#everyone should be so fucking disgusted

[starwikia]

suicide cw

look i have been in this area before mentally. it sucks and i wouldn’t wish this on anyone. but, and this is going to sound callous, but i don’t feel any sympathy for james somerton. even if i hope he’s like. not dead. But thats all the amount of goodwill im willing to give him. The more i think about this really, the more angry i am. 

ngl this entire situation is another example of how white people weaponize their mental illness to avoid consequences. Im seeing it in real time.

this man has a continuous habit of using self-harm as a get-out-of-jail-for-free card. in both of his apologies, he has worded his supposed attempts in ways that were clearly meant to guilt people who displayed his plagiarism and overall horrendous history of racism and misogyny. i say supposed because, while i’m not saying those are lies and this would he such a fucked up thing to lie about that i don’t want to think he has, unfortunately, it’s been proven again and again that his word can’t be trusted, as he’s known to lie to try get out of consequences. Hes a proven liar. him lying about this is actually the best case scenario, because no one should go through this entire situation, wouldnt wish this on anyone, but you can only do this so often before people stop sympathizing with you. is this callous? Yeah, but like. I’m actually fucking angry he cant straight up take no as an answer. that this is how he reacts realizing he cant be one of the Cool Kidz™️ on youtube anymore. he acts like he DESERVES a career, like its not a privilege hes lost due to his own actions.

He lied about apologizing and forgiving people, he lied about giving the money to hbomberguy to give to ppl he ripped off (yknow, instead of doing it himself), he lied about the jessie gender situation and rewrote the narrative to make it so he isnt the bad guy, and hes the victim all along actually!

you can’t tell me that supposed last message of his isn’t meant to be a 13 reasons why esq attempt to deflect the blame “look i’m going to kill myself and it’s all YOUR PEOPLES FAULT for not letting me achieve my DREAM of being filmmaker IN PEACE!!! I just wanted Nick’s (the guy who I have thrown under the bus again and again) portfolio up!! Im just being a good friend dont you all FEEL BAD” he refuses to take ANY ACCOUNTABILITY of any of his actions and he IS STILL trying to shove the blame over to other people again.

it’s also pretty ironic people are like “uhhh well hbomber’s fans harassed him!!!” like hbomber outright told people NOT to HARASS JAMES!!! ALSO acting as if james doesn’t have a very real documented history of STRAIGHT UP sending his fans to harass and threaten smaller creators, more notably women, trans, and bipoc creators. especially after he’s stolen typically very personal anecdotes so he could profit from them. so why can he do it but the second people are like “hey this guys an actual piece of shit.” and he can’t handle it suddenly people are trying to white knight his shit? like no he doesn’t get that. he doesn’t get that at all just because he couldn’t handle the consequences of his actions. 

what? were supposed to stay quiet about a man profiting off of other minorities because he wanted to be the spokesman for all gay people? people tried to solve this on a smaller, more private scales for YEARS and he kept doing it. it was clear that the giant public video was the ONLY way to get people to notice. HE WOULDVE GOTTEN AWAY WITH STEALING 87 FUCKING THOUSANDS WORTH OF DOLLARS. HE CANT HANDLE THE FACT HE CANT GET AWAY WITH IT. 

am i supposed to feel bad for the guy who basically threatened a trans woman with the police? i don’t care what anyone says, it’s so fucking obvious that he threatened jessie by implying he was getting the police involved in their conflict. what am i supposed to act like that didn’t happen? are we supposed to pretend like he didn’t glorify nazi’s and outright said that gay people made up a good chunk of the nazis? That he didnt say america joined ww2 bc they were jealous of the NAZIS. WHAT WOULD POSSESS YOU TO FUCKING SAY THAT. but then? He gives women (not even women most of the time, he misgenders nonbinary ppl constantly) shit for writing mlm. are we supposed to act like he doesn’t straight-up sees himself superior and better than people of color and steals their works to put himself on a pedestal? Are we supposed to act like he didnt spit on our elders by saying “only the boring gays survived aids” like man! Fuck you! He BLANTANTLY MAKES UP HISTORY TO PUT HIMSELF ON A PEDESTAL!! HE ACTIVELY TRIED TO REWRITE LGBT HISTORY TO SUIT HIS FUCKED UP NARRATIVES!

yes this sucks ! no one deserves this but no one should be making him a martyr. Thats what he fucking WANTS! He wants to be immortalized as a victim!! (again, supposedly, it was reported hes alive but its not confirmed).

