#but saying someone is autistic because they talk about a specific hobby a lot is weird (and waters down the actual definition of autism)

[angelicgarnet]

the way people online talk about autism is getting really weird, like do they know that neurotypicals still have interests? that someone being passionate about a hobby doesn't mean they're autistic? you guys know that right

#woof #like self diagnosis is one thing #but saying someone is autistic because they talk about a specific hobby a lot is weird (and waters down the actual definition of autism) #and its no different than saying someone has ocd bc they organize their books alpabetically #or saying someone has ADHD because they got distracted by something #and people who aren't even autistic are honestly getting way too comfortable with autism jokes

[triptych-of-voids]

Autistic medic gives me life ❤❤. Any random hcs for him? /nf /pos

of course! autistic medic is canon to me

ive already talked a bit about him being autistic before so a few of these maybe be things ive already mentioned but ill say them anyway

this is already obvious to everyone already but his special interests are surgery and medicine! anything medical really. hes also very interested in anatomy and pigeons (specifically pigeons. he probably couldnt tell you a lot about parrots for example, but if you want 100 facts about doves then hes your guy). and of course hed have a bunch of other hobbies and interests but those are the big ones

hes more prone to shutdown than he is to meltdown. not that meltdowns would never happen, theyre just more rare. usually a shutdown would come first and on the occasion hes pushed past that then a meltdown would follow, and after a meltdown then hed have a second even worse shutdown. thankfully situations like these are rare

like ive said (and drawn) before his main stims are rocking, hand flapping, echolalia, tensing up and hand wringing, and biting. a few other less obvious/not as common that he has are sparkly/flashy visual stims, he also loves both feeling and seeing anything gorey, he likes petting his birds, certain noises would be very pleasant to him like his doves cooing or coins clinking together and the sounds of the mediguns. hed love the smell of coffee and isopropyl. hed have a few others stims too but theyd be more rare and very situational like hitting himself or toe walking.

hes weird about his gloves and his coat. as in he would put them on for a specific reason but once he gets used to having them on he would absolutely hate taking them off. he has to keep them on for the rest of the day no matter what. and vice versa, if hes not wearing his gloves or coat then he cant just?? randomly put them on?? no no its all or nothing theyre either going on for combat and then staying on for the rest of the day or not at all

hes very excitable and loves to talk and if hes engaged in a conversation or excited about something then his voice will gradually get louder and louder and he'll keep interrupting or talking over people. he wont even notice it until someone points it out to him

you cant take him to the store because hes going to touch everything and then very quickly regret it when hes suddenly overcome with the overwhelming soul crushing need to wash his hands and theres no sink around. its so over :[

bad at left vs right and identifying north, south, east, and west. nothing else to say here, its not that he gets lost easily, he can find his way around just fine its just that hes awful at directions

very strict about his routines and lists. he cannot stand it if he makes plans and they get postponed or canceled. he hates it if he makes a list of things to get and then cant get everything on the list exactly correct. hes actually more than willing to do things on impulse in the moment but only if hes already mentally planned to do that or if it doesnt interfere with something else he has going on

hes very blunt and direct. he says exactly what hes thinking and answers questions very honestly and directly. people often find him to be rude for this but he doesnt get why. speaking of him being seen as rude, he used to get in trouble for always rolling his eyes or talking back to people because for the longest time he didnt realize that trying to stretch your eyes or avoid eye contact or staring could all somehow be considered 'rolling' your eyes. or rude. and talking back... isnt that how a conversation works? hes never been very good at knowing when he is or isnt supposed to reply to statements.

ive said it before but i will say it again. he has little to no empathy. every autistic person is different of course and not all autistics have low empathy, but im tired of low enpathy being seen as a bad trait. im tired of people with low empathy (autistic or otherwise) being seen as evil and uncaring. having low empathy doesnt make you a bad person. he has very low empathy and often struggles to connect with and understand others. he frequently will have the wrong emotion for the situation and may sometimes come off as uncaring when he is not as sad about something as they are, etc etc etc but he is not some horrible evil monster for it and i do not want to see anyone saying that because its just completely incorrect. hope this helps

anyway!!!! theres some autistic medic!!!! i hope you like him as much as i do!!!!

#replies from the void #autism #asd #tf2 #tf2 medic #autistic medic is canon to me sorry #i know the truth #the doc is in

[rutadales]

I'm gonna delete this later but I will say I think a very very important skill to have, specifically for autistic people with special interests/hyperfixations in content creator fandoms is the ability to disengage when necessary for your own health. and it is absolutely a skill, like you can't just stop caring about something and be able to distance yourself whenever something triggering happens without practice. I'm saying this from experience.

i have hyperfixated on content creator's media since I was eleven years old. I was in the trenches over Markiplier when he had controversies every few months, I had would literally have nightmares over the idea of him being a bad person. Which isn't healthy!

Not even talking about parasocialisms or whatever because that's been talked to death, but I mean for me! For 11, 13, 17, 20 year old me that is not healthy! It is exhausting being stressed out and worried that someone who makes stuff I like is a bad person, especially when you engage with the fandom on twitter. It is fucking vital to unplug in these situations, and to learn how to. And it's not an easy skill to learn it has taken me since I was a literal child to know to develop that skill. But it is important.

And it's not just suddenly not caring about something, but it's disengaging in the moment if necessary, and to be honest I think for a lot of people it is necessary.

Listen, you don't have to explain yourself, you don't have to say goodbye or give a reason why you'll be staying, you don't have to make a statement on your blog or answer anon asks. you owe everyone literally nothing when it comes to online fandom. It is a hobby and sometimes you have to be okay and stepping back when necessary. Undownload twitter for the next three weeks. Block every tag under the sun that'll upset you.

This is rambling but the last thing I'll say is you are a whole complete person without your special interest, and if an interest disappoints you or hurts you that is not then inherently a reflection of you. you are a full complete complex person without it, and you don't have to loose it completely even if right now it might be important for you to step back and regulate yourself. and it is hard and it can be incredibly upsetting and you are valid and real for feeling whatever you're feeling. it's okay.

anyway im going to go read national treasure yaoi now✌️ xoxo gossip girl

#tldr take care of yourselves guys #learn how to take care of yourself #it's hard. and it can really fucking blow but I'm handling this so much fucking better than I did back in 2022

[theneighborhoodwatch]

another thought/question/invitation to ramble! I was wondering if you have any thoughts on the TV interview clip? There's a lot going on in there in terms of it being, as far as I remember, the only content of "past Wally" we have interacting face-to-face with a Physical Human Person so far. But specifically...am I the only one who is Really Weirded Out by the host asking Wally about his love life? Just the tone and the way he chuckles afterwards hit my arospec autistic brain right in the "no no no no bad" zone because like!!

it's not Bad to think about children show's characters in romantic relationships! Wally is an adult. He's a very childish person, but he's a grown man who could very well talk about and share his experiences in that department, as it were. But it's the context of this being like the first thing the man asks him combined with how confused and Uncomfortable Wally sounds until Barnaby comes on stage. Like why is the first thing this guy wants to know about this little puppet "hey are you dating anyone?". why not ask him about oh I dunno, how he's adjusting to the "celebrity lifestyle", or ask about his hobbies outside of painting or whatever else he does on the show?

Why did this man see a little puppet and instantly jump to asking about who he is smooching or getting dirty with. It's just such! an odd thing! by far the most subtly unsettling part of the site so far and I'd Love to hear your thoughts on it, if any

(so sorry if this was a rambley mess :" )

that's funny, i feel like i was one of the only people who Wasn't all that bothered by that? like, it's definitely not an interview question i would have thought to ask wally, especially as an opener (although it does sound like they had been talking for a while beforehand before rick was like "SO WHO ARE YOU MACKIN' ON") but in in-character interviews for the muppets (which this recording was very clearly a reference to) they did actually ask about the characters' love lives quite a bit, ESPECIALLY kermit's, regardless of whether or not it would have been considered a little trashy to ask the same of human celebrities.

i do think the whole interview serves to highlight how much wally is... Not a kermit-like, though (at least, not the way kermit was characterized in the 70s.) wally isn't really one for dry wit or discussing the intricacies of show biz; pretty much all of his lines in that interview seem like either him just saying what he thinks and then playing along when the audience thinks he's doing a bit OR him falling back on a script when he doesn't know what to say/has learned that A Specific Phrase tends to go over well with people. and yeah, obviously it reads a lot like a Hashtag Autism And/Or Acearospec Moment, but it's also kind of what i mean when i propose the question "is it that the wally we see now is that different from the one we see in official welcome home media in-universe, or is it just that his situation has gotten much worse since welcome home's heyday?" (assuming we're operating on the terms of linear time and not any extradimensional bullfuckery like the "welcome home may not have even Existed" theory would suggest.) wally may be aware that welcome home is a show, or at least that it was created for Us, but it's also his whole life. that's a lot to grapple with, especially in the middle of a conversation with someone who only really seems to acknowledge the first half of that sentence. of course, it's likely that this is because rick doesn't actually know that wally is sentient/aware/what have you; like as far as he's concerned, he's just doing a really good bit with the guy puppeteering wally, but that depends on whether or not anyone knows who the puppeteer is, and that's something we don't have enough info to get into right now. but like, obvious metaphor for subtle dehumanization is obvious, right?

#sunlitmcgee #ask #wh speculation #welcome home #wally darling

[firespirited]

It has been brought to my attention that people can't know me unless I let you in. You're not mind-readers or actively remembering every detail. So let's get vulnerable *awkward thumbs up*

Here are some answers to not frequently asked questions:

You can use my real name, it works for me, Saffy's a chosen name for online (and offline if people struggle with pronunciation). I like both.

