#dilemmatically | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

pompompurin1028 · 2 years

Text

A Dilemma

Summary: Dazai is afraid of fully living

Request: Prompt H - Someone's greatest fear with Dazai by @tairin

Pairing: Dazai x reader

Genre: Scenario

Warnings: Dazai's internal monolgue, some parts border on nihilism, imagery of blood

A/N: This was really fun to think of, but I just decided to try a fear of Dazai's rather than "greatest fear" since, I feel like "greatest fear" is too tragic, it's a path I do not wish for Dazai to fall into :'). I've kind of played around with this idea in a recent fic Existing, this was a bit of a challenge to write though, I hope I'd been able to convey my thoughts well, this is a bit nerve-wracking haha. I had wanted to write this as comfort, but a dilemmatic scenario which offers no answers fits Dazai more. And of course, thank you for the request Tairin!

My Masterlist

Sleeplessness weighed heavily on Dazai as he attempted to drift off into slumber.

Even with his typical acuity dulled slightly at the resolution of a case in the agency. Late into the night as silence sprung, lulling and embracing the rest of the world into the land of dreams. Dazai only found thoughts teeming with the growing stillness, churning away like a motor.

Breathing out a sigh at the predicament he was in, which had with time only grown familiar. Dazai merely allowed the thought to toss around in the chaos of his mind, pulling him out of what little amount of drowsiness he previously had.

Sensing you gently stir in your sleep in his embrace, Dazai halted in his subconscious motions of tracing patterns along your arm, as if ready to convince you that the injury you had garnered there earlier did not bother him the slightest if you had awoken at that very moment. Though Dazai knew deep down that would be nothing but a lie that he would spin. Being someone so astute in his speech, those words almost come naturally to him, despite his deep desire to be sincere with you, yet he knew that even if the occasion did arise, the same lie would still spill from his lips. But sensing you were still asleep, Dazai breathed out a sigh of relief. As the words he had prepared to speak died in his throat, he couldn’t help but feel grateful for this temporary solution to his dilemma.

Drawing his attention to you once again, Dazai found himself tracing his finger across the surface of your arm, which would have held a wound under different conditions.

But, enabled by Yosano’s ability, not even a scar was left upon your skin. There was not even a scratch, there was no pain left inflicted by the wound. With the aid of Yosano’s ability, it has merely disappeared without a trace, as if it had been from nothing but a bad dream, as if it had never existed in the first place.

Yet, the memories, the sensations of the events which had occurred throughout the day continue to play in his head vividly.

At this thought, Dazai couldn’t help but wonder how many other scars you have endured that, though perhaps are littered upon your skin and even across your heart, lie invisible to the naked eye? Or perhaps, they are not invisible at all, but these mental calluses simply adorned you like the clothes upon your skin, blending in so seamlessly that most are not even aware of them. Even while they sustained cracks so carefully mended with your own bloodied hands, even when they stung like sharp pieces of porcelain as you picked them off the ground...

And being your significant other, Dazai perhaps was aware of these fractures that you wore better than most.

In the subtle changes in your gaze, which, at times, appeared so distant. Or in your smiles which at times lack their usual shine he loved so much. Or even just the mere act of you pulling slightly at his coat or shirt as you attempted to seek comfort. They are but reminders of the scars you have.

That perhaps everyone has.

Scraped and bruised by the harsh winds of the cyclones of life as people fight amongst one another to survive, struggling and getting lost amongst the gutters to find the correct way to live, scuffling through the chaos of the world as if one were trying to wade through mud. Enduring through the pains of it all, through the disillusionment of reality, and the inevitable separation between friendships and loved ones as time moves on. Everything is too fleeting, too ephemeral, too elusive to catch in his arms. Why doesn’t it last? Isn't it possible for him to find something that will give him lasting joy? But why should he bring himself to enjoy something so intangible? There is something almost ugly about the reality of it. At times it's too agonizing, especially for someone as averse to pain as Dazai, it's a struggle just to merely continue on.

But, even so...

Somehow, Dazai couldn't bring himself to renounce himself from the world entirely.

There's something about the way you entertain his typical dramatic antics around the agency which normally would earn him a scolding from Kunikida, that makes him want to smile. There is something almost amiable about the passing moments of gentleness you treat him with, in your perspicaciousness to his likings, in your acceptance of him. There is something almost charming about seeing the way you and the agency members interact, something that Dazai could not put his finger on. Was it the liveliness, or perhaps the closeness of it all? Or perhaps it is the way they all face their struggles head-on, racing on beyond the realms of sadness, among the world’s ugliness to reach a state of catharsis. But either way there was something so strangely foreign yet almost beautiful to him living amongst it.

