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stealthetrees · 6 months

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Okay I’ve snapped.

If you say Percy Jackson is stupid I will find you and make sure you regret it.

I have inattentive type ADHD. I was diagnosed in 4th grade and got put on medication. I did not think there was a difference but I got an award from the school for how much I improved. They didn’t know it was because of meds.

Before I was diagnosed I remember being on the verge of tears often at school because I got so frustrated that I couldn’t do work. I sat at my desk with the pencil in my hand staring at a worksheet physically unable to write the awnser I knew. I would stare at the question and like an optical illusion the rest of the page blurs together and I can’t even make out word anymore.

I thought I was dyslexic for the longest time because some fonts are so difficult for me to read. I could look at a recit, know it says lettuce, and it will not process in my brain. Unless I am a few hours away from a deadline it is nearly impossible to start assignments. Essays are hell.

You know those songs that have an American accent but are completely nonsense? That’s what it sounds like a lot when I listen to people talk. Usally I can grasp the general meaning but I can not tell you what word you just said.

Time is not real. I sit down, scroll through tumblr for maybe 15 minutes and my roommate asks why I’m sitting doing nothing for 4 hours straight. Full days disappear and I can’t remember anything that happened. I have no idea how long it takes me to do something I do almost every day.

I went two weeks at the beginning of the semester with meds that where 10 milligrams lower than my usual dosage. My grades still haven’t recovered.

THAT SAID. In cannon, Percy Jackson passed 13 years of school with high enough grades to be accepted to a university. Not medicated. Without accommodations.

So either the education system in New York is taylored specifically for people with ADHD, or Percy Jackson is a fucking geinios. I can’t spell.

So ignoring the fact that nearly every fight he won by outsmarting his opponent, let me tell you why.

In the books, he’s an introvert, sits in the back, tries to keep his head down but usually fails, gets detention often, and has been expelled multiple times. That’s not the kind of kid teachers go out of their way to help. He’s also unlikely to ask for help. So, despite his struggles in the classroom, he has never been held back or had to redo a grade as far as we know. And it’s pretty likely considering his age.

Add in the fact that he would be constantly sleep deprived from staying up very late (like from 10-3, based off my experience) and his dyslexia, Percy would need to be really good at retaining information after hearing or seeing it only once. That’s actually supported by his ability to memorize prophecies word for word after only hearing them once. We know Percy is bad at taking tests, so he would have to be really good at recalling information.

He also did it all unmedicated. I want to cry just thinking about it.

tldr, the fact that Percy’s grades where high enough to get into college means hes fucking brilliant

#percyjackson #percy jackson #pjo #adhd #living with adhd #Percy Jackson adhd #adhd brain #school is hard #especially in an environment built to torture you #adhd problems #adhd post #adhd Percy Jackson

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which-qsmp-egg-would · 22 days

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Time for the March Summary!

First of, the egg that haunts my dreams,

Richarlyson

For the 3rd month in a row, with 13/62 polls won last month, Richas has been voted most likely to:

Eat a random nut/berry/bug he found outside

Aim for the head during dodgeball

Intentionally cough/sneeze on someone while sick

Pick up something gross and chase his siblings around with it

Play computer games in class instead of doing his school work

Play football indoors and accidentally break a family relic

Play Julius Ceasar in a recreation of the Ides of March

Love a cursed food combination

Hunt down islanders that aren't wearing green on St. Patrick's Day

Pretend to be possessed to scare a sibling/parent

Refuse to wear shoes, even in the woods

Be the Rico (Penguins of Madagascar) of the island

Be covered in band-aids all the time

I do not know how he managed to win this many without me noticing. I think he's stealing trophies from me when I'm not looking.

Dapper

Wait, what? Even I wasn't expecting our favorite literal-demon child to win 2nd! With 11/62 polls won, Dapper has been voted most likely to:

Read Wikipedia articles for fun

Berate adults for coughing into their hand

Be a "Home Alone" protagonist

Love "Doctor Who"

Read Homestuck

Make a recreation of the Ides of March

Actually catch a leprechaun on Saint Patrick's Day

NOT have to sing the alphabet song to remember what order the letters are in

Love the Sherlock Holmes books

Know everything about demon folklore and scare everyone with their knowledge of it

Be determined to find every single easter egg at the island-wide easter egg hunt

She's a nerd, what else is there to say?

Chayanne & Pepito

Tied for 3rd, with 6/62 polls won each! Chayanne has been voted most likely to:

Love Hockey

Hyperfixate on the Percy Jackson series

Be a try-hard in P.E. class

Start a game of King Of The Hill everytime the school replaces the woodchips at recess

Fight with a teacher over a test grade

Sleep through fasting all day

Only look for the difficult to find eggs so their younger siblings can have fun at the Easter egg hunt

And Pepito has been voted most likely to:

Lose every round of Hide N' Seek because Pepito can't stop giggling

Believe in the Tooth Fairy

Chase Pepito's own tail

Still not know how to swim

Actually break a leg during a school play on accident

Eat paper because Pepito thinks it tastes good

One of the oldest eggs tying with one of the youngest. It's perfect.

