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dystopicjumpsuit · 3 months

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Stars Beyond Number - Chapter 22

The Desire

Rating: M - Minors DNI

Pairings: Echo x Riyo Chuchi; Gregor x OFC Cerra Kilian

Wordcount: 3.3k

Warnings and tags: negative self-talk; Gregor having none of it; SMUT; it's finally happening; oral sex; fingering; body worship; PIV sex; I literally screamed and cried and threw my hands in the air when I typed the last line; I love them so much I can't even

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A/N: This story shares continuity with Martyrs and Kings, "Double, Double Boil and Trouble" (part 2 here) and "Do It Again," but all the fics can be read as stand-alones.

Between the desire and the spasm

… falls the Shadow

—T. S. Eliot, “The Hollow Men”

“Are you all right?” Gregor asked, his soft eyes trained on Cerra’s.

She nodded. “Sorry.”

“For what?”

“Karking it up like I do everything,” she said.

His eyebrows snapped together. “Why would you say that?”

“Because you deserve better,” she said. “You should be with someone who—”

“I know what I want,” he interrupted before she could talk herself out of it. “It’s you.”

Her breath stilled. “It is?”

“Since the moment I met you.”

“Why didn’t you say anything?” she asked.

He giggled quietly. “Are you serious?”

“No need to be rude,” she said, affronted.

“I’m not trying to be,” he replied. “It’s just the truth. You weren’t ready to move on, and you didn’t need someone pressuring you. You needed a friend, and if you decide that you’re never ready for more than that, then I’ll still be the luckiest man in the karking galaxy to be the one who’s there for you.”

Her eyes burned. She dropped her forehead to rest against his neck, and he wrapped his arms gently around her back, rubbing comforting circles between her shoulder blades.

“I don’t deserve you,” she whispered.

“True,” Gregor agreed cordially, pulling a reluctant chuckle from her as she smacked his shoulder. “Sorry, were you done floggin’ yourself, or did I interrupt? I could come back later…”

“Gods, you’re the worst,” she laughed.

“You can keep going if you want. Or…” he paused and kissed her shoulder softly. “We could…” He kissed her again, closer to her neck. “Try something else.”

He licked along her skin until he reached the base of her throat. She tilted her head to the side, exposing her neck as she inhaled deeply.

“Gregor,” she sighed.

“Mmm,” he rumbled, working his way down her sternum.

His bare hand slipped up her waist and beneath her bra to cup her breast. She took in a soft, deep breath as she arched her body into his touch. The rough fabric of his glove scraped lightly across her tender skin as he slid his other hand under the band of her bra. He pulled his mouth away from her long enough to tug the garment over her head, and then his lips closed around her nipple as his tongue swirled over her.

“You taste amazing,” he whispered against her skin.

He dropped his hands to her hips to dip beneath the compression suit and coax it down her legs. She shifted in the seat to ease its progress, and Gregor took shameless advantage of her momentary helplessness to drag her to the edge of the seat and spread her thighs wide over his broad pauldrons as his mouth worked its way down her body, kissing, licking, biting, sucking.

He reached her pelvis at last, slowing his progress as he inched lower with aching deliberateness until at last his tongue dipped into her. Her reaction was electric. She convulsed with a cry, her body hypersensitive from years of denying her physical needs. Her thighs tightened around him as she practically levitated off the seat. He gripped her hips and pressed her back down, his strong fingers digging into her flesh. He swirled his tongue around her clit and into her cunt.

“Fuck!” she sobbed as her fists tightened in his hair. “Fuck, fuck, Gre—”

He groaned against her and murmured something indecipherable. His hand brushed over her knee, then drifted leisurely up the inside of her thigh, taking his time despite her desperation. By the time he finally reached his target and eased two fingers into her, she was shaking and writhing beneath him, and that delicious stretch was all it took to push her beyond the limits of her control.

In her deprived, overwrought state, her body took over and hurled her into an unexpected orgasm that shattered her vision and wrenched a broken scream from her throat. His thick, agile fingers dragged inside her, working to prolong her climax as he gazed up at her with an expression of utter bliss and adoration in his eyes.

He gentled his movements as she came down from her high. He kissed the soft skin of her abdomen, and she tugged ineffectually at his cuirass, trying vainly to pull him closer to her. He lifted her naked body off the chair and settled her on his lap. In his full armor, he wasn’t a particularly comfortable seat, but she snuggled her face against his neck through the soft black fabric of his undersuit as she shuddered and trembled in his embrace.

They sprawled on the floor of the cockpit, bathed in the gentle, warm glow of the nebula. Gregor cradled her in his arms, circling his thumbs slowly across her bare skin as he rested his cheek against her head. He stroked his fingers lightly over her short, velvety hair.

“Your hair is so soft,” he whispered. “I’ve never seen it this long.”

“Didn’t exactly have a way to keep it shaved while I was rotting in the Venator brig,” she replied with a low laugh.

“I like it,” he replied, pressing his lips against her head, and then again behind her ear, and a third time, along the side of her neck.

”Yeah?”

”Mm-hmm,” he hummed, his voice vibrating gently on her sensitive skin.

“Should I grow it back out?”

”Not unless you want to.” His warm breath sent a shiver through her as he whispered next to her ear. “You’re hot as fuck either way.”

She sighed happily and trailed her fingertips up his arm, looking for the small gaps between the plastoid where she could feel his body heat through the undersuit.

“You are wearing way too much armor,” she murmured.

He chuckled. “Have to admit the codpiece is feeling a little tight.”

She huffed quietly and unclipped his vambraces, tugging them off his forearms and setting them aside. She interlaced her fingers with his and slowly pulled off his remaining glove, allowing it to drop to the floor. Next, she fumbled with his rerebraces and grumbled under her breath.

“Why is this so karking hard to take off?” she asked as irritably as she could, considering that her brain was still flooded with a blissful post-orgasmic haze.

“Because the point is for it to stay on,” he said.

She arched an impatient brow at him, and he shot her a smug grin.

“A little help?” she asked.

He brushed his fingers beneath her jaw and tilted her face up so he could kiss her, then leaned back and began to pull off his upper body armor, stacking it one piece at a time as he did. As he worked, Cerra began to trace her fingers across the bare skin of his neck and the base of his skull. His eyes flicked to hers, and he smirked, continuing his task. Undaunted, she leaned close and licked the shell of his ear softly. He shivered, and she heard his breath catch, but his concentration didn’t break.

Once he was stripped down to his waist, though, he had his revenge. He wrapped his arms around her and flipped them over so she was lying on her back with his body between her thighs. The durasteel floor was hard and cold against her skin, and she was briefly, ridiculously relieved that she’d had the cleaning droid work over the freighter the day before she left for Daiyu. Gregor covered her body with kisses as he fumbled with his belt.

She wrapped her legs around his waist with a soft giggle, and he nipped at her skin in retaliation, rocking his codpiece against her. Her breath caught, and she moaned at the pressure.

“Kriff, don’t make those noises,” he rasped. “I can barely fit in this codpiece as it is.”

“Bragging?” she teased.

“Stating a fact,” he replied, grazing his lips lightly over her bruised shoulder. “You taste like bacta.”

“I thought you said I tasted amazing,” she said.

“You do,” he replied. “But this part of you also tastes like bacta.”

She heard a clatter of duraplast, and Gregor grunted in relief, having successfully freed himself from the codpiece while he distracted her.

“Maybe you should kiss me somewhere else, then,” she suggested, cupping her hand under his chin to bring his face toward hers. “Hey, soldier. My lips are up here.”

He gazed at her mouth. “I don't want to hurt you again.”

Her heart lurched.

“Please,” she whispered.

He swallowed. Raising his hand to her cheek, he caressed her with utmost tenderness, barely touching his thumb to her lower lip. He glanced uncertainly up at her eyes, and he leaned down slowly, pausing close to her face, but not quite making contact.

“Cerra…”

“I trust you,” she breathed.

The touch of his lips was so soft it was almost imperceptible. Her eyes fluttered closed as her lips parted, as though she could block out every distraction and only drift in the sensation of his kiss. She teased his lips with the tip of her tongue, encouraging him to kiss her more deeply, and he complied with incredible care, taking his cues from her, but pulling away far sooner than she would have preferred. Perhaps it was for the best; her judgment was not to be trusted when she wanted him to consume her.

He nuzzled her cheek gently. “Your lips taste like bacta, too. Worth it, though.”

She laughed quietly as he sat up. She smoothed her hands up his torso, slipping her fingertips into the magseal of his undersuit and easing it open. The suit gave way to reveal the broad expanse of his chest, and he shrugged out of the top of the suit. From her vantage point on the floor, Cerra stared up at him, admiring the way the soft golden light glazed his warm, smooth skin and reflected in his amber eyes. His chest rose and fell quickly, and she longed to touch him.

She traced her fingertips up his abdomen, then flattened her palms against him. Gods, it had been so long since she’d felt someone else’s skin against her own. She glided over his pectorals and up to his shoulders, then back down again to ease the undersuit further down his hips until his cock sprang free, fully erect. Closing her hand around him, she squeezed gently, and a glossy bead of precum appeared at the tip. She licked her lips at the sight and started to lean toward him.

“Don’t even think about it,” he said, pressing her back down to the floor.

She looked up at him, startled. “You don’t like—”

“Not until you’re healed,” he said firmly.

“Not even a taste?” she asked, giving him the softest tooka eyes she could muster.

“Absolutely not,” he replied. “Those big eyes don’t fool me. I know you, Cerra. You won’t stop until you get what you want, and we are not playing that game right now.”

“You’re no fun,” she pouted.

“Oh, I can think of plenty of other ways we can have fun,” he grinned.

“Do any of them start with moving to a bunk?” she asked. “This floor is ridiculously hard.”

“It’s not the only thing,” he laughed.

He stood, then pulled her to her feet. She seized the opportunity to wrap her fingers around his cock again, dragging her hand over it slowly. She brushed her thumb over the tip, and then raised it to her mouth, flicking her tongue out to taste the clear fluid as mischief danced in her eyes.

“Fuck,” Gregor groaned. “You are testing my limits.”

“Oh, no, anything but that,” she whispered.

“I should’ve known you’d be a brat,” he giggled, scooping her up and tossing her over his shoulder as she shrieked with delighted laughter.

He carried her down the corridor to the crew quarters and selected one at random, depositing Cerra on the bed carefully. She sat up to watch him with open admiration as he removed his remaining armor and undersuit.

Holy kriff, he was built. She’d spent months trying not to look at him too closely, trying to avoid the inevitable reminders of Fives. As he stripped, though, she finally let herself take a good look. He did resemble Fives—that was inescapable—but there were differences as well. The scars were different; the tattoos were different. Gregor was older than her husband had ever had a chance to be, and she could see it in his body. Between that and the commando’s genetically enhanced muscle density, he was broader and bigger than Fives, and she was quietly relieved. She wasn’t sure she would have been able to sort through her confusion if his body had been truly identical to Fives.

“Enjoying the view?” he teased, and she raked her gaze slowly up his body until she met his eyes.

“Very much,” she said, her voice low and husky.

He crawled onto the bed, caging her between his arms and legs. She reached up to stroke the side of his neck as he kissed her, and she could feel the pulse of his racing heartbeat beneath her fingertips. He pressed her back slowly until she lay on the bed. She slid her hands up his thighs as he straddled her hips, shifting beneath him to try to press herself closer to his body, but he held himself back from her.

