#can time go faster already

[soapdispensersalesman]

Listening to Dutch waiting music while actually waiting for important letters

#waiting music #dutch music #Friesland #Fryslân #Joost #Joost Klein #Tantu Beats #wachtmuziek #can time go faster already #time is going too slow for me right now #Spotify #happy hardcore #hyperpop #pop #gabberpop

[sergle]

I think my favorite thing about doing ginger red hair instead of cherry red hair is: lying to people about it

#I love the cherry red / wine red and I'll probably go back at some point bc it's my Origin. #but for now. #I don't actively lie to people but bc it's a Natural and Plausible hair color #and I'm already pale and I dye my eyebrows to match my hair. ppl figure it's natural #and it has come up MULTIPLE TIMES. and I've recently been rolling with it instead of correcting ppl. bc who cares? #recent examples that come to mind (but I did correct them in this one) my surgeon assuming it was natural #and using my genetics as a natural redhead as a baseline to tell me about what I can expect from my future scarring #and then again later with the anesthesia. they were going to dose me differently #the anesthesiologist glanced at me when I came into the OR and was getting the stuff ready on his cart #and when he heard me talking to my doc and re-telling him that oh the hair isn't natural #he was behind the curtain like FUCK #taking shit off his cart and quietly redoing his setup #that's how I learned that redheads need higher doses of anesthesia than other ppl. #they also need more of the topical stuff like lidocaine. apparently they metabolize it faster(?) #ANYWAY he was going to up my dose thinking I needed it lol #so i almost got way more sedatives and pain meds than i needed bc of my hair dye LMAOOO #other more Normal Life examples was a country dude in full hunting gear holding a door open for me someplace #and I said thank you and he lifted his hat up to point at his (natural) red hair and said ''twins!'' #this one sticks with me because that was such a cute thing to do. what the hell #and at snakefest I was talking to some people at their food truck. there was an older guy who trapped me into a convo for like 30mins #he was Very Nice. and they were going to some type of irish festival next and said I should go too bc I'll be right at home #flat out just was like. this bitch looks irish #and I don't know why all of this is so funny to me. it has no reason to be.

[queenlunafreed]

Since I read this chapter I haven't been able to sit still, so here's a little something I couldn't stop thinking about.

I really love that Kagi spoke so openly about why he likes the 10-second touch. It's a huge step from last chapter, where we saw him struggling to find the words to explain what he feels when they touch. He had even been hoping that Hirano figured it out from just the hug alone.

Now with Hirano taking the initiative, both in terms of the touch and in defining what they're doing in his own words ("I mean, this is supposed to be practice to see if I could ever think of you as my boyfriend, so..."), something probably clicked for Kagi. He already knew that Hirano was trying to understand him, but I think it's now that Kagi realizes they'd gotten to this point in their relationship because he didn't shy away from expressing his feelings in the simplest of terms: "I'm saying that I'm in love with you. In the romantic sense."

The only one who could truly help Hirano understand Kagi's feelings is Kagi himself. There's no need to make it complicated, to search for the "right" words to make Hirano see why Kagi treats their agreement to touch like lovers so seriously.

We see him trying to express that in chapter 20, though he focuses more on the "fairness" of it instead of telling Hirano how his touch makes Kagi feel.

It almost appears like Kagi is stalling. We know he cares about being fair, he said as much to Niibashi, but it isn't the full reason. And Hirano notices.

And when he does get around to saying that he enjoys touching Hirano, it doesn't sound very convincing, because Kagi is still searching for those "perfect" words.

Even though this chapter was more about Hirano's introspection on their current circumstances, it was wonderful to see Kagi being unapologetically in love with Hirano again.

#hirano to kagiura #kagiura akira #kagihira #chapter 21 #this chapter lived in my head rent-free all day #went in with high expectations #got what i wanted and then some #can time go faster? i need it to be august already

[coquelicoq]

just had the thought "after i exhaust the french fiction, poetry, and textbooks i own, i could read the french dictionary cover to cover" and got, like, GENUINELY excited about it.

