#full on like mental breakdown wtf

[myheartxmyman]

Hätte ich die Wahl zwischen vergewaltigt werden, dafür aber alles ab Silvester nicht so abgelaufen wäre wie es ist. Oder nie wieder vergewaltigt werden, und die Realität wäre weiterhin die Realität, dann würde ich ohne zu zögern Option eins wählen.

preferred. If you wanted to spend new years eve with me you would have taken this 10 minutes drive .. I mean you were able to drive 9 times longer in the other direction. The other proof that "wish I would be with you on the tower like last year' wasn't the truth is, that you booked that flight. If what you wrote would have been the truth you should have been like 'I want to be with her. Now I am with my mates and over one hour drive away from her. I should at least spend the 1th of January with her. Celebrating our own new years eve like we did the year before.' Instead you booked a flight. YOU BOOKED A FUCKING FLIGHT. That alone broke my heart because I waited and waited and waited and hoped again and again and again. Instead of spending my father's money on trips/vacations/traveling/exploring I LITERALLY SPENT IT ON SHIT. Because people have to eat, while waiting for things that are never gonna happen. And then, out of nowhere YOU BOOK A FUCKING FLIGHT. And what really shattered my being, my trust in you, what ripped my heart out, what nearly cut our already damaged bond completely through was the LOCATION you went to. You lied by saying 'that's a coincidence it was the cheapest flight', and you really brought the fucking Robin thing GETTING MY HOPES UP THAT YOU ARE GONNA STAY, and then left nevertheless. You KNEW, you did it aswell. I would have given you those 500€ without hesitation, but I had no worth at all for you. And I begged, I tried to find a compromise, it didn't matter to you. I didn't matter. You decided what you wanna do like living a single life. Your behavior had ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH A RELATIONSHIP. I can't understand how you were able to hurt me that bad. How the fucking hell could you do to me what you did?! And sadly it wasn't the first time I had that awful thought in mind. Sometimes you are the CRULEST person I ever met. How just how?!?! You enjoyed yourself, having a good time sitting in the sand, in the warmth, listening to the sound of the ocean, watching a sunset with another girl right next to you. Just thinking about this makes my insides cringe in agony and tremendous pain. And said girl 'she's just a friend of Aman', was always right by your side. Leg pressed on leg. Her leg was pressed to yours not to Amans leg who was sitting on the right side next to her. On your esplanade stroll or whatever it was you were walking closest to her, directly behind her, looking happy like you were living your best life. At the same time I had one breakdown after the other. Because I was stupid enough to trust you. I trusted you completely and you smashed it. I saw the way you were looking at her and I know your behavior good enough to see some things. You did quite a lot of things those last months that hurt me badly, but your 'Männertrip' killed something inside of me and I can't look at you the same.

#still devastated #so many painful things happened in one week #I had a complete mental breakdown #I am still shocked #it hurts and hurts and hurts #I wrote you everything what I am thinking about our relationship #I opened myself completely #I also wrote I would take a flight the following day #you left me on read #for hours while being awake #having a good time #celebrating life and holidays #the person that says of himself 'I don't need that I don't have the urge to go away' #when you finally answered it was one sentence #just a few words #saying something like ' I slept that long' #do you think I am stupid? I was on read for hours.. And when you finally decided to write roughly ~six words you didn't thought of reading #my messages #you totally ignored EVERYTHING #so i deleted it #and I should finally take the step and delete whatever this is that's left of us #how could you behave that cruel? #and once again it were those 500 dinero #I remember asking Philip 'when are we gonna have one full day for us?...' so if I sell my body to some man and earn 500bucks you would take #a day off? ' and he was like' yes' #then you came around and I wasn't worth 500€ to you #you knew you were killing me with your decision #you triggered me in so so many ways #out of nowhere 'I am flying to *****' wtf?!?! #we didn't spend new years eve together because you were once again writing one thing not even half heartedly but showed what you really

[franini]

DAEINA CONQUERING HER BOYPHOBIA LESSGOOOOO

#m so proud of you #it feels like just yesterday when you were having a mental breakdown about interacting or even inhaling the same air as boys and now here y #having a full on conversation with one #*insert proud emoji* #wtf even is a proud emoji #basta yung umiiyak na may tissue #little lad daeina adventures

[yzy-dragon]

I absolutely ADORED S2E9 "Three Stories" of Link Click and was a bit surprised to see the discontent here on Tumblr, and I totally understand the reasons why people didn't like it, especially in the context of the pacing of the rest of S2 (which I also have some opinions on but I won't talk about that here), but I also felt the need to just get my heart out why I love it so much. A bit of background, I'm Chinese American but have lived in and visited China numerous times.

Music and theater. As a western classical musician and an amateur Chinese opera singer enthusiast (I saw someone else post about the possible inspo this episode got from Chinese opera), I VIBED with the artistic direction of this episode SO much. The three-part structure was almost like a sonata/symphony (and remember that one scene where Qian Jin was air-conducting in a previous episode!!) or scene changes in a Chinese opera. Nothing needs to be said about the animation style that hasn't been said already, but I like how scenes from the three individual "stories" were interwoven and reused like leitmotifs. Especially that crazy, tortured laughter. Idk if any of the parallels were intentional on the part of the director, but it's what I got from it due to my personal experiences. I know that's a highly subjective takeaway though, which brings me to my next point....

Qian Jin's "tragic" backstory. I know a lot of people were upset that the extent of Qian Jin's tragic backstory was "oh his wife cheated on him", but I think the "basicness" of his struggles was the whole point (by the way, this segment displayed various attitudes towards work, family, marriage, individual pride, and life in mainland China so subtly but so well!). I also don't think sympathy was the main thing we were supposed to feel for him, although of course there is some. The whole "tragicomedy" aspect of Qian Jin's story is that it's not some horrible, terrible, rare thing that happened to him, but a common problem faced by so many hardworking but busy married men trying to provide for their families: infidelity. But Qian Jin sees himself as the main character of an elaborate play that rivals the great dramatic classics (which, funnily enough, often depicted very DRAMATIZED versions of a rather basic series of events). And his viewpoint is validated when....

