#char dev`

[ayda--demir]

Where: Mulism Cultural Society Mosque for Berat's Funeral

When: March 19, 2024

Idle fingers tug the headscarf a little tighter around her neck, knelt on a pillow in the third row (children in the second and men in the first) in the prayer room outside of the mosque in Haringey. Inwardly Ayda berated herself for not putting more into the funeral, the last thing she could do was give Berat the ending he deserved, but there was too much in the little time they had. A hand reached out, taking Ma’s hand in hers, catching sight of Emine on the other side, holding the opposite hand. At least she was able to accomplish one thing, giving Ma the time to process and grieve, leaving the arrangements to her. 

All those in attendance, and the body, faced in the direction of Mecca. The whole community had shown up, and those that cared for him, and it made her sad that he couldn’t see all of those who loved him, let him know that he wasn’t alone. She wanted to believe that he was looking down at them. That he was in a better place. 

The Iman stands facing them, ready to give the prayer. “God is greater.” 

“God is greater,” all the voices echo. 

“In the name of God, the Compassionate, the Merciful. Praise be to God, the Lord of the Universe, the Compassionate, the Merciful, Sovereign of the Day of Judgment! You alone we worship, and to You alone we turn for help. Guide us to the straight path, the path of those whom You have favoured, not of those who have incurred Your wrath, nor those who have gone astray.” The Iman’s voice carries a power that resonates in Ayda. 

“God is greater,” all the voices echo once more. 

“Allah, we ask You to raise the rank of Muhammad, and have mercy upon the Al (family, friends, and everyone else present for the funeral) of Muhammad, as You raised the rank of Ibrahim (Abraham), and the Al of Ibrahim. Verily, You are the One Who deserves to be praised and thanked, and the One Who is glorified. O Allah, we ask You to bless Muhammad, and the Al of Muhammad, as You blessed Ibrahim, and the Al of Ibrahim. Verily, You are the One Who deserves to be praised and thanked, and the One Who is glorified.”

“God is greater,” a choir of voices rang. 

“Allah, grant forgiveness to our living and to our dead, and to those who are present and to those who are absent, and to our young and our old folk, and to our males and females. O Allah! Whomsoever you grant to live, from among us, help him to live in Islam, and whom of us you cause to die, help him to die in faith. Grant especially this dead person your ease, rest, forgiveness and consent Allah, if he acted well, then increase for him his good action, and if he acted wrongly, then overlook his wrong actions. Grant him security, glad tidings, generosity and closeness to you. We seek Thy blessings, Thou art the most Merciful.”

 “God is greater,” a moment of silence follows, then all those in unison along with the Iman finish the prayer. “May the peace and mercy of Allah be upon you.”

She can feel the tears start to swell in her eyes, giving Berat’s mothers hand a small squeeze in reassurance that she wasn’t alone. Slowly the front row stands, taking a moment to pass by Berat’s body, a silent goodbye said. Next the children went, a few words murmured. Lastly, the women stand, letting them all take a turn before leaving the end for herself, Emine and Berat’s mother. 

She can’t believe she’s saying goodbye. 

Emine leads them, tears streaming down her cheeks and given the custom, she was doing a good job holding it together. A hand comes to rest on top of his and she can hear what the girl whispers. 

“I want you to know that you are the best big brother. I know we had our differences, but I wouldn’t have wanted to do this world without you. I love you, always.” She leans down to kiss his forehead, moving to let Ma take her turn. 

“My sweet boy. Life is not fair.” The words are heard between the sobs. “I will pray for you every day. I love you.” She placed a kiss upon his forehead, Emine reaching to take her head. 

And that left Ayda, standing there looking at the man she was so certain she would have spent the rest of her life with. “May you be at peace. I will look out for them.” That she could promise them. “I’m sorry for leaving.” The last words she whispers, moving away. 

The burial grounds are not too far off, a line of people following behind the men carrying Berat’s body and he is slowly lowered into his grave. Muslims did not believe in cremation, that there will be a physical resurrection on Judgement Day, and Ayda wished for nothing more. 

Ma, Ayda and Emine are the first to throw three handfuls of dirt onto his grave, reciting a small prayer. 

“Out of it We (Allah) created you, And into it We deposit you, And from it We shall take you out once again.” 

The rest of the family, friends and the community do the same, reciting the same words. A lot of hands wiping under eyes and hugs shared amongst those there. 

It wasn’t long until everyone was invited to Tamamen Dolu for food and drinks, a custom that would have taken place at Ma’s, but this felt like a better setting and would allow her to go home when she was ready. Where she knew it would be quiet for her. . 

Ayda kept busy, making sure everyone had something to drink and food on a plate, it gave her a way to keep her mind distracted. 

When the night was starting to wind down, she caught sight of Emine sitting at the table that had their engravement. 

She moves to stand behind her, a hand reaching up to unclasp the necklace from around her neck, moving to place it around Emine’s. 

“Ayda, what are you doing?” Emine questions her, turning her head before a hand comes up to wrap around the ring hanging from it. 

“I think you should have this.” It was breaking her to give the last piece of Berat she had, but it felt right giving it to Emine. “That was the engagement ring he got for me. I wanted to give you something to remember him by.” 

Emine sits there speechless for a second, head turning to look down at the ring. “Ayda…I…” Ayda could feel the tears return and when she saw Emine’s face after she slipped out of the chair, it seemed both of them were doing the same. Arms wrap around her, letting hers wrap around the other. “Thank you.” She whispers.