Don't worry about french timezones. I sleep 14 hours a day, awake about 12, resting for about half of that. I do have to go AFK regularly to do household stuff and rest, but if i'm online it's ok to assume i'm around =)

I can't drive. Haven't learned. Finally open to the idea though.

I don't have a DNI and don't talk about squicks and stressors because Tumblr has good curation options that i use extensively: So if I don't engage with a post, it could be that it contains a specific word. Things I haven't been able to filter but can set off a spiral are gun ownership 'for protection' (science says nope). Disability and labour (specifically the idea we have to be productive and also the fact that many disabled folks are maimed by attempting work). Breath play (extremely dangerous), sloppily defined 'kink' and ill-defined long term relationships. The word glioblastoma makes me cry. Tween pregnancy, death from childbirth, covid, long covid and various aspects of rape culture get greylisted at more difficult times.

I'm ace but have no issue with erotica and nudes or most sex scenes. Doesn't do much for me, doesn't disgust me most of the time. However, I can't stand products of the porn industry: zero interest in watching the adventures of a near disembodied penis in a woman who's clearly performing. You can be sex positive, support sex work and still see the industry as detrimental. Stunt and porn performers deserve so much better.

I'm currently more financially stable than ever. It's also not much at all. Enough to choose + buy my own food and clothes. Enough to have savings for a dog's vet expenses and someone to give her 15-minute walks. It's precarious and at the whims of having a really good doctor (she's retiring soon) but it's been nice to not be scared all the time. Lily the dog is my most precious luxury and worth it.

I went a decade only seeing a GP for emergency antibiotics after medical trauma. I had to put on makeup, drink lots of sugar to stay sat upright during the visit and pretend to be weller than I was to not get put in a psych ward because he didn't "believe" in autoimmune illnesses in the young, despite being cleared by a psychiatrist and a weekly psychotherapy session for 3 months. Getting healthcare and getting it paid for has been a mixture of very good luck and a long-term uphill battle (huge amounts of online research).

I'm probably not autistic (the online science tests point towards ADHD, you could probably armchair dx that from a few posts!) but use the term 'on the spectrum' because I've been perceived as autistic since childhood, especially when I'm happy or comfortable. Can't figure out if how I identify internally matters more than how I'm seen. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I'm often assumed to be a lesbian. eh.

I can be easily gaslit so long as it's a very slow boil. But if pushed to think about it, a core self that I've built in the past few years emerges suddenly to give me the rational overview. The clarity of that view is brutal. just brutal. Makes me question everything about myself for a while. I feel like someone trying to walk next to a car blaring 'oonst oonst' music trying to not match the beat in steps but falling into it anyway.

I'm allergic to cats but not exclusively a 'dog person'. Papaye slept just outside the door in a dog transport cage after Christmas while upstairs neighbour was busy. I just think cats are neat, they seem fine with me.

I can't explain why the main hobby ended up being dolls, it just clicks: they're bite sized and candy coloured and cute, there are so many crafting and art options for doll collectors, always loved repair. I feel very lucky to have found such a lovely community and i'm constantly getting into new crafts, new stories and making new acquaintances because it's a place where dolls get to be just one facet for connection.

I'm going to be 41 in april, my fave flower is daffodils, my fave plant is moss, all colours are nice: pastel rainbows and shades of green from lime to teal make me happiest.

'manifesting' is my current bugbear, it's stupid, it's harmful, it's just world theory repackaged, did I mention it's stupid?

I don't like onions and garlic, not unless they're super in the background. I respect the allium lovers and can (and do) put up with the smell daily but really dislike the taste. Same with coffee except that smells amazing.

Emoticons and emojis have made typing more like real language to me, I speak with my hands and accentuate words and even emote at the screen while i'm writing. I don't find it childish, not even gifs or memes, just an extension of language.

I've changed my mind about David Fincher in the past 5 years: brilliant director yes, not great at human stories after all.

If you feel like sharing your own, let this be your prompt. 💜

#saf #long post #getting to know each other

[alexandcrfm]

*      & .    〔    joe keery,   cismale,   he/him    〕    alexander russell is   a   thirty    year   old   superhuman   known   to   be   passionate   and   cheerful,   yet   awkward   and   cautious   at   the   same   time.   rumor   has   it   they’re   a   civilian   who   has   power mimicry   abilities    —    you’d   never   guess   it   when   you   see   them   working   at   new york presbytarian  as   a   doctor.   apparently   they’re   always   listening   to   someone new   by   hozier,   which   makes   sense   since   they   kind   of   also   remind   me   of   neatly organised video games,  saying every line of your favourite movies, and seeing good in everyone.    

BASIC INFO

name: alexander russell nicknames: alex age: 30 gender & pronouns: cismale, he/him sexuality: bisexual occupation: doctor for new york presbytarian ability: power mimicry. when within a few meters of a superhuman, he is able to copy that person’s powers and keep them indefinitely. however, he can only maintain one person’s power(s) at a time, and if they’re abilities that require skill to use well, he will behave as though he’s new to the abilities until he’s learned how to use them. additionally, his control over his power is currently tied to his emotions, as he doesn’t know he has it. if he is particularly emotional and within range of a superhuman, he is likely to pick up on their power without realising it.

BIO

alex’s parents agreed to enter him into project echo for the money a little before he was born. they’d always wanted a child and were extremely happy to be having one, but they weren’t doing well financially and knew a child was only going to worsen their finances.

when alex showed no signs of any extraordinary powers, he was considered a failed test subject and his parents swore to never tell alex what they’d agreed to have done to him. as far as they knew, nothing had even come of it and they were just a little richer. it didn’t seem like it would be an issue

they raised him well and were amazing parents. the money helped them a great deal, and alex lead a good, mostly normal childhood

he was bullied horribly in school for his nerdy interests like sci-fi movies, reading, comics, etc., for being considered a know it all, and for being considered ‘strange’. he became quieter because of this, only seeming to come out of his shell and talk about his interests with those he loved and/or deeply trusted for most of his childhood. more recently he’s become a lot less ashamed of the things he loves and is more openly himself.

has always been a big fan of superheroes but still acknowledges that superpowers can be dangerous in the wrong hands. still, he thinks that everyone is capable of good and doing good and he admires those who were once in the liberty league; they saved people and made the world a better place.

went into medicine so that he could also do good and help the world be a better place like those heroes, or like the fictional characters he admires in his favourite media. he had the smarts and the passion, and although he knew it would be a long, tough journey, he knew that the outcome would be more than worth it.

is now a really good doctor. he’s gentle and understanding, and he has the knowledge he needs to do the best job possible. he really cares about his patients and wants what’s best for them.

MISC

autistic

hobbies include: gaming, drawing, reading. would love to get into dnd but is too shy to find people who’re interested in playing

if you get him talking about his interests, he could go on and on for hours. he has so much love and passion that he might never shut up

is working through the process of loving and accepting himself. it’s a hard road, but he’s getting there. fake it til you make it!

believes everyone is capable of good and everyone is worthy of love.

as mentioned above, he doesn’t know about his powers! hanging around other supers is going to be Very Stressful and Confusing for him

i don’t have any specific wanted connections for him but i’m definitely open to ideas! friends, exes, ex bully, etc. anything goes!

#dhq:intro #about. #pinned.

[sandwichfordinner]

YIPPEE MATCHUPS! I hope you're having a good day! Just to let you know- it might help to have your masterlist pinned to the top otherwise people might not be able to see it! (Unless it is an I just can't see if for some reason... ✌️live laugh love) ANYWAY. YES. IDV. I have no hunter/survivor preference!!!

I am nonbinary and pan, no preference. Im tall- like 5'10 or something, brown eyes, dirty blonde usually long and fluffy with short bangs but I'm thinking about getting it layered short. my style varies, often I either dress quite formal and smart (smart trousers! Blouses and collard shirts! Sweaters!!!) But if im not going out i'll switch to a lot of oversized loose fitting clothes in LAYERS!!! SO MANY LAYERS!!! (im so glad flares are popular again!!!) I quite like clothes, I just refuse to wear dresses or shorts as I am quite insecure and uncomfortable in them.

I am a huge bookworm, passionate about a lot of humanities subjects, philosophy, art, history, sociology and psychology, law e.c.

People often times say I have good knowledge about a variety of subjects or have an opinion on everything.

But to be honest its either 0 or 100 with me. I'm autistic and typically go non verbal around people I am not comfortable with (i NEVER approach new people myself) and small talk is the devil i cannot do it. If I try to force myself at best I start stuttering badly 💀. I'm not too bothered by it, it's just frustrating. The only exception i'm fine 'approaching' is to talk to them is online/through writing as it puts concerns about reading social queues out the window.

However the 100 side of it, people that approach me and engage in topics i actually like... as well as people close to me, I'm the opposite, I have to have meaningful discussions and love to share ideas with people! It's like I do a complete 180! People oftentimes mistake me as being very confident if they catch me like this and dont know me very well but I think it's just because I'm moreso passionate and fixate a lot.

At my worst I become extremely avoidant and shut in, typically to be able to get out of my room I need someone I'm friends or close with that can drive me out or stay with me, otherwise I panic. (That includes ignoring basic needs, i will ignore them if i feel threatened) but so long as I have people close to me around I feel far more confident in being able to mask (for me its not always a bad thing if it helps me to be productive/actually stay alive). I cannot stand to be touched by others unless I'm expecting it but even then I'm still sensitive, but I am okay with touching others! Exihibit A! I love pampering friends and get compliments on my massages!!!! Do not do the same to me the devil takes over my body and I cannot control spasms i am not laughing of joy I am on the verge of a breakdown!!!!

