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[devinetheory-2]

Staring at you down the bridge of my nose...

Through lenses that seem to magnify your raw beauty....

Breakfast is

Hot french vanilla and newspapers

I see you struggle within your chains

Held captive between the confines

of your own prose...

Forehead crinkled in deep concentration

A breath escapes your lips...

Mild envious frustration....

For me everything just flows

Theories of our divination

She radiates Mount Olympus energy

Mild mental callisthenics

For her heaven is a fresh brewed pot

A new book

A twisted plot

A revelation.

For me, heaven is right here

In this spot

Watching you be you

My Heart races

In simplistic thought

I couldn't move if I wanted to

I'm simply caught.

- Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

In this place

I can close my eyes 

and still see her face...

In a daze as I attempt 

to conceal this pain.

Because honestly nobody

Deserves to feel this way.

 I tried to love all of her still 

and it was still in vain

Don't want to let go

But you probably already know

That It's so hard 

to heal this way.

And I hate how I can feel it all

And how they'll swear 

That they're here....

...and I can see them and hear them

But they're not real at all.

Now Im a mess tho

Because I refused to let go

Whispers echo

Down smoke & mirrored halls...

But I can still feel them

Cupid shot an arrow

And it killed him

Nothing left of the well

I pull tears from

There can be no love 

When fears involved...

How bitter sweet 

The nostalgia is appealing

But All of these memories

lead me to loss...

Dumbed down and numb now

And I can feel it all

In this dark place

My memory holds the heartbreak

In glass jars

Runnin from my past hard

Prevents any attempt 

For me to heal at all....

Savage lack of compassion

And a tragic falls...

Wouldn't break the habit

She had to have it all....

Couldn't bring the passion back

So now the magics gone

And its the saddest song...

Stuck in the past

attempted to drag

all her past wrongs

From past wars

and never took her mask off...

and I've got the worst luck with love

They're all in love with the feeling

So I feel like I've already lost...

I should know best

Nothing is real

And you can't steal 

what has a cost....

In order to grow

I had to fall...

You never knew the me

That had it all

You and me

could have had it all...

- Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

My words are lost

In her beautiful simplicity

Unusual symphony

Convinced she was

Sent to me

Perfect in all imperfections

is not something

One could simply pretend to be

She is the missing piece

And I can tell when she kisses me

She fits purposefully within me...

As if we were meant to be

Religeously filling the void

within the landscape

of my subconscience rendering

awakening

what was once thought destroyed

By lovers turned enemies

as she closes

the now-empty

coffin doors quickly

Waltzing from thought to thought

Tirelessly and endlessly

with flawless chemistry,

God-like technique

and lawless energy....

Feeling like I made her

from a computer

in a dream

when I watch her

in her sleep

Her lips touch mine

And it moves everything within me...

I love her beyond the moon

to infinity

...and I can't help but fear...

That she just might just be

the end of me...

- Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

A kiss on the corner of the eye

To remind you

that you are worth all of the stars in the sky

That you are my reason why...

I kiss the pain away

From the years of trying

to see them through their, disguises

Beautiful lies

And all the times someone made you cry.

I kiss the outside corner of your eye

because noone else ever thought to...

I leave my lips there for a brief moment

between heartbeats

To remind you that I got you.

-DT

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[devinetheory-2]

Life and all its woes

lately been feeling....

So Broke though

So Provoked by the lies

That seem to so easily

glide seemlesly

From your throat

Soul so sore

Fell...and Im so close to hell

Both Bare knees

on the Cold floor

I refuse to lose myself

So I choose you No more

Confused...?

I thought we were supposed

to die together

But I know.....

Ive been to your show

I watched you perform

And had all the chaotic storm

That I can weather.

We fell together

we tried to rise together

But because of the lies

Secrets between the heartbeats

The stars keep

Between sleepless nights

Inside I'm dying trying to justify

How to say bye forever...

Because of what I allowed

I been getting higher

Than anything

in the sky could measure

Miles of extra

Heavens design

I confess i tried to profess

My undying love

Thought I could be enough

If I could get ya.