The shit he got isnt near the amount of fucking callous behavior hes done again and again. Again, to drill this point, EVEN IF HE DIDNT CALL THE POLICE HE THREATENED A TRANS WOMAN INTO THINKING HE DID!!! The fact he tried to use a head injury to justify years of the outright ghoulish shit fucking astounds me. Why the fuck did anyone in his life thought it was a good idea to let him TRY to come back. in the end, he had options. he didn’t need to try to make a comeback. HE DIDNT NEED TO FUCKING LIE OR IGNORE THE SHIT HE WAS CALLED OUT ON the reality is, he wanted to come back thinking he could shove it under the rug, was told that no dude, you’re not allowed to be a youtuber anymore. you’re done. you need to move on and went full nuclear. it’s not on anyone’s hands but his own. HES BEEN DOING THIS TO HIMSELF!! But nah man we cant call his shit out bc hell may or may not kill himself. Fuck the other minorities who have the same issues but worse and sometimes BECAUSE of him. This is going to SUCKKKK so bad when other ppl, specifically white gays, are going to weaponize this shit to get away with their stuff.

#warning: do not read this post if you want me to be nice to james somerton. i am extremely mean in this post. #before anyone accuses me of shit i legit never contacted him myself or anyone involved. i am someone who witnessed this behavior repeatedly #again. i hope hes alive and well. the fact is him lying about this WOULD BE THE IDEAL SITUATION. BC NO ONE SHOULD GO THROUGH THAT. but. #he HAS to forever be the victim in his eyes. attempting doesnt automatically mean youre free of sin. #its just terrible to see that regardless whether or not he did do it #its very clear his attempts to run away from his consequences are working on some people #we need to acknowledge that if your shitty ex friend can weaponize a threat to kill themselves #so can this internet person after being called out for horrendous shit #like what was the alterative? what were people supposed to fucking do? be nice about it? #yeah as if poc and trans women arent historically given shit for being 'too mean' about wanting justice. #this isnt just the plagiarism this is the fact a white dude has been parading himself as THE speaker for the gays(tm) but has been using hi #gayness to shield himself from his misogyny racism transphobia and antisemitism #its very clear regardless this means that ppl r going to side with him and then give him benefit of doubt #if you cant handle the heat stay out of the fucking kitchen dude. this is the consequences of your fucking actions. #hes a disgusting person who cant handle being told no so hes going to drag everyone down with him #like. idk this entire situation is frustrating to me. #its also frustrating ppl trying to be moral abt it like 'see! i knew this was bad all along!' no you didnt. shut it. #for the record im like mainly talking abt twit watching those spineless uwu cutesy ppl basically saying hes done noting wrong #oh and also alt righters who are clearly weaponinizing this where u know they wouldnt give a shit if a right ytber did this. #james somerton #idk might delete this later its just. ugh...

[wisefoxluminary]

I don't feel comfortable speaking out about things like this but I am deeply disappointed in Noah Schnapp. To have the audacity to wave around stickers that support and glorify literal genocide as "sexy" is just so disgusting. Palestinian people are being bombed and dying and here he is making jokes and having a laugh about it. I will continue to be a Stranger Things fan and will not boycott season five but Noah needs to grow up and take a good fucking look at his life.