As for specific hobbies: I like drawing/painting and sculpting! I LOVE board and tabletop games, chess, card games like blackjack. I like anything to do with watersports. I love to swim! Reading and writing is obviously a big one too and my most recent interest is learning to bake! (Because im dogshit at cooking)

I hope thats enough and that I did everythjng!!! Hope you have a lovely day!!!!

Note: I am not really sure what no binary pronouns use, I asked google and said that go by they, if it doesn’t go by they I am terribly sorry and please tell me if I did it wrong! Also have a nice day you too anon! 💝

And also I am so sorry If I skipped something 😞

I match you wiiith🥁🥁🥁…

Galatea and Emil!

Galatea:

The moment she heard that you like sculpting, she immediately wanted to know more about you!

Even chess?? THATS AMAZING !! She loves playing chess too!!

She was so scared to talk to you thought, she didn’t know how to start a conversation.

Wow she finally spoke to you! But it was in a match while you were chaired and Galatea was just staring at you a little creepy.. That made you uncomfortable and you looked away ‘when will I get sent back to the manor.’ You thought.

,,Your eyes are… pretty..’’ she quietly and softly said.

That caught you off guard and you looked back at her.

,,O-oh thank you! Uh your e- I mean your sculpture is nice!’’ ‘Oh nahh💀💀 why did I say this😭’

She looked confused at the Little rock of clay but smiled.

,,Thank you.. Can I.. talk to you more?’’

You nodded and smiled again.

,,M-maybe play some c-chess with me..?’’ She quietly spoke.

,,I’m sorry what did you say?’’

,,Nothing!’’ Her face was now hidden and you could only see the back of the wheelchair.

She was blushing, which left you confused.

,,Uh can we meet-‘’ But suddenly the rocket chair started spinning which you flew back to the manor, but before you flew she said more loudly: ,,Meet me a-after the match!!’’ ,,OK!’’

When both of you started dating she made you little sculptures of hearts or cute things you like.

BOTH OF YOU MAKING SCULPTURES <333

Walks! When the both of you aren’t in a match you would push the wheelchair while Galatea is on it around the manor. Usually Galatea starts the conversations because she knew that you really couldn’t start one. Such a nice and supportive gf 🫶

Give her a surprise kiss on her cheek and she’s blushing.

Emil

Oh this sweet little guy.

Another awkward shy introvert😭

To the moment he saw you , he felt funny in his stomach. And he could feel his cheeks red.

Would try to start a conversation with you.

But if you tried you would be a stuttering mess, really nervous too because of how much you stuttered.

He doesn’t find it funny tho, in fact he finds it cute. He would chuckle a little, but when he saw your face like it was about to cry he immediately stopped and looked at you in worry.

,,I-I am s-so sorry for laughing! I didn’t m-meant to , i-it’s not that I promise!’’ Okay he accidentally held your hands without noticing. Man was panicking 😭

Now both of you looked like a couple.

You started feeling more nervous at the sudden contact, which he realised too, quickly stopped holding your hands and running away none stop saying ‘I’m so sorry!’ Man it was sure something😭😭

Next day he came to apologise and said that he will never do it again.

This man is so sweet bro.. and respectful too..

He found himself getting more and more comfortable by the time.

But not too comfortable because he would blush sometimes, trying to hide his face while you were looking at him confused.

When both of you were finally dating he would get more protective, not obsessive! He is just worried about you getting hurt!

When people misgender you, he would confidently say: ,,If you didn’t know Y/N is not comfortable calling them he or she!’’

Ur biggest support!

Always asks you if you’re okay with it before he hugs you or kisses you!

When you’re feeling down and don’t want to talk to anyone he would slide down a letter under your door and leave.

There is written how much he loves you, that the others are just jerks and a bunch of more praises and nice things written. And he finished with a ‘please talk to me later, I am worried’.

If you kiss him or hug him he would have the biggest smile on his face with red face.

Best bf material😻

#identity v x reader #idv x reader #idv hcs #sandwichfordinner #identity v x you #identity v headcanons #identity v oneshots #identity v emil #identity v emile #emil mesmer #identity v emile x reader #emil x reader idv #identity v galatea #galatea claude #galatea claude x reader #match ups #match up game

[goodpointsandbadpoints]

Someone explained how their attraction to a certain celebrity helps them throughout their day, and I actually thought it explained how my special interests help me through the day!

Some points they made specifically were about self-encouragement, creativity, and problem-solving. I will add on "turning my focus outward" onto this list.

I draw a lot of self-encouragement from my interests. It doesn't matter if the interest is on a topic, media, or hobby. Once I am able to see my interest in everything around me (in my environment), it becomes very encouraging to me. When I am really into LOTR, I see similarities between the stories and my life. For example, if I am doing something very difficult, I think about how the character Frodo had to push through something impossible step by step. I think of how Sam would say very encouraging, sweet things. I say some of those things to myself. This is the kind of self-encouragement that I draw from my interests. 

I get boosts in creativity from my interests. Oftentimes whatever my interest is impacts what I draw, crochet, knit, and write. My special interest is the compass that helps me navigate what I want to make. I also feel like I store up a lot of inspiration from my interests, and someday it'll overflow and I'll make something really exciting. For example, I was inspired to finally crochet a doll--something I had never crocheted before--by my interest in LOTR.

The problem-solving one is a little harder to explain. I learn a lot of social things from stories I consume. For example, I just read North and South, and that gave me a ton of examples of how people interact with one another (specifically, how each person's personal identities and histories interact to shape their relationships). My interests in stories often help me realize just how complex people are, and consequently how complex each of their relationships are. Anyway, this relates to problem-solving because I can often gain scripts, cognitive empathy, and just general social ideas from stories.

The last point is "turning my focus outward." As a person, I get very fixated on one thing at a time. I am able to focus on urgent, important things, but my brain is always going back to my interest. If I could, I would talk only about my interest and nothing else. When I am on my phone or my laptop, I am almost 100% engaging in whatever my special interest is. One might think, then, that my special interest is causing me to curl in on myself, to shun the outside world. But my rebuttal is that my interests help me turn outward because I find pieces of my interest in my environment. Just as I said in the first point (about getting self-encouragement from seeing aspects of my interest in my environment), being able to find my interests out in the world helps me focus better on the world. Instead of zoning out all the time, daydreaming about my interest, I can dig in a little bit on reality. I am currently fixated on listening to every audiobook narrated by Richard Armitage; one way this "turns my focus outward" is imagine that my own circumstances are being narrated by someone. It makes it much more interesting to be present in my own life when I can plop my interest into it. Sometimes I pretend I'm a character in whatever media I'm interested in.

I hope that made sense. I'm fascinated by how interests influence the way that autistic people interact with the world.

#nini autism tag #special interests #long post

[stinkrascal]

Is it weird that I don't "project" my diagnoses, etc. onto my sims/ocs? Like I know a ton of people who are autistic write autistic characters, or ace people write a lot of ace characters. (I am both.) But I have never really found the compulsion to do that? Not a single one of my sims to date is autistic, and only one of my nonsis OCs is. And weirdly enough, despite being aroace, I write a lot of romance-centered shit.

Idk why I'm coming rambling into your inbox about it, but I just realized that I don't do that, and I don't know why. A lot of people talk about having characters who are really, really similar to themselves, but then there's me with none of my characters are anything like me.

The closest I come to projecting onto my characters in any form is the fact that all my stories are about love (in any form), and no matter what shit goes down, there's always a (mostly) happy ending. Other than that, most of my characters are absolutely nothing like me, lmao.

Anyways, ramble over. Sorry for just jumping into your inbox for no fucking reason. That is all.

Also, some questions: Do you have a favorite scene in the Brie/Vlad backstory? Is there a scene you think is going to be the hardest to convert into sims format? If you had to choose one favorite OC (and only one) who would it be, and why?

Okay, I swear I'm done now! Love, Morri.

i don't think it's weird at all!! to be honest, i think it's really commendable that you're capable of writing about many different types of people without pulling from your own experiences! i have the opposite problem, where i tend to pull from my own experiences so often that it's difficult to write about characters who don't resemble myself, to the point where sometimes i feel like my characters even talk too similarly to myself aha. i think maybe sometimes it's scary to have characters who feel so much like yourself, like it feels as though you're bearing your soul out to the world when you write about someone whose experiences are so similar to your own. i can see how it's a daunting task! honestly though i don't think it truly matters where the inspiration for your characters comes from. as long as you're writing and expressing yourself, i think that's what matters most! especially since this is just a silly hobby of ours, it's not like we're getting paid to write these stories. so just have fun with it you know!!

i have a few favorite scenes in the brie/vlad backstory, it's hard to pinpoint just one!! honestly, though, any scene where they're being grossly affectionate and simultaneously oblivious makes my heart explode. i really like the scene where they finally get together too, but i haven't yet written that one out since it's towards the end of the story, and i'd say i'm about 3/4ths of the way done writing everything. there's a few fight scenes i'm nervous to take screenshots of whenever i get to that point, but i think i have the ability to pull it off!! i've been thinking very intensely about how to play these scenes out, so i have a few ideas for the execution aha. and obviously breanna!! because as i mentioned above, i have difficulty writing about characters who aren't similar to me, and breanna was created specifically to be similar to me, so she feels really natural to write and discuss. obviously we have our differences, but i think a lot of our emotions are similar, even if the root cause for our emotions come from very different places. and it helps that she likes the same things i do and she talks the way i do, so i don't have to stress out over her personality much since i feel like i know her very well. is that weird? aha fjeroaigjrstohjrthklmr;mnsre she's just like me fr!

thanks so much for rambling in my ask box! i always appreciate seeing asks from you, you rock!! <3

#jade answers #morrigan sims #oh my head hurts i didn't sleep long enough #i was thinking about these asks i got all night i wanted to answer them so bad #it's 1pm you'd think i would have slept for long enough but nope. i went to bed at 5am aha

[elinorwritesstuff]

I know that I already said this.. But I need to stop with long messages.