Qian Jin meets the twins. That segment is still largely from Qian Jin's perspective, because we still don't really know how LTC and LTX even feel about him. But for Qian Jin, it's a stroke of fate and fortune that could only possibly happen in theater. He's very far removed from reality at this point. Reality is that a cop whose job it is to investigate violent crime comes across two kids who are the victims of a violent crime. Again, nothing particularly special or even coincidential. It's comical like that.

The fairy tale section.  Unlike the first two, I think this segment is from Xixi’s perspective, which not only justifies the cartoony artstyle but also makes it heartbreaking, due to her childlike innocence.  Like Qian Jin, she also perceives her reality as something it’s not, but unlike him, she doesn’t have delusions of grandeur of being a tragic protagonist.  It’s just a little fox trying to survive in a forest full of predators and hunters.  

All that tortured laughter. I’ve actually noticed in a lot of Chinese media that they like to use laughter as a way of signifying a person’s complete mental breakdown due to the tragedies they’ve suffered.  It’s a very internal thing that has people on the outside going, “WTF?”  In this episode we have a lot of characters crazily laughing together at the same time and it seems like they’re relating to each other, but in reality they’re all trapped in their own nightmarish hells and motivated by selfish purposes. 

Back to the topic of Qian Jin, even though he (innaccurately) may see himself as the hero of his own story, it's not enough for him. He wants to use Cheng Xiaoshi to change the past. He wants to become the director of the play.

I know a lot of people were disappointed this episode didn't advance the plot, especially in regard to Cheng Xioashi and Lu Guang's storylines, but I was actually prepared for a backstory episode and couldn't have been more satisfied. Again, I have other opinions on the rest of S2 but at least standalone, I think this episode was nearly perfect. And I really wasn't expecting this, but it's really elevated Qian Jin to one of my top characters.

#link click #shiguang daili ren #long post #link click season 2 #qian jin #li tianchen #li tianxi #cheng xiaoshi #lu guang #most artistic episode #I stan!

[shigayokagayama]

ritsu silly moments compilation

- getting up in the middle of the night to try to bend water because maybe, just maybe, this time he’ll randomly unlock his psychic powers

- having a mental breakdown in the middle of crossing the street and having a bunch of flashbacks while unlocking his joker arc but all the flashbacks are just people telling him how cool and smart he is

- getting a card with an address from a random stranger who knows his (brother’s) full name and address somehow telling him he’ll help him unlock his psychic powers, showing up to that location, it being normal ass apartment buildings, and instead of being like “oh im about to be kidnapped i need to get the fuck out of here” hes just like “wtf this isnt a lab this is an apartment complex you lied to me >:(”

- getting so stressed out about helping frame some kid for licking girls recorders that he actually unlocks his psychic powers

- meeting an evil spirit who claims he can help him control his psychic powers if he lets him posses him and going “sure, why not, seems legit” when the spirit is literally planning to take his body and not give it back

- threatening to fold a guys car in half for no fucking reason

- just going around beating the shit out of random middle school delinquents to. idk. grind for exp?

- meeting a kid with a giant wig and thinking that his brain is huge

- being confronted by his older brother and blasting him backwards with psychic powers then going “damn i missed :/” like what were you trying to do??? kill him???????

- being like “i HATE you nii-san >:( you mean NOTHING to me >:(” until he watches mob get the shit beat out of him then going “wait no i didnt mean it :(”

- seeing some guy picking on his older brother and trying to strangle him TO DEATH???

- some kid he met once while he was kidnapped by terrorists (who beat him into unconsciousness then sent an old man to the core of the earth) showing up at his door and trying to convince his parents they just won a free spa trip and just going with it for the bit i guess

- being so annoyed with reigen that he just lets an evil spirit bite him to get out of being dragged to future exorcism jobs

- standing on top of a roof surveying the ruined city created by his brothers emotional meltdown and saying “this is overkill”

#theres definitely more but these are just the ones i can think of #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #ritsu kageyama

[chaoschaos1]

Initial breakdown over, now it’s time to start bouncing off the fucking walls.

(incredibly incoherent and long rant incoming lmao)

FIRST OF ALL. THE UNDERWORLD. JAY WHAT, IN THE NICEST WAY POSSIBLE, THE FUCK??

I WAS EXPECTING POLITES. AND IT STILL HAD ME ON THE VERGE OF A BREAKDOWN. YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO ME JAY YOU CAN’T HIT ME WITH THE OPEN ARMS CHORUS WITH SO MUCH ECHO TO IT THAT IT SOUNDS EMPTY. POLITES IS THE LAST MF THAT SHOULD SOUND EMPTY STOP IT.

THEN YOU HIT ME WITH ANTICLEA? THE WAITING MOTIF WITH PENELOPE?? THE LITTLE “mum?” FROM ODY STOPPP. “I'M RIGHT HERE, MUM, CAN'T YOU SEE”??!?!? Jay. Sir you already broke my heart you didn't need to blend it as well wtf??

“I took too long” POLITES GET OVER HERE YOUR BESTIE NEEDS A HUG. LIKE BADLY.

AND THEN THE LAST CHORUS??? THE YELLING??? THE EMOTION???? JAY IS YOUR VOICE OKAY?? MY DUDE. MY PAL. MY GOOD FRIEND. WHAT.