#noah schnapp #stranger things #this is disgusting behaviour #i am sorry #he should know better #will byers #free palestine #free gaza #anti genocide #it's so fucking awful what's happening over there #my heart sinks for everyone lost to this conflict #i don't feel comfortable talking about news stories because I'm scared of saying the wrong thing #but I can't remain silent anymore

[reasoncourt]

idk who needs to hear this but you can hate taylor swift without siding with the ai porn guys. disliking her isn’t an act of misogyny but ai porn of her is an act of misogyny despite her whiteness and wealth and power. like this is fr my problem with most ppl who hate her - they just abandon all of their principles when it comes to her. like we do realise she can suck and also not deserve nonconsenual porn made of her right?

#srry for ppl who haven’t seen this discourse hahaha #i’m just so ???? about it #reminds me of when everyone was taking kanye’s side years ago with that phone call thing #because they hate taylor swift #and it’s like - ok think what u want about the phone call and her reaction #but u have to agree that him making a fake nude plastic replica of her naked body #to have sleeping in bed with him in his music video #was actually disgusting #like she was 25 i think #and everyone was like ‘white woman victimhood tears wealthy woman boo’ etc #and it’s like ok ok but the music video was fucked up #we think the music video was massively wrong right #guys? guys??!!! #right?!!!! #anywho #just needed a rant #this shit affects more than just celebrities #and i don’t think ‘she deserves it’ should ever be an argument #no matter what you think of the victim #when it comes to this stuff #dl

[joyflameball]

K I get laughing at Somerton for being a plagiarist but the apology video he released genuinely infuriates me. Fuckin. Jessie Gender video explaining it all my beloved

#james somerton #sui ment #in tags #cassie rambles #like. wtf to begin an apology video with ''i just got out of the hospital after attempting suicide'' is just #so disgusting and manipulative #like i fully believe that being the internet villain of the week can make one suicidal #since being villain of the week always comes with harassment #which would ofc be worse for a gay person #since homophobia #but like #THIS IS A FUCKING APOLOGY VIDEO #what you SHOULD do is LIST OUT EVERYONE YOU PLAGIARIZED #SO THE PEOPLE YOU STOLE FROM CAN GET THE CREDIT THEY DESERVE #if he's suicidal- which i won't call that into question bc that's fucking gross to speculate on whether or not someone's suicidal- #then he needs to sort that out ON HIS OWN TIME. #not in an internet apology #get support from your irl friends and become a better person instead of making an internet apology #i (as a suicidal people!!) am genuinely furious at him using his being suicidal as a //weapon// #you are being fucking manipulative and disgusting by opening an apology video- AN APOLOGY VIDEO- with ''i tried to kill myself'' #what the everloving fuck is wrong with you #you're not shitty for being suicidal but you are shitty for using your suicidal thoughts as a weapon to get sympathy #go to fucking therapy #you can sure as fuck afford it with your telos money. unless you spent it all on fancy expensive cameras #this just. i am genuinely furious. #hbomberguy #i don't hope he dies and goes to hell instead i hope somerton goes to therapy and becomes a better person and actually makes up for the #damage he's done and i'm dead fucking serious #Youtube

[persephoneflouwers]

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#i have to let it out of my chest because today was fucking rough on here #it’s been for a few days actually because I’ve received much hate and I tried to ignore it as much as I could #between my blog being exposed by a huge other blog and getting dissed and then the controversy of my opinions on here #it was rough but I dealt with it. Today was different #i know I shouldn’t care about these things… I know it’s silly and all but #to read someone is ‘disgusted’ by my work and they wouldn’t read it because I should be ‘ashamed’ made me cry #i wont deny it lol I cried because… idk why would you be so nasty and cowardly send hate #not everyone has to like my story #damn not everyone has to read it #like i completely understand an historical AU with philosophy and slow burn is not everyone’s cup of tea #but like to be so nasty and make up lies only because you dont like what I said? idk #maybe I cant understand this behaviour because i would never in my life for the love of me #do this to any other person. not even the ones that I don’t like #but anyway i’ll be girl-reblogging any comfort content from Louis tonight #i know this won’t make any difference but it would be nice. it would be nice

[soldier-poet-king]

Should not be feeling prideful abt the fact that I treat housekeeping staff like Actual Human Beings unlike MOST of my office and therefore I got to hear all about her kids and was shyly asked if I could help design & print smthn bc her kids are coming home from college, but like, I AM, this is my crowning achievement at work but really it should just be like. The baseline of human decency. And YET.

