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thesecretattic · 10 months

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Another Bizarre Incident + something about Aditya at the end

I have no other option than dying thanks to his/their unwantedness, he himself had come go through the signs I’ll die while saying this that since he was also interested and we shared those signs till the very end I deserved a chance instead of getting rejected that too unequivocally due to superficial reasons. I have lost 8+ years of my life from 2015 bed ridden all alone abused at home crying and then his torture. I still remember frantically texting him my link (in 2018-19) again signs and coincidences I was scared that he’ll react in a very bad manner pls read my post which says how it has impacted my health and mind and BRAIN (physically) and he did he reacted in such a hostile dismissive way that I almost fainted my mother on the other end was torturing me to death, this is what my life was all about pls read everything from at least Jan-Mar 2023. I wanted to get hypnotherapy done to forget everything related to him after finishing my book and getting married to someone else but there was NO ONE he was my soulmate rest maximum are taken in today’s times i had told you it’s EASY for others NOT for me, he has made it impossible THEY ALL SEEM to share the same reason as him, I’m treated like an untouchable in India when one does something the rest COPY NO ONE WANTS TO EVEN TALK that is exactly what is going on and I feel like I’m already dead as if ppl can’t hear me, enough of innuendos I’m too sick I kept crying again

It occurred to me today that whoever was with him like his ex and all those who were close to him who were in his life, were very lucky they were the luckiest ppl on this planet. I wish I would’ve been exactly what he wanted, I can’t type much I’m coughing due to low pressure I am too ill that impacted tooth has given me an infection in my chest and all my head nerves have sensitised they are too tender and painful to touch. I wanted to share this incident - I was 15 and I was at the service centre to repair my 15 inch MacBook 💻 That area had a church and a cemetery right opposite that and lot of odd incidents have happened there with me and even my mother, she’s also a witness, there was a man who came out of nowhere and he was following me my mom and my brother when we were kids, he kept going everywhere we went, we crossed the signal to get rid of him my mother’s idea but he too crossed behind us and he kept crossing signals JUST LIKE US it was dusk after Magrib the cemetery was right there so I think it was a lost soul or it could be just some random old person with dementia, nonetheless I’ll share the other incident which is very weird, the weather is scary btw it’s like doom’s day is approaching and I’m too scared cuz I’m very ill so I get dreams where I see horrible explosions in the sky and the worst kind of thundering possible due to climate change threat, anyway we were at the service station (I was 15) my chest is quivering at the slightest sound while I’m writing this due to that infection and all the stress I had told u I will die I won’t be able to handle it. My book could’ve explained this incident but I’m dying with all the secrets, I had thought someone would ask me what the story was about but people are so boring, I was adding them for that contract marriage (I don’t think even platonic is possible for me so house mates one) and I thought if they’ll like the story and we’ll become acquainted with each other then we can try having that contract marriage (+ hypnotherapy) at times I feel like I want a normal relationship but my bf age is gone I was always that “type” and it’s too late, I really wish I would’ve been whatever he wanted, and now I don’t this anyone wud accept me, I feel like sharing a normal life with someone with complete “acceptance” for everything he rejected that’s the only way I’ll get my confidence back and realise that I wasn’t that unacceptable. He never wanted me, I was okay with the dark ugly pics (had to mention I realised he doesn’t actually look like that so u don’t have to assume he’s like those old photos the camera might be such) but I was okay with that and even when his fingers were looking dark again due to low res. camera and lights, inspite of the ring I was okay with that too and I cried so much I just never want to face him in real life I had stopped going to Malad in 2016 itself due to all that hate (repulsion) then I stopped going out and I haven’t left my room since 2017, I wish someone would’ve gotten me out of this exile, I never cared about the eyes and all I really don’t I never wanted this handsome or rose I wouldn’t have maintained a distance from fair and rich guys, I wanted to hold his hands in my thoughts as usual when I felt like I was dying or I couldn’t make it but now I can’t after the ring (pls read that story also it’s in my previous post) the devil killed one of the characters IN REAL LIFE I had Aditya singh’s screenshot in my hidden album it doesn’t have the death date cuz

he was alive back then, I had taken that cuz I had recently come across his profile I had not stalked though it was from Google that too because of the Singh Rajput surname from that show Pishachini I was making peace with the fact that it’s not Jayesh Rajput and that such surnames are common. Cuz I was insecure my name had come up with Harsh’s last name as Zara Rajput and there were several ZH even with heart (I have SHARED ALL EVIDENCE AND SCREENSHOTS in my previous posts) our initials and numbers (marriage related kept coming up) and now when I see that Aditya’s screenshot I feel horrible cuz it doesn’t have a death date, his SS was amongst all the hidden pics which have Jiya and Harsh etc. That too not many it’s all just evidence but not related to signs, just some of my rivals I don’t deem them as rivals he made them that but it just has their ugly shots (even other girls hehe) and a few other things which I clarified for my assurance. But his SS was amongst all this and he was a part of the story back then I didn’t even know he was his friend and one of the characters is dead now. At this point we should’ve been Serious, there’s a reason why he was killed read my prev post. It was for the ring which took away his hand from me. I can’t even hold it in my thoughts while dying my own hand is cold n numb n paralysed rn can’t type autocorrect mode I was okay even if those hands would’ve been actually dark like the pics I was okay I loved him so much I did feel like maybe someone should’ve accepted me in the same manner my hands are lighter (so are his or else he’ll blame me for lying it was just the camera) but the bottom line is I was okay even if it would’ve been real. I wouldn’t have wanted anyone else’s hands I was okay with them cuz they were HIS. I just wanted “Harsh” I have 0 confidence I feel like my story (if you’ve read that Anu Gupta part) doesn’t matter like I have no right to voice it or narrate it, I feel like I don’t have enough respect or ppl don’t want to hear from me they don’t want to know they are all dismissive like him, they don’t value me and I’m not going to quote unrealistic soliloquies such as “If they don’t value you find new ppl” WHERE ARE NEW PEOPLE? I’m talking about ALL PEOPLE. I’m getting wheezing had to share that “teaser” before dying tonight, I just wanted ppl to realise that someone like me also will have something worthwhile to say and we should be given a chance I don’t know what separates me from you, and makes me an untouchable unspeakable online too, no one LITERALLY NO ONE wants to associate or talk either they have too many ppl in their lives or they are just busy copying him, he was my soulmate but he DIDNOT want me so I was waiting for someone else and my posts do reach out ppl notice I even send friend requests to find someone but none of them want a “reject”. I have to die I can’t even heal from his rejection he meant everything to me, like I said all those who were with him were the LUCKIEST of all, I can’t do my hypnotherapy to forget that or move on with someone else (WHY SHUD I BE ALONE ALL OF YOU GUYS GAVE A SIGNIFICANT OTHER, it’s NOT my age to stay with my parents ppl get married and shift into their dreams homes I’ve seen several especially during Cov BUT my life has only gotten worse) it’s NOT normal their behaviour is not normal

If you are that conservative and you only want someone from ur HINDU religion then mention it on dating apps even that Taher who met me married some Gujju girl so Muslim guys don’t want us Hindu guys don’t want us or they only want money my OWN SOULMATE doesn’t want me, go thru the signs in prev hood posts, so what do they want? Its not about contract marriage someone should’ve actually made up for all those 10 years and accepted me the way I accepted him, inspite of his monetary status or lack of “popularity” (social status) complexion which was there in the pics or even looks (height and all even the double chin in 2014) I had to say that cuz I really wish I would’ve had someone like me for the first time I am saying “Like me” and not like Harsh. Why can’t all other men budge yaar? They only marry their mother a choice this is MODERN DAY INDIA? Yes mummy yes mummy waale dumb imbeciles, why can’t anyone man up and message? Flirt? Ask me out on a date? (You don’t have to flirt with others you can flirt with me all you want but only me) why can’t they ask if I need help with the book like a matured adult? Why can’t they APPROACH OR TALK TO A GIRL? They say na Sx is easy these days then where’s your spine? Can’t man up to even TALK? I’m done with this, what kind of boring c**ts do we have in India? They can sleep with those typical Lokhandwala behenjis who have that fake accent and same common “tone”, all those stupid bimbos they have a fetish they call them “cute” acc to them dumb girls are cute?!!

SHAME ON YOU can’t handle a bomb? Itna bada Tope hai aur bomb handle nahi kar sakta hai? This quote had come up for me “She’s fragile but now like a flower like a bomb” I had said another variation of my name means a flower and I never wanted to be recognised as that I’m not a flower 🌸 I’m not something that feminine or boring, I’m not some cliche representation of beauty, my spelling means light as a matter of fact and I’m happy about it.

