#happy new year from em

[magicalara]

So...2022 huh

It's time for Em's yearly letter to the blog where I talk about it since the new year's coming in about an hour and a half in my timezone. Prefacing this with a tw for talks of depression, anxiety, horrible friends, and no proof reading. Here is my word vomit and if you don't get to the end, happy new year everyone.

So 2022 was one of, if not the, worst year in my 19 years of living. It started off with the pressure of a class which if I didn't pass, would essentially mean I couldn't go to college, and is ending with me having to walk on eggshells around people and feeling just...so anxious and depressed. Before I get into that, however, in order to save the people I want to specifically call out from having to hear about my depressing word vomit, I'm gonna mention them first.

So I can't make a new year's post without tagging my girl @pinktea99 who has been around for what feels like ever. I think it'll actually be two years of our friendship early next year I don't remember for sure, it might be three...time is fake it doesn't matter anyways. Between the amazing fanfictions you used to make that I still go back to every now and then and now just tagging me in posts you think I'd like, Mo you've been the biggest supporter I've had since I practically started posting real shit on this hellsite and I could not be more grateful. You're on of my biggest inspirations and I love and adore you so much. Let's go into 2023 with just as much happiness as you've given me in 2022 and even more. I love you so much, my dear 💜💚

Next up (and honestly the only other person I have to tag oops 💀) @docmartensanddietcoke my beloved. We've only been friends for a few months now but hot damn do I feel like we've known each other for years. We clicked so quickly and it kinda scared me at first but in such a good way??? Idk but you're amazing and so sweet and passionate and I just love talking to you so much. You've made me so excited about writing again after so long of being stuck in an endless loop of writer's block and just general insecurity that led to me not posting. I'm so happy I met you and I can't wait to see what 2023 brings us. Much love to you and thank you for showing me the pleasures (nudge nudge wink wink) of the pairing that is William T Spears and Mey-Rin 💜♥️💜

Okay so now the other stuff lol. So if you're one of the 20-30 some-odd people who started following me from seeing all the black butler bullshit I post, you wouldn't know but I used to be a kpop blog. I'm like 99% certain that I privated/deleted all of those posts though so yk hopefully y'all don't see that. I still reblog my nct loves because they are my ult group and I love them very much but I used to like only post about kpop. I had to switch because I just wasn't happy with it anymore. I had always envisioned myself as having a blog full of things I loved but after coming back from a break where I saw the fandoms I loved to interact with having gone to shit, I couldn't do it anymore. So I got rid of it all and rebranded 😃 It was honestly a really good decision though and I'm glad I did it because it reminded me of the reasons I started a tumblr account in the first place: to be happy.

For as creepy as certain sides of the black butler fandom may be, I've never felt so supported. Y'all are amazing and I still can't believe any of my posts got passed 50 notes let alone my top three all being just shy of or completely pass 100. All of the interaction is so appreciated and I can't wait to interact with you all more in the new year <33

With the good, though, comes the bad. So much of the last half of my senior year was full on unnecessary bullshit and drama and breakdowns. From the feeling of being stabbed in the back by people I thought I could trust, to being almost taken advantage of in my first wlw relationship, it just was not a great time. This really sucked, though, because my greatest hope was for my senior year in high school to be something worth remembering as I wasn't able to do anything the previous two years since covid put a downer on all of that. But whatever, I graduated and kept the people I wanted to and dropped those I didn't. It's still a work in progress in dropping some of those people, but in getting there lol

I got my first job, which I still have now, and I love working there. There are better days and worse days (I work in public service so there are always those karen's who will come in) but I love the people I work with and am glad that I decided to take the offer to work there when I did. I have some good memories there that definitely are core memories

I can't do this without mentioning the passing of Technoblade. If you didn't know who he was, Technoblade was a minecraft youtuber and streamer who helped so many people with his amazing and funny videos and his stories that he created on the Dream SMP. He unfortunately passed in June this year due to cancer. When I watched the video his dad made announcing it, the world went silent. I spent that whole night and much of the day after crying my eyes out. I couldn't imagine someone who had brought me so much comfort being gone. Hell I'm still not over it, and I don't think I ever will be. Techno was a huge influence, inspiration, and comfort for me and always will be. Fuck cancer.

