#but they dont have to be to be considered worth something

[1800-lemonadeg1rl]

Sleepless nights

Natasha Romanoff x reader

Minors dni!! Masterlist°•☆

Summary - you go on a routine mission which ends badly how will your girlfriend react

Warnings - gunshots, violence, bullet wounds, mention of stitches, likely medically incorrect, blood, hospital? Not proofread

word count - 1.5k

A/n - I dont know what happened while writing this its all a blackout. As always any feedback is rlly appreciated!!!

It was just supposed to be another simple routine mission. Over and done with in a matter of hours. But of course nothing was ever as easy as predicted.

It had all been going with relative ease until you and Clint were fighting off agents left and right. Something you were usually both good at. However where you'd found yourselves was very much enclosed meaning you couldn't run and you had no idea how many or where these agents were coming from. Your backs were against each other as you moved in circular motions around the room.

"You did this you know, everything was going just fine until you said 'wow this mission has been quite the breeze.'" You mimick Clints earlier words in a squeaky high pitched voice while taking out a couple agents. "Couldn't have just waited till we were on the quinjet could you?"

"Look I really thought it was over. At least I wasn't the one who knocked over the vase alerting everyone in the Tri-state area of our location." He pipes back as you both fall into the usual bickering banter you often did, squabbling like small children. You and Clint had always been close and worked well with each other despite the constant pecking at each other. You'd become even closer once you'd gotten together with his best friend Natasha. Well, after he stopped threatening you about breaking her heart that is.

"Okay well atleast I'm not stupid."

"Yeah real mature. What does that even mean?" He retorts back with a chuckle at how quickly you begin to lose an argument and just throw childish insults at him.

"I thought you'd be smart enough to understand a simple senten-.." You trail off as you see an agent aiming at Clint, one he hadn't noticed. Though you considered letting the agent hit him and getting to be considered the better fighter it wasn't worth letting your friend die just to one up him.

"Clint watch out." You yell frantically as you watch the agent take aim. Clint wasn't going to have time to move. You panicked and shoved him to the floor knocking him from the bullet.

You don't think much of it when you don't see the bullet land or even when you vision blurs. It's only you notice somethings up when you see a blood splattering on your hand. Instinctively you look for Clint worried something hit him but you find him staring right back at you. That's when you feel the searing pain from your hip. Placing a hand over it to find out what's wrong, you feel a cold and wet substance spilling from it.

Thats when everything starts spinning. Moving too quick but not fast enough at all. The pain feeling worse, like nothing you've ever felt before as the adrenaline wears off and the severity of the situation sets in.

"Y/n look at me." Clints voice is grounding and calm making you briefly feel better. "There's no agents left okay. We're going to walk together to the quinjet, don't rush yourself it's going to be okay." You nod along even though your unsure you'll be able to walk that far as your vision fades in and on like a flickering TV.

He moves over to you and presses your hand firmly over the wound. "Keep your hand there and apply as much pressure as you can." Despite the way you stumble around as you try to apply any pressure at all to the wound he still sounds calm like he believes you can do this.

His hand hooks around you helping hold you up as the two of you begin a slow walk back. Things aren't looking too bad at first I mean sure you can hardly see infront of you an everytime you open your mouth to speak the only thing that sounds is a groan of pain but your managing it, you feel yourself believe you'll be able to do this walk back.

That is all before you trip over a stone which sends you tumbling onto your front, directly where the bullet wound is is where you hit the hardest when you fall causing you to scream out in pain with a noise you never knew you'd make. Clint immediately tries to pull you back to your feet while telling you how close you are to getting home but it's no use as your body goes stiff, legs refusing to move.

"Natasha is gonna kill me." I mumble half heartedly as he holds me up and my vision fades for what I believe might be the final time.

"Not if she kills me first." He chuckles and that's the last thing you hear before everything goes black.

Two days. Two whole days they said you were out for. You missed two days. Two days where you didn't see Natasha but she saw you, she sat by you every minute she could and when she couldn't sit anymore she slept by you not leaving for a second. She wouldn't even leave your hospital room for food. Clint having to practically force food down her throat so she didn't end up in a hospital bed alongside you.

