#guess who’s had a week of hell!

[witcherbeech]

If any of you see me burning catnip outside my work… no you don’t

#guess who’s had a week of hell! #all my patients have had complicated cases and are also not happy being hospitalised #understandable but please stop trying to bite me :) #also this is a joke on people burning sage to ward off bad spirits #I just say catnip since I work in the vets #ANYWAYS rant over #keep your pets a healthy weight and vaccinate them please!

[orbitunbreakable]

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hello it's quinny my old account is dead now due to dumb reasons, so im looking for my beautiful & precious mutuals and my beloved and wonderful followers again ♡

#due to incredibly bullshit reasons on tumblr staff's part my old account's main blog's visibility was forcibly restricted #and its been like??? about a week and a half fight to try and get it fixed but NO the universe hates me i guess #so guess who had to abandon their decade's old blog bc the apple app store decided to ban tit and ass on this hell site #i also tried to remake a blog with my old url but NO that gotthr account insta restricted too so FUCK ME I GUESS #anyway i gotta start all over from scratch and id love if yall please help me out

[girlwithfish]

bpd vs cptsd is really confusing also bpd vs autism. anyway

#and like the debate that bpd is just cptsd #and is a disorder rooted in trauma #but trauma also isnt a diagnostic requirement but also idk if i believe ppl w bpd who say they have no trauma at all #well im sure there r exceptions but also think a lot of ppl downplay trauma they went thru #nd ppl say bpd/personality disorders in general r from trauma and learned trauma responses for survival #But reading up abt cptsd lately its like everything also resonates w ne #me #but i still think i am like textbook definition of bpd lol. i was in a split for literally a week #it was hell i actually dont know how i survived bc i was so close to kmsing a lotttt bc mental illness is running my life rn #and making it unbearable!! i am just tryi g to find internal safety again and trust in others and #build my own resilience and trust in myself above all. reparentify myself and learn how to make a #sustainable life for myself when ive been trying to function like a - #'normal' neurotypical stable person for all my life and had no idea my mental problems ran this deeply #like iwish i had gotten help sooner. i feel horrible my life has gotten to this point bc i did nothing abt it when i was a kid or younger #adult bc i didnt know i guess. idk #i just realized my.upbringing has a bigger effect than i even know on who i am today. i have sm repressed memories too lmfao

[larrylimericks]

4Nov22

The cast of MP are sublime; It hurts how much H and Tom rhyme. Stories tragic get told, Love scenes tender and bold ... Time to cry-watch it for the tenth time.

#larry #harry #harry styles #my policeman #actor harry #there's so much other stuff happening #but i haven't stopped thinking about mp #so have another mp limerick #harry's gucci hahaha collection launched #he rescheduled tonight's LA show to monday #i'm assuming he's the one who's sick #louis mentioned harry in an interview (my guess is the interviewer said his name first) #louis' management also namedropped harry in an interview #one of the twins used fine line in an insta story #there's new fitf merch out #louis announced seven album signings that promptly sold out #he's playing fallon the night of his album release #which is NEXT WEEK what the hell #and i haven't had the chance to finish my mfasr video limerick #but will soon because holy hell is that video brilliant #limerick-hs #november 4 #2022

[yellobb]

American “healthcare” can go fuck itself please and thank you

#m rambles #politics #I went to an urgent care because my cough had lasted over three weeks #I was there for less than an hour #I have good fucking health insurance #I left with a paper that said my bill was $0 #which I guess was just what I owed that day #because I just got notified that I owe over $200 #called them to make sure my insurance was applied and it was #the original visit cost was almost A THOUSAND #fuck this dude #I’ve learned not to go back to urgent care unless I’m literally dying because Christ that’s ridiculous #and I know it’s common knowledge that American healthcare sucks ass #but I was still really taken aback by this #like????? #what the hell are people supposed to do if they DONT have insurance? #if even me with my nice $65/mo healthcare plan has to think twice about going to the doctor #universal healthcare is a human right and fuck anyone who thinks otherwise

[ogeeitsme]

CAN’T YOU SEE IT FOR YOURSELF!?