AND THEN NO LONGER YOU?? BRO. BRO YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO MEEE. MASON ABSOLUTELY FUCKING KILLED IT. THOSE HIGH NOTES?? BRO IM LITERALLY A GIRL WITH A FAIRLY HIGH RANGE AND I CAN'T HIT THOSE WITHOUT GOING SQUEAKY??? LIKE DUDE BRAV-THE-FUCK-O

THEN THE “WHO”. JAY I WOULD LIKE TO REPEAT IS YOUR VOICE OKAY??? I'VE HAD THIS SHIT ON LOOP FOR HOURS NOW AND IT ALWAYS CATCHES ME OFF GUARD BECAUSE OF HOW ENRAGED IT SOUNDS??

AND MONSTER. HOOOO BOY MONSTER. YEOWCHIES. YIKES FOREVER. MMM NOTHANKYOU. OKAY FIRST OFF THAT FIRST NOTE REMINDED ME SO MUCH OF HORSE AND THE INFANT AND FRANKLY I’M NOT OKAY.

CAN WE JUST TALK ABT HOW. JUST. EMPTY IT SOUNDS?? BROO. BROOOO. THIS IS A FEDERAL OFFENCE. THIS LEVEL OF EMOTIONAL BLUDGEONING SHOULD BE ILLEGAL.

“I’ll become the monster” [intermission starts] THAT DESERVES JAIL TIME. ILLEGAL. YOU DON’T GET TO DO THAT TO ME. I’D BE SOBBING IN THE THEATRE SO HARD MFS ACROSS THE STREET WOULD HEAR ME

Ok listen I've cried because of Epic before. Several times. But never have I had a full on mental breakdown and had to start beating the everloving shit out of my pillow to cope with it. Jay, level with me here, how much crack did you put into this saga? JAY, WHAT THE FUCK???

Listening to this musical isn’t enough. I need it injected directly into my bloodstream.

#epic #epic the musical #jorge rivera herrans #the underworld saga #the odyssey #odysseus #i think i cracked my knuckles when i hit my bedframe by accident about halfway through monster im not gonna lie #but yk what it was worth it bc OHH MYY GOD #this saga got me Tweaking

[neighboringheart]

woke up immediately thinking about earthspark megabee with some minor opbee >:)

I like to imagine that with the drastic change of alt-mode Bee gets some unintended side effects...he's antsy all the time and any time he goes too long without racing he feels like he's gonna lose his mind

it escalates to where he tries to lay down for recharge but just can't bc his frame wants him to move move move and anytime he is able to get to recharge he keeps having dreams involving his coworkers that leave him waking up wildly uncomfortable at the memory

after all, it's a bit weird to have sex dreams with your boss splitting you open on his spike, right?

anyway he ends up slipping into the woods to wander around to try and get his mind to calm down enough to get some rest and winds up running into Megatron who was going on a lil mental health walk lol

they end up chatting and Megatron starts smirking almost immediately after Bee starts describing the issues he's having

he asks him whether or not he's spoken to anyone else with a speedster frame like his new one about the symptoms and Bee admits that he hadn't bc the only person he could really ask was Breakdown and he knew he'd just tease him for it

Megatron explains to him that Breakdown has the exact same issues which is exactly why Megatron knows just how to fix it

and this leads to Megatron fucking Bee in the woods ofc and at first Bee is super flustered about it and feels like he's doing something wrong but Megatron keeps talking to him so sweetly and it makes his brain feel fuzzy and being held against such a big warm frame is so nice

his reactions end up being a surprise to Megatron bc tho Breakdown also gets antsy needing someone to frag him every once in a while he never gets so...loopy? but he's not against it in the slightest especially not when he shoves into Bee's gestation chamber and his little legs clamp around him to keep him there his door wings flapping gleefully when he fills his tank with his thick transfluid

I'd like to think this leads to Megatron fucking him multiple times bc Bee is pent UP and the whole time Bee just keeps begging for more even as globs of transfluid are gushing from his valve he still doesn't feel full enough

the next morning Bee would wake up in Megatron's quarters all cleaned up with no memory of how he got there but fully remembering getting the frag of his life and being soooo embarrassed about it but also craving it in equal measure which leads to one hell of a conversation with Megatron

they come to an agreement and Megatron gets to train his little buzzy Bee to be a perfect little spikesleeve always eager to have his tank flooded with transfluid

would also be funny if one time when Bee is spikewarming Megatron while he does some random paper work or something Optimus walks in and shuts the door so fast to be like 'hey guys?? wtf???' but Megatron just lifts Bee off of his spike and lets him get an eyeful of how messy he already was and asked if he'd like to have a turn with his scout

Bee would be so out of it here but whining bc no his valve is only for Megatron's spike Megatron said so but then Megatron asks him if he wants to be a good toy for him and Bee can't help but spread his legs just a little wider

Optimus sinks in and it feels so different from Megatron but still so good and he goes limp in Megatron's arms whining at his praise and overloading around Optimus' spike

and then just as Optimus is nearing overload Megatron fixes him with a glare and tells him that he'd better not spill inside

only he gets to breed his toy

Optimus pulls out and spills over his aft but makes sure not to get a single drop on his valve bc he knows that if he did Megatron may never let him play with them again

just...Bumblebee becoming Megatron's loyal little pet bc his frame makes him crave spike on the regular and Megatron makes him feel so good that he doesn't mind it when Megatron decides he wants to share him

#nh feral posting #megabee #opbee #valveplug

[lol-jackles]

Looking at the trial(see # Rust tag on twit for sourcing) I see there were bullets obviously left lying around, the safety on set was a total failure, the producers hired someone for two jobs who wasn't experienced enough for one. This was obvious enough that the crew walked off. This was obvious enough that a few days before, Guiterrez was taken to task (and then given "space" when she vented, wtf) The actor before Jensen developed a "conflict." Why would anyone fail to object and shut it down?