Under all kinds of pressure

Because you say you want to love me

But with the things you've been thru

And the things you would get into

I guess your untreated mind won't let ya

And im not trying lecture

Im simply giving up

because I just don't give a fuck anymore

Thinking if I can get high enough

Maybe my mind

can try and forget ya

But it will be tough

Love bombed

and Trauma bonded

Branded never enough

Until the time my state of mind

Finds that Im in a stretcher

And you're kinda special

I just wish it coulda been different

And I didn't have to convince myself

it's not a lie i been living in

Lines down my wrist

From all the missed attempts

A silent knight

An epidemic amongst men

That have lived through

This kind of plight

And noone bothered to find out

If I was alright

So it would seem

I survived my life

Just so I Could go die In prison

Nightmare's are nightly

And kind of vivid

I wish I could give a f*** but

But Im kinda behind

And really need

to mind my business

Plus I got no time to give it

and I wish I could say at some point

in this life of mine

that I've been living

just trying to survive

If I could only shed this weight and fly

Maybe thrivefor a minute

if only for a time

Trying to stay alive with it

and I wish I could vibe with ya

Because honestly

Sometimes

I kind of miss it

Dying inside

While being hurt and lied to

while I'm trying to make

the right decision

And I was never trying to dismiss ya

But you want a feeling

And I want something real

And that's how I define the issue

So much pain inside

And I'm sorry I don't have the patience

or the time to divide it with you

And I am battle scarred from trying

to fight the source of the lies

That lie within you

- Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

And all we are now

Is just a fading memory

Burned into the fabric

Of my forsaken identity

Taken thru the different shapes

of my soliloquies

lost within the melody

of her symphony

Into the wind

in an Apocalyptic wonderlands

Winter breeze...

She speaks in past tense

As she mentions me

As if I'm already just a memory

So much these moments

SHE created meant to me

So hard I tried to be her remedy

Pained from the poison

Of her choices to injure me

With unrecognizable satisfaction

Withdrawing from my projections

Of her chemistry

And the lack of magic

In my life

Created from her Static energy

Still stressed at unrest

Remembering the tragic end of things

As I walk thru the cemetary

Talking to our faded memories

- Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

Your compliments are treasured... @rayven-interrupted

But we both know that ....

You write like Juliette

loved romeo

Platinum coated sunshine

On a cold lonely road

Like the whole world

is baking soda

And you're only dope

Like a desperate man out on the ledge

And you're his only hope

Like healing to a soul thats

Mostly broke

Working your way

through your anguish

In poetic prose

Dangerous

Like your heaven dipped pen

Is is guided by angels

And no one knows

And its left me comotose

Like Im the victim of

some kind of drug overdose

But Im sober though

Coping as I go

through the motions slow

Attempting to protect

The scars on my heart

while they heal

And somehow resurrect

All the parts me

That I know are real

that THEY told me

are supposedly broke...

As my past catches up fast

Opportunities are closing doors

Wondering how far

down this rabbit hole

My soul can go....

I mean I just got it back

from the demons that

would hold it close

after it was stolen

and sold to foes....

😬...

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[devinetheory-2]

Was a time I loved...

the fall too

My body still calls to you

If you're the problem

Let me solve you

Dissolve into me

As I absolve you

Of any wrongs

I would hold onto

And guide you in the back door

through any trap doors

you might fall through

Love is not just a feeling to me

Its still real to me

As my frozen tidal wave falls

Eventually I'll love all of you

But you haven't really tried at all

And its just like me

To still follow through

As I don't do today

Even tho, I know

what waiting

for tomorrow will do

As I try to maintain

Through the pain and the sorrow

Feeling dazed

afraid

calandar days scratched off

feeling like ive been attacked

By a rabid pack of dogs

Please don't let my lack of

commitment and fear

of being alone

in this world full of drones

Swallow you...

Drugs...

Getting high

was the only thing

that never let me down

I placed the love

above the drugs

so there wouldn't be

such a cosmic due

After you pushed me

in the water

and Let Me Drown

Thinking you could push them

deep down

Into this hollow you.

So losing all of me

Wouldn't be

Such a bother to you.

....

- Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

Because I have preached this

Unholy mantra

on the days that you

didn't want to continue.

I have practiced this

Honor

in the face of uncertainty

I have given up everything

in the service of others,

when they only had intentions

of hurting me....