Sunny

With 5/62 polls won, I'm sure Sunny is a little miffed that she's ended up in 4th. But it's okay, you all are sure to put her in 1st place one of these months. Sunny has been voted most likely to:

Secretly paint their closet an obnoxious color

Have a fashion show using her parents' clothes

Sleep with all of their stuffed animals so they don't get lonely

Treat the masjid shoe racks as their own personal shoe store

Have an imaginary friend

Tallulah, Ramón, & Pomme

Tying for 5th, with 4/62 polls won each, I'm very happy to see Pomme winning her first ever polls! And a total of 4 of them, no less! Tallulah has been voted most likely to:

Try and dye her own hair (making a huge mess)

Fit the main character role in "Coraline"

Perform Tarot card readings

Catch bees to pet them

Ramón has been voted most likely to:

Be obsessed with cowboys and the Wild West

Race to recalibrate the SmartBoard at school

Set up an elaborate rube goldberg machine to suprise a parent for their birthday

Have a space hyperfixation and want to be an astronaut

And Pomme has been voted most likely to:

Be a monster at PaintBall

Hyperfixate on Splatoon

Be very meticulous while coloring in a coloring book

Write a book

I think there's a pattern with that last one.

Leonarda

With 3/62 polls won, Leonarda has been voted most likely to:

Be obsessed with Power Rangers

Be into ice skating

Read every single Warrior cats books

I don't have anything funny to say here, It's hard to pay attention while listening to Ze Frank talk about coral kkkkkkkk

Empanada

With 2/62 polls won, Empanada has been voted most likely to:

Spend recess burying herself in woodchips and sleeping

Have Batik as a hobby

Oh hey, it's the first time Empanada's gone a full month without winning a poll about sweets!

Chunsik

Finally, our youngest has won a poll! With 1/62 polls won, Chunsik has been voted most likely to:

Be exempt from a Federation experiment because he politely declines it

What a polite kid!

...

That's it, right? That's all the eggs. All 11 eggs, all 62 polls for the month of March

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Why does my clipboard say I'm missing two polls.....

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Oh! Yes!

Juanaflippa & Bobby

In an absolutely unprecedented event, Juanaflippa AND Bobby have become our first ever dead eggs to win a canonical poll, with 1/62 win each! Juanaflippa has been voted most likely to:

Have a million allergies during the spring

And Bobby has been voted most likely to:

Get BANNED from playing Bulldog

It's still insane to me that you all managed to get these two a win. Bobby was going up against RICHARLYSON for void's sake. You all were fighting against the current on that one.

See you all soon!

#qsmp #qsmp eggs #qsmp Chayanne #qsmp Tallulah #qsmp dapper #qsmp ramón #qsmp leonarda #qsmp Richarlyson #qsmp pomme #qsmp pepito #qsmp Empanada #qsmp sunny #qsmp sunnysideup #qsmp chunsik #qsmp bobby #qsmp juanaflippa #not a poll #month recap

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sirenologyyy · 1 year

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ATWOW MODERN AU!

(a.k.a my hot take if the kids were in highschool)

part 1 part 2

tsireya

- a glossier girlie through and through

- she's the most popular girl in their whole school and it is really hard not to hate her

- she listens to kpop specifically NEW JEANS, her bias is Minji, her bias wrecker is Hyein, she loves the song Ditto and would memorise ALL THE DANCES

- this is basically connected to the one before this but is a dancer, she did ballet as a kid then her parents enrolled her in a professional dance school. She had to quit because that on top of being the student body VP, her work in the animal shelter and being a farm hand in her family's farm it's just too much work

- her and ao'nung are irish twins so even though they were both born in the same year she had to step down a grade (hence why she's classmates with Lo'ak and Kiri)

- the Maihoa family are loaded so you'd expect her to be snobby and uptight right? HELL. NO. Tonowari and Ronal raised her better than that (she would make do with whatever she has, she's literally so low maintenance and would appreciate ANYTHING)

- they have this private strip of land where they converted into a golf course where they'd go golfing any time (it's literally a 5 minute drive away from their estate) she and Ao'nung would golf every weekday if they didn't have any homework and would stay there until sunset

- literally just good at everything she does ahsjsnz

- everyone expects her to be that one coquette girl but nah let's be honest, she's the coastal grandma

- this girl cannot LIE she's such a goody two shoes (one time Lo'ak and Ao'nung decided to sneak out to go to some party the swim team were having after hours and they asked her to cover them but she ended up selling them out nonetheless (both of them got an ass whooping the next night but hey, at least she waited 24 hours to rat them out)

- she runs hot so she always wears shorts and bra tops

- dosen't swear if necessary, maybe mutters a 'fuck' or 'dick' but only if she's royally pissed, if she starts swearing in Māori GET UP AND RUN no, wait scratch that, don't run, SPRINT

