#and like the debate that bpd is just cptsd

[girlwithfish]

bpd vs cptsd is really confusing also bpd vs autism. anyway

#and like the debate that bpd is just cptsd #and is a disorder rooted in trauma #but trauma also isnt a diagnostic requirement but also idk if i believe ppl w bpd who say they have no trauma at all #well im sure there r exceptions but also think a lot of ppl downplay trauma they went thru #nd ppl say bpd/personality disorders in general r from trauma and learned trauma responses for survival #But reading up abt cptsd lately its like everything also resonates w ne #me #but i still think i am like textbook definition of bpd lol. i was in a split for literally a week #it was hell i actually dont know how i survived bc i was so close to kmsing a lotttt bc mental illness is running my life rn #and making it unbearable!! i am just tryi g to find internal safety again and trust in others and #build my own resilience and trust in myself above all. reparentify myself and learn how to make a #sustainable life for myself when ive been trying to function like a - #'normal' neurotypical stable person for all my life and had no idea my mental problems ran this deeply #like iwish i had gotten help sooner. i feel horrible my life has gotten to this point bc i did nothing abt it when i was a kid or younger #adult bc i didnt know i guess. idk #i just realized my.upbringing has a bigger effect than i even know on who i am today. i have sm repressed memories too lmfao

[ironwilledf-up]

Hi tumblr, it's been a good few years.

That's Lottie, one of my kitties. The others are Sid and Nancy. I live with my husband in the UK and I am 30. I'm officially diagnosed with bpd but it was diagnosed by a psychiatrist who saw me once in hospital for 15 minutes when I was at rock bottom, I no longer fit the criteria but I do fit the cptsd criteria so I'm doing EMDR. I sometimes trauma dump online. I lost a son via tfmr and I might grieve forever. Also have adhd that didn't get picked up on for a long time because this country's health system sucks and it was less noticeable when I was young.

I was finding cptsd groups on reddit helpful but I got banned for 3 days on reddit for saying in a private message to a friend of several weeks I'd made on there that I was at a party over the weekend where someone drunk drove, another was racist, all the men were rapey and belong in a wood chipper. Again, this was in a PRIVATE message. So I deleted the whole account and moved over to here because that place is becoming worse all the time. So hi!

We like to travel, especially to the US national parks and road trip around the country. We do visit other countries too though of course. So I'll often post photos from our trips, or just our cats. Sometimes I'll open up about my life, because it's been worse than most people can imagine.

I love music, all music, right now though I'm a huge Taylor Swift fan, which is unusual because my last main genre was folk punk. I think you should just love what you love and that is enough.

If anyone wants to chat about anything my inbox will be open :) now I just need to find some good blogs to follow and remember how tumblr works! Maybe if my tags interest you then you could follow me and I will follow you back? No negativity though, I can't be bothered, it isn't my job to debate you or change your mind these are just my opinions and the whole reason social media is so bad for our mental health is because people will say the nasty shit they wouldn't say to people's faces.

❤️🖤❤️🖤❤️🖤❤️🖤❤️

#bpd #cptsd #adhd #cats #hello tumblr #black cats #void #kitten #kitty #punk #folk punk #music #taylor swift #taylornation #swifties #travel #national parks #usa #uk #friends #trauma #talking #all music #feminism #intersectionality #intersectionalfeminist #trying my best

[cptsd-skywalker]

I'm no psychologist but I have listened to 2 professionals diagnose Anakin with BPD. However you and @gch1995 think he has CPTSD. Can you say why? I'm not sure what the difference is.

Thanks for your ask @fanfic-lover-girl !