I've been in search of myself

in places that I would have never,

could have never been.

I have lost myself

found myself

And lost myself again.

I have paid the cost

for the company I've kept

And been left in the company

of some strange

And intense friends

Once upon a time,

the means

were justified by the ends

I have sacrificed mine,

to save a life....

Only for theirs to just end..

I have sought truth where it didn't exist

and searched the infinite abyss within

until I found conviction.

Cloudy intentions

all on this quest to be happy.

In the end,

please don't be mad at me

As this shell fades

from this matrix place

And startes to atrophy

My habits and addictions to this life,

fear of the sun

and creatures of the night

have captured me,

They say it sad to see

How I seemingly gave up

with no strength left to fight this gravity,

ignite the savagry,

hoping I will submit and die rapidly

Through these tragedies

Midnight blasphemy,

My pen writes with blood

from the wounds in my soul

To craft this masterpiece

where my walls seem to be

closing in on me

Broken grin on me

I tell them try catching me

as I run through the smoke and mirrored halls

of their lie factory

The mad hatter

laughing back at her

my head still detached from me

until while looking in the mirror

for the answers

to the questions

I keep asking me

And my reflection pointed back at me.

I think my struggles sometimes

were joined at the knee

soulless lack of loyalties

relationships spoiled

over so called royalty

cashed $80k checks

and made makeshift beds

on the floor to sleep

out of breath

after narrowly avoiding arrest

having to steal from stores to eat.

I've held them until their last breath

and the light that used to inspire my life

was drained from their eyes.

I've fallen in and out of love

so many times

with the same God I once despised.

My tongue has killed

and saved lives over time

as the tongue speaks

death and life

and I've watched

powerless

praying with everything inside

God's breath will make her chest rise...

and I could feel the warmth of her touch

and hear her voice

just one more time.

I've tried to rise and fell

But I've always tried.

I've fought the devil for my soul,

jury's still out

But I don't give up

and I don't die well.

It ain't hard to tell

that if anything in this world could kill me.

It would only be myself.

Because I've survived everything else.

- Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

Watching you slip away

So many times

A slow death to my soul

Like a cancer to my mind

The remedy to my pain

If I was only blind

The memory of your face

Takes me …….

Lately

And I miss your warmth

Baby…

So tired of trying…

And maybe

Someday

In some way

someone will save me

from my crazy…

…and I guess

More or less

Im more fucked up

Than I thought…

And I cant find the receipt

To take back

The lies

That ive bought

And theres no safe place

For me to hide

From my thoughts

Hoping desperately to find

Someone with

a heart like mine

that can pick

My locks

Make the lies stop

On the edge

Thinking fuck life

Right before I fly off

At the same time

Trying not to be an outline

In white chaulk

the cradle to the grave

Is like Rooftops to sidewalks

Nobody left alive

You can find

Cut from my cloth

Unrefined thought

Try to sign off

Why not

Anything to shut

the lights off

In my box...

- Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

I told them.... Don't believe me just watch ...

....they didn't listen

I told them. Change your mind, change your life...if you continue to listen to that voice you end up in a pattern of fuckshit cyclic redundant rhythm...

Alot like being stuck in a prison....

I told them It's not a battle its a choice to get rid of the cognitive dissonance learn to coexist without it making you sick and turn your wounds into wisdom....

But...they didn't listen....

I tried to tell them that there's no answer secretly hidden in some books written... some knowledge forbidden that they can't find already livin under the years of programming within them...

....They didn't listen...

The world tried to break him but they didn't get him....

He found love through forgiveness

And made enlightenment the mission....

They thought that bitterness and resentment would still continue to live within him

.....but it isn't...

They didnt listen

A legend living

Through the consequences

of his own decisions...

I refuse to lose and be broken

A cynic breaking down the walls of his prison that were once so thick built from the cognitive dissonance in my system....

Then I told them....

surviving isn't living...

But they didn't listen...

DT

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[devinetheory-2]

Lets go polish off a bottle

.........and make some bad decisions..

Lay under the starlit canopy

Roll one up and smoke

and blow all our regrets

And all the dumb shit

we might've did...