I have no other option I am DYING DUE TO ALL OF YOU, had to share that bizarre incident to light the wick and drop that bomb before dying. - Zara Sauleh

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h4chi · 2 years

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SOMEDAY

summary yn is a famous musician who has always dreamt of having her own castle to explore, no school to attend and a simple life. prince park sunghoon, on the other hand, would rather see the world from a stage than staying inside of his family’s enormous castle, being obliged to attend important, royal meetings. eventually, yn is invited one day at the park’s castle to meet the royal family before performing at the annual Hybe beneficial concert, and that’s where she meets sunghoon, who has finally convinced his parents to let him attend the famous “HAC”. but the next thing they know is that they’re in the other’s body.

pairing prince sunghoon x rock star, female reader

genre “strangers” to friends to lovers, young adult, speculative romance, social media au + short written chapters, crack (if i’m funny enough for your standards), fiction

featuring enhypen, lee chaeyeon and kim minju (ex iz*one), ningning (aespa), yangyang (nct), ive, bahiyyih (kep1er), txt, loona

warnings swearing, probably angst, slow burn romance, mentions of food, suggestive jokes, sometimes using seulgi pics for reference, more will be added

status COMPLETED

start jan 27 2022 end mar 31 2022

taglist CLOSED! send an ask to be added : @abdiitcryy @lunaflvms @msxflower @rionah @certainyouthpeanut @blxckcatner0 @tadpoltail @qghosty @papiibuprofen @wonieleles @jjklvr00 @sophhloaff @arizejkt19 @reallyraesn @nishmrriki @rrvvby @soobin-chois @jiawji (italics couldn’t be tagged)

disclaimers english is not my first language. this work is inspired by makoto shinkai’s your name and barbie’s princess & the popstar. this story is purely fiction, anything that also happened in real life is just a coincidence. the character’s behavior does not necessarily reflect the idol’s one in real life.

profiles rock stars | royals | others

01. cause you’re a Slay!

02. that’s P, i guess [written]

03. i’m not using the restroom today

04. girlbossing. or should i say boybossing [written]

05. u don’t see shit 😂 [written]

06. that dog from the russia meme [written]

07. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7-Eleven

08. i was just messing w you silly !

09. cray-cray-crazy

10. why did i wake up to my hair looking like this ???

11. cara revenge vengeance

12. did u think it would be funny

13. do we act like we know each other [written]

14. sofia the first kinnie

15. butterfly by loona [written]

16. he doesn’t even know me

17. get in loser we’re going shopping

18. monster high fright song

19. you’re so sexy /j

20. yo no hablo español

21. oh back when i was younger [written]

22. smule karaoke [written]

23. the real sofia shady

24. is this my breakdown week

25. 어떡해 [written]

26. 7 rings [written]

27. run2u

28. pay me the rent 💛💛

29. no twilight slander

30. it happened.

31. main dancer material

32. sumin autograph

33. darari challenge

34. in my dreams (you love me back) [written]

35. the internet is setting them up

36. oh i see how it is

37. another one

38. we don’t talk about brunaur

39. friendly my ass

40. just confess already

41. it’s the real sofia shady

42. howl’s moving castle [written]

43. (epilogue) no more dream

bonus chapters

good days in my mind

#park sunghoon #sunghoon #sunghoon x y/n #sunghoon x reader #sunghoon x you #enhyphen #enhypen x y/n #enhypen x female reader #enhypen x you #enhypen x reader #kpop smau #smau #enhypen smau #kpop bg #kpopidol #kpop #Spotify

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weepinglevi · 3 years

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whos your favorite fic writer/moots and why? Got any recommendations?

first off: pls know that if you're not listed here it doesn't mean i don't like you or your work, it simply means that i have a pea sized brain. love all of u. keep on writing. i really don't want anyone to feel bad (ask nia, i've been crying to her about it).

secondly: i'm not referring to them as my "favourite" cos i can't pick favourites, never really could. maybe that's why i'm simping for so many aot men at once ahaha.

and last but not least: this is going to be a long post so i'mma do all of us the favour and put it under the cut. i feel very soft today and have been listening to the titanic soundtrack for the better half of my day. bear with me, i'mma shower you with love. go check them out!

CHECK THE DNI TAGS ON THESE BLOGS BEFORE READING OR FOLLOWING, PLEASE!

this is in no particular order.

@kojinnie: my queen of angst. the other half of the princess-duo (i came to the conclusion that we're both princesses, we deserve to hang around in pretty dresses and have the time of our lives). especially dream me home still haunts my dreams. i love how you captured the pain and fear both of them feel. and i kind of view it as the start of our friendship, what with both of us writing about the mission to retake wall maria and you jumping into my dms after the fact. love you, kojin, and i only wish you the best.

@starrynightlys: shield-maiden claire. beautiful, talented, funny claire. i love you and i am so happy to have found you here, i really am. i know i've told you this multiple times but whenever i see you on my dash - either fighting off the floch anon or you posting memes, there's a big fat grin on my face. apart from your absolutely mesmerising presence, there's also one work in particular i always come back to: the beginning of forever. you are my source of happy levi content. when the world turns dark and i want him to be happy, i turn to this fic and to your blog in general. love you and i am dreaming of us listening to some good music in a park sometime soon!

@snkslush: luv! my first tumblr wife! this alone has gotten you a very special place in my heart ahah. i love the energy you have - whenever i see you on my dash i feel happy and it's because of how you interact with others. it's like i've known you since forever because of how easily i can talk to you. and reading your filthy thoughts about connie has set off my connie brainrot more than once ahaha.

your headcanons on how the aot boys react when their s/o tells them they want to be railed and also the follow-up still has me drooling. fucking love them. so accurate as well and i'm a slut for everyone ahha

@aotwrites: my lil sunflower. lil sis, you have no idea how happy you truly make me. i love the lil talks we have and i still remember the message you sent me when you were half-asleep, i always giggle when reading it ahah. just know that if you ever want, you can come up to me and ask me weird stuff lil sisters normally ask their bigger sisters. not that i have any good advice to give, but i have a lot of reaction pics to send!

it's very hard for me to pick out one of your fics to recommend - like i said, i have a problem with choosing favourites. but if i absolutely had to, it'd be all of the stars. cried my way through it. will cry again when i reread it. i cry a lot in general.

@arumiee: mars, i know we haven't talked much but our conversation about nurse!armin yesterday is still running around in my head. i can't wait to read about either armin or eren in scrubs, istg. you're so kind and happy-go-lucky, i usually feel nervous when tagging someone on a post but with you yesterday? no problem at all. you give me a sense of safety ahaha (pls don't think i'm weird, i'm actually not. or, yes, i am but in a good way). your purify me had me wanting to take a bath in holy water after reading it. preferably a bath with eren. i guess we're both headed to hell ahaha

@odmlevis: rizrizrizrizriz. i'm laughing right now because all i think of is our last conversation and it's hard to gather my thoughts whenever my mind goes to eren and reiner. or eren and jean - or jean and connie ahaha. i'll have all of them with me in the middle, pretty please.

but back to topic: your the most hurtful things they'd say to you still has my heart breaking. absolutely broken into pieces. because somehow you managed to put all of my worst fears into it. i don't know why i reread it on the regular (i do know, i'm a sucker for pain). other than that, i'm always so happy when i read your messages and when i see you out and about, making others happy with your lil "someone told me to tell you something"-thing you do so often. you're so precious, lemme smooch you.

@onyxoverride: onyx istg your blog is the place i go to if i am down bad. down bad bad. i know we rarely talk and me saying your blog is the place i take my horniness to might come off as weird but it's the truth. i even have problems with picking a favourite because goddamn they're all so good?? what is your secret? if there's a reason for me to go to hell (other than mars' purify me) it's gonna be because of ocean spit. do i have to elaborate further? eren's titan form is fucking hot and thank you for this delicious meal ahha. i am getting all flustered rn just by looking at the lil pic on top of your fic. i will see myself out now. love u onyx you are cool as hell (and i'm nervous as fuck - you're sitting at the cool kids' table in my head ahah - that's why i am so silent around u)

@1252291: and now to you. connie 2 my sasha. erwin smiths ball whore. twIN FLAME, LIGHT OF MY LIFE. buckle up cos we're in for a wild ride. i was debating whether or not to post every of your fics here, because i love all of them so much. i came up with a better idea tho: here's your masterlist. i will talk about two of your works in particular later on, but first you're gonna have to endure me violently showering you with kisses and love.

i haven't told you this before (shocking, i know) but ever since we started talking, i feel like i have a real-life friend again. i haven't had friends in a while and i am so fucking thankful to have you. i really am. i even told my therapist about you because he asked why i am so happy all of a sudden? newsflash: it's because of you.

usually, it was insomnia keeping me up at night but now it's because i am talking to you. and you have no idea how fucking great it feels to wake up in the morning and feel tired; not because some shitty thoughts kept me awake but because i was talking to a friend. i will forever love you for this. you've been there when i was at one of the darkest and loneliest stages of my life and lit up the fucking room with your personality and humour. thank you for being my light. for giving me the same feeling i have when rewatching lord of the rings. for being you. i will stop now but you know i will keep on loving you on main until i take my last breath.

now to your works. falling in love and stay forever. i think you already knew that these are the ones i hold dearest. i still think about felix and rue. i love felix and rue and my heart hurts when thinking of them. your way with words has characters coming to life and touching your heart in a way i've never experienced before. like i said, it felt like those are my friend who died. my fingers running through levi's hair, trying to make his endless pain go away. i am crying again. thank you for creating this. if you ever find the books you've written (or write a new one) i will buy a copy. or ten. have to have some to give away so i can promote your work.

i love u connie 2 my sasha. i really do.

#not me being soft on main #that's a new one ahah #recs

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digitalgate02 · 3 years

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Origins (May 2011) → Apr 2011 → Jul 2011 → Sep 2012 → Jun 2013 → Jan 2014 → Mar 2014 → Jan 2017 (current design)

Well, this is one design I’ve changed SO MANY TIMES... Like wow... Ok, one was a mask edit based on the story’s direction, and one is just a “Rider AU” take.

But you know, Lightni design was what you’re seeing in the very first pic -- A Squiby pet based on an old (and incomplete) collection in which was inspired by a Japanese fanart of the older six dressing up like their Perfect level digimon. This fanart I was trying to do decades ago was a 02 kids only and based on their armor digimon, so there was three Daisukes and two Miyakos & Ioris. Lighdramon one was my favorite and while working on Hinode back in 2011 I thought “why not using this design here?”

