#genuinely mean this btw

[bloodybellycomb]

love horror as a genre because it always manages to give me a plethora of new and completely irrational fears. it's so delicious and horrible, like, yes! good! instill anxiety in me over something I didn't realize I even had to worry about in the first place. yay!

#the magnus archives #tma #the silt verses #the fall of the house of usher #genuinely mean this btw #me @ myself last night: i should go clubbing again i miss it #me @ myself after watching episode two of the fall of the house of usher: hmmm perhaps not #birdy chirps

[ihophashbrowns]

red velvet irene is a better rapper than amber fx will ever hope to be

#from drafts #genuinely mean this btw #irene spit more bars in ice cream cake than amber did in her whole life #🧁.txt

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this'' #and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion'' #so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop! #and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

[mirokuna-hime]

I'm not sure if people are aware that Ratio is actually a genuinely caring and also pretty understanding dude...all the knowledge he accumulated he invests in helping people and spreading knowledge across the universe, he's the number 1 advocate for free education and even values the people that aren't as intellectualy gifted. In one of his text messages he even mentions how not everyone is suited to go to university and how that's completely fine.

Ratio doesn't equate foolishness nescessarily with not being book smart but rather with ignorance, naivety and people not aiming for higher heights despite having the ability to do so and instead living in the shadow of geniuses under the belief that their own achievements do not matter leading to the blind worship of the genius society of which a large portion doesn't care if their research and experiments could harm the people.

Don't get me wrong he defintiely has a couple of sharp edges, is prone to get annoyed quickly and he's defintiely more of an anti hero with how he tried to educate the people on herta space station but his core principles and heart are in the right place.

#honkai star rail #dr ratio #veritas ratio #btw I mean that genuinely not condenscendingly #I truly don't know if people are aware since I never see discussions about him or anything and a lot of what I do see is very face value

[fernsnailz]

SONIC MOVIE 3 LOGO

WE ARE SO BACK

i think my favorite thing about sonic fandom is how everyone gets genuinely excited over seemingly small things like logos and shit. you're right we ARE so back this fucking rules

#GENUINELY MEAN THIS BTW i love u sonic fans #fernasks

[podcast-hemocytoblast]

By the time cars were invented, Jonah Magnus was already well into the body hopping game, which raises the question: has he ever actually learn to drive? Did this man sit through driver’s ed? Or has he just been getting out of legal repercussions for his shit driving by telling the cops everything he knows about their deepest darkest secrets every time he gets pulled over?

#the magnus archives #tma #jonah magnus #elias bouchard #tma spoilers #au in which real elias is alive in there because Jonah needs someone who can tell him what the road signs mean #poor man is forced to spend the rest of his days as a literal backseat driver for a pseudo-immortal douchebag #perish the thought #I’m sure someone has already asked this question by now but I can’t stop thinking about it #some people have pointed out that he would ride the tube which makes sense too. #btw this post is 100% inspired by how much I used to fear for my LIFE any time i was in a car while my grandpa was driving #genuinely terrifying experience grandpa stop it please quit turning your entire body around to talk to me while I’m sitting in the back sea #why are you driving with one foot for the pedal the other foot for the brake one hand on the steering wheel and NO EYES ON THE ROAD

[pr0cyon-lotor]

I love how SY has chronic I-Can-Fix-Him-itis in so many jiuyuan fics

Like yeeessss girly 😍 slay up that wifebeam 🥰

Give that disgruntled wet cat the love he never had 🙏🙏

Yes he needs a whole construction crew to fix him 🥺 but you have that rich boy audacity 🥰 you can do it sweetie 😘

Shen Yuan is my favorite DIY girlie 😍😍

(Shen Jiu doesn't get a choice 🥰)

#jiuyuan #scumcum #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #shen jiu #i don't mean this sarcastically btw #I genuinely enjoy it #i think its sweet