She made an indignant little noise of protest and tried to pull him down, but he didn’t budge. He just kept kissing her with utmost gentleness when she wanted him to ruin her. She could feel his cock brushing against her abdomen, rock-hard, hot, and already slick with need.

She knew he wanted her just as badly as she wanted him. Reaching between their bodies, she wrapped her hands around his cock and stroked him languidly. He broke away from her mouth with a groan and rested his forehead against hers, eyes squeezed tightly shut.

“Fuck, I’m trying to be careful, but you’re not making it easy,” he rasped.

“I can take it, Gregor,” she whispered. “You don’t have to be careful.”

He pushed himself back, sinking down so his thighs rested on top of her hips, trapping her in place. He stared down at her, shaking his head slightly. He trailed his fingertips over her cheek.

“Kriff, you’re so beautiful,” he said. “All the times I imagined this, I never once thought it might actually happen.”

“You imagined it?” she asked.

He giggled. “All the time. That day that we went to the market, I almost came in the shower just from hearing the sounds you were making. Didn’t even have to touch myself.”

Her eyes widened. “You were so quiet! I thought you were mad at me.”

“I had the water as cold as it would go, and I was reciting all the components of a DC-17m in my head.”

She pondered for a moment. “Is that why you were so relaxed when you came out? Because you—”

“Took care of things,” he said with a shrug. “What else was I supposed to do? Walk around the garage with a raging hard on?”

She laughed and captured his wrist, pressing her lips into his palm, then kissing a trail up his forearm. “Maybe I would have gotten a clue sooner if you had.”

He smiled, but his eyes were troubled. “All the times I imagined it, I never thought it would be like this.”

“What do you mean?” she asked.

He barely touched his hand to her injured shoulder, and she flinched involuntarily.

“See?” he asked. “I can’t just… take you—as much as I want to. I’ve got to be careful with you. I’m still working out the best strategy.”

Her heart lurched. Of course. Even now, he was watching her back: protecting her, even from himself.

“It doesn’t have to be that complicated,” she whispered. “We can just… start. And if it feels good, we can keep going, and if it hurts, we can try something else.”

He moved his fingertips lower, skimming over her breasts and circling her nipples. “Is this all right? Does it feel good?”

“Yes,” she whispered. “So good.”

He made a pleased little hum and shifted, moving to sit behind her on the bed and drawing her back against his chest. He continued to play with her breasts as she leaned against him, feeling the rigid length of his cock press against her back. He kissed the side of her head, and then the shell of her ear, working his mouth slowly down her neck and onto her shoulder. Her eyes drifted closed, and she sighed softly.

Encouraged by her reaction, his hand stole down her body and in between her thighs, his fingers brushing over her clit with feather-light pressure, again and again, before slipping into her. She was beyond ready, and he met no resistance as he sank into her slick warmth. She heard his breath stutter harshly.

“Holy kriff,” he groaned. “You are so wet, my gods.”

He worked her open gently, and she couldn’t hold back her tiny, breathless sounds of pleasure.

“Kark, you drive me wild when you make those noises,” he whispered, grinding his cock against her lower back.

She squirmed against him, desperate to feel more. “Please, please—”

“What is it, love?”

“I need more,” she said. “I need you.”

He pressed his lips against her neck, just below her ear. “You can have me, then.”

He withdrew his fingers from her body and guided her around until she sat in his lap, facing him as he aligned his cock with her cunt and sank gradually into her. She tilted her hips to accommodate him, breathing hard, as he stretched her in ways she hadn’t felt in years. Lovely, strong, warm hands massaged across her back and shoulders, pulling her close to him as he gazed up into her eyes.

“Is this what you wanted?” he asked.

She nodded, unable to speak. He kissed her again, so gently, so carefully, as he began to move. She wrapped her arms around his shoulders, holding tightly as their bodies worked in perfect synchrony, their hips rolling together, their breath coalescing. He dropped his head to rest on her sternum, and she leaned her cheek against his hair as she slid her hands up the back of his head.

He shifted their angle slightly, his hands descending to grip her hips as he began to drive into her harder and faster, thrusting against a place deep inside her in a way that rapidly stoked the tension in her body until she felt as though every muscle and nerve had wound itself into an impossibly tight knot at the base of her spine.

He reached between their bodies and pressed his fingers against her clit, working in tiny, frantic circles, until all her muscles seized, arching her back and clamping her legs around his waist as she shattered. She barely heard his hoarse grunt as he thrust into her one last time, burying himself as deeply as she could take him, emptying into her as she sobbed with pleasure.

He whimpered quietly as his lips found hers, his tongue sweeping into her mouth as she rode out the last few moments, drawing out the pleasure until her muscles gave out and she collapsed against him. He held her close to him and leaned them back until they were lying on the bed. Her head rested against his chest, and she listened as the pounding of his heart began to slow and the deep, gasping breaths of his lungs gradually returned to normal.

Exhaustion pulled at her. Her entire body felt boneless and relaxed—safe for the first time in weeks. Gregor toyed aimlessly with the short hair at the nape of her neck, and her eyes drifted closed as she sank into oblivion. As she crossed the threshold into unconsciousness, she wasn’t sure whether she heard or imagined his quiet whisper.

”I love you, too.”

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stairset · 1 year

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Satine says “we are a people of tradition” in season 3, and in this behind the scenes featurette from 2010, when lead designer Kilian Plunkett discusses the design process behind Satine (at the 16: 44 mark), he says that they tried to “make it feel that she was definitely part of this culture”. This proves that Satine hated everything about Mandalorian culture and was ashamed of her Mandalorian heritage and tried to deny it.

Mandalore joined the Republic after Satine become the leader, which is obviously inherently a bad thing because All Government Automatically Bad Always. Despite being loyal to the Republic and its core principles, she was often very vocally critical of them when she disagreed with their decisions, and she chose to stay neutral in the war and was upset at the prospect of a Republic occupation of Mandalore. This proves that she was a total shill and sell-out for the Republic who forced her people to assimilate into Republic culture. (Even though the Republic, not unlike the United Nations in the real world, is a largely symbolic organization that consists of thousands of planets with different cultures and thus there really is no one singular “Republic culture”)

In the aforementioned behind the scenes featurette, (at 7:12) Dave Filoni, Kilian Plunkett and Joel Aron discuss how the shapes in Mandalorian armor inspired the design direction of the New Mandalorians (including Satine herself as previously stated) so as to give them a uniquely Mandalorian aesthetic, from the architecture to the clothing to the artwork to the ship design to the goddamn hair textures. In Rebels, when we meet a prominent warrior clan in the form of Clan Wren, the design of their ancestral home, the artwork on the wall, and the clothing worn by non-warrior Alrich Wren all generally follow similar design cues as the New Mandalorians. These design choices were clearly not done for a reason and this only further proves that Satine stripped Mandalore of their unique identity and Made Them Assimilate Into Republic Culture™. They’re now totally interchangeable with core worlds like Coruscant because Mandalorian culture is WAR KILL DEATH CARNAGE only and none of that other stuff matters. Also, the royal palace has a giant ass mural of Mandalorians fighting Jedi in ancient times right on the front of it for all to see, which clearly shows that she was erasing history and that the New Mandalorians Forgot About Their Roots.

It’s an important plot point in both season 2 and season 5 of The Clone Wars that Death Watch cannot take Mandalore by force because they are too small in numbers and Satine has the will of the people on her side, which is why they have to ally themselves with outside forces (first the Separatists, then Maul and the criminal syndicates) and must come up with super elaborate schemes for the express purpose of painting themselves as heroes and making her look bad, and it is only by doing this that they are able to win the people over to their side, at which point she surrenders the throne. But BEFORE she lost the throne, members of the Protectors, an ancient group of elite warriors dedicated to serving as royal guards to Mandalore’s leader, made up Satine’s royal guard during the Clone Wars, as stated in this Rebels Recon episode (10:30). In Rebels, Fenn Rau, the leader of the aforementioned Protectors, says that many Mandalorians by that time regard Bo-Katan as Mandalore’s rightful ruler in part because of her relation to Satine. Also if we go by the novelization for the Shadow Collective arc in season 5 (said novelization is technically Legends now but it’s one of the few sources in either continuity that gives any specifics on how her rise to power went down and this specific detail has not been contradicted by current canon) it claims that the warriors who supported her rule did so willingly because even they were tired of the constant fighting. All of this clearly demonstrates that Satine did not respect the will of the people at all and did not have the majority on her side for the bulk of her time as ruler and her rule was definitely not recognized as legitimate by anyone.

As also mentioned in the aforementioned Rebels Recon episode, the Protectors who served as Satine’s royal guard wore armor that was essentially just a more ceremonial version of their traditional combat armor, as worn by the aforementioned Fenn Rau. Also, Sundari’s police wear armor too. Also also, Satine’s own former Prime Minister Almec has his own armor that he pulls out during the Siege of Mandalore, and since it doesn’t match the aesthetic of the other Maul loyalists it’s safe to say it’s most likely his family’s armor passed down to him. This clearly proves without a doubt that Satine flat out banned wearing armor even though that’s never stated anywhere, that’s clearly the only logical explanation as to why the average citizens don’t wear it. Certainly not because their society was actually peaceful for about 20 years give or take and they didn’t need it or anything like that.

Satine speaks Mando’a (specifically the Concordian dialect) in the literal first episode she appeared in. Mando’a can also be seen in written form on the police speeders and in the royal academy. This shows us that she suppressed the language, further destroying Mandalorian culture.

The lack of racial diversity on Mandalore in The Clone Wars was definitely NOT an out-of-universe character design problem, but rather an in-universe problem that only applies to Satine and the New Mandalorians specifically (even though their opponents in Death Watch are just as white), as opposed to, say, the True Mandalorians in Legends who are so much more racially diverse. And season 7 definitely did NOT add more New Mandalorians with darker skin-tones as a direct result of the criticisms regarding how white the planet was in the previous seasons (and because Star Wars in general became much more diverse after the Disney buyout).

Also she’s a colonizer despite literally being born on a Mandalorian colony planet. And she can’t be the leader specifically because she wasn’t born on Mandalore and is thus not a real Mandalorian, but this same logic doesn’t extend to any other Mandalorian characters who weren’t born on Mandalore, such as Jango Fett, Boba Fett, Din Djarin, Fenn Rau, Ursa Wren, Ketsu Onyo, Jaster Mereel (assuming the broad strokes of his Legends history still hold true in canon), etc.

In conclusion, if you can’t see how Satine was OBVIOUSLY meant to be seen as a villain who committed cultural genocide by telling her people to maybe stop doing imperialism in favor of focusing on productive things like art and education, and also implementing gun control, then you CLEARLY haven’t been paying enough attention. Hashtag Make Mandalore Great Again.

#before i made this post i asked myself: am i really petty enough to look up all these videos and images just to make a point?#the answer is yes yes i am #satine kryze #star wars #star wars the clone wars #star wars rebels #shut up tristan

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kuronekojj · 7 months

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A quelqu'un que j'adore et que je n'aurai jamais....

Hello, the coolest human ever.

So, this is the guy who's like the coolest ever, a social butterfly, and supposedly the most attractive, like, seriously! Well, it's kinda true, that's why you have so many friends. Anyway, I just wanna say thanks for being super friendly and incredibly humble. And don't you dare stop being that awesome after reading this, okay? Keep it up, 'cause there's absolutely nothing wrong with you. And don't laugh, I'm pretty sure you'll be surprised, speechless, and laugh your head off reading this peak of comedy.