I don't want you to think I'm making excuses about the type of person I am. So I'll try explaining things about myself. I'm autistic. Like you've mentioned Death Note as one of your favorite series. So just combine the personalities of L and Near into one person, that's kinda who I am in many ways. And I'm definitely not just saying that because they are some of the most popular characters in the series.. Their mannerisms are basically my mannerisms if that helps explain a few things. So I've always had this repetitive behavior that made people uncomfortable, always had obsessive fixations over my hobbies that would also make people uncomfortable. So being repetitive, being obsessive, that may be more my anxiety than it is for other people. And, because of how a lot of my personality is, I'm actually used to being isolated from other people. Not many people can tolerate the type of person I am when it comes to how I express myself so I usually just keep to myself now.

And I actually have multiple disabilities... Asperger's Syndrome is only one of many others. But I really don't think I need to get into that.

If it also helps explain some things, that's why I'm also verbose when I have conversations with people. At least when it comes to things that I would have in interest in. Which isn't really that often. Normally I'm a quiet person who stays to themselves. Introvert may be a better term though. So I'm just not always this communicative with other people.

(L and Near are just examples to explain this better to people.)

Anyway.

Back to what we were talking about before.

My fixations are borderline obsessive to other people. Like.. This year, every month this year is releasing new anime and manga. From a new season or even movie from anime, new chapters for manga, so lots of new things are happening every day for me. So.. I've been reemerging myself into these fandoms all over again lately, since this year began.

So my fixations are really into overdrive at the moment.

Personally, for me, I've never really thought of actually writing stories with crossover themes. And.. like you said... Sometimes I would be so curious to know how certain characters would be in other fandoms or even how those characters would act and react in other situations.

But there are these fandoms.. And these fandoms are very similar, yet so completely different at the same time. That I really could easily see those fandoms blended together in some way. Worst case scenario.. I could use my characters into a story just specifically for that fandom. Not stealing someone's character! I don't want you to think that. But I tend to get inspiration from people, characters, and other things that helps me create my own characters. Appearance, personality, or even mannerisms. Shows, movies, music, games. Anything inspires that. But what I was trying to say is the worst case scenario, if I don't write the crossover story, is using any of my characters that may have a lot of similarities of characters of the one fandom but write them for that specific fandom rather than crossover fandoms. That probably didn't make any sense. Maybe I'm just overly thinking about that too much.

Normally I'm more into anime than manga. But, same as you, I'm also into manga if the manga is farther in plot than the anime for reasons.. And also because there are times when the anime version and manga version might have major differences. So sometimes I'll read manga. Maybe not as often as I should though.

I've never heard of Visions Of V. At least I don't think so.

When creating original characters.. I know people have their own way of inspiration for how they create their original characters. Inspiration could be real people, fictional characters, shows, movies, music, even games. Sometimes if I use a real people as a face claim for characters (especially for animanga), it's because I think, "Who could I see as this character in a live adaption?" Sometimes that works. But not always.

And this is why I need to stop writing long messages.

Oh wow sorry it took my like a century to answer this. I was half on a writing binge and half I got a NEW VIDEO GAME, lol. But yeah, my default is to just be super encouraging when it comes to people asking me stuff about writing, but I'm not on the spectrum, so like, I don't want to minimize what you deal with by just being all "yeah, go for it!" (And I get what you mean about L and Near just being super autistic coded.)

Disability high-five though, I have so much complex PTSD. (It's not a secret, I write about it in the notes to my fics periodically. And I definitely write a lot of stuff about trauma and characters (OC and canon)). But anyhow.

Yeah, character inspiration can come from so many places. Sometimes I really have a character in my head before I start writing, and sometimes I just have the broad strokes and things get filled in as I go. One of my very first OCs was just inspired by a cool drawing I saw in Seventeen magazine when I was thirteen or fourteen years old.

Visions of V! It's so good; unfortunately you can only get it in scanlation, but it's not hard to find on a google search. (Sometimes I feel guilty about reading scanlations, but I only do it when the manga is just 100% not available in English.) Basically it tells the story of DMC5 from V's POV, all the way from when Vergil splits himself to when V reunites with Urizen. If you're interested in V as a character it's really cool, and you can kind of see how he transitions from being Vergil in a different body to being V as a separate being. And it also has stuff from Vergil's past (because he shares it with V) that gives a lot of insight into what he's gone through. And also the art is amazing.

But anyhow anyhow.

How has your writing going? Are you still planning and making notes? Honestly my current fic has required a lot more outlining than the last couple and I'm really trying to be patient with it because as I've said, my process is very much Just Write It.

Still don't mind the long messages.

[bellasgreensweater]

✨Why I Think Bella Swan Is On The Autism Spectrum ✨

In this post I’m going to talk about why I personally believe that Bella Swan is autistic. As an autistic person myself, I really relate to Bella and I see a lot of autistic traits in her.

Disclaimer: This is just a headcanon- I don’t think Stephenie Meyer intentionally wrote Bella as autistic, and she or the movie producers never confirmed it, so I’m not saying to everyone that she is CONFIRMED to be autistic and that every one has to see her that way, I’m just saying that I personally think she is, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Autistic people hardly have any representation in the media, and with the representation that we do have, it is almost always stereotypical, inaccurate and offensive. You do not have to agree with me on this, but just please be respectful in the comments and don’t hate :)

Ok let’s go:

1. She always felt different from everyone/she felt like nobody truly understood her and that she never really understood anyone either: this is what basically all autistic people feel, myself included. Feeling like nobody understands the way your brain works and the way you see the world. (And this is true, because autistic people do see the world differently than non- autistic people and autistic peoples brains are wired differently from non- autistic brains). Bella mentions this multiple times in the books and movies, at one point in the first book in the car with Edward, she tells him that she thinks he can’t read her mind because they’re a probably a glitch in her brain and that it’s not like other people’s. There is also this quote from the 1st chapter of twilight which sums up how she feels: “ Facing my pallid reflection in the mirror, I was forced to admit that I was lying to myself. It wasn’t just physically that I’d never fit in. And if I couldn’t find a niche in a school with three thousand people, what were my chances here? I didn’t relate well to people my age. Maybe the truth was that I didn’t relate well to people, period. Even my mother, who I was closer to than anyone else on the planet, was never in harmony with me, never on exactly the same page. Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain”.

2. Her motor skills: She’s constantly tripping over her own feet, has bad balance, doesn’t realize that she’s walking into things, constantly dropping things ect, a common thing for autistic people is to have poor motor skills and find it hard to navigate their body.

Another disclaimer about autism: not ever autistic person is the exact same, every autistic person expresses their autism in a slightly different way, for example, some autistic people are overly sensitive to sound, and some are under-sensitive to it, these are just the specific things I’ve noticed for Bella in this post, it’s not supposed to be a generalization of autism in any way! :)

3. Social disinterest and difficultly: all throughout her childhood and her time in forks, she wasn’t very interested in making friends or hanging out or going to parties, and she found that she could never make friends with someone easily, she just never fully clicked with someone. She did have some very nice friends in forks, however she never related to them too well or was very attached to them.

4. Dresses for comfort and not fashion: Bella typically dresses in what feels most comfortable for her, not what is the most fashionable thing, this is a common thing with autism. A lot of autistic people like myself are quite sensitive to clothing and fabric and will not tolerate uncomfortable clothing.

5. Limited interests/special interests: Bella doesn’t really have many interests, but the ones she does have, she’s very passionate about. A special interest is an autism-specific term used to describe interests and hobbies that autistic people have that are very important to them. They help regulate emotions, calm people down, provide escapism ect. Autistic people can hyper fixate on these interests for hours and hours and not get bored, they can get so engrossed that they forget to do basic tasks to take care of themselves like drinking or going to the bathroom. These interests can last for years, sometimes a lifetime and they are very important to autistics. Bella swans special interests would be reading, wuthering heights, and vampires. Bella says in midnight sun that she has loved reading all her life and it is one of the few things that bring her intense joy. She said she could read for hours at a time and would try to sneak books into her lessons and read any chance she could get. Bella says that her favorite book is wuthering heights and she has read it so many times that it is beaten up beyond repair and the spine is so cracked that the book lays flat. This would clearly be her special interest. Her other special interest is clearly vampires.

6. Burnouts and meltdowns when Edward leaves: when Edward left in new moon, Bella obviously fell into a huge depression, but I also think she fell into an autistic burnout (if you don’t know what that is pls research or ask me cause this post is already too goddamn long). And in eclipse, when Edward leaves to go home in the afternoon or to go hunting, she can barely focus without him and gets very anxious (this is obviously because she loves him and is literally obsessed with him lol, but I also think it could be a meltdown from separation anxiety and also a change in routine (a lot of autistics get very upset when their usual routine is disrupted or changed))

7. Sensitive to sounds: In the book, often Bella cannot concentrate or fall asleep because of little sounds like the rain, sometimes it takes ages for her to sleep because the rain or tapping is too distracting. (This is a common autistic struggle).

