#depends on who im doing what for

[infime]

i feel like this is the longest ive been clean in a while which is crazy lolz

#cloud nonsense #honestly like the more occupied i an the better my mental health #n self destructive behaviours #but it's more than just being occupied #bc uni is ofc abs occupying #but i guess there's like a diff #depends on who im doing what for #like at the end of the day my degree is still like for me #the work i do is like it's all for me whatever the outcome #so yy #idk sigh #want a normal brain grrrr

[tittyblade]

okay ive been thinking.

rb with your answer + what your interpretation of barbie/ken is

#mcyt #technoblade #OKAY this is really dumb but bear with me DBJSBDJ #(dont read my og tags before u vote i want to hear ur own interpretation!!) #to me a ken is like a himbo. just living his best life unbothwred #and barbie 100% knows what she wants and how to get it shes a capital g Girlboss okay #SO IM THINKING. techno’s obviously a barbie have you ever watched any of his videos #BUT AT THE SAME TIME. being a barbie all the time would be so exhausting youve got sm shit to do #so in conclusion i say. hes a ken that can be a barbie whenever he wants. will he be tho? who knows #depends on the weather or wether he took his adhd meds that day

[kabutoden]

bug trolls… i am interested in kankri vantas. if that isn’t too much trouble. your buggy guys are so silly and interesting and i am a fan

here is kankri and his baby brother…. they don’t get along!! i wish they did though id love to see these two go on an adventure together where they look out each other. since kankri is a beforus troll and a vegan, his shell is pretty thin because he’s not getting enough iron. on the other hand, karkat’s shell is heavier then it should be due to stress. thanks for the RQ!! im soooo glad ppl like my sillies :D

#kankris picking up karkat because karkat said fuck you im going to come over there and cram my scythe down your ignorance shaft #kankri said no you arnt. you’re not going to do that. im not letting you do that. #karkat vantas #kankri vantas #homestuck #trolls #buggy trolls #want to see these 2 depending on each other to survive in alternia. i think it would be very hard for them to do #but i think they could grow and develop in interesting ways if they got to be brothers who fight #enrichment in the isopod tank #redbloods #these two are natural drama that’s engaging story!! ive never really read a fic i liked that rlly got into their companionship as brothers #like there’s quite a few abt dirk and dave as brothers #most fics that have both of them focus more on their bonds with the sufferer #if anyone has a recommendation I’d love to hear it #give them crabdad no sufferer make them struggle in this cruel world. highly protective kankri grumpy wrathful karkat #they can’t stand each other but also rely on each other. redblood moment #given that isopods are comparatively social and good natured to many of the other troll buggy species I’ve picked out #that’s what I’m SAYIN #^silly #ok bye

[brother-emperors]

CAESAR AUGUSTUS AND MARCUS LICINIUS CRASSUS

this is about the spolia opima that crassus was robbed of lmao. like, yeah okay octavian could've asked him not to claim it, but nevertheless. a kind of theft happened there.

Fact and Fiction: Crassus, Augustus, and the Spolia Opima, Catherine McPherson

#this is one from the vaults I started a few months ago and finally finished. it’s always the furniture details that put things on hold lmao #the former co consuls are fightinggggg (?) #rome is built on top of other people. this is about both the imperialism-slavery machine and the way that all these guys would #politically devour their own generation to sit on a throne. etc. anyway. octavian specifically sits on a throne of other people’s #accomplishments. that’s a specific kind of debt to carry around your neck. or theft depending on who is doing what #this was theft. anything involving Agrippa was a gift so there’s an obligation to succeed which is it’s own kind of currency so to speak #sugghrhfh. every crassus always has to be like this. in my heart i always root for whoever decides to go up against rome #and then i'm stuck with the guy who should've got a spolia opima like. congrats on your win. i guess. i think. RIP. #ACTUALLY YOU KNOW WHAT. while im talking about this crassus. domina fucking sucks. what an absolute clusterfuck of a show #anyway. if anyone ever does augustan age politics again. octavia would be a great character if you want to invent shit #but also more importantly octavian should seduce crassus for this. thank you. #octavian #marcus licinius crassus.....christ how do i write down that he's the grandson of my crassus. i'll figure it out later #roman empire tag #drawing tag