#self-para #character development #char dev` #flashback #haringey #community #berat's funeral #//anyone who would have liked to be there can write a self-para #//there are some customs - i can send a link #//pretend Emine is wearing a headscraf

[charlie-boyfriend]

Made a new rpgmaker jam game ... Thousands will play

its about an hour + available on ur os as well as a browser playable version ^_^ Im hoping to make an art book later as well so stay tuned if u like it...

#char dev #indiegame #indie game dev #game development #rpgmaker #itchio #charlie art

[daily-hanamura]

So today I found some pages from the p4d concept art book

And wait hold on what's that

#oh alright then. #NOT. WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THIS. ATLUS WHAT THE FUCKDO YOU MEAN BY THIS. ATLUSSSSSSS #ATLUS CHARACTER DESIGN TEAM I AM ON MY FUCKING KNEES. #PLEASE I JUST WANT TO TALK #is this why yosukes characterisation in p4d was so fucking good because the writing team the char designers the devs everyone just knew #everyone knew exactly who the fuck he was #hanamura yosuke #p4d

[orngbanana]

it's the fact that rody canonically hates anything bitter yet still eats whatever manon makes is what gets me

#dead plate #dead plate game #he just #he jus j #he loves her so much im gonna kms #just smth i noticed while looking at char stuff one of the game devs posted

[fisheito]

Eiden was fully stuffed like the snake toy in R5. We finally got stomach bulging. I knew big boy Yakumo could do it.

wait what?! is. was? tHAT the "thing" for R5? i .. i was n't even looking there i have to go back and check!!!!!!!

#me entering every intimacy room: *opens up mental document* ok which kink is this room gonna main #also me: i wonder if the devs have to make sure certain chars don't repeat the same positions too close together #like tracking patterns in my handy lil notebook. #against the wall. on the floor. on a bed. free standing! on the floor (sideways). against the wall again (cave) 😅 #ok let's take another look at r5... hmm..... investigatibve goggles ON!! *STARES UNBLINKING AT EIDEN'S ABDOMEN* #OH!! THERE IT IS!! the bulging!!! aha!! #as u can see i seem to not have that kink... at the moment. otherwise i would have noticed the first time 😅 #i've FAILED YOU YOUR HONOURABLE HORNYNESS ANON orz #on my first watch of R5 i tented my fingers and went... prone?bonery? is that the main kink? wait no. that's a position #(whispering among my own voices) can a position be a kink? why not? why yes? #asks #yakumo

[kristailine]

Whoever wrote Jun's character episode ending, I am respectfully warning you to sleep with two eyes open

#MY GIRL CANT HAVE ANYTHING GOOD WTF #EVERYONE ELSES CHAR EP IS WHOLESOME AND SILLY #AND THEN FOR SOME REASON THE DEVS REALLY SAID #“HEY LETS GIVE THE CHARACTER WHO FINALLY MADE AN APPEARANCE AFTER TWO DECADES GONE IN THE FRANCHISE HAVE THE SAD EP” #she had less than 5 mins appearance in the main storyline THEN shes also gonna get the tear jerking ending #SHE BETTER GET SOMETHING GOOD IN THE POSSIBLE DLC

[avielex]

Redraw of the Roadrunner gang~

And I meant to repolish Kyda's design since finalizing her for my animation direction class. Something about my attempt to show her personality from her design felt lacking...

So with references and ideas from @the-trash-phrog , I did a practice run of hijab styles for her.

(also FINALLY i can comfortably draw a hijab now)

It was a rather nice conversation! Found out from them that hijab styles aren't as strict as I had assumed at first, so I'm glad I asked for assistance.

#roadrunner #original story #original character #it was really fun doing this exercise actually #and i needed to focus on kyda more anyway #char dev time!~

[pianapplez]

Hello there 👋👀,

So I just found your blog and had a lot of fun scrolling through all the pjo show crit😂 I couldn't help but notice that one tag you left on a post where you said you had some beef with Annabeth's portrayal in the books 👀 Would you mind elaborating on that if you're comfortable with it🙈? Because I absolutely share that sentiment, but it's sooo veeeery rare that I see other people express anything like it... I've found that trying to be a part of the fandom can be pretty alienating most of the time, if you're not exactly the biggest most devoted Percabeth shipper...😅 And often any criticism leveled at Annabeth just gets you a smack with the "internalized-misogyny" hammer... it's even worse in the tv show now due to... obvious reasons...

Again just if you're comfortable with answering of course🙈 There is a reason I stayed on anon after all...😅😂

Really glad you asked because i finally get to ramble about this heheheh (going forward, know that i skimmed over The Last Olympian to have a clearer sense of what I meant because that's the book where Rick fumbles her character more than the others)

i'm gonna try to make as much sense as possible but short answer would be, she's underdeveloped. Long answer:

She really got on my nerves in the last two books, with the whole Rachel debacle and then the Battle of New York. I can't really remember a single moment in those books where she and Percy aren't bickering or having heated discussions, which really made me question their friendship status. Of course, it's not like friends can't fight and it obviously builds up the (romantic) tension between them, but it got unbearable at one point.

I understand she's a teenager in an incredibly stressful situation that didn't even get to have a normal upbringing- she grew up way too fast (run away at 7, head counselor at 12) while also not really maturing, which is not a problem for a character, if it is handled properly. Given the fact that I am writing this, Riordan did not.