At first, Lightnimon was not only a disguise but also a “chimera” since Daisuke uses a copy of V-mon’s data to restore his data in the DW to escape from dying. So he gets this new “identity” based on shame and fears. So this coloring is like a virus-like digimon. The story proceeded until the part Lightni got in extremely danger and a characters’ wish to save him “changes his mode” to this “Armor Mode” version. Once re-writing it to a version 2, Lightni loses his long silver hair (based on Agnimon’s) and his hair color changes back to burgundy/rose red.

With this new haircut, Daisuke changes the mask to Something able to hide his hair. And then we got this rare hoodless Daisuke art later.

The Kamen Rider in me making me edit Lightni for an AU made me explore more the Rider franchise design, so we got this very beta version of the March 2014 design, which ended up becoming his current and “final” version.

Though the 2016-2017 the Lighdramon helmet cam back, so it was included on the chara ref from January 2017. Also, alongside with Mar 2014 & Jan 2017 designs, the original Lighdramon colors (Data attribute) versions were created.

In the current Hinode Drabbles series, Daisuke is no longer a “half-human-half-digimon” like the original & abandoned project and yes a human disguised as knight-like digimon, so he gained a weapon, designed in June 2017 -- The Lighdra-Glaive.

#da02 hinode concept art #digimon adventure timelines #dai lightnimon #motomiya daisuke #digitalgate02 chara design development

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ranty-ramblestein · 2 years

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(captions~) Mar 16th: Ah, apparently a visitor wasted some fountain fireworks when I wasn’t looking... And they weren’t being sold in the Cranny today, ugh! I also caught a cute bit of dialogue from Raymond, huehue~

Mar 17th: I remembered to look up a gift for Axel today, and I got him a quilted jacket for the upcoming weather~ Also, two of the bottoms on display in The Shopping Blues were the same!? That’s never happened before!

Mar 18th: The Paydirt was hiding behind a table again... but I found it right off the bat this time, awesome! Also, Raymond was sick :(

After that, I saw some shoes in Ables that I had been thinking about choosing on Tuesday, but I didn’t have the green ones in Storage... Looking at them in Ables made me decide to switch to the green witch’s boots for this outfit after all! The school shoes just didn’t really fit the vibe.

Mar 19th: ...Well, I winded up taking 50 screenshots, since one of the five Islanders I’ve been hunting for popped up on the Archipelago, so all I could fit in this post was Cyd’s new dialogue! (Which has one more screenshot under the cut) I’d call it a funny dialogue, though!

Oh, and Isabelle announced shooting stars tonight; Just in time for K.K. Slider’s Concert!

pic 1: Apparently I missed a visitor wasting two fountain fireworks... And when trying to talk to a villager one-handed I accidentally wasted another, ack! Get them in stock, Nooklings! pic 2: "Oh, ah, thank you..." Croissant blushed. "Well, you look great in any dress, but the cottagecore vibes of that outfit is really beautiful~" Raymond gushed. pic 3: "Well, it's about to become even colder, so I'm sure he'll enjoy this!" Croissant smiled. pic 4: Wrapping paper planted! pic 5: "First time I've seen two copies of the same item in here..." Croissant blinked. pic 6: "ACK!" Croissant gasped. "Glad I caught that now, before I went running around the island later!" he laughed, relieved to find the paydirt immediately. pic 7: I had a silly photoshoot with Raymond in Photopia yesterday, so I feel like this was my fault... pic 8: I was thinking about giving her these booties when I was deciding on the outfit (but I didn't have them in storage), so seeing them in Ables today made me decide to do it! pic 9: He asked we to choose between a sunny, rainy, or cloudy day, and I don't think I've clicked sunny yet? pic 10: "Wait, whaaaa-?" Croissant didn't expect that.

Croissant snorted at the idea.

#Animal Crossing #Animal Crossing: New Horizons #Island Man Croissant #Solaceon Island #Couple Interactions

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kaypeace21 · 4 years

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El is NOT ‘in love’ with Mike

Mileven-shippers be bugging - apparently I’m ‘misogynisitc’ to think Mike Wheeler is gay, cause I’m not taking into consideration how ‘in love’ El is and am therefore enjoying her suffering (despite the fact I’ve said multiple times I don’t think El is in love with him either). So I’m just doing a rebuttal. Not going to even mention the milevens who lap-up the ‘Will is gay and pinning over straight-Mike for the rest of his life’-narrative. But,besides all the s4 movies having the long distance couple break up and admit in at least 4-6 movies that they both knew all along “it would never work out” and that they never loved each other. And El’s character even being happy for byler .The show hints at the fact (pretty heavily) El isn’t ‘in love’ with Mike. But is simply confused (given her lack of proper socialization). I’ve mentioned it before but just some obvious points people like to ignore...

For some inexplicable reason...We’re supposed to believe in s1 a traumatized girl (with no proper socialization with adults or peers) who doesn’t even know what a friend is - is supposed to know the nuances of romantic, platonic, and familial love (or just the distinctions between physical attraction, crushes ,or romantic love)? Really?!

- in s1 El knew Mike for 4 days, but we’re supposed to believe they ‘fell in love at first sight’? Even when the official ST-twitter ‘st writers’ said they don’t believe in ‘love at first sight’.

- El is mixing up familial love with romantic love. Before he asks her out , El asks in regards to the status of their relationship “will you be like my brother?” And she is confused and upset when Mike says “no”- and proceeds to ask , “Why?” their relationship would be different than siblings. And Mike says “I don’t know, I guess it’s not.”

Then Mike accidentally implies the only difference between friends/siblings/ gfs is that you kiss them. Mike pretty much says it’s different simply for the fact that it would be weird to go to a dance with someone who is like a sister - then kisses her.

And then In s2, Mike tries to emulate his ‘non jealous’ friend, Dustin, who is happy for lumax (despite his own romantic feelings). So Mike tries to act like Dustin, and forces Will to dance with a girl (who’s wearing a rainbow hair clip). And right after this we see Dustin look sad about Max/Lucas dancing and Mike (next to Dustin) look sadly at Will/girl dancing in the same exact frame as Max/Lucas. As they switch between these 2 shots to emphasize their sadness/jealousy.

Then they both sit down (mirroring each other) on the verge of tears before Nancy and El show up to comfort them and distract them. As El once again (presumably) wears Nancy dress.

The parallels continue as Nancy (who has no romantic feelings for Dustin but more of a sibling-esque bond) teaches him how to dance, similar to how Mike teaches El to do the same. Indicating it’s not romantic for either pairings (despite the kiss). Mike :” you don’t go to dances with your sister?/ no?/ i mean you can but it’d be really weird.”

*In s2 they even make a direct parallel to Luke &Leia (who were siblings who had a weird romantic relationship/kiss before realizing they were related). Mike (as Leia) saying “it’s a trap” to El (Luke).

And Leia (Mike) eventually gets with Han (Will) the one she had the real romantic tension with all along, and who she tried to make jealous by using Luke (El). Specifically, by kissing Luke (El) in front of Han (Will). Doing this by kissing El at the dance where Will could see.

They’re also compared to cousins.

And most damming is how Mike/El is compared to mileven. Cause El is confusing familial love for Mike with romantic.

* In s1 Lucas even compares El to Mike’s sister Holly, while the decoration of a heart being propelled by a rainbow hangs above him. Which echos what happened in s2 as well.In s2 , Erica forces He-man and barbie to make out. And Lucas angrily separates the two. And then this discussion happens.

Erica: “Hey , They’re in love!”Lucas (livid- and standing right next to a rainbow): “No, actually, they’re not. They don’t even exist on the same planet.”

Cue El and mike being compared to ET and Eliot (by the Duffers in multiple interviews and in the pilot script, shown above ) . And El watching he-man in s1- while Dustin in s2 has he-man and et next to eachother to show they were in fact Lucas was talking about mileven. Mike even calls El “yoda” in s1. We also see El compared to ET on multiple occasions in s1 (the bike scene, reese’s pieces vs eggos, et/el both having a the barbie like makeover and dressing as a ghost etc). And then there’s the old euphemism of “girls come from Venus, and boys come from Mars”. So El telling mike he should ‘stick with his own species’ (aka boys). And the Duffers saying mileven isn’t in love cause they’re not from the same planet -is just them telling us , Mike is gay and El doesn’t love him either. Will even says to Mike “welcome to my world”. In s3 we see Mike’s gotten rid of the sign that has a heart being propelled by a rainbow (symbolizing how he’s trying to hide/get rid of his feelings for Will) . But in El’s room while mileven makes-out we see a drawing of a heart being propelled by a rainbow (similar to the sign in s1 )- emphasizing the fact that no matter how much he makes out with El, and tries to hide the truth... he’s still gay. Like Max said in her rebuttal to El’s comment of “friends don’t lie”. “Yeah, but boyfriends lie ALL THE TIME”. Cause the relationship on Mike’s end was always a farce.

- And before their first kiss , after asking if she’d be like his sis, she asks if he’s asking her to the snow ball as “a friend?” And he says “it’s different”. But El again asks “how?”. And Mike (similar to El’s sibling question) once again can’t explain the difference of how friends and romantic partners are different to her, before they kiss. And just a few days earlier she asked the gang “what is friend?”. Yet we’re supposed to believe she knows she has a crush on Mike?