I had many family problems throughout the year that I won't get into because that's a little more personal than I'd like to get to on such a public place lol. Just know that to all of you who are celebrating alone this year, I feel you, and my heart goes out to you. We aren't alone if we're all together

The one huge positive that I do have to mention is my starting to watch anime. I decided to take the plunge and watch ouran highschool host club because of a cosplay I saw of hikaru and kaoru on tiktok that made me go "oh what the fuck I'll give". I went in not expecting to finish even episode one and came out with new comfort characters and a world I couldn't leave behind. After ouran, I found kuroshitsuji and we'll...here we are lol

On top of the comfort I found in ouran, I found a series that was so much darker but had such good characters that I started to connect with and love. Grelle has been such a huge comfort for me and I can't imagine myself leaving her (or the series) behind at any point for next long while. Seeing such an empowering transgender woman really did it for me and I'm so happy I decided to watch this show and subsequently binge read the manga. I can't wait to see all the kuro content this next year brings

I've lost people this year, I've gained people this year. I've cried so many tears of sadness and absolutely no tears of joy. I've spent way more money than I should on genshin impact and food. Most importantly, I've found a place where I think I can start to build myself up again. Good fucking bye 2022, I'm gonna do my best to make 2023 my bitch and I think that y'all should join me. Thank you all for being here, and I wish you all a happy, healthy new year

If you've made it this far, new chapter of forever forgiveness comes out in two weeks ;)

#happy new year from em #i hope that readmore worked im doing this all on mobile 💀 #putting kuro oruan nct and techno tags bc i can #kuroshitsuji #black butler #nct #ouran highschool host club #technoblade #love you guys and thanks for making 2022 that much more tolerable #💜💜💜

[sluckythewizard]

YOU JUST HƎARD IT FROM [HIS MOUTH] FOR SURƎ!!!

#cw gore #cw blood #jrwi fanart #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi suckening #BEEN VEHEMENTLY SCRIBBLING THIS THING ALL DAY #IM SO FUCKING IN LVOE W THE NEW EPISODE #VIV N VEX ARE LITERALLY EVERYTHING I COULDVE EVER WANTED. I LOVE BLOOD AND MEAT AND BLOOD AND MEAT #THE SCRIBBLE IS KINDA ROUGH SO DONT LOOK AT IT TOO HARD BUT EHEHEHEEEE THE FACE THAT I CREATED UNNERVES ME #AND IM VERY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. I LOVE CREATING SOMETHING AND HAVING IT EVEN SLIGHTLY PHASE ME #I LOVED ALL THE TOOTH RIPPING NOISES IN THIS EPISODE. AHVE U EVER HAD A TOOTH REMOVED? #SHE USED A BLUNT METAL TOOL TO PUNCH IT OUT. IT REMINDED ME OF THE SPLINTERING OF A TREE. THE WAY IT TORE. #SUCH A SPECIFIC SORT OF CRUNCHING AND SPLINTERING AS A MOLAR WAS RRRRIPPPEEDD FROM THE SOCKET. OHH I LOVE IT. #GOING IN FOR A ROOT CANAL NEXT WEEK AND IM VERY EXCITED. ALL THE DENTISTS LOVE ME N ARE SO NICE TO ME #WHAT A GREAT EPISODE. I HOPE THE URGE TO DRAW MORE STRIKES ME LIKE THIS AGAIN. WEEEE!! #I WANNA ANIMATE EMIZEL GETTIN HIS EYE RRIPPED OUT. BUT. IM ALREADY COOKING 3 OTHER VIV N VEX ANIMATIONS #THERES NO WAY THEY WILL ALL BE FINISHED HELP!! HELP MEE!!!! I HAVE TO MANY IDEAS AND NOT ENOUGH HANDS. DO U GUYS REMEMBER HTF? #OR HAPPY TREE FRIENDS. THE CUTE ANIMAL SHOW W ALL THE BLOOD AND GORE AND TERRIBLE TERRIBLE THINGS HAPPENING TO THE CUTE ANIMALS #in elementary school i would show the 'eyes cold lemonade' to other kids and tell em thats how they make pink lemonade. #hope that helps you undertsand. i wish i could make a lil cartoon w just viv n vex doing what they do best #LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT. IM GOING BACK TO MY LAB. DONT EXPECT TO HEAR FROM ME IN A MILLION YEARS

[jinglejails]

6¢

#IT #IT 2017 #IT 2019 #Pennywise #The Losers Club #Losers Club #7 Plus 1 #I was scramblin' to get this done before New Year's #The constant sound of that Nicki Minaj rushing sound in my head- LOL #(Also‚ Happy New Year’s Eve/New Year's!) #I just took a bunch of old wonker-bonker sketches I scanned from my sketchbook n' mashed 'em together #This counts as six drawings‚ okay 👌 #Can you tell I didn't want to draw any hands #Jingles' IT 그림 #Jingles' 그림

[all-lars-bars]

I want to get it across to everyone that Ethan Winters, while very much just some guy, is also definitely not normal.