On the surface, my biggest beef is that Annabeth is not exactly held accountable for her actions (ie. treating Rachel a bit like shit and going off on Percy for a bunch of stuff.) I know Percy is to blame a bit here: as far as we know, in TLO he basically cuts the greek world out of his life as much as he can as a coping mechanism. And while yes, he never apologizes either, he doesn't give her nearly half the hard time she gives him: always either giving him the cold shoulder (there must be at least one example of this in the entire series but i cant be bothered to look it up sorry) or starting an argument only to then storm off (see the "you're a coward, Percy Jackson!" scene, which is not the fairest example since she was confronting Percy about ignoring camp but also was a bit too harsh about it) (especially after finally reading the prophecy and being under the impression that he was absolutely going to die when he turned 16 lmao) or just straight up storming off (see, Annabeth reacting when Rachel shows up for the first time during the battle of new york). While most of these feel, at least to some degree, fairly justified given how the entire situation does an absolute number on her emotions, she comes off a bit brattish and like she's trying to rile Percy up, especially when it comes to Rachel, which in the context of a battle that could mean the destruction of the world.... Well, it reads as a bit childish to me, and i wouldn't exactly have that much of a problem with it if it was dealt with in some way (a two-way apology would be nice).

After that first impression, i realized that Annabeth is barely ever anything else other than a plot device (when relating to Luke) or a love interest (when relating to Percy). This might be because the books are on Percy's POV. Hell, on the third book he's even conflicted when Annabeth is considering joining the Hunters of Artemis, aka, when making a choice for herself would mean he loses her (which is fine and dandy but it feels like Percy is more upset about her choosing her own path rather than being sad about not seeing her as often); we really only get a few glimpses of her, as in, actually her when she's on her own.

Obviously it's impossible to talk about Annabeth without touching on percabeth, which also is, in my opinion, what hinders Annabeth's character the most. On paper they sound great. The guy whose fatal flaw is loyalty falls in love with a girl whose been let down by people over and over, and she decides to never give up on the boy whose always had people give up on him (can't find one of the million posts that talks about this right now but it always goes something like that) And yeah, the bickering is really well written! But that's literally as far as it ever goes: they don't ever seem to have fun together, because 8 times out of 10 the bickering ends up being passive aggressive, and mostly done by Annabeth. My biggest gripe about percabeth is that their friendship seems to be based off... shared trauma. Literally. Other than going on quests together we are given no examples of them hanging out, nor a reason why they would want to spend time together in the first place, not even a shared hobby. Yes, in the fourth book they had a movie "date" planned but of course they didn't even get to it, and surprise surprise, they had a minor discussion, and surprise surprise, Annabeth was passive aggressive again. It's hard to picture them having fun together when even the author doesn't write in any scenes in which they get along smoothly (and before you say anything, a scene in which they get along where neither of them is about to die, and they're not talking about previous adventures. Gets a bit hard then, doesn't it?) It's even harder to picture them as a couple when the moment she gets upset about something, she starts coming off as emotionally manipulative (see, again, literally any conversation with Rachel or about Rachel)

To be fair, the books are relatively short and don't allow many "filler" chapters, if you will; there's always something happening to keep the main plot or a minor plot point moving forward, but it's not like there is no room to develop the characters' relationships, especially when we're talking about the main char and what is essentially his endgame. As an example we have Percy and Clarisse, or Percy and Beckendorf. Their interactions are brief but still hold so much weight.

Worst of all, Annabeth could be one hell of a character; what's most interesting of all is how being a daughter of Athena she is still incredibly emotionally driven, which is displayed very clearly with her fatal flaw being pride: her telling the Sphynx that her questions were too easy was not smart nor strategic: it was completely impulsive. I seriously think she wasn't far from being the best character in the series had she been given more time.

I guess i have as much beef with Annabeth as i have with Rick for doing her dirty. I really could sum this up with: while her emotions are justified, she acts upon them quite poorly. And this is what i mean when i say she's underdeveloped, because it would've been nice to see her come to her senses a bit.

Would love to read anyone's opinions on her character though, feel free to comment, even (or especially) if you don't agree with me!

#pjo crit #anti percabeth #annabeth chase #percy jackson #tbotl #pjo tlo #the last olympian #percy jackson and the olympians #congrats anon on being my first ask!!! #sorry if it's too long or rambly i just have so many thoughts about her. #i dont hate her i dont even dislike her im just conflicted about her. sad that half of her conflict was being jealous over a boy #like yeah i guess said boy was the first real friend she ever had but also rick wrote it in a very “girls fighting over boy” kind of way #didn't really write it to make it seem like annabeth's reasons were anything more than just a hormonal teen acting out. there were no layer #sometimes i feel like im being unfair to annabeth and that maybe her being emotional and mean sometimes is her character and #she's actually written well and i just don't like her? but then i think over it and im not ready to give rick that kind of credit lmao #i truly believe he wrote her beef with rachel to entertain middle graders without really thinking twice about it #annabeth adds to the drama with her passive aggressive comments but at what cost.... maybe im reading too much into it idk #maybe i just find boy drama annoying.. #but making it so that rachel is bound to maidenhood was such a lazy way to get rid of her as a romantic interest #the way rick butchered her character and any char dev for any of them in the tv show by rushing so many things... god. that's another story #if there are any typos i'll edit them later but my eyes are dry af right now and its late jdsjdfh anyway i hope my takes were interesting? #maybe i don't have that much beef with annabeth herself but the fact that percabeth is seen as the best endgame couple when i don't see it