Now let’s get into it:

CPTSD is a point of contention for many psychologists. Some argue that CPTSD and BPD are really the same diagnosis, that BPD is an outdated diagnosis that should really fall into the PTSD spectrum. Other psychologist think they are separate disorders that may be comorbid. Still other psychologists do not thing CPTSD exists, but is rather just BPD in a milder form. CPTSD is not currently listed in the DSM5-5, and many people who are officially diagnosed with CPTSD were first diagnosed with BPD, yet suffered immensely from the stigma with many people believing they were born bad with no chance at redemption. Even their own therapists turned on them. For them, CPtSD helped them to get treatment from a trauma informed perspective. CPTSD and BPD have a lot of overlap even if you consider them separate diagnosis. Everyone will have a differing opinion based upon circumstances. To me CPTSD fits best because of Anakins long standing trauma over a long period of time, and a lack of a personality disorder as a child. Many people develops BPD as a trauma response, but depending on how you view the disorder it may also be considered something one is born with. I’ll never tell someone who headcannons that Anakin has BPD is wrong because to me they are so similar as to be almost the same. Many new psychologists have come to view BPD as a specific manifestation of CPTSD. So both could arguably fit Anakin. As a diagnosis, it is primarily diagnosed in women where as men are far more likely to have the same symptoms but be diagnosed with PTSD instead. This leads to the question of any bias on the part of the psychologists diagnosing. I have CPTSD on my chart, but my mother had BPD. We suffer from almost identical issues, but hers were more severe. I actually thought I had BPD until my therapist suggested CPTSD when I was in inpatient care.

Let’s get some definitions:

Complex PTSD

comes in response to chronic traumatization over the course of months or, more often, years. This can include emotional, physical, and/or sexual abuses, domestic violence, living in a war zone, being held captive, human trafficking and other organized rings of abuse, and more. While there are exceptional circumstances where adults develop C-PTSD, it is most often seen in those whose trauma occurred in childhood. For those who are older, being at the complete control of another person (often unable to meet their most basic needs without them), coupled with no foreseeable end in sight, can break down the psyche, the survivor's sense of self, and affect them on this deeper level. For those who go through this as children, because the brain is still developing and they're just beginning to learn who they are as an individual, understand the world around them, and build their first relationships - severe trauma interrupts the entire course of their psychologic and neurologic development.

Borderline Personality Disorder:

a personality disorder characterized by severe mood swings, impulsive behavior, and difficulty forming stable personal relationships.

Here is the obvious overlap:

As you can see, the similarities are almost 50/50 with the dissimilarities, and arguably, if the trauma is sustained and experienced through abandonment or the person with CPTSD has enough of an identity disturbance they may also fear abandonment or suffer from dissociation, paranoia, or a shifting sense of self identity, and psychosis. I for example have suffered from all of these, but have been diagnosed with CPTSD. For some psychologists, BPD is simply a divergence of CPTSD. However this is hotly debated so don’t take only my word for it.

This paper says they are comorbid and almost the same yet distinctly different:

https://bpded.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s40479-021-00155-9

This paper says they are the same and BPD is outdated:

https://bpded.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/2051-6673-1-9

This one is an opinion piece but still worth a read:

https://www.goodtherapy.org/blog/should-we-abolish-the-diagnosis-of-borderline-personality-1015134/amp/

TLDR: I don’t disagree with anyone who head-cannons Anakin as Borderline, Or with CPTSD, or both.

#anakin skywalker #Cptsd #cptsd borderline #anakin has cptsd #Anakin is borderline #anakin star wars #star wars #anakin #anakin needs therapy #obi wan kenobi #anakin did nothing wrong #anakin and obi wan #darth vader #anakins paychology

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

hey, i feel like an absolutely ill person. i don't have access to therapy but i am reading a lot about mental health and am very interested in it. i am not self diagnosing, the only thing i am sure i have is cptsd. but i see myself in so many illnesses. when they list symptoms and i realize, something i do or feel is actually a symptom and not normal, i feel less and less like a normal human. i feel like the most ill person, like nothing i do or feel is anything but a symptom. i am afraid to start therapy one day because i fear that they'll either a. confirm that i am that broken or b. say i have very little issues and am making it up.

it's not all bad, i am not as hard on myself anymore since i see what counts as "symptom", i don't blame myself for all my difficulties that much anymore. i am afraid it'll come out that i am actually healthy and just lazy and just used it as an excuse to be even more lazy.

i read a lot of articles about how the rise in self diagnosis actually are (in the eyes of the writer, idk if that's true) cheaply excuses for the peoples poorly perfomance, taking the responsibility for all faults from that persons shoulders and always blames the illness. and i am afraid that's what i do, that i don't blame myself when i fail but put it on "idk what illness i have but there is something".

i am simultaniously convinces i kinda have every illness there is and am beyond repair, and also that i have no illness at all and if i seek diagnosis people will know and blame me.