#ogeeitsart #chara #Haegen #Fursona #anthro #vent art #vent #from susie #no i did not look up references of pine martens because that is not important right now #pine martens #uh. Context.. i guess? #in short Chara snapped and let all hell out of their mouth towards the mom #theyre usually calm and collected but this week and weekend was the . It was awful lol #depression + nightmares relating to trauma??? From our ex?? #yeahoo! I love it here #The thing this art is about happened during Sunday but it just.. reawokened old anger and made us remember we are constantly #gaslit and whatever in this house and like. Yeah lol. Arghghrghhhghg #like! god?? We split last week and had the worst depression in a while and our brother cried to us and the mom ?? Time of my life ever #i really am just lucky we have people outside of our family who love us and make the days pass by easier

[cleromancy]

the post thats like "as a bette enjoyer i understand jason likers just making stuff up but dont you want something good dont you want something that delivers" is so goofy like. yeah i fucking do and i want jason to deliver it

#i say this as a cry for blood lover helena b enthusiast btw and i have a lot of selina on my to read list #but like youre not really doing a Gotcha by telling me jason has been mishandled and his comics are bad lol. #like i know. i was there. #yes i want him to have had an actual personal growth arc instead of a dumbass reboot and scott fucking lobdell for 10 years #and all name dropping cry for blood does in jasony contexts is make *me* cry blood bc rucka didnt write the non existent jason growth arc #dc #anyway guess who has two thumbs and just bought the utrh deluxe edition bc jason todd only has one good book #but good god is that book ever fucking good. #SPEAKING of cry for blood i did find the 1st and 6th issues the other week wheeeeeee but also. Also. kind of want to buy the trade lmao #like the thing about me is. the ideal way to experience a comic to me is sitting on the floor surrounded by a pile of floppies #and i also. dont usually like to buy trades if i know im going out of my way to collect the floppies #but considering i already fjcking owned utrh and lost days and bought the stupid hardcover rerelease anyway who cares life is short god is+ #dead hell is empty and all the comics are here #What if i just do it lmao #(to be clear i mean if i spotted it in the wild i would be unable to stop myself but that is. a bit unlikely)

[britneyshakespeare]

progress is not linear bitch

#having a bad day about the abusive ex-friend thing. ruminating. #for the first time in like over a week. #might be the worst day ive had since the day i finally told him to fuck right off for the last time #idk man. i gotta be nice to myself #what i suffered from him is literally unthinkable #he's a fucking user and a manipulator and a monster #he lies and lies and lies and lies and lies and it just hurts to think there are ppl who really live their lives like that #like i almost cannot believe it except for that i endured it #and there ARE other ppl who endured the EXACT same thing #and there's no hope for him. he'll never change #that's depressing to think about even if im free #i guess i gotta focus on the 'im free' part but im still hurt #i just dont want ppl like him to exist. but they do #and im still ruminating and tripping and doubting myself and feeling anxious and withdrawn and and and #tales from diana #seriously he can go to hell

[unproduciblesmackdown]

one in a million when i watch smthing in the horror genre and don't end up disappointed to/and/or pissed off about it so like "also yeah i liked it. ooo" is like relative to that an off the charts rave review of media of the millennium. also i did think about mh a lot along the way so would recommend its affect/effect if you like mh's horror too

#i didn't realize at first that's the director/creator tim's qrting. thought a rando went ''i love mh'' & he went ''& i love smthing else'' #saw this a few weeks ago while also like writing or drawing or smthing like oh good plot's beside the point? b/c i'm splitting this focus #even checking in w/recaps was both like oh ok i missed that / didn't realize xyz could be a Thread or something but each of the like three #or four recaps i went over Also saw points differently in terms of even like; who was there or said what lmfao. or noting sm detail at all. #i went ''oh worm?'' at some early shot that may or may not have even gone mentioned by any of them. depending lol. doesn't matter #anyways we don't have time for tags media analysis except that i'll count this as: once again horror for children wins. even tho it's... #not rated? well anyways you know. probably generally not advisable for children as a direct audience lmao. however #like yes as per the premise as a child we've all experienced this [the media] anyways. perturbing summons dreams we've all had em #anyhow fr i'd even struggle to think of horror movies i'd say i mostly liked / would or did rewatch but still wasn't like. i disliked major #elements / choices to the point of being pissed off abt it. so many movies i can't be bothered to watch b/c i already know specifics like #i don't like or respect any of you people. or choices or elements or premises or executions or effects. not even interested fr like lord... #but often what has better odds are mediums that Aren't straightforwardly tv / film. like i'd compare mh to a series of several movies and #that's also imo largely a more apt categorization than saying it's an ARG or smthing but anyways like i'd recommend it to someone sure.... #rare to be like yeah a movie was enjoyable. & if you already liked mh then that's a useful reference point here #which like usually i'd use mh as a categorical tag but idk i guess actually it's actively popular nowadays lmfao i really don't know #posting is already exhausting like whew but this one's for whosoever happens to follow me i guess #which is possible? nonzero ppl arrived for mh but unlikely lmfao. but also ppl see it on their own anyways coincidentally. #and you never know who observes the posts like hell yeah for an anon enjoying niche akd theatreposting who is to me ambiently out there #really odd the other day seeing an mh reblog like ''??? huh. i made that eons ago; then'' & people in the tags talking abt some repost like #on the one hand that Original Source post is two layers of deactivated blogs so a repost could be archival. but if they don't say as much #i.e. that it's even from a different source then that's not exactly it then is it. but also that even finding an original document For OP #is like. oh yeah that's me actually. but then knowing & technically saying as much doesn't / didn't actually affect me as that op lol #just kind of archival on both ends then. vs someone else in the tags saying they saw it on fb 9 yrs ago? definitely didn't post it there #my true op experience: keeping it nicheposting & just kind of saying sm shit & maybe some people are out there nodding thoughtfully #oh also in case fyi. that's tim as in actor playing [also tim] in mh. & did some writing for mh & other such behind the scenes efforts also #every time i look at the text in this post i notice a new typo of mine. get it tgoether (organic typo there. so; lol)