8. Stims & facial twitches & stuttering: in the movie, she is constantly stuttering over her words, and her face and body twitches a lot. She also stims a lot in the book by playing with her hair or sleeves or the zip of her jacket, or her hands or edwards hands. She also covers some of her face with her hair, this could be to do with sensory overload, seeing too much in her field of vision may be overwhelming for her, like a lot of autistics.

9. Trouble expressing feelings/ thoughts: bella struggles a lot sometimes with communication and telling people how she feels. You can see this in her relationship with Charlie. They both love eachother very much but they never say it and when they do it comes out very awkward and sometimes they use the wrong words. You can also see this when she is hesitant to tell Edward in eclipse when she doesn’t want him to leave for the fight, it takes her ages to work up to telling someone how she feels. She also tends to be quite private. This is common for some autistics to feel.

10. Sensory experiences: bella loves the sun and heat, she says that she loves feeling the sun seep into her skin- a lot of autistics feel the sensory world very strongly and love certain sensations and detest others. When Bella moves to forks, she hates the sudden change in weather and gets anxious and upset at the feel of the cold, and the rain against her skin. This links back to my other point where I was talking about how autistics fear sudden changes in routine. Bella is very relieved when there’s a sunny day in forks and goes and sits outside, savouring the weather which reminds her of home.

11. Not too concerned with how she looks: obviously not every autistic person is like this, but quite a few autistics don’t really focus on how they look/present and what they wear. They don’t really know about the social norms and what other people wear so they do what they want. This is something I often see in Bella in the books especially.

12. More quiet/ reserved and socially withdrawn and awkward: this is basically self explanatory. Bella is very well known for this. I touch a bit more on this in point 3.

If you made it this far then thank you so much! This took a long ass time to write and I’ve been thinking of making this post for months. There are more things that make me headcanon her as autistic, but these are just from the top of my head. When I re-read the series (for like the 100th time lol) later this year, I’ll annotate the book so that I can update this post in the future with more supporting this).

Again this is just my opinion and my personal headcanon, it is not factual (but I’d obviously want it to be canon) so please no hate :)

If you have any more things to add on then please do!! I’d love to hear your thoughts!

#twilight #twilight saga #bellaswan #twilightrenaissance #edwardcullen #bellaswanautistic #autism #autismawareness #actuallyautistic #autistic #neurodivergent #new moon #eclipse #breaking dawn #midnight sun #smeyer

[ocean-again]

want to talk a little about my personal life here, but this is kinda heavy and a little identifying, so I’m not getting too far into specifics.

not to bury the leade but, CW child suicide

like, this is real and it’s a lot and I’ve been struggling with it but you don’t need to know more about it than a kid, a jr highschooler, I met sunday last week at the museum when he came for a visit with his mom (he was a regular) killed himself after having a bad day getting bullied at school this week and I’m really pretty broken up about it, and now one of our old guys has cancer and I’m pretty upset about that too.

like, if any of this sounds cold or distant, please understand that I am writing this through intermittent ugly sobbing, and I knew this kid for one day of goofing around at a museum and I was looking forwards to more.

he was supposed to come back.

I wanted to see him grow up.

I was supposed to watch him grow up.

he was supposed to grow up

he had just started to hit that gangly puppy stage children get to where the bones of the hands and feet get big before the first big growth spurt of early puberty hits like a ton of bricks. like, this was a Pup. a goof, he knew more about the museum than I did, I had him do most of my tour.

he was supposed to come back and teach me more about things. he was supposed to inherit all the antiques from the old guys in the hobby and he was supposed to

he was supposed to grow up.

he was a purehearted little goof who loved antique telephones and was friends with old guys online because nobody else his age is going to share that hobby, and I expect he was easy to bully because of being obviously autistic and possibly queer. but like, so was I. I remember that age. I was nothing but teeth and rage and blind fury and I think, I think that’s why I lived and this kid, who was a little annoying and very sweet and knew so much about phones, who cried out in anguish and thrashed his whole body at the idea of the old panel frames in the old central offices being thrown away for scrap, and had never even had a philly cheesesteak

he was supposed to come back and try the philly cheesesteak.

(it’s nothing but meat and cheese and bread, onions are optional, he liked cheeseburgers with nothing on them. he might have liked the philly cheese.)

he was supposed to try a french dip sandwich.

he was SUPPOSED TO COME BACK AND GROW UP TALL AND STRONG AND WEIRD AND NEW.

he was supposed to come back.

there’s a sound your throat makes on it’s own when someone you love dies. to call it The Sound Of Ultimate Suffering comes off trite, a mere silly little movie reference. but there is a Sound that rips itself forth from your throat when a child dies, and it is the sound of ultimate suffering and to name it as anything less is to fail to do it justice.

my heart and my throat make this sound tonight. I am sure his mother has not stopped and will not stop any time soon.

but, I do not want to do it again.

so, I’m not reposing suicide hotlines, you can find them if you need them, but I will say to you, what I want to have said to this kid, as a kind of wicked fairy godmother. if you are struggling? if life is too much? remember that Spite and Pride are not positive emotions, but they are worth holding onto, one in each hand if you are to stay alive.

you’ll note, I don’t care if you WANT to stay alive right now.

we all arrive on this planet with our return ticket already punched, some day you will die no matter if you want to or not. but the idea, oh best beloved, is to run the clock out and make the world work for it.

like, if other people think things would be better with you gone? your peers, your family, this broken system? if the whole world thinks you’re useless and wants you dead? even if they might be right to think that?

so fucking what?

darling, what awful people want from you doesn’t matter. what jerks need is not important. it is not your problem to provide for people who give nothing to you but trouble. I don’t care what assholes think, and neither should you.

so fuck ‘em.

you’re better than them. you’re better than this. you deserve more, and your life is going to be a lot more interesting than theirs and they are jealous of this and on some level, that’s why they want you dead.

so fuck ‘em

and when things are bad, and you have no positive emotions left, if nothing in the world seems bright or kind, then hold on your hatred and keep your selfishness close to your heart, and if you don’t have any? then here, take mine. I have plenty of hatred to spare for anyone who would hurt you. oh best beloved, wrap yourself up warm and tight in a blanket of my selfishness, let it keep you warm. let it protect you. because you are Mine.

#tldr: that one quote about how all the nice queers are dead and there's nobody left but us pissed-off cockroach motherfuckers #I am cockroach motherfucker fairy godmother #and I have been robbed #kid did you know you were more precious than panel equipment?

[yanderedreaming]

Hello! I saw that you did Yandere matchups, I've never seen anyone have that specifically before!! I love the idea. Can I have a yandere hxh matchup please? Sorry if I make this too long btw. I don't know if you're going to make this about which yandere is generally better/matches with me or which would just like me more, so I'm excited!

I'm bi, and my pronouns are she/they- so I consider myself girl-like. I wouldn't say that I have a major preferred love language, I need a fair mix of all of them; I need words of affirmation a lot, I do like physical touch and will be very affectionate if allowed, I would fall for someone super easily if they performed a lot of acts of service or gift giving, and I obviously love quality time too. Generally, I'm very affectionate and crave much affection back. As far as that, I have many types of people I like. Dark and mysterious, dramatic and showy, similar to me, different from me, ect ect. I guess I don't have a specific type of person I like, but if they stand out in any way then I'll be attracted to their unique aspects.

I have mixed vibes when you first meet me or hang around me. I like to think I'm open and energetic in ways, but also people think I'm reserved and quiet- so I think I'm just...reserved until someone gives me any opening for talking, then I'll be open as a book and share any allowed affection. I'm kind of a shut-in, but like I said I try to get along with people, I'm just autistic and have a certain level of outter-world I can handle. I like reading, writing, sometimes drawing, some video games (Minecraft on PC, and cool light-hearted yet challenging ones on PlayStation like this one I've recently been playing called AstroBot), and live like I'm in a Ghibli movie as much as possible. I value going outside when it's sunny and warm even if I don't have enough energy to walk and just want to crouch and look for cool rocks, and small things like that are what make me really happy. I have more hobbies (the more I have the less bored I can be!) like doing puzzles, different things on social media, and nature exploring.

I love loving things and trying to find beauty in every part of life, not in a toxic positivity way, just because I get more dopamine snd things to do the more I enjoy life ya know?

If I left something vital out, tell me :p thanks in advance

Your Yandere matchup is with

Chrollo Lucilfer

Chrollo enjoys observing everyone he encounters/see's as a way to understand how people differ, their emotions and their actions. Having someone who is rather unreadable would be an interesting thing for Chrollo it would make him want to find out more about this person. Your quiet reserved nature mixed with your open and energetic one would make Chrollo wonder what goes on in your head and how you choose how to act depending on your company.

He would take a bit of time to monitor your interactions with different people to come up with his own conclusion of your actions, and would then try to test it out by engaging with you based on his observations. I see him approaching you with a bit of caution, starting off with a light chat and then trying to find out more about you to build on that.

He would adore your outlook to life, since its so different to his. I believe he enjoys people who are more positive and would want that positivity around him as it fascinates him as to how someone can always find a silver lining to every situation.

He would also enjoy talking to you about books and would like to read what you write. Its pretty interesting how you're similar to him, yet so different and this combination of your personality along with your positivity would draw him to you.

I see him thinking about you every time he's in an uncomfortable position and wondering how you'd view it and as a result you'd always be in the back of his mind and as he's the leader of the phantom troupe he can't afford to be preoccupied so he'll try to resolve this entire situation by trying to ask you on a date/ hanging out with you more to see how he feels about you.

