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The Demon and Angel (Pt 9)

Masterpost

Summary: It happened during one rainy day the two met. One half-demon who was hiding from the world, who just wanted to survive, and one kind human who lend him a hand. Despite their differences, they want to learn from each other and maybe fall in love in the process.

WC: 1,919

ships: Romantic Moxiety, Romantic Logince, Platonic LAMP, Family Logicality

warnings: Mention of Panic attacks, Dissociation, Crying, Mentions of scars,

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“Well, I wanna make sure! Kiddo?” Virgil could hear scuffling about but he only dug his face in the clothes. Then he heard the stranger’s voices being turned off.

“It appears that he was watching TV. And the news… Patton, do you think?”

“Oh dear… Did he saw it?”

“He might’ve. It would’ve upset him if he did-”

“Kiddo? Kiddo, where are you? Come on out, please,” Patton’s worried voice cut off Logan’s. He was shouting a bit now and Virgil could hear more scuffling. Then his voice was coming closer while he heard doors being open and the sound of footsteps.

“Kiddo? We promise we won’t hurt you. If you saw what we think you saw on the news we promise we aren’t going to hurt you alright? We just wanna help.” Slowly the voice got closer and closer. Then Patton's door was opened. Virgil had to suppress a whimper as he heard Patton get closer putting a hand over his mouth. But what made him yelp was the sudden bark of Zoe right outside his door.

The yelp, it seemed, was loud enough to draw Patton’s attention for his voice grew even more concerned and now he could hear Logan’s right outside the small room.

“Virgil? Are you okay?” Then a knock and he couldn’t help but make another whimper through his hand. He kept shaking his head over and over.

“Do you need some assistance, Virgil? Can we come in?”

Logan's voice. If he says no will they get upset? Course they will, why would he lie.

So with a shaky breath, he responded, “Y-Yes…”

Then the door opened and he blinked as the light poured in. Blinking against it he saw the worried looks of both Patton and Logan looking down at him. Then Patton kneeling down and giving him a gentle smile. Zoe was in front of them giving him a sad look. There was enough room for in case he needed to bolt, he noticed.

“Hey, what ya doing in here, kiddo?”

“Why are you buried in Patton’s clothes? And crying? Are you in distress? If this is about what you saw we can guarantee you that we won’t harm you.”

“Your crying? Oh, sweetheart. Come here,” Patton’s arms then slowly opened exposing his chest and Virgil flinched away shrinking more into the clothes and darkness.

“What’s wrong? Don’t want a hug? That’s perfectly fine if you don’t, hun.”

“H-Hug…? What’s… W-Whats a..h-hug?” He breathed out.

Both of the humans' faces seemed to crack at his words. Both of them wore faces of heartbreak. Patton appeared ready to cry. And Virgil only shifted more into the clothes feeling discomfort at the looks.

“A hug, Virgil. Is something someone gives another in order to comfort them. There are many benefits to a hug. One of them is that it can boost Oxytocin levels, which can soothe feelings such as distress or loneliness.” Logan explained with a small smile.

“Yeah! I wanna make you feel better, kiddo, that’s all. I’ve been told I’m a good hugger. But you can say no, sweetie.”

Virgil chewed his lip nervously, they might say that for now but he knows they don’t truly mean it. He stared at them for a moment pondering his chances. This…hug thing didn’t look painful at least…

Slowly he nodded poking his body out of the clothes but readying his body in case he needs to dart away.

Logan lay a hand on Patton’s back and seemed to gently nudge him forward. That seemed to be an indicator for Patton as he leaned forward slowly. He didn’t stop having his arms open which seemed weird. Incredibly slowly, and with plenty of space for him to run if needed, Patton came forward and wrapped his arms gently around his torso. His chest pressed up against his own.

Virgil sucked in a harsh breath. Immediately his instincts and brain told him to run. Run while he still had the chance. Run before something bad happens.

But a part of him wanted to stay. A part of him liked the feeling of this. A part of him felt…better almost being in Patton’s arms like this.

His body was shaking before he even notices, however, despite the nice feelings. He couldn’t seem to move nor, breathe right now. It appears that his body was stiff to the core.

“Patton. Patton, I think that’s enough. I think you're overwhelming him.”

“Oh, oh dear. I’m sorry,” Then those arms left him. The warmth left his body and he harshly sucked in a breath. Tears were coming down his cheeks before he even realized it. “Your okay, kiddo?”

Okay….? Was he okay?

No. No, he wasn’t.

As if in a trance he felt his head shaking. He felt his body curling up into a ball. He felt himself shaking and going into the corner of the small room. Even his body rocking side to side and his hands reaching his arms, rubbing it. He could hear voices but they sounded like they were coming from underwater. Was he even breathing? He had no idea.