Not to be like We Live In A Society but :/

#franposting #anyway its also like. maam. youre old enough to be my mom. im ur kids age #idgaf that i have a desk job and my own office you are clearly My Superior and i will walk across hot coals for you #everyone is SO mean esp to english as additional language learners #and im just. i will fucking kill you all #also the ABSOLUTE like. messes people leave? or just ignore the staff? dont stop and chat? #like yeah we dont speak the same language and sometimes conversations are hard but like. try ur fuckin Best #anyway this isnt even really pride this is just #rage and disgust at how middle class white collar workers treat housekeeping and maintenance #maybe i just got used to growing up poor and working class #and now working an office job im like. wtf. yall really act like this to another human being wtf #theyre not even actively rude its just like. omg dont create extra work thats not her job #stop and say hi and chat. TREAT HER LIKE A COWORKER BC SHE FUCKIN IS #SHES NOT UR GODDAM NANNY SHES A HUMAN BEING I S2G #its made worse by the fact that mt workplace is REDACTED and therefore should know/do better

[dreamertrilogys]

going into instagram comments is crazy it’s like seeing into a (much MUCH) worse alternate reality like You ppl live such unfathomably terrible lives to me….

#aside from the general everything they’re just so boring and miserable. Btw #sorry it’s just i’ve had insta on my phone lately (unfortunately i can’t delete it until the party ☹️) & every SINGLE time i see some sort o #reel and i’m like HA yknow what i think? and then everyone in the comments is saying the complete opposite thing #every single time without fail #the other day i saw a reel where a bartender dumped all the leftover stuff from the thing (idk what it’s called) into a cup and every1 in #the comments was like ugh yucky disgusting / yk ppl put even grosser stuff in their mouths like genitals. besides if it’s cleaned regularly #enough it should be fine / that’s a big IF. meanwhile i’m like Yum jungle juice 😋 #also one time i saw ppl talking abt how they sleep in binders at sleepovers COME ON reddit is free transtape exists. please #<- these r like the worst examples ever but it’s ok #also like the insane casual misogyny. it’s so bad out here guys #.txt #ppl arguing in the comments like ‘that’s like 2k calories’ / ‘why r u being negative besides it’s only like 300 at max’ / ‘it’s not #negativity’ GUYS. WHAT THE FUCK. CALORIES ARE GOOD I <3 ENERGY???? YOUR BODY ALSO LOVES ENERGY. COME ON. BUTTER 4 LYFE BITCH #OH AND ONE TIME someone made vanilla extract and the comments were all panicked muslims like oh no im rethinking all my vanilla extract #buying GUYS do you or do you not eat bread. great now figure out the alcohol content of fermented yeast vs a drop of ethanol in a cake (that #is being baked anyway!)

[canni-killer]

finish drawing. feel proud! see three pieces of art. i want to kill myself.

#ive been drawing for years why am i so bad #inconsistent also #bad AND inconsistent #anyways did anyone see the pic i drew haha its good right #who am i fucking kidding its awful #everything i make art writing knitting sewing etc its all terrible #no matter how much i practice i never improve #i cant write either my writing is terrible #and ive p much abandoned knitting #i occasionally sew holes in clothes but im bad at it #i have no fuckng skills #i should be good at this stuff its all stuff ive been doing sonce i was a fucking child #why is my baby cousin better at knitting than mr #why is my cousin so much better at art when were the same age and ive been drawing longer #i cant act either. or sing. i used to want to do musical theater but yknow #i cant bring myself to pick up my guitar cuz i know ill never be good at it. it frirates me to practice. #i played trombone for 2 ½ years and never got any better #i couldn't even read a single scale and my playing was quiet and bad #fuck #fuck fuck fuck #ill mever be good at anything #im a hack. talentless. unskilled. in every way possible. #can i find one fucking thing that im good at #“do it for yourself!” I CANT I FUCKING CANT if no one else likes it then its not good #and if its not good theres no point to it #becuz its just another way in which ive failed #i hate myself. im a disgusting failure #and im too cowardly to even kill myself #“im living for so and so :3” LIES LIES ITS ALL LIES IM ALIVE BECUZ IM A COWARD #everyone else will be fine without me. maybe happier even. i just cant do it cuz im fucking scared. another gd thing im a failure at.

