#egan.poetry

[alecscudder1987]

trans pain but make it chronic. collage inspired by @sweatermuppet [x]

#saw his poem this morning and i couldn't get this phrase out of my head. there's a lot of joy in being trans and in being disabled but. #sometime's it's just hard. yk #egan.art #egan.poetry #i guess?? does this count? who knows. fan poetry if you will. a recreation. #chronic pain #disability #chronic illness #art #found poetry

[alecscudder1987]

ANGEL AT THE ALTAR OF EARLY-ONSET SINUS TACHYCHARDIA for @tornadocountrymp3 inspired by this post by @silvercodedgf

#egan.poetry #woagh #ok. ok #i need to repost how to burn absent bodies cause this is kind of a follow-up to that one #<333 #destiel poetry

[alecscudder1987]

QUICK ASK PROMETHEUS IF HE WEEPS IT’S FOR MY STATISTICS PROJECT, July 2022

#egan.poetry #i cannot stress enough that this is a DRAFT. sorry<3 #i will probably make a better one. soon #but ! the people said they wanted something fucked up and terrible so #here it is!

[alecscudder1987]

CIVIL WAR SUMMER

inspired by “Colosseum,” by Jericho Brown

of course cas would say this. what the fuck. anyway day 2 of my poetry event, #bluepansypoetry!!! see pinned post for details <3 it’s been fun to write more cas pov, i feel like i don’t do that enough<3 transcript under the cut!

You save the world in June and he

asks you, Did it look cool, you know, like in the movies?

and for a moment, language fails you. How to tell a soldier

about the war he died in? How to explain the violence? How his body

fought to cede his soul from their red-blooded union and how

it took you no time at all to plumb the depths of Hell

but months to convince his body to know itself?

From one soldier to

another, you say, it was just

beautiful.

#bluepansypoetry #bluepansypoetry entries #egan.poetry #:D #another one for the books babes

[alecscudder1987]

september 18th, 2023, 10:48:23 A.M.

day one of my september poetry event, #bluepansypoetry! day 1 (cas day!!!!!!) inspired by "french novel," by ritchie hoffman.

transcription under the cut <3

We pile into the car, hands knit cable-stitch over the gearshift, 

well fed on blueberry-honey pancakes and tiny, breathless grins.

This is how real Westerners ride, sweetheart.

He coaxes us into town, only speeds a little 

around the corner at Hayes, the one where

the spraypaint on the trashcans say Fucking Sunshine. He cracks a Yeah, how's it feel, jealous?  and now He can't stop smiling. 

I can see it in His eyes, how

Sunday's heaven now.

Life is bright on him.

He drives me to the little Armenian church next to the hardware store and when we pull around to the tiny lot out back

where the priest parks her 2007 Toyota Corolla (the Godliest of cars), He whispers in my ear

that He loves me! (Hallelujah!) and for once

I don't ask my father for forgiveness

when I put my hand on his thigh and kiss his warm red mouth. My father is bones, and He's all sweetness, an utter gentleman, big calloused hands soft on my jaw, 

Cowboy boots and all, He says, in my ear again, wet and close. 

I thought I might make pilaf tonight. You comin'?

I kiss Him, and He laughs. God,

you hear me?

He laughs.

#SO EXCITED FOR THIS!!!!! #happy cas day everyone!!!! #bluepansypoetry #egan's creator event #egan.poetry #me when i announce this event and then . do not planahead.. #it is ok. it will be like escapril. this will be fun :DDDD

[alecscudder1987]

Letter to a young hero, from Sappho, circa. 610 B.C.E.

day 3 of my poetry celebration! (see pinned post for info!!) a day late but u know what. that’s ok <3 inspired by Sappho, fragment 147 :D transcript under the cut!!

TELL IT TO ME ONCE MORE SO I MAY

SING IT HOW YOUR MOTHER DIED

AND YOUR FATHER CRIED

HOW YOUR BROTHER GOT LOST IN THE BIG US OF A

TELL ME HOW YOU DOUBLE CROSSED THE COUNTRY LOOKING

UNDER GRAVESTONES AND

TELL ME HOW THOSE OLD CASSETTE TAPES WON’T STOP

DANCING IN THE DARK

YOUNG HERO

DO NOT FEAR

THE EPIC IS ALWAYS A GOOD STORY

IF NOTHING ELSE.

#!!!!! #DAY 3!! #bluepansypoetry #bluepansypoetry entries #egan.poetry #sappho

[alecscudder1987]

COOL GIRL

day 4 of my poetry celebration, inspired by Cagnes Sur Mer 1950, by Jorie Graham! thanks for coming along for the ride<3 transcript below the cut!