Perhaps having lulled among life’s darkness for so long, having almost resigned into its grasp, these moments seem to luster, almost like faint stars glistening among the city skies, so obscured by the bright city light that they seem invisible. But having caught a glimpse at them, Dazai wanted nothing more but to reach out to them once more and take them in his arms. Even though they glisten above him each night like a constant companion, he knows that as each second passes, they are only drifting further and further away from him, until they each once again become nothing but stardust.

Having caught light of this fact, having understood what will happen. What else could Dazai do but observe and admire them in their natural forms from afar? Because for what reason should he continue to struggle like everyone else? Isn't it better to lull in between, not losing the game?

But even so, why does Dazai continue to find himself craving the feel of your arms around his form? The warmth of your hands as they entangle themselves in his? While he knows they bear your scars, are so filled with a gentleness that he craves that he wishes to find comfort in them. Why does he silently melt at your words of affection and tenderness? Even when he is well aware that they could be torn so easily away from him, by the world, or perhaps as a result of himself, because after knowing him for who he is, why would someone want to remain with him? Yet why does wishes to bask in them in spite of it? Especially when he suffered tragic consequences at the hand of the last time he tried to form an attachment.

Breathing out a self-effacing chuckle at his thoughts, Dazai knew that they had only completely chased away the drowsiness as his mind once again found itself at work. And so, knowing that tonight would be another sleepless night, Dazai tried his best to shift out of bed quietly without disturbing you from your sleep.

However, caught off guard but the tug of your grasp that you held on his shirt as you slept, Dazai drew in a sharp breath. For a moment, he found himself once again halted in his movements. Almost as if waiting for something.

But what is he waiting for? Not even he knew.

Send an ask or comment HERE to be added to my tag list!

@REQUIEM626K @SHADYTEACUP @ALITTLESIMP @GREENSHIRTIMAGINESII @JADEGREENIMMORTALITY @SAKIKOSHI @KENMASBBYGRL @DAZAISUSEDBANDAGES @JESSBEINME15 @MIKASA-STAN-ACCOUNT @MISSROWN @GINSWIFE @TENDER-ROSIEY @SONDER-PARADISE @DARLINQSERENITY @WHOREFORDAZAI @SHAMELESSPASTAWOBBLERLAND @RIRK-KE @DAZAIAIKO @HANEMISO @SEBTOMM @IZUKUS-GF @LAVIDADELAVIE @SWRDEMON @ARIXSUX @BEAUTIFUL-IS-BORING @ATSUCAFE @SIGMAFIED @STORIES-FROM-SAINT-PETERSBURG @THEKAYLAHUB @XO-CUTEPLOSION-XO @SIMPLYASIMPSBLOG @KISARA-16REBLOGS @STRAYDOGSBUNGOU @TITAMAOW @KAUS-QUIETIS @THATDAZAIKIN

#dazai x reader #dazai x you #dazai x y/n #bsd dazai #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd fanfic #bsd fanfiction #bungou stray dogs fanfiction #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd x reader #bsd x you #bsd x y/n #bungou stray dogs x you #bungou stray dogs x y/n #kat writes📝#✒️ . he that reigns and lives within my thoughts

94 notes · View notes

empyreanparadisaea · 9 months

Text

𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄 ( 𝟓 ) 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐀𝐋𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐓𝐎 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄.

Dilemmatic triangle opera AYANAMI version by Shiro Sagisu

Therefore You and Me by si-o

Are we still friends? by Tyler, the Creator

As The World Caves In by Matt Maltese

Unexpected Delight by Flying Lotus

Tagged by Stolen from: @roleplay-abiogenesis2

Tagging: Anyone who wants to do it!

#tag meme #tapestry at work: ooc #ooc. For the first link turn on cc for the girl (Rei's) lyrics #ooc. Also I'll stop adding Eva to things when it stops being relavent!!

2 notes · View notes

cancallmenurul · 1 year

Text

In my 23 years of life (I'm 24 now), I've had to let go of many things that I couldn't hold on to or that I held on too tightly. Some might think that I don't feel compassion for the things I let go of. Some might think that I'm weird. Some might even think that I'm overreacting.