[boxwinebaddie]

STAN HAS THAT K CHOKER RIGHT? DOES THAT MEAN KYLE HAS AN S NECKLACE? like he could totally stack his s necklace with his star of david one

aaaaaaaaa

you know i love a lil matchy-matchy moment~

and actually, i accumulated a lot of different asks actually, mostly, interestingly enough asking me about the same roundabout thing: if jersey wears rings, how he feels about jewelry, if he has any tattoos or other piercings, stuff of the like, etc.

but i never got around to answering those because i'm kind of a perfectionist and i get all worked up in my head about how i'm going to answer things because i want them to be perfect ( i keep trying to structure nsfw ask like it's a nine page research essay, smh ) buuut

basically, as we all know well, jersey is…Particular.

particularly abt himself and what is done to him/on him.

( okay, fair warning: the rest of this answer is very long and i just talk a lot about the former question about jersey/his attachments to material things and also physical-emotional things — people — you do not have to read all that...the short answer is yes, kyle does stack a stan 's' necklace with the star of david, i talk about it more at the end, but this intro part is a lot of exposition and information. so if your curiosity does not end there...perhaps i can further it below xx )

a lot of it ties into his ocd and this need to control every aspect of his life, not being able to put it in anyone elses hands but his own because he's scared of that improbability...that margin of error.

it keeps him up at night.

for that reason, even though he has a ton of health issues, diabetes, etc. he is extremely Defiant and Volatile in doctors offices. like, he will start throwing shit, rip ivs out of his arms, ask you to explain what you are giving him In Detail and will probably still refuse to take it.

tbh, the only reason he's taking any medication at all is because he really loves sheila and she is extremely worried about losing him </3

( jersey is a mommas boy, i said what i said! )

but he takes his own blood sugar, pricks his own fingers, runs all his own tests...he really does not trust anyone else w/ that kind of thing. which ties into piercings because he does...think that they're…lowkey, highkey *jersey vc* Hawt, i’m sorry; it's true.

i do think it's his...Thing.

the man really just wants a little hot topic emo boy accessory display for a boyfriend and he is right for that. cute, shiny, edgy. i respect it.

eye candy, arm candy, if you will?

( jersey is extremely partial to candy, ofc <3 )

and idk, maybe it's just a me thing, but to me, jerseykyle, specifically, is very conceptual and is intrigued by fashion and stuff, but because when he was overweight growing up, he was sort of just shoe-horned into all this oblong, ugly clothing, whatever would fit or they could afford. so he never really got to be able to wear things he wanted to, until about right now and it's been really liberating for him? idk? aaa

i love sleek, chic, dark academia, tired 1940s evil classics professor, thrift store couture jersey in his dollar store blazers and italian loafers. like my man is an off duty model, forreal. i am obsessed with him.

and actually he really Likes tattoos and piercings and dyed hair and thinks all the little rings are cool because you're like this living art form, this distinct individual, there's a uniqueness, a cool rebellion there he can’t create have within himself, so he combats/masks it as disgust and disinterest because he doesn't like to process his complicated feelings and also doesn't like forming attachments...especially...

...to things he's inexplicably Drawn to.

which is why, initially, upon even just bearing witness to raven of crimson dawn, kyle freaked out because he was like immediately Extremely Attracted to him because he checks all these little boxes in his brain, but his brain, of course, is corroded by mental illness and trauma, so he immediately projects extreme amounts of hostility in raven's direction because he is like you're all chaos and disorder, you're a mess, you throw caution to the wind, You’re Unpredictable.

when he’s actually obsessed w/ that capricious energy?

like he makes fun of stan for all his punk rock boy 'hood ornaments' and 'anarchical embellishments', but his heart starts racing every time stan winks at him and his little eyebrow piecing winks back, or he runs his tongue over that lip ring kyle got hyperfixated on, partially because it's pretty, which...rip, not even joking…

if stan comes out in the support rock, fuck a rockstar tank top, the tiny pants and sports that little lip ring chain thing that connects to the cuff on his ear...it does something seriously ( down ) bad to kyle's brain and stan is immediately getting Railed. soz if you were waiting for stan's autograph, hes gettin ky's all over his body. woops.

but!!! it's mostly bc stan had the courage and hedonism to put something through his lip and live with it. that he could get other piercings, get tattoos, let people handle him, put his life into someone else's hands, let them have control for a second, knowing they are executing the thing you want/need without you doing it...

it's literally All a control thing.

or rather, an inability to lose it.

because he's very particular, yeah, about what he likes and doesn't like, he won't wear any fabrics that itch or bother him, he won't buy something if the hem pisses him off, if he has to wear something he doesn't like, he will bitch and moan the entire day about it. and while it's good to have that level of self-assuredness, it's also kind of a self-preservation and self destructive coping mechanism for jerseykyle.

because he pushes everything out...

but doesn't let anything else in.

and a lot of that changes when raven/stan comes back into the picture, because when they were growing up, stan was this beautiful, glowing fixture of nonconformity, this pillar of strength that was twice as strong as he was, even though kyle was the fighter. because stan fought for self-acceptance and kyle fought for self-loathing.