You blinked awake. You'd been awake about an hour prior but were too drugged up to process anything going on and had quickly fallen back into your slumber. This time you were much more determined to stay awake, that and your pain medication was wearing off and you could begin to feel a sharp pain replacing the previously dull one.

As you woke yourself up to the bright white fluorescent lights of the hospital, those lights which practically felt blinding. Giving you little time to adjust to being awake, Natasha started speaking.

"So what happened?" She sounded angry. A little rough maybe as the Russian tinged her accent slightly in a way you only heard few times. As you located where her voice had come from, a small chair just to the left of your bed. Now that you could see her she seemed more worn out or stressed out the angry. Dark circles lurked under her eyes as her forhead creased showing visible lines.

"Uh.. didn't uhm.. Clint... tell you." You slowly mumble out as you try to push myself into a sitting position but before you can Natasha is up and pushing you back down to lie down.

"The doctor said you can't sit up yet or you'll move the stitches. And no he hasn't explained anything, so you better." She lays your head back on the pillow with such a contrasting softness to the way she's speaking which is almost as if she's interrogating you.

You roll your head over the side to face her as you recount what you remember from the mission. "So basically me and Clint, well especially me are kicking ass knocking these agents to the ground. But then one aims at Clint and I push him out the way and now we're here." You explain the best you can but it's just so difficult when your heads all fuzzy and until five minutes ago you were convinced you were dead. "I thought I was gonna die 'Tasha."

"You shouldn't put yourself at risk like that baby." She says while brushing stray hairs away from your face and back behind your ears. "Things could have been a lot worse.." her voice trails off all usual roughness gone as she appears as if she may break down crying at any second. "I could have lost you."

That's all it takes for you to start crying as hot tears stream your face making it hard to see anything. Seeing your deteriorating emotional state Natasha makes the descion to crawl into the bed next to you. "Oh hush now, it's alright. I was just worried about you lyubov." she coos while leaning over to kiss your dampened cheek.

"I know I know.. I'm just really sorry... I dont ever want to lose you Natasha." Your tears keep falling despite her soft, reassuring words.

"Y/n, I don't want to lose you either. Which is why I think it could be time we retired before either of us do. Of course it's up to you though, I won't pressure you."

It takes you a minute to process her words but when you do your glad for them. You'd been considering at least cutting down your workload recently but hadn't considered Natasha would be open to retirement at such a young age. You can feel your face break out into a small smile as she suggests it herself. Her own face is one of nervous apprehension as she chews on her lip.

"Yes. Please I want nothing more than to retire and with you." You reach in to kiss her face eagerly. Your lips smothering hers in an almost desperate fashion as if you were worried it could be your last.

"If this is what retirement is like I cant wait." She whispers as she pulls away from your lips, nipping them gently first. She cups your face in her hands before leaning back in.

#natasha romanoff x reader #natasha romanoff fluff #natasha romanoff #natasha romanov #natasha x reader #natasha x you #natasha romanoff x you #natasha romanoff x gender neutral reader #natasha x y/n #hurt/comfort natasha Romanoff #lemonade writes☆• #possibly terrible #im half asleep again

[hannaxjo]

okay i've seen like a few of these posts, especially in tik tok, where people are like "Natasha could win any of the avengers in hand to hand combat," and then everyone fights in the comments as usual, which i actually don't mind, that's just how comments work. But these videos piss me off so much. Cause like first of all, no she couldn't. Thor is a literal god with inhumane strength, thunder powers etc. Hulk is, well Hulk, like c'mon. And Steve is a supersoldier, which doesn't just mean inhumane strength but also speed, agility, reflexes, quick thinking, ability to see strategies and calculate etc. Clint and Tony she could beat tho, in hand to hand. But the reason why this piss me off so much isn't because it's inaccurate, but because the reason these claims are made because she is a woman. And like i get it, it's supposed to be like positive "feminism yay! women can do shit" but that's not what it really is. that's not what it says. what it really says is "she has to be the best to be worth anything." and i am so sick and tired of this treating from movies and fans towards female characters. this attitude of "she has to be perfect". it is so dehumanizing. and i see this treatment towards Natasha everywhere in the marvel fandom. she is portrayed as scary, invincible robot. can we let her make mistakes, can we let be vulnerable, can we let her have weaknesses? Can we treat her as a fucking human?