- her makeup is always organised in tubs by most to least used, her beauty blenders are always washed, her makeup brushes are cleaner than when she first bought them, her room is basically an Ulta branch with a bed and books laying around

- MAKES FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS ‼️ everyone from the group has one, sometimes she strings seashells and beads she found in her travels onto the thread (Lo'ak takes his off everytime he swims or takes a shower because he dosen't want it to get wet)

- a hardcore people pleaser, she'd brutally exhaust herself if it meant people would be happy with her assistance (that's why Ao'nung rarely asks her for favours)

- would ditch you for a chance to advance study

- she was that one person in the class where in between subjects the other girls would line up by her desk as she does their hair

- she and Lo'ak went as Amy Santiago and Jake Peralta the first Halloween they were officially together

- her favorite subject is Chemistry (she's memorised every quantum formula there is) and Advanced Lit because let's be honest Tsireya is a book worm (Ronal would walk into her room at 2 in the morning to find her bundled up in the covers while wearing a headlight reading some 10 inch book she borrowed from their library)

- is a cancer, must I go on?

- let's be honest, she's vegan too

- multilingual, she can speak French, English, Māori, and Dominican (learnt that to impress Neytiri)

- won an award in 4th grade for being the person in their batch that borrowed the most books

- she and her father would bond over the Percy Jackson series because it's what statted her love for books (they'd talk shit about the movie adaptations LSNSZKZ)

- she likes collecting seashells, everytime they'd visit their father's home town in Rotorua or literally any beach Tsireya would not leave until she'd find a shell (this was never an issue until they came down for a visit where she spent her 12th birthday, it was raining cats and dogs when they left and Ronal didn't allow her to grab some random shell off the sand before they climbed in the car and she was upset the whole 17 hour flight back)

- she does her own nails, they'd always be white French tips but sometimes she'd use coloured nail polish

- wears Jo Malone perfume

- she's always active in class let's be fr, she studies like a junkie, she gets conscious about it though so she decided that in every subject she'd only raise her hand 5 times

- you CANNOT trust her in the kitchen, when she says she'll be trying out this recipe from tiktok you need to watch her or she'll slice her palm open

- you need 20 bucks, she'll give it to you, if you can't pay her, no problem, if you can, she won't be reminding you (she literally forgets everyone she lends money to)

- rarely gets mad, if she is though she'll bite your fucking face off

- girls ask her what product she uses for her eyebrows and she's like what product (baby girl has naturally thick eyebrows she does not need to touch them to look that good)

- her favorite movie growing up was Cars (specifically Cars 2), when she was a teen it was Pitch Perfect and now it's the 2005 Pride and Prejudice adaptation (she hates the Netflix Persuasion one)

- "Hey whose got some acetone? My nailpolish looks real streaky" "Oh I do!"

- has only drunken 3 times and she's always the spacey kinda drunk that laughs at like literally everything

- had that huge ass barbie doll house with the working lights, elevator, slide, and garage when she was a kid

ao'nung

- when he'd cook meals with his mother (I know, shocking) they'd always make a shepherd's pie and they'd practice her Māori, when she'd pronounce a word wrong or forget what the Māori translation would be he'd pretend to be angry at her but he ends up in a laughing mess

- listens to Rob Zombie

- when he was a kid he could not sleep without a night light on, Ronal and Tonowari decided to take it away one night and they wake up to a cranky 7 year old smashing plates in the kitchen at 2 in the morning

- he sleeps at 10 pm or at 4 am. Strictly.

- his wardrobe consists of Ralph Lauren and Nike (the duality 🤌🏼)

- Ronal and Tonowari never had any problem feeding him and Tsireya, what she wouldn't eat he'd eat, what he wouldn't eat she'd eat

- he wants everyone to think he's the living epitome of basketball bro, shooting hoops everyday because ball is life bro... and he is

- no one would think he's on the honor roll, he'd never brag about his test scores to anybody except Tsireya, all that seems to leave his mouth is basketball, basketball basketball, he'd never ace tests because most of the teachers do a roll call of the students with perfect scores and he'd hate to be standing by the blackboard with Neteyam and Rotxo so he purposefully gets one question wrong, wether that be forgetting to add the negative sign to an exponent, being a year off of important dates in history, forgetting to add the correct unit of measurement

- used to vape as a joke but now he just does unconsciously

- has and always been a momma's boy

- he picked up on Ronal's british accent and Tonowari's Māori accent and sort of have this unique hybrid accent when he talks, it was hard to understand him when he talks really fast but especially hard when he was in preschool with his speech impediment, his teachers and classmates could not understand a thing he said

- plays chess and will obliterate you in a matter of seconds, you'd be too focused on getting your rook to his side and by the time you got there he's already taken most of your chess pieces and your king 💀

- plays Royale High with Neteyam's baby sister and Mortal Kombat with Lo'ak

- everyone expects him and Tsireya to attend private school (mostly because Ao'nung's an entitled douchebag) they only stayed because the school they were supposed to study at didn't have any more spots so they studied at Pandora High instead, they went back the second year because he'd been acquainted with Rotxo at the time and his parents decided he was a good influence on Ao'nung (also they wanted Tsireya to run for the student body so)