Hi anon,

While professional diagnosis is always recommended, not everyone can access or afford a diagnosis. There is an epidemic of pathologization that therapists and psychiatrists sometimes perpetuate - seeing your human behavior as "disordered" can not only come with stigma but looking at it that way can warp your idea of what "normal" means. When you're made to feel like aspects of yourself are "not normal" or "disordered" it's easy to feel broken and ashamed. Getting a professional diagnosis comes with its own stigma and it can be easy to feel like it defines you.

I think it's worth considering that there are therapists out there who actively work against pathologization and acknowledge your humanity instead of perceiving you through the lens of disorders and symptoms. My previous therapist told me he believes I have a particular dissociative disorder but explained that a diagnosis isn't necessary for treatment, and that I can still be treated for the disorder without an official diagnosis.

It's hard because many symptoms of different mental illnesses overlap, and this is partly what can lead to misdiagnosis, both personally and professionally. Many mental illnesses also interact with each other or intertwine, making it difficult to distinguish (like for example my BPD vs my PTSD). There's also debate about the validity of certain diagnoses and whether or not they're really just different expressions of PTSD. So it can often be hard to make a confident diagnosis.

I think it's also worth considering that the amount of mental illnesses someone has doesn't necessarily mean they have it worse. Some people may struggle immensely with a single disorder and others may function well with a laundry list of mental illnesses. Regardless, there are ways to cope with and manage every mental illness - there is always hope.

You're right that some people who self diagnose (or even those who are professionally diagnosed) will use their disorder as an excuse, instead of taking accountability, but it sounds like you're just trying to understand your own experiences and how to best get help.

If anyone would like to respectfully chime in please feel free to do so. Otherwise, I hope I could help and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks #self diagnosis #pathologization

[angria]

About this Blog

***Do not reblog personal posts tagged #angriadm*** I cannot mass edit the reblog option retroactively, so please do not reblog older posts

Hi all, I’m Angria, not my real name (it comes from my love of the Brontë's…it’s the name of their childhood paracosm).  I live on the east coast of the US, both my home-state and the city in which I currently live.  I’m 33 and a gay/queer, cis-woman with she/her pronouns. Was a teacher, now a social work grad student.  I’ve been on here for over 10 years.  This is my outlet and safe space to express things I cannot talk about outside of therapy.  I post what I like or things that resonate with me. I'm weird and pay attention to how my tumblr looks (like how the colors, quotes, pics go together), so I usually blast 20+ posts in a row and then silence...that probably will annoy some people. Also...I curse. A lot (probably too much, but eh). And I do not tag it, so no TWs with regard to swearing.

Speaking of, I have a very specific tag system that serves me and not necessarily others in the sense of trigger warnings.  Just be aware of that and if you do need to unfollow me, I fully understand.

1) I mainly struggle with CPTSD, BPD, and severe depression from childhood abuse and neglect.  I also struggle with self harm and will mention it, usually as SH (no graphic details).  I am still in contact with my parents, for financial/practical reasons amongst others.  So please do not recommend I go no-contact.  It is a very complex situation and I actively discuss it with T.

2) I am very private when it comes to locations and people, mainly because I’m afraid of people I know finding my tumblr.  So my privacy settings are very strict and I do not allow anons.  I’ve never had a good experience during the two times I allowed it years ago.  This is my personal, private safe space and I do not need some random person’s cowardice and ignorant judgments invading it.

3) As a heads up, I do talk about religion and my faith, specifically Christianity.  I’m Episcopalian, was Atheist for a time, and recovering from my religious trauma inflicted by the Catholic Church (born and raised in a dogmatic household and school). I am a firm supporter of inclusive, affirming, and accepting theology. Religion should never be weaponized to control and manipulate others with threatening, bigoted, hate-filled doctrine or beliefs.  If it makes you feel shame, fear, or worthlessness, it does not come from God.  It comes from twisted and false human ideology cowardly hiding behind the guise of “religion.”