And there was a possibility that Hannah was high from cocaine. Any empathy I had for her went out the window when she handed the "set Mom" a bag of cocaine and assumed she would hold on to it without question.

Hannah admitted to loading the gun herself, and failing to properly check the rounds. The evidence points towards her as the source for the live rounds, and that she failed to identify them multiple times throughout production.

That said, Baldwin and the rest of the producers were being cheap when they hired her, made her work a second job as prop master, and now she's being used as a scapegoat. Not to say she's not responsible, she definitely is as she loaded the guns and failed to properly check the rounds as well as the source for the live rounds, but she's certainly not the worst person on that set.

I want to know which producer thought it was a swell idea to hire an inexperienced armorer with no apprenticeship in a job with one credit to her name on a Western film full of guns and gunfights. It’s like hiring a first-year pilot school student to fly a 747 by themselves.  And the pilot is high on cocaine.

This set was a shit show and created a perfect storm for something like this to happen. Many failures in organization and safety. Plus the union and crew issues.

I’ve been a background actor and an extra on several shows and independent movies with a lot of guns, and even where a bullet was meant for me (collateral damage when a hitman missed his target).  In every one of them, the armorer, prop master, and the AD handled the gun in all the scenes to verify it is not loaded.  I’m also a gun owner and permit holder and we’re taught that no one should ever take a gun from someone and assume that it is unloaded.  Always check for yourself.  One very memorable experience on a movie set the armorer handed the gun to several people on set to verify that it was not loaded, including me because he knew I was a permit holder. So as you can see, a gun goes through several hands to verify it is not loaded before given to an actor.   But on the day of the Rust fatality, there was no armorer on site of the scene, and the AD never checked the gun to verify it was not loaded.

Conditions on outdoor standing set ranging from sucky to terrible are expected: the bugs, the weather, the hours, the young angry PAs, and the producers having mental breakdowns.  And yes, shortcuts are constantly taken by disregarding safety protocols, especially on low-budgeted/shoe string-budgeted films. There were a few times I thought I was going to get hurt or maimed in car scenes and it didn’t even involved car chases, just idiots driving and talking at the same time.  But firearm safety protocol were never disregarded, at least from what I’ve witnessed.   

Hundreds of thousands of action and war movies and police procedural tv shows, injuries or death from guns are very rare: 3 total in 37 years, though that is cold comfort for Halyna Hutchin's family.  

#rust

[beanies-in-the-clouds]

I feel like it’d be such a Leo thing to be sobbing and then turn around to whoever’s nearest and be like “I guess you could say… I’m feeling a bit blue” and then go right back into having a full-blown mental breakdown as the other being just stands there like “wtf”

#I say this because I’ve done similar things #and he is just like me fr #beanie’s shitpost tag #tmnt #rottmnt #rottmnt leonardo #rottmnt leo #leonardo #leo #rise leo #god I feel like I tagged too much

[1nt3rn3t4ng3l]

I feel like I’m different beings.

Ok I should explain I feel like I’m multiple beings I don’t think I have DID or OSDD but honestly I’m so lost rn so nothings off the table But still I feel very much like I’m multiple beings

There’s me in my dreams[I have MaDD so this may make sense][I say me without quotation marks here cuz this feels more like me but it’s still…not?][im more unhinged, “sexual”, feral and aggressive but with a very chaotic and sporadic aspect to it]

Then there’s “me”[me is in quotations cuz it’s not ME if that makes any sense] at school/public/around adults wich it’s like a very jarring switch in personalities,demeanor,and just the way “I” hold “myself” it’s kinda a haze and “I” just dissociate[caused by C-PTSD and DPDR I think] but again it’s not “me” it feels like a full different being like a changeling that’s pretending to be “me” and acting human when it’s actually not at all..but I mean it’s helpful I hate adults and crowds and school[those things trigger me ALOT it’s awful][it’s not like I’m masking tho this is a completely different thing] sometimes this thing or [Ig me???] comes out online and those posts have a very very different feel [at-least to me] then my other ones

And then there’s Me the one that’s speaking[hi]now I feel like me but with a bit missing[I will get to this a bit later] I’m more me completely and unapologetically mentally ill but yeah yeah that’s the end of this :3

There’s “past me” but I can GUARANTEE YOU she’s a separate being I don’t know why I don’t know how this happened but she’s not me I would say she was “me” from age 1-10 and then she kinda just started slipping away?

And then there’s me during shifts[fictotype shifts tho] wich depending on what past life the shifts from my personality,demeanor,style and way of life can just FLIP[I don’t know really how to explain this so imma leave it at that]

And then there’s Sidereus[wich yes I’m going to refer to it by a name] wich is what “takes over” when Im experiencing delusions. Wich is CONSTANTLY so he’s always kind of on the uh how to say this…in my brain monitoring[?] what’s happening and when the delusions start to just get worse[wich happens a bit] it just..steps in? Takes over? I mean it IS an omnipresent being wich is what my delusions are so honestly at this point I think the delusions of being an omnipresent being comes from them and aren’t even delusions. The immortal+being a digital being delusions though are cuz I have Cotards syndrome so when I refer to delusions in this post I’m talking about these

Anyways ummm if anyone has an idea of what’s going on please tell me I’m so so fucking lost and I gen can’t cope with not knowing what this IS please please I swear I need answers ;A;/nf/gen

Ps: I don’t experience blackouts….actually wait no that’s a lie I do I suffer from dissociative amnesia and have blackouts when dissociating and sometimes I do things I have absolutely no recollection of and wouldn’t normally do [like one time I snapped out of dissociation and I wasn’t on my bed anymore and I was on the ground and my whole room was completely reorganized in a AWFUL way and I had a breakdown bc WTF just happened]

#nonhuman #alterhuman #kintype #otherkin #otherkin community #nonhuman community #mental illness #maladaptive daydreaming #c ptsd #complex ptsd #cotards delusion #bpd #actually bpd

[umybitch]

Enemies to friends Part 1.