- flirts with too many girls but never takes anything a step further, there are about dozens upon dozens of rumors circulating the school of him getting it on with this one girl in the auditorium, making out with this one girl in the science lab, taking this one girl to his car and Tsireya hears all of it 💀

- never raises his hand to recite and if he does it's during the last 5 minutes and he's trying to kill time by making their teacher talk about their children or the Vietnam War or something until the bell rings and all the students bolt out of the classroom before their teacher could get another word in. If he gets called on out of the blue he'll always get the answer right

- sleeps in class lol

- he drives an Audi to school everyday

- he dosent speak Māori as well as Tsireya but he understands just as well as her

- watches kid cartoons when he's stressed like the magic schoolbus, pink panther, angelina ballerina, but he's always stayed true to his roots which was cartoon network like Ed, Edd, and Eddie, The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy, and Camp Lazlo

- zones out when he's upset

- they have loads of beach houses scattered along the coast but the one they always go to is their Fairfield house in Connecticut where they'd surf from dawn to dusk, his parents would join him and Tsireya in the first 5 hours but they'd leave after that and let them surf on their own. When they'd be done they'd have seawater in their ears, sand in places they never would have imagined, and their hair would start turning golden because of how long they spent under the sun

- he's the type to never tell you anything unless you ask him about it, you'd never know how his day if you don't pester him about it, you won't know if he's feeling alright or not because he is so incredibly hard to read.

rotxo

- drinks tea but has a raging caffeine addiction

- spends his off time watching sitcoms with some popcorn

- does not have any clue what is going on

- since everyone agrees on this, yes, he was raised by his grandmother

- he has all the ap classes too let's be fr

- HE SAYS SUCH OUT OF POCKET THINGS SOMETIMES, he says it how he sees it, he'd literally go out of his way and call you a perforated ballsack if he felt like it (and he never got a citation for it EVER) it almost fazes Ao'nung how someone so sweet could say such BOLD things 😭

- he wears cargo shorts and blue t-shirts and vans and/or black converses

- A HUGE SZA FAN, has been since the release of CTRL and we all know he was there the moment SOS was released also because he was literally blowing up the groupchat with the countdown (GUYS 5 MINUTES GUYS 5 MINUTES) a week after the release he's already memorised almost all the songs

- he sometimes asks the most obvious questions that some of his classmates start laughing as a result 💀 jokes on them though they didn't ace the test like he did

- he just gives Charlie Kelmeckis energy

- he's the type of person to stutter when he's nervous so when he came to Kiri's house to meet their parents for the first time it took him 1 whole minute to say hello to Tuk who opened the door asking him if he was the doordash guy

- wouldn't be opposed to a night in as much as a night out

- he isn't exactly that well off but will pay for EVERYTHING he won't even let Ao'nung (whose father is a billonaire) pay for 2 fries and 2 sundaes at McDonald's

- really likes Spiderman (went as Miles Morales 2 years in a row, he only went a second year because Kiri thought it would be a good idea to play Spidergwen and you best believe they got a lot of candy)

- is the type to remember the littlest things about you

- very emotionally intelligent

- he tutors Kiri sometimes but those sessions always end up with them getting take out or watching poorly made hollywood films and laughing their asses off at the cringy dialogue and shit special effects

- he's in film club and the school newspaper column he loves writing and wants to work in a real film set one day

- with that in mind, when they were younger Rotxo produced plays with Tsireya and Ao'nung during family gatherings, they made all the props, asked Rotxo's grandma for help with costume design (of course they always get standing ovations)

- is an only child

- canonically a teacher's pet and Ao'nung makes fun of him for it

- GOLDEN RETRIEVER ENERGY THROUGH AND THROUGH

- the unluckiest luckiest son of a gun ever (got detention for dropping a weight on a girl's head, said girl gave him a kiss on the cheek when she left to go to the hospital, the script he'd been working on since middleschool got lost, immediately gets invited to a film set on a bigshot Hollywood movie for a day)

- surfs A LOT, not as much as ao'nung since he competes in surfing classics but Rotxo could if he wanted to (he has stage fright poor baby)

- is a peace maker - Duane Evans Jr.

- puts his hands over his ears when he's scared

- HAS LITERALLY NO SENSE OF DIRECTION, his first day in Pandora high he was 20 minutes late to all his subjects because he's always miles away from his classes, if his Chemistry class was in the the second floor jit'd be out in the football field asking Seniors where the chemistry classroom was and they'd purposefully give him the wrong directions making him another 20 minutes late and he literally just missed the entire Chemistry lesson 😭 you can give this boy a dozen compasses and he'd still be lost (Ao'nung actually did give him a compass for his 12th birthday before he realized that Rotxo did not know the difference between his East and his West)

- he can hold his breath for 3 minutes (imagine you're just relaxing on the beach and you see two 7 year old boys floating on the surface of the water)

- literally just unintentionally funny

- he's always been the friend that was almost NEVER allowed outside, if his grandma does allow him outside she only gives him an hour or so but Ao'nung has already used up like 15 minutes for begging so...