#this is the best idea anyone has ever had! #no more wondering how to pronounce things. no more wondering what a word means. it's right there! it tells you!!!!!! #i already read the dictionary on a semi-regular basis but never the whole thing just certain sections at a time #and not out loud. this would be reading out loud #also it would be in french obviously. usually when i read the dictionary i'm reading the english dictionary #(or more accurately the english section of a dual-language dictionary since i don't own a regular english dictionary) #i don't actually think this would be an effective way to acquire new vocab and then retain it but it sounds SO fun #it's going to take me like a year to read all the french fiction poetry and textbooks i own but after that. watch out world!! #french #lecture du dico #my posts #in other news i retook this vocabulary quiz that i last took about 9 months ago #and at the time i scored in the lower 47th percentile and it was like congrats! you have the vocabulary of an 8yo in france! #and THIS time i scored in the higher 47th percentile (+6%) and NOW i apparently have the vocabulary of a 10yo in france! #hah! in your face french children! it takes you two years to learn the words i can learn in nine months!!!! #(this is a joke the quiz probably has like a 5% margin of error lol) #(also french children are DEFINITELY learning french faster than me. no question. but let me have this)

[seariii]

Can the world shut up foR AT LEAST 5 MINUTES?! *turns up volume of my music*

#vent post #from a moment to another they started making SO MANT ANNOUNCEMENTS I COULDNT EVEN HEAR MY OWN THOUGHTS #SHUT UUUUPPPPP YOU ALREADY SAID THAT 5 TIMES #I KNOW ITS YOUR WORK SO I WOULD NEVER SAY THIS TO YOUR FACE BECAUSE YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING GOOD AND THIS IS A ME PROBLEM #BUT DAAAAAMN #*covers my ears over my earbuds* PLEASE SHUT UP OR LET TIME GO FASTER SO I CAN BOARD MY PLANE AND HAVE QUIET #seari talks

[running-in-the-dark]

kinda disappointed with how this weekend went. I mean, it wasn't bad! but it was our first weekend in the new apartment, and I/we wanted to get a lot done. I already did a lot during the week (a lot for me, not a lot for most people I guess), but there's lots of things that I can't do/can't do on my own, either because I'm too short or not strong enough or I need someone else to hold something or whatever. which realistically just won't get done during the week because my husband works full time, so. it sort of sucks that only one very small, unimportant thing got done. 😔

#like. there's no rush. not really. #I mean we do get our kitchen in two weeks so we'll have to have space to install it then lol #but other than that it's fine #except everyone constantly makes me feel like it isn't. #they're so judgmental and shitty about it #yeah it's chaotic and messy as hell. there's boxes everywhere. we've only found some of our kitchen stuff so we're mostly eating microwave #meals with plastic utensils. all of that stuff #so fucking what? it doesn't affect any of them! I wish they'd just stop commenting on it but they don't. #well. at least it's just over the phone now. I haven't seen my or my husband's family since we moved in and I'm not planning to anytime soon #precisely because they will not stop doing this no matter how I react to it #like in what world would that ever do anything good? it doesn't motivate me to get shit done any faster. because guess what? I'm already #going as fast as I can. #like. I've had (maybe still have) a middle ear infection and been on antibiotics all week and I still got so much done! that's good enough #and this part is fun to me! I like that nothing is finished and everything is possible and new and different #it does also stress me out but so far it mostly feels like an adventure #anyway. I'm just venting but seriously why is everyone I know irl so mean all the time?! #personal

[milkweedman]

Genuinely spending 2 hours a day just prepping the fiber, RIP

To be fair at least a third of that time is pushing the executive function button so I can start the next nest. They're unfortunately one of those activities that has enough steps that each one feels like it's own separate thing, so I have to Start Task each damn time. So there's a 5-10 minute cooldown between them.

Got 9 nests, I think (on top), middle is some fleece that's already had a lot of locks picked out so it's kind of jumbled, bottom is combing waste.

#That's how all fiber prep is for me... I bet if I was actually medicated it'd go faster #but what can you do. #anyway ive done similar things. 2021 tdf i was carding rolags as i went #but those are so much faster !!! like 2 minutes at most and usually closer to 30 seconds for a rolag that takes #around the same amount of time to spin as a nest of top #meanwhile the nests are 10 minutes each IF i have already picked the locks. which ive started doing bc it feels a little faster #and earlier this year i was spending an hour to an hour and a half before work every day combing southdown babydoll for sock yarn #but i was also spinning that up on supported spindles (i spin 3x slower on those than on my wheel) and over the course #of like a 10+ hour shift #so it felt a lot more reasonable #im combing more of this shetland per day than i was the southdown for sure #but yeah it spins up so much faster that its like. whole morning: combing #tiny but nice part of afternoon: actually spinning the top #idk a ton about how ancient people prepared their wool... definitely need to find some info bc it would be fascinating to know #but carding cloth is a pretty recent development in the grand scale of how long humans have kept sheep #so.... yeah i can imagine youd need like 4 kids combing the wool just to keep up with one experienced spinner #or else that one spinner is spending all damn morning prepping wool #its not a great nighttime activity bc if you cant see real well then your prep really suffers #easier to spin in the near dark than prep in the near dark by a long shot #idk ! cool to think about #im rly intruiged by sally pointers video on that blackthorn hand hackle thing (i cant remember the name RIP) #feels like it could comb wool too ? or at least you could try and then make something better when that failed #but a comb of some kind is just gonna be the easiest thing to make if nothing else ... #palm comb #tour de fleece #tour de fleece 2023 #wool prep

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[eggwishing]

little peek at somethjing i am cooking up ...