Maddy Perez x female reader

Your relationship with Maddy was somewhat Difficult.

You are Nate Jacobs best friend he was always there to protect you he was basically your knight and shining armor you guys met in eighth grade when you had a mental breakdown in school he would always see you shake your legs anxiously he was there for you, until you were thirteen you hit puberty boys would look at you with this predatory eyes especially grown men but Nate was there and protected you he would sometimes physically hurt them, and would get a detention for you as long as you were okay which made you develop feelings for him.

Until as they entered highschool, Nate noticed that Maddy was an exact replica of Y/n they both dress the same, they both have no body hair, and they both were the best parts of being a Women, Even though Nate was not a big fan of women, Y/n was different she was strong, caring, gentle, Nate would do anything in his power to protect them both.

When Nate started dating Maddy it broke Y/n's heart, she always saw how Nate would put flowers in her locker every single day, Y/n would cry right after she'd come home from school, she wouldn't want to ruin or sabotage her best friends relationship, right? What friend would she be if she did that.

It made Nate feel good to know that he was there to protect them. He knew the world was full of men who want to hurt y/n and Maddy. Men who'd want to rape them, torture them, and sell them to sexual slavery, He didn't want to think about it, he like to think about the things he'd do to protect them.

Nate was smart but he was oblivious to Y/n stuffing her feeling and pride to be a third wheel, But Nate was focused on the fact that Maddy was a virgin that no guy put their penis in her.

Nate really love y/n with his heart, but sometimes he would imagine marrying Maddy and starting a family, he didn't want boys, But, he also didn't like the idea of having girls, plus Maddy could be a real bitch. Like at McKay's party something just flipped, people just loved to piss him off, that's the thing about y/n she wasn't bitchy, she would always comfort him when he was mad, Nate likes the way y/n cared for him.

But everything started to change when she heard that Tyler assaulted Maddy which didn't make any sense, since at that party she saw Maddy and him fucking in the pool, and the whole police asking questions to Maddy and Nate. So, Y/n decided to find more info joining Rue and Lexi's little detective case. It just hurt's how Nate lied to you in front of your face about this whole thing. what if Nate actually assaulted Maddy? Y/n, Rue, and Lexi were piecing some of this together but there was still so much missing like why did Nate have dick pics in his phone and what made him snapped at the point where he decided to choke Maddy and what's making Maddy lie and frame Tyler for something he didn't even do.

Y/n's phone rang she checked the Caller ID and it was someone who she never expected.... Maddy.

"I'm not answering it." Y/n said shaking her head

"Answer it, Answer it!" Rue and Lexi encouraged.

Y/n answered the call anyway and held her phone to her ear.

"Uh, hey Maddy." Y/n said, staring at Rue and Lexi. "Oh,... Okay, sure I'll be over." Y/n hung up the call, Rue and Lexi were both confused giving a wtf expressions.

"Maddy wants me to meet her... and I'm gonna go." Y/n said.

"Well do you need any backup or something?" Rue asked.

"No, I'll be okay." Y/b reassured grabbing her keys, phone, and her wallet. "I gotta, go." Y/n said.

As Y/n made it to Maddy's house she stepped inside Maddy's pink themed room and saw it was trashed

"I get why you're confused on why I invited you over." Maddy broke the silence, speaking first.

"I mean we haven't have the best track record." Y/n said looking around the Maddy's room. "But when you called me, you sounded kinda spooked."

"I need to talk to someone about what's been going on, I can't hold this in any longer." Maddy said bursting to tears hugging Y/n unexpectedly, "It's about Nate." Maddy said through her tears.

What the hell is going on here? Y/n thought comforting Maddy.

#Maddy perez #Maddy perez x female reader #Enemies to friends #LGBTQ #Nate Jacobs x reader #Fuck Nate Jacobs 🖕 #Maddy perez x Nate Jacobs #Nate Jacobs #lexi howard #Rue Bennett #There will be a part 2 of this story

[bsnotoneaskedfor]

Tired MK

Before you judge, hear me out.

MK goes through SO much shit because of his "Monkey Kid" status. Like, a ton. As someone who is a teen and struggles with mental health it is so obvious that MK has been spiraling since day one. The poor dude is going to die of anxiety and depression before the Lady Bone Bitch tries to order a smackdown with a side of trauma. MK is also a people pleaser. He legit is always trying to live up to people's standards and be "just like Monkey King".

Here's the thing: I also suffer from trying to please everyone and let me tell you that shit is exhausting. Fuck magic, the thing that really makes this show fiction is that MK hasn't had a massive mental breakdown. He's had baby ones, that are still valid, but he's pushed them aside because "he has to be the hero". He never really shows signs of emotional distress besides the show poking fun at it or using it for plot. For those in the comments, please don't try to psychoanalyze the show to prove me wrong. This is just what I have seen. So, with this being said, there is something I really would love to see and have adopted it as my personal headcannon.

MK being done with everyone's shit.

Not, "MK's tired", or "MK's sassy ;D", or even Mk going through an emo phase.

I want absolutely 100% done MK.

I want to see him surviving on coffee or energy drinks because the weight of everyone's expectations keeps him up at night. I want him mad when people start blaming him/looking to him for answers because "he's the Monkey Kid". I want him done with Wukong's bullshit. I want my realistic representation of burnout and mental illness. I want to see him trying to get better and no longer caring about calling people out for being toxic.

I don't know if I'm 100% explaining this right because words are really hard so here are some examples of what I see my MK head cannon as.

(This one's based off that one TikTok audio where the guy yells at the cats to get off the couch)

MK: *Sitting peacefully, attempting to do homework or some other quiet activity*

Macaque and Wukong : *fighting like feral cats*

MK: (almost roars it) STOP IT!