[bullet-ant]

personality disorder-related identity loss is insane because three different people could ask me what my favorite color is and i would give them three different answers each time and not even realize im lying

#edit: btw when i say 'i dont even realize im lying' #i mean that i dont realize im lying because i genuinely believe im telling the truth each time #ive been seeing people add that in the tags a lot and i just wanted to say that yes that's exactly what im saying #avpd #avoidant personality disorder #personality disorders #cluster a #cluster b #cluster c #bpd #boderline personality disorder #identity loss #top post

[starry-bi-sky]

I am of the DPxDC belief/headcanon that any variation of Danny who grew up poor in Gotham during his formative years before moving to Amity Park would not be friends with Sam without friction at first. It makes things more interesting and imo allows for more exploration of different themes plus character growth for Sam that she doesn't really go through in canon.

(this doesn't only apply to a DPDC au where Danny grew up in Gotham poor, but it was the first thing that I thought of where this might happen considering my Childhood Friends au.)

Now Sam's a compassionate girl, it's one of her defining character traits, but so is her hypocrisy and judgy-ness. She's the Not Like Other Girls' girl. This is in part of the show's narrative framing that makes her out like this, unfortunately though its still showing how she is as a character since its consistent enough to be part of her character description. There are also times where the show's depiction of her activism makes it look like she's performative about it. All of this makes her dynamic with a Danny who grew up poor in Gotham very interesting.

Anyways, Sam is aware of her privilege to an extent, but still has her blindspots - glaring ones, in some cases. Her self-righteous attitude would not go over well with a crime alley kid Danny. He'd like her, at first, but then she'd do something to make him mad - personally I think her judging people for not being vegan would annoy him the most, or at least would be the breaking point for him, because it was only recently that his family started actually being able to consistently put food on the table at all, good food nonetheless. And being vegan is expensive.

Any other behavior he noticed from her he'd slowly stop tolerating - her judging conventionally attractive girls and automatically assuming they're vapid and shallow for being feminine. Her anti-capitalist beliefs start coming off as superficial at worst, and Danny would eventually figure out that Sam either came from a family that was well off, or that she wasn't aware if her family was experiencing financial struggle.

He would still be friends with Tucker, but since Tucker imo is still friends with Sam, they'd still run into each other often enough to butt heads. Sam's got a nasty habit of refusing to take responsibility when she's wrong, but when Danny is arguing with her, and counterpointing her with stuff she can't retort back at without compromising her own beliefs, then forces her to start reflecting on herself. Especially when Tucker eventually starts siding with Danny and agreeing with him.

Does sam genuinely care about her beliefs and philosophies? Survey says yes. However that doesn't mean she's not ignorant, and she definitely is at times throughout the show (like when she released the purpleback gorilla thinking it 'wanted out of its enclosure' despite the fact that it was endangered and in an urban area) and I think it'd be a real fascinating dynamic between Danny and Sam to explore.

This isn't Sam hate btw, nor am I trying to make her out like "the worst person ever" bc she's not, i wanna make that explicitly clear. Sam Manson has a lot of positive traits about her but she also has an equal amount of negative traits that I think should be explored, she is not immune to the character development.

#dpdc #dpxdc crossover #dpxdc #dpdc headcanon #dpxdc headcanon #dpxdc danny fenton #dpxdc sam manson #on a funnier note to me Danny asks Sam how much a loaf of bread costs and she can't tell him bc she doesn't know #she's an activist but also look me in the eyes and tell me she knows how much stuff at the grocery store costs #rich girl advocate sam vs crime alley kid danny FIGHT #does sam genuinely care about her beliefs and philosophies? survey says yes. however that doesn't mean she's not ignorant #cfau danny calls her privileged once and sam turns a new shade of red #this isn't sam hate btw i wanna make that explicitly clear #she's great i love her hOWEVER i am not blind to her flaws and i think it gets ignored by fanon AND canon in favor of girlbossing her #this also brings up the idea that Sam (based on her releasing the gorilla) would either respect damian wayne or HATE him bc she's judgy #and one of her flaws is her moral superiority over others. how very christian of you Sam - and i know she's jewish. thats part of the irony #he'd open an animal rehabilitation center and she'd assume the absolute worst. its hilarious. Damian would eat her alive #im taking a bat to a hornet's nest i think