If perhaps you think of this as more of a friendly thing and don't acknowledge his feelings (you just don't understand because this guy is kinda confusing ngl) then it'll just be something he can't get his head around and will then start to manipulate you and feels as if he can get away with it because you are kind hearted and don't see the world in a sceptical way.

Yandere Chrollo would then use his free time after his missions to see you and would also start eliminating anyone he sees as a threat (through threatening them without them finding out) but wouldn't ever let you know what he was doing leaving you unable to understand why all these people stopped talking to you and would then become the one constant person in your life. He wouldn't ever want the light inside of you to die out, so he'd be meticulous about everything he does to ensure his darling never changes and is always there for him.

Based on the information you sent a close contender would be Hisoka. The reason being, he would enjoy your outlook to life and would like to put it to the test. Hisoka would be a more dangerous yandere than Chrollo, because Chrollo would do everything in his power to ensure that light inside of you never dies out, while Hisoka might want to see how long you can maintain that light. Chrollo does enjoy physical touch, but would take his sweet time before trying it because he'd always gauge your reaction to it, Hisoka on the other hand would do it much more and would enjoy your reactions. In terms of words of affirmation, you can expect Chrollo to be a pro at that, throwing random compliments here and there. Letting you know he's thinking about you and carefully listening to everything you have to say to add a personal touch to his gifts. Also, I think Hisoka would appreciate your nature exploring and would like it when you take him with you, he would dedicate all his time to you as he see's you as a means to end his boredom. Chrollo on the other hand, would give you some space (when he's busy with the troupe) and would enjoy dates where the two of you play all sorts of board games and read the same book together after which he'll take you on a night stroll before dropping you back home.

#hunter x hunter #hxh #matchups #yandere matchups #yanere chrollo #yandere hisoka #chrollo #chrollo lucilfer #hisoka #hisoka morow

[t4tlawlight]

Occam's razor is the principle that, of two explanations that account for all the facts, the simpler one is more likely to be correct.

this post is going to cover traits specific to the manga and the television drama, since those are the best adaptations to showcase L’s autism. THIS POST is required reading before you read anything i’m about to type, because it explains what kind of character niche L falls into--an unintentionally autistic coded character. i’ll talk more about that at the end.

i’m going to talk about manga L first, since he’s the original version after all. i’m going to go in order of physical traits, to behavioral, to his character writing. also, tumblr eats posts that have outside links, so i’m going to have my non-tumblr sources in a separate post, here.

anyways, more under the cut!

MANGA/ANIME:

sitting with his legs up and spine bent / sitting on the floor

this is such a big one and its extremely common in ppl with autism. sitting in chairs normally is uncomfortable to outright painful w many ppl with these disorders, myself included. L sitting like that (which, to recall, is a blatant homage to sherlock holmes, another character that is so blatantly autistic coded you can find absolutely ridiculous amounts of writing on the topic) and being like "I HAVE TO SIT LIKE THIS TO THINK PROPERLY" is so autistic. like sitting in a certain way to give you specific sensory stimulus/avoid distracting discomfort and pain is a thing. i found this post (1) written by an autistic person on the topic of sitting in chairs being uncomfortable, and it says as much:

“I suspect that seating discomfort is common in autism (though by no means limited to autistic people). Many of us, particularly as children, benefit greatly from chairs designed to be non-stationary: rocking chairs, “fidget” chairs, and so forth. These can improve focus, compensate for proprioceptive hypo-sensitivity, and alleviate restlessness. In short, many “attention issues” can be fixed simply by providing a little motion for the person sitting. Small change, huge results. That's what accommodations do at their best. They make (often minor) adjustments that have profound impacts.”

so when L says that sitting the way he does, for a specific sensory experience, improves his ability to think, it’s perfectly in line with this idea. Also it’s a good pressure stim.

standing with a slouch / shifting his weight around

to begin: yes! it’s very common for autistic people to stand or walk oddly for a number of different reasons, from physical comorbidity to other issues such as dyspraxia (see: movie L). From an article by YAI (2), an I/DD (intellectual and/or developmental disabilities) community program:

“Kyphosis (a curved spine), collapsed chest, dropped shoulders and even scoliosis are observed in many of our patients. These myriad of postural issues may result from reduced strength, decreased biomechanical stability, or from a sensory impairment, such as apraxia. 

Depending on the scene, L has mild to severe kyphosis which is very common in autistic individuals. Other things mentioned in that article if you want to click on it is instability in standing, where you sort of shift your weight around a lot between your  feet or rest all of your weight on one foot, which L is literally doing the first time we see all of him.

speaking with a monotone voice.

i obviously can’t show a picture for this one and it honestly depends on the voice actor you find for L, but in the anime in particular L has a very flat tone. a lot of this is bc he has a dry sense of humor but. just know that it’s very common for autistic people to have a flat affect (or go the other way into being too loud/emotive).

his eating habits. 

a lot (a LOT) of autistic ppl myself included can only eat certain kinds of food for texture and flavor reasons. HOWEVER there’s a term in the autism community called “samefoods” which is really well put by tumblr users candidlyautistic and autism-asks: 

“Samefoods or samefooding is a community word to describe the autistic trait of eating the same food over, and over and over . . . It is part sensory, part routine driven in most cases. A lot of times we samefood because we need that particular mouthfeel / texture / taste, and a lot of times even after that need passes, it turns into a need for routine until you actively dislike that food again.”

“Samefooding on the other hand is closer to a special interest. When I have a samefood (chocolate ice cream, currently), I really, really want that food. I could eat that food endlessly and not get tired of it. I will get upset if I’m not able to have the food in a day. For me, it usually is kind of routine based as well. For instance, with my current samefood, I have some in the evenings and it’s become part of how I wind down from my day.”

we don’t know exactly why L specifically desires sweet food or if he considers it part of his routine, but what we do know is that he really wants to eat sweet food and avoids eating anything other than sweet food, so it could either be that he’s a picky eater and can’t handle savory or he’s samefooding on sweets!

wearing the same clothes

L wears the same clothes every single day. It’s also worth noting that what he does wear is baggy, too-big clothing, the kind that wouldn’t be tight and uncomfortable. once again, sensory issues are a huge thing for autistic individuals. one of my favorite aspects is that in no adaptation does he wear socks. even L wears shoes, he wears them like slippers, not putting them on all the way. people comment that he seems like he’s poor, but we know for a fact that he’s very rich and that wearing these clothes is a personal choice he made.

not caring for himself/outsourcing his self-care

i don’t think one day is exactly canon, rather it’s an exaggeration of what might actually happen--i.e. L doesn’t have a huge closet full of the same outfit, but he does have several versions of the same outfit on rotation; L doesn’t use a human washing machine, but Watari might help him/encourage him to bathe regularly. One Day is a parody comic, but it was made by the creators for a reason and that reason is that L pretty obviously relies on a caretaker (Watari) for his personal needs. Watari, in the manga proper, cooks and cleans and does most things for L. we’ll come back to this topic when we get to the drama though.

doing stimming behaviors

if you don’t know what stimming is, it refers to self-stimulating behaviors, usually involving repetitive movements or sounds. everyone stims to some extent, but in autism it tends to be more obvious, go on for longer, and sometimes be more disruptive to others. it’s often used to help deal with sensory overload, or used to express feelings--think of an autistic person being happy and flapping their hands in the air.

there are a LOT of instances of L displaying stimming behavior, from stacking his food or things on his desk, to spinning in his chair, to biting his fingers/using them to press on his lips, to wriggling and tapping his toes. here are some specific instances:

there are a lot more. i’ll talk about more when we get to dramaverse, but if you rewatch/reread death note it’s definitely worth noting whenever L does something like this!

detective work as a special interest

ok, first and foremost i want to establish what a special interest is. Tumblr user cartoon has my favorite explanation of what a special interest is that i’ve seen to date: 

“To have a deep, intense, passionate and incredibly focused / narrowed interest in a certain area of study, subject, topic or thing - to the exclusion of other interests. This interest is something that exists for the long-term, most often lasting for multiple months, years, or even you’re entire life “

L says that he only does detective work because it’s a hobby, and he finds it entertaining. We’ve also seen that he’s been at it for quite some time--if you take side content (the wammy’s house comic, LABB) seriously, then he’s been at it since childhood, with unwavering interest. it definitely comes across to me as L having a special interest in detective work, rather than it just being a normal hobby or a job for him, especially since he says it isn’t out of any moral obligation.

germaphobia

Germaphobia is very common for individuals with autism. a lot of the time it’s actually sensory issues associated with “dirty” things, and a lot of the time it’s because features of OCD are heavily comorbid with autism, including contamination OCD and such fears. regardless of the reason, though, L’s aversion to touching Bad Things is a very autistic behavior, and so is his resulting quirk that he tends to hold things in a very odd manner!

muted emotional expression

this is getting more into L’s character, but L tends to feel and express emotions in a very muted way. not to say he doesn’t have them, but for instance in the example above, L doesn’t have a solid grasp on what exactly he’s feeling. he thinks he might be acting irrationally and overemotionally because he logically should be afraid, but he isn’t sure, and none of these emotions present themselves visibly. 

i’ve also seen it said that Ukita’s death is another good example of his muted response to emotion--he tells Aizawa to stay rational and his voice doesn’t waver as he tells him as much, but he holds himself tightly. for someone with poor emotional competence, these physical signs of distress can be hard to read in oneself, but Aizawa (a man who is extremely in-tune with his emotions) can tell immediately.

high logic, low empathy

L is also a character who, like many autistic people, lacks a certain degree of empathy. it’s not that he doesn’t have any, but it’s limited enough--and he values logic over it enough--that he’s willing to make extreme decisions and take a “ends justify the means” approach (such as using people as bait.) in the example above, L takes a moment to work through what it must actually feel like, which rings as very autistic.

bluntness/not caring about social convention

there are so many examples of this i honestly could list them all day, but L is a character who is very to-the-point and doesn’t care about mincing his words. he can be outright rude to the people around him, especially if he considers them not worth basic courtesy. see: Matsuda. 

