this.

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It's 2am I'm back. I feel like there's also this uneasiness in five about tegan, that mirror that no one likes being held up to themselves. Their similarities but the starkly different ways they express them must be exhausting to five. and here she is back again. To push and prod and challenge and be brashly beautifully glorious. wait. that last bit was the two am shipper coming out. Anyway they draw strength and resolve and anger from each other and Tegan was vital to five, from his first moments till his very last.

#again sorry if it's not coherent but it's been a WEEK. and it's still going. #look away if you're not interested because whatever it's my boring life stuff but. worked sunday and tuesday. thursday my boss texted me #did i want to go up to the next largest city flights and accomodation paid and worked for two weeks at their branch of our shop. #(i said no thank you but holy sht.) and that whole day we'd been taking the house apart looking for dads santa outfit for reading #night before christmas to the kids. utterly gone. nowhere to be found. sister said she had one so we were like oof we can relax it's fine. #sister did not in fact have one. so we took the house apart again. still not here. friday i went out and bought the fabric and fur to Make #one (six straight hours work on the jacket alone) and the kids come up to decorate their trees. #oh! and! when i went in to work to buy the fur (i can only purchase stuff of managers it's store policy) she was like. you can't leave the #shop. stay here. and i went no???? have i done something wrong??? but another manager came down and the managers had put together little #Christmas gift bags for everyone which is so sweet because i still feel like I'm there on sufferance even though it's been like 4 months. #but then. seven o'clock or so when i was still cutting up panne velvet i get an email from the boss who offered me the chch opportunity - #he's now quitting his position at our store. two weeks notice. so I'm stressed about that because we had a good thing going where he'd text #me once a week. we'd arrange extra shifts and that was it. what if the new store manager sucks or hates me or something?? #and I've got like five half finished advent fics but i just. don't have the spoons between work tired and c19 brain fog and christmas tired #anyway none of this is about five and Tegan I'm so sorry i just need about ten more weighted blankets on me. #five #tegan #an ask a palpable ask #srsly i love being asked about them or any dw opinions you are so wonderful in my eyes #tbh the advent fics are getting to the point i might just post them all the way through January and when i write little ficlets. people #seem vaguely to be enjoying them but trying to do a December thing was a bit much. #I've just realised this week was even longer. last Saturday we spent the whole day out of town with the kids. and Tuesday we went out of #town to do the stuff we'd planned to do before we had to babysit them on our planned trip day. jfc no wonder I can't brain straight

[revelingrexan]

this project started because my brain was like "oh Spark's sticker (yellow team leader) has a really nice smile. :) ... nice smile = White HatOHCOME ON"

then i needed to see him in all the poses (in the blue team outfit for the rest because he'd be blue team)

#pokemon go #villainous au #heroic au #valorous au #<- that's what i call my AU 'cause it's a good cool word that's pretty close to the word 'villainous' and i feel clever #rexan's art #(so yes now we've got heroic & valiant & valorous [i'm the only one who uses valorous but #you'll need to pry that out of my dead hands i'll keep using it and anyone else can too i'll just be stubborn over here in my corner] ) #heroic white hat #valorous white hat #I ACTUALLY SPENT SO MUCH TIME ON THESE PICTURES IT'S RIDONKULOUS #(but it was very fun and these turned out very cute so no regerts [sic] ) #i think these were my first edits like ever. as in #actually tracing the source pictures. ...wait i made an edit for glistening-gay's Villatic AU characters. but i #finished these Pokemon Go pictures actually back in August 2021. (I KNOW. ALMOST TWO YEARS AGO) #(I JUST NEEDED TO ADD MY USERNAME AND I FINALLY GOT MYSELF TO DO THAT) #-checks date of Villatic post- ...AHA. THE VILLATIC PIC WAS MADE IN 2022 MORE THAN SIX MONTHS LATER. THESE *WERE* MY FIRST EDITS #all other redraws i've done have been eyeballed #...i think my tag rambling is done. ...okay cool yay i finally submitted these pictures to the internets! woo!!