#enough of that

[mikichko]

little bit personal but i’ve gone through lots of weight fluctuations in my life and no matter what size i am, summer is always hard for me.

which is why i cannot stop thinking about being ghost’s partner through summer.

we already know that he’s a man of few words, prefers to observe more than anything. so he really doesn’t miss the meticulous way that you plan out your outfits.

shorts have to be a certain length, shirts have to be at least long enough to hit your hips and sleeves long that are up to mid bicep. hell, he’s even seem you choose to wear pants all summer instead of even attempting shorts. too anxious over how you’ll be perceived to let yourself enjoy a nice warm breeze on your legs.

he asks you once if you’re warm, approaching the conversation the best way he knows how, only to have you laugh and tell him that the pants just hold you better. don’t need to give people a reason to comment on your appearance. he nods and you seem happy that he’s happy with your response.

but he’s not. listen, simon’s not really one to jump to defend someone’s ego from being bruised. god knows the team rags on johnny too often for him to pretend otherwise. but this? nah, this is different.

he’s all too familiar with the way bodies react and absorb the shock and trauma of war. has seen soldiers of all shapes, sizes, identities tank hits like no one’s business. there’s absolutely nothing he despises more than for the untrained, ill informed cretins offering opinions on someone else’s body. specially if it’s ever directed at you.

he’ll never say this though. at least not outloud. though, his actions do speak for themselves.

small pats on your hips as he passes by you. wrapping his arm around your lower belly instead of your waist, you try to swat at him but he just pulls you back into him. insisting that he lays on you when you’re stretched on the couch, dropping kisses on your clothed belly while his hands draw patterns on your plush thighs. if he’s feeling cheeky he’ll sink his teeth into them just to get a little squeal out of you.

even in public he doesn’t ease up. pulls you into his lap in front of your friends, knows you love it despite your protests. lounging out on a patch of grass along the walking trail, he pulls you closer to him and has one of your legs draped over his. massaging the fat there as you chatter about nonsense.

idk simon riley just really loves you and loves the body that keeps you alive and feeds your personality.

#.txt #.cod #.ghost #bro what am i on #THIS IS NOT PROOFREAD AT ALL I literally wrote it mid lunch break #im still wfh because of my fractured ankle but #its getting warmer and im getting nervous :) #the only shorts i wore last year were biker shorts #so this year we're def doimg something more #also shout out to all the fat reader truthers #you guys were the ones that got me back into fanfics #anyways #enough of that #simon riley #simon ghost riley #simon ghost x reader #simon ghost x you #simon ghost riley x reader #simon ghost riley x you #simon ghost riley x gender neutral reader #simon riley x reader #simon riley x you #simon riley x plus size reader #simon ghost riley x plus size reader #simon riley x fat reader #simon ghost riley x fat reader

[lovethistoomuch]

me interacting with the man with sunglasses:

1st playthrough: oh, come on mysterious ex-partner guy, just loosen up a little, just talk to me. kim is way cooler than you btw.

2nd playthrough: oh my god, jean, it's so good to see you! I love talking to you! You're the coolest guy ever! I'd love having you as my partner, please just talkt to me please, I'm so sorry, I love you! I love you! please forgive me, jean!!!

#disco elysium #jean vicquemare #he is such a tragic character #and you get glimpses of that during your early interactions with him #but it only really hit me in the conversation right at the end #I truly cannot understand all the hate i see for him as a character #like yeah he is a bitter asshole but can you really blame him? #you don't get that bitter if you haven't initially cared for someone deeply #we as a player never see it but harry really hurt him #all i want to do is give him a hug and apologise #harry basically spit in his face and told him to fuck off and he still came back for him #he came back in a way that he thought would make harry smile #and even helps him to the car (in the good ending) #how can people honestly claim that jean hates harry? #anyway #enough of that #just know that this man has been stuck in my head for weeks now

[carapacian-swag]