At first, I thought you were just one of those regular some random ppl who wanted to be friends with me, and I'm really thankful that you're so close to me rn. Seriously, Jul, you're a good person, humble, easygoing, and natural cool. No wonder you have so many friends, 'cause you're great at making people feel comfortable around you. But, Idunno since when I kinda started catching feelings for you, and at first, I thought it was just me admiring you. It's also awesome how much I've grown to adore Jay, honestly, thanks to you. I wanna thank you for making me admire Jay so much; he's truly someone worth looking up to. But then, after a few days went by, I was always stoked when you replied to my mentions. It made me so happy when your name popped up in my notifications and mentions. Sometimes, I'd read your messages first, but I'd purposely take a bit longer to reply, you know, to not make it too obvious that I was catching feelings for you. Hahaha. I feel so stupid for getting attracted to you, and I keep denying it... but here I am, still liking you after 27 days and counting. After getting to know you, I realized that you really deserve much greater love. You're too good to be hurt by people, and I don't wonder why people around you want to protect you because you deserve the best.

I thought this would only last a few days, and I was adamant about un-crushing myself because I felt so dumb. I have some pretty strong reasons for that. I've been questioning myself why I caught feelings for someone through mere mentions; I've never been like this before. I swear, Jul. I didn't have the courage to come up to you 'cause I figured I'd never have a chance. But just talking to you like a buddy already puts a big smile on my face. Being friends with you makes me super happy. I actually feel grateful because, for the first time, I've secretly liked someone all this time, and I'm turning it into a new experience, hahaha.

But, here I am, writing this, not expecting anything... I just wanted to get it off my chest. If you feel uncomfortable around me after reading this, it's okay, I understand... thanks for taking the time to read it. I want to apologize if maybe you're reading this and you already have a s/o; I didn't know about that, I'm truly sorry for them. After this confession, I won't be chasing after you, flirty or anything. If you still wanna interact with me, I'd really appreciate it. Thank you, Julian. Stay be my friends, okay? Pretty please.. I hope you're still willing to be friends with me, and I won't burden you with this... I promise. I'll always support u here even u have a s/o already; I'm genuinely happy for your happiness. It'll sting a bit, but being avoided by u would hurt even more..

By the way, I'll never send this note, maybe I'll just leave it alone until the day I laugh and cringe reading this. I don't want to make you uncomfortable, I value our friendship and I don't want to burden you... I'm so sorry for having crush on you.. but remember, someone saw something special in you, and that's a beautiful thing. Even if you're not ready for it now, their feelings are a reflection of your worth. You did nothing wrong at all, Julian. Thank you for being you.

Until the time comes, Kilian.

October 3, 2023.

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soli-flore · 1 year

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I came back from the dead but boy I won’t deny that the end part of ch 11 didn’t create goosebumps and startled me for good. I WAS FUCKING RIGHT!! I knew Mathias can’t be fooled like that. He knows who Killian is, he probably knows Levi, Erwin and the whole MI6 coming against him. I am definitely sure he has studied; predicted them before even Erwin considered putting Levi and Killian in the mission. Now it’s getting clear that Mathias is more than just a viper, and I am very afraid for Levi and Killian . I know my wife Killian won’t back down nor my love Levi.

I will miss Levi’s and Killian’s domesticity. This chapter is indeed a calm before the storm.

As always the chapter was hella awesome, sexy and a bit scary. I will be awaiting for the next chapter! Please take care of yourself and drink lots of water❤️

See you next time ✌️

P.S I may make a meme or two for this chapter

Awww, thank you so much for reading my love! Hope this semester has been treating you kindly.

I am so happy to hear you all feel the tension that came with that chapter. And you were! Mathias is no fool. How he knows, we don't know yet. But we certainly is five steps ahead of everyone, and far too smart for this mission. However, don't doubt your girl or Levi but especially don't doubt Kilian. She has a plan and Zeke pretty much told her how this has to go waaay back in chapter 2 when they played checkers together. She knows what she's doing ;). And you will still get some soft moments between the two of them, I promise! This chapter was the last "normalcy" they may see for a while but they will still find a way to make the most of everything. I'm so happy you enjoyed it! Hope you are well!!! :3

Also yes please, I LOVE MEMES!!

#asks

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leagueofwags · 2 years

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Bundesliga 22/23 - 1.FC Köln

Timo Horn und seine Frau Carina

Marvin Schwäbe und seine Frau Michelle

Jonas Urbig Matthis Köbbing Benno Schmitz und seine Frau Catharina

Kristian Pedersen und seine Frau Cecilie

Timo Hübers Nikola Soldo und seine Freundin Lana

Jonas Hector und seine Frau Anika

Luca Kilian und seine Freundin Julia

Jeff Chabot Rijad Smajic Georg Strauch Eric Martel und seine Freundin Caro

Dejan Ljubicic und seine Frau Magdalena

Denis Huseinbasic Florian Kainz und seine Frau Nadine

Kingsley Schindler und seine Frau Ashlee

Ondrej Duda und seine Freundin Amanda

Ellyes Shkiri und seine Frau Joana

Jan Thielmann und seine Freundin Aleyna

Linton Maina Dimitris Limnios Mathias Olesen Sebastian Andersson und seine Frau

Mark Uth und seine Freundin Franziska

Steffen Tigges und seine Freundin Sara

Sargis Adamyan und seine Frau Anna

Tim Lemperle Florian Dietz und seine Freundin (ohne Bild)

#1.fc köln #1.fc wags #bundesliga wags #übersicht #bundesliga 22/23

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farfallsky · 2 years

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Star Wars OCs aesthetics and introductions for a fic series I’m working on:

Lora Jinn

‘I don’t understand, why should love be forbidden? Doesn’t it only make you stronger?’

Lora Kilian was born in 48BBY on the planet of Geonosis. Her mother, Sabé Kilian was a younger daughter of Val Kilian, a local powerful crime lord who ran an empire and Jedi Master Qui-Gon Jinn after a brief physical relationship. She was sold by her mother to her grandfather to get out of a debt and was held as a slave from birth in his underground den in Geonosis. It was only when the Jedi Council sensed her force, that they became aware of this crime lord. Qui-Gon and his young Padawan, thirteen year old Obi-Wan Kenobi, rescued the little girl, and from that day on, she trained to become a Jedi, taking up her father’s surname upon arriving on Coruscant. But despite the harsh realities of the Jedi code, she was extremely empathetic and formed many attachments with those around her, even one day, falling in love...

Mia Kenobi

‘Ever since I was a child, I’ve dreamt of a man on a planet of sand.’

Born in 18BBY on Alderaan to Lora Jinn and Obi-Wan Kenobi, Mia grew up alongside Princess Leia Organa. Throughout her entire life, she was denied information about her parents past with the Jedi order to keep her safe, and as a result she always shared Leia’s longing for knowing where she was from. At the age of sixteen, she joined up with the resistance against the empire, somewhat following in her mother’s footsteps, it was there she learned of her parents’ true history, who her father really was, and learned to harness the ways of the force, eventually answering her true calling as a Jedi’s daughter.

Amara Orden

‘They want a fight? I’ll give them a fight!”

Born in 14ABY to a senator and a clone. Amara grew up in Mos Eisley, Tatooine with her father. Stealing and training in negotiating and bargaining all whilst dreaming of being a fighter pilot. One day she crashes on her fathers ship on the planet of Ahch-To. Where she was nursed back to health by a mysterious man and woman. She then found the courage to join up in the rebellion and achieved her dream of piloting a fighter jet.

#star wars ocs #oc: lora #oc: mia #oc: amara #fanfiction

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ouatsnark · 2 years

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Regina Mills didn’t abuse Henry. DEBUNKED. Again.

DISCLAIMER: This is about a fictional story. Everything discussed here should be thought about in the sense of the fictional world and in no way should be applied or used for any real world issues.

Every instance of Regina’s abuse of Henry has been well documented. Yet Regina Mills apologists continue to deny facts. The purpose of this post is to debunk some popular arguments and Regina Apologist talking points. Note: I will be discussing strictly show canon (which means things we saw on the show & NOT from other sources that aren't show canon.)

1) When they misuse definitions to absolve Regina of abuse.

CLAIM: “Lying is listed under the definition of abuse so therefore if Regina committed child abuse then so did Emma” - Regina Apologists

This is a great example of how it's very easy to cherry pick any one moment, take it out of context and scream ABUSER just so you can prop up your favorite villain!

It is also really easy to offer counter arguments when people say ‘well this character lied and lying falls under this definition of abuse that I found so therefore the character is an abuser!“ Every person is a liar but not every person is an abuser. Yes, abuse is the act of purposefully hurting another but as imperfect people we are all guilty of that from time to time. So shouldn't characters be as well? If you're going to call a character an abuser then you have to dive a little deeper than "oh this character did something bad or did something I didn't like".

In the past I have characterized that as the characters displaying normal human actions or reactions. We all hurt each other. So one instance of a character reacting badly to a stressful situation or during a crisis does not mean that character is abusive. It's called being a well rounded character because they posses both good and bad human responses. No human is perfect therefore no character should behave perfectly all the time. Also, their actions before and after the incident matter. You also have to take into consideration the intention. If you search "what is an abusive relationship" you will get hundreds of results but the most extensive in-depth definitions boil down to this:

An abusive situation exists when one party is seeking to control the other through abuse. There is a pattern of abusive words, manipulative tactics and bullying behavior that the abuser uses to exert power and control over another. Also using abusive language and tactics to avoid consequences of their bad actions. The key element here is control.

So for example when people use Kilian snapping at Henry in the Underworld as proof he is a child abuser I call bull shit for this exact reason. It is the only time we have seen him snap at Henry. He wasn’t doing it for control or even to demean Henry. It was a bad reaction to a stressful situation. It was a moment of human weakness. We all have them. Same goes for what Killian does or says while under the control of the Darkness. There is a huge difference between what he says and does for Emma before that and afterwards so therefore that was the darkness talking and not Killian.

So lets look at the differences between Emma lying to Henry and Regina lying to Henry.

When did Emma lie & deceive Henry?

About Henry's father? That is not abuse. Emma didn’t make up a lie about Neal to disparage Neal in Henry’s eyes or to manipulate Henry. Intent always matters when we are discussing the differences of normal human behavior vs abusive behavior. Emma wasn’t doing it to control Henry. She wasn’t doing it to hurt him. In fact. She was trying to protect him. And a part of her was being selfish. But we all have our moments where we want to hide from something in our past. Therefore this is normal human behavior. No one is perfect. During the Dark Swan arc? Yes. Emma purposefully caused Henry pain to extract a tear to free Merlin so that she could defeat the darkness forever. However. You have to ask:

What was her goal? Emma's goal wasn't to hurt Henry. Her goal was to rid the world of the darkness. To defeat ultimate evil.

Was it selfish? No. This was for the greater good. And that really is the key when discussing this particular circumstance. Much larger things were at play here.

Could she have done something differently? Emma tried a few different things before she realized she had no other choice but to break Henry's heart.

Did she show remorse & try to fix it? Yes

Did she ever inflict pain on him again? No

So therefore this one instance, under these specific circumstances, does not make Emma an abuser. We are also talking about a fantasy show so lets cut Emma some slack here.

When did Regina lie & deceive Henry?

1) While she was gaslighting him - making him believe he was crazy when she knew what he was saying was true. This was a self-serving act to protect her interests over his welfare. But more on that below.