#and I'm not just talking about the mold #this man really got both of his hands severed from his body and slapped 'em back on with no issue‚ they're working good as new #and just. doesn't question that #just goes on about his hell filled days #like he had to have questioned it in those three or so years between games‚ right? #he's either an idiot‚ just weird‚ or there's a secret third thing that made him not question it (mold probably) #i like to think that there's just always been something wrong with him but his normal-ness acts as the perfect disguise #can you tell I really like this character? #i only know re7 and re8 lore. that is it #and I am happy with that #i'm having the time of my life #resident evil #resident evil 7 #resident evil 8 #resident evil village #re7 #re8 #ethan winters #re ethan winters

[deus-ex-mona]

starting the year ✨wrong✨

#(this is about work ok. long rant in the tags bc auauauauauauauuauauauauauauauaaaaaaaa) #i’ve worked for just t h r e e (3!!!!) days this year and i think im already all burned out lmao #first i was stuck doing 2 workstations bc this freakin’ b o z o of a coworker decided to take the week off without prior notice #and *t h e n* the internal components of one of said workstations kicked the bucket and was only replaced today. sads. #rip to our wasted time and futile fixing efforts though. flashtag wetried #that’s not all t h o u g h i was told that i have to jump to the other work shift bc one of my coworkers is resigning #b u t the thing is. all of the other dudes in that shift are from [insert bordering country] and always speak in their nation’s language #so i won’t be able to communicate well with them for the most part ​esp s o bs #and if [insert country here] has a national holiday and a l l of them decide to take the day off.. #well. um. ahahahaha. im ✨screwed✨ #(but speaking of taking the day off… one of said guys on that shift has an approved leave for cny. which is funny bc he’s not even chinese) #(rips if the actual other chinese dude on that team has his leave request rejected bc of that guy lol. happy cny to him ig) #a n d also i was made to (sorta) teach these two new coworkers (of sorts) the workstation i’m at for the week #b u t the thing is. i do everything here by left (didn’t receive formal training either lmao sadge) #and i also couldn’t explain anything well in general bc it seems like my flow of thoughts can’t streamline itself ig #so i think i confused the poor guys more than anything. but like. why me??????? aaaauauaaaaaaaaaa #idk why one of them came back for more ‘education’ from me thoughhhhh #i’ve tried teaching ‘em stuff at another workstation before this and my feedback was ‘wait slow down you talk too fast’ s o o o o . #ig i’ll have to guide them though again in the morning though. sighs. this wasnt in my job description :( #speaking of job descriptions though… this h e l l a annoying guy no one likes who resigned a few months ago (to much rejoicing)… #is!!!!! coming!!!! back!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #w h y. like. w h y. why is he so attached to this company he l l o? why is our manager so attached to him helloooooooo????? why him??????? #our workloads literally t r i p l e when he’s around bc he’s just the way he is. auauauauauauauauaaaaaaaaaaaa #aaaaaaaaaaa i dont wanna work aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #science industry (derogatory) questionable laboratory conditions (derogatory) #felt cute; thought about retiring early idk

[mroddmod]

HEY i'm here to do that stupid sappy thing where i make a new years post and thank everyone for the great year.

i already said this on twt but i can genuinely say that i have never had this much fun in a fandom before. i've never CLICKED with a fandom and its participants in the way that i've clicked with the stranger things fandom. i've made more finished art than i have for any other franchise, i think. i've never gotten to connect with people and make friends in a fandom like i have with the stranger things fandom. THE FRIENDS IVE MADE ARE SOME OF THE BEST IVE HAD IN LIKE. EVER. you guys are seriously so awesome. NOT TO MENTION ALL THE INCREDIBLE PEOPLE THAT I ALWAYS SEE IN MY REBLOG TAGS AND REPLIES. i've had the privilege to get to meet, know, and interact, with some of the nicest and most talented people ever. it's been such a good year BECAUSE of the connections i've made. SOOOOO i'm gonna list off some of my favorite people and say a little something and TRY to keep it short. OBVIOUSLY THIS IS IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER

@astrobei : yeah, obviously you're in here, idiot. you wormed your way into my life way too quickly and WAYYYY too easily but i wouldn't change it (probably. just kidding. or Am I.....). i was a MEGA fan of your writing LOOOONG before i ever even spoke to you, so it's kind of a trip that i talk to you every day now. if you told mod from september that he'd be this tight w suni astrobi he absolutely would not believe you. anyway thank you for making me laugh so much and talking to me all the time even though you should probably be doing better things. keep being you. k love u (maybe) bye

@msquared1414 : MAGS. MY DEAR MAGS. I LOVE YOU SO DEARLY. you are a beacon of light in a fucked up and annoying world. i know i can always count on you for support and a good laugh. im so glad i got to know you over the time that we've been talking. i promise i have more special wips to send u soon. I MISS YOU ALL THE TIME BFF

@cherbearsz : CHER 😭😭😭 do you realize that you're actually one of the funniest people on the planet. did you Know. actually i take it back, you're the funniest. i could be having a shit day and suddenly cher gets in the chat and stirs up chaos and i am feeling like :) again. ty for being you, bro 🤝

@livsmessydoodles : we've known each other for a long time but i feel like i didn't really GET to know you until this year. but i'm so glad i did!! you are such a lively and positive energy that i love to see on my dash, in my notifs, in our group chats, anywhere. you are TRULY a unifying and joyful force. keep up your good energy, so many good things will come to you in life.

@halosketches : sorry but who gave you the right to be this cool. like i wanna know. YOU'RE ACTUALLY THE COOLEST PERSON IVE MET.... i know this is like a cringe thing to say but your vibes are Unmatched. i know i can always trust your takes because your taste in media is the Highest of quality. you're also way too nice. you're insane.

@wynsvre : sarah :((( my bro. my guy. you are an INSPIRATION to me and you always will be in so many ways. you are so real and honest and i value that in you so much. honestly you're just such a rad person. i aspire to be more like u.

@janceezer : KITE!!!!! i actually cannot believe how sappy and sweet you are it's CRAZY that you're just that way. YOURE JUST THAT GOOD. it pleasantly surprises me all the time. you are so down to earth and you care about people with everything you have, and i feel SO lucky to be one of those people. KEEP BEING YOU!!!

@tryingonametaphor : AH BHAVNA you have been an absolute pleasure to get to know this year. i was ALSO a huge fan of yours before i got to know you personally, but i was BLOWN away by how kind you are 😭 you are just so understanding and patient and RIDICULOUSLY creative. you're so cool, it's crazy.

@spacedru1d : MY BFF!!!!! my matching bff. you've been such a good friend and a delight to interact with. you're naturally such a good person without even trying. IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH DURING YOUR TIME IN UNI but i'm proud of you for getting your shit done and finally getting the gf of ur dreams. I WISH YOU NOTHING BUT THE BEST BFF!!!

okay now that i've gotten all my Real Actual IRL Bestest Friends in the Entire World out of the way....

some other people that i've loved interacting with/seeing in my notifs/seeing on my dash:

@bujomoss, @http-byler, @smoosnoom, @bookinit02, @nnilkyway, @elekinetic, @wiseatom, @andiwriteordie, @paladibun, @noodles-and-tea, @aemiron-main, @caesarexile, and many more im CERTAIN i'm forgetting.

anyway. thanks for an incredible year. HERES TO 2023!!!

#and we're officially one year away from st5 #LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOO #big win #sorry this is so long #yk i had to do it to em (express my love for my favorite people) #anyway. yeah thanks for being who u are and letting me get to know you #HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!! #mods talks shit

[britneyshakespeare]

me when ive ordered myself a lil smth in the mail and i have smth to look forward to

#three tragedies by renaissance women writers (1999) featuring elizabeth cary jane lumley and mary sidney #it hasnt even shipped yet but listen. im so happy #its hardcover! #when i get it im gonna kiss it. but probably not bc it's a book my own age i bet it has a lot of germs on it #tales from diana #i mean who cleans their books? #like not just wipe the dust off em but disinfects em? nobody #youll ruin them lol theyre just made of paper silly #altho this book being printed in the year i was born has me wondering what the ratio of books i have is #between books printed before i was born and books printed after #bc most of my books are used! and lord i know a lot of that means theyre older than me #but also. not all old books are from like the 1980s or before. ive honestly never known #plus i do have still a fair number of books i bought new to rule out #idk. i wonder. ill have to count sometime but. you know what. it'd probably take at least an entire day. lol #im in desperate need to just organize my books by SOMETHING (since they well overflow the shelf) #im in no shape to run that survey any time soon