That’s when he felt something. Something soft. It brushed up against his leg, then his hand, then up to his face and cheek. It was the cloud from earlier. Instinctively he leaned into that cloud, feeling better from its touch. It wasn’t a harsh warmth like those human touches. No, it was gentle. It was soothing. It was..fluffy…

Then he finally blinked once. Then twice. Gradually he could see fur on his right cheek. Then dark eyes giving him a worried look. Zoe…

He lifted up a hand towards the fur breathing coming back ever so slowly. Suddenly he felt something wet against his fingers and squeaked drawing his hand back a bit. But he watched as Zoe licked his fingers feeling the sensation weird but not…bad… It made him feel more…alive in a way. That he wasn’t floating. More present.

Zoe, then, stopped and stared at him again. Gulping he laid a hand on her head and took in slow breaths while he moved his hand about. Feeling more calmer now he smiled gently at her not really knowing what to do but she didn’t seem not to like it so he continued.

“You're with us, hun?”

Virgil jumped a bit turning to face them. They both looked on in deep worry and he gulped. He very much completely forgot they were even there.

“Y-Yeah… S-Sorry…”

“There’s no need to apologize. You obviously aren’t used to being touched. That was my mistake, I should’ve figured that you’ll react badly. I wasn’t thinking, I should apologize not you. You experienced dissociation which is understandable. I do believe petting Zoe is calming you?” Logan inquired. And Virgil gulped yet again and nodded, “Y-Yeah… I… I guess, yeah… Dis… Dissociation?”

“It’s the mental process of being disconnected from reality or one's thoughts. It’s often a response to trauma or experience of sensory overload. Its most noticeable in health conditions like Autism, PTSD, ADHD, among others.”

“It’s nothing to be ashamed of if you're worried about that. I’m sorry too, hun.”

As they talked Virgil started rubbing his arms yet again, that same tingling feeling from this morning returning. But he did keep one hand on Zoe’s head. He took a moment to process it, well that explains it. He’s never had somebody touch him in a way that was pleasant or in a way that…hug was. Though he didn’t understand a lot of those words he did get some, and it was enough.

“Virgil?” Patton’s voice spoke up.

“O-Oh… Yeah... I… U-Uh…” He took a shaky breath, “Why… Why do you care…? I mean…if I’m ashamed or not… Why did you…h-hug me..?”

“Well, I hugged you cause I wanted you to feel better. It might’ve upset you to see yourself on the news so I thought a hug will make you better. As for why I care if your ashamed or not, well I know some kids who felt ashamed that they had a panic attack or dissociation. I wanted to make sure you didn’t feel that way, is all.” Patton said with a smile.

Virgil stared at both of them. Logan's inquisitive stare. Patton’s small smile with a bit of sadness in his eyes. A spark of…something started in his chest and he didn’t know what it was. So he buried his face in Zoe’s fur and nodded.

“I don’t… I don’t know why…y-you care…about me… Y-You two are going to put me b-back there aren’t you?”

“The asylum? No, no, we aren’t. We…” Patton took a deep breath and when Virgil peeked out he saw the two humans sharing some sort of glance. He could tell some sort of silent conversation was going on but he couldn’t tell what they were saying.

“Kiddo… We aren’t putting you back there cause… We can obviously tell those people weren’t treating you right. Between you running away yesterday to you panicking anytime one of us touches you. And to your scared tone on everything you say…”

“And your scars. Yes, they aren’t as visible as they should be, but I can see them. And some of them are still fresh.”

Virgil sucked in a breath and tried to wrap his wing around himself to hide it. Crap, he thought his glamour could hide that well enough. Well, they have been awfully close to him its harder to mask it from up close.

“When you told me your name I did thought we should take you in, if I’m being honest.” Patton breathed, “But after seeing how scared you always are… No, no we won’t take you back. Cause we care about you, sweetie. We…don't really have an explanation on why we do but we do. We promise we won’t hurt you here. We won’t ever hurt you, no matter what, alright? I know you properly don’t believe us but that’s alright. Eventually, you will. Take your time, okay?”

There was silence while Virgil ponders over this. They…aren’t giving him back? But…why in heavens would they do that? Why would they even care about him at all, definitely enough to say all of this to him? He didn’t get it at all. None of his conclusions made sense. None of his thoughts made sense.

“O-Okay… Thank… Thank y-you…” He found himself saying, nonetheless.

“Of course. There’s no need to thank us, Virgil. Would you like to come to the living room with us? We could-”

“Oh! We could watch some movies? Would you like that, sweetheart?” Patton interjected, his beaming smile back.

“Y-Yeah… That sounds…g-good… Is uh… Is Zoe coming…?”

“Yep! If you want her to!” Slowly both of the males got up leaving plenty of room for him to and he smiled tightly. It took him a moment to get untangled from the pile of clothes but once he managed and took a step out he saw Patton there waiting at the door with a smile.

“Come along, kiddo. We can make some popcorn if you want?” He said offering his hand out like before.

Virgil was able to make a small noise not leaving his hand off of Zoe and hesitantly he slowly hovered his hand around one of his fingers. Patton was as calm as ever as he took his time, not rushing him and kept smiling. Then when his hand was around Patton’s index finger he felt the warmth spread through his arm. And he smiled faintly.

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