2) In season 1, Regina not only sets Emma up by saying she stole files when she didn't but also fabricates a reason Emma is sticking around Henry. This is much worse than Emma lying about Neal. Why? Because Regina is trying to tarnish Henry's relationship with Emma and does not care about hurting him in the process. She is actually counting on the lies hurting Henry so he will stay away from Emma.

3) When Henry accuses her in 1x20 of framing Snow she denies it to his face. Regina never once considered Henry in her plot to destroy Snow and Emma. Since Regina knew the truth and knew it would hurt him, this is an abusive lie because her intent is to isolate Henry from people he cares about so that he will only be hers.

4) About saving Emma and Snow. Regina tells Henry to his face that she is going to do EVERYTHING she can to bring them home. And Regina would have ended up letting them die if Henry hadn't intervened at the last moment.

Why is this different from Emma’s? Because Regina committed deliberate acts she knew would hurt Henry and she counted on that hurt to get her what she wanted. Emma wasn't trying to hurt Henry over Neal and Dark Swan's goals were for the greater good. Regina's were self serving.

CLAIM: "According to a definition I found, child abuse is only physical or sexual. Therefore Regina didn't abuse Henry"

Newsflash. There are different kinds of abuse. There is verbal abuse which doesn't really apply to Regina in regards to Henry because lies and manipulation to gain control also falls under emotional abuse. And emotional abuse better fits Regina's fight for control over Henry.

What is emotional abuse?

The underlying goal of emotional abuse is to control the victim by discrediting, isolating, and silencing. - A Very Well Mind (this site has great articles about the subject.) We are always coming back to that key phrase there. CONTROL.

Gaslighting: manipulating someone by psychological means into questioning their own sanity. A type of emotional abuse where the abuser makes the target question their judgments and reality.

Regina made Henry doubt himself and the world he belonged in (2x01, 3x10). Do you even realizing how emotionally traumatic that is? She did this to Henry to keep him under her control and to keep him from finding out the truth about her. She purposefully set out to make him, and everyone else around him, believe he was crazy to protect her curse. Key thing here: SHE KNEW HE WAS RIGHT! Regina wasn't under the curse. She was awake! So Regina knew her curse was hurting Henry but instead of helping him, she put her happy ending above Henry's welfare. That is abuse.

2) When they try to compare specific real world examples to Once Upon a Time

CLAIM: "What happens to Henry doesn't reflect my abuse so therefore Regina never abused Henry"

Comparing specific real life situations to Once Upon a Time does not always work because 1) its fiction/fantasy and 2) the writing sucked 3) not every abusive situation looks the same so this thought in and of itself is highly offensive. Firstly, you can say that Henry's story in the beginning is that of a child trying to break free from his abusive situation as well as save those he cares for from the evil queen. So trying to say that his "standing up to Regina" is a sign he isn't being abused is a bad one. He is standing up against his abuser. This could have been a story about survivor triumph but it wasn't just as Belle's against Rumple's wasn't later on. Secondly, Once Upon A Time was notorious for ignoring abuse issues and often ignoring the severity of Regina's crimes (in 3x11 claiming she only wanted Emma out of her life when she clearly tried to murder her several times, calling her gaslighting of Henry not believing in him when she was awake and aware, her role in Marian's death, acting like a mass murderer should get their life back & her victims to befriend her). Once was often very pro-abuser. Regina and Rumple were all given the hero treatment. Therefore trying to use Henry's behavior in later seasons as a way to say he was never abused just isn't going to work because... And lastly, the show decided in Season 3 to change directions with Regina and Henry's relationship and ignore what they'd done and be pro-child abuser instead by not addressing Regina's actions and just giving her back Henry. So trying to make it out to seem that the show would have had a mind-wiped Henry exhibit survivor traits later on is kind of absurd.

Never mind that a piece of fiction is not always going to depict abuse and victims of abuse perfectly. Writers are not gods. They are not perfect. People have been critiquing written works for a long time for this very reason.

CLAIM: “Henry doesn’t appear to be an abused child because he does not fear Regina”

FALSE. Henry WAS afraid of Regina. He was afraid of her when he begged Emma to save him in episode one and two of season 1. He was afraid of her when he wanted Emma to stop because evil always wins (right after Graham died). He was afraid of her when he wanted to build an armory to protect them against her because he knew what she was capable of! So it’s a lie to say that Henry was never afraid of Regina. It is actually even written into the 1x01 script!

Regina also stood up to Cora when she took the fertility potion and when she pushed Cora through the mirror. I guess Cora isn’t abusive either then?

CLAIM: “Do abusers generally listen to the ones they are so called “abusing” and turn around and let them go with their grandfathers?“

Yes, actually. It is called a manipulation. Abusers do this. They say they are sorry, wont do it again, try to convince their victim they are changing but then once the victim starts to believe the manipulation the abuser starts back up again.

In that scene when Regina lets Henry go we hear her say "I don't know how to love very well." But that is her attempt at shifting blame and turning herself into the victim. Did she not know how to love Daniel, then? How was she able to cast the curse if she didn't love her father? It is a lie and a manipulation in hope that Henry will forget and forgive everything she has done and return to her.

Also see how easily Regina falls back into trying to murder his loved ones again when she doesn't get what she wants. Look at the way she sugar coats the reasons for the Charmings wanting to leave her behind as if she hasn't destroyed their lives multiple times?

3) When RAs claim Regina’s fanon child abuse by Cora means Regina didn’t abuse Henry

NOTE: The only abuse Once Upon A Time showed us between Regina and Cora was over wanting 28ish old Regina to marry royalty. Could this have had an impact on her? Sure. But it's dishonest to say that Regina was canonical abused her entire life (per show canon).

Whatever you want to fanon up of Regina's childhood, the bottom line is, Regina’s past does not excuse her present treatment of Henry. Full stop. And to suggest otherwise removes responsibility from the abuser and puts it on the victim to thereby accept the abuse.

CLAIM: “Regina showed signs of abuse and Henry did not so therefore he was not abused”

NOTE: You want to believe these are instances of Regina displaying abuse survivor traits that is absolutely fine. What you can't do, however, is use it as proof to discount canon instances of Regina actively abusing Henry.

Some things people use to claim Regina shows signs of child abuse but literally all of these can have multiple explanations:

1) Regina's reaction to being magically choked vs Emma's. Regina didn't fight but Emma did because Regina is use to it. Two very different characters. Two very different responses. Also Regina knows magic and has used that on other people. 2) The belief that Regina displays silent insolence vs Henry that never did because he rebelled against Regina. Lies and a stretch. Regina's relationship with Daniel was a rebellion. Her plan to run away was a rebellion. Her taking the fertility potion was a rebellion. Her pushing Cora through the mirror was a rebellion. Her having her mother killed was a rebellion. Much like Henry did plenty of things behind Regina's back. He also tried to aid in Emma defeating Regina.

So therefore by this logic Regina did abuse Henry. Nicely done RAs! 3) Looking over her shoulder. You know who else looks over their shoulder? Guilty people.

.... I just... whatever. 4) Regina jumps when someone startles herMANY people jump when they are startled. People with a flight response will also startle easily. You deciding its due solely to abuse is your opinion and not canon fact.

5) Warns people she isn't strong enough to fight her motherOh because her mommy is powerful? Gee I can remember when Henry didn't want to fight Regina because he was afraid she would win. 6) Invasive thoughts... Regina didn't really want to kill child Snow!So basically one argument I saw defending Regina wanting to murder child Snow White turns it into “a sign of her own abuse at the hands of Cora because she was horrified by it! it’s called invasive thoughts!” It’s called stretching to invalidate child abuse because its your fave, that’s what it is called. Reality: the show was showing us Regina's potential for evil.

And correction, my little Regina Apologists.

Yes, Henry did show signs of abuse during S1-2. He was desperate to get away from Regina. He begged Emma for help. He was afraid of Regina. He even tried finding evidence against her. That is not actions of a child from a happy home.

But more importantly, since the show did not portray this relationship well at all, we can also look at Regina's actions against Henry and identify those as abuse since she was purposefully inflicting pain in an effort to get control over Henry.

CLAIM: “Regina restraining Henry at the tree didn't parallel Cora restraining Regina since Cora was forcing Regina into marriage and Regina only wanted Henry to herself which is wrong but not abuse"

It seems that Regina Apologists think the scenarios much match up exactly without looking at the overall issue here and the issue here is about control. Again we are always coming back to control and power. Cora's Goal: Used vines to prevent Regina from leaving so she could maintain control over Regina's life and make her do what she wanted.

Regina's Goal: Used vines to prevent Henry from leaving so she could maintain control over Henry's life and make him do what she wanted.

See. They are exactly the same at the core. Because no matter how many times you try to justify “just wanting him to be with her is not abuse” it still is abuse because she wanted Henry all to herself despite his wishes. You don't get to kill people that the son you illegally adopted loves just cause you're the parent. Also, isolating someone from friends and family is a form of abuse.

Social isolation abuse

is abusive behavior that aims to cut you off from your friends, family or community

It can also involve attempts to harm your relationships or reputation

I already mentioned above that Regina’s curse did this to Henry. He had no friends and she ruined his relationship with others by making them believe he was crazy. She also lied to Henry about Emma's intentions and Snow being a murderer.

Furthermore, there were multiple occasions she tried to make Emma look bad in front of Henry (the newspaper clipping, tricking Emma in to revealing she didn’t believe him in front of Henry, destroying his castle, and leaving her behind in s2). P.S. The Emma and the Charmings were well within their rights over the plans they had for Regina at the end of Season 2. Regina neglecting to be honest about that with Henry and make herself into the victim doesn't change the facts here. Regina was trying to manipulate Henry to gain his favor. When that didn't work she mind wiped him. But Regina didn't just stop at lies, manipulation and framing for murder. Regina tried to murder Emma and the Charming’s so that she would have Henry all to herself. She tried this multiple times despite knowing Henry wanted to be with his real family. She created a pattern of abuse and an abusive situation because once again it was Regina trying to gain complete control over Henry’s life and in this process hurt Henry and everyone around him. Also this was not a one time occurrence and the abuse originated because of her actions that she is trying to cover up.

CLAIM: “Cora was controlling and denied Regina freedom and independence. While Henry has the run of the town”

Regina had the run of the castle as a child and was not afraid of going into her mother’s desk. Again, I am not saying Cora wasn’t abusive to grown up Regina about her marriage but if Henry’s run of the town is a sign he isn’t being abused then neither was Regina. The people who try to use their fanon version of Regina’s childhood to trick others into believing she didn’t abuse Henry tend to also use the argument that “she realized what she was doing and stopped” ... well which is it then? Was she abusing him and stopped or wasn’t she? You can't have both. Just because a character stops being abusive does not mean that they weren't abusive. Oh and Regina Mills stans love to fawn over David teaching Regina how to dance. I guess child Regina never wanted to learn and Mommy Dearest wasn’t so abusive as to make her? I always found that scene idiotic. Cora wanted Regina to be a queen but didn't teach her how to dance? More of the show dumbing down the story to have some "pity Regina" moments. It's disgusting.

4) When they try to downplay or erase what Regina did and who she is to absolve her of being a child abuser

CLAIM: “Henry loved Regina so therefore he wasn’t abused”

Victims often love their abusers which is why it is so hard for some of them to leave. That is not a good measurement for if someone is abused or not. Regina cried over her mother’s death. She obviously loved her mother. So I guess Cora never abused her? There was a time, before Regina mind wiped him, that Henry wanted away from Regina. That can not be denied neither can the emotional abuse she put him through to protect her curse.