El constantly says in reference to Mike “friends don’t lie” (even in s3). Her instincts are telling her she doesn’t have romantic feelings for him ... which is why in a span of 3 minutes she says she thinks of him as both a “brother” and a “friend” when he tries to make it romantic in s1.

This whole ‘romantic confession’ of Mike’s in s1, echos his ‘love confession’ in s3. With Mike making it romantic and El once again not understanding his words or reciprocating her understanding of ‘feeling like she’s in love with him’.

Mike, before his love confession, apologizes for everything BUT LYING (the thing that broke them up in the first place). Aka because the love confession itself, was yet another lie Mike was telling. Which is why he never says “I love you” (to her face) but instead says *blank/it* instead of “love” .Saying “It makes you crazy…blank makes you crazy.

In s1 Flo says “ only love makes you crazy and that damn stupid”. Re-contextualizing the “crazy together” scene between Mike and Will as romantic (since Mike & Flo both equate love to making you ‘crazy’ ) .

When Mike tries to confess his “love” to El , he says “Well , they do say it makes you crazy”… much to El’s confusion as she says “what makes you crazy”? But when Mike asks Will, “We’ll go crazy together, right? Will immediately responds back “yeah, crazy together.”As they smile at each other.

Then there’s the fact that in s2 El’s new catchphrase was “not stupid”.She even says this line right before going to visit Mike. Right before Mike says he loves El, Nancy even comments that “El’s not stupid”. And in s3 El says “there’s more to life than STUPID boys.”And in s3 during the byler fight, Mike says “El’s not stupid.” As opposed to Will who right after this, runs to castle byers, looks at the Halloween pic where they both said they’d go ‘crazy together’, and cries and calls himself “stupid” (4x).

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The show says El is neither stupid nor crazy for Mike, meaning she DOES NOT (romantically) LOVE MIKE! The only one who is “crazy” and “stupid” for Mike is Will. Therefore, Will is the only one in love with Mike! . She even ignored his confession for 3 months and lied about hearing it- that doesn’t scream ‘in love’ .

- El mimicks Erica Kane and pretends to be with a fictional Mike Roy, while watching ‘all my children’ (Mike and Erica aren’t endgame btw) . Which parallels mileven to Karen/ Billy. Before she meets him she’s reading a romance book that has a guy that resembles Billy on the cover. The Duffers even mentioned they changed the cover to show the resemblance between Billy and the fictional book character. And we see Karen reading the sequel in s3 before Billy appears. Both El and Karen don’t/didn’t love Mike or Billy- they just projected onto them fictional characters they were infatuated with. She knew Mike for 4 days- saw a rushed romance on tv with a character named Mike- and simply wanted to emulate it with the only Mike she knew.

-She latched on to Mike more than the others since he was the first boy her age who took care of her. If Dustin did everything Mike did, she would of assumed she was in love with him too! El through her limited knowledge (given to her by Mike) essentially assumes boyfriends (who you are in love with) are boys who you think of as “friends, cousins, or brothers” who you kiss. Since Mike accidentally implied that feelings for brothers/ friends are the same as romantic crushes (in s1 saying about the difference “I don’t know I guess there isn’t”, and she is later taught while in isolation that kissing=romantic love (by soap operas). And then projects Mike roy (who she’s actually crushing on) onto our Mike wheeler. And then she proceeds to mimic what she sees on screen. Similar to how she copies Max’s words in s3. El says “I love you too”, cause (similar to mimicking Max and soap operas) she assumes mimicking him is what she’s supposed to do! Not cause she's actually in love with him!

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Not to mention the episode of the soap opera episode she’s mimicking is about a women and a man (named Michael) who rush into a relationship despite barely knowing each other, because of traumatic circumstances . And who are not endgame! She’s mimicking the female character who (has romantic feelings for a guy named Mike). Just like Mike projects Will on to El. El does the same projecting qualities of soap-opera Mike Roy onto our Mike Wheeler.

- For El’s entire life she has known only 4 boys and 1 girl her age (her dating options are pathetically puny). She knew 4 boys for less then then a week, then immediately jumped into dating the first one who kissed her (and the only one who visited her for her 6 months in isolation at the cabin...interacting with her only romantic option, Mike).She’s never had a normal social-life like most kids who interact with a large number of boys and girls. So she could never see if what she had for Mike was romantic (or more than a simple crush) cause she has nothing to compare it to.

In s3

- Dustin compares stancy to Mileven stating it’s “bullshit”. And in s1 mileven is compared to Karen/Ted, as El sits and enjoys Ted’s laz-eboy chair. Similar to how Steve and Ted both eat chicken as their female partners storm away upset, and both men do nothing to help. Nancy states the only reason Karen and Ted got married was because they were young and that getting together was the more ‘socially acceptable/logical choice’ and saying “I don’t think my parents ever loved each other.” John says Nancy was repeating her mom’s mistakes by getting with the jock (Steve) , similar to how her mom got with a wealthy man (Ted). And now Mike is repeating Nancy and Karen’s mistakes getting with a girl cause it’s the logical choice (instead of being with the boy he loves).It’s mutual though (just like the Wheeler parents, mileven never loved each other).

- In s3 El even says “How do I know what I like?” In reference to clothes and Max says she has to figure that out on her own without letting Mike or Hopper influence her. Associating mileven with El’s lack of understanding of knowing what she likes. This poor girl doesn’t even know how to interpret what objects she likes but we’re supposed to believe , before this she knew with certainty she liked Mike romantically?!

Later Max even asks her “Is Mike a good kisser?” And she similarly answers “I don’t know, he’s my first boyfriend”. While staring at a pic of the karate-kid ( right after she dumped Mike). Implying subconsciously she’s thinking of other boys , who are not Mike in the future. Which is actually very similar to the soap opera character who went on to have many marriages after being “in love with” Michael. Plus, despite making out with him everyday for 6 months straight- she doesn’t feel strongly , and is neutral/confused about how kissing him makes her feel (similar to clothes).

This is also in direct opposition to Will, who said he expected him and Mike to never get girlfriends and spend the rest of their lives together, and who later cries while looking at a picture of Mike. Unlike El who is happy and swooning over a pic of a random male celeb. They even have El (after breaking up with Mike) happily read comics books with Max, while Will (right before his breaks down) throws his comic on the floor, frustrated he can’t get his mind off of his fight with Mike.

- Also if she’s ‘so in love with him’ as people claim, her laughing right after breaking up with him and having a party with Max makes little to no sense. And if you say she simply ‘doesn’t understand how breakups work’... you’re just proving my point that she’s too naive and not emotionally-mature enough to be in a romantic-relationship in the first place. The breakup between Mileven was comedic, while Byler’s fight was serious, cause byler’s fight is more important to the writers .Mike’s drastically different expressions after the fight. The dramatic framing in the rain vs the casual comedic after-math at the mall. One fight being in front of a crowd, while byler’s fight was something private and just between them. El smiling vs Will’s heartbreak. It just highlights once again Will loves Mike, and El doesn’t!

- After Mike says to El (in the pool shed) she’s “the most important thing in the world “, to him. She ignores his proclamation, and agrees with Hopper that they’re spending too much time together, and tells him they both need to spend time with their own species. Which is contrasted with Mike’s confession in the Byers-shed (in s2) where Mike says, asking Will to be his friend was the ‘best thing he’s ever done’ . And those words were what helped break Will from his possession.

The framing of this mileven scene was not cinematic or heartfelt, and neither was the delivery from Mike.We as the audience are supposed to take his words as seriously as El- aka , not at all. Because the scene and his words were meant to feel empty. He’s not crying, trying to reach her with proclamations of his genuine feelings. There’s no narrative importance to this scene (unlike byler’s). And there’s no dramatic music, framing, lighting or shot composition (and the pool-scene was also incredibly short).

Then, juxtapose this to the MUCH longer byler scene. A literal single tear falls down Mike’s cheek, as he recounts the first day they met. This whole monologue is only of tight shots of just their faces (their bodies aren’t shown like in the pool shed scene). This is a personal moment between them and them alone- and the fact we zoom in on their faces (expresses this to be important emotionally) . And when we see Will’s reaction to Mike saying “it was the best thing I’ve ever done”. We just see Will’s face only- no music is playing and all we hear is Will’s whimpers and Mike crying in the background. They even have an added layer to this because earlier in the season Will assumes John only hangs out with him because he has no friends. But then Mike (despite all the hardships with the demogorgan and Mindflayer) still tells Will that asking him to be his friend was still the best thing he’s ever done. And those words are what helps Will begin to break from his possession .

-When Max makes fun of how Mike talks to much, El agrees and laughs. And similarly when Max says Mike is wrong and it isn’t just “a break” El once again chuckles. This is not the behavior of someone who’s deeply in love with a person.

Canonically El isn’t even into Mike’s real personality traits or his interests. Not only making fun of how he talks too much, but walking away and ignoring him when he excitedly talked about dinosaurs or makes jokes with the cpr dummy. She’s not into ‘nerds’. She only swooned for him in s3 when he was acting like a ‘bad-boy’ who was disrespectful to Hopper and his friends. Probably, because that’s what the tv has conditioned her to like.

-Robin who had feelings for a girl also points out that Steve “didn’t even like her” despite all the attention Tammy gave him (similar to Mike with El). Tammy is a someone who sucks at singing but does it all the time (COUGH insert mike’s singing in s3 as El cuts him off as a parallel XD) . And Robin annoyed also call’s Steve’s hair “stupid” like how Will called El “stupid”. Implying similar to Steve who didn’t like Tammy (who his gay friend was crushing on) ... EL doesn’t like Mike (Who Will is in love with).