[junkyardromeo]

this is somethin awful to look at

#duality of man. i need to write a post abt southern imagery in glam metal but not tn #but there is smth there. the thing w the stars n bars n the way that u see it for no fuckin good reason on cali bands #anyways. duality. im mad that country is that close to glam metal tho how tf did that happen . nothin in that folder existed til october #n i been buildin the glam folder for YEARS #i got some kinda awful dixiana dirt thing happenin to me #there is. so much to unpack here #the thing abt dixie is that it will have a hold on u forever no matter how bad u run away from it #n the thing abt cali is that it calls in the night n u know damn well u wouldn’t make it a fuckin day there #n the thing abt sad blonde southern prettyboys with guitars is that they ain’t got no damn sense #n they ain’t gonna be happy nowhere because there ain’t nowhere cut out for em n there never rly was #so they’re chasin skirts in some old relic of the classy south n dreamin of broadway lights #n gettin their hands n hearts dirty with sins they ain’t got the means to pay off now or in the next life #n makin 3am cigarette runs when they know damn well they swore off that shit #but it don’t rly matter none cuz they ain’t gonna live long enough to see them broadway lights or then sunset lights anyways #i can tell y’all somethin about all that cuz im livin it four on the floor every damn day #the grass is greener bout everywhere but ain’t none of it real except wherever you’re runnin from #n the thing about runnin is once you do it you can’t never really look back #sure. look in the rearview. ain’t the same as you remember is it? #one thing i done learned is that life’s a lot like drivin #n it ain’t no coincidence that i tore the side mirror off my shitbox a couple years ago n cracked the rearview on new years eve #like some kinda fucked up angels sayin son don’t look behind you #some kinda fucked up angels sayin boy quit lookin back or you’re gonna crash #so what’s it gonna be? slow down or don’t look back? y’all fuckers ain’t got no consensus or else im hearin things #ain’t gettin no straight answers #could be that i got the devil down here in dixie tellin me shit that ain’t true n i got them angels of god cornerin me in music stores #sayin shit i weren’t ready to hear #so what’s it gonna be? hoss whisperin in my ear or curtis lowe on devine street? #or durango on my left shoulder? #n i know damn well ain’t none of em wrong #but i ain’t gettin no answers tonight neither way so i’ll take another smoke n think it over

[boogie-pilgrim]

albums i fell in love with in 2022

#it's been a long time since i posted here :( #i love this blog so much...i really love elton & billy still #but my music taste shifted in the last little while #and i wanted to express that! i'm so happy to be discovering new stuff #anyways i wanted to show ya'll what i've been up to this last year #and music has always been my way of doing that on tumblr :) #so here's some albums i <3 #and in case anybody's interested #i'll list 'em all here: #(chronological order) #(from when i listened) #1. #rocket d.i.y. #king creosote #2. #carrie & lowell #sufjan stevens #3. #drukqs #aphex twin #4. #twosim #boards of canada #5. #electro-shock blues #eels #6. #worry. #jeff rosenstock #teens of denial honorable mention...peace n luv from a gay with mental problems to my fellow gays with mental problems on that one

[tomaturtles]

I finally made a new ref for Sabrina!! For anyone unfamiliar, she's Lilly's cousin and the youngest daughter of Greg and Natalie :] I updated the lineup with her and also Mr. Alder for an adult size reference

#sabrina amaryllis #toma ocs #toma draws #i sketched out her ref like a little after last year's art fight but bi tim drake happened and distracted me from oc endeavors 😭 #maybe it was worth it tho i'm rly happy to finally figure out a color scheme i like... her colors have been giving me trouble for Ages #very happy to finally get her out of the oc freezer also!! still working on it but i wanna get to alyssa and sparky eventually too #mr. alder's ref isn't new i just lousily shaded him to stylistically match the kids' refs bc i wanted him there djbdj #the metric height chart thing is by pretty-angel on da idk how accurate the numbers are but it's nice to get an idea of em #wait i forgot to tag the others #yarrow watts #lilly watts #snap butterscotch #melon blake #garin slate #mr. alder #oc refs

[benetnvsch]

:dancing: changed up my discord profile bc I've had it on-and-off as merlin for like,, almost a year now and need some Adventure in my life and mmmm :) happy !