CLAIM: "Regina is Henry's mother and she has a right to keep him from Emma and the Charmings"

In Season 1 we can argue that Regina did have more parental rights as far as anyone knew. However, she has no right to intentionally hurt her (illegally adopted) son which is exactly what she was doing while trying to turn him against Emma and the Charmings.

After the curse breaks and the truth is known, Regina has ZERO parental rights. Firstly, Regina illegally adopted Henry. Secondly, the full extent of her child abuse is revealed to everyone and Henry doesn't want to be with her. Thirdly, Regina is a mass murderer that just attempted to kill Emma. Mass murderers and child abusers do not get to keep their children. Why on earth would anyone give a child to her that didn't want to be with her? Only someone distracted by the evil cleavage would say she deserved to have what she wanted. The rest of us normal people understand that she is evil and therefore had no rights and especially no rights to Henry.

CLAIM: "But she was just lonely and afraid of losing him."

So it is OKAY to commit child abuse and harm another human being just because you are lonely? Is that a justifiable defense for attempting to murder someone? Especially when that someone was leaving town like Emma was doing in the finale? I don't think so!

This is probably one of my top 5 most infuriating arguments from Regina Apologists. They seriously act like a child abusing mass murdering rapists feelings matters more than anyone else's even a child's.

CLAIM: "Henry’s actions stemmed from receiving the book and finding out he was adopted and not from anything Regina did to him"

That is actually false. There are three quotes that prove this wrong. The first one is by Mary Margaret in 1x01 saying she gave him the book because he was lonely and he needed it. This suggests that his issues began before the book and the book was Mary Margaret attempting to reach out to him. The second time is from episode 1x02 where Emma asks when Henry’s issue began and Hopper confirms it was before the book and says it was Regina’s attempts to bring Henry closer have backfired. The third one is by Henry in 3x11 when Mary Margaret actually gives him the book. He already feels like Regina doesn't love him.

And no, him believing she didn't love him did not have to do with his adoption. Can this be true of real life issues? Yes. But it isn't here because the show is telling us why. It has to do with Regina and her curse and what she's doing to him. Furthermore we know it's because of Regina and not his adoption because of Emma's decision to stay at the end of 1x01. She asks Regina if she loves Henry, Regina says "of course" and Emma knows she is lying. All of these are connected to give us a bigger picture: Henry's issues were due to Regina and her curse.

And no, Regina did not love Henry. Not in a pure sense of the word. Not in the first two seasons. She procured him for her own happiness. She wanted him to love her. She loved that he was hers.

Also, to throw this back to his adoption is overlooking the emotional trauma the curse is putting Henry through. He has no friends. He knows something is wrong but Regina is lying to him and making him think he is crazy.

CLAIM: "Henry never said Regina hurt him or claimed she was abusive to him therefore Regina didn’t abuse Henry"

Henry didn't have to. We saw it. On the screen. Once again: Gaslighting, attempted murder, threatening with potions and purposefully inflicting emotional pain to isolate someone is abuse.

CLAIM: “If Regina didn’t restrain Henry at the well or on the tree then she would have been guilty of neglect so therefore she is not abusive”

What load of garbage is this? So just because she didn’t let him die she isn’t abusive? If he died then she couldn’t control him to only love her and no one else and be hers forever now could she? Keeping him alive to continue her abuse does not mean she wasn't abusive. Good grief. RAs have mush for brains. Also Henry would not have been in those situations if not for Regina’s lies, manipulation and attempts to murder his loved ones! So no, you don’t get to use her not killing Henry as an out for her abuse.

CLAIM: “Regina Mills is not an abuser because Regina isn't evil to her core”

Anyone who utters this is a Regina Mills apologists. She herself has admitted to torture and murder. All to get a revenge on an innocent child. That in and of itself is abusive and evil to her core. She also imagine strangling that innocent child. THAT is evil to the core. Regina has a pattern of abuse that is consistent even after her so called redemption. She makes snide remarks, calls people derogatory names and dismisses ideas to establish her control and position over others. Regina wasn’t only abusive to Henry but also to Emma. I have already covered this in detail on my post Regina Vs Killian and how they treat Emma. Its also been documented in this post about Regina and Emma’s toxic friendship.

CLAIM: ”OK maybe Regina abused Henry in S1 but that doesn't make her an abusive parent besides she didn't abuse him later so therefore she is a damn good mother“

It doesn’t matter when the abuse happened. She still abused him. Therefore she is an abuser. Therefore Regina committed child abuse. She also committed child abuse in S2 and still wasn't that great of a mother in S3 and 4. Sorry but a damn good mother would never have subjected a child to her cursed life. A good mother wouldn't have had to take a potion to forget that child's parentage. A good mother wouldn't have given a child cause to steal a Credit card, hop a bus, go to a strange city and try to find their biological parent in the off chance that biological parent will help save them from that so called good mother. A good mother wouldn't degrade the child's real parent in front of them. A good mother wouldn't put their feelings, or their broken heart, before that child's welfare like Regina did in s4. A good mother wouldn't recruit and bribe said child and put them in harms way to get what they wanted like Regina did in S4 by sending him to spy on a Dark One! A good mother wouldn't try to kill people their child loves.

CLAIM: “Regina leaving Henry alone on Saturdays was not abuse or neglect”

I actually looked up laws on this and within the United States, Illinois was the strictest at age 14 while Kansas was like "yeah sure they can be alone at age 6!” And that just honestly blew my mind. Maine doesn’t have an age law for leaving children home alone. So while Regina might not have broken any laws… I would still argue leaving a child alone to go rape a man is definitely some shitty parenting.

CLAIM: "In the end, Regina stayed when Henry needed her and that makes her better than Emma"

Henry was a grown man in Season 7 when Regina decided to follow him around like a little lost puppy. Henry was not in grave danger at that moment either. The danger had passed. Regina literally followed her grown son around so he could propose to a girl.

This is more like Regina becoming too co-dependent on Henry (as she tended to be when she didn't have a man)

Funny how when Henry was still a child in Season 4 and needed her Regina was too busy crying over her own broken heart and blaming Emma for things that were really her own fault... and then having sex with a man while his wife is dying (intent matters) and ignoring calls about Henry.

5) When the Regina Apologists blame the victim

CLAIM: “Henry was an ungrateful brat and he deserved it for bringing Emma to town!”

Victim blaming. Also he is a child and Regina is an adult. One thing RA's need to understand is that if Henry had been from a loving home he would have not needed to search out Emma in the way that he did. He sought her out so that she would save him. Save him from Regina and her curse. Regina illegally adopting Henry was child abuse in and of itself. First off, she illegally procured him for her own selfish wants so that he would love her. Secondly, she knew the town was cursed. She knew he would age and would have to deal with the town’s curse. In a way, she cursed him too! The curse effected his life and when it was obvious it was becoming an issue she just tried to gaslight him into believing he is crazy instead of fixing it. She hurt her child instead of helping her child. Henry trying to escape his abuser is not him being a brat.

6) When Regina Apologists are truly reaching

CLAIM: “There are more positive responses to RegalBeliever posts than on the hate posts so therefore it is a good relationship”

OK so please do not ever speak bad about CaptainSwan or Killian Jones again because the more positive likes outweighs the hate! Also, Rumbelle must not be toxic as their pro-rumbelle stuff gets so much love vs the negative stuff! Now I am not saying the anti-CaptainSwan stuff is right … I am just saying that is a BS measure. A quick review of history will show you that the most popular and widely accepted practices were later deemed wrong, immoral and cruel. So you might want to watch using that as a guide for “what is good” and instead try some critical thinking skills and independent thought.

CONCLUSION:

When I say Regina apologists disgust me… this is why. Just like Once Upon a Time taught you, nothing is ever Regina’s fault and its never abuse if you can come up with a reason why Regina did it. Then you twist the definition of an abuser to support your favorite that sent children to their death, committed acts of sexual assault and mass murder. Newsflash. There is never a good reason for deliberately hurting your child. Quick Review:

Regina’s past (fanon or canon) does not absolve her of her treatment of Henry. We do not let anyone off the hook in the real world because of their past.

This show that did not deal with abuse, abusers or victims in a very good way. So trying to look for real world examples to absolve Regina of the abuse she inflicted on Henry that we clearly see is laughable. When we are discussing canon on this show, please stick to the facts:

What Regina did to Henry was abuse. Her abuse included gaslighting, acts that deliberately hurt him to get what she wanted and attempted murder in order to control his life and further isolate him from having anyone but her. You can’t refute that that is abusive, harmful and extremely toxic. Denying this makes you a Regina apologist.

You still want to believe Regina was the best mother? Fine. Go ahead. Fanon your heart out my little Regina Apologist. But stop writing bull shit denying facts when we can plainly see what is going on in S1-2 and identify it as abuse. A little side note: Someone once pointed out to me that many of these RA's cherry pick moments from Regina and Henry’s relationship after Season 2 to prove that they have a healthy relationship and always have. You can’t use moments after season 2 to prove she’s never been abusive. Those moments do not erase everything that came before it. The moments after season 2 exist because that is after Regina mind wiped her abuse from Henry. It’s after Regina has decided that the only way to get what she wants, Henry, is to play for Team Hero. This is after the show itself decided to ignore child abuse and become pro-child abuser (by never addressing the abuse they wrote and handing Regina her illegally adopted son back). Regina only became a better parent than she was because of Emma’s existence. If Henry had never gone to get Emma then Regina would still be gaslighting Henry and making him believe he was crazy. She would still be abusing him right now. So it’s not that Regina had any kind of epiphany all on her own. It's just that she was forced to change her ways to get what she wanted. And even then there is evidence that the show ignores what they wrote and therefore Regina herself denies what she did. Just see what she says in Season 4 about her abuse of Henry as being characterized as “not believing he was special” which is a load of BS since she was awake. P.S. Emma is still the better parent by far. She put Henry’s needs before her own the day he was born. Regina put her curse before his welfare.

#anti regina mills #anti regal believer #emma swan was henry's real mother #regina mills abused henry #regina mills is an abuser

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wagner-fell · 2 years

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Kids of HoS Characters Because I Said So: Part One

@hahahax30 sorry idk if you wanted to be tagged or not

Jimena Joshi Gil on the eve of her wedding day. She may look unhappy but that’s only because she believes her smile to be hideous. Something her fiancé, soon to be husband, Veer Parikh, vehemently denies. The picture was taken by her parabatai and future sister-in-law, Lavanya Parikh.

From left to right, Purav Joshi Gil, Sharya Joshi Gil and Tecla Joshi Gil stand at their grandmother’s funeral, the one which Tecla is named after. Their father took the picture shortly before they left the Institute because he knew this might be his last time in the Spain he knew and loved, with the changing political climate and all.

From left to right, Iria Joshi Gil, Krishna Joshi Gil and Enrique Joshi Gil at the same funeral. The photo was taken in their father’s old bedroom.

Wilbur Matthew Fairchild getting into a cab that will take him to the train station where he will get on one that goes to Moscow, Russia. From there, he will rent a car that will last him to the Mongolian border, where he will trade it in for a horse all to surprise his sweetheart, Mae-Pia Gantulga, for her birthday. The photograph was taken by Wilbur’s sister and later sent to Mae-Pia herself.

Brinley Lisette Fairchild on her sixteenth birthday. The photo was taken by her Papa in his favourite place to sit and read as a child. Brinley just thinks the angle lights up her features.