When you treat Natasha as invincible, perfect, and as someone who doesn't make mistakes, you're not being feminist. You're dehumanizing her.

#natasha romonova #natasha romanoff #natalia romanoff #marvel #mcu #black widow #rant #feminism #strong female character does not mean physically strong #it means well written and complex #natasha is not a robot #natasha is a human #let natasha have feelings #let natasha be human #stop dehumanizing her #im so pissed #it is infuriating #women can be the best #but they dont have to be to be considered worth something #make women diverse

[puppyeared]

what if i snapped and made an oc carrd

#i mean.... i could #this isnt the first time ive thought of doing it but i drop ocs so easily its not even funny. so idk if itd be worth it #id consider toyhouse or smth but i dont have money lol. right now everythings on artfight but thats more for drawing purposes #what ocs would i even talk abt... i have some standalones like auggie and ocs i think look cool but dont plan on using #but some others have their own stories.. not like a huge thought out plot but something i pick up and twirl around in my head #like luckys whole deal is being a hiking guide who accidentally gets tied up with some werewolves pretending to be a hiking group to eat pp #and then i have the magician rivals. although i kinda wanna tie theirs with the nightguard and thief story ive been cooking. maybe in the #same universe? it would be pretty funny if they lived in the same apartment complex since a couple stories i have in mind revolve around th #its like some sort of omnibus or anthology to me. kicks my feet #and then fan characters like xin ya and sleight who i want to have their own expanded lore and stuff. i think that would be cool #im making crow a powerpoint of xins updated lore but the assignmence are making it hard. hopefully it turns out good though #i have a hard time writing personality and xins is always the hardest bc theyre probably the least like me. i tend to stick to #characters similar to myself to get in their head. but bc their backstory affects their personality so strongly i have to do some thinking #anyway. hopefully i remember this later #yapping #oc #oc talk #ive also been playing neko atsume recently for nostalgia and why did we as a society ever stop playing it. its so chill #you just take pictures of silly little cats and leave them silly little toys and treats. and the music is cute

[the-kipsabian]

hi i havent really posted anything over there in a while and i dont feel like ive created anything ive really liked and writing in general is a chore i just. cant find myself to get really excited about right now

but i have fics over at @underratedandoverit or over on ao3

#idk usually posting this doesnt do me any favors but im just kinda sad and desperate tonight about stuff and especially making it so like #for what its worth. heres my fics #if you could at least consider reading something. please. i would really appreciate it ;; #depression has just been having a real good hold of me and while i do a lot of thinking and stuff just making anything or feeling good about #them is just. really fucking difficult rn #and it doesnt help that the reach of my stuff just keep decreasing with every fic. like i dont blame anyone i know its my fault but like #yeah. idk. again if someone could just at least look at something that would be nice ;; #night is an absolute mess on main

[softshuji]

y'know it's a night when hal sits and eats cereal in the dark room at 1.30am.

#i was thinking abt it earlier #but i've been crying so much lately like so much. almost every second day if not every day and i dont know why #actually i do kinda know why. #i think im hitting my limit with a lot of things and one of them is my parent dumping their problems on me #earlier today my mom told me again abt the whole debacle with my dad cheating on her multiple times and everyone knows i find this subject #too much for me i dont tlike to think about it or anything and im so tired of hearing it and especially when i lived through it trust me i #was literally there the whole cheating subject is very raw to me for many reasons and im just tired of being the emotional dump so often #especially because she always comes to me for everything all the time and im so sos tire d #everyone always tells me i should consider my own needs as a person and its okay to have them and yk in theory i agree with this but i just #cant. i grew up not having any needs met so how can i let myself have them now it makes me feel absolutely awful with myself to even #consider having to ask for something off someone and yet i know how wrong this is iknow needa and desires and wants are natural #but mine have always been on the back burner for everyone else. so its' no surprise ive let myself think im something to be used for other #peoples sake. whether that be physically or emotionally and especially the latter. because thats how i see myself someitmes. something #something to make people feel betetr about themselves that has no use outside of how i make them feel - just something to use until they #move onto the next best thing. something more entertaining and better value whatever that might mean something with less feelings less #sensitive. it feels like sometimes thats what i am. the indestructible never breaking hal that somehow has a solution to everything and can #always be there to fix every issue and is there to make people feel better but needs nothing in response #and god it really does feel like my problems dont mean anything to anyone #it does feel like no one thinks theyre worth anything #not worth listening to not worth thr same attention etcetc and yknow what i hate hate hate asking for attention and yet i get upset when i #feel like im not actually being heard or listened to #and i find it happens so often. sometimes i wanna hear it just once for once i wanna hear 'hey its okay to be upset i wish i could hug you' #or something like that god i dont want to be strong and nursing my wounds in private anymore #god i want a hug so bad and someone to just let me cry on them just once i want to be held and told someones got me instead of me doing it #for everyone else all the time #is thisselfish? it feels selfish to say #this is why it affects me so deeply whenever anyone does validate me or tells me its ok to want things or that im loved or anything nice #god i cant handle niceness at all it feels like it knocks me so bad it takes me ages to recover #and yet somehow all i can tell myself is that theyre only saying nice things because theyre being obligated to and not becayuse they feel #like they actually like me