Something Familiar

#homestuck #ms. paint #jade harley #ruby harlonde #Ms paint is so important to me sniffle. i think people #Forget about her and jade i mean it’s easy to but i hold that panel where she’s standing next to jade on the bridge close to my heart #I love making up parallels that aren’t there #as in i don’t think they did the Ruby and paint school thing intentionally. #it’s a one-off spoof gag :yeaj: #paint got a little bigger in the second drawing pretend she didn’t </3 #other notes uuuh paint is wearing a longer skirt #a homage to the pre proto and proto queen outfit #and it’s not a school for uuub what was it called I forgot(but it wouldn’t Be called that) but it’s just a community center she’s fixing up #hence her murals #Sorry thinks about hs^2 too hard #enough of that #i mean i don’t know if i can make it clear i Don’t like it(hs2/epilogues) #this was inspired by talk about it(ms paint school thing) i think it was a little ago i’ll try to find it #my art

[artheresy]

Part One (Astral Express

Random post ideas I got, but I'm just listing my opinions on aspects of the HSR designs, including things I may dislike or would at least change about certain playable HSR design, because I am currently planning some of my own designs/redesigns to use for future art

Disclaimer!! I am not a professional character designer, I am not saying any of my ideas for them are objectively better, and I am not bashing any of these designs. I actually like most if not literally all of the playable designs so far! This is just my lil opinions of how I would change them

The List part 1:

Stelle: I actually like the turquoise band around her thigh, I just don't like how they didn't take the opportunity to sprinkle in some more of that color into her design. She had a lot of little details in her outfit, especially the back of her coat, so there's a lot of places where a few splashes of turquoise could be added whether in those little details or in some of her other adornments just so that the band stands out less . I think I would change more than just that ofc, but that's one of the things about her that stood out the most to me. Also honestly? Maybe I would scale down the sheer amount of detail she has on her back (which as someone who has tried to draw her from the back view o h my g o d), and add some more detail on her sides like her arms and her legs maybe? I dunno, I think her design is really really nice, but there are places the amount of details could be more evenly spread to.

March 7th: While I don't mind her design that is especially center around her top half, March definitely has a clutter design particularly around her waist when you look at her full body in detail. Clutter that manages to mix in some odd color choices too/ I'd probably clean it up, or better place the little bits of clutter to feel like it matches more and change up the colors in order to at least go with the rest of her outfit. Like the gold makes sense, not only with her details of golden buttons throughout her design but also the golden ticket she holds showing she is passenger of the Astral Express, but why the black fabric? How is it supposed to work in terms of construction with the rest of her outfit, I'd keep her black to only the little accented bands on her thigh and neck rather than anything big on her waist. Why is the thing holding her camera orange, why does she have this random bright green button, why does she have seemingly two different belts?? I think March would have a better sense of what goes together than that. Overall, still an adorable design.

Dan Heng: He is very nicely designed, and I think a lot of his personality comes through in it, way better than any alternative for him. I feel like I can get a better sense of his nature and overall how he feels and who he is in it. The one unfortunate aspect of his design for me though is that it feels a bit... bland? for a lack of better word. Not that he's devoid of details or anything, very nice to see him not having a particularly busy design, but a lot of those meaningful details tend to be pushed to his back or his arms. I would probably bring a few more of the details that can be to the front or maybe add more? It just feels as though there is something lacking in the design, maybe more on a coloration front than construction. Speaking of coloration, I'd likely change the way the details around his waist are colored, all the same hue and yet different shades also getting an ombre? It's a little messy, but not a big issue to be honest. That's just my view of it though, still love his design for how much it really lets his character shine through unlike Another One which I will eventually get into and explain my thoughts on in the Luofu post.

Himeko: Listen, she's beautiful, she's gorgeous. I absolutely adore her and her color palette especially, it's such a nice blend of elements with the gold all mixed in. However, her silhouette is awful like it's so messy, and I really dislike how weighed down she feels. I wish she looked just a bit different, wish her clothes looked a bit lighter. She's a Nameless, she's their navigator, she's the one who repaired the Astral Express herself!! I wish she had more details to reflect all of that, and I already have ideas for how it could be done that would end up alleviating some of the weight placed on her with all of those heavy, layered fabrics. Additionally, I think there's a better way to highlight those elements while still making her look elegant, gorgeous, and ornate. Yeah, I love Himeko, I do like her currently design a lot, but I think more could be done to show off more sides of her. She's the one I probably have the clearest image for so far. Like I can imagine her in a nice set of slacks, a deep brown tone that goes well with her coat, and either on the sides or the front of the bottom, they have slits revealing these ruffles showing through similar to the ruffles of her coat sleeves. They have golden adornments along them, very sleek and fitting her figure well to keep with a very elegant appearance. Perhaps she has suspenders as well, maybe only one side to fit with their habit of asymmetrical designs. All with a nice white blouse or even some kind of button up, buttons popped open and collar folded in a more fashionable style. Even more hammering on the asymmetry, maybe for side where she actually wears her coat, the sleeve is much shorter to not interfere with the jacket's ruffles. I don't know, that's just a little idea of changing up the construction of her outfit that I had, but I'll see how it looks on paper when I draw it.