But to let go of many of the things I have written above, it takes a lot of time, a lot of tears that have been shed, a lot of effort to let go, a lot of inner "wars" and "wars" of the mind, a lot of arguments that have occurred, a lot of rejections that ultimately have to become acceptances, all of which are processes that are not seen by people out there.

At the age of 24, I began to learn to be realistic. As it turns out, life does demand to be realistic in looking at many things, and it is also required to see whether or not the realistic side is in harmony or intersects with one's idealism. It feels exhausting, but so far my life at the age of 24 years and 2 months is quite better than before.

One by one, problems find their resolution, then I can say that I'm back in a relationship with someone I've let go of and return things to the beginning of his life without me and my life without him. It felt much more relieved that one problem after another found a resolution, and the relationship became much different than before. It was enough for me to realize that I needed my own space, and to communicate that I needed my own space.

I think that by reconnecting, it feels like a solution. On the one hand yes, but on the other hand no, it becomes a new job that needs to be done. If you communicate every day you get bored, if you rarely communicate you get confused to start.

With the new color at the age of 24, I write more often in expressing my feelings. It feels like I rarely talk to other people. Only occasionally when I feel like it. I don't know, even though I often feel lonely and need other people by my side, I'm too lazy to open a conversation first, especially with those closest to me. I'm also more in the company of gadgets, laptops, books, and Spotify now. It just feels more relaxing.

This age also makes me more dilemmatic about the future. Yes, I know I can't compare my process and time with others to achieve something. However, sometimes it feels a bit heartbreaking to see friends who even at this age have resigned and built careers in new locations.

I know what my process is like, but I don't know where it will end. I hope that Allah will give me the blessings that I have hoped for. What I have and will let go of, I decided to let go of what I had thought about long ago. That's how realistic I am now. What I have gotten and will get, I hope will be a blessing.

4 notes · View notes

yuyapecotakeda · 12 days

Text

Featured Publications:

Takeda, Y. (in press). Critical media literacy: Balancing skepticism and trust toward epistemic authorities. Philosophy of Education.

Takeda, Y. & Manoff, I. (2024). Skepticism and education. Oxford Research Encyclopedia of Education. https://doi.org/10.1093/acrefore/9780190264093.013.1878

Takeda, Y. (2022). Facts are meaningless unless you care: Media literacy education on conspiracy theories. Philosophy of Education, 78(2), 153–166.

Takeda, Y. (2022). Praxis of critical literacy: Pragmatic utilization of theoretical tensions. Critical Education, 13(1), 36–50.

Takeda, Y. James, K., Horst, R., & Morales, E. (2023). Search and consume: Consummation of desire among the database animals. Digital Culture & Education, 14(4), 92–111.

Takeda, Y. & Takekawa, S. (2021). Critical literacy in Japan: Reclaiming subjectivity in the critical. In Pandya, J.Z., Mora, R.A., Alford, J., Golden, N.A. & deRoock, R.S. (Eds.). The critical literacies handbook. Routledge.

Other Publications:

Ahn, C., Balyasnikova, N., Horst, R., James, K., Morales, E., Takeda, Y., & Yung, E. (2023). Enhancing relationality through poetic engagement with PhoneMe: Transmodal contexts and interpretive agency, Language and Literacy 25(2), 57-83.

Aoyama, R., Kajigaya, T., Takeda, Y., Kubota, R., & Deschambalt, R. (2023). On pedagogical applications of world Englishes: Stumbling blocks, stepping stones, and usefulness of boundaries in ELT. In R. Tierney, F. Rizvi, & K. Ercikan (Eds.), The International Encyclopedia of Education (4th ed.). Elsevier.

Takeda, Y. (2023). Mobilizing Dilemmatic Subject Positions: A discourse analysis of an Asian Canadian assistant language teacher’s narrative. Language, Culture and Curriculum, 36(1), 7–20.

Horst, R., James, K., Morales, E., & Takeda, Y. (2023). The intermingled meanings of PhoneMe: Exploring transmodal, place-based poetry in an online social network. Journal of Adolescent & Adult Literacy, 66(4), 249–256.

Morales, E., James, K., Horst, R., Takeda, Y., & Yung, E., (2021) The sound of our words: Singling, a textual sonification software. Proceedings at the 26th International Conference on Auditory Display (ICAD 2021).

James, K., Horst, R., Takeda, Y., & Morales, E. (2021). The Patch: An artful syn(aes)thetic mapping of linguistic data through collaborative digital/analogue literacy processes. McGill Journal of Education.