[brookheimer]

……starting to think a lot of you do not know what the word empathetic means

#i have a lot to say about this but it is going to have to wait a few days until i’m no longer up to my ears in work #but here’s a little thing to tide you over: empathy does not a good person make #a capacity for empathy is in no way a capacity let alone willingness for good #empathy and intense horrendous cruelty are not mutually exclusive #if you think that evil comes in a single form if you think evil is just pure callousness coldness spot-it-a-mile-away inability to love #then no fucking wonder people keep doing evil terrible things like in real life and your response is always ?! W hat ?! #shocking: terrible evil people are still people. they are not robots of pure malice. they were once babies with coloring books #that’s not saying we should feel bad for them or anything at all!!! just that you guys seem allergic to acknowledging that it doesn’t take a #category 5 sociopath to commit an atrocity #everyone go read arendt’s banality of evil and go watch act of killing by joshua oppenheimer #no wonder trump keeps winning. y’all don’t view his supporters as people with any qualities other than Racism #like i know this is a fictional character but the response here is so indicative of this much broader issue that makes me want to scream #i get it. you’ve lived in a bubble your whole life and never interacted with people vastly different from yourself and had to acknowledge #their personhood as much as their viewpoints disgusted you. talk to a conservative once in your life it might be mind blowing #not bc you’ll be like WOAH :o THEYRE NOT SO BAD AFTER ALL! no!!!!! because they ARE that bad and they are also regular normal people!!!!! #you are all so incapable of viewing anyone you dislike as having internal lives! christ! #this is how trump won! how do you not see this! #seriously go watch act of killing go watch anwar who murdered hundreds of people in cold blood warmly scold his grandchild for poking a duck #too hard. like the most horrifying part of horrible ppl who commit atrocities is that they aren’t caricatures of evil #we wish they were it would make it easier to understand #agh i’m rambling i’ll shut up #god watch ppl be like Uh why are you defending trump/genocide/fascists etc #dumb fucks i’m telling you the most terrifying part about those people is that they are actually people that’s what makes it so hard to #comprehend bc atrocities are so much easier to swallow when you can pretend a force of pure evil is behind it #okokokok good night lol

[butchvamp]

ohhh my god i need to get off this website

#first mistake going into the lesbian tag just to immediately see lesbophobia #crazy to me that the popular stance from so many other gay ppl rn is just ‘lesbophobia is good’ #i cannot take it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #why is everyone suddenly so obsessed with 'proving' that lesbians can be with men #and why are so many people being so horrible and misrepresenting our history #there absolutely were lesbians that were with men historically. because they were either bisexual women #that were forced to mislabel themselves bc of the violent biphobia in the lesbian feminist movement #or they were women unknowingly dealing with compulsive heterosexuality #like how disgusting do you have to be to look at some of these women and be like 'this was when queers were REALLY QUEER' #instead of like. having empathy and understanding about their situation #and also acknowledge that language has changed. there is no lesbian feminism anymore lesbianism is a sexuality that EXCLUDES MEN #end of sentence #there is a difference between someone questioning or who found out they were lesbian later in life #or historically where these words had different meaning the community & society was Completely Different #versus you assholes deliberately trying to force lesbianism to include men to be 'progressive' #like just so fucking vile. you should be ashamed of yourselves #literally just cannot go into any gay spaces as a lesbian anymore because it's just constant lesbophobia and no one cares #theyre more concerned with being So Inclusive and the Better Queer that they'd rather exclude an entire part of the community #and deem them 'less than' #while parroting the same shit conservatives say to all lesbians #did you win? do you feel good about ignoring and talking over and excluding us?