[thecherrygod]

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#my posts #you know how this usually goes #i make an amount of tags so that if you read this its bc you've clicked and its not bc i am just posting it like whatever lmao #... unsure if i should even post it tho but what else do i do just leave it in my brain? idk maybe its the same maybe its better #maybe its worse? .... why have i been feeling kind of like this and at this kind of intensity for like about 2 weeks or more #2 weeks is how long ive been properly aware so i think its more but like. man. #like maybe its been like a month and i just havent been keeping track of time bc january is way too long to even try lmao #. but. idk. i just wish i could be kinda.. stable. like i cant feel good lmao #like it truly doesn't matter nothing is good enough in general #what i do isnt good enough #what goes on around me doesnt help trying to ignore the constant.. dread? #and like all things considered i should be doing good currently #or at least not this bad #but here i am constantly trying to not let myself feel too bad until im alone bc man. #so... yeah it just doesnt feel like anything is truly worth it not me as a person nor the things i do nor the things i experience lmao #also lately ive been just feeling more..... disconnected to others... like i dont understand them and they dont understand me #but like.. more than usual #and i guess its me? that it's kind of a me problem #idk I'm just tired. i need to sleep. i want to let face down on some sort of big water body or do something that will make my life worse #or they i will regret lmao #i. wont do any of those #also when i mean face down in some sort of bldy of water or whatever i dont necessarily mean like die #not against it but its not the only option #just lay there and float..... also not against it #i just want something that i cant have i guess bc im not sure what it is #like i just know what i want is to not constantly feel like this but idk how lmao #... u would sleep if i can bc man also I'm so tired #.... adding tags its a bit worse than I assumed lmao im also thinking about wether i deserve stuff or not lmao #like it got windy and cooler and i was like 'a blanket by my legs would be nice' only to be like 'no you don't deserve that ' like ah yeah #its kinda worse than i thought lmao

[hershelwidget]

I recently had the funniest PT experience of the year but I CANNOT show any of the drawings I made for it EXCEPT FOR

Jack, Sans, and Sidon defending themselves very poorly from an unseen threat

#due to recent events these three are besties now. dont fight with me #jack skellington #sans undertale #prince sidon #what exactly happened was this weird person was harassing me (jack) and being quite creepy #and then started doing it to my friend (sidon) and a stranger (sans) as well #i was in on the bit by that point (accepting my fate) and pulled out a saw and said something about defending the colony #also it is worth noting that me and sans had hid behind sidon and thats when he got fully roped in as well #and then they both somewhat hid behind me a while later and i pulled out a saw #and then YONA was there (another stranger) and the weirdo started harassing h e r #.i consider the whole experience funny in retrospect because its just. the normal pt experience. #if you’re in a skin of a particularly popular character this WILL happen to you #that and. its very similar to an experience i had as osmosis jones over a year ago :3 #but thats not all! me and silon ended up at a hosting and long story short we both have some. interesting artwork of the events #MOVING ON