- She also never apologizes for spying on Mike-despite it clearly upsetting him. But to be fair Mike NEVER apologized for lying either (the cause of their breakup). It’s just so obvious they’re not compatible on any level. They can’t even agree to respect each others’ core principles; C’mon guys!

-Her whole arc in s2 was about leaving the cabin and learning more about herself and gaining independence from men controlling her autonomy (aka hopper and brenner). She went from wanting to see her friends and leave the cabin that she was forced to remain in because of Hopper. To in s3 , ignoring her friends and choosing to seclude herself in the cabin even when (unlike s2 ) she was allowed out of the house! All because she was dating mike.She directly went against her own mantra of “friends don’t lie” from s2 , lying to her friends to return to the cabin and kiss mike- limiting her much needed social interaction which she obtained by escaping the cabin in s2. Dating Mike caused her character to regress as a character NOT PROGRESS.

But also... El had no issues lying to her friends to ditch them and kiss mike (compromising her mantra of “friends don’t lie”. Just like Mike who lied to El despite him teaching her the saying in the first place- and how when together he stops being the group leader. They literally bring out the worst in each other! Lucas even says “ they’re lying”. Before Dustin says their relationship is “bullshit”. But then when Mike lied to her, that’s when she dumps him? And of course El pretends she didn’t hear the “I love her” (a form of lying). This is a stereotypical-childish-middle school-romance that falls apart easily based on petty reasons, cause it lacks a strong foundation. XD

-Then we’re supposed to believe she loves Mike-despite ignoring his love confession for 3 months?! Only saying she “loves” him (and‘making-up’ with him) right before she is about to move, and despite knowing about it for so long? To be fair she had other things to deal with (moving in with the Byers and losing Hopper). But it’s also suspicious it happens right after Mike helps her grab the teddy bear she can’t reach. This is because she used 2 different stuffed bears (Hopper and Terry’s in s2) as a comfort objects (and in s3 Will’s). In s2, she’d snuggle with them when she felt abandoned or at her lowest emotionally. And even the (romantic) ‘golden-teddy bear gift’ Mike was going to give her , was an empty gesture- that would of meant less than simply apologizing. She even wears Hopper’s shirt at the end of s3 which in s2 she snuggled with when homesick. Her using teddy bears like s2, wearing Hopper’s shirt from s2 (and undoing the s3 makeover where Max said to dress what felt like her and NOT Mike & Hopper), and kissing Mike again, symbolizes all her character development was undone from s3- it’s symbolic of her CHARACTER REGRESSION. Just like how in s3 she stayed in the cabin and lied to her friends (when she started to date Mike)- undoing her character arc from s2 which was in direct opposition to her s2 character arc. Mileven’s kissing at the end of s3 shows it’s a bad for El’s growth and inhibits it- that’s what season 3 was saying!

El feels vulnerable because she’s moving away and still hasn’t gotten her powers back. But then Mike comes in and gives her, her comfort object (which she couldn’t retrieve by herself, when she tried to use her telekenesis. That’s when El (conveniently) decides to proclaim she’s in love with him too. While in Will’s room, holding Will’s old teddy bear, as the teddybear comes between Mike and El (as they kiss). It’s obvious (unlike Will) she doesn’t love him , but has just formed a co-dependency to him- and is looking for stability given all the new changes in her life. Like Hopper’s letter said “I don’t want things to change.” She preferred life when Hopper was still around and she had this fake fantasy that Mike was a good boyfriend- before s3.

-And again the very last shot we see of El and Will shows once again El doesn’t love Mike, the way Will does. (Image by @tsugarubecker)

She’s not as distraught or crying like Will is. She’s smiling with light over 1/2 her face because even if El struggles in a new environment she’ll be fine without her friends/Mike who she knew for 9 months. Honestly, other than Mike, she only knew the others for 3 months (since El never went out and only hung out with Mike). She’s hopeful . Will won’t be - because he actually loves Mike and won’t be able to have a new party , and will be a mess without his support system of friends, that he’s had for years! (Why jonathan looks at him concerned- when he’s just crying. With absolutely no hope in his face- covered in shadow , the opposite of El).

So again I say- EL IS NOT IN LOVE WITH MIKE! And, she will not be ‘heartbroken’ or devastated when they breakup. Frankly, her being away from Mike and gaining independence from Hawkins, and meeting new people is the best thing the writers could do for her character growth.

#byler #byeler #anti mileven #anti-mileven

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madegeeky · 6 years

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HEY GUESS WHO IS SHAKING WITH RAGE AGAIN

So, my brother-in-law’s wife (my sister-in-law-in-law?) just fb messaged me about possibly having dinner because they happen to be in Chicago until tomorrow. This pisses me off for several reasons, all of which I’m going to write down so I can get them out of my system and move on with my life because fuck all of Mr. Geeky’s close relations. (Behind a cut because it got long.)

Mr. Geeky has had an incredibly strained relationship with BIL since he found out that BIL was cheating on SILIL. Mr. Geeky is an absolute sweetheart and cannot imagine betraying anyone’s trust like, especially someone that he loves, so it very much disturbed him.

None of that even takes into account the fact that SILIL moved here from another country with her young son and thus BIL holds a lot of power of SILIL. Although, as far as I’m aware, he never actively held that over her head, it’s hard not to be aware of the fact that he could.

And none of that goes into what SILIL told me about the emotional abuse and manipulation BIL pulled whenever SILIL would dare to express her anger toward that breach in trust.

We have not heard from either my BIL or my SILIL since we told them that we were not longer talking to Mr. Geeky’s parents.

When we did tell them, literally the only thing BIL did was to guilt Mr. Geeky by implying that they were respecting our wishes and were waiting for us to contact them.

I have a copy of that email and reread it after BIL said this. It is very blunt and states in no uncertain terms that it is all on them to reestablish contact so that’s a line of fucking bullshit. I have no idea if BIL knew he was trying to guilt Mr. Geeky or was just repeating MIL’s bullshit but I don’t care.

The last I heard of SILIL was when my brother’s wife told me that SILIL had contacted her out of the blue, after not having talked for several years, to ask her about Mars’ fb page which she had suddenly realized she no longer had access to. (For several reasons, most of which having to do with Mars’ privacy, I do not post pictures of her on public sites. The two places that I do post to, including fb, you must request access to.)

About a month or so before SILIL contacted SIL I had finally decided to kick SILIL from the group for multiple reasons, the biggest of which was my lingering worries that she was showing the pics to MIL.

The fact that she went behind my back to figure out what was going on implies, to me, that she doing exactly that, showing MIL pics of Mars even though we had explained that they were not to pass on any information about us to MIL and FIL. In order for her to notice the page was gone, she would have to actually go to the page. Since I very rarely post pics there, so she would have been used to not seeing pics of Mars on her dash so there was no reason for her to be suspicious yet. Since she never commented or even liked pics of Mars, I see no reason for her to go out of her way to that page unless she was doing it at someone else’s behest.

It’s not paranoia if someone is actually out to get you.

Luckily my SIL is smart and quick and wonderful and immediately lied and stated that she’s very rarely on fb so had no idea. She is a good SIL and I adore her.

It’s highly insulting and thoughtless to give people so little notice that you are visiting and want to do something with them. It shows not only a lack of common sense but also a lack of respect for the people that you are springing this on.

BIL and SILIL live at least six hours away; this is not the type of thing that you generally plan last minute, especially when you have a kid to plan around. There was no reason to wait to the last minute.

When I pointed this out to SILIL, that it was shitty to spring this on a person last minute, I got a litany of excuses and no apology. Which I immediately pointed out. I’m sure it surprises no one to learn that she never replied back to me, especially not with an apology.

There have been multiple times that BIL and SILIL have visited Chicago and never told us nor attempted to even attempt to see us.

The one time that they did tell us and we did see them, we were the ones who did all the work, dragging Mars who was then only a few months old out to a beach an hour away in the middle of summer because fuck meeting us halfway or anything.

This all took place before we stopped talking to MIL and FIL so they can’t even use that as an excuse.

That fact that it was SILIL who was the one that contacted me, rather than BIL contacting Mr. Geeky, is maddening to me. If BIL wants a relationship with Mr. Geeky, he needs to starting pulling his fucking weight and pick up the fucking phone and, at the very least, text him. Getting his wife to do his work is fucking lazy and disrespectful.

I told SILIL that if they want to see us, BIL will have to contact Mr. Geeky, because this entire situation is bullshit and I’m done with BIL using SILIL and I this way.

I strongly suspect that he does not really care about seeing us. Fuck knows he hasn’t in the past. I strongly suspect that SILIL is largely behind this, which leads me to my final point...

I find it highly suspicious that the very first contact that MIL and FIL have extended toward us (the highly manipulative, disrespectful, shitty fucking card and check they sent) is immediately followed by an attempt at contact from SILIL who, last I knew at least, was very attached to MIL.

Again, it’s not paranoia if someone is really out to get you.

IN CONCLUSION I’m so fucking done with this entire fucking family. Fuck each and every one of their manipulative shitty selves and if I never see or hear from any of them again it will be too soon. They are not welcome nor wanted in our lives and they especially are not welcome nor wanted around Mars. It’s my fucking job to keep Mars as safe as I can from the evils of the world and I take that task very seriously and part of that entails keeping her contact with people who would use her to an absolute minimum until she’s old enough for me to teach her how to deal with them.

I am just so fucking angry that they feel they have any right to us and I am so fucking done.