I did study and teach Theology for many years; however, no, I do not wish to argue or debate theological or religious discourse.  That is not the point of my blog.  It’s completely fine if you disagree with me or have different beliefs/faiths. But, I am not inviting people to challenge me purely because I have a faith.  I respect other’s faith or non-belief (as long as it doesn’t harm others), so please respect mine.  I am open to genuine questions that you may have; however, I am by no means an authority nor consider myself an expert.  I may know more than the average person, but I will always be in a state of learning.

I do write about things regarding religion that may trigger people, so please take care of yourself and unfollow, if need be. I try my best to notify people with TW/CWs and Read More’s.

Some main people/things I mention…

T is my therapist of 11 years.  He is an incredible person who has supported me and helped me throughout our time together, never giving up on me .  I probably would not be here if it wasn’t for our work.  I vent about him occasionally if I’m upset with him (which we do talk about eventually).  This is not an invitation to judge him or my therapy. My blog is only a snapshot of our years together.  You do not know him, his experience and professionalism, our boundaries, nor fully understand the context of what we discuss and process.  I rarely talk about her, but L was my previous therapist who terminated with me before I moved to the city, which still affects me.

Dr W is my psychiatrist of 10 years.  She also is a huge advocate and actually listens to me when it comes to my symptoms, medication, and their side-effects, which is a rarity when it comes to psychs.   

Her is a child-part, for lack of better term.  The Voice is a fight(?) part.  I do not have DID, but I have been told I fit criteria of OSDD.  While I agree, I am still hesitant to say I have it.  I just know Her and The Voice are more fragmented/dissociated than how “parts” are described in IFS (Internal Family Systems).

Smshellhole was the Catholic school I attended for 11 years, from preschool to 8th grade (I always call it hellhole; the school's name is a trigger).  I was severely bullied and abused throughout that time, both from kids and teachers.  As well as the priest who worked there.  The time between 3rd and 7th grade were the worst years when I was so dissociated I can’t remember much…just small pieces. On top of the abuse and neglect at home. Main abuser is a person from hellhole during the worst years.

E and J are the priests at my Episcopal church and have been life-changing for me and immense supporters as I untangle and process my religious trauma (a couple years ago, J left to assume a different role in a diocese that is in another state. Which completely devastated me).

And if you are feeling up to it, check out my positivity/recovery blog spegaudentes (Latin for rejoicing in hope). Mostly stuff that makes me happy with a smattering of coping skills and memes.

#angriadm #spe gaudentes

[menalez]

i know a lot of people disagree with on this because some make having the diagnosis of bpd their whole entire personality and guard any valid criticism of personality disorders in general but i don’t think bpd exists as in you are born with a predisposition to develop a permanent disorder in your own personality, i view it as cptsd i think every personality disorder is just cpstd presenting in different ways and clusters of symptoms (if you fit the criteria for one pd you most likely will fit another at the same time). i know that when comparing the criteria of cptsd and bpd it has a few differing symptoms but that doesn’t make bpd a distinct or real diagnosis to me. i see you talk about bpd having stigma well yeah of course i mean the stigma is getting a diagnosis of bpd to begin with me, we are literally diagnosed with having a disordered personality like that’s a huge fucking stigma naturally. i don’t think that cutting yourself, mental breakdowns, and extreme fear of abandonment are exempt from being considered normal things because they are normal things for suffering and traumatized people. fear of abandonment is actually a biological function that we all experience i know people can experience that in dysfunctional and harmful ways though which could be corrected through therapy and the develop of healthy coping mechanisms. sorry to rant it just that as some who was diagnosed with bpd at 20 and then no longer fit the criteria after i left an abusive relationship i have a very hard time seeing bpd as a valid diagnosis, the suffering is real but i don’t think we need to labeled as having a disordered personality for it. i actually really love to see people in the psych field want to get rid of that diagnosis entirely i really hope they do because it doesn’t help us it hurts us. anyway have a good day mena also sorry if i don’t make much sense english is not my first language.