Takeda, Y. (2021). Toward “more participatory” participatory video: A thematic review of literature. Learning, Media and Technology.

Kubota, R., & Takeda, Y. (2021). Language-in-education policies in Japan versus transnational workers’ voices: Two faces of neoliberal communication competence. TESOL Quarterly, 55(2), 458–485.

James, K., Peña, E., Takeda, Y., & Digital Literacy Centre. (2020). Transmedia: an improvisualization. In B. Gervais (Ed). Attention a la marche!/Mind the gap!: Thinking electronic literature in a digital culture (pp. 85-104). Les Presses de L'Écureuil.

Takeda, Y. (2014) Connecting the rich cultural environment and the classroom in study abroad: Mixing explicit and implicit instructions. Himeji Dokkyo University Journal of Teacher Education Research, 24, 177–207

0 notes

anushual21 · 2 months

Text

The dilemmatic fallacy of being intimate.

If you are not a person of science or a person of religion, you are a person of superstition.

I read this algorithm in my undergrad- the false dilemma. It got me intrigued and pushed me to write a thesis on music theory and autism. It also made me realise I’ve been dealing the world with the same algorithm, unintentionally.

It’s like you are given only two options and pretending there’s nothing in between.

Isn’t there a grey zone?

Oh, there is. There are. We tend me see them and immediately unsee them.

Once we begin to see that we all have fears around intimacy, we become more playful and light-hearted in our connections with others. We move from the seriousness of the ego to the childlike innocence of the heart. This will give you the confidence to be yourself. You know you have the space to be yourself. And when someone notices the space and opens up, you treasure them- it’s not only an indication that they love you, it also indicates your love for them.

These indications are flagged out when we miss those grey zones. It’s always either red or green flags for most of us, that we don’t notice the orange, yellow and maroon- the areas where true intimacy lies.

Can we imagine intimacy as freedom? Intimacy without neediness, open and caring, living like a child without boundaries?

To experience true intimacy and the celebration that naturally follows, chuck those reds and greens, and notice the oranges, yellows and maroons.

Remember, when someone trusts you to be intimate without boundaries, it simply means that you’ve already been intimate with them, without boundaries.

Happy loving.

#awesome #love #journal #couple #anushual21

0 notes

longleglegacy · 2 months

Text

3D Archival for Things + Time 2023 Residency

Curatorial Statement:

The more personal the item I carried so far, the less harmful its initial state was. In “Curses That Will Never Work”, objects that express and/or reflect love and care in the predominantly impermanent path of a refugee are 3D scanned and archived in order to hide them inside the seemingly safer and more stable virtual world. With everything faithfully digitized and nothing to lose, is an unstable, precarious life more bearable to those who seek belonging, rituals, sanctuaries, havens? In binary, dilemmatic situations: when do we keep virtually immortalized but relatively limited images, and when do we have to abandon aging, weakened but infinitely more complex objects?

#installation

0 notes

nurmalaevi · 5 months

Text

Denny JA: inspires the spirit of resistance through the power of the word in the film De Gaulle

Denny JA, an artist and observer of Indonesian culture, has long been known as a consistent figure in fighting for freedom of opinion and social justice through his works. One of his prominent works is the film "De Gaulle", where Denny JA not only managed to arouse the spirit of resistance, but also inspire viewers through the power of the words displayed in this film. "De Gaulle" is a film that tells the story of the struggle of a hero in the fight against colonialism and injustice. In this film, Denny JA succeeded in describing the power of words in stimulating the spirit of resistance through strong and inspirational dialogues. He uses words wisely to show courage and determination of the main character in fighting the colonialism that sucks the nation's resources. One of the scenes that should be considered is when the main character, which is played brilliantly by famous actor, stands on the podium and gives a thrilling speech. By using the right words, Denny Ja managed to convey the message that the struggle is not easy, but with a sincere spirit, we can overcome all obstacles that are facing. In addition, Denny Ja also uses emotional dialogues that are able to arouse viewers of viewers of the characters in this film. He presents a strong inner conflict, dilemmatic, and contradictory to the main figures, so that the audience can feel the elangs of burning spirit in their own hearts. Not only that, the right use of music is also one of the strengths of this film. Denny Ja managed to choose the composition of music that supports each scene well, emphasizing the emotions to be conveyed to the audience. In this way, the film "De Gaulle" became more alive and aroused the spirit of the audience. Of course, it cannot be denied that Denny Ja is not only a director who is proficient in directing this film, but also a accomplished screenwriter. In the film "De Gaulle", he managed to combine the power of words with charming visuals, creating a work of art that not only entertains, but also gives a deep message. This film is not only an entertaining spectacle, but is also a reflection of real life where the struggle and spirit of resistance are still a necessity. Denny Ja succeeded in summarizing the essence of the struggle and the power of words in this film, inviting the audience to never give up and continue to fight for justice and freedom. In an interview, Denny Ja expressed his hope that this film would be a source of inspiration for many people. He hopes that through the power of words, this film can bring up the spirit of resistance in each individual, and encourage more just and fair community development. As spectators, we cannot ignore the impact possessed by the film "De Gaulle". Denny Ja has succeeded in aroused the spirit of resistance through the power of the words displayed in this film. He brought us on a touching journey and aroused enthusiasm to continue to fight for justice and freedom. Thus, the film "De Gaulle" is a valuable and appreciated work of art.