[mayamelodyegg]

okay this post pissed me off so much i needed to make a response post for it because the logic in this tweet is so ass backwards it gives me a headache. for context the aphex this is referring to is aphex twin aka richard d james. he is seen as one of the pioneers of idm/braindance so people put a ton of value into his works. in 2015 he dumped a MASSIVE amount of his works that totalled up to 20 hours onto an anonymous soundcloud page. he did then delete a good portion of them later but whoever got to download them got them all for free. a majority of the tracks were demos and experimental pieces with about a dozen or so fully formed tracks . none of this was for a label and he even nearly got in trouble for doing this

an artists worth is not based on their monetary value. an artists releasing hundreds of their works for free has not "changed the game," even moreso from the fact that the majority of the dump was unfinished content and on an anonymous account. art shouldnt BE a game. why on earth would this be a bad thing in ANY sense besides the artist not getting money for it. is a musicians stuff suddenly worth less because you didnt pay a fucking cent for it???? like they WANTED??????

its even worse to imply that other musicians are now less valuable in some way because people are .. downloading a famous guys music for free. it goes back to that money = power capitalist bootlicker mentality that is killing music and other forms of art as a medium . the kind of mentality that yes, the "major streaming platforms" youre talking about ARE perpetuating and SHOULD be blamed for

go to your local gigs. buy cds from the artists you want to support. change the """"game"""" into something you want to see instead of scapegoating someone and tapdancing around the real issue. aphex twin did not change shit for giving out freebies

#maya haunts the dash #[youtuber sigh] i dont usually make posts like this #aphex twin #please dont go out and find this tweet or i will delete this in case it does blow up #i dont expect it to i dont have nearly enough followers but #i just wanted to write something #artists should be paid. artists should not base their worth on the amount they get #i do not consider this a long post but jic #long post

[terraxart]

Exploring my gender and sexuality through the lens of my middle aged oc, I guess Boone specifically. He'd be the one who'd struggle with the idea of "masculinity" and an internal conflict of wanting to be loved vs. not believing he deserves it do to who he is. He's the most masculine presenting of my trio, but he's the one defying most of societies established gender norms, mostly being a stay at home husband majority of the time (i mean having two other partners is already defying in itself).

I dunno there's something euphoric about writing and displaying one of my ocs, who struggled and still struggles with having to prove that he is worth something, allowing himself to being taken care of by the people that love him and returning that love in way that is his own.

#boone #terra talks #ive been getting attached to Boone for awhile mostly cause hes fear of having to present more masculine to be worth something #is my fear of having to present more feminine to be considered appealing or ya know worth anything at all #i wish I was in a better place wear I could present more masculine but i dont live in a place thats understanding like that #so the least i can is do to relieve these anxieties is to give that space to my ocs cause if I can will them to have one #maybe one day ill be comfortable enough to look at myself in the mirror again

[polaraffect]

lol you know it's bad when you start going "okay so if I just give up now and fully fail this class, how bad will it really be?"

#damien.txt #answer: not.... that bad? could be worse. #leaves my gpa at like. 3.7. so. that's really not that terrible #but also would be bad no matter what if i went into grad school or something like that #but also i dont even know if ill do that bc the sheer concept feels overwhelming and awful #like...... ngl. im at this point where im like. willing to give up on that lol #im just.... so tired. and i dont have the motivation nor passion to get through grad school yknow? #so. other options would be ideal. perhaps. #but yeah. it's pretty bad #might change it to pass/fail but like. legit can't tell if that's more or less worth. considering im prob going to fail either way #have an academic meeting abt it in like 3 hrs lol but yeah. just having a lot of thoughts #ahahaha academics when you have mental illnesses that are unmedicated is! awful!