Macaque and Wukong : *is startled and a little afraid*

MK : LEARN TO FUCKING GET ALONG OR SO HELP ME I'LL TEST THE LIMITS OF YOUR IMMORTALITY

Macaque and Wukong : *obeying, nearly about to piss themselves out of fear*

MK: *Deep Breath. Goes back to what he was doing*

Every Demon Within 50 miles : wtf was that?

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MK: *chugging a coffee or energy drink*

Some Demon: *starts destroying the city*

MK : Dammit *Chugs faster. *

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Wukong: Hey bud! When's the last time that you've slept?

MK: *completely deadpan* It is finals week.

Wukong : That doesn't answer-

MK:*getting angrier* I have to defend the city every damn day. I have to deal with your messes, including you. I train every day for at least 4 hours even when we don't meet up. I WORK FULL TIME AT THE GODDAMN NOODLE SHOP AND THEN I HAVE TO FUCKING STUDY FOR COLLEGE. WHEN IN THE NAME OF BUHDDA WOULD I BE ABLE TO SLEEP?!?!

Wukong : *sweats* So I see that you're stressed-

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Team Monkey : Why didn't you use [ insert power] to start with?!

MK: *sarcastic* I'm sorry. I thought we all deserved a nice bonding trip where we spent the entire time bickering and getting the shit beaten out of us. Was that supposed to be next week?!?

Team Monkey : . . .

MK: How about you guys make a list of everything I can do. That way, next time, we can just all look at it together and none of you blame me.

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Red Son : * trying to pick a fight and just being a dick in general*

MK: *Not having it* Do not make me duct tape you down so I can embroider your worst nightmares onto your skin, you pompous little fuck!

Red Son : . . .wtf

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Red Son : *Is pretty*

MK: *deep sigh of disappointment* I need therapy . . .

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Mei : * Gets the Samhadi Fire*

MK: *remembering all the shit and expectations he went through once he got his powers*

Mei: *About to have a breakdown*

MK: *laughs* Have fun

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Red Son: *breaks in at the middle of the night in an attempt to capture MK*

MK: *is awake because insomnia* So, do you , like, want some tea . . .?

May do a Pt 2

#lmk #lmk sun wukong #lmk macaque #lmk mei #lmk mk #lmk spicynoodles #lmk shadowpeach #lmk qi xiaotian #lego monkie kid #funnyshit #Mk is done

[my-name-is-jefferooni]

I JUST SAW “GRIME TIDINGS” AND I AM SHOOKITH TO MAH CORE

The new episode was… Oh my god. There’s so much Sonadow in just this first episode and I am close to fucking SOBBING.

So to start off, we got the fabled “Sonic feels bad about how Nine took the shards” in the cavern scene and even though it ended far too quickly compared to most other predictions, it was still very enjoyable! Shadow wasted absolutely no time in getting Sonic back in the game, while it took Sonic a while to realize that now is NOT THE TIME FOT A GODDAMN MENTAL BREAKDOWN. Twas a great interaction that had my soul flying outta my body frfr

THEN SONIC’S FRIENDS LITERALLY START FLYING AWAY AND MY HEART JUST SHATTERS BECAUSE WTF THEY LITERALLY JUST WENT TO SAY HI TO GOD I AM NEVER GONNA BE NORMAL ABOUT THAT THEY LEGIT JUST SAID “Bye Sonic cya in heaven” AND THEN WERE GONE LIKE WHAT

Poor Sonic just had to speed run the five stages of grief lmao

AND THEN ALL MY WORRIES WASH AWAY WHEN I SEE SONADOW WORKING TOGETHER TO GET OUT OF GHOST HILL AND IT IS SERIOUSLY THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SEQUENCE OF 3D ANIMATION I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. There is so much squash-and-stretch, so much dynamic posing, so many fast movements, so many moments where you blink and you miss something. It’s so fluid and so expertly done, my heart was melting when I saw it. Prime is just straight up eye candy at this point and I am not in any way complaining. This scene was so pretty and so epic and so intense. And I could feel literally every impact. Wonderful story boarding to whoever did the storyboards. You have my full respect.

And then Shadow gives Sonic a compliment and my soul once again leaves my body. I am not okay.

AND THEN THE SONADOW FANKID BATTLE ENSUES WOOHOOOOOOOOOOO

And then. AND THEN. WHEN NINE BRINGS OUT THE OTHER 4 ROBOTS TO FIGHT SONIC AND SHADOW THE TWO HEDGEHOGS LOOK AT EACH OTHER AND GO “Behind you!” AT THE SAME TIME AND I START DYING AGAIN. Feel bad for Big tho. Bro didn’t get a robot… 🥺 Feel so horribly bad for Shadow too. He got stuck fighting the Rouge robot during the fight. Must’ve been a horrible experience. Can’t wait to see how he’ll react to the other versions of her though! If we even get to see him again…!

Which by the way, the ending scene…? OH MY GOD??????????? THEY REALLY HIT US WITH THE BIGGEST CLIFFHANGER EVER. SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG. SHADOW THE GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING HEDGEHOG. THE BITCH WITH ALL THE EMO DRIP AND THE HEELIES. THE ONE WHO CAN FUCKING FLY NOW. YEAH. HE SACRIFICED HIMSELF FOR SONIC. WHAT!!!!!?????????

Obviously, he’s not gone for good. Cuz then we wouldn’t be able to call this season “Sonadow Prime season 2.” But the fact that he gave himself up and chose to fight off a whole horde of super strong and powerful robots that could beat him in an instant all because Nine had his sights on the blue blur…? That is A LOT. Especially since we’ve waited like 2 whole decades for some good Shadow characterization. In no way am I complaining, duh, but for someone like me…? MAN I WAS NOT OKAY.