COOL GIRL

Keep calling me and I’ll stop picking up!

Yeah, yeah, my mother. 

Yeah, yeah—

I died. Let’s talk about something else 

for a while! How about

how in Classical Latin—they didn’t use spaces, right? How about that? No punctuation, they didn’t even have to order their words. Sure,

the verbs are always at the end. Sure, there’s a million

ways to end that sentence but they ended it like a

lover killed. Sure, man,

my mother raised a daughter. Yeah, and 

she raised a damn good one, too. Lose my number, pal.

What good is it all if Springsteen doesn't kiss Clemons? Yeah,

I'm the last man alive. Yeah, I’m a good 

fucking daughter.  Get over

your kindness,

kick it to the curb. Stop asking me

questions, man! I told you—

I'm everything. And

best of all I’m a good fucking dyke.

#bluepansypoetry #egan.poetry #dean winchester #destiel #destiel poetry #supernatural poetry #spn

[alecscudder1987]

5 july 2022

#got a typewriter. i am thrilled at how my words get physicalized so quickly!!!! #egan.poetry

[alecscudder1987]

ANGEL IN THE DETAILS: (it's like being married to a comet)

this little poem is for @crabs-but-better for the @dcanniversaryexchange! really hope you enjoy, jade!! i make so much sad poetry all the time that this was really a joy to write for a change wahh. (also i saw this piece by @skepticalfrog on thursday and went omg that's just like my poem...so if you enjoyed this piece you'll probably enjoy his too!!!)

#dcanniversaryexchange #I HOPE U LOVE IT I REALLY DO #i had so many different ideas for this exchange and i actually have an amv im working on that ended up being #too long for the time i had to work on it but im gonna dedicate it to u anyway jade dw mwah <3333 #SO EXCITED TO GIFT U THIS ILYYYY WOWWW #egan.poetry #spn poetry #castiel poetry #dean winchester

[alecscudder1987]

IT'S THE HEAT OF THE THING, February 2022

#spn poetry #egan.poetry #:)

[alecscudder1987]

went looking for a creation myth, ended up with a pair of cracked lips. (1 A.D.)

#hi :) #sad cas pov poem 4 u #HAPPY 5TH #2021? more like 1 After Destiel #kisses. wow. this one almost made me late for school #egan.poetry #november 5th #destiel #deancas #nov 5 #spn #supernatural #castiel #dean winchester

[alecscudder1987]

JUNE 1991

for @tootiredmotel.

#kisses #tootired500 #gen tag #poetry #destiel #deancas #dean winchester #sam winchester #supernatural #spn #egan.poetry #seffersonjtarship #rambleoncas #useremmaj #plantdadcas

[alecscudder1987]

TESSELLATION for @jimmygirl

#idk why this one's . 4u. it just is i think . #i hope you like it :) #egan.poetry #spn poetry #rambleoncas #seffersonjtarship #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #ssts vibes i think

[alecscudder1987]

epilogue, for elliot @justcastiel.

#cas losing his memory is OH so good sorry<3333 choo choo there's the angst train #ohhhhhcas as a cliffside.....baby the lore on this poem u dont even KNOW...... #oough cas being buried amongst the rocks he used to be ......does smth to me u know... #'don't worry' i will tell you. i will say it until my last breath. even if u forget my name or my age or what i mean to u. i will #give youthe world anyway #i will bury you amidst the dunegrass and gull cries and when i go to die. my brother will bury me next to you and one day we will #dissolve together in the tide. ok. ok #egan.poetry #mama tag #spn poetry #supernatural poetry #castiel #dean winchester #destiel #deancas #justcastiel1k #rambleoncas #userstarry #plantdadcas #tusersia #castiel poetry #dean winchester poetry #destiel poetry

[alecscudder1987]

blue pansies // october 2021

[for @emeraldcas day 2: there's something i need to say. congrats on 1k bestie <33 you're the sweetest 💌💌]

#emeraldcas1k #MWAH #egan.poetry #spn poetry #15x18 despair #confession poetry #castiel #dean winchester #supernatural #seffersonjtarship #plantdadcas #rambleoncas

[alecscudder1987]

lazarus rising, for @deancoder and @macbethapologist!!!!

#HI. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELLO . #i saw september 18th in this book from the 40s and went ...NAUR....... and had to go check and .it was meant to be #egan.poetry #🤲 ask game