#geeky talks #mari rants #mari talks real #i really do feel better after writing this #so thanks to anyone who actually read the whole thing #you're a trooper and i love you #and hey!#another incentive to get that paperwork drawn up for if something happens to mr. geeky and i #got keep mars far fucking away from bil and silil #i feel better but i am still so fucking mad

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amusing-me · 7 years

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Monsta x nyc

It was great ayyyy best first concert I have super high expectations if I ever go to another (day 6 would be the only other I’d HAVE to see lol)

I was just happy to see them and I’d thought I would be far but I was actually closer than I ever thought I’d get lol not up front right there but enough to see their faces and dances etc

Suggestions for next time for me: - get there at least 2hrs early for the line, nothing later! - prob should have eaten more and had more water bc standing this long is haaaaard - stretch in line!!!! Idc how crazy you look DO IT bc leg cramps kicked in as soon as I got back to the hotel thank god my legs didn’t give out - make sure it’s the right line bc ppl line up at every street and it gotta be the right one or else they get moved last min which sucks (happened to ppl behind me) - talk to more ppl and actually exchange numbers lol - stay at closest hotel bc that’s where idols be at for real honestly but also try to budget lol - stay the night before and leave last bus out instead, prob cheaper room since week day vs weekend - maybe try for actual souvenirs next time lol but also you got a good spot since you didn’t waste any time with that bullshit soooo - look up HOW THE FUCK PPL WERE RECORDING SO MANY VIDEOS TO THEIR PHONE WAS IT A VIDEO APP? They got those good ass 64GB phones don’t they lol - no service in most venues NO FUCKING SERVICE - bring a real actual camera bitch for real easiest thing and I forgot - upload videos to YouTube in private it’s also easy and freeeeeeee and no chance of removal, also upload to laptop after you get home just to have hard copies someplace

- battery pack is always good idea for phone change before concert starts bc won't have anytime during performance really - SO FUCKIN PACKED IN GENERAL ADMISSION - STANDING FOREVERRRRRR

What stood out: - HYUNGWON I don't even love him like that I swear (I'm a lair and a fraud) but he was missed greatly and I hope he gets better soon so other fans who love him more get to see their bias and he gets to feel that love - minhyuk not as tall as he claims but big personality, not as skinny as I thought also he been eatin - jooheon skinny but not as bad as I thought, still he gotta eat FEED HIM - IM even though he translated some somehow someway he still the quietest???? Shy??? Didn’t expect it but very short (even with inserts I’m sure they all had) - shownu he lost weight but still got muscle, cute smile all the time aw - kihyun is too skinny he gotta eat FEED HIM lol he ate candy during the concert - WONHO mega ass thick solid keep it up good work ayyyy but also eat and if you don’t have abs you are also good ayyyy

- everyone actually sang for the most part which is a huge standard for me, why I don’t care about fanmeets and stuff bc I want to jam to their songs and that’s it honestly - COVERED BRUNO MARS so good the best - did some unit group stuff - SANG MORE THAN JUST FROM CURRENT ALBUM it was my friends number one concern and just like every other artist ever who does concerts they usually do at least a few "classics" or their hit songs.

REGRETS: As soon as I was checking into my hotel I thought I saw minhyuk rush by me and I was like no way couldn’t be him not every blonde Asian guy is minhyuk BUT IT WAS and I HATE I said nothing but he was prob on route to the venue right outside the hotel for mic check and stuff so wouldn’t have mattered like I’ve been going over it in my head trying to be like naw it wasn’t him but the airport pics he has the same hat from yesterday Lol who knows I was seeing things probably but whatever see ya next concert minhyuk lol

Also he short which is another reason I was like nah it ain’t him lol 5'10 my fat ass he is 5'7

My bias supposed to be kihyun but minhyuk done stole me away since he was so close to me walked right by me on his phone or whoever phone iPod idk what device fuckin running zooming around past me like a damn comet

#monsta x nyc #monsta x tour #monsta x #kihyun #minhyuk #jooheon #shownu #IM #changkyun #wonho #hyunwon

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sueboohscorner · 7 years

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#Stitchers Season 3 Episode 6 "The Gremlin and The Fixer"

The episode starts with Kirsten and Camille talking. They make up, Kirsten tells her about Cameron, and Camille suggests talking to Maggie breaking off both feet in Cameron’s butt.

Cameron and Linus talk too, and while Linus understands that Maggie is scary, he rightly points out that Cameron still broke Kirsten’s trust.

When Linus comments that “women are from Venus and men are from Mars,” the scene shifts to someone dying on Mars.

Kirsten talks to Maggie and gets nowhere.

The dead guy’s name is Jake Rowland and he was shot in a Mars simulation chamber at Aero Velocity Research Institute, where he worked.

During the briefing, Linus gets a text from Ivy.

Rowland was shot while leaving work, but he goes back inside to write something in the sand. Unfortunately, it’s too close to the death memory for Kirsten to tell what it was.

Because Kirsten has joined Camille on the “I hate everyone” train, Cameron tries to get Maggie to tell him where Kirsten’s mother is, but she doesn’t.

Linus and Ivy kind of talk, but she doesn’t really tell him anything, which is unfortunate because one couple on this show should actually communicate.

Kirsten takes Fisher to AVR because she still isn’t talking to Cameron. The man in charge says that Rowland turned off the Mars communication satellite before he died and they have 48 hours to figure out how to fix it or they have to blow it up. Rowland’s job was to mess around with the simulator and he was called a gremlin.

He worked in tandem with a fixer, Kenny Lee, who doesn’t appear to get along with anyone. Despite Rowland’s job, the boss can’t think of any reason that he would turn off the satellite. Kirsten offers to send Linus to help.

Kirsten and Cameron go check out the auto place Kirsten saw in the stitch and Camille and Linus go to AVR. The only reason Kirsten doesn’t drag Camille or Fisher with her instead is that Cameron is a competitive video game champion and has the pics to prove it.

Besides not wanting to go with Kirsten, it’s unclear why Camille is at AVR. Linus; however, assuages at the least boss’s doubts by saying very sciency things I don’t understand and being awesome.

Maggie has had a PI following Ivy and has pictures of Stinger “visiting” her. She shows them to Fisher and tells him to tell no one else. This is purely an adult table thing.

Linus and Camille fight, for the same reasons they’ve been fighting almost all season. Hopefully, they’ll stop that soon.

Cameron and Kirsten find the auto/underground video gaming place. They see Zelda, the girl Kirsten saw in the stitch and the organizer, also from the stitch. Cameron’s in awe and not paying attention, so Kirsten goes to the back room, copies files off the computer, and leaves.

Cameron talks to Zelda, and she volunteers him to the organizer to play. The video game is called Warzone, it isn’t available to the public, and no one knows who created it. Cameron wins but is very calm for someone who has never played the game before. The guy that loses punches him in the face. Cameron punches back, and the entire room gets involved.

After it’s calmed down a bit, Cameron and Zelda talk. She didn’t like Rowland very much even though they played against each other a good bit.

The organizer asks Cameron to come back but asks Zelda to spy on him after he leaves.

Ivy calls Linus that she’ll be there in a few, her visiting being what Camille and Linus were arguing about earlier, and then someone approaches her. From the look on her face, you would think it’s her father.

It’s actually Fisher and he and Maggie interrogate Ivy. They show her the pictures and then let her go? I’m sure there’s more to it, but not that we currently know about.

Linus is still working on the satellite, now by deconstructing equipment. Camille walks in with the M.E. for professional business reasons and it’s not super awkward or anything. This is the last episode she’s on the show, so that must be that then.

Even though she’s mad at him, Kirsten’s still worried about Cameron’s war wounds.

Rowland had a copy of the game on his computer at work.

The M.E. finds out what Rowland wrote in the sand. It’s a symbol of no apparent importance.

Cameron and Kirsten talk and he says the one thing I’ve been thinking for a while now. “We can’t keep doing this to each other. Me being mad at you. You being mad at me.” They aren’t fully made up, but she not actively hostile to him anymore.

Kirsten remembers Rowland’s secret computer and they find out that Jake created the game. Linus finds out that there is something hidden at the end of the game and that the satellite wasn’t off. It just wasn’t pointed towards Mars. It was pointed at the warehouse, next door to where Rowland had set up a satellite.

Back at the video game lair, Zelda steals Cameron’s wallet and finds out he’s NSA. She tells the organizer who is super going to kill him.

Kirsten, Linus, and Fisher show up and Kirsten tries to explain what’s happening. What it boils down to is that Cameron needs to win the game to unlock the code Rowland left at the end, a la Chuck versus Tom Sawyer.

Zelda warns him that the organizer guys knows, but Cameron’s gonna see this through to the end. Zelda’s kicking his butt, so Cameron lets her in on the plan. She lets the computer take over and plays as him to beat it. She unlocks the code which itself is unlocked by the symbol the M.E. found earlier.

What is unlocked is a message from Rowland. The organizer blackmailed him to play and rig the games.

He tries to use a gun to leave, but is knocked out by the guy who lost to Cameron earlier.

Kirsten and Cameron talk. Neither of them know what to do, but they’re going to try.

Ivy shows up at Kirsten’s house and they drink wine. She still doesn’t say much.

I liked the plot of this episode and it feels like pieces are being put in place for the rest of the season. 7.5/10

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Hey, so it’s been a while since I put one of these together, what YOU been doing lately?

by Max aka Salgood Sam

In case you hadn’t noticed we’ve had some new blood on board with Brendan Montgomery, joining the site and pretty much single-handedly reviving the idea of a Sequential Magazine. In case you weren’t aware, he got his start making some comics while in university and started the Can Comics Wiki a few years ago.