[sonknuxadow]

with every new collector monster high release i become more and more convinced that theyre just deciding the prices at random because what the fuck makes fang vote rochelle worth 90 dollars when they just sold that chucky and tiffany two pack for 90 dollars and none of these dolls look like they should cost 90 dollars anyway

#also what makes every other doll worth like 70+ dollars when they just sold that ghoulia doll for 50 #you had to pay for that membership to get her i think so its actually 60. but Still. #tbh. while i personally wouldnt spend 90 dollars on a two pack of dolls #if the dolls are actually really nice i can see why it would be worth it to some people #but the chucky and tiffany two pack doesnt look like it should cost 90 dollars???? at all??? #maybe it has a really cool detailed box or comes with a bunch of accessories or something but the dolls themselves #dont look like they should cost that much. feels like theyre just overcharging because a popular movies name is attached to it #and this is not hate to the dolls themselves i dont really know anything about the characters theyre based on but i think they look fine #i just dont think they should cost 90 dollars (actually its probably closer to 100 when you consider shipping and tax. but whatever) #again it feels like theyre pricing things at random #and making things as expensive as possible because they know a lot of g1 only collectors are desperate and will buy anything #so they can get away with it #this all comes from somebody who never buys the collector monster high stuff because most of it doesnt interest me #i only ever buy playline stuff because im satisfied with that + they feel more worth it for the prices theyre asking for #but still. i am allowed to have opinions

[princekirijo]

Consider: Riku's self esteem takes a hit after a shadow holds him hostage for only 67 cents

HELP I'll be fully honest with you Riku would be more annoyed that the shadow didn't add an extra 2 cents 😭😭

#asks #latenitewaffles #koopa bro #akira: ok dude dont worry we'll get you out of there #riku: nah FUCK this bro shadow guy raise it by two #akira: hilarious but plz not now #tbf riku's self esteem is low enough he wouldn't be too phased but he'd def PRETEND to be bothered LMAO #hilarious considering riku's net worth is crazy high 😭 #actually i assume it would be tbh ive never looked into how much net worth kids of rich people would have?? #cause technically they dont own any of the stuff??? idk??? #prob something i should looked into #although maybe akira would be in on it and be like “yeah dude raise it by two 😼” #oc tag #riku kirijo

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#just turning over the idea of executive functioning issues in my head part by part. impulse control. im extremely tightly controlled. im the #best at control. the only times im impulsive is when someone asks me something and my brain doesn't work well in the moment so i tend to b #like fuck it: says something that might fuck me over later bc im like whatever itll prob b fine lol. but mostly not an issue. emotional #control. i dont lash out at ppl except myself i guess. ill sometimes have freak out meltdowns bc i get so frustrated with myself plus mood #weirdness. so not great. flexible thinking. im pretty rigid. if plans randomly change theres like a 1 in 3 chance ill freak out and start #crying and it takes me a long time to adjust to the idea that i have to chsnge something. and things tend to have to b a certain way #not for any reason in particular. thats just how it has to b. i have to eat the same foods. operate at the same times. do thr same things. #thats just how it is. and i find it difficult in social situations to adapt to the flow of convention bc its like but we're talking abt thi #now but something just interrupted and we aren't going abck to that thing. i dont make it other ppls problem but its uncomfortable for me. #working memory. my memory is pretty fucked. self monitoring. im good at that. too good. im pathologically self reflective. planning & #prioritizing. i can plan but i cant prioritize for shit. i will spiral for hours doing nothing bc i can't decide what comes 1st. #task initation. im good at torturing myself into getting things done but i anxiously avoid a lot of things but once i start its like: im in #this mode now. no i cant fucking stop i need this to b done. i need to sit here and finish it otherwise i wont come back to it. i cant do #moderation its all or nothing. all school and nothing outside of that. cant send mail. cant clean sink. i see it and kno i need to do it an #then i just walk away from the disaster area. organization. is ok. it looks a disaster but i only exist in like 3 places so i dont lose #things often but i dont remember where i put things once i put them down i have to deduce where i would have put it. does that paint the #picture of executive functioning issues or rigid and restrictive compulsive behavior paired with self destructive impulses leading to #absolute mental exhaustion which is y things arent getting done? could b either or both. idk my ability to do things 95% of the way and wal #away leaving a mess that ill never come back to strikes me more as the former but what do i #still its worth considering bc i do have an amazing to control myself in a way that's completely out of my control. maybr my start/stop #switch is just fucked idk. slow down and reorient says my counselor u never stop to rest. shes right but also im a grad student stopping #would mean death u gotta keep swimming and doing more than u should. thats how it is #but im so tired and i only get more and more tired. so somethings gotta give eventually #unrelated #i forgot focus. my focus is good sometimes and sometimes my brain is moving too fast and i cant focus at all. its static #but focus is not a thing i cna control

[made-nondescript]

One of the things I think that’s kind of difficult to adapt about Technoblade in AU settings is his relationship with violence and morality. Like, from a probably very young age violence has not been a choice he’s gotten to make; it’s been necessitated either by circumstance or his patronage by the Blood God.