[salsflore]

Mika! so glad i caught you! here! this is for you! someone special dropped it off at the insectarium! 🐝🦌 now i must hop along! the woods aren’t going to frolic through themself!

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Dear Mika,

Hey! There’s the one I love so much! Been a while since I sent a letter, huh? Don’t worry, I’ll never forget about you. I just wanted to update you and let you know that i’m always here for you. I know I seem to really get on your nerves all the time, but I really do love you and all this annoyance is just how I show that! Or maybe i’m just so handsome and charming that you pretend to be annoyed to not show it… who knows! You’re a mystery to me and I love you for it. I’m not sure next time I’ll be seeing you but you’ve never left my mind.

I’m sorry this letter is a little shorter, on a bit of a time crunch! But I needed to slip it to you to make sure you know i’m always with you.

- With Love,

🐳 Childe, Your favorite Fatui Harbinger

omg hi melly sorry for the late reply i was busy planting bombs in the woods you frolic in. also can you ban this piece of shit from the insectarium? thank you. no one read the tags its private and personal

#SOMEONE FUCKING KILL MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UEEEEEEEE #HANDSOME AND CHARMING MY ASS. I'LL KILL YOU TEN THOUSAND TIMESSJSFHJSFJ #AHHH.... SICK this is genuinely so disgusting everyone is working against MEMGMEJCSN AHHH HGHRHRHRHRRGR #im hugging my childe pillow as i type my silly little words of hatred #umm whatever i truly dont care #you DO get on my nerves all the time. i should. i should kiss you to show you just how frustrated i am right now #﹒﹒love letters #⠀monoceros caeli ✦ 21.11⠀

[steakout-05]

i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao

this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.

#aegosexual #also i'm not like. sad about this or anything #maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it. #i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way #being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to- #-experience something i won't enjoy. #i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace #also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead #now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao #i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics #i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me #like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive #especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry #we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think #idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda- #-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy #i always preferred projection anyway #although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is. #probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person- #-and i'm just pressing buttons for them #it's more free and directional i guess

[murobrown]

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#let me vent here real quick #bachelorette/bachelor parties are one of the most stupid concepts we ever created #it's disgusting and humiliating to me #if I'd have a person who loves me enough that they decide that they want to spend the rest of their life with me it's like an ultimate win #i mean what more do you want to achieve in life? isn't that like a main goal? #I don't even mean marriage that's useless but just that safe warm loving feeling #and then you gather all your friends and you're going to look at it as game over????? #so anyway I should attempt a stupid bachelorette party this weekend and it's useless and incredibly expensive #and it's full of activities that are totally outside of my comfort zone like drinking and dancing and being half naked in a spa #and you have to wear some dumb accessories so that you also humiliate yourself in front of everyone #and first I thought will be able to handle it but yesterday I panicked and asked if I can be excused from all those activities #and people don't understand that my concept of fun is different from theirs #and i don't mean this in any negative way towards those people #it's just different for me and I'd love you to understand that #but... it's also not nice from me to ditch them last minute and let down my friend that's getting married #but yesterday I just had this moment when I thought fuck no I'm going to think about myself for once and it's just not right #because then you make people upset... #the actual wedding is another thing I dread...it will be an actual nightmare and there's no way I will ever escape it #so yeah I'm just full of emotions and I don't know what's the right thing to do and how to keep others happy and myself calm #at least last night I dreamt about Jake Bugg hugging me and if that's not the sign I'm going spend the rest of my life with that man... #i also decided to survive both of those events sober just to make it more challenging for myself #alcohol has way too many calories and i just want stay in control of my brain #i will see if the only three friends i have will resent me after this #i needed to sort my thoughts here even though I know ot doesn't look like so #i hope that you all are having a wonderful day and doing fantastic ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[here-there-were-dragons]

as a general rule, on average, if americans consistently complain about a food being conceptually weird, gross, and scary, then it probably tastes amazing. or at least inoffensive.

this is because in my experience americans for the most part (give or take a few exceptions by region) think eating literally anything other than beef, chicken, bread, eggs, peanut butter jelly sandwitches, ketchup, and disgusting cloyingly artificial brown sludge soda is insurmountably weird, gross, and scary.