If you haven’t already, you should go here, and get a copy. It’s free to download, donations optional and I know he’s looking for contributors, advertisers and sponsors! Vol 2 is going to be focused on TCAF.

In other news:

-Item: Kelly Tindall talks to the True North Country Comics podcast ahead of the release of the Show Me History series in March. PlayerFM//Apple.

-Item: Karl Kerschl’s The Abominable Charles Christopher web comic returns with a THOOM!

-Item: Shane Heron and Christopher Yao talked to Aaron Broverman on Speech Bubble podcast last week, about the Cauldron Magazine Kickstarter!

*FYI Sequential magazine is a sponsor of Speech Bubble.

Here’s a look at the work in Cauldron pulled from the drive page. The top pic for this post is also from the book.

-Item: Sunday MAR 31 Dirty Water Comics is launching their new book, Christie Pits, detailing Toronto’s historic Christie Pits Riots. With white nationalists in the news again an all the more relevent story today. Preorder the book here! They did a local radio interview recently, on 680CJOB, listen to them here.

-Item: Tomorrow, February the 23rd, in Toronto you can check out Jews and Comics : People of the Comic Book. A panel discussion with Gerald Hartman, Steven Bergson and Jordan B. Gorfinkel, they will have their books available for sale.

-Item: Years ago Sherwin showed me the mostly finished first pass on a book he was working on, the setting was, well, what if Alice never stopped falling?

Not sure if that’s what he said to me but how I thought of it after he showed me the book and told me a bit about it. I’m not sure why he put it aside for a while, but finally it’s on its way!

Plummet by Sherwin Tjia is coming this fall from Conundrum Press, i’m excited, you should be too!

-Item: Hey you know I post stuff on Patreon a lot, here’s a few recent things:

Drawing Demo’s from my art class, on caricature and perspective respectively, studies from a field trip to Ballet Divertimento de Montréal. A critique of one of my students work with draw over notes on line weight use. And the covers and a map for my finally completed comic with Mark Sable, Dracula Son of the Dragon. And, this video! And this video! All, since new year. It’s been busy!

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-Item: An interview with Darcy Van Poelgeest about his new upcoming Image book with Ian Bertram, ‘Little Bird’.

-Item: New indie publisher called Sandstone Comics is launching out of P.E.I.

They have their first Kickstarter here and reputedly will also be attending the first IEX convention in Charlottetown. They were on the local CBS, here’s the audio from that interview.

-Item: Comics have been pretty warmly embraced by many libraries, but headline exaggerations notwithstanding, here’s a CBC report about the Canada Comics Open Library’s quest for a permanent home for it’s 600-title collection! The project is really cool, I look forwarding to visiting it in the future and donating all my books.

-Item: Rob Walton’s Ragmop is in need of a Publisher, he’s posted chapter one in its entirety to give people a taste, check it out!

-Item: “‘Work for a Million,’ pioneering lesbian pulp fiction, gets graphic novel makeover“, QVoiceNews spotlights the very cool looking new graphic novel from Hope Nicholson’s Bedside Press. Adapted by veteran writer Amanda Deibert (“Wonder Woman ‘77”) and artist Selena Goulding (“Susanna Moodie”), based on the 1986 novel by the same name by Eve Zaremba featuring her groundbreaking private investigator character Helen Keremos.

-Item: Calgary writer Ryan Ferrier will join Vic Malhotra for a four-issue mini-series comic based on the Netflix series Narcos.

-Item: A Hamilton Spectator report on a lecture given by Steve Orlando and Jim Zub about the multidimensional nature of writing graphic narratives and making a living in the comic book industry.

-Item: PW talked to Faith Erin Hicks about her first young adult prose novel Comics Will Break Your Heart.

-Item: Chapter 5 of Conceptual Heist on LINE WEBTOON! Comic looks great as always, sadly after some successes their latest KS drive does not look like it’s going so great. Rough time of year to try fundraising. If you think you can help swoop in fast!

-Item: New comics art by George Todorovski!

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Well this has been a week and a half. Well, technically it is a week and a day, but it one I would and wouldn’t like to repeat. It was with a very heavy heart that I had to say goodbye to poor old Mars on Tuesday. I discussed his condition with the vet and sadly she could tell the mass in his abdomen had grown dramatically in just a week. He wasn’t gaining weight even with the steroids and he was more and more tired so it was the kindest thing to do. I will miss him terribly, as does Luna who has had to say goodbye to both of her friends and really doesn’t know what to do with herself right now. I know the feeling.It didn’t make it easier that on the day in question, for the first time ever, WordPress through a wobbler and managed to delete the content of my post, a blog tour review for Louise Voss’s The Old You. A massive thanks to Jo Robertson for letting me know but I was awful rushing to prep the post while bawling my eyes out and trying to get to work. Apologies to Louise if my review wasn’t up to normal standards. I really did love the book. I was only working half a day too as on Tuesday afternoon I headed to London with Mandie for Johanna Gustawsson and Steph Broadribb’s joint book launch in Covent Garden. One moment of sun in a dark day. Well, that and the Chocolate bun from Ole and Steen. Well I was in mourning.

So, after that ordeal, I only had one more day to work last week as I was off to CrimeFest!!! Did I mention that? I think I may have … I’m not going to bore youa ll to death about it in this post, I’ll do a round up later in the week hopefully, but I will share a few book pics as I may have bought one or two whilst away.

Please note – Chris Whitaker loves me. Understandable as I am fab, but there you go. books I purchase this weekend are Big Sister by Gunnar Staalesen; Hell Bay by Kate Rhodes; Tall Oaks by Chris Whitaker; Hydra by Matt Wesolowski; Head Case by Ross Armstrong; Dark Pines by Will Dean; The Reckoning by Yrsa Sigurdardottir; and The Ice Swimmer by Kjell Ola Dahl. I also received copies of Ten Year Stretch, Hidden Killers andHer Name Was Rose and a signed copy of A Fractured Winter from the lovely Alison Baillie.

I’ll update you all on the CrimeFest shenanigans soon (ish) but I have to say one of the highlights for me was finally getting to meet Rachel Amphlett. I absolutely love her work and she so lovely. And tall. Thanks to Rachel and Nick for the photo – not embarrassing at all 🙂

When we meet again, I shall wear stilts …

In addition to the above books, I may have purchased a few and also received one direct. Books I bought are: The Taking of Annie Thorne by CJ Tudor; Cross Her Heart by Sarah Pinborough; My Husband’s Lies by Caroline England; Motherlandby GD Abson; The Watcher and Head Case by Ross Armstrong; Songs of Innocence by Anne Coates; The Echo Killing by Christi Daugherty and Murder Map by Richard Parker. I also received an advance copy of Seven Bridges from LJ Ross and Peter Ritchie’sShores of Death where I am also quoted inside.

Today I braved Ikea and went shopping for a new desk and chair. I am working from them now and am slowing building up a writing space. This is what I have so far…

I can tell you’re impressed. When I got home, I found that my certificates from my recent online courses had been delivered so I’m like a proper expert now. Or something. No – hold your applause now. This wasn’t neuro-science.

And apparently over the weekend I became the second funniest blogger in the Bloggers Bash Awards. Can’t help feeling the badge needs the world “place” in is as the wording makes it seem like a gentle put down lol. Thank you to everyone who voted for me but it is a weird category for me to be in really. I may be a funny/sarcastic Facebooker/Tweeter but my blog is actually full of really long and really boring posts. Not funny at all. Unless you’re laughing at my typos. Some of them are hilarious.

Now because of the cat and Crimefest, my reading has been pants this week. I finished Ten Year Stretch, plus I managed to read a couple of others, Murder at the Grand Raj Palace by Vaseem Khan and Seven Bridges by LJ Ross. You can read about them below.

Books I have read.

Ten Year Stretch – Crime Fest Short Story Anthology

Twenty superb new crime stories have been commissioned specially to celebrate the tenth anniversary of Crimefest, described by The Guardian as ‘one of the fifty best festivals in the world’.

A star-studded international group of authors has come together in crime writing harmony to provide a killer cocktail for noir fans; salutary tales of gangster etiquette and pitfalls, clever takes on the locked-room genre, chilling wrong-footers from the deceptively peaceful suburbs, intriguing accounts of tables being turned on hapless private eyes, delicious slices of jet black nordic noir, culminating in a stunning example of bleak amorality from crime writing doyenne Maj Sjowall.

The foreword is by international bestselling thriller writer Peter James. The editors are Martin Edwards, responsible for many award-winning anthologies, and Adrian Muller, CrimeFest co-founder.

All Royalties are donated to the RNIB Talking Books Library.

The contributors to Ten Year Stretch are: Bill Beverly, Simon Brett, Lee Child, Ann Cleeves, Jeffery Deaver, Martin Edwards, Kate Ellis, Peter Guttridge, Sophie Hannah, John Harvey, Mick Herron, Donna Moore, Caro Ramsay, Ian Rankin, James Sallis, Zoe Sharp, Yrsa Siguroardottir, Maj Sjowall, Michael Stanley and Andrew Taylor.

A cracking anthology which I have reviewed in full. You can find the links for the final few at the bottom of this post and can order your own copy here.

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Murder at the Grand Raj Palace – Vaseem Khan

In the enchanting new Baby Ganesh Agency novel, Inspector Chopra and his elephant sidekick investigate a murder at Mumbai’s grandest hotel.

