#from the chaos of my mind

[perplexingluciddreams]

It is a strange feeling to be an older sibling, yet be so "behind" your younger sibling in every way.

My sister and I are only two years apart, so the developmental gap between us was smaller when we were younger. But it seemed to keep growing larger and larger with every passing year. (And became even more exaggerated with my regression).

I always wished to be the older, grown up, responsible one. I just can't, I have never been able to. I sometimes feel like an awful brother for being unable to be the "big sibling".

I have more feelings on this, but not enough words. It's just something I have thought about a lot lately.

#from the chaos of my mind #i feel so anxious about posting an 'unfinished' thought... #autism #autistic #developmental disabilities #siblings #autism regression

[ingoodjesst]

have you put the pieces together yet, detective

#goro akechi #akechi goro #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #p5 akechi #p5 spoilers #persona 5 fanart #jesst some art #i may have worked on this for... just under two weeks? i had like. so many fckgin thoughts i might make a process/concept breakdown post #it's honestly just for my own peace (haha piece) of mind because i overthought about. SosoooOoOo many motifs and symbols and i just wanna #idk PUT EM ALL somewhere........ maybe it'll become its own jessay of mine. god. who can say. #also DUDE tumblr rly does crunch up quality wow ouch #unironically a core thematic inspiration for this piece is a quote from the folding ideas' video 'the nostalgia critic and the wall' #'it doesn't all make sense or resolve or coalesce because we don't all make sense' #'everyone is the illusion of order constructed brick by brick out of chaos' #i've watched that video essay through at least. a dozen times at this point. everything about it. yeah. it's good. #this piece initially went many different directions and i have realized ah yes to fully explore just THESE themes that i'm interested in as #they relate to goro akechi i will need to draw. at least two more pieces. sdlfhsdlkfjsd

[mayuurx]

This seems fitting

#art #digital art #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #cj heart #cj soul #cj whole #take my pen away from me pleas-

[itsnotjustgibberish]

#chonny jash #Chonny Jash fanart #Chonny Jash meme #chonny’s charming chaos compendium #cccc hms #cccc #cj heart #cj mind #cj soul #cccc heart #cccc mind #cccc soul #chonny rambles #chonny jash ramblings #art #itsnotjustgibberish #cringle jimble from my songs #sparkle on its wednesday #sparkle on

[jaggybotexe]

chonny when he’s charming or something idk (RAHHHH I LOVE CHONNY JASH I WISH AUSTRALIANS WERE REAL‼️‼️‼️)

#another reupload from insta but i will have something new soon i swear (it will be chonny jash related) #i like tumblr so far im just shy w posting n reblogging stuff but i will do my best to get better w it #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cj heart #cj mind #cj soul #chonny jash fanart #soul has his ears covered bc heart and mind know he doesn’t wanna hear their arguing #mind has his mouth covered his voice being the most iconic and distinguishable part of him #and heart has his eyes covered bc mind and soul are fucking assholes. the mfs already blind what more do you want from him #jaggy posts

[dontpercievemeplease]

Lil whiteboard thing of Tycho (Heart), Jupiter (Mind), and Terra (Whole)! I wanted to be silly with my guys (pro tip don’t try this on whiteboard, if you accidentally erase it’s hell)

Also have silly doodles under the cut so I don’t spam the cccc tag lmao. There’s a lot of Saturn- sorry he’s just so silly to do on whitboards

#chonny jash #cccc #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj heart #cj mind #cj soul #cj whole #my silly guys #I have a thread in the CJFS if anyone is interested #a lot of the Darrell doodles were suggestions from Sky :D #I love them can’t you tell? #they are brothers your honor

[shepards-folly]

shout out to the fellas who can’t help but assume everyone is mad at them if they even sound slightly upset (it’s me i’m the fellas)

#shep arts #chonnys charming chaos compendium #chonny jash #cj mind #cj heart #cj soul #posts from the queue #havent drawn in a bit so we’re easing into it with stupid shit lol #sorry i disappeared for forever btw I was hit by art block pretty hard :/ #they’re all still plain greys btw i just used some color overlays so heart and mind would stand out from eachother since there’s no shading #any other differences from old art of them is just uh becuz i literally cannot have one set design for any character ever #anyway i thought itd be fun to distinguish what they were saying in more ways then just color so yeahh #mind is all caps. heart is all lowercase. and uh soul is normal except his e’s are always capitalized #thought itd be funny to do that cause it looks like trident :]c #i would've taken it one step further and made Soul's e's look like -E but then my friend reminded me that feferi existed... #didn't want to steal from her typing quirk lol + i would totally forget to make em -E so i settled for just making em capitalized

[masadd]

is this an omori AND a chonny jash referenc e ??)!!

[gun warning beneath the cut]

#chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #cj heart #omori #my art #i didnt draw the background btw #its straight from the basil fight HELP

[explodingstarlight]

"who gave this child coffee?? WHO GAVE THIS CHILD COFFEE?!??" my reblogs cry

it was me, i'm not sorry >:)c

*taps microphone* yes, thank you for tuning in 😌✨ now go follow the creator of the Alpha Stage/de-aged!Donnie AU, @snailsnaps and consume their content (not literally /j)

#said with the most /lh of tone #but also no i will not repent 😌 #my extended family thought that giving coffee to my 6-year-old self was a good idea and now i can fight god /lh /j #look me in the eyes and tell me that you truly think you could keep a de-aged donnie away from coffee #im waiting 🤨 #all this to say tho- snailsnaps is the god of the de-aged donnie AU so only they can reveal his coffee consumption status #thank you for letting me play in this AU's sandbox :) #gremlin turtle tots with a sprinkle of angst hits just right #i just want to invite chaos is that such a crime guys??? 😩🖐️ /lh #oh! in case you don't have the brand: deathwish coffee is a brand of coffee with a very high caffeine content in the USA #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #turtle tot donnie #turtle tots #also works for de-aged donnie #i had him in mind while doodling #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt fanart #my art #explodingstar art #phone doodles #rise donnie #tmnt donatello #back on my #alphastage rise #BS /affectionate #de aged donnie