i get your point and i completely agree with you here. there are a few points you made that i want to comment on tho— in terms of predisposition, it’s definitely something some people can debate if they’re being nitpicky. trauma is inheritable epigenetically, and this is also the case for BPD (x), we become more prone to trauma when we have a parent that is traumatised iirc. this also was found in research which highlighted that BPD is somewhat inheritable although the exact level of heritability has yet to be clearly pinpointed (different studies show different percentages) (x). it is, regardless, arguable that this is due to the environment with this knowledge as epigenetics are impacted by the environment too. however, we can argue a huge, perhaps overwhelming, proportion of mental illnesses are caused by the environment too. this is why the diagnosis-stress model is often used to explain mental illnesses and how they come about.

when you argue that the aforementioned symptoms are normal because they are normal reactions to being traumatised, you are redefining normal to fit a specific group of individuals. of course being traumatised and suffering as a result is completely normal, in the sense that being traumatised isn’t easy and thus dealing with issues as a result of it is to be expected. but being traumatised isn’t a normal thing to be— we were seriously psychologically harmed by something and that is not normal, in the same way it’s not normal to idk be asthmatic but it’s normal to have breathing problems because you have asthma. the symptoms we have as women with PTSD or CPTSD or BPD or all three are normal to have in the sense that there is nothing out of the ordinary for a traumatised or mentally ill person to face such symptoms, but it is not normal in the sense that people in general (or even women in general) do not have to deal with the same difficulties we deal with.

lastly, almost all symptoms of nearly all mental illnesses are to some degree actually normal human functions and feelings and behaviours. being anxious in social situations, for example, is normal and something most people if not all will experience. but having debilitating anxiety of social situations to the point where you can’t go out or socialise with others without having panic attacks isnt. being depressed when ur dog died or for another specific reason is normal, but being depressed for months on end and being unable to function in your daily life because you feel depressed and being suicidal on top of it isnt. being negatively impacted by trauma you faced is normal, but having flashbacks and nightmares constantly and being constantly alert in fear of being hurt again isnt. and it’s ok for those things to not be normal— it doesn’t reflect badly on us.

#also just wanna note i have also been diagnosed with PTSD. like not just BPD but also PTSD and several other things #i don’t think it would’ve been right for any doctor to fail to recognise my obvious trauma symptoms in favour of diagnosing me w BPD #i will also note here that many of us were diagnosed w BPD while in terrible environments yet continue to have most symptoms even when our #environment is significantly better. in my case my symptoms are nowhere near as bad but they do still exist #but that’s moreso the case for my PTSD

[zaphic]

I am very confused why someone who has the traumagenic disorder that is narcissism (of whatever flavour) wouldn't want to heal?

I saw a post saying some people don't want to heal and that's valid; how is it valid to continue operating in a wounded way?

I have narcissist tendencies, comorbid with BPD, PTSD & CPTSD. I understand why we feel this is the only way to keep us safe but in reality it isn't, and when we don't take responsibility for our actions and emotions, that has the capacity to hurt others.

we ought to heal for ourselves so we can do better for others which in turn means we are healing for ourselves because it means we can keep our connections and figure sustainable processes to maintain them through the wonderful and the uncomfortable.

In the same way I am autistic and I often don't understand social cues and mores, that doesn't mean I have licence to operate as I please. same with my BPD & PTSD; if I'm triggered it is my responsibility to peacefully remove myself from the situation, ground and soothe my nervous system, reflect on what happened, ensure that I internalise the surrounding context and that I am safe, and then speak to my emotions with my peers as necessary.

like yes everyone has the right to make their own choices; yet avoiding healing feels like it's just going to make your own life and the lives of those around you harder? why just survive when you could thrive?

i'd like to have a conversation, not a debate. if you're just going to call me names or write me off as ableist (when I'm not saying narcissists are inherently abusive because of the disorder- anyone has the capacity to be abusive and I agree that the name and culture around narc abuse is inaccurate and stigmatising in the same way that people who have been burnt by someone with bpd will write off everyone with the disorder), I will not engage with you.