and really...the reason why his ed developed in the first place was because gerald and society as a whole brainwashed him into hating himself and that people would only digest him if he was in small enough, beautiful, palatable enough pieces to eat so even though he acts out or throws punches: It’s All Within The Lines.

or the confines, rather.

of the person he thinks people want him to be.

but, idk, i'm talking too much. basically, gist is, kyle has a hard time handing over control to other people/being vulnerable and the final piece to that is...permanence.

a piercing...a tattoo...is Permanent.

i mean, sure, they close up and you can get them removed, but you are irreconcilably changed and altered. you are different now.

anddddd sigh, the jersey can't say i love you ask strikes again! because jersey can't say i love you because it's handing over control, because it's vulnerable because it's...permanent and he has extremely deep-seated commitment issues because of all of that.

which means he rarely, if ever, makes said commitments.

so when he Does...

it's a very special thing indeed.

because jersey has no tattoos or piercings on his body.

save for the sun/moon one he got on his ring finger for stan ( i can never decide if i want jersey to have the sun tattoo because he is the sun or if he has the moon one so he can wear rae around with him )

*** ( i also think it's possible he might get little hebrew things for his mom or idk, something very important later...i'll think about it more )

and...One ear piercing.

i was going to go at this in more comical and dramatic way in an old post, but basically, i think kenny/bebe/craig someone basically joked about there being reduced earring piercings at claire's and they should take kyle because he's the only one without pierced ears and jersey gets really defensive about it and everyone's like ooooh! kyle's scared to get his ears pierced, so the competitive and aggressive side of him that hates to lose briefly outweighs the neurotic side and is like "fuck you!!! let's go right now! i'm not scared of anything!"

and he gets there, stan's with him, and he is...freaking out in the little plastic chair with some eight year old girl next to him ecstatically getting her ears pierced for her birthday, bc he's going to have to let someone...do something to him/inflict something on him.

( which actually, i think, is what is really beautiful about j.k and r.s' relationship and dynamic, is that jersey teaches raven that you can't just let people do things you don't want them to do to you just because you feel like you should ft. his sexual trauma and stan teaches kyle that it is okay to let other people in, to do reckless things, to allow yourself to feel and enjoy simple pleasures w/o fear. ft. his ocd

lmao, is there a branch in my eye again? y is it Watering )

and ravenstan is like, mi amor, they are just your ears, you will be okay, i will hold your hand…

everything will be fine, i swear. :’) <3

and he gets hyped up, ready to go, the 16 y/o piercing his ears tells him she'll count to three and pierce on one.

...and she pierces on Three.

i'm not sure if it's bc she pressed too soon or because she thought that if she surprised him, it might make him less nervous, but it does not!!!! kyle FREAKS out!!!! his ocd goes haywire and basically has a nervous breakdown at freaking /claires/ bc she pierced his ear before she SAID she would and destroys the confidence that he built up to let himself be vulnerable.

it seems like a Silly thing...but i think it says a lot, yknow?

and though it was a serious blow to his ego, kyle only has...one ear pierced because he panicked and could not get the second one done. and it, to this day, is one of the only asymmetrical things abt him. which, i actually think is important to him coping w/ his ocd

( similar to how kyle, sorry slight nsfw, having stan have to ask for things if he wants them, helps him, in a seemingly innocuous way, build confidence in himself/not let things just 'happen' to him without his consent ) because having only one ear pierced means he has to deal with being lopsided and that, everyday the earth doesn't crash into the sun...means that he's okay.

also a cute thing about the one ear piercing is that i think kyle wears like this cute little gold sun dangly one that has a similar ambiance to the sun and moon glasses chain charms? it's his signature.

and other than showering, sleeping, etc. he only really ever takes it out when raven is going off somewhere far away :( and he switches it with a little stan silver earring ( idk kyle feels very gold jewelry bc of his orange hair and stan feels v silver bc of his blue eyes and stuff ) and stan sometimes takes kyle's with him on tour...AAAAA i'm sad

on the subject of rings, since someone else asked me, kyle does not wear rings even though he does like them/they're pretty because they're heavy, they clank against his pen when he's writing, the sound pisses him off...but he wears stan's lil silver emo boy rings when he's away and gaslit himself into liking the sound because the sound it makes against his pen reminds him of the sound it makes when stan is excitedly scribbling song lyrics and singing to him aaaaa IM :(

WHERE WAS I GOING WITH THIS AGAIN?

oh, yeah.

extreme mental illness.

so jersey never makes adjustments or accommodations for anyone, and when he does it's a big deal...but really...

it's because Stan is a big deal to him.

stan is EVERYTHING to him.

and kyle thinks it's cute that at every show and every concert, stan always wears the little spicy k charm on his emo boy choker ( and got the little even spicier inner thigh tattoo w kyle's name on it...anyways )

so, he starts wearing a little s around his neck for stan.

which, initially, i'm sure you're like...oh God.

jersey making an adjustment to his very specific cartoon character outfit alignment of things he wears every day, things he wears at home, things he wears specifically when going out depending on the environment...this sounds like a recipe for disaster. this is a big change for him. he's gonna spin out or short circuit his brain.

but...really? it feels as easy as Breathing.

because for one of the first times in his life, kyle got something that he didn't just get for him, w/ selfish intentions or bc he needs to be in control...he got it...