#my latest thing has been just saying the emotion im feeling and its so efficient- just happy :) #look at em #the blorbos from my show #I still love merlon so so much (he's my entire carrd) but I need to spice up my discord experience- #I've used that merlon icon for Over a year now (it's been some characters on and off like kidu for pride month but still DKJHD) #speaking of kidu I need to change my Tumblr layout it is getting old too DKJHD #(also #new face is so Dazai's entrance exam from knkd's perspective coded prove me wrong-) #I wonna edit the -stage play? to it but am too lazy maybe this weekend #"From someone so close #That whole lil bit and then ofc the line that is in my status #AOUGH could write essays abt how it fits #but I want #MAYBAPS I WILL DRAW SOMETHING #but I have so many drawing requests/wips im doing of her specifically DKHDKDJ- #whoops idkdkhs sk shrug idk mmmm #kite's unfiltered brainthoughts

[greenscreen-dress]

I HAVE FINISHED THE OWL HOUSE IT IS 6:30 A.M I HAVE NOT SLEPT I HAVE JUST BEEN SOBBING CONTINUOUSLY FOR THE PAST 6 HOURS. AUOUAHOGHHH. FUCK.

#GILR HELP I HAVE A THERAPY APPOINTMENT IN LIKE. 3 HOURS I NEED A SMIDGE OF SLEEP BUT INSTEAD I SHALL SIMPLY. WAAAH :') #i watched part of the first s3 special but didn't have time to finish it & just didn't catch up #spent the past few days intensely bingeing it from the start to get back in the right mood & it's all culminated in this #GOURDDDD... what a beautiful show what a TRIP... but it hurts thinking of what it might have been in Dana's original vision #ok no only happy tears now. rage and hate at The Mouse later. now we delight in a good story. :') #fcuken hell man. i am dehydrated from crying i'm not even kidding. FCUK #i was never hugely into the fandom but i did watch most of s2 as it was coming out. it's such an incredible & important show holy shiet. #one of the greats #i am. not very eloquent & repeating myself a lot here but like. 6:30 a.m no sleep brain also very emotional brain also waaagh <3 #ANYWAY. new fandom beloved aquired #toh #eMerambles #eMerambles in the tags #eMe go sleep for an hour or two? eMaybe. yaaawn. bleh #clarification: i watched part of the first s3 special *when it first aired. and then didn't catch up. which was... last year sometime? idk #time is hell and also bullying me :'D

[potatotrash0]

Chúc mừng năm mới everyone :3

#happy lunar new year everyone! #emerging from my slumber for one (1) post #then. hibernation once again #em rants

[girl-next-door-writes]

It’s a little after midnight here in the UK so I want to wish a very happy and productive 2023 to one and all.

#em rambles from the dojo #happy new year

[the-kipsabian]

whenever i feel bad about my existence i remind myself that kip appreciates me

#tho probably not as much as i appreciate him tbh #i mean i have him permanently inked on my skin #but yeah i have. a few stream clips saved on my phone where he talks about things and its just like #okay so chronologically first theres the cameo from last christmas after i came out as a fan with the first fanart he loved #then theres the new years donation shoutout with his incredible be yourself and do what makes you happy advice #(literally just if people dont love you for you just fuck em lol) #then theres the next one where i missed the stream after jersey but he stays how humbling it was to him to see my tattoo in person #and then the more recent one where he talks about fan interactions and how cool all the art and seeing people dress up is #and he just casually drops me by name to specifically mention the tattoo and how. to quote exactly. 'its fucking insane i love it' #like. idk man. if nobody else likes me in this life kip sabian does and i feel like thats pretty good you know #just using it as a positive vibes whenever i think im not worth a hot garbage and shit #just. get yourself a blorbo that appreciates you being a fan as much as you appreciate them being your blorbo lol #and also humble them for life. i know thats harder to do but god its so worth it #i cant wait to meet him again one day oof #sorry im just feeling things today i really just rather be home and in bed but i have to be here today unfortunately #so im thinking about this while i dont want to work anymore lol #that is all. sorry and thank you if you read all that #night is an absolute mess on main #..im also still convinced i never actually have told this man my name and yet he knows and remembers it #in case you needed to know that cause it makes me very soft too lol

[iggyalfi2319]

Happy new year 2024

#happy new year #iggyalfi2319 #iggy talks #remus talks #not tagging it sasi #because the sasi rp where the character is from died #but i wanna keep the character as an OC now #is it gonna be a problem if i keep naming em remus #it's not like anyone would care anyway