- animals love him, it's almost annoying really

- he says sorry to inanimate objects if he bumps into them

- HE NEVER SLEEPS, he's shit at time management too so he just crams extra credit assignments the night before it's due and ends up getting a 90% on them like it's witchcraft???

- sings songs out of nowhere like some broadway star

- parents and grandparents love him, (they once stole beers from Tonowari's mini fridge in their vacation house in Martha's Vineyard in Massachusets and Ronal caught them and Rotxo lied to her face when she asked them what they were doing in Tonowari's private study, he told her that they were throwing the beers out because the fridge was on the fritz again, which dosent seem so believebale granted they were two teenage boys but Ronal took one good look into Rotxo's puppy dog eyes and FELL FOR IT. They drank them on the rooftop that night while they watched the sunset (and scrambling down when Tsireya spots them halfway across the beach)

- braids Kiri's hair for them (they could literally be eating lunch together with the group and next thing she knows Rotxo's asking for a rubber band to tie her hair off)

- plays the pianoforte

- wears those puca shell necklaces and sometimes wears a sweatband to school (I know im describing Michael from Duckrockers but HUSH)

- used to always eat in the classroom of his favorite teacher who teaches AP Lit, that is until Ao'nung found out and invited him over to eat with him and his swim team friends, until they eventually just started eating on another table, Tsireya joined them as well because her friend group was getting a bit too tight iykyk (fake ass bitches) then Lo'ak started sitting there because he Tsireya started dating, then Lo'ak invited Kiri over because he had a bet going with Ao'nung that Kiri would be the first one to ask Rotxo to be their boyfriend, then Neteyam decided to eat with them too because someone had to ratio the absolute havoc these 4 wreak during lunch time (2 to 4 is better than 1 to 4, poor Reya)

PART 2! Finally got through to finishing Tsireya, Ao'nung, and Rotxo! I had sm fun doing these which ya'll can clearly tell given the amount of headcannons I wrote 😭 anyway, I might be writing more atwow fics in the future who knows honestly...

#avatar #avatar the way of water #tsireya #ao'nung #rotxo #metkayina #avatar modern au

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froody · 1 year

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YA isn’t very good. It’s a terrible grouping for a genre that can truly mean anything involving teen characters in any setting. BUT most popular YA is formulaic, repetitive, bland and incapable of reflecting any deeper experience belonging to young adults. I hated the genre when I was a teenager. I hate it now. I see a lot of it’s most ardent defenders and readers being people in their late 20s and early 30s and it is bizarre to me. I read Percy Jackson when I was in 4th grade and enjoyed that. I loved the works of S. E. Hinton and still do but beyond that, the YA genre was something I outgrew then I began to gain critical thinking skills and enjoy darker literature that more accurately reflected the things I experienced. I’m not interested in exploring the genre any further. I’ve shut that chapter in my life.

Maybe it’s because I wasn’t the average teen, I was mentally ill from a young age, autistic, had a less than stellar home life, knew I was transgender and bisexual from a young age and being physically disabled but I did not connect to the bookspopular with my peers nor did I really enjoy the shows and media franchises that were popular when I was a teen. This isn’t a “I’m better and cooler than everyone else” thing, I felt genuinely left out. It is so bizarre to me to see people choose to only consume media that is surface level, easily palatable and about the teenage experience when they are well into adulthood. So strange. Not that all YA fiction is like that but the shit I see grownass adult booktok-ers reading is usually shit in that vein.

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autistic-stedebonnet · 3 months

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i keep forgetting that i actually do know the entire plot of percy jackson and seeing gifs from the new episode i haven't had the chance to watch is not in fact spoilers because i literally read the book in 4th grade

#percy jackson #percy jackson show

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littlehideawaysblog · 3 months

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With creating this new blog about my progress in my faith and spirituality I figured an overview was in order.

Early Life:

I was raised in a protestant Christian household where my mom was protestant and my dad was catholic. My siblings and I were raised protestant. This was my only form of identity for many years leading to an existential crisis and breakdown when my newly developing sense of self collided with my preexisting persona.

The sign of the end:

In 4th grade I realized I was a boy and no one else could see me that way. Everyone else would only see a little girl. I did not have the language to describe the feeling so it stayed hidden until 6th grade when the terms gay, lesbian, and trans, finally made it into my perception. With the advent of new words and identities I labeled myself for the first time, transgender. However within the week I had lost so many of my ‘friends’. Being raised in a fundamentalist church means all of your friends are also your faith. So when I figured myself out they turned on me believing I was choosing to sin just to spite God. In that time I had lost the support of friends, family, and my church. This led to a mental health collapse and several inpatient stays.

While in ward during one such stay I met a girl who was a hellenistic polytheist. I had some passing interest in the hellenistic pantheon and so we became friends. I began to research the greek and norse pantheons however due to restrictive homelife and a volatile environment I was not open about practicing or researching.