to make stan happy. :)

and it does make him very, Very happy, indeed.

which is really funny to me because jersey is super annoying and just starts wearing it and pretends like he doesn't know what's going on bc he's bad at ~gestures~. so stan comes home, sees it and immediately is like *big stan eyes* 'what are you wearing??'

and kyle is like, ‘oh, this? i've had it forever, it's was just in the back of the closet. why? is it wrinkled or—‘ and stan is like 'no, dummy. the NECKLACE' and kyle, playing dumb, trying to act nonchalant because he's kind of embarrassed abt having emotions is like 'oh, that. y'know. just something i'm trying out...' and stan is like

'kyle broflovski, are you wearing a necklace with my initial on it????' and kyle is like 'alright, woah there, mr. celebrity. but not eeeeverything is about you, okay? that s could stand for anything.'

and stan is like *genuine heart eyes wowza because kyle is being annoying but stan loves dumb annoying kyle that's why he wears his lil possessive emo boy k charm on his choker everywhere* 'okay, well the k on mine stands for kiss me or kiss me kyle or whatever you want just, come and kiss me please' kshdlkshd <333 eWW

anyways...they're Gay. they're in love. they having matching tattoos and earrings and wear eachother's intials around their neck. nbd.

but...in a very longwinded format, i hope this answers your question baby and hopefully some other questions you have abt jersey. i'm sorry that was a lot but i literally could talk about jersey forever, like he is so fascinating and bc he's our narrator and he's such an unreliable one, it's hard to understand how his brain works.

hope this helps. <3

uncle nina, keeper of the cryptid jersey whore-lore

#okay i am sorry #i know this barely answers your question #but i got a lot of similar questions #and i wanted to answer them in one big ask while i was feeling inspired so here is a bunch of jersey trauma lore #i hope it's fascinating i find it all super fascinating #because he presents like this perfectly in control orderly well maintained militant self-satisfying self gratified thing #but it's just a front for the fact that he's scared of change and is scared of not being in control or making mistakes #like he is put together but a breath away from falling apart #stan teaches him to sit down kyle teaches him to stand up #also sorry kyle having a fascination with edgy boy things and piercings and stuff in particular is kinda spicy to me #i luv him like he really is like that man is a satanic abomination and i want to do terrible horrible depraved things to him #like he really saw raven of crimson dawn and was like oy gevault i have never wanted to cut my lip open on anything #more than on that mans lip ring holy hell oh my god he is so shiny and ripped up and his makeup is so cool #he is a celebrity he has no original thought he doesnt think abt anything thats why he has all those tattoos and piercings #but also y do i want to trace my fingers down them every time i look at him he reveals himself more to me i want to learn more #kinsey scale gay 6 jerseykyle everyone but specifically for dramatic crybaby bisexual punk rock boys w/ piercings #which...i think is incredible bc i do not think people would expect that from kyle...but people also thinks he cannot feel #BUT HIM ADJUSTING HIS WELL REGIMENTED LIFE TO INCOPORATE STAN INTO IT I WANT TO SCREAM #HIM LEARNING TO LET OTHER PEOPLE DO STUFF FOR HIM AND BE OKAY WITH THEM HELPING HIM #I WANT TO START FUCKING SCREAMING I COULD TALK ABOUT THIS ALL DAY I LOVE JERSEYS CHAR DEV #ok final thot is he does sometimes do a gold jewelry ring moment or somethin if he's feeling like its important to the look #but they are very insignificant things for aesthetics easily taken off or removed...its the important stuff he has trouble w #and makes it all the more rewarding i think <3 #ily jers #okay last last small thing as far as like getting little piercings and random fun tattoos goes i just think he doesnt want any #boring king ik minus the ocd and stuff he just likes all his stuff to be very a-line and crisp doesnt like massive statements #like my man Is the statement like he has beautiful luxiourous curly red hair and green eyes and his nose a modern art piece #its too busy for him its distracting and u know thats what u have a hot rockstar bf for so u can pretend 2 read ur book #but the plot of the book is tracing ur sbfs sexc hip tattoos and helping him decide what belly button ring hes gonna wear #you know!!! The Plot!!! which kyles eidetic mem comes back but he does get distracted looking at stan a lot help

[lameow-l]

so wait… furina is the name of the archon role that “furina” had to play

wouldn’t make more sense narrative wise to give her a name of her own?? like scara gets his own epic chapter about him ridding himself of his past and adopting a new name then proceed to ignore said name in favor of “hat guy” but the actress playing “furina” doesn’t get to be known for her own name?

like people of fontain (partly maybe) know the truth so why not let her free? let her enjoy the simple human life she so so longed for? even the other furina wouldn’t want this