The hurtful shit they might've said...

Pour out just a little

for those that we once loved

That were so full of life

That chose to take their place

before us amongst the dead...

And let the starlight and liquer

fill the void in our chest

from love lost

and how it took everything

After we tried to love again

With everything we had left...

And stop waging war on ourselves....

.....and lets make love instead.

- Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

If I were to become a Saint..

I surely would be one of darkness

I would continually be absent from heaven

To light the light of those in darkness

On earth...

- Saint Theresa of Calcutta

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[devinetheory-2]

Bed would be our favorite spot ...

In a world where

EVERYBODY has a motive

YOU are my favorite plot...

She does something to me

She's a G

Which just happens to be

My favorite spot...

Insanely hott

I want to melt you down

Drain your pain

Take you to heaven

And hold you there

In the silence between heartbeats

Until our scars meet

And sparks arc

Illuminating

the darkest parts of me

And we get high enough

To rise above high above

The lies that tried

to destroy the lives of us

Until we can look down

and see the stars beneath

And I decide

To Fall in love with

The broken parts ...

Of my starlet queen

As she tries to hide

The pain in her life

The enemy in her mind

Behind 1000 yard eyes

And the way she looks

when she concentrates

Like no one can see her

I love to read her...

between the sheets

Cover to cover

Again and again...

like my favorite book

I want to make snow angels

Inside your mind

Can I lay in your thoughts

I promise

to stay honest

And play my part

If you promise

To play yours

And not with my heart

But there's a darkness

Inside of me

The past tares it's way

through the constructs of

Everything I want life to be

As it rips through the lining

Of the mental prison

risen from the cognitive dissonance

that I have let take flight in me

Treacherous and frightening

Searching for connection

I am protection

And she is the light

Inside of me

The fight

when I cant find my feet

And there is nowhere

I would rather be

but right beside my queen

she wont let anyone else inside

To defile my dream

One in the same

They can never divide the team

...and I can feel her pain

Phoenix rising to fly above it

Dark love

And if it can't be me and you

against the world

I want nothing of it

The only one I can trust

The only one I can run with

until the wheels fall off

And the last bullet

Fires out of the gun clip...

Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

Like focusing on the soul,

The oneness the being.

How the light shines through you,

like voodoo, like seeing...

Like breathing life

into what is passionate to you

so you give it meaning

like vibrating higher

Like desire, like dreaming

I lie wide awake

Trying to awaken the sleeping

Had to make my own way

because their way was deceiving,

Love is a choice

They'd rather have the feeling

Hurt

while I search

for the meaning.

Devine Theory

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[devinetheory-2]

I am...

I am trying to be...

I am

failing to climb

To where I aspire to be

There's trouble on the horizon

It lies Disguised

Just beyond the construct of her eyes

are signs

that say

Clear skies

as far as the eye can see

But I get that ole familiar sting

That feeling someone

Is lying to me...

Hopeless Romanticism

An explorers fantasy

Storm winds damaging

Like swords from a war

I'm mismanaging

Like before...

I'm yours

For mishandling...

I used to wake with wonder

Laying in wait

For what this planet would bring

So many high horses

So many holy rollers

So many rollercoasters

It's made me manic I think

I switch from panic to grief

Praying in some way

I can split this tab amicably

Walking away from so much pain

Sounds too much like a fantasy

To me however

outstanding

understandably

And I believe in God

But not according to man's

standard belief

Even though I'd pray

To get away

Everytime I ever ran from police

Don't judge me

And I won't ever judge you

If you should ever happen to fall

from a place of grace

And land on the streets

And you gotta do what you gotta do

so you and your family can eat...

Because I don't know about you...

But nothing has ever been handed to me

as my sanity runs rampant

And all my thoughts become poisoned

And rancid

until I'm just a hollowed out manikin 

and you can put your ear to my chest

but you

can't hear a beat

And I stand on mine

And would never stand for defeat

But your promises

are like a cancer to me

I call out to God but only you came

Answering me

My commander in chief

The sandman dancing with me

Romancing me to sleep

And it seems the answer is bleak

Growing weaker

Watching the image of me

Disappear in the mirror

it finally became clear...

That the answer is me

- Devine Theory

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