“Theistic Satanism”:

At some point in the 8th or 9th grade I stumbled upon a website that had been recommended through a tumblr page at that time. The website was, Joys of Satan. I need to take the time here to state. I was unaware of their shitty behavior and racism back then. I would not recommend going to their page for information as much of it is tainted by their background in racism.

I took a quick interest into what I would call Theistic Satanism. I devoted quite a lot of time towards reading any texts I could get a hold of. I would not say I’ve been practicing all these years, instead I’d say I’ve been learning all these years.

Around a year into that interest I hit my first major roadblock. My mother found my journal that had slowly become more of a book of shadows for me. She felt it was her job to keep me from ‘sinning’ in her house and threw everything that could even be remotely related out. No more scented or unscented candles, no incense, no personal journal. She combed through my sketchbooks and school notebooks removing anything she though was ‘devil worship’ For a few months this went so far as to ban both the Harry Potter books and the Percy Jackson books. I'd continue to read and learn in secret, this time extra careful to not be caught.

My first patron:

Late 9th grade I began going out with an older guy. My first real relationship. I honestly thought I loved him, and maybe I did but in the end he wasn’t healthy for me. I will not go into details of what all occurred however long story very short, I needed out he wouldn’t let me leave. I didn’t feel strong enough to leave, because if I did, who would love me?

During this time I would have vivid disturbing nightmares about him and things he had done. In several of these nightmares they’d be interrupted by a masculine force, though I was not able to place who or what it was. On occasion that feeling would return to me in the waking world as well. I decided to slowly brute force figuring out who or what the feeling was. So name by name I went. Starting with the Greeks, then Romans, then Norse. Eventually making it to the Goetics and finally to Glasya-Labolas to which I felt incredibly strong towards.

I do not know for certain why or how that had ended up but I became very grateful to him for his presence. One evening I finally had enough. We had been working on self sufficiency and getting past the need to be loved, and useful. That my worth was not tied to how useful I was to someone else. I believe he helped me realize I was allowed to say no and leave instead of saying no but staying because I didn’t want to make him mad.

Soon after leaving that situation I stopped feeling the presence altogether, I grew up and moved on.

Throughout high school I continued to try to find reading materials on demons however due to a hawkeyed mom I had to be very careful. I decided senior year that when I moved to college I wouldn’t need to hide my study so much and I’d finally be free to really learn. I was both right and wrong. University libraries gave me access to book loan systems that could get me new books on the topic but my dorm mate would intentionally play loud christian music when I would meditate. Win and lose some I guess.

By the end of that first year of college I had learned of a new name to call the faith I had been working through, Demonolatry. Under the new name I had so many more books to read and authors to look up. Though I began to feel dejected, I was angry with the early highschool version of myself for not maintaining the work I had been doing with Glasya-Labolas. I decided to reach out again, to no response. For a few months I gave up. Summer was back, It meant I was back in my parent’s house and their watchful eyes.

Returning to school I decided to try again. My new roommate was fine with the idea of paganism but was afraid of demonolatry. Which I believe is fair considering her catholic upbringing.

At some point in this time I began to reach out more broadly to anyone who was willing to work with me in order to help guide my studies. For a while I felt nothing, in fact for a whole year. By junior year of college I finally felt it, well smelled it. A sudden intense cinnamon scent. This meant absolutely nothing to me. Once Again as my high schooler self did before, brute force.

This eventually led me to King Paimon and a lot of things started to make sense. I am still working with King Paimon as of this time however I have reached out to others as in my personal beliefs working with a demon does not need to always be this major lifetime commitment of monogamy.

I’m happy to answer questions about my personal experience but because I am still figuring out my own beliefs I will warn you to take answers about faiths with a grain of salt.

I've been learning about forms of demonolatry for about 8 years though I’ve only really been practicing for about 1.5 years.

Your faith and practice are going to be different from other peoples. I think that is the most important thing to learn, no one needs to understand your faith but you and the beings you work with.

#demonolatry #paganism #pagan #theistic luciferianism #luciferianism #luciferianist #glasyalabolas #king paimon #demonology #theistic satanism #satanism

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chic-beyond-the-wall · 4 months

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So five things i love

1. Anything orange flavored, oranges are of course at the top of this list but i also love orange creamsicles, orange cream milk, orange candy canes, chocolate oranges, orange chicken, marmalade, orange juice...basically anything with oranges.

2. I love the smell of rain, specifically if there's a storm brewing. I have a horrible sense of smell and the rain is one of the few things i can smell and it's one of my favorites.

3. I love reading. Anything fantasy and fiction really. I used to absolutely hate reading and then my 4th grade English teacher sat me down with Blood on the River Jamestown 1607 & George Washington's Socks and i swear my life changed, especially when i branched out from historical fiction and started reading things like Harry Potter, Percy Jackson and Lord of the Rings.