#a lot of people literally refuse to even eat ham or pork #not even for like religious or health reasons #just because they think eating anything but beef and chicken is 'weird and scary and gross' #every time i hear people going on en masse about how 'weird and an acquired taste' something foreign is i go and try it and i'm just like #what the fuck were all of you smoking. where is the unbearable weirdness i am supposed to be experiencing #shoutout to that time i kept hearing about how bizarre a flavor milkis soda is and how intimidating and acquired of a taste #then when i actually try the stuff. it's just fucking peach soda. it's peach soda with a faint tangy yogurtish taste. it makes good floats. #how in the absolute fuck is anything even remotely weird much less gross about this? #unless your concept of what a 'soda' should be is poisoned by a lifetime of the entire soda aisle being filled with nothing but brown sludg #from the same 3 brands that all taste like what would happen if they could distill the concept of diabetes and artificial flavoring syrup #i don't know if other countries have this but there's this weird cultural like mandatory rejection of any 'unusual' food here #way more intense than i've seen from anyone from any other country (though that might just be inexperience with other cultures talking) #people react to the mere suggestion of any food outside a very narrow range with outright disgust and genuine fear and horror #and there's a huge amount of unspoken peer pressure on everyone to also do the same #like you're expected to agree with them and you've breeched some sort of silent social contract if you don't #it's seen as *immoral* almost it feels like #it's difficult to describe unless you've noticed it yourself #americans react to the mere suggestion of eating anything outside of the same 2 meats and handful of fillers the same way #that pearl-clutching aristocrat grandmas react to hearing that people in foreign countries do.. basically anything #it doesnt matter if you're suggesting eating ube cake or suggesting eating live bugs because people will react the same way #everything that's not chicken/beef/ect is as good as bugs to people here #hate this stupid blandass country and how impossible it is to afford any food other than burgers if you're not rich #or blessed with relatives that have any idea how to cook and are at all willing to teach you #cause nother weird thing i've noticed about food culture-or at least wasp food culture-that i haven't seen anywhere else quite the same way #is that if you DO have any relatives that know how to cook then nine times out of ten they will jealously guard their recipes like a dragon #and refuse to share them with anyone #thus taking whatever little cooking knowledge was in the family to their grave #so the opportunity other people usually have for family bonding via passing on recipes? pffft no. #for some reason we seem to actively go out of our way to prevent these things from being passed on #i don't know what the fuck is up with that but i suspect it has something to do with 50's dinner party oneupmanship

[the-worm-king]

You shouldn't hate yourself because your fat

Fat women are hot

Fat men are hot

Fat enbies are hot

Anyone who says otherwise is a fucking coward

Fucking crush them under your thicc beautiful ass

And if you disagree with this,

GET YOUR ASS OFF MY BLOG! YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE!

#i spent a whole shower making myself angry over people calling themselves “fat and disgusting” #and i had much meaner things to say to those ppl #but when i did that it was from a place of self hatred #and they should know #when you say fatphobic things about yourself #you put every other fat person down #and some of us have spent a long ass time getting over societies expectation of us #and suprise suprise #fat people deserve to feel loved and safe #because EVERYONE deserves to feel loved and safe #INCLUDING YOU!! #fatphobia #internalized fatphobia #so fucking tired of this shit #🪱

[missiodine]

I fucking hate myself.

#I am a waste of space #I deserve to die #I’ll never amount to anything #I am a complete failure #I’m a horrible selfish person #I don’t deserve to live #vent #I’m so fucking disgusting #I should be dead #I need to die #and instead I’m just venting online for attention and curled up into a ball crying #so many people have it worse than me #I’m just some asshole behind a screen posting about my personal woes #I think things would be a lot better for everyone if I was dead #I might be selfish but at least if I was dead I can’t hurt anyone anymore #I’m worried people will leave me