Erik Carstairs, taken by a professional when he was seventeen so his Mama could mail it to her fathers to show them just how much he resembled his father. Papa and himself disagreed but his was never very good at letting things go.

Vienna Carstairs, middle, her parabatai, right, and his boyfriend, left. It was taken by her brother, Kilian. He was bribed to do it with the promise of Vienna teaching him how to fire a gun as he had been having trouble with it.

Kilian Carstairs, also taken by a professional on the same day as his brother because Vienna told him the photograph machine would cause him to go blind and he wanted to test the theory.

Ahmad Carstairs, taken by his Papa two days after Aunt Catia visited the Carstairs residence, trying to mimic her shooting stance.

Uuganbaatar Lightwood, or Andrew, as he prefers to be called, left, and his friends at the academy. It was taken by his sister and sent back to their parents because they missed him.

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Ski Jumping National Champ

USA NH compatition, Michael Glasder and Nina Lussi take the title

Nina Lussi took a clear win in the ladies' competition with 88 m and 94.5 m and a total of 227.0 points. The other two spots on the podium went to Nita Englund (92 m and 90 m; 202.5 points) and Abby Ringquist (76.5 m and 80 m; 170.5 points).

Michael Glasder was clearly the best ski jumper in both rounds with 96 m and 100.5 m. The second place went to Kevin Bickner, nordic combined athlete Bryan Fletcher finished third.

Russia Denis Kornilov was the best in both competitions at the Russian Championships, Avvakumova takes women’s title.

Kornilov won with jumps of 101.5 m and 94.5 m and 241.1 points. Only 0.6 points behind, Aleksandr Bazhenov came in second with 98.5 m and 96 m, Mikhail Nazarov was third with 96 m and 97.5 m and a total of 236.1 points.

Irina Avvakumova was in a league of her own in the ladies competition. She won the title on the normal hill with 97 m and 98.5 m and 234.0 points, clearly ahead of Anastasiya Barannikova (95.5 m and 94 m; 212.6 points) and Lidiia Iakovleva

Italy Davide Bresadola and Manuela Malsiner took the titles at the Italian Ski Jumping championships on the normal hill on Saturday.

Davide Bresadola had the best jumps in both rounds on the HS 104 in Predazzo with 100 m and 99 m. Davide defended his title from last year's championships with 246.5 points. The second place went to Sebastian Colloredo, Daniele Varesco came in third

Manuela Malsiner proved to be unbeatable in the ladies event. The Junior World Champion dominated the competition with 103 m and 98 m and 241.0 points. She was followed by Elena Runggaldier and Lara Malsiner

Switzerland Kilian Peier successfully defended his title at the Swiss Ski Jumping Championships

The second place went to Gregor Deschwanden, 3rd to Andreas Schuller. Sina Arnet won the ladies competition. followed by Rea Kindlimann and Emely Torazza

Austria Nat. Champ were held this weekend in Bischofshofen (large hill) and Villach (normal hill). Michael Hayboeck won both competition, Chiara Hoelzl won the ladies' competition

Michael win NH title with 264 points and the LH title with 275 pts. In NH Compatition Stefan Karft finished 2nd and Manuel Fettner 3rd, in LH compatition the podium was Hayboeck, Gregor Schlierenzauer (leader after 1st round) and Kraft

Chiara Hoelzl won the ladies' competition with 92 m and 79.5 m and 207.1 points. Jacqueline Seifriedsberger took silver with 89 m and 82.5 m (203.7 points), the third place went to Elisabeth Raudaschl with 176.2 points (82.5 m and 77.5 m).

#denis kornilov #ski jumping #ski jump #irina avvakumova #michael glasder #nina lussi #davide bresadola #manuela malsinier #kilian peier #manuel fettner #michael hayböck #gregor schlierenzauer #chiara hoelzl #stephan kraft #stefan kraft #skispringen

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Stars Beyond Number - Chapter 19

The Way the World Ends, Part 3

Rating: T (rating varies by chapter; mature content will be tagged; regardless of rating, minors DNI)

Pairings: Echo x Riyo Chuchi; Gregor x OFC Cerra Kilian

Wordcount: 2.9k

Warnings and tags: angst; suspense; canon-typical violence; someone gets punched; blood and injury; language.

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Summary: Echo arrives in Pabu; the team disagrees about how to proceed.

A/N: This story shares continuity with Martyrs and Kings, "Double, Double Boil and Trouble" (part 2 here) and "Do It Again," but all the fics can be read as stand-alones.

…This is the way the world ends…

—T. S. Eliot, “The Hollow Men”

To say Pabu was beautiful would be grossly inadequate: it was the most idyllic place Echo had ever seen, and he’d seen a kriffing lot of the galaxy. He didn’t know if a worse hell existed than Skako Minor, but it was difficult to imagine a heaven that was lovelier than Pabu. He wished Riyo could have been there with him to see it.

It felt very strange to sit in the sunshine and enjoy Shep Hazard’s feast, to drink whatever fruity cocktail the mayor had made from the fermented tropical fruit that grew on their island—all while conscious that the rest of his team was either stuck in that dingy underworld garage or out on missions that were equally likely to end in gruesome disaster as success. He didn’t blame Hunter for wanting to keep the rest of the Batch—and particularly Omega—safe in this paradise.

Despite all that, Echo didn’t regret his decision to join Rex for even a second. The team’s success at Balmorra had only reaffirmed that he’d made the right call. But he couldn’t deny that it was very good to see his family again. Hunter made it more than clear that Echo would be welcome to join them, and if he were honest with himself, Echo admitted that it was a tempting prospect: a peaceful life in this beautiful place, surrounded by the people who were closest to him.

But what about the others? The ones who weren’t lucky enough to have found peace and safety?

“Echo, you've seen the power you're up against,” Hunter said. “You can't defeat them.”

“It's not about that,” Echo insisted. “It's about fighting for our brothers.”

“I understand why you're doing this,” Hunter sighed, “but when will it be enough?”

Echo didn’t reply immediately, but the unspoken words hovered between them nonetheless: Not yet.

“We have to tell him,” Fireball insisted.

“What good would it do?” Rex asked. “We need to get that data spike decrypted. If we tell Echo now, he’ll want to join in the search. We have to think about the bigger picture.”

“We could use some karking help with the search,” Nemec pointed out. “We still don’t know where Cerra is or even who took her.”

“My contact is looking into it,” Rex insisted. “If she’s in Imperial custody, we should know within a day or two.”

“And what if she isn’t?” Fireball asked. “How are we supposed to find her when we have no actionable intel?”

Riyo’s stomach churned. She couldn’t even believe they were having this conversation. Rex’s jaw was set firmly, but she could see the torment and self-doubt that swirled in his eyes.

“What if the situation were reversed?” she asked Rex. “If Echo knew something had happened to Cerra, and he decided to keep it from you?”

“I’d say he made the right decision,” Rex said. “The mission comes first.”

“That’s a kriffin’ lie,” Gregor said. “You’d burn the galaxy to the ground.”

“And what makes you say that?” Rex demanded harshly.

Gregor stared at Rex without flinching. “Because that’s what I’d do.”

“I have to agree,” Riyo said. “I’m sorry, Rex. If you don’t comm Echo, I will.”

Rex sighed and dropped his head into his hands. “Just… Give me a day. If I don’t hear back from my contact by then, I’ll comm Echo myself.”

“And what if you hear back?” Gregor asked.

Rex didn’t respond, and Riyo knew he was considering the possibility that his contact wouldn’t have any information.

“Then we’ll make a decision at that point,” she said decisively.

Rex met her eyes and nodded in acknowledgment. She wasn’t particularly thrilled, but she understood Rex’s reservations. There was really nothing Echo could do right now, and his mission was important. But the minute they had a shred of intel, she would comm him—Rex and his bigger picture be damned.

“Previous transfer records recovered from the ship's logs list other clone prisoners detained by the Advanced Science Division,” Tech said, “and Crosshair is one of them.”

Wrecker spoke the thought that sprang to all of their minds: “You mean Crosshair turned on the Empire?”

Echo stared at Tech. If this were true, it could change everything. Crosshair had chosen the Empire, and he’d claimed to have done it without the influence of his inhibitor chip. Echo harbored private doubts that Crosshair’s chip had truly been removed, even if he thought it had. Regardless, if Crosshair had a change of heart about the Empire, that meant that there was hope that he would be willing to come back to the squad. Echo had lost too many brothers already. If there was the slightest chance that he could save Crosshair, he had to do it.

Tech and Echo threw themselves into the task of combing through the data he’d recovered from the Gozanti, and then into hunting down any leads they could find on Hemlock and the Advanced Science Division in Republic and Imperial records. There was precious little, and after an exhaustive search, Echo sent a message to Rex asking for assistance.

Echo was surprised by how quickly Rex commed him back. He answered the call aboard the Remora; better for everyone involved if the Batch knew as little as possible about the details of Rex’s operations. The more they knew, the bigger the targets on their backs would grow.

“Echo,” Rex greeted him without preamble. “My contact came through with limited intel on your Dr. Hemlock, but we do know that he’s set to travel to Eriadu in two rotations.”

“That’s not much time,” Echo frowned. “What’s he doing there?”

“Attending some sort of summit at Tarkin’s compound with a bunch of Imperials. Not sure who else will be there, but given how classified it is, safe to say they’re all high-level officials.”

Echo grunted. “Tight security, then. Couldn’t take it with an army, but maybe a strike team could infil. Anything else?”

Rex shook his head, his expression troubled. “Someone has gone to a lot of trouble to make it seem like Hemlock doesn’t exist. They’re not going to be happy to see a squad of wanted fugitives tracking him down.”

“We don’t have a choice. If he has Crosshair, we have to get him back,” Echo said firmly. “He’s our brother. Besides, Hemlock is holding other clones, too.”

“I understand,” Rex replied, but doubt clouded his eyes.

“We could use some backup,” Echo observed.

“I wish I could send it,” Rex said. “Echo… there’s something you need to know.”

“What is it?” Echo asked. “Riyo—”

“She’s all right,” Rex said. “It’s about Cerra.”

Echo’s short-lived relief spiraled into a sense of foreboding. “What happened?”

“She went missing on an extraction mission. We still don’t know who took her.”

“I’m coming back,” Echo said flatly.

“Negative,” Rex replied, his voice stern. “The whole team on Coruscant is working on it. Your mission is too important; we have no idea if or when we’ll get another lead on Hemlock.”

“Kriff Hemlock—” Echo began.

“Cerra would want you to put the mission first,” Rex interrupted. “You know it’s true.”

“Cerra has a karkin’ death wish!” Echo snapped. “She’s been looking for an excuse to self-destruct since I met her.”

“We won’t let that happen. We will find her. I need you to stay focused on your mission. We can’t spare the men for Eriadu, and we couldn’t make it in time anyway. It has to be you, Echo. We’re counting on you.”

Echo sat alone in the Remora for a long moment after Rex ended the holocom. He knew Rex was right, but it didn’t ease the sick feeling of dread when he thought about Cerra. Dank farrik, he’d only just begun to get through to her, and now he might have lost her for good—his last link to Fives.

The mission comes first.

He’d get his brother back first, and if the team hadn’t found Cerra by then, he swore by the Force he’d get his sister back, too.

Cerra awoke to the familiar gray walls of a Venator brig. She’d never been held in one before, but she’d seen them plenty of times during her years of service. She had no idea how much time had passed or even which Venator she was on. Her body ached, and hunger gnawed at her stomach. She took a quick stock of her situation.