DRAMAVERSE

if you all knew me you should have known this section is inevitable. i’m not going to talk about every single adaptation because i do not have the time and the only other adaptation that is meaningful in that regard is the movieverse (i am fairly certain that movie L is dyspraxic) but on account of the fact that i don’t care about them i won’t subject you all to them here.

anyway, drama L shows much the same traits as animanga L above (they are, after all, technically the same character) but he displays them in different ways. 

he has a much more advanced degree of germaphobia, with Watari saying he’s sensitive to outside air and spraying everyone who enters his space with disinfectant, but not making them wash their hands or anything like that, so we can kind of tell that his issues are more rooted, again, in a fear of germs rather than any actual medical issue. he wants to feel as though he is clean, not necessarily actually be clean. this is very common in contamination OCD, which has a high comorbidity with autism. (my girlfriend has a very good headcanon post about drama L and OCD that isn’t so much analysis than just plain fun, but it’s worth a read!)

he stims, but he has a different array of stims than animanga L--he chews on his jelly pouch bottles, 

he tosses it between his hands, 

he kicks his feet,

and he bounces in his chair.

he still sits in an unconventional manner. he still samefoods, this time even more exclusively--he only eats Lucky Charge jelly pouches and nutritional bars. Watari onscreen puts his shirts on for him, as well as cooking, cleaning, and mending his clothes for him.

however, there are a few traits that are drama-exclusive that i think really add to an analysis of his autism!

social scripting

social scripting and echolalic scripting are both commonly described as “scripting,” but are very different! echolalic scripting is like echolalia, but echolalic scripting is the recitation of longer passages of dialogue from things the individual has heard before. but social scripting is when you memorize common conversations so you can rattle it off without worrying too much! this can be very handy, such as exchanging basic pleasantries or ordering food, but it can also backfire if someone responds in a way your script’s not set up for. you can find more information on the difference in this video (3). 

now, this relates to L in that there are two separate scenes where L says the same thing, rather inappropriately:

L: When I consider Kira’s personality, could it be that the strong-willed daughter is Kira? Or could that sweet-looking son of yours surprise us by proving to be him? You never know what humans are hiding beneath the surface... Soichiro: Enough. L: Sorry. It was just a joke.

-- Episode 2

L: Light-kun. Oh, I’m sorry... If I called you “Yagami-san,” it would be the same as what I call your father.  Light: That’s okay. Call me whatever you want. L: Then what about Kira? (silence) L: It's a joke.

-- Episode 4

one could say that L just has a terrible sense of humor--and, of course, having a poor grasp of humor is common with autistic individuals--but the fact that he says nearly the same thing as a defense twice makes me feel as though he has it rehearsed as a defense when people react poorly to things he’s said, which happens often.

mirroring and echolalia

echolalia was briefly covered in the previous example, but for those unaware, via wikipedia (4):

Echolalia is the unsolicited repetition of vocalizations made by another person (when repeated by the same person, it is called palilalia). In its profound form it is automatic and effortless.

mirroring, on the other hand, is explained as such, also via wikipedia (5):

Mirroring is the behavior in which one person unconsciously imitates the gesture, speech pattern, or attitude of another. Mirroring often occurs in social situations, particularly in the company of close friends or family. The concept often affects other individuals' notions about the individual that is exhibiting mirroring behaviors, which can lead to the individual building rapport with others.

both of these are very common in autism, and they’re exemplified while L’s character is established watching his favorite TV show, Owarai Paradise. On one occasion, he’s watching the show and this dialogue happens:

Hiroshi: Despite never telling her how I felt, I still got dumped. I am Hiroshi.  Watari: Who was this one again? L: He is Hiroshi. Hiroshi: I am Hiroshi. I am Hiroshi.

-- Episode 2

it’s important to note that in Japanese, “He is Hiroshi” and “I am Hiroshi” are said, at least in this instance, exactly the same, so L is echoing precisely what he’s heard.

On another occasion, L is again watching the show with a glass of wine (seemingly acquired simply to imitate the characters onscreen, as he never drinks it) and when the characters onscreen toast their glasses, L does the same, mirroring them. 

CONCLUSION

I linked a post at the very beginning of this analysis talking about how characters are unintentionally autistic coded, and it’s important to understand how this unintentional coding is different from a headcanon--i didn’t make up these traits. they aren’t something that only exist in my head that i ascribe to L for fun. 

i made this analysis both because i wanted to share L’s autistic coding in one cohesive place, because plenty of people have made lists before, but none that i could find that included so many examples with images and explanations--and i also made it because of the old ryuzaki persona “theory.” 

for those unaware, the ryuzaki persona headcanon suggests that L faked all of these traits in order to make people uncomfortable, to put them off-guard and better mask his identity. i’ve seen posts about people claiming that nobody could actually behave in these ways, that L would surely be unhappy and uncomfortable sitting like that, or eating like that, or engaging in any of these behaviors. I’ve seen some people outright say that L isn’t autistic, but his persona is--that is, he’s pretending to be autistic.

i named this essay “occam’s razor” because, to me, L being autistic is the simplest answer to account for all of these traits. claiming that an autistic coded character is faking it is ableist and it just doesn’t make sense with anything else we know about his character.

but if you want to know more about that, i recommend reading eyecicles’ first!L tag. it’s debunked it in more ways than i ever could.

anyways, in conclusion

#death note #death note drama #death note analysis #L lawliet

[wakraya]

Okay now what about your opinion on the domestic abuse pandemic?

Oh boy, this became more a relationship rant than anything else but:

You know I could spend a while talking about domestic abuse and say how, you know, helping people reach out, doing better in the future to make people less entitled and prone to taking advantage of others and promoting mutual respect, talk about how misogyny plays into all of it...

But instead I'm gonna focus on one specific thing- I think we need to rethink relationships as like, a whole? Now, this comes from someone who's SUPER Poly, but like... I've seen a lot of people close to me, and generally seen around, just kinda, a lot of relationships that just don't work and trying to make them work not for the sake of the people involved, but for the sake of the relationship itself?

Like... Dating sites are promoted as a place to seek love- And yeah they match you with similar people, but it's always seemed weird to me because, I never understood the idea of seeking love for the sake of love? Love is something that, for me, blossoms between people that get along well. Looking FOR the love to begin with as the primary objective instead of for people you get along with and share interests, and then love can just happen as a byproduct? It seems a lot of people feel pressured to FIND love for the sake of it, and when you force it, you can end up with unpleasant relationships and friction and a lot of bullshit.

This is not just about Dating Sites either. I am a biiiig Introvert, and Autistic, so that plays into my view of it, but I can't, for the life of me, understand how, for example, my parents, met at a bar. Like... You just, decided to approach each other because they were attracted to each other and they happened to mesh well. Except. They fucking do not mesh well. They say they're so in love, but my mother is a manipulative bitch and my father's a pushover who holds resentment for her attitude, they can argue and can threaten divorce and will literally be at each other's throats over the most MINOR disagreements, and then they will be like "Oh I love you so much :)" and I've NEVER seen the love. It's always seemed so performative, it's been tolerance, at best, for each other, and I think that's messed up? They do not get along. They aren't a good match. But they got together, and had children, and their idea of 'love' is this fucked up tolerance because they're too far in and it's Sunken Cost Fallacy all the way down, no matter what happens or how they make each other worse and not only don't share any interests, but she actually mocks him for his interests.

My sister has a friend who got together and had a kid with someone that everyone around them never saw getting along together- Not even from an outside perspective, but from the friend directly saying that his only redeeming quality was having enough money to pay for child support if they ended up getting divorced. I've seen and heard time and time again of people giving up their hobbies entirely because their partners are embarrassed of them/Don't like them and that drives them off entirely from indulging in this thing they liked.

Relationships can often require sacrifices and doing things differently! I'm not saying that any relationship where you need to concede something is bad. But like, you know what I mean? There's so much romantic stuff I see that is based on immediate physical appearances and 'making it work' despite rather intense friction, or like, "I found out a year into the relationship that my husband believed in X, which conflicts entirely with my ideology", how do you go out to begin with without knowing something as basic as "Hey, my partner-to-be is actually a huge racist"? How do you go out with someone if they make you feel ashamed of your hobbies and pull you away from things that you enjoy for dumb reasons? How do you build a relationship STARTING from the idea of WANTING to be in love with them, instead of from a foundation of understanding, mutual respect and knowing each other?

That's my take. I think so long as the point of relationships, for many, IS being in a relationship, instead of being with someone that they trust, respect, coincide with and can be with, there's going to be abuse and friction and bullshit in said relationships, from people expecting more/wanting more than the other party wants, from people settling for what they have because they are clinging to this fake love while in reality they're being taken advantage of, from people who mistake physical attraction with "Actually getting along together and loving each other". And by making this forced love less the point, it'd also help people who AREN'T interested in romance or relationships at all have an easier time, too, less pressure to 'find someone' or 'to be fixed', when more people realize it's all about comfort and happiness in your life, and not about 'seeking love' being a checkbox to tick before you're 30 or whatever the fuck.