[rubberbandballqueen]

we finally got got the camp and playground rules posters i asked my boss to get printed, and someone redid all my beautiful and thoughtfully-made typography... :'c

#why is it in all caps now!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE did my BOLDED TEXT go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *WHO CHANGED THE FONT????????????????* #this unironically made me so so so so so sad at work today #this wasn't just done william-nilliam!!!!!! like idc that the background changed that's whatevs to me #but my TYPOGRAPHY............................................................................ #i am going to kill whoever made it all-caps and then [redacted for excessive violence] whoever changed the font #the worm speaks #also this week at work we have a group of kids who speak mostly cn bc they're from tw or mainland (mostly tw hehe) #n the tw kids were here last week actually but anyway i guess we got a new mainland kid this week #she asked me on monday if i was from mexico n i was like 'unfortunately i regret to inform you that i am asian.' #anyway as my soul had been languishing at my violated typography she came up to me n was like 'teacher is tw the same as china?' #or like 'is taiwan a part of china' sort of thing. similar enough you get the gist. n i was like. confused for a sec bc like. #that felt like a rather political question to be asking! anyway i was like 'what? no.' n i was surprised when she was SHOCKED #she was like 'WHAT? [repeats question more insistently]' n i was like 'no. it is not.' #n i guess she had been having an argument w/the tw kids bc they came up excited like they'd won an argument #n they were like 'teacher is from taiwan ofc they [know? will say? forgot specific wording] tw is tw & cn is cn' #n it reminded me of similar arguments i had w/one of my peers i had in middle school o(--( #ALSO. i saw the kids playing this one clapping game called 'pikachu' that apparently only exists in our direct area #n i was like 'omg. the children still play pikachu' #i say 'apparently only exists in our direct area' bc i have asked friends who went to school in the NEIGHBORING DISTRICT who had NO IDEA #what the HELL i was talking about. i found EXACTLY ONE RECORD of its EXISTENCE online!!!

[pallases]

praying that tmrw’s exam isn’t focused on matrices 🙏🏻🕯🙏🏻

#personal #the engineering chronicles #if it is i will cry genuinely. we had a matrix-based question on an assignment a couple weeks ago and it was hell on earth so i asked my #prof if he could post a tutorial for it (smth he does often) and he did except he posted it and it didn’t have the right answer at the end. #so what is going on here. #if should have watched it before tonight bc if i had i probably could have figured out how to modify his code to be correct since /i/ had #the correct answer at the end but i didn’t do it correctly #bc i read in the matrix the way i wasn’t supposed to but i guess the calculations i did with the matrix values were correct. whereas im p #sure he read in the matrix the way he was supposed to be he must have done the wrong calculations #but i did wait until tonight. and it is 1 am and i have to wake up at 8 am so i def shouldn’t stay up who knows how long fiddling w it rn #(for the record i did not wait several weeks to watch it he took a good while to post it after i asked so it’s only been up like half a #week. but still)

[mikumadds]

guys im curious do u track your periods or just guess when they might come? like do yall use apps or use a calender or something? open to all genders & body types of course! (just to be sure i want to mention this includes trans men, trans women, nonbinary, intersex, etc btw!)