Check in full: Denny Ja: inspiring the spirit of resistance through the power of the word in the film De Gaulle

0 notes

salwaerlita · 6 months

Text

Appreciate the beauty of writing in the strongest light of the 41st Denny Ja

In the world of Indonesian literature, the name Denny JA is no longer strange to the ears. This great writer has inspired many people with meaningful work. On this special day, we will discuss his latest work entitled "The Strongest Light" which is the 41st permanent work of Denny JA. In each of his writings, Denny JA always managed to express his emotions and thoughts so beautifully. "The strongest light" is no exception. This work is a collection of short stories that highlight various aspects of human life. Denny Ja is shrewd to describe a strong character and complex situation, as if inviting the reader to feel every emotion in it. One of the characteristics of Denny JA's writing is the foresight in observing the world around it. In "the strongest light," Denny Ja succeeded in presenting a variety of themes that were relevant to our daily lives. Starting from friendship, love, loss, to the social challenges faced by society. He intelligently combined the elements into his work, building an interesting and evocative storyline. In addition, the language used by Denny JA is also very attractive. He is able to play words very elegantly, so that his work feels so alive and washed away. Every sentence and dialogue feels so real, as if it makes us involved in the story being read. In "the strongest light," Denny JA also displays expertise in describing the setting of the place and atmosphere. He is able to describe the natural beauty of Indonesia so nicely, as if bringing the reader around to various parts of this country. Starting from the beautiful coast, cool mountains, to villages that are thick with tradition. By reading Denny Ja's work, we seemed to be an adventure into the beauty of Indonesia. Not only presenting interesting stories and beautiful language, Denny JA also managed to invite the reader to reflect on various messages behind the story. Through a strong and dilemmatic character, it gives a picture of the complexity of life and humans themselves. He invites us to see the world with a deeper point of view, questioning the values that we often consider as absolute truth. With "the strongest light," Denny Ja once again showed his expertise and talent as a writer. He is able to describe the beauty of writing so nicely, making the reader amazed and inspired. This work is a clear proof that writing has the power to change and influence one's life. As literary fans, we should appreciate the work of Denny JA who has given color and inspiration in the world of Indonesian literacy. "The strongest light" is one of the works that should not be missed by literary lovers. Let's work together to celebrate the beauty of writing in the 41st permanent work of Denny JA, and continue to support the development of Indonesian literature going forward.Check more: Appreciate the beauty of writing in the "strongest light" by Denny Ja 41