[purpleleafsyt]

From my fic, Inclarity :>

#purplearts #chonny jash #cccc #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj soul #cj mind #cjshipping #cw shipping #supernova #<- the reason I'm adding those is #1. the fic itself is up to interpretation/is vague about their relationship/is qpr adjacent #and 2. this was for a supernova event organized by. me on Twitter!! mind/soul day ;> #based on the eclipse day!! #bloodmoon is the 27th so expect something from me then :D #anyways. ive always wanted to draw scenes from my own fics #because who else is going to do it smh smh #plus it's really cool to see my writing turned to life through my own creation yknow #i might do other scenes too like LUVTH and BTNYCI have some good drawable moments in them

[maybedr3am]

Juno was mad, he knew he'd been had.

But he forgot that he had no aim

I KNOW IT'S SOMETHING HARD TO UNDERSTAND CUZ, THERE IS NO LINEART, IM SORRY??????

#From the gallows #That is my favorite song tbh #chonny jash #idkhbtfm #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cccc #cj heart #cj mind #cj soul #art #digital art #comic

[perplexingluciddreams]

When I was younger, the concept that other people could have different interests to me was completely baffling.

"What do you mean, you don't even know what Merlin is?? How do you not know what a clarinet looks or sounds like?!"

"And what on earth could you like if you don't like the most perfect things in the world, the things that make everything else feel safer and make a tiny bit more sense?!? How could anyone like anything other than my own interests!?!"

I used to wonder why so many things even existed, they seemed to have no purpose to me if I was not personally interested in them.

#from the chaos of my mind #theory of mind #special interest #special interests #bbc merlin #merlin #clarinet #autism #autistic

[captainhowdie]

just some bedmans lol

#from the homepage #and my mind #guilty gear #bedman #and other things #delilah #happy chaos

[sneeb-canons]

Headcanon #500:

Mind is afraid that when he distances himself from or above the others, that he will be too far gone to come back down. That when his paranoia gets the best of him, he'll shut everyone else out and then be completely alone with no way back to where he was before.

Heart is afraid that if Mind is right, with the idea that what he does isn't genuine, that he's being manipulative without realizing it. Then therefore being Whole without himself there is the better option. That he'd be thrown out because his ideas would then be "not worth it" or even "vile"

Soul is afraid that no matter what he does or how good things will be, they'll always eventually split up again or even end up worse. Even then he has no clue what he's supposed to do or be during everything, and so because of that he'll never be whole. Or worse that he'll never really "feel" whole.

#kiiiiiiiinda just saying what is a bit talked about in the album but eh #i like this #fun fact: i made this & saved it as a draft back when it was just barley over 100 #finally being posted at 500 #wanting to post my own at each hundred mark cos why not #i say that but there's only one more submission in the queue atm soooo #send me your headcanons now to make my own ideas for special occasions get it like special hahaha [please send more i only have so many] #[idk what to do after I run out help] #haha anyway #next are my old tags from when i first made this post #cj soul #cj mind #cj heart #chonny jash #wow did KJ just attempt to make an angst headcanon? never thought that would happen #anyways idk how much this makes sense but eh it works #if theres anything to get from this or how my ideas with them work #mind can be overly paranoid. heart can be too protective of himself. and those idea make them believe the other has it out for them #soul has no idea how to really deal with that let alone what he's supposed to be #or something along those lines #idk its 5am man idk what im talking about #i need to go to bed pfft #chonnys charming chaos compendium

[itsnotjustgibberish]

The Death of Jashius Chaesar

Happy Ides of March!

Featuring (left to right): @artofdansan, Whole, WWPH, Chonny, Mind, Kairos/the before., Heart, THDPH, Soul. As well as The Narrator/Mathias, and 20XX in the back

#Chonny Jash #chonny jash fanart #cccc hms #cj hms #cj whole #cj mind #cj heart #cj soul #chonny’s charming chaos compendium #cj tb. #cj the before #cj kairos #will wood power hour #cj wwph #that handsome devil power hour #cj thdph #gwtnlh #cj gw #cj mathias #cj narrator #cj 20xx #ides of march #itsnotjustgibberish #art #the anarchy anthology #cringle jimble from my songs #might color this eventually #also drawing over old paintings is so fun I should do this more

[aria0fgold]

Finally done with my version of The Universe's design!

#ariart #isat #isat spoilers #the creechur... btw the stuff written on their back veil are lyrics (chaos version) to fleeting words and beautiful song #they have a mouth. but itd be best for em not to use that. i like to think that the Universe communicates via telepathy #cuz if they use their own mouth itd be like an absolute order that cant be broken (like how wishes are granted via wish craft) #the rest of their body is meant like-- a tree trunk. cuz world tree and all that! also favour tree! #hollow stomach with a single floating star aaannd the lower part of the back veil is meant to be a butterfly when whole #yes those are two faces as well. drawing the lines for that nearly made me lose my mind a lil. the angle was painful... #it aint as obvious but the stars (egg and rectangle specifically) dangling on the front veil is morse code for i love you #also in a way the reason why i decided to make their middle pair of hands in that form is that inside their palm is the country #north of vaugarde. so its like theyre holding the country protectively. a star formed to keep anyone from lookin in!