(I also agree that the institution of psychiatry is fucked and needs to be deeply reformed to be of greater use to all)

#npd #zaph.txt

[aliengirl-97]

I understand where ur coming from like I do understand the stigma about us about the whole cluster b thing I a am cluster b and I agree a lot of us can be abusive and a lot of us are not as well. we certainly have ways of thinking that I believe easily lead us to do abusive things but not all of us have the same symptoms or present our symptoms the same way. and we also have our own individual morality. I have morals and compassion for things in life and wouldn't abuse somebody. I also am careful about acting on vindictiveness (I feel im bad with self awareness but I also have cptsd too so idk) as I feel that is common with us just from my own experiences and what I read in the literature/talk to drs that help me. I know some people on here, TikTok, ig that are aspd/npd/bpd like me and we talk about the "bad" side to our symptoms and are open about it. some of the stigma is true about us, some of it is ableism or exaggerated or just used as blanket statements when again, not everyone of us will have the same symptoms. ive met enough people who were not cluster b or at least I didn't think so and they were untrustworthy and manipulative. not all manipulative behaviors come from cluster b. its not that black and white. were human too.

Tbh, I'd say most abusers dont have a PD to "excuse" it. Though stuff like ASPD was largely made up to get people in the prison system into counselling like to get an ASPD dx you need to have harmed others. Theres also a lot of debate around the usefulness of these diagnoses.

But I think you are right on individual morality and just having to be self aware and mitigate around things as much as you can. But even then I think a lot of people with trauma, especially cptsd, get slapped with a cluster b label when they shouldnt have one.

But this was a good insight to get so thank you for taking the time to write it and I can say I agree

#ask #anon

[bpdstevenuniverse]

my dad: you’re the most annoying bitch

me: dude you called me an annoying bitch??

my dad: what? no i didn’t

me: YOU JUST FUCKING SAID THAT

my dad: when?? where??? you’re just making that up, what the hell. i would never do that. you’re fucking crazy

me: god you think i’m crazy

my dad: no i don’t

#he had the gut to tell me 'oh i'm gonna record our conversations' like we're in a fucking debate #i wish i weren't exaggerating #but this man is a fucking gaslighter. just like in horror movies #trauma #childhood trauma #cptsd #abuse tw #emotional abuse #gaslighting #actuallybpd #venting #personal #my journal #tbh it's no wonder i have bpd this man makes me feel like i'm fucking insane #ableist language tw

[gch1995]

I see you writing about Obi-Wan having should have given Anakin a "clean death penalty" after he dismembered him on Mustafar, but there's a problem with that argument. Ethical debate aside, it's the same problem with Mace Windu killing Palpatine right before Anakin would have turned. The Jedi didn't have that authority to "execute" unarmed people without trial, so it wouldn't have been a death penalty as much as 1st degree murder, especially after they'd been denounced as traitors, so if Yoda had killed Palpatine like they wanted, the Senate would have charged both Yoda and Obi-Wan with murder, especially since Palpatine and Anakin were both so popular. If Yoda had failed, but Obi-Wan had killed Anakin, Palpatine would have gotten another apprentice out of his Inquisitors and he and his Empire still would have stood whether or not Padmé had survived.

If she did, like @helbertinelli said, she would have never forgiven the Jedi for attacking and/or killing her husband and she would have taken herself and the twins away from them, leaving the Jedi without a weapon against the Sith. If she had died and the Jedi had gotten ahold of and separated the twins like in canon, things would have progressed from there like in canon, only the twins would have been in trouble because this new apprentice would have had no connection to either twin and thus would have had no motivation to spare either twin if they didn't turn to the Dark Side or to turn on his master to save his/her life. Also, Palpatine would have been able to use the "Obi-Wan killed your father" card on Luke to convert him and with everything Leia's been through, there's no way that she would have been able to confront the Sith without turning.

So overall, it would have been a lot worse if Obi-Wan had killed Anakin after subduing him on Mustafar, so I think a better alternative would have been to capture him, try to tend to his wounds as best as possible, and keep him prisoner until someone could either talk some sense into him or put him on trial.