[hella1975]

it's been pointed out on here before that a lot of terf arguments are actually rooted in sexist idealology that feminists fought and died to unnormalise decades ago and that's its own kettle of fish but one thing i also find very frustrating about this so called 'radical' feminism is that it's so... defeatist? like the moment you categorically label an entire section of society as Bad and Inherently Evil then there's also the implication that nothing can be done about it, and it completely takes all accountability away. saying all men are evil is just another way of saying boys will be boys. he raped her because he's a man. he hit her because he's a man. he didn't listen because he's a man - it's almost offensively oversimplified. there's no point trying to fix this issue in society because men are just Like That, okay! so now what? it's not like they're going anywhere, so you just accept that 50% of the population are evil and will forever treat you terribly and there's nothing to be done about it bc they're biologically predisposed to it? like is that fr the argument here? you're soooo radical for that

#this is coming from someone who used to very genuinely be a misandrist #ironically it was only when i started actually analysing my own feminism that i got MORE confrontational with men #and started respecting my boundaries a lot better BECAUSE i started holding them accountable again #like when men treat me like shit nowadays i dont just write it off as 'what did you expect? he's a man' i get MAD about it #because i EXPECT BETTER FROM THEM even if it's just tiny shit women have to deal with daily #i hold them to just as high a standard as im held to and i make them take accountability when they dont meet that #and whether you realise it or not even on a subconscious level the MOMENT you black-and-white blanket statement all men as bad #you stop holding them accountable. #like it is literally just boys will be boys. do terfs seriously not realise they're sending feminism BACKWARDS #like if a girl came to me with her trauma and people - other girls no less - tried to comfort her with 'yeah all men are evil' #id be fucking furious. like no he did that because he was a piece of shit that had it normalised to him that women arent to be respected #dont you dare let him off the hook with something as simple and uncritical as 'he's a man' #i promise you men like that will MUCH prefer a blanket statement such as 'all men are as bad as each other' #than actually being point blank told they're an abuser or a rapist. because being lumped together is comfortable and even empowering #wheras isolating their behaviour with words that are Bad and Ugly (LIKE 'rapist') is not comfortable at all and has heavy connotations #idk i dont think radical feminism is always bad on its own it can be v liberating. just terfs and misandrists that i have a problem with #dropping this post in a piranha tank and closing tumblr knowing im gonna have some thirty year old karen yelling at me within 5 mins #i probably wont respond to any terf comments bc they literally mentally exhaust me with their stupidity #but that also depends on my mood and ability to keep my mouth shut LMFAO we shall see

[sonknuxadow]

hope you all know that i cant really see sonic entering a conventional romantic relationship not even in the future and that whenever i say i like a pairing involving him i mean in it a vaguely aromantic way. ok thats all

#he just likes kissing his rivals for fun sometimes. its not that deep #that or i mean it as just entirely one sided on the other characters end #or maybe i like both takes but the one im going with varies depending on whats funnier or cuter to me in the moment #like for example sonknux is my favorite ship and a lot of the time i do view it as mutual to some degree #but i also like it one sided because its funny. especially if its knuckles head over heels in love with sonic who is completely unaware #hes not staring at the moon and thinking about him. if you even care. #comedic potential is very important when it comes to ships if theyre not funny then literally whats the point

[angy-grrr]

i have an issue I see with ppl trying to make shippers "understand" their ship could not become canon, and I dont think many would expect it.

Why are we pretending being in your late 30s is being middle age? Dont get me wrong, being a middle aged person doesn't have to mean anything about someone, but its just- not middle age literally.

I dont really understand bringing that up anyways, iit feels wrong to me to believe just ppl in their teens and 20s could ever do anything pro LGBT+ in general... I find it insulting, as if this is a new thing or impossible to believe older people could believe in queerness in a positive light or be queer themselves. The main reason in the west, and im assuming other parts of the world, there arent as many or as visible is, well, because people were dying because of the AIDS crisis + the isolation from being older and every single public space made for or just young queers or cishet older adults.

I get the point, but if I remember correctly every time I see someone trying to do that (of course im believing they have the best intentions in mind), they have to bring up how this is a Japanese middle aged man as a good enough reason.

I don't really mind about what others want to believe or how much they care in terms of shipping -if you prefer to be casual and not paying that much attention to what's canon or not, good for you! Many ppl are also like that and its completely valid, here in this side of Tumblr might seem like all of us believe and theorize about their endgame potential bc we are the ones that usually make more posts or longer content. But I dont like those assumptions about queerness being tied to young westerners, and I wanted to rant a little bit.

Again, I dont believe that was the intention in any of those posts, and im not trying to call out anyone, just rant.