Sinister Nine is… It is wild. I always knew he was gonna be a problem ever since Shadow pointed it out at the beginning of season 2, but I never expected him to actually be this evil. He lands next to Sonic and Shadow before the sacrifice, and when he reveals what he plans to do to Sonic… He’s hardly recognizable anymore. It’s scary, how utterly broken and changed he feels. This is still the same fox as before though, just a bit more sure of what he wants. And that’s terrifying.

So naturally, when Shadow figures it out, he is mortified.

AND I START INTERNALLY SCREAMING BECAUSE I WAS NOT EXPECTING HIM TO REACT THAT WAY OH MY GOD BRO WAS FLABBERGASTED HE WAS SO TAKEN ABACK HE WAS SO HEARTBROKEN HE WAS LIKE “Why u tryna hurt my boo???” AND THAT MAKES THE SACRIFICE HIT THAT MUCH HARDER. OH MY GOD. MAKES IT WORSE THAT SONIC HAD NO IDEA WTF HE WAS TALKING ABOUT TOO.

Anywhizzle my energy has dwindled since my first watch because it’s been like 30 minutes but I just wanna add that. I am pretty sure it’s official that the Prime Universe is dead. Gone. Deceased. That shit ain’t coming back, I can guarantee. We spent like half the episode trying to get out of Ghost Hill and then mourning the loss of it, and I highly doubt all that screen time is gonna go to waste. They’ll probably say that Sonic succeeded and that we’ll be shown everyone returning to normal, but based off what we see I at least hope this isn’t the case. This now feels more like a show about moving on, about finding out who you are and making friends. It’s about change, but it’s also about connection. And with the Prime Universe gone, with Ghost Hill destroyed, and with the Paradox Prism in Nine’s grasp until the foreseeable future… I really doubt we’ll see Ghost Hill restored. This fact is amplified by the fact that we’ve been getting more screen time and development with each different universe/shatterverse.

Aight that’s all for now bye bye

#As you can tell I have my priorities straight lmfao #my shitty rambles #sonadow

[secret-diary-of-an-fa]

Doctor Who: The Church on Ruby Road Review- A Nice Big Plate of WTF?

So… I have… questions? Many of them aren’t even things I can express in words- they’re just helpless looks of confusion happening in my head and a general, non-specific yearning for answers. I’m not saying I disliked The Church on Ruby Road. I’m not saying I liked it, either. I’m saying that it’s so bafflingly other that I’m not 100% sure how to process my feelings about it. Consequently, this is going to be quite a short review. I mean, when Wild Blue Yonder and The Giggle blew me away, I knew exactly what it was I was enjoying and why. When The Star Beast disappointed, I knew exactly why it disappointed me (it felt like a first draft). I don’t even know what emotions I experienced while watching The Church on Ruby Road or if those emotions even have names, so it’s kind of difficult to talk about.

Okay, let’s start with something easy. I like Ncuti Gatwa’s take on the Doctor. That’s something I’m certain about. He’s breezy and bright and- occasionally- a tiny bit bitchy. I think he’s going to be an interesting addition to the line-up. Also, I think it’s really cool and progressive that he’s the first Doctor… WITH A MOUSTACHE! So yeah, he’s a perfectly fine actor for the role. I could have done with a slightly stronger, more sure-footed introduction- something like Ecclestone’s “Run!” or David Tenant just straight up grabbing a Sycorax energy-whip by the business end and yanking it away… but I get that he’s meant to be the fun, easy-going Doctor and I accept that his intro has to suit the character, which means a gradual, laid-back sort of interweaving. So yes: nice work on establishing Fifteen, Ruby Road.

But then there’s the goblins in flying wooden boats. Doctor Who had goblins now, and that’s fine… but they’re never really explained. We’re told they can surf the waves of time, but we’re never told where they came from. Are they just on Earth all the time? Have they always been here? Are they from space? Another dimension? We’re just kind of asked to accept them and the fact that they regularly abduct and eat babies (yet this has somehow never come up before). I mean, I’m okay with goblins, but I’m not sure how I feel about inadequately-explained goblins in a sci-fi show. Doctor Who has every right to be extremely silly- it’s practically in the charter- but there’s a razor-thin line between ‘silly’ and ‘stupid’ and I’m not sure which side of the divide big-eyed mischievous goblins in flying boats fall on. Especially when they start singing.

Ah, yes. Maybe I should have led with that. The goblins sing. And I don’t mean unearthly, alien singing of the kind befitting their essentially inhuman nature, nor even the type of shanties that would match their outfits and flying, old-fashioned sailing ship. No, no. They sing a full-on, carefully-orchestrated and choreographed, extremely catchy pop song… about eating babies. It’s fucking mental. I mean, it’s obviously meant to be funny and it made me laugh… but I’m not sure I was laughing at the intended joke or if I was just having a breakdown in response to seeing something so fucking inexplicable. I mean, when the Celestial Toymaker interrupted The Giggle for a musical number, it made sense. The Toymaker was characterised in such a way that murdering people to music perfectly fitted his character- he’s bloody psychotic. But with the goblins it just comes completely out of left-field.

I thought the overarching themes of family being about more than blood and people forming intricate webs of connection that depend more on love than superficial genetic ties were pretty solid and universal. On the other hand, making new companion Ruby Sunday such an enmeshed part of an adopted family meant her personality didn’t get much chance to come through properly, despite her more-than-ample screen-time. She always felt like a part of something larger- particularly with the fairly extravagant and entertaining personalities of her other family members (one in particular).