4. I love making OCs its one of my favorite pass times, which is why i have so many, like im pretty sure 15 y/o me made over 100 mlp characters. Here recently my i've been obsessed with my ASOIAF OCs they're just so fun to work on!

5. I love playing video games. Im absolutely horrible at them but i love them. Dead by Daylight, Bioshock, any of the Assassins Creed games, Breath of the Wild, Tears of the Kingdom, Genshin Impact, The Sims, and Animal Crossing are my favorites

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eggs-love-loki · 4 months

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Sometimes I forget that I’m younger than 90% of my coworkers by 1 or 2 decades and my experiences aren’t universal cause my coworkers were talking about reading Percy Jackson to their students and I was like “Oh my god I love Percy Jackson!!!! I can’t wait for the new Disney series!” and they looked at me like 🤨 and I was like 🫥

Cause sorry, I forgot you were talking from the “I’m a 4th grade teacher reading a book with my class” perspective while I was answering from the “I am a person who read Percy Jackson as a child and have grown up loving the series and characters as they grew with me” perspective and we did not line up in enthusiasm from those perspectives

#I read Percy Jackson before I was in fourth grade but my fourth grade class read it as a class as well #in terms of life experience I’m pretty much a child to my coworkers #there’s literally one other coworker who is young and doesn’t have kids #I’ve literally aged with Percy since I read the first book when I was a little younger than 12 and the later series #with him as a teen and young adult have come out when I was a teen and young adult #like we grew up together let me be excited to hear our students may have that joy #also let me be excited we’re finally getting a (so far) good adaptation of a beloved childhood book #cause last childhood book I saw Disney adapt was fucking Artemis fowl and that has deeply wounded me

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pardon-my-scifi · 4 months

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Gods. I was Percy. I was just diagnosed with ADHD in 2005 when the first book came out. Everyone was telling me I can't use it as a crutch and I need to do better, while not giving me the tools to do better. And not to mention the undiagnosed Autism. (That wouldn't be discovered until college.) My teachers ignored me and saw me as a lost cause, I was bullied and had no friends. I had an abusive step parent. My dad was MIA most of the time. My mom worked herself to the bone and we were always a missed paycheck away from sleeping in the car. Then my 4th grade teacher read us Percy Jackson and the Lightening Thief (again, in 2005). It was the original cover. I remember looking at the monsters coming out of the lightening bolt and thinking "Maybe I'm a demigod. I could fight those." I asked the teacher where I could get the next book and was heart broken when I discovered there wasn't one yet. A few years later, my mom surprised me with the first and second book. I then carried that book with me for a decade. Read it at least once a year. Usually more. I had it with me every time I had to be near my step mother. Carried it with me through all my initial Turner Syndrome doctor visits. My first year of college when my mental health was complete shit. I still keep it by my bed. I still read it at least once a year. Even 18 years later. Watching these episodes felt like coming home. Percy was my first real friend and was the first voice I heard that said I was more than a weird brain or a lost cause. So, thank you, Uncle Rick. For Percy, for the books, for the tv show, for everything. And Haley. For hearing the story first.

#percy jackson #percy jackson tv show #sorry about the sap #emotions are high #I just love this series so much

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//Anything relating to rice or pasta. I love a good sushi and ramen restaurant.

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//1. I'm currently working as a special education teacher's assistant for two years now, which is why my involvement with roleplaying has gone down as the job takes a lot out of me both physically and emotionally.

2. I have several learning disabilities myself, including: ADHD, dyslexia, and when I was younger I was diagnosed with Asperger's.

3. I wasn't able to properly read until the 4th grade, but the first book I read from cover to cover within a week was "Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief." which kick started my love for reading....even to the point of me being written up in high-school for reading too much in class.

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samanddeanloveeachothersomuch · 2 years

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Opinion #19 (This is a little more of a personal post)

I want to warn everyone ahead of time that this is a little different than my other posts. This is a little more personal. Supernatural made me think more about this which is where the Supernatural part of this came from, but it is mostly more personal about me possibly being ace and aro. If you don't want to read this that is okay. I want to write this for myself more than anything as I feel good when I get to type stuff out. Since this is my own personal blog I felt this was a good place to write it and I do believe I may have one follower who is familiar with this since I have seen stuff about asexuality on their blog. Please be kind in any comments you may write. I hope everyone has a wonderful day no matter if you read this or not.

I am only 15 years old, but I believe I might be both aro and ace. I know I'm not too young to question stuff like this because other people question if they are gay, trans, etc. at the same age or even younger. My cousin has a boyfriend and she is two years younger than I am. People in my high school have boyfriends or girlfriends. I don't want one. The last time I had a crush I was in 4th grade and I'm not sure if that really counts because I was 10. The last time I had a "boyfriend" I was in second grade. Around 12 years old I told my mom I never wanted to have kids or get married. This hasn't changed since. I plan on living alone becoming a vet and taking care of tons of animals and that sounds like a perfect lifestyle to me. I never want to have a boyfriend either. I never look at a celebrity and think they are hot. Even my grandmother thinks celebrities are hot. I don't understand the appeal of sex at all. I will read a book with a sex scene in it because it is in a book I want to read like Stephen King's It for example but I will never read books solely about romance. I get so annoyed because romance is in like every book ever even if the genre is something I like. I've found a couple of teen books without it but it is really hard. Even my favorite books have it although as long as I am not hit in the face with it I'm okay. I love Percy Jackson and Harry Potter. I read the Hunger Games and Divergent when I was younger and I will probably never read those books again because of how focused on romance those books really are. I would love a Hunger Games where the book was more focused on Prim and Katniss who are sisters.