Welt: Okay listen, I need to look up more about his lore before I can truly say anything about him. Looking at his design, and with what I do know about him, I do adore it. His color palette here with the grey tones making up the majority of it for his upper body with the accents of an almost like cool toned brown and the darker shades of grey and black coming in. It's so nicely balanced, I don't feel like he had too many elements or too many overlapping fabrics that complicate the shape. It's a competent design, and while I think someone with more knowledge on him could find more places to add details, with what I know about him, I do really like the way he looks. If I were to change one thing... I would give him more wrinkles. I know why his physical appearance doesn't match what his true age is, but I still think he deserves a few more wrinkles PLEASE that's the only way I can think to truly elevate him at the moment, give him a few more wrinkles he'd look so good with them. Whenever I see art of people giving him more wrinkles I ascend... Okay well, I can think of something I would do color wise, but I'm still on the fence about it.

I think I'll leave things there for now. I don't have as much to say on these designs in particular. I think generally they're pretty solid, and even with the ones I can think of more changes for like Himeko's, I still greatly adore a lot of elements from it. The Astral Express' base designs definitely aren't the ones I have a lot of gripes with or things to say aside from suggestions for Himeko, we'll get to those eventually (those ones in particular are Serval and DH IL, both for primarily character reasons rather than aesthetic reasons like some other opinions I have.) But yeah, the next post will be for the Stellaron Hunters since I couldn't fit them into this so look out for that!

#sorry again about welt's part being weaker #I really need to redownload honkai and get back into it #but yeah uh #when i get my hands on talking about dh il I will have a lot to say #His standard 4 star design is sm better character wise than his dh il design and I will DIE on that hill #the only way you can take me off of it is with my head on a stick im so serious #and i'll get into why later I promise #it's very very character focused not like aesthetics #bc honestly? love the aesthetics and ornate details of it I like the meaningful things hidden within it #but uh... lots of problems with how dan hengs character doesnt shine through AT ALL in that design esp in one of the most important aspects #like this design connects to a big reveal about dh and his past and how he feels about certain things #and yet the design doesnt convey anything more than the bare minimum and its such wasted potential to me #anyways #enough of that #i will be drawing these eventually #so stayed turned #hsr #honkai star rail #hsr stelle #hsr trailblazer #hsr march 7th #dan heng #hsr welt yang #hsr himeko #jaxie rambles #<- gonna start organizing posts with that tag to more easily find stuff or even to mute it if people want me to shut up XD

[confinesofmy]

i hate and love in equal measure the adult recontextualisation of childhood experiences. it's very freeing because i grew up very self-blaming, pretty much everything that happened to me happened because i wasn't vigilant enough and should've known better or should've done better. now i'm older and most of my childhood memories when i reflect on them are just a series of "oh that shouldn't have been happening to a nine year old. first of all. and secondly no nine year old could have handled that any better than me. nine year olds shouldn't even be aware of things like that. dear god." and then i start thinking about this 9 year old i know who i think i could pick up? not like you can pick up a toddler. but, like, not completely unlike that either. and i was his age and size thinking that was my fault? i have to laugh. or i will cry.

#i was so embarrassed about so many things that were not my fault at all #and then embarrassed about my reactions to them when my reactions were the only normal part of what was happening #UGH #enough of that #adam talks too much

[mxgyver]

starting to feel more and more like myself again 🫶💙

#recovery has been really fucking tough mentally #physically? pfffft piece of cake #but literally so close to tears right now because i’m starting to spiral about my lack of experience in everything again 🤪 #which is totally fun 🤪 #i’m having a good hair day & i’m wearing mascara #so i’m trying not to cry because i look cute #ANYWHO #enough of that #i hope you’re all having a good friday 🫶💙 love you!!! #this is my face