Naturally, she’d been stripped of her weapons and armor, which was karking annoying. It was just her luck to lose her armor on the very first mission after she finished the modifications she’d been working on with Echo. The loss of the blasters cut deeper. Jesse had customized them for her specially years before, and they were all she had left from him. Even if she managed to escape, the odds were spectacularly bad that she would be able to find them on the Venator, if they’d even made it aboard.

That was assuming she lived long enough to escape. She had no delusions about her chances: she was being kept alive long enough to interrogate. Once they’d ripped the answers out of her, she would be terminated and jettisoned with the rest of the trash. If she were lucky, it would happen in that order.

All of which meant that she needed to escape before they had a chance to extract her secrets. All she had to do was break out of a completely secure holding cell, make her way through an enormous and heavily guarded starship, steal a ride, and jump into hyperspace before the Venator could engage its tractor beam—all without getting captured again.

Easy peasy.

She scoffed and flopped back down on the kriffing pathetic excuse for a bed. Clearly, prisoner comfort was not high on the list of priorities for jail cells. Nor was entertainment, which she discovered over the course of the next several days. Had she been bored when she was alone in the garage? That had been a paradise compared to the endless, colorless monotony of a Venator cell.

She slept, she woke, she slept again. Nothing changed, and she was forced to confront the very real possibility that she was going to die in this cell. She didn’t know how many days passed before the heavy tread of a TK trooper sounded outside her cell door.

“On your feet,” he barked. “Hands behind your head.”

She complied, keeping a wary eye on his blaster. He shut down the ray shield and entered the cell, then shoved her against the wall as he secured her wrists in a set of binders behind her back.

“You know, I usually expect a man to at least tell me his name before I let him tie me up,” she said, hoping to catch him off-balance.

“Quiet, scum,” he snapped.

Ah, well. Worth a shot.

“Get moving,” he ordered, nudging her out of the cell and into the corridor with the muzzle of his blaster.

“Where we headed?” she asked conversationally.

“Interrogation,” he replied shortly.

“Any chance we can stop at the commissary?” she asked. “I wouldn’t mind a snack. The prisoner rations here are—”

“Shut up,” he snapped. “Eyes front.”

Unfortunately, he never let down his guard, and his blasters were properly secured. Trust her to encounter the only competent TK trooper in the entire kriffin’ army. He marched her to the interrogation room and thrust her through the doorway. She stumbled, but righted herself in time to see the door slide closed and the lock engage.

She took a quick inventory of the room. There was nothing inside except a table and two chairs; nothing she could use to escape or even loosen her binders. She paced around the room impatiently. After waiting a frankly impolite amount of time, at last she heard the door hiss open behind her.

“Cerra Kilian. I didn’t think I’d ever see you again.”

Oh kark.

She would recognize that voice anywhere, and she fought against a reflexive urge to snap to attention. Instead, she turned slowly around and inspected the man who’d entered the room.

“Admiral,” she drawled in greeting, hoping that he couldn’t hear the pounding of her heart or see the damp sheen of sweat that she suddenly felt on her forehead.

“It’s colonel, actually,” Wullf Yularen replied.

“Apologies, I didn’t realize you’d been demoted,” Cerra replied. From his narrowed eyes, she could tell the barb had struck home.

“It was a lateral move,” he replied. “An opportunity presented itself to be of greater service to the Empire.”

“Then I suppose congratulations are in order,” Cerra said.

“I can’t say the same for you,” Yularen said with a faint look of disgust as he surveyed her from her shaved head to her booted feet. “What on earth have you done to yourself? You used to be almost pretty.”

Always such a charmer.

“Well, new Empire, new me,” she said glibly. “I think the new look suits me.”

“I suppose I shouldn’t expect better from a deserter and a traitor,” he said.

Cerra smirked. “Deserter, I’ll give you. But I hardly think a few shady back-alley deals constitute treason. If they did, you’d have to arrest the entire senate.”

Yularen clenched his jaw, but he didn’t rise to her bait. “You saved my life once, Lieutenant—or rather—Miss Kilian, and out of respect for that, I am going to give you a chance to do this the easy way. Tell me where to find your companions, and I will let you go free.”

Kraytshit, scughole. The only way you’re letting me out is in a body bag.

“I don’t have any companions,” she said. “I’m a free agent.”

Yularen’s lips tightened. He began to circle her, slowly, his shoulders ramrod straight, and his hands clasped behind his back.

“What were you doing on Daiyu?”

“What does anyone do on Daiyu?” she asked. “I was picking up a shipment of glitterstim.”

“You expect me to believe you abandoned your highly decorated military career to become a spice runner?” Yularen’s voice dripped with skepticism.

She shrugged. “Girl’s gotta make a living.”

He narrowed his eyes. “We know you were involved with the insurrection on Raada.”

It was hardly an insurrection. I just blew up a speeder.

“What’s Raada?” she asked insouciantly.

“We have surveillance holos of you on the base. There’s no point in pretending ignorance.”

“Oh, you mean Raada, the moon,” Cerra said. “I was thinking about moving there, but I didn’t care much for the neighbors.”

“I see. I must admit, I was surprised to see a familiar face when we began to investigate the Raada incident. Careless. Almost as careless as trusting a spice runner not to give you up at the first hint of a reward.”

So that’s where the hole in our opsec was, Cerra thought grimly. Poor fucker.

“Hell of a reward,” she said. “Why do you care so much about a blown-up speeder, anyway?”

“Don’t pretend to be so innocent,” he gritted out. “Where is Ahsoka Tano?”

“Who?” Cerra didn’t need to fake her confusion this time; she was truly baffled.

What in the galaxy does Ahsoka Tano have to do with anything? Cerra had met the young Jedi several times before she was transferred to the Ro-Ti-Mundi, but didn’t know her particularly well. Certainly not as well as Rex did. As far as Cerra knew, the girl had died along with the rest of the Jedi Order, even if she was a lapsed member.

“We know an adolescent Togruta Jedi killed an inquisitor on Raada and escaped mere days after you were caught on holocam at that base. Where is she?” Yularen demanded in a harsh tone.

“I thought all the Jedi were dead. What’s an inquisitor?” Cerra asked curiously. She hadn’t heard of them before, and she figured she might as well try to get as much information as she could on the off chance that she walked away from this mess.

Yularen backhanded her, hard. He struck so fast she never saw his fist coming before it smashed into her face. Her head snapped to the side, and she stumbled, but righted herself quickly as agony exploded in her mouth.

“Rude,” she gasped painfully. “I thought we were having a conversation.”

She tasted the salty, metallic flavor of blood, and she spat it onto the floor in front of Yularen’s feet.

“I gave you your chance to cooperate,” he said. “But it seems you’ve chosen to do it the hard way.”

“You know,” Cerra said, “you were a decent commanding officer. Bit of a hardass, but I never took you for a stooge. I guess you can never really know someone.”

“Strong words for a woman who betrayed everything she ever stood for,” Yularen said.

“I didn’t betray shit,” Cerra snarled. “And my only regret is that I dragged your fascist ass into the escape pod instead of saving more clones.”

He glared at her. “You will tell me everything.”

“Don’t hold your breath,” she said.

“I won’t need to. Guard!” Yularen snapped. The TK trooper stationed outside the room entered immediately. “Escort the prisoner to the enhanced interrogation room, and notify Agent Daivik that his services are required.”

“Yes, sir,” the trooper said, taking aim at Cerra. “Move it, scum.”

Cerra shot Yularen an impudent, bloody grin. “Be seeing you.”

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#echo tbb #captain rex #captain gregor #riyo chuchi #oc: cerra kilian #echo x riyo chuchi #gregor x oc #clone trooper fireball #clone trooper nemec #the bad batch #star wars #tbb fanfic #star wars fanfiction #star wars oc #dystopicjumpsuit writes #stars beyond number

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A gift for @a-bunch-of-small-aliens-art-dump, thanks for your art!

Kilian absolutely denies buying these shirts for them when people ask.

#i would've submitted this to your blog but i can't submit as a side blog #don't think i've drawn nicole before #it was fun!#much easier than kili because of his ears lol #i love her eyelashes too #kilian o'brien #sergeant nicole #gift #i have them doing the same pose because she's mimicking her big brother

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amnachil · 4 years

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The College Society Chapter 4 Part 1

And here we go !

This is the last chapter of Liam’s 1st year at the university. It’s a long one, so be ready ;)

A new pov will replace Barbara starting now, I hope you’ll like it.

Damian-Nicholas Smith Carrey Friday March 8, in France

When people said him that he could write a book about his life, he never imagined what kind of book it would be. But now, he had quite an accurate idea. He would call it : 'How to change from the most famous hunter to a stupid and naive man in love'. He had gone through step one for a long time now : have a fucking ridiculous teenage crush. And now, he started step two : be in a relationship with your so-called crush. Damian Nicholas Smith Carrey wasn't someone easily flustered. At least on paper. But when it come to the baboon, it was a true disaster. He must have left his pride back in the US.

"What do you think ? Isn't this one better ?" asked Liam.

The junior looked at him, his brows furrowed. They were doing shopping for souvenir. Well, the baboon searched little things for his siblings and Damian Nicholas Smith-Carrey tagged along.

"I dunno. There are the same to me."

One was a key chain with the eiffel tower, the other with the Arc de Triomphe. Both were low quality products anyway. But the baboon finally picked one, and they went out of the store.

"Where are we going next ?" asked the blond lad. "There is plenty of time before our departure..."

"I bought everything I wanted." replied his boyfriend. "So I thought we could hum... take some time for us ?"

He blushed when he said the last word, which made Damian Nicholas Smith-Carrey blush too, and then they both blushed even more. This is an endless circle of pathetic shyness. I mean, I eat ass every other day, so why am I so prude right now ?

"Fine." he agreed anyway. "Lead the way."

They honestly had a good time. It was fucking weird to enjoy this at much as sex. Maybe even more. They went for walk the length of the Seine. Liam ate a box of pastries along the way and they talked about this and that. This is the end of my damned life. I'm having a silly conversation with someone. It must be the first time since... I don't even fucking remember. They were on their way back when Liam sighed.

"I'm happy to have you Dami." he whispered.

All this romantic bullshit was so embarrassing. Do I like it or not ? Just get a grip dude ! Not only he was having a damn date with his boyfriend, but he also looked like the flustered one here ! No one must ever know it happened. The baboon took his hand.

"I'm serious you know ?" he continued. "I mean, I'm still very worried about a lot of stuff... Nate is my main concern, but I'm also still preoccupied by my father. And I can't deny my story with Kilian is giving me an headache. But I'm really happy to know you're here."

"First of all baboon, it doesn't suit you to be so serious." replied Damian Nicholas Smith-Carrey while trying to regain composure. "Secondly, there is nothing in what you said that can't wait tomorrow. You've the right to enjoy a little time for yourself with someone you love."

Liam blushed. He kissed his boyfriend to thank him. Holy crap. I'm getting good at the cheesy stuff too. Well, it wasn't surprising : Damian Nicholas Smith-Carrey was good at everything.

This evening on the plane, the junior felt a weird dread through his whole body. Suddenly, he stressed about his relationship. But there is nothing new... I mean, we already were a couple before. So what is different ? He quickly put his finger on it. I said to the baboon I loved him. I confessed my weakness. The hunters shall never know. Nobody in the university, for that matter. There are already too many fucking people aware of our relationship. I don't trust anyone about this.