0 notes

ersaputriii · 6 months

Text

In -depth Analysis of Denny JA's Selected Work to 45: The prickly place

In the world of Indonesian literature, the name Denny JA has become an undeniable icon. For 45 years of work, his work has been so diverse and made a major contribution to the development of Indonesian literature. One of his selected works that deserves to be studied in depth is a thorny place. In this article, we will conduct an in -depth analysis of the work. The prickly place is a fiction essay poem written by Denny JA last year. This essay poem combines fiction stories with real life stories that occur in Indonesia. Denny Ja carefully described the complex social and political atmosphere in Indonesia, as well as the problems faced by the community. In this essay poem, Denny JA presents a strong and complex figure, as well as exploring emotions and deep conflicts. One of the interesting things from a prickly place is the use of rich and poetic language. Denny Ja is able to describe the atmosphere and feelings with beautiful and evocative words. Each sentence feels so deep and meaningful. In this essay poem, we can feel the beauty and pain of life experienced by the characters. This helps the reader to connect emotionally with the story and make it even more attractive. In addition, the theme raised in a thorny place is also very relevant to the current situation. Denny Ja raised complex social and political issues, such as corruption, injustice, and social inequality. He cleverly illustrates the reality that is around us and invites the reader to think more deeply about the problem. Through a strong and meaningful story, Denny Ja invites us to see the world with a more critical perspective. Not only that, the narrative structure in a thorny place is also worth observing. Denny JA uses dynamic and structured telling techniques well. He combines the past and the present very subtle, so that he can maintain tension in the story. Denny JA also uses different perspectives to tell stories from various perspectives. This gives wealth in the story and keeps the reader captivated throughout the essay poetry. In addition, the characterization of characters in a thorny place is also interesting to be analyzed. Denny JA is able to revive the figure very well. Each character has a unique background and journey of life, as well as a dilemmatization by internal and external conflicts. Through a deep description, the reader can feel the emotions and struggles experienced by the characters. This figure is not only a tool to tell stories, but also represents many aspects of human life. In conclusion, a prickly place is one of the chosen works from Denny JA who deserves to be analyzed in depth. In this work, Denny JA succeeded in combining fictional stories with the reality of life in Indonesia. The use of beautiful language, relevant themes, dynamic narrative structures, and strong characterization of characters make a prickly place into an extraordinary literary work. Through this work, Denny JA not only entertains readers, but also invites us to think more deeply about the social and political problems that are around us. The prickly place is a concrete proof of Denny JA's great genius and contribution in the world of Indonesian literature.

Check in full: In -depth Analysis of Denny JA Selected Work 45: The prickly place

0 notes

ratrinisa · 10 months

Text

IDENTIFYING THE FOUR LINGUISTIC DEVICES IN FORGIVING MY FATHER

by Annisa Nur Ratri Oktavianti

A. Introduction of New Criticism

New criticism is a development from “traditional” criticism. It can be said that new criticism is a new way of looking at literature. New criticism was created in the 1920s and later on dominates literary criticism from the late 1930s into the 1960s. New criticism was originally created in the United States. In 1941, John Crowe Ransom’s The New Criticism gave this movement its name. The name New Criticism is still used until these days. Besides new criticism, there is also New Critics. New Critics are a group of American poets and critics.

New Criticism focus is the work itself. New Critics doesn’t refuse the readers’ thought about the author nor the work, but they believed that the work has a special place in new criticism. The readers opinion or thought and the author is not the main topic in new criticism. Why does the work become the most important topic of this theory? It is because to expose its unity. Every aspect or element are crucial. They work together to create a certain theme of the work. “Close reading”, a phrase popularized by New Critics, can reveal the complexity of the work.

To do an analysis of a work by using this theory we have to begin by reading closely. By reading closely, we can find the figures of speech, point of view, diction, imagery, recurrent ideas or events, etc. Then, carefully analyse the work. Remember to search for the four linguistic devices : ambiguity, irony, paradox, and tension. A mediocre work sometimes contains complexity but its not a unified work. A mediocre work sometimes is a unified work but has a little complexity. Secondly, look for the idea that unifies the work. We can resolve the ambiguities by doing this. Next, find details or any images that (will) support this resolution or decision.

B. Introduction to The Work

The creator of the work “Forgiving My Father”, Lucile Clifton was born on June 27th, 1936. She grew up in Depew, New York. Clifton attended college at Howard University (1953-1955) and graduated from State University of New York College (2955). Later in 1958 she married Fred James Clifton.

The poem “Forgiving My Father” is a lyrical poem. A lyrical poem is a poem that is written based of the poet’s feeling and thought regarding any aspects that he/she choose to write about. This poem tells the reader about a girl who did not want to forgive her father in the beginning. In the end of the poem however, the girl had forgive her father. Clifton wrote this poem based of her own past experience. Clifton wrote about the mistakes that her father had done in the past and how it affected her and her family. Her father had failed to be a good father that was supposed to give protection and security to Clifton and her mother. In the poem, Clifton used the words “lecher” and “liar” to illustrate her father’s wrongdoings.

C. Discussion

Ambiguity

Ambiguity or doubt is a condition where a person is in a dilemmatic position, choosing A and B which is filled with doubts. To some extent ambiguity makes a person a dual character, which allows him to act as accommodating as chameleon philosophy. However, in essence, someone who is ambiguous will find it difficult to determine an attitude or action.