#grrr talking #I just researched a little bit and well #Kaito who wrote blue flag with the first queer protagonists being serialized by shonen jump #he is literally just 2 years younger than horikoshi #he ended blue flag when he was 31 #idk I just dislike how aging is being seen these days in the internet #we could say middle age starts around 45-60s depending on how long ppl usually live in your area #it would be a little worrying if 37 is considered middle aged considering ppl in Japan are known for living until their late 80s-90s #and stilllll #what's up with the age??? #bring up the demographic bring up resistance from fans or how he just might not want to be remembered like that or be interested #but bringing age? why everybody that does this brings up age? #and also the sexuality of ppl we dont know #that has nothing to do with anything #an author being queer doesnt mean they want to make queer stories or characters #and an author not being queer doesnt mean they just want cishet stories #idk if I sound mean #I swear im just ranting ajdhjfhkdfshfksjh #you can look away folks

[authenticyuri]

Chilchuck teasing/making fun of Marcille compilation

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #delicious in dungeon #delicious in dungeon spoilers #chilchuck tims #chilchack tims #marcille donato #im sure there's more ive missed but i love them lmao. he loves making fun of her #not to equalize found family to traditional family dynamics but. they do got something of a sibling dynamic going on. to me #what i love is who the younger/older sibling is changes depending on the situation #i wanna make another pic compilation of them because i got a bunch more pics of them interacting which i love lmao #rem talks

[mystmesstolemysoul]

Am I the only one who feels like on every single route Seven becomes like my best friend?

Like. He's making me laugh. He's offering me advice. He's hyping me up and supporting my decisions. He just wishes the best for me and wants me to be happy.

Like. Wtf am I supposed to do with that??

#no matter what route i go for seven always feels really important #maybe my simp is showing #but like #hes always just. there. #helpful. dependable. caring. #im convinced this man would do anything for me no matter who i was trying to seduce #he'd die for me but i really dont want him too #ughhhh #i am unwell #mystic messenger #mysme #saeyoung choi #707 #mystic messenger 707 #mysme 707

[baconcolacan]

Two kings Tord needs some lotion, ashy af boi

I think he needs a lot more than that...considering the above lol.

"What are you smiling at, Commie..??"

I like to think theres a bit more to it too

#eddsworld #ew tord #ew future tord #Two Kings ao3 #tomtord #tordtom #implied bc this fic centers on that relationship #Unlike the other Tords I draw TK Tord in certain ways #just subtle little changes depending on #well what he can see and who he is with #dandraws #mr-3rr0r #anonymous #asks #Also Two Kings' narrative isnt over btw #Kings Crossing and Castling are just two out of 5 acts #Im not committing to it yet bc of the million other projects Im doing but #ye lol

[anemonet]

what if we just got really weird about iterator wires ok (wip im totally gonna finnish tomorrow)

#i just think it could be funky hairstyles actully #five pebbles #rain world #in case ive strayed to far from the actaul desigs ahem #anyhow felt like posting something unfinnished #this possessed me and woildnt let me go so like yippe i guess #anyhpw anyhow one day i will settle on an iterator designs #for now it will just change depending on what type of art im doing #anyho snyhopw #song oofff the daaayy uuhhhhh well ive been listning to spring awakening latley #still really good so i guess mamma who bore me?

[bogkeep]

it's been over a whole month since i had a stupid argument with my parents about driving, a skill that i legally possess but hate doing because i have a special brain illness that makes me fear death and injury, but i'm still chewing over an absurd claim that it's "equally dangerous to go on a 14 hour train ride like you just did". literally how is that more dangerous. in what way. in what world. public transport is nice and good and i like it and i don't have to enter my personal torment nexus

#goddddd it was so bad #i was trying to explain that yes i understand the importance of maintaining my skill but also i want to build my life in a way that doesn't #depend on doing a thing that stabs me directly in the mental illness #and i was basically told that im both a whiny coward that doesn't wanna do scary things AND i do scary things all the time????? #pick one!!!!!!!!! either im a stupid sheltered baby or im a brave soldier who understands the danger of being alive!! #ive always been a Good and Agreeable child but ive been grounded One time in my life #and that was when my parents were teaching me to ride a bike without training wheels and it stressed me out and made me cry so much #I WONDER IF MAYHAPS I HAVE ANXIETY #I KNOW I GOTTA DO SCARY THINGS BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS SCARY AND I DO THEM ANYWAY #but like sending an email is not putting my life at risk as like. car traffic #and for all my anxiety the only fear ive ever had about public transport has been like. missing a train or a bus #im not afraid of travelling alone or sharing a space with people??? #and p much most public vehicles are safer than personal cars???? #drivers of the vehicles receive more rigorous training and stuff??? and also they get a lot of experience bc they do it every day??? #how is that less safe than putting a mentally ill nervous wreck in the torment nexus #is this what evangelion was about bc im not sure

[youhavethewrong]

Blogger 1: Eugh, men are awful!! All of them! Being a man inherently makes you evil and desensitized and manipulative I think. I better make a post about it.