[iwillbestronger]

Something that I find so unique about the way that Our Flag Means Death depicts queer love and queer identity is that alongside all of its beautiful explicit queerness, the kisses in the moonlight, the unambiguous sexual references, a whole proposal to top it all off - the show still draws on and acknowledges a queer tradition that can't be that open. It reaffirms a queer reading of the show not only through making its characters canonically queer but through all of these little nods to the ways in which queerness has always been expressed in secret, in subtle undertones.

What I am thinking of is Ed wearing Stede's cravat, a private way of carrying your loved one with you that is not recognisable to anyone else in a society hostile to queer love. I am thinking of the ring Izzy wears around his cravat, which everyone seems to agree likely has a similar significance. I am thinking of the deeply complex relationship between Ed and Izzy, where even now that they have both said the word "love" out loud, their dynamic is fundamentally built on the all too familiar undertones of unrequited, repressed queer love. "Above all is loyalty to your love captain." You give them the power to destroy you - with words, with a gun.

I am thinking of Lucius, the artist, drawing Pete and Fang, queer subjects of desire. (I could say so much more about Lucius, how he is essentially a physical manifestation of the queer gaze in the OFMD universe.) I am thinking of that absolutely wild scene between Izzy and Lucius, Izzy plucking the cigarette from Lucius's fingers, taking a drag while not taking his eyes off him for a second, trying to place it back between his lips. A scene like a ritual, so deeply charged that while it just falls short of being explicit, its significance is absolutely recognisable to every queer viewer. I am even thinking of Jim, how they present as part of Blackbeard's crew, the drawn-on beard that could be passed off as simple adornment if needed but that resonates so deeply with trans viewers of the show.

Despite the fact that some view the OFMD universe as a queer utopia, it feels so good to see this recognition, this acknowledgment of queer love, queer desire that has always been there and has always needed to stay in secret. The characters may not need to hide it. But sometimes, queerness in Our Flag Means Death is most significant, most expressive, where it is most hidden.

#this is what i write instead of my actual dissertation btw. if you even care #this show is so so deeply special. genuinely #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd meta #ofmd spoilers

[hopeswriting]

tsuna is the patron saint of the mundane, of the normal and common place, of the average and unimpressive. he's the unshakable believer of that being enough in and of itself, of that being fulfilling and fundamental to achieve happiness. and he's the unyielding protector and defender of the beauty and love and kindness within the ordinary, of the holy and divine and sacred within it, and of them being worth fighting for.

tsuna's the guy who makes the ordinary extraordinary from the sheer way he holds it so very close to his heart like it's the most precious thing in the world, and it's the thing about him i, for one, love him most for

#katekyo hitman reborn #khr #khr text post #sawada tsunayoshi #this is why he's THE painstakingly average teenage boy btw. that's the point #and why amano went the extra mile and made him /below/ average and 'dame' #and made it so he still went on to achieve all he did throughout the manga #and made it so he still ended up loved so wholly and unconditionally by so many people #and made it a point to show that was all thanks to things he /already/ had within him all along long before reborn showed up in his life #and made it a point to show he remained the same in that respect to the very end of the manga #and then of course he /keeps/ remaining the same even as he goes on to become vongola decimo #and i like to think that once he gains full confidence in the choices he makes and the things he feels and the stands he takes etc #and still there's mafiosi calling him weak and naive for being soft and kind and merciful and /loving/ with voices full of disdain #tsuna just goes 'you live like this? you've only ever been living like this? #is this what you really think life is all about? what it can only be about? what it /should/ be about?' #except he says it with actual genuine pity for them lol #anyway. tsuna said there's happiness and love and meaning to be found in the mundane and ordinary #and to be fought for and protected because they deserve to be #and he was RIGHT about it!!! <3