NOTE: I am not saying that relationships that started in a bar or dating site are hollow/less real/cannot work, and I am not saying that everyone who met in these places met entirely for the sake of it or due to physical attraction. But I am saying in my experience, I've seen a lot of this in the past-

#Domestic Abuse #Abuse #Relationships #ask

[emakenz]

SELF INDULGENT HANNIBAL X READER FANFICTION PROMPT

I do not know what this is, if it is a drabble or a prompt or short story, I have no clue. Just thoughts in my head. Storylines that are realistic within the canon of the show. I say self indulgent because it's sort of a self insert of myself, but whatever, I dunno. It's almost 7 AM. I would actually write this as a story or drabble or whatever but I don't have the drive, if I have a thought I gotta write it down right then or it disappears. If I wrote fanfics, they wouldn't make sense because my mind wanders so fucking much. I might still do this someday, I dunno, but if anyone wants a crack at it, be my guest. I encourage it, as I'd love to read this as an actual story rather than... what it is. But if you write it, ya gotta make sure you include the big details I write down. The small details like, the whole Jack thing, that's not too important unless you want to keep it for showing character and/or character development. And ya gotta credit and tag me because I'd love to read it, as it is my brain's own little bundle of ideas. Holy shit I'm writing so much here goddamn. Anyway.

. . .

Hannibal is reader's friend and he has an interest in reader. Reader is an artist, they work as a forensic artist for the bureau. They do what the usual forensic artist does, but they also like to draw the crime scenes. They have a fascination with recreating the work of a suspect, it can help them connect dots and understand the suspect's intentions and ideals of commiting the scene of the crime. Reader is kind of like Will, in a sense, as they are on the spectrum but, unlike Will, they are unaware of it. They are an empath, they view everything from different perspectives and try to understand each side, like Will. But you see, Will only looks into the suspects' minds, but reader looks into the suspects, the victims, and even the witnesses' views. Hannibal finds their insight to be valuable (for his own "hobbies", in his career, and just plain interest, of course).

Reader has trouble with Jack yelling at them for "talking back," though in reader's mind they didn't realize what they said could be considered rude, and this happens more often than not. They can't handle loud noises, and Jack's booming voice messes them up. They tend to avoid Jack because of this, as they usually have an internal meltdown and shut off when he blows up.

An example; reader was explaining how the victim of the killer in a specific scene wasn't really the victim, but that they were the actual killer. Will disagreed, as he views the suspected killer to be the actual killer. Because of Will's insistence that reader was wrong, Jack shut reader off mid sentence by interrupting their defense. Jack trusts Will's insight more than reader's because he's known him longer and Will's always been right, so far, and he didn't want to risk messing up. He didn't want to get the investigation incorrect so he didn't take the chance of listening to reader rather than Will.

(In this scenario, the killer is the victim in the scene, and the person that killed them was the killer's intended victim, but the victim they intended to kill was a serial killer as well -- the victim pulled the ol switcheroo on em. So both Will and reader are right. If this doesn't make sense, please let me know, I will try to elaborate more on this if you're actually interested.)

Jack and reader don't have a bad relationship or anything, it's just a lot of miscommunications and underlying issues (like the reader having undiagnosed autism, not being aware that they're socially impaired can, well, impair their work and relationships. Such as here.) Nobody really notices the odd behavior from reader, as Will is like that too, so they don't question it. They all assume it's already understood that reader is autistic.

Reader isn't like Will when it comes to being social, as they are more reserved (as odd as that is, MORE reserved than Will Graham himself?? It's more likely than you'd think.) and don't fidget around with stuff around them. They don't nose around, they keep to themselves, closed off from everyone and everything. Will likes to roam around Dr. Lecter's office and tinker with stuff in the room, but reader is too anxious and shy to do such. Reader hates it when people come into their space (like their room, even their property in general) and they especially don't like it when people nose around in their stuff. It feels rude to them, so they don't do it to others. They don't consider Will to be rude because he does it though, they only consider it rude when a person comes into their space and does it, as reader would make it clear that they don't feel comfortable with people doing such. They wouldn't want a person unknowingly seem rude to them, they would inform them beforehand, but if the person still does it, then that's rude to reader. Call it being territorial, reader is just cautious about their property.

If reader is in a conversation, and being asked questions about themself, they usually just give short and simple answers. They don't like to talk about theirself. And they especially don't like letting people know them well. They are very cautious about relationships. They don't want to get hurt. They have a major rejection sensitivity disorder. They hate that about themself.

It's not that reader is cut off from the world and dismissive of others, they do like to talk and joke around occasionally. They're sarcastic yet literal, depending on the topic of conversation. They just don't give more input than they believe necessary. They're more of a listener (by that I mean they space out when a person is excessively talking to them. They can only handle so much.).

Hannibal notices reader's quiet, timid behavior and wants them to find some release, therefore he engages in conversations with them, though it is hard for them to keep the conversation going, he still pushes. He wants them to let loose, to trust him, so he can bond with them. He is aware of reader's autism, but he will only bring it up when he deems it's important. He knows everyone else knows and that reader doesn't, but he wants to see if reader would eventually figure it out on their own (they don't, he brings it up to them eventually). He's also aware that reader has anxiety and ADHD, with the occasional depression and mood swings. Reader is somewhat self aware of those parts of themself though, it's not a big deal. Reader doesn't really care about their mental health until Hannibal comes in and becomes Dr. Lecter to reader. They're not actually his patient but he will treat them as such when he feels they need a therapy session. Reader doesn't like the idea of therapy at all, not for them. Hannibal has to be discreet when getting them to open up. It works sometimes. Other times, reader just changes the subject to avoid the topic of theirself. While Hannibal does still have an interest in Will, reader is more of a craving for Hannibal's appetite. Hannibal sees reader as a rare delicacy that suits his taste, but he never gets enough, and he always wants more. Will can satisfy him in his interest, but reader doesn't give in to him like Will does. Reader is more hesitant, even when they are comfortable. Eye contact never ceases making reader uneasy, they can't hold it more than a few seconds, though Will can hold it as time goes on, reader can't. Will and reader's relationship is close, as reader relates to Will a lot, and vice versa. They connect. Reader likes to help with the dogs and assist in fixing motors and even go fishing with him. They're pretty much best friends. They're more open with Will than anybody else, as much as Hannibal envies Will for that, he also likes to learn about reader from Will. Since reader doesn't really open up to Hannibal willingly and knowingly, he uses Will for information. Will gives him what he wants, it's not a secret that they talk about reader often, it's just that reader doesn't engage in their talks so they make do. Whether Will has a crush on reader is a mystery, reader is unaware and Hannibal wouldn't allow it if he did. Will knows that Hannibal likes reader, he knows that if he had a crush, it's more than likely going to hurt him more than anything. Hannibal often attempts to get reader's attention in different ways, but reader never understands the message is for them. Will knows he can't be honest with reader as he's afraid that reader would feel uncomfortable around him if he did. He doesn't let himself crave reader after seeing Hannibal attempt to ease his own cravings for them, and seeing how that panned out, he knows he doesn't have a chance with reader if Hannibal of all people doesn't. Reader doesn't really... understand romance. They are capable of feeling romantic, but they don't know how to identify their feelings, so emotions are never clear for them. They feel everything but they don't understand anything.

Hannibal does get reader to give in but it takes a lot of time and effort to pry them open. Once reader is bare, they become insecure and vulnerable. They panic and get scared, and shutdown. Hannibal is a therapist and he knows how to handle this, though, and helps reader. He becomes their guide. Reader thrives off of independence but Hannibal slowly takes their need of independence away, having reader rely on him more and more. It makes him feel powerful. His cravings are nourished at this point in time, he's more addicted than ever, and reader is the center of his world. I guess you could say Hannibal is yandere-esque, not my intention but that's the vibes I'm getting from this. He's overprotective and possessive of reader once he has them under his wing.

What attracts Hannibal to reader is the same reason he's interested in Will. He enjoys having someone clever enough to understand him, to climb over his tall walls. Reader doesn't mean to do this, reader just sees him, and unlike Will, accepts him immediately. Reader never disliked Hannibal, reader's just cautious, as I've stated time and time again. Something about reader's mix of strong empathy but lack of understanding compels Hannibal. Reader sees and infers well enough (guessing close enough to what others think) but they can't really grasp it and latch onto it for theirself. They can't understand the feelings, but they can guess on them, and they can sure as hell feel em. They have trouble explaining stuff to others, and they try to always compare something to something else. They see something as a different thing than what others see. (An example, reader sees the shape and color and texture of a giant hotpocket in the ground, while others see a patch of dirt where grass hasn't grown) (I don't mean they literally see a hot pocket but they make the connection that it looks like a hot pocket) (that example is specific, as it is personal experience LMFAO)

This being said, they can be wrong a lot of the time when they try to infer a killer's intentions, as they sometimes just can't see the intentions being anything else than what they see. They have to rely on others for reference, to mimic their thinking patterns and then make a final guess at the killer's intentions. That's why Will and them connect so easily, as Will usually thinks straight AND helps reader figure it out in their own view. They help the team with investigations for other perspectives while Will helps with the "finalized" guess on the case. If this doesn't make sense, I can give another example, as I don't really know how else to word this. I doubt anyone will actually read any of this and I'm fine with that, I'm just rambling about my ideas. I swear to god though, if someone takes this idea without credit (in general, like the big picture of it) I will cry so so hard you will drown in my tears. Deadass.

Enjoy my rambles ig :)

#safe keeping #fanfiction #hopefully ill remember that