[thatsalotoftoons]

need an au where these two are criminals

#fine. i’ll do it myself #technically they tried to murder sonic in 06 but that doesn’t count anymore bc world reset! #but also they got hella manipulated #enough of that #i need these two to just be straight up gremlins causing trouble #sonic #sonic idw #silver the hedgehog #blaze the cat

[marcidinvestigation]

He cannot touch me, He cant go near me, it doesnt matter that i can see Him because He is a constant, even though i am out He is a constant, a steady steady constant. and for some reason, He is a comfort on the dark nights, watching me with no eyes and with an expression on His non-face. i wonder if He is fond of me for some reason. id imagine if He is, He is fond of me in the way a Father is fond of a Daughter, though i cannot ever be a Daughter. the fondness that a Father has that slowly morphs into anger and derision because they are Daughter, they are His Daughter, love and hatred in the same whispered sigh of "get home safe". and the Daughter holds Him at a distance. further, farther, Father as the joke goes. and the Daughter holds Him there but He remains and He watches from behind the trees that are rotting and peppered with old box tv static haze that Daughter can remember from when they were small, the sound and scent of old memories. they love and hate each other it is hard to not grow fond of and also not hate someOne that made you you i wish He hadnt

#musings #writing #it helps me think #articulate something that is hard to talk about #He is always here #like i wish my parents had been #long story lol #i have done some googling and found somethings that may be applicable to me #as i am going to start filming again soon (yikes) i find it fitting to include some tags #slenderverse #this is weird #i dont like tagging #i dont like filming either #i dont know if i should even start posting #filming gets His attention ive noticed #enough of that

[isenstar777]

I bought a binder the other day and I'm getting used to wearing it now I have a few days off work and my parents aren't home. And it's not something I'm hugely dysphoric about, I just don't like it. But wearing the binder is just nice.

Also good for posture. And kinda like being hugged all the time. Good sensory feel.

#personal #im being very careful with it because i have asthma too #i wore it for like 2 hours yesterday and then took it off #not because it was bothering me but just to take time to adjust #today i think i'll try 4 hours #also my parents are not actively transphobic so I'm not worried about that #i just want to try it for me first #i mean they dont understand nb people but they accept binaty trans people #that should say binary #but considering how they dont accept that I'm ace i dont want to tell them im nb too #years ago i asked mum to define asexual and she hemmed and hawed and went #'oh i dont know it's too complicated for me' #mum i'm just not attracted to anyone it's the least complicated of all sexualities #anyway #enough of that #i have a binder now and it makes me content #also i might get the size up for going to rome #lots of walking in rome and i need lung space #i will be going on my own too and hopefully it will make me more confident if I dont present as a woman

[fangedscience]

“you’re not alone, okay? not anymore. i’m right here with you.” ♡

REASSURANCE PROMPTS.

"Yes,” Henry turned his head, concealing a smile against the glass of scotch he’d brought up to his lips, “You sure are.”  And then despite the ball of warmth that those simple words caused to spread out inside his chest—metaphorically, of course, his body’s core temperature was eternally cold⁠—and despite the selfish comfort that they in fact successfully provided, he went on.

 "Now half of my misery can be diverted into worrying for your wellbeing. You shouldn’t be here, don’t get involved. I can’t risk losing you.” 

#𝓗𝓢‚ ASK․ #𝓗𝓢‚ ANTECHUITY․ ‘ the mosquito and his flashdrive ’ ․ #whiitenoize #i started to write out some nice tender angsty feels right? #then henry took over and was like no no no #enough of that #i havent been a little shit in years move over

[lottieurl]

the entire season is released all at once?

#ENOUGH OF THAT #i forgot and i thought they will be releasing the wilds weekly #so i was like cool it will help me keep track of days #if you dont have a sense of time bought is fine or whatever #but god i am not interested enough i think to waste so many hours all at once to watch it #sick of this can it end. release eps weekly or else

[faeriekit]

"This fic was ai generated—" Cool, so lemme block you real quick

#the ethics are whack but more importantly you didn't even want to write it?? who is it even for?? not you? not me? #you didn't even have enough interest in the premise to take a crack at it?? then who cares? #please don't populate in my search results I'm looking for things that people wrote because they liked something #ao3

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[l-a-l-o-u]

sending your friends terrible tumblr posts is a love language

#i dont get to see their reactions but imagining them is fulfilling enough #comic #idk how to tag this. its not a text post but it doesnt fit in my art tag #o well