#i think her story is a better use of the (give character name) mechanic that wasn’t really needed in scara’s arc imo #like yeah it’s cool and all but we literally saw him throw the actual physical manifestation of his past into the fucking void!!! #i personally think it was kind of wasted on him on top of me thinking that idea was entirely stupid to begin with and hyv keeps proving tha #no one actually refers to him as wanderer or by the name they choose online.. its just scara #thats both bad marketing and confusing burying the character away from new players #and like the amount of shit u have to go through as a new player just to name ur weird huge hat angry little dude is just.. #but imagine how impactful such a mechanic would be for ‘furina’ who spent all her live acting a role she wasn’t #at the end of all that agony do u think she could endure hearing people call her by that name?? #unlike scara she did that for the people every moment of those 500 years knowing that the fate of every person is mere a breakdown away #there was nothing in that for her or for a reward she thought deserved.. just suffering on her own #it just makes more sense for her to want a different name a different identity that has nothing to do with that role #and again i think that mechanic is stupid anyway but if it had to happen i’d loved it more with ‘furina’ #or idk give her like a clueless friend she gets to meet that keeps calling her a different name for reasons and her liking the name or smth #maybe give her a different role she gets to play.. or have neuvillette give her a name #same with scara i think it would have been a lot better if he went by a name he choose when all his previous names were chosen for him #i dont see how the entirety of genshin writers and devs agreed to this mechanic being implemented honestly #like traveler is literally there waiting for a single soul to address them by their actual name (the one we choose) but every time it’s jus #traveler traveler.. even their most beloved companion calls them traveler #like that alone should've changed the writers minds bc such a name would 1. either not ever be used or replaced by a nickname #2. the hell devs had to go through to not allow certain phrases and names and 3. the hell both teams will suffer should they add a new char #tl;dr stupid dumb mechanic but they should still give furina a new name #genshin impact #furina #fontaine archon quest #scaramouche

[yvonne-rutherford]

Being Alive

Date: 09 February, 2024

Someone to hold you too close

Someone to hurt you too deep

Someone to sit in your chair

To ruin your sleep

“Are you sure you feel well enough to go to dinner?" Félix's hand was pressed to the small of her back and he leaned in to press a kiss to the top of her head. Yvonne couldn’t fault him for his concern, considering he was the one holding her hair back once again as she knelt in front of the toilet puking her guts up. Just like New Year’s. Well, almost. Her eyes caught on the glint of gold courtesy of the Virgin Mary medal that now hung from her neck.

The box was placed in front of her the day after the positive test, after they’d had twenty-four hours to process the fact that the two of them were bringing a new life into the world together. Yvonne’s mind went somewhere entirely different when she saw the jewelry box and her thoughts drifted into a panic before Félix opened it up to reveal a small gold medallion on a chain. Before she could voice her confusion, he said, “I know you’re not religious. But the Blessed Mother is the patron of mothers and it’s a tradition in my family to gift a medal to expecting mothers, to look after them.” Yvonne had smiled and simply pulled her hair back without a word so that he could fasten it around her neck.

She couldn’t remember if her first pregnancy had kicked her ass this hard during the first trimester, but she was already over it. Spitting her toothpaste into the sink and rinsing out her mouth, she looked up to meet her boyfriend’s gaze in the mirror. “I’m fine. It’s just a little morning sickness. Besides, it’s already hard enough to find nights with just the two of us with two kids. We should take advantage of it before there’s a third one added to the mix.” She turned around and reached out to straighten his tie, tugging on it slightly to pull him in for a kiss.

Even on the Friday before Valentine’s Day, the restaurant was booming. It’d taken several favors to get their reservation. More people had the same idea to beat the crowd as they did, apparently. Ash Wednesday falling on Valentine’s Day no doubt played a role in it too. Yvonne had already been invited, and strongly encouraged to attend, Ash Wednesday Mass with the Rodriguez family. Or it was just Mistress Night. She’d heard stories before.

While they waited for dessert, Félix reached out to take Yvonne’s hand. “I know it’s only been six months, but I have another present for you.” She watched as he reached into his pocket and pulled out a small box that he opened to reveal a rose gold ring with a pear-shaped black diamond with white diamonds surrounding it. “I love you, Yvonne. This may have started has a mutually beneficial arrangement, but I honestly can’t see myself spending my life with anyone else. You’re ambitious, smart, and I look forward to every moment I spend with you. So, what do you say? Yvonne Rutherford, will you marry me?”

Yvonne sat there, her mind flashing back to a different proposal six months before, in Dubai. At the time, she’d given up on the idea of romance and saw only the path forward to her ambitions that the man in front of her offered. How could she have known that it would lead to six months of happiness and the creation of a new life? For a brief moment, she wondered if her mother had  felt this happy upon her own engagement, if she’d had a moment of joy before the realization that she would never truly belong to the Rutherford family hit. She blinked and came back to the present to see Félix still looking at her slight worry creeping into his eyes. Smiling, she leaned forward and closed the gap between them with a soft kiss to his lips.

“Yes, I’ll marry you.”

Her fiancé (that was going to take some getting used to) took the ring and slid it onto her finger. She looked at him with a question in her eyes as it fit perfectly, but the bastard didn’t have the decency to be ashamed. “I used one of your other rings as a reference for the size.” Yvonne rolled her eyes, but that didn’t stop her from grinning as she leaned in for a second kiss.

“You’re ridiculous. And it’s perfect.” It was only the waiter coming up to the table with dessert that prompted Yvonne to sit back in her seat, though she knew she was still grinning like a lovesick fool. Which is what she was, if she was being honest. Not that Félix’s smile had left his lips either. The rest of dinner passed in a blur, filled with smiles, laughter, and chit chat about when and how to drop the news.

Somebody crowd me with love

Somebody force me to care

Somebody make me come through

I'll always be there

As frightened as you

To help us survive

Being alive, being alive

Being alive!