#madds.txt #i know this came out of nowhere but i randomly thought of it #and im asking because I don't track my period like at all. i guess by trying to remember when I last had it #but my period has always been irregular so I don't bother trying to figure out the exact week it will happen or whatever #also im angry about it. like i didnt ask for the damn menstruation cycle and now you want me to measure the damn thing. what the hell! #just my personal feelings #ive talked to some people who say they track it and stuff #its probably the healthier thing to do tbh!! #and then you can be better prepared!! #i just try to have like ibuprofen and pads on me at all times #i read that trans women get periods too because they get cramps and tummy issues and stuff I think. what estrogen does to a mf

[wibble-wobbegong]

i have never fought with my mom before but brother i am feeling Annoyed. we are not going to be late because i leave at 7:07 instead of 7:00. school literally starts at 7:45.

#sorry annoyance with my mom is spiking #basically raising her kids for her in every way except money #and when she used to drive us we’deave even later than i normally leave bc she’s pouring herself coffee and we were STILL so early i couldnt #go into the school yet #i drive ur kids everywhere i plan your son’s birthday #your daughter gets out of an abusive home and SHOCKINGLY she’s depressed to hell and back and starts hurting herself!! but no IM the one who #has to fight for her to get put in therapy too #i had to hide thd kids and put her to bed and stand guard and call the cops for her #i got a job literally a week after she told me to get one #me when i have to explain my sister’s sensory issues to my mom so she’ll leave her alone #me after i tell my mom my brother probably needs to be put into therapy too but she wont listen to me and then she’s shocked when the doctor #tells her he has anxiety issues #who wouldve guessed #not to mention the many months long period where she straight up wouldnt feed us #like. didnt buy the groceries #were good now but at least if it happened Now id have the money to doordash us stuff #im grateful for my mom bc she’s done good things for us and doesnt hurt us but good god #rant over #sorry i ran out of my mood balancers this morning #dear diary

[silverislander]

i really fucking hate that at 21 i still have strict rules abt shit i can and can't do but more than that i hate that i don't do anything about i

#my friends are all sleeping over at one of our houses tonight so i asked to go #i am still not fucking allowed to go to sleepovers apparently. and i still dont know why #i spent all week worrying abt when and how it would be best to ask and arguments i could make to convince my mom #and when i finally asked her she immediately shut me down and instead i just fucking. rolled with it and said nothing #so i guess somehow at 21 fucking years old were still doing the 'you can go until midnight then come home' thing that 8yr olds do #levi.txt #vent tw #and theres NEVER going to be a better time than this to let me do it. its my friend of 5+yrs mom knows her parents and trusts them #hell her dad was a police chief. were not going to do Anything that were not allowed to do in his house #but no i still just get 'you know i dont like sleepovers' and 'youre not taking the car overnight'. no explanation no debate #and i didnt say ANYTHING to defend myself bc i let my family say fucking anything and get away w it every time #at this rate ill be 30 w no backbone still living in this fucking house istg #and its not even like ive ever once given her a reason to put restrictions like this on me! ive been well behaved my entire life #i have never once broken a major rule or disobeyed her in any meaningful way ive Always done what she wanted. no matter what #ive literally been almost perfectly behaved other than normal kid stuff i have tried so fucking hard to make them happy #my parents are just insanely fucking overprotective and always have been #not being allowed to do these kinds of things is exactly why i never had friends growing up #bc how are you gonna be friends with someone who never shows up outside of school and cant watch anything with cursing in it

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#it would b great if i could control my focus #ive got 10 days to respond with edits for a paper. i have to finish a manuscript #ive got an interview thrusday with a school that i need to prep for. plus another interview next Thursday #but all i want to do is make a powerpoint clarifying what dyslexia is bc i dont think ppl understand #like i didnt understand until this last 2 weeks and i think i probably had higher awareness than #the public anyway. so now im like. they gotta kno. everyones gotta kno #but fuck i have so much to do. i guess maybe this is what ill do instead of reading fanfics at night lol #i just- after talking to my parents last night. my mum is a teacher who has training specifically in understanding how ppl read #and it sounded like how i was talking abt it gave her a lil bit of a new perspective and my dad was like lol me too #and im like yea bro i get it from u lmao #also my mum said i explain things well. and now im like well now i gotta explain things #fucking hell. i just love to give myself unnecessary work. maybe ill do it #i shouldnt. at least not this week. but like its under my skin now and i cant control my attention #so here we r. thinking obsessively abt dyslexia awareness #the results on the survey so far r really interesting. so many of yall have adhd lmao #unrelated