This brings me to my thing about Supernatural and how this post relates to the show. Supernatural showed me that you could have a platonic relationship be the most important thing in your life. Sam and Dean are platonic soulmates and by my understanding of the term, they are queerplatonic life partners as well since if Dean had lived they would have stayed in the bunker. That is personally how I pictured that kind of relationship but I'm still learning so correct me if I am wrong if anyone who is reading this is more knowledgeable. Every romantic relationship on Supernatural seems to end badly in one way or another and the focus is never on a romantic relationship. Never. Considering how hard it is for me to get away from romance this is extremely refreshing. Supernatural was the show that made me do research to see if I'm aro and ace and I will forever be thankful to the show for its focus on Sam and Dean as brothers.

Thank you to anyone who read this pretty long post. I know it was kinda personal and like I said at the top this was mostly so I could type my thoughts out and see them. I am still learning. If I am being disrespectful to anyone tell me and I will fix it. That is not my intention. If anyone reading this is aro or ace and can tell me if it sounds like it fits ( I'm about 85% sure it fits but I'm still learning like I said) please let me know. I would love to talk to anyone who is personally aro or ace. Thank you.

#possibly aromantic and asexual #aromanticism #asexualism #queerplatonic partners sam and dean wincester #thank you Supernatural for focusing on platonic and familial love

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nat-without-a-g · 1 year

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When I was little I was really into reading and books and stuff, right? And around 4th to 5th grade, I got into Percy Jackson and the Olympians (I can not tell you when I started it but I know Son of Neptune was out when I was in 4th and I had to wait for House of Hades. The cliffhanger….). Anyways. I was a kid who struggled in a lot of subjects but exceeded in a lot of other stuff, so I really wanted to be known as smart. I really liked the concept of the Athena cabin and a lot of Annabeth’s character lowkey because of it. This is not going where you think it’s going.

So, I got really into Greek myths as well, I started reading about the mythology and how different things were supposed to have happened and where Rick was inaccurate. I was really good at memorizing every single aspect of the things I was interested in and consumed myths like it was candy— Learned about the more depressing or bloody aspects of the stories early on and worked backwards from there tbh. Because I liked the “smart person” and “wise” stuff, I went heck yeah I’d be a child of Athena and never looked back, that got doubled when I realized Minerva was in-part the goddess of crafts (mostly weaving), because I loved art. This is still not going where you might think it’s going.

Athena has a plethora of things in the world associated with her, right? Since she was negatively associated with spiders and snakes, I faked being afraid of both of them so my friends would agree with me on the child of Athena front (it’s really easy to fake being afraid tbh. I once pretended I was afraid of palm trees and my entire family believed that was real for years). I clung onto how my hair used to be blond, I checked my eyes for any signs of gray (they are hazel, almost the opposite of gray), and I was motivated to go out of my way to make people think I was smart (at least I was a “joy to have in the classroom”). We’re still not there yet I’m so sorry

Now. Owls. BIG sign of Athena. For some reason I never got obsessed with olives, but I was Big into Owls and everything about them. Cited them as my favorite bird for years, went out of my way to learn owl facts, saved pictures of them, all that good stuff. Because of that, I also got Really into any brand that included an owl in its logo, which wasn’t actually a lot (hi Duolingo). I was warned about the dangers of the internet a million times and didn’t get a phone until I was in middle school, so I didn’t google things often, most the information I got was from books and stuff (I barely knew looking things up any time I wanted was an OPTION even AFTER i got a phone)… So at some point in my life when I was in this mindset, every so often (very frequently if I remember right) we’d drive either past or through a city. And every time I could, I pointed out the Hooters sign and go “Can We Eat There?” And no one ever explained why they kept saying no. When we moved I actually said to my mom that I was disappointed I never got to eat there the last time we passed it.

See, I have to clarify because if I tell this story to people who don’t know this, the first assumption will be that I wanted to eat there because I was gay (because I am gay and am very vocal about it) and wanted to be a womanizer for an hour on a Tuesday. No, I just thought the restaurant was based entirely around owls and I liked owls because I wanted to be a child of Athena and I wanted to be a child of Athena because I valued intellect over all else.

I have still never been inside a Hooters.

… Oh my God i was surprised when I found out it wasn’t a country owl-themed fast food restaurant.

#Nat Lore #long post #fun fact my current campus’s old logo was an owl #i swear that’s not why I chose to go there

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