Blogger 2: Wait!! If you make a post complaining about men, then that includes trans men! That's transphobic!

Blogger 1: omg you're right! and we don't like transphobia bc fuck off terfs right?

Blogger 2: right

Blogger 1: And we're not gender essentialists like them, are we?

Blogger 2: No we're not

Blogger 1: Okay so I'll make a post complaining about how all cis men are inherently evil and desensitized and manipulative 💖

Blogger 2: Gender essentialism AVOIDED!

Narrator: They were gender essentialists.

#yui rambles #sorry im still thinking about that post abt the guy who didnt like taylor swift #i went to check their blogs and the both proudly describe themselves as pro trans so #hahaha. funny when you think about it #or infuriating. depends on how much you want to think about it #i recommend not thinking about it at all and going for a walk instead #which is what im gonna do

[lovesickeros]

I also feel old whenever I look at the newer sagau fics

nah cuz what happened..i was there for the birth of this au when it was a handful of people vibing and everyone knew like. everyone now its everywhere and im walking back into it like a year later and everything is on fire LIKE....damn im just old huh. ya'll evolved while i was gone. not that its a bad thing but im like ????? tryna navigate all the new au's and content + writers..

#asks #the-white-void #img block #i was like what. 19 when i first joined....now i can legally drink who let this happen. im OLD and CREAKY now. #shaking this fandom around in a pringles can BACK IN MY DAY- #smh they have it good now finding sagau content for what u want was so hard depending on what u were looking for #no tsaritsa takeover either smh i gotta do everything myself /j #carving out tsaritsa sagau all by myself it aint much but its honest work #thats still my brand idc im her number one fan #furina is also my brand (soon) #OKAY ill shut up abt being old now zzzzzzzzzzz #taking my creaky bones elsewhere #(to nap for 24 hours)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i only just found your au and i need everyone to have a happy ending so badly im gonna cry ;-; sally is gonna be so freakin upset when she wakes up for real and sees she decimated barnaby.

oh, Barnaby already has his arm stitched back on when she wakes up! and really, even if he didn't, that'd be the Least of her worries. she wakes up into a Real nightmare - partially of her (unintentional) making

#happy endings... well... yes and no. depends on what act you look at #act one? no! actually things get So Much Worse in an entirely festive new way! #act two? eh! sorta! its more bittersweet than anything #act three and four blend into each other so much that three doesn't have an 'ending' #but the final act - act four... well. who's to say! im still workshopping what i want to happen #but i do know it's still gonna have at Least a bittersweet tinge to it #wh lights out au #rambles from the bog #there are consequences and not everyone Makes It. i dont like stories where everything wraps up perfectly fine #even if it hurts! i like it when things hurt in a good way. those stories where the ending is overall positive #but Enough Happened that its just... its an ache. looking at where someone used to be. you know? #my favorite shows and books and fics have ended with me smiling while sobbing bc it yes it Hurts but it was So Fucking Good #and while i wouldnt be able to handle rewatching/rereading due to Emotional Damage... #i think of them fondly and often and theyre Important to me #perfectly happy endings just rub me wrong. it always feels like there's something Missing despite it all being idyllic #i cant let my own stories - original or aus or whatever - have that kind of end #so if thats what people are hoping for! you've come to the wrong person and the wrong au! #i like to be kind but that rarely extends to my creative works! #i like it messy and painful and bittersweet and i like to be Ruthless with my creations with no compromise #sometimes characters need to fight. or leave. or die. or make serious mistakes. etc. #but anyway! anyway.... #i will say that there isn't a happy ending for Everyone. and for others it's... complicated. again - bittersweet

[chaosinstigator]

any f1 fan who takes dts and it’s fabricated dramatics seriously instead of seeing it for the clickbaity view-hungry money grab that it is needs to re-evaluate why they’re a fan to begin with imo

#f1 #formula 1 #dts #drive to survive #sincerely someone who watches it solely for my favorite driver #(it’s high quality footage okay im a sucker for that) #take it w a bag of salt okay if you want to actually know how it works what’s going on you gotta do your own research #the dumbest move you’ll make is depend on that show for actual factual information #yes sometimes they’ll have key moments we didn’t see play out but that’s like 1% of the time #the rest they’re blatantly manipulating the people teams and fans whichever way they feel will earn the most money don’t get it twisted #joey rambles #sorry I just had to block someone on the ground of being fuckin heinous and actually believing the show at face value and using that a #as an excuse to be vile