I could see that that being the case, too, but at that point, could Obi-Wan have climbed down that ledge to save Anakin and tend to his wounds without risking his own life, too? They were right by the lava, and Anakin did still have a mechanical hand, so he may have thought that he might try to pull him down. That’s why I say at that point, it would have just been kindest to kill Anakin as he did that flip, rather than cutting off his limbs and leaving him to burn alive in agony.

I do agree that in a fair and just judicial system in Star Wars, Anakin couldn’t and wouldn’t be allowed to just get executed by any of the Jedi without a fair trial because the Jedi Order of adults themselves were so hypocritical and morally bankrupt. I don’t think a straight up insanity criminal defense would work because he still had enough awareness to know that the crimes he was committing against the Order and the sand people were morally wrong, but I definitely think something like a diminished capacity defense for Anakin could work, which could reduce him to 10-15 years in prison for mass manslaughter over the death penalty for straight up murder. If you think about it, realistically, there are more than enough mitigating factors working in his favor. He has every symptom of CPTSD and several of BPD that clearly never got properly treated, the force, particularly the dark side of the force, is clearly something that becomes a drug addiction to people who do suffer from untreated emotional/mental stability issues, he had limited to nonexistent healthy support within those toxic environments, and he had limited to nonexistent safe escape options from consistently abusive, emotionally neglectful, hypocritical, manipulative, and oppressive authority figures and mentors in two space war cults and slavery his entire life who were all grooming him to be a tool and/or weapon for their own purposes, especially after getting burned up and put in that suit.

So yeah, while I don’t think Anakin’s entirely innocent for his crimes, I also don’t think it’s fair to place the blame all on him for his crimes either because he didn’t carve out the path of factors that influenced him to become Vader, or have much of a fair chance of escaping that fate with how steeply the odds were stacked against him either way.

That being said, the only reason why I say that Obi-Wan should have killed him on Mustafar in their duel is because he’d baited Anakin into doing it to try to be the “perfect Jedi” for Yoda, but then was too cowardly and low-key vindictive to do it when he got “the high ground” as Anakin did that flip, anyway, even when he had the opportunity to do so before he fell.

#caripr94 #star wars asks #I don’t completely disagree with you. while I don’t think Anakin’s entirely innocent I think diminished capacity would apply in court irl #it would have been the kind thing for obi wan to kill Anakin when he got the high ground #it’s just that I don’t think obi wan could have climbed down that ledge to save Anakin at that point without risking himself which is why #anakin skywalker #darth vader #star wars #star wars prequels #obi wan critical #yoda critical

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I maintain that without ADHD, CPTSD, and BPD I would not have been able to accomplish everything I have accomplished since my job shut down in March of 2020. ADHD: I generally do a lot of things at once. This means that when presenting to groups online, am practiced at doing different things on different tabs and screens at the same time. This is what got me a long-term position in my job because I could manage the tech so well while still doing the job I was hired to do. I was in a virtual training today and the presenter clearly didn’t know how to use all the functions that I can do seamlessly. I learned a lot of these things just so that I could be on multiple tabs at once without it being visible. This is why when I work with ADHD kids, I tell them that if they learn to work *with* their ADHD instead of just trying to fight it then they can use it. When I first started the position I had from January-June, I had to learn 3 new tech programs I’d never used before. Who knew all the functions inside and out and could tell me how to find things in them all? All the ADHD kids. CPSTD: Succeeding while in a long-term traumatic situation? That’s how I got my first college scholarship. I was ridiculously productive the first few months of the pandemic because it was less traumatic for me than the world I’d been living in. I know how to endure. Tell me that all I have to do to be safe is hide in my apartment with food? Way easier than when I was secondarily homeless and often went hungry. Way easier than when I was a kid getting abused. Now, I’m not saying anyone who struggled in the pandemic is weak. It takes practice to learn to succeed in trauma.  I’m just saying that I’ve spent most of my life playing the game on the most difficult level, so the pandemic was just like jumping down to the hard level. BPD: Hyper-empathy was invaluable last year, but it’s invaluable in my current job in general. Now, to be fair, I manage so well that it’s been a few years since I got to the point where I was managing so well that it’s debatable whether I meet the criteria for diagnosis anymore. But it’s still helpful.

#personal stuff #tw: abuse #living with bpd