#this is rlly rough but rn im just blocking everything out #i have like 6.5 pages sketched so far this is already going faster than last time i think..^_^ #im having a blast also #im tryna rewire my brain . every time i think Blehhh i hate drawing i just want to see it done i gotta stop n correct myself #like Hey wait you actually love drawing why are you telling yourself this The process is frustrating sometimes but that comes with art #i had to redraw this one page like 4 separate times and i still didn't feel like giving up #like yeah i was feeling pressed but at the same time i was being patient with myself #like this is part of improving Stop laying on the floor and wondering why you're even doin this you've always loved it #only drawing when u know it's gonna turn out good defeats the whole purpose of learning #also i added cal last minute to this comic and im gladi did he's so creeepy #im very excited to get this done Not impatient like i was before #im impatient for people to see it yeah lol but not w myself #and im not gonna be all like “yeah we'll see how long this lasts lol” bc i think that's already setting myself up for burning out #i have hope that i can keep enjoying art like this I just need to change the way i think #and accept the messy n ugly. the perfect is the enemy of the good #aaron blaise really inspires me. he sincerely loves what he does and i want to be like that #this is also gonna be more comic-like Panelwise i think #scott pilgrim n my bro inspired me #also the way cal's face cuts off on the right makes sense in context he's peekin from behind a chair

[thompsborn]

was about to post a fun fact about one of my original plans for writing the one year anniversary of may’s death in homeward bound before realizing i can incorporate that idea in a similar way for another event i have planned for the sequel which has made me very excited especially because i’ve had that idea for the sequel ever since deciding to make hb a series but i couldn’t think of how to actually write it and now i know EXACTLY how i want to write it.

step one, though: actually finish hb first before focusing too much on hb2

#im going to the library for a bit between shifts today and tomorrow #so i’m gonna try to use that time to like super focus on getting the recaps done so that i can get chapter 17 done #and then chapter 18 i already have planned out and know how i want to write it #so it shouldn’t take long to get done once chapter 17 is finished #esp since i’m VERY excited to get to the sequel which will motivate me to get ch18 done even faster !!!! #homeward bound fic

[lostxmelody]

forgot how to write

#zero words in my head.. #cannot form even a single sentence... #zero words added to doc for two weeks.... #suffering........ #i want to post already but i have nothing done #i can't even think of what i want to put for scenes #perhaps complaining will help motivate me because it's something i enjoy doing #“take your time” well can it take itself any faster? god damn #no one said this to me im arguing with the made-up person in my head #lxm textposts #boo tomato tomato no one cares #go draw midtier art for me stupid faceless creator #aaugghughghghahghhhhhh

[aggressiveguitarnoises]

the more i find out about AI, the more im scared to fully turn to digital art as a career

#i know that human creativity will always be valued since ai is trained om whatever exists already and cant create new stuff specifically #but its all about faster process so ai will def be used by companies for faster production #my parents convincing me to go into digital art and agreed feels like the worst decision ive made #i should have stuck to history and chemistry and went into art conservation like i wanted to #although i still have time maybe without a levels i can still be accepted? but most of my subjects have to do with technology #fuck #art #ai art #vent #artificial intelligence #and the fact that the laws are not catching up with technology and ppl are already using it for bad stuff #96% of ai generated imaged are nsfw. #society shouldn't have access to such ai this fast and openly without laws

[omarfor-orchestra]

I said I wanted to gatekeep my Rai fictions didn't I?