His moral compass forms around this: he will give unto others what they give unto him. He has no choice but to hurt others, the least he can do is try to direct that violence to bad people who ostensibly deserve it. After operating on such a rigid system of morality for so long it’s become second nature and he doesn’t really critically think about it much any more, leading him to make choices that from the outside seem unjustly cruel and perhaps are.

Keeping this attitude/personality and penchant for violence without otherwise justifying/explaining it leads to him just seemingly like a cruelty loving dick. (Which wouldn’t be a problem if that were the point!) Exacerbated by the fact that a lot of Technoblade AU fics aren’t about him, but rather the SBI family dynamic.

#been thinking about this a lot w the superhero fics ive been reading / re-reading and also other au fics #so often techno has never been wronged by anyone and yet will do something that feels incredibly unjustified and outside the tone of the fic #the longer i go on about this though the closer i get into anti sbi territory because oh boy is his character neglected for sbi #but at LEAST its not mutilated like phils. so theres that. #i should say OFTEN neglected and OFTEN mutilated #hashtag not all sbi fics #ALSO........not worth its own post but while im complaining under the guise of thoughtful character commentary #HATE when people have techno call tommy theseus on au fic without considering the thematic reason hes called that in canon #esp bc it is SO clunky a lot of the time #SOMETIMES IT DOES WORK!! but when it doesnt oh boy #nondescript post #im not main tagging this i dont think im wrong im just terrified of embarassing myself in front of the cool technoposters

[superhero-smackdown]

“being mean to Duke” aka acknowledging he’s not Bruce’s son

NO WE ARE NOT HAVING THE DISCOURSE HERE ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS NOT EVEN MY OWN POST??

#PLEASE i personally consider duke to be the rest of the batkids siblings this has nothing to do with whether hes bruces kid or not #its shady its a gray area please im not having the discourse for a poll thats not even my own #this CANNOT be my first explosive discourse please i want it to be something worth discoursing if it mist be done #also im am purposefully exaggerating because i want you to vote batfam please dont take that personal now is not the time to complain #asks #superhero smackdown #also if this is about no voting for lilo and nani #please consider i have never seen lilo and stitch

[alphalesbian]

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#its like every now and again i am brought down by a terrible loneliness and am forced to remind myself i have in fact more or less #been alone in some sense of the word for more than a few years now theres been such incredible lengths of my lived adulthood where ive #been to deal with everything on my plate entirely by myself for the most part. not to say that i have been like Alone ive kept busy and all #but sometimes i have to remind myself its been years and years since ive had what i would call even some kind of community. and its a #necessary pain to reflect that That is probably why routinely i am completely leveled by some loneliness. this goes of course without sayin #a lot of this is circumstance why i would maybe end up so alone but the reality is im often the only one who gets me im often the only ear #can open up to im often the only one there to catch myself slipping the only one there to take care of myself when im hurting or sick or #tired. and its not that i dont ask for help. something something circumstance where i dont get it from other people #hardly a thing worth stopping myself over but the moments where i have to pick myself up by my own bootstraps for the nth time completely i #the dark by myself its hard not to feel small. looked past. even though im really doing quite okay all things considered. still quite #unfortunately alone and equally isolated and drained of any energy to change this or get out and find community (if i had the space and #the time and the money of course dont forget about the money) #and at the deepest reaches of this feeling i can only see cosmically that this is what im supposed to be doing. to some strange effect that #I Am at least on the right path as tucked away small and hidden and invisible as this may make me feel. bc its never a hard contrast to mak #that if i did have the ability to truly embrace and make a change in that regard would i? would i do it right? could i keep it? where would #that take me? and of course the answer is in this state id just fumble it. and be right back here #when do i get to have that fire in my hands unequivocally where i may finally furiously rid myself of this isolation this loneliness either #forever or long enough to make the change from this lack of connection and community i truly have?