We can see the ambiguity of this poem in the third stanza. In the fifth line “what am i doing here collecting?”, the daughter (the speaker) asks herself what is she doing here collecting debt to her father. She doubt her father. The daughter knew, even if she keeps begging to pay the debt to her father, her father would never pay the debt. She is having an internal conflict with herself whatever she should keep asking her father to pay the debt or she should leave her father.

Irony

There are three types of irony in literature: verbal irony, dramatic irony, and situational irony. The embodiment of the three types of irony is indeed as reflected in the terms, but in essence they are both irony, a condition that contains oppositional discrepancies between expectations and reality, between what exists and should exist, and so on.

The third and fourth line in second stanza reflected irony “i wish you were rich so i could take it all” “and give the lady what she was due”. The daughter wished her father was rich so she could her mother’s hospital fee because her mother was sick. But it was too late because her mother already passed away and her father still doesn’t have any money. Even if her father was a rich man, he wouldn’t give the money to her nor her mother because in the same stanza, in the fifth line “but you were the only son of a needy father”, the father would give his money to his needy father.

Paradox

Paradox is a condition that reflects the opposite of what is expected. People are forbidden to step on the grass in the garden, in fact they deliberately trample on it. On cigarette packs there is always an inscription that smoking is very dangerous for health, but a lot of people actually smoke. In cinemas it says "Adults only" for certain films, however, many middle school age children watch the films. Most people want to be rich, but not a few monks or Sufis even ask to be a bit poor so they are not too attached to the world.

In the first stanza, the first and second line “it is friday. we have come” “to the paying of the bills”, the daughter reminds her father that today (on the poem), Friday is the due day to pay all bills so the father have to pay the bill on Friday. But after that on the fourth line “like a ghost, asking for more time”, her father on the contrary asking for more time to her daughter. He said that because he didn’t have any money. Next line “but today is payday, payday old man”, the daughter insists her father to pay the bills right now because Friday is the due date. She is angry and frustated at the action of her father. Eventhough she keep insisting her father, her father would not want to pay the bills.

Tension

Tension is a condition in which a person experiences inner and/or social tension. In the plot, this condition is described just before the climax and approaching the resolution. A character, because of being crushed by various crises, experiences a tremendous inner upheaval. At the end of this tension there is usually a resolution to the problems it faces.

In this poem, her father keeps neglecting his responsiblity to pay the bills. That makes the daughter so frustated. In the end she realized that her negative feelings towards her father has to end someday eventually, and that day is the day when her father died. She had to forget the past and look at the present and future.

D. Conclusion

The ambiguity of this poem is the daughter knew, even if she keeps begging to pay the debt to her father, her father would never pay the debt. She is having an internal conflict with herself wheter she should keep asking her father to pay the debt or she should leave her father.

After that the irony in the poem is the daughter wished her father was rich so she could her mother’s hospital fee because her mother was sick. But it was too late because her mother already passed away and her father still doesn’t have any money. Even if her father was a rich man, he wouldn’t give the money to her nor her mother because in the same stanza, in the fifth line “but you were the only son of a needy father”, the father would give his money to his needy father.

Third, the paradox is the daughter reminds her father that today (on the poem), Friday is the due day to pay all bills so the father have to pay the bill on Friday. But her father on the contrary asking for more time to her daughter. He said that because he didn’t have any money. The daughter insists her father to pay the bills right now because Friday is the due date. She is angry and frustated at the action of her father. Eventhough she keep insisting her father, her father would not want to pay the bills.

Lastly, the tension in this poem is her father keeps neglecting his responsibility to pay the bills. That makes the daughter so frustrated. In the end she realized that her negative feelings towards her father has to end someday eventually, and that day is the day when her father died. She had to forget the past and look at the present and future.

References :

New Criticism

Critical World - A Selective Tour

https://api.taylorfrancis.com/content/books/mono/download?identifierName=doi&ident ifierValue=10.4324/9780203446447&type=googlepdf

https://www.bisd303.org/cms/lib/WA01001636/Centricity/Domain/1342/AP%20Eng% 20Lit%20Formalist%20Criticism.docx

Author's Note :

Ninth post. Only one more :D. At this point, I don't know what I have to say in this note haha.

Wish me luck :3

#college assignment #essay writing #poem analysis #poetry #lucile cliffton

0 notes