"Hey dude."

Damian Nicholas Smith-Carrey glared at the sophomore who hailed him. It was the dipshit called Matthew, Theo's heir.

"What the hell are you doing here ?" he asked. "Want to suck my prick ?"

The cocky lad (it was obvious this guy was an arrogant bastard) smiled.

"Maybe another time. I just wanted to say D.R sent me the contract regarding Barbara. She has to stay away from Colton and all his friends starting now. So you won't see her again much."

"Don't give me that crap, idiot. I don't care about the roach. You can fuck her, so go on. Isn't it what you wanted since the beginning ?"

Matthew's smile grew larger. I can definitely see the ressemblance with this shitty Theophile now.

"Just go away, moron." he concluded.

Liam Sunday March 10 back in the US

"This trip has done some damage..."

The young lad bite his lips. I knew I had indulged a lot but that's quite a change...

"Do you dislike it ?" asked Nate, while slumping on his bed.

"Not really..."

He had been ages since the last time Liam had looked properly at his reflection. He was pleased with his general body shape. His face was finely chiseled. He had strong biceps and triceps. His legs were robust but thick just like his chest. His pecs were nicely standing out. Even his back was kind of burly. But where three month ago he had a blossoming six pack, he had now a modest amount of squishy flab. His bulging waistline was easily noticeable since he was only in briefs. But he wasn't dissatisfied.

"I think I like myself." Liam whispered.

"And that's a good thing." mumbled his bestfriend, his eyes closed. "You have nothing to be ashamed about, trust me."

The chesnut lad outlined a smile. I'm glad to see Nate is talking more and more. He was also pretty sure Dami won't judge him for a little bulk.

"I mean..." resumed the other lad. "You're even well-endowed."

It made Liam blush like hell. (Not that he didn't take the compliment.) (Who could blame him ?).

The freshman expected things to improve since they came back from France. After all, Nate was getting better, Nick was actually making some progress at swimming and Dami literally confessed his feelings. It looked like the unicorns were finally powerful enough to repel the forces of evil. (After all, he had been feeding them with his dreams for months now !). So when a girl went to talk to him during his training this afternoon, he completely ignored her. (Not on purpose of course !). He was just so happy that he couldn't focus on anything. He went throught weight lifting and then legs exercises without noticing the many people who accosted him. He left campus without taking note of the lustful looks around him. I think I'm happy. The talk with Kilian had freed him. He was so glad to know the force of evils failed to take his ex-boyfriend. Anyhow, he finally went to work. As soon as he arrived, Judy came to him.

"Oh god Liam here you are ! I was so worried !" she shouted.

He blinked, not sure to have heard right. (Not that he often didn't heard people or anything...). What was she worried about ? Did he forget something important ? Something life-saving ? Maybe the aliens were gonna attack soon ?

"Liam focus ! I'm trying to have a conversation here !"

Judy clicked her fingers right under his eyes, breaking his thoughts.

"Are you alright ? Did someone do something to you ?"

"What ? No." he replied, surprised. "Why ?"

She frowned.

"Are you and Damian Nicholas Smith Carrey still a couple ?" she eventually asked.

Liam blushed. I think I'm supposed to keep it a secret but... He could trust Judy, right ?

"We are." he replied. "But what is your point ?"

"Be prudent when you're not with him okay ? I never thought I would say that one day, but I think you're safer with him around. Even if I still bet he'll hurt you in the end, like he did with everyone else."

Liam nodded. Their boss was calling them. I'm not sure I understand what she meant... However, he was certain Dami wouldn't said "I love you" so lightly. I'm special to him, I'm at least sure of that.

When he arrived at their flat tonight, Nick announced Nate wasn't there. Apparently, he had left for a talk with Archibald. It reminded Liam there were still things he wanted to improve in his life. My bestfriend and my poor family situation should be my priorities. He had no doubt the unicorns would agree on this. Besides, everything was linked to the forces of evil anyway. He grabbed a slice of pie in the fridge and joined his roommate. (Of course a pie made by Dami. Now that he had tasted his boyfriend's pastries, it was very hard to eat anything else to be honest.). (Once you visited heaven, you wouldn't come back, right ?).

"I can tell he's doing better." said Nick while staring at the screen of his console. "But I also can tell he went through something very disturbing. What do you think they're talking about so often ?"

"I don't know." admitted Liam. "But Dami assured me Archibald was a good guy so I trust him."

Of course, the chestnut lad wanted to help. And yes, I want to know what happened. (Curiosity is not a sin). (Glutonny is, but Liam didn't think much about it).

"Yeah well, until now we can say whatever he's doing is working." agreed Nick. "You should go to sleep... Wait, are you snacking ?"

Liam took a mouthful of his pie and chewed happily.

"This is just too good." he explained.

"You were sooooo against food at the beginning of the year." laughed his roommate. "I never imagined you were such a foodie."

Well... Seems like I changed my mind.

Nicolas Monday March 11 – Tuesday March 12

< Imagenius : yo what's up ? >

< TheSavior : long story short it sucked. I m better looking at my screen and playin'. Wht abut you pal ? >

< Imagenius : long story short my roommate is fuckin' loud while talkin' with her new friends. I hate people with actual life you know ? They remind me I'm a loser >

< TheSavior : won't say I know the feeling cuz I dont. >

< Imagenius : lol becuz right youre so popular >

< TheSavior : at least i hav friends outside a lame chat bruh >

< Imagenius : bruh >

< Abeautifulwomen : guys I do to. >

< Imagenius : as if a man who claims to be a girl could. Anyway Sav can you send us another pic of this cute roommate of yours ? Pretty please ? >

< Abeautifulwomen : Same. But hey Ima are ya gay ? >

< Imagenius : Joker ? >

< TheSavior : need 2g. I'll turn the chat off. I don't hav any another pic >

* Abeautifulwoman is offline *

* Imagenius is offline *

* TheSavior is offline *

Nick sighed and looked at the clock. Almost midnight. Nice. I can still play. He slowly stood up and headed to the kitchen. First of all, he needed supplies. The raven-haired boy opened the fridge and grabbed a slice of pie and a beer. Two beers. He knew Damian Nicholas Smith Carrey had cooked it for Liam but whatever. His friend wouldn't mind. Nick came back to his room and turned his console on. A sligh whine came from his roommate's bedroom. Nate was having a nightmare again, he guessed. It was happening every other day. Not like if I could just ask what's wrong. If he doesn't talk to Liam, he won't talk to me. The lad drank his beer and started to play. He was good at it at least. He finished the level rather quickly, only to notice he had already ate the pie and emptied the beers. Again, he stood up and headed to the kitchen. Not that he was hungry, but he liked to play while chewing something. This time, he opted for ice cream. And beer of course. Then, he took his playing up again. One hour later, he was done with two more level. And he had devoured the ice cream. So once more, he stood up and headed to the kitchen. No wonder I'm fat. He put his snacks on the counter and patted his belly. When he had entered college he had been a twig. But the sudden freedom allowed him to indulge without his parents constant nagging. Maybe he had enjoyed it a bit too much. When he had come back at home for the christmas holidays they weren't very happy about his changes. Himself had been surprised to discover he had already hit the freshman 15. Now this limit was beyond him. I checked when we came back from France. I weight 89 kg (196 pounds) now. Almost 200. Nick shrugged. He didn't really care. He took his snack and continued to play.

The next morning, he got ready quickly. Unlike Liam, he wasn't dozy on the morning. Well, Liam was dozy all the time so bad comparison. They left together for the first lecture. When they arrived, the first thing Nick noticed was Barbara. The girl hated him for some absurd reason. She was so obnoxious. Then, he glimpsed Rebecca. Another one he couldn't understand at all.

"And to think I've been interested in her..." he mumbled.

Liam didn't hear him. That was the good thing with this dude. I could've been screaming, he wouldn't notice. They joined Colton who greeted them warmly. Nick turned on his gameboy but he wasn't paying attention to the screen. He knew the game by heart since middleschool anyway. Instead, he looked at his friends. He often did that without them noticing. Everyone assumed he was just another nerd but he was an observant nerd. Their trip in France had took a toll on Liam waistline aswell. If I'm looking closely enough, I'm sure even Colton's ever slim frame must've softened a bit. Nick was pretty sure this one would lost it in one day or two. As for his dreamy roommate... I think he will keep it on purpose. He seems to like it. Well, both of them were handsome anyway. The raven-haired boy didn't have this luck. He heard someone laugh behind him. The person whispered something about pokemon being a lame game. Another talked about his little bathing in the Seine. Not a day I want to remember. Seriously, classes were so boring...

Noon eventually came. Nick hit the buffet of the cafeteria like a ravenous beast. He needed his daily amount of junkfood to functiun properly.

"What do you think about the math assignment ?" asked Colton. "Shall we work on it tonight ?"

"I finished it already." he revealed. "But I'm sure Liam would be glad to do it with you."

Of course, his roommate wasn't listening. He was looking away while munching on home-made cookies. And new thing, he was crooning. I know some very weird people but they can't hold a candle to him. Nick discreetly kicked him under the table.

"Uh... What ?"

"Welcome back to earth." he said. "Colton wanted to ask you something."

Nick didn't listen to their conservation. He had glimpsed Damian Nicholas Smith Carrey in the crowd. Another strange dude. Since I came here, I met too many real character. He looks pissed. I mean, more than usual. He was talking to a girl. Well, probably insulting the girl to be fair.

"... Swimming tonight ?"

The raven-haired lad turned his attention towards Colton.

"No thanks." he replied when he had guessed the question. "I'm not very... at ease when there are so many people watching me."

His friend smiled.

"Of course."

* TheSavior is online *

* Abeautifulwomen is online *

* Imagenius is online *

< Imagenius : yo ! Day was booooring. How was yours ? >

< TheSavior : Same as usual. Couldn't wait to be back in my flat >

< Abeautifulwomen : Mine was fine. I don't actually leav my flat. Lucky me ! >

< Imagenius : Btw guys there is something up in my college. I heard ppl sayin a big hunt started. Don't know what that meant but they were very excited. Apparently, the prey is one of a kind ! >

< Abeautifulwomen : Funny. Do you think they hunt human ? >

< TheSavior : I'm sure they're talkin abut a treasure hunt or smthg. We shuld play. >

< Imagenius : Nah Sav it was about a real person. They want him but idk why. Maybe he did something wrong. Beauty yu didnt hear anythg from your boss friend ? >

< Abeautifulwomen : He doesnt control every college in the country duh. Last time he called he was very very very very very angry :3 I got a dick pick thanks to that ! >

< Imagenius : You really are gay. >

< Abeautifulwomen : I told yu im a girl >

< TheSavior : Come play and stop the chichat. Wdc abut a fke hunt nor ur fke dick pick >

< Imagenius : Aye sir >

< Abeautifulwomen : Aye sir >

To be continued

Tadaa. Something is going on in the community, but what could it be ?! I can only tell you Damian Nicholas Smith Carrey will have a lot of work to do. Liam is in a happy bubble, but you know me, it won’t last long.

And welcome Nick. He has been a steady presence in the background since the beginning, so he earned his own pov. He’s on a group chat with two other people... Maybe you’ll be able to guess who they are ;)

#the college society #cs #Damian Nicholas Smith Carrey #Liam #Nick #weight gain #stuffing #mention of beer #A lot of food #Some strangers #What is happening ?#Chapter 4 #Part 1

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