#self para #character development #char dev

[charlie-boyfriend]

Haiii i made a nanoreno vn ab girls and friendship and love and worry and such pls play it if u have the time :} charbf.itch.io/world-end-heart-girl Yay!! super happy

#chardev #LIKE the ULTIMATE char dev post ehhehehehhwhe #itchio #vn #nanoreno #nanoreno2023 #game dev #indiegamedev #it is so fun it is so joyous #im not rly sure how else to tag it tbh #charlie art #well it sure is #thank u sm if u play it frfrr

[pinkprettycure]

doing the "just say you like men" "why cant we focus on women" thing over girls liking a male character in a *bishojo game* is crazy

#Are you telling me Char broiled this burger? #sm1 got mad at oomf for wanting a dude to get a route in FSN over one of the girls and tried to frame it as a ugh stop centering men thing #meanwhile oomf is a whole game dev who makes multiple multiple yurige sadfkj;akdf

[nectar-cellar]

OC Ask: Amir & Dani

i did a cute little couples photoshoot for them 🥺 i imagined they came into the “studio” and sat down and answered the questions together, like an interview. i made dani do more of the talking bc i rarely feature them in my posts.

their answers below 💕 thank you for the ask, jade!!!

warning: it’s a really long cheesy dialogue 🙈

Q: Where did you meet?

Dani: We met in college. It was the first day of English 100, a prerequisite class we all had to take. I was sitting alone at the back of the lecture hall because I didn’t know anyone, and I was too shy to talk to other people. This tall guy walked in and came all the way to the back row and sat down, a few seats away from me. I remember feeling so relieved I wasn’t going to be sitting alone anymore, and so terrified because he was really, really hot. 

Amir: I went to the back because I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I remember being disappointed you had already taken a spot there, and worse, you were so cute, I knew it was going to be impossible to ignore you.

Dani: Eventually, we started talking.

Amir: It took me a few days to work up the courage to talk to her.

Dani: I can’t believe we spent that first week sitting next to each other, acting like the other person didn’t exist. 

Amir: I was trying not to look at you because your beauty was too distracting. 

Dani: I was so annoyed that you were sitting in the same row as me, instead of somewhere else, because I couldn’t check you out without turning my entire head, and it would’ve been so obvious. 

Amir: Here’s a secret. I came to class late every day so I could look at you on my way to the back of the room.  

Dani: He’d come to class late and then ask me what he had missed. That was always his excuse to sit next to me and talk to me. 

Amir: Classic move. It worked like a charm.

Dani: I really didn’t think he would’ve noticed me. I looked a little different back then. I never wore makeup, I never wore nice clothes. I was... in a weird time in my life.

Amir: You looked beautiful then, and you look beautiful now.

Q: What do you love best about each other?

Dani: Good question.

Amir: You start.

Dani: I already went first for the last one! Okay, fine. Here it goes.

Dani: I love how patient you are with me. I love how you’re always there for me when I need you. I love how you’ll stay on the phone with me for hours, and you remember all the random little things I’ve ever told you. You care about me and you show it through your actions. I know I can always count on you. You have such a big heart, even though you don’t like to show it. That’s what I love the most about you: how you love so deeply.  

Dani: Your turn.

Amir: I love how you accept me for who I am. I love how I can talk to you about anything. You don’t judge me. You don’t tell me what I should do, or who I should be; you just listen. I can be vulnerable with you. You make me feel like I matter, like I’m worth something. You make me want to be a better person.

Amir: I don’t know. I’m not good with words. 

Dani: You’re amazing. There’s no one else quite like you.

Amir: You’re the most important thing to me. Don’t cry, my angel.

Dani: I’m crying because you’re crying!

#underdressed bf overdressed gf 🙄 #this was a rly good char dev writing exercise 🥺🥺🥺 #its literally so cheesy whatever idc i live for ROMANCE and TENDERNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!! #im so obsessed with theeeeem *screams* #i cant b normal about them

[mrofontaine]

Olivier Fontaine's Apartment ; South Ken.

Notes: Rented.

Location: South Kensington.

Pricepoint: £2,100 per month.

#apartment #inspo #char dev #olivier fontaine #location: south kesington. #rented.

[emine--yalaz]

Yes, to the Dress.

This was not how Emine pictured choosing her dress would be like. She wanted her close friends and family there with her, but with how everything was falling apart, the safe option was her mother -- the one that took her in when she didn't want to go back to Turkey.

She had pushed the doubting thoughts to the back of her mind, trying on what felt like every dress in the shop. None felt right. They all felt like another dress that could be worn for any occasion. There was also the modesty of being covered, something her mom kept reminding her when she came out in another dress.

"Maybe I won't find it," she sighed, sitting down beside her on the small couch, resting her forehead against her shoulder. "I'm tired." A sadness lies in her amber hues.

"One more," the older woman pats the top of her head and she nods, sliding off the couch, the last dress for the day brought to the changing room for her to try on. The second her hues landed on the dress, there was something about it that called to her.

Was this the one?

She could feel the anticipation build in the pit of her stomach when the woman from the shop helped her into it, using a bunch of clips to hold it in place. Tears started to swell in the corners of her eyes and she knew that this was the one.

The petite Turk made her way out of the room, a bright smile on her face when she saw her mom take one look at her, and tears formed in her eyes as well.

"Çok güzel görünüyorsun kızım." She whispers, getting up to place her hands on her cheeks.

"This is the one, mom." She smiles brightly, a veil placed on her head, turning to look at herself in the mirror.

Emine had found her dress.

#self-para #char dev #character development