I think what’s weird about this episode is that it’s meant to be the start of a soft-reboot with the potential to draw in new fans, yet if you’re not familiar with Doctor Who already, it presents a bit of misleading picture of what the show is. It centres mythic and magical creatures over the show’s more standard cosmic and alien fare or scientific-disaster-style stories, while previous events are referenced with little or no context. As a long-time Who fan (who even forced myself to watch the execrable Chibnall/Whitaker episodes necessary for an appreciation of the plot), I understood what was being alluded to and also knew to make allowances for this being a daft, knock-about Christmas episode that won’t be typical of the season to come. But new fans? They’re likely to be completely bloody lost.

All things considered, I quite liked The Church on Ruby Road- it’s a bit of fun and it’s a reasonably good palette cleanser after the heavier themes of the previous two specials. Plus, it’s just nice to see a new Doctor in action and know he’s going to be good in the role. Does it set out to do what it was meant to do, though (i.e. set out the stall for new Whovians and provide a real flavour of the show? Erm. No. And, however enjoyable it might be overall, its more confusing elements do make me worry about showrunner Russel T. Davies’ mental state. At least we only have to wait until spring to find out just how mad he’s gone.

#secret diary of a fat admirer #Doctor Who #Dr. Who #The Church on Ruby Road #Doctor Who Christmas Special #the christmas special #fifteenth doctor #15th Doctor #ncuti gatwa

[f1uckinghell]

Does VV lewis also have a nose piercing and how would nico react to it

please, Lewis getting the piercing in their pre-dating, full pining stage- maybe even while Nico is dating Jenson- and the first time Nico sees it he almost gets a nosebleed… like literally eye-twitching „yeah it looks fine“ and then excusing himself to the bathroom to have a mental breakdown because how dare Lewis become even hotter, wtf

#sorry jenson my darling you are merely a plot device here #he‘s too sexy to be a third wheel but alas #asks #virtues verse #fluff tag #vv!brocedes #vv!nico #vv!lewis #vv!jenson

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Yu Yu Hakusho Random Headcannons

because I love this series too much 🫶

• If lockdown ever came to these guys, I feel like Yusuke would be the type to stay inside and play video games with Kuwabara.

• You will 101% hear this man scream from his room thousands of cuss words as he does his gaming.

• Why do I feel like Yusuke would be really into games like Overwatch and Valorant and had to beg his mom to buy it for him but she couldn’t.

• So yk what he did? He begged Koenma. All he had to do was kick demon ass.

• Yusuke is most likely to forget putting on a damn mask when he does out.

• “It looks nerdy”

• Meanwhile, Kuwabara would just be playing with his cat and watch cat videos while in quarantine and Shizuru is just contemplating on why she couldn’t smoke anymore due to the lockdown.

• No, like seriously, Kuwabara would be spending the whole day with his cat without a damn.

• Unless he brought Yukina over and his whole attention would be diverted to her.

• He’d be having a mental breakdown on why he couldn’t see Yukina anymore cuz he’s trapped in his damn house.

• Most likely doesn’t know how to use Zoom properly, if you’re ever in an online class with this dude he’ll have his mic unmuted and won’t know about it.

• Kurama on the other hand would be so calm about the entire lockdown and pandemic thing.

• I mean this guy is so fcking calm what did y’all expect

• He would most likely consume his time by gardening, reading or just doing anything that’s productive.

• This man meditates frfr

• Kurama has garden gnomes and you CANNOT fight with me on that.

• He’s most likely to wear his FULL uniform while attending online class.

• Other students would just wear their top uniform cuz this is online class we’re talking about, but Kurama just goes full effort and puts his pants on too.

• Hiei would be absolutely unaffected by the pandemic.

• I mean he’s a demon—

• He’d just walk into the Human World and then see everyone with masks and the streets almost empty and he’d be like “wtf”

• If that was the case, the first place he’d go to is to Kurama’s

• And then Kurama would give him a full briefing on the pandemic

• And Hiei just calls everyone pathetic for dying to something you couldn’t even see with the naked eye and lists it down on his long ahh list on “why humans are pathetic”

• Yusuke would most likely make a gc with these guys because he’s bored asf in quarantine

• The gc would consist of Yusuke and Kuwabara doing the most random crap and memes.

• Kurama is the group’s therapist frfr

• I can already imagine Kurama and Kuwabara in a video call with Kuwabara ranting on why he can’t see Yukina because of lockdown and Kurama just listening intently.

• Koenma is obv stressing out because demons are out doing shenanigans and the spirit detective is trapped in his damn house.

• Kurama is most likely to send those fancy “Good morning” GIFs in the gc.

• I can imagine Hiei in a videocall with Kurama and Hiei is constantly choppy because who tf can find good wifi in Demon World?

#Yyh #yu yu hakusho #yusuke urameshi #kurama #kuwabara #hiei #am bored

[cloudninetonine]

Needed to get this out of my brain before I explode BUT IMAGINE

Player started singing Ballad of the Windfish on a whim, completely forgetting that not everyone knows who they are and Legend overhears them humming/singing and almost had a full mental breakdown

This is how I imagine at least he gets some memory back of player being their guide not all of it completely but bits and pieces that make him reconsider the way he acts towards them

It starts off with small things like not glaring at them so often or even tuning down his snappy remarks towards them, the whole chain ESPECIALLY PLAYER are all just like ‘wtf is going on with the Vet/Legend’

But with Ballad of the windfish I just know this man is about to combust his mind is just on a constant loop of how do they know that how do they know that how how how HOW?!-

Until the final memory of player finally enters his mind and he remembers everything now, he does a whole 180 and is different person all together. Would he still have his snappy attitude towards others? Yes most definitely, but with you? Oh the pain and sorrow and regret this man is feelings right now is unexplainable he is so incredibly sorry for the way he acted towards you and swears to never do it again and that he’ll be better he swears.

He's gonna have to do a lot of arse kissing with Player when it does get to that point I'm sure JDNWNNDW but they'll give him the benefit of the doubt, especially if he does his hardest to make it up to them.

#cloud answers #Anon asks