[aishazero9i18r]

Wakfu - The Great Wave webtoon preview thumbnail screenshot from Ankama launcher and ho boi I do not like where this thing going and I am genuinely scared jamshjdbdhd oh hey Aurora is back :D

Also we got lil Yugo again hhhhhhh this is Yugo… right? R i g h t ? ? ?

#wakfu #wakfu season 4 #wakfu yugo #wakfu amalia #wakfu the great wave #king yugo #yugo the eliatrope #amalia sheran sharm #i genuinely scared and pray for the best for Sadida kingdom because they definitely need it #i mean— did you guys see the thumbnail for episode 8??? #meng. Yugo lost his composure and it’s just the second episode #idk why Ankama launcher did not display the thumbnail for episode 1 of the webtoon :\ #we all know that we’re doomed #last chance of me getting to see the interaction between Yugo and Sadlygrove family again before everything goes downhill #btw who’s that person in episode 10 thumbnail tho #3 weeks before episode 1 release btw HAHAHHA good luck to us all

[sprucewoodmpreg]

feel free to speculate/explain your vote in the tags ^_^

#i noticed we can actually make one of these now since enough people are dead LOL #anyways light post but im curious as to what people are leaning towards. speculation is fun #secret life smp #im on team joel btw ^_^ i have other players that i'd like to win. but i think he's probably got a good shot at winning #only problem with trying to predict stuff this season is that so much of it is genuinely just luck #which is both good and. not great. but it does mean that less pvp-oriented players have a better chance

[larabar]

ending april fools by just saying. happy anniversary tmosth there could not be a better april fools joke. i love what its done for me and soo so many other fans (new ones too!!) its just such a happy silly thing. happy birthday barry happy birthday conductor happy birthday train happy birthday conductors wife you mean the world to me ty sonic social team !!!

#i mean this genuinely btw not an april fools joke skdnfj. to be clear. #didnt get to play it today but i thought of it a lot. man i love that little game #its kind of everything #rambles #ok back to silliness i need to get my last boops in

[kindaorangey]

jean should collect homoerotic codependent partners professionally

#jean moreau #thats zane in the back btw #what if we were roommates and i made up a nickname for u based off of the version of your name that your abuser says is too pretentious.... #and we coveted and vouched for each other until you betrayed me (except not really) and i betrayed you in the worst way imaginable.. #and we were both boys......... #kevin day #jeremy knox #neil josten #zane reacher #aftg #all for the game #the sunshine court #aftg tsc #everyone big up short kings neil and jeremy for carrying this art's composition #also i know its not necessarily canon that jean has a thing for neil or zane. i just think its interesting to think of the way that #jean gloms onto both of them #like he wanted neil to be kevin's replacement the same way he treats jeremy as riko's replacement #(to mentally fill the hole left by them because he had codependent relationships with both of them) #and yeah yeah the inherent homoeroticism of patching someone up after theyve been wounded #and also neil's killer speech at the end of tsc. i buy into it #oh and he calls neil 'another pretty face' lmfao #jean loves to put himself in positions of hopelessly pining for people hes addicted to it #and i mean that genuinely hes very used to subservience so he tends to perceive & idolise the people he's close to in a very particular way #and that bleeds sooooooo easily into attraction #anyway #thunder's art #described

[chongoblog]

Looking up pretty much any character from a popular franchise on this site and sorting by recent will show you ships you couldn’t possibly imagine.

#i mean this is a genuinely positive post btw #like i was lookin up iggy out of curiosity #ship art of iggy and that one broodal from odyssey? in cookie run cosplay? #if you dont think thats some level of love and passion get out of my face