#????? I'm confused by people expectations #it's a rai fiction #it does what rai fictions do #what's there to understand #we're already on thin ice as we are on prime video or netflix you can be as graphic and precise as you want #on rai you need to be liked by the old and new viewers. the government. the sponsors. the host of the show that airs before it #one single step in the wrong direction and you get censored #it's not 'oh the character complexity' #it's the politics #I'm not even sure they make a lot of money with it so it's not even the money #actually if you remember correctly someone said they're not even sure they're gonna give them another season #and i think it's because this one has gone a little bit in the 'wrong' direction #so #don't take it personally if they don't have raw gay sex on tv #we'll get there eventually #revolution takes time #it's a big step forward as it is already #if we go any faster they'll cancel it. of this I'm sure

[forbiddennhoney]

i hope all my friends who i don't talk to as much as i wish i did know they're constantly in my thoughts

#personal #i am in a constant state of agony because of how much i struggle to carry casual convos ): #bc i want to be closer to so many ppl #and i also stink at convos that aren't about specific things #and it makes it really hard to make friends bc the time it takes me to feel comfortable talking regularly is like...... long #and then i don't bother bc i feel like an ass #my heart hurts a little and I'm gonna cry from this insecurity today i can just feel it #esp cause today is the first time my best friend and i are gonna hang on vc even though we've been friends for like 7 years #and ik they don't mind bc they have similar hang ups and they love me and they're really patient with me and such #but also i feel so pathetic that i cant even regularly just call ppl to hang out #i feel like I'm a terrible person and the shittiest friend for having so many limits and boundaries and moving so slow #and the thing is i used to know how to go faster in friendships but between abuse and skill regression I'm...... terrible now #stupid asshole ex #the more i think of my struggles with interpersonal things the more i realize how much he impacted it #like i already stunk at making friends IRL by the time i met him like that's always been a thing #but i used to be so good at making friends online!! #and then he came into my life (as a friend first) and slowly isolated me from everyone for a few years before declaring that we had been- #-dating for a year (we had never officially started a relationship) #and then isolated me more and more until i literally only had him #4 years total with him in my life. #4 years that were crucial to my personhood (17-21) #4 years that by the time i finally managed to get him out of my life i had severely blunted social skills & more trauma than I already had #and now that I'm almost 4 years out from him being in my life (next spring) im realizing just how much he fucked me up #and took advantage of me and exacerbated issues he knew i had (bc i confided in him- he was my friend at first after all) #and even with a lot of work i still have the social skills of a severely abused reactive dog in a shelter #i should talk with my therapist more about this #i still haven't even fully shared my story with her about how he treated me bc every time i start i get so scared and upset i just sob #ugh):

[painfully-unoriginal]

#p #i have to try so hard not to get irritated when ppl ask me over and over again to draw the same thing #like. i feel so mean bc i kno u dont mean to be forceful or whatever. #but after a certain point its like #...... first of all unless i state otherwise i am not taking requests and i am going to draw what i want to at my own pace #and second of all u kno that thing where like #ur already doing something. and then someone tells u to do the thing ur already doing. and then u dont wanna do it anymore #yeah. lmao #and third of all ive already replied to these ppl. ive already given them an answer and yet they continue #either be patient with me or just move on? u asking me over and over isnt gonna make me draw what u want me to #and it certainly isnt gonna make me do it any faster than i already am?? #idk maybe I'm being unreasonable or whatever but it just kinda gets on my nerves #delete later #plus like i have said i have A JOB #a job with very long and demanding hours and as such i have limited time to draw which im absolutely not happy abt either #im doing things as fast as i can and its stressing me out bc i have so much i wanna draw and no time to do any of it #so please. please understand when i say i need to draw what i want at my own pace its for my own sake LMAO

[arabela25]

are you going to make gifsets of each semifinal's entries? or have you already posted something similiar?

I'm planning on making a few gifsets/edits for the semi finals but I'll probably only post them near the contest date

#I am not very ahead for the countdown series because I was away for a few days for a little vacation #so if I can do those faster I can also start on other things #the good news is that I'm gonna have more time to do them and to enjoy eurovision in general #the bad news is that my free time is because I'll be unemployed after next week yay #that was fun to find out after coming from vacation! #to be fair it would be equally or more fun (lol) to find out before so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #and ''it's gonna be fine'' because in theory I have ''potential to do better'' #very annoying to be told that tbh my potential has led me nowhere of note #why do I even have to fulfill my potential anyway would that even make me happy #the science world doesn't need me! #I really don't need a high skilled job to be happy #(I wasn't let go because they weren't satisfied with my work my position will just cease to exist) #(which isn't totally surprising because they've been trying to phase it out for over a year now) #and now I have to find a new job?? in this economy?? #what if the people are Bad #what if there isn't a cool middle-aged single woman for me to desperately want to befriend #and now I'm supposed to stay at home with my mom all day?? doing chores?? cooking lunch every day for my dad and brothers?? 🤢 #I'm sorry rasmusiscute this is not the information you asked for #I will be making gifsets for the semifinals at some point #I'm not sure of anyone else has done already but I'm sure others will too