For a century the iconic Grand Raj Palace Hotel has welcomed the world’s elite. From film stars to foreign dignitaries, anyone who is anyone stays at the Grand Raj.

The last thing the venerable old hotel needs is a murder…

When American billionaire Hollis Burbank is found dead – the day after buying India’s most expensive painting – the authorities are keen to label it a suicide. But the man in charge of the investigation is not so sure. Chopra is called in – and discovers a hotel full of people with a reason to want Burbank dead.

Accompanied by his sidekick, baby elephant Ganesha, Chopra navigates his way through the palatial building, a journey that leads him steadily to a killer, and into the heart of darkness . . .

Started on audio, finished in book format, I do love an Inspector Chopra book. Murder, mayhem and missing princesses make for another cracking read. You can find your own copy here and my review will be published soon,

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Seven Bridges – LJ Ross

Ryan’s most explosive case yet…

It’s been five months since a killer walked free and DCI Ryan is preparing to leave Newcastle to hunt him down – this time, for good.

But Ryan’s plans are scuppered when events take a dramatic turn and he is forced to stay and face his past one last time, or watch a friend suffer the consequences.

Amid the chaos, another killer is preparing to strike. When the Tyne Bridge explodes, Ryan’s team are faced with a frantic race to uncover a deadly foe who won’t stop until every bridge is burned, along with everybody on it…

Murder and mystery are peppered with romance and humour in this fast-paced crime whodunit set amidst the spectacular Northumbrian landscape.

Love this series and this is another belter but writing the review will be tough as there is too much chance of a spoiler. So I will just say – read it. It’s fabulous. And if you do then no it’s not but yes it is me. You can buy your own copy here and my review will hopefully be up on publication day.

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And that was it. You can catch up with my daily blog posts at the links below:

Ten Year Stretch Part 4: Ten Years of CrimeFest

The Old You by Louise Voss

Ten Year Stretch Part 5: Ten Years of CrimeFest

Ten Year Stretch Part 6: Ten Years of CrimeFest

Guest Review: Broken Bones by Angela Marsons

Dying Truth by Angela Marsons

Fault Lines by Doug Johnstone

Blog Tour: The Cathy Connolly Series by Sam Blake

Freefall by Adam Hamdy

This coming week I have a few tours to take part in and possibly some reviews if I get time. Tours are for As Good As Gold by Patricia Furstenberg; It Was Her by Mark Hill; The Chosen Ones by Carol Wyer; and Songs of Innocence by Anne Coates.

So that is it for now. I am hoping for a far less problematic week this week. Thankfully only four days at work for the next three weeks and then I am on on my hols. Cannot wait. Unbelievably I also celebrate my second blog birthday on Thursday. I am beside myself with excitement. Actually, I am quite impressed. Never been able to concentrate on anything for two years before. Go me,

Have a fab week all.

Jen

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1 - 50 for the end of the year ask meme :*

1. First things first, did you have a good year?

It was kind of a mixed bag. Like, January-May sucked, and September-Now kinda sucked also, but I had the best fucking summer of my life! Like it was constant good things!

2. How old did you turn this year?

21 :3

3. Do you feel your age?

Fuck no. I feel like I’m 12 most of the time

4. Did your appearance change in anyway?

Not really? I let my hair grow a little longer, and I let the purple hair dye from last year fade out (and I bleached the part I would normally dye), but it was more or less different variations on the usual look.

5. Post your favorite selfie.

I will do this in a separate post and tag you in it (don’t have any selfies on my laptop)

6. If you traveled, where did you go?

I went to Connecticut to see the Moody Blues! But that’s about the furthest I went

7. Which fashion trends did you love?

Vintage making a comeback!

8. Which fashion trends did you hate?

Idk, I’m not really up on trends

9. What was your favorite article of clothing this year? Post a pic if possible?

Uhhhhh… Probably the terrible red and blue paisley button down that looks purple from any distance other than right close up (don’t have pics of it rn sorry!)

10. What song sums up this year for you?

Hmmmm.. Let’s go with “Let Your Troubles Roll By” by Carbon Leaf

So many cities and windows and lives, and through each one there’s a soul that strives to survive, so pay no mind, my sorrow’s fine. The day is alive and that’s why I cry. Like New Year’s Eve, grab your list to conspire. The last snake hissed as he was thrown in the fire. You’ve come far and though you’re far from the end, you don’t mind where you are cos you know where you been

11. What album came out and has been on heavy rotation since then?

There’s three.

Nothing Rhymes With Woman 2016, which is a rerelease of the album of the same name, by Carbon Leaf (it came out at the tail end of last year, and I got my copy at the beginning of this one)

The Mission by Styx. It’s not too often that an old band like this will surprise drop a new album, let alone a concept album about going to Mars

Every Valley by Public Service Broadcasting. I really love it. Just. What more can I say?12. What was your favorite movie of the year?

You know, I don’t think I’ve seen a movie in theaters at all this year. So idk

13. Did an actor/actress catch your attention for the first time this year?

Not really

Favorite new TV show?

Star Trek Discovery!

14. Which new ship/fandom has taken over a lot of your time, attention, and tears?

Juno Steel and Peter Nureyev from The Penumbra Podcast. Also I have a personal ship that’s part of a story me and my roommate have been working on

15. What food did you try for the first time?

There’s probably something, but I can’t think of it off the top of my head

16. Did you make any big permanent changes this year?

As an individual, not really. As a member of my family, we finally bought out my aunt and uncle and officially own my grandparents’ house, and are in the process of fixing it up so we can move in (this has been 2 years in the making come February)

17. What was one nice thing you did for someone else?

Supporting my roommate while they were going through some real rough shit

18. What was one nice thing you did for yourself?

Bought myself tickets to see (and meet) the Moody Blues over the summer!

19. Did you develop a new obsession?

I’ve really gotten into ELO in the last few months. Other than that, I just fueled the old ones (*cough* the moodies *cough*)

20. Did you vote?

No, though I should have. To do that I needed to get an absentee and I completely forgot to put in the application for it until it was too late

21. Did you move?

Not exactly. Like I said before, my family is in the process of moving (but it’s really only two blocks away from our old house), and I did some minor moves from college to home to summer apartment to home to college.

22. Did you get a job?

I had a research job up through the end of August

23. Did you get a pet?

I got a new plant if that counts

24. Do you regret not doing anything?

I regret not taking advantage of some of the resources available to me through my college. And some other stuff.

25. Do you regret doing something?

I regret waiting so long to start working on my thesis

26. Have you done anything that scared you?

Oh yes. Lots. I’m scared of everything lol. But like, I took my GRE, I went to Chicago (not on my own, but like, without my parents), I finally got my drivers license! So yeah, many scary things but I did them.

27. Did anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days?

Sure. There was some stuff that my roommate said/did because they were going through shit that really got to me and upset me

28. Did you lose anyone close to you?

No, not really

29. Did you fall in love?

yup

30. Did you fall out of love?

Depends on whether or not you count the thing I had back in the spring as “love”, because if you do then yes, if you don’t then no (this has no relation to the last question, because I did in fact fall in love again)

31. Did you start a new relationship?

In a way

32. Did you go through a break up?

I ghosted on a couple of dudes cos I got freaked out, does that count?

33. Did you have to cut ties to someone?

The two dudes I ghosted

34. Who was important to you this year but wasn’t important last year?

My good friendo Victoria (because I didn’t really know her then)

35. Who wasn’t as important to you this year as they were last year?

Idk

36. If you could have a do over on one thing you did, would you take it?

Most likely

37. What was the best moment of the year for you?

To be quite honest, meeting the Moody Blues. Hands down. Probably in the “Top 10 Moments of My Life” list

38. What was the worst?

The entirety of fall semester collectively

39. Did anything happen that you were sure would change you as a person but it really didn’t?

You know, honestly I think it was the Moody Blues concert. It was a religious experience in a way, but other than coming out of it happier than I’d been in a long time, it really didn’t change me as a person

40. Did anything happen to you that you were sure wouldn’t change you as a person but it did?

The whole thing with my roommate. I am just now starting to realize that it fucked me up waaaaaay more than I thought it did

41. What are you most proud of accomplishing?

Getting my drivers license

42. What have you learned about yourself this year that you didn’t know in the years prior?

That people think I’m sweet and kind and trustworthy and cute and happy and that I can help make other people happy even when I’m not happy at all

43. Did your opinion of anyone change for the better?

Well, one of my professors I guess, Dr. Stamm

44. Did your opinion of anyone change for worse?

Hooooo boy, oh yes. Two in specific- the treasure of the pagan club at school (of which I am secretary), and another one of my professors, Dr. Steiger

45. If you make resolutions, did you complete them this year?

I don’t really make resolutions

46. If you make resolutions, what will your resolutions be for the coming year?

Again, don’t really make resolutions, but I think this year I might set a goal to try to treat myself better and to try to seek out some help for my bad mental health

27. If you could go on an adventure during the remaining days of the year, where would you go and what would you do? Who would you go this?

You know, honestly I think I would like to stay right here at home. I’ve got a lot of adventuring coming up real quick, so I’d like to enjoy the calmness while I can

What do you wish for others for the coming year?

I wish that you all have good years. That things get to be a little less shitty, and that everyone can hold onto a little bit of hope. It’s hard, but I know you can do it. I wish you all good health, and happiness, and I hope something really good happens :D

What do you wish for yourself?

I wish… I wish that I get to feel better mentally, and that I get to have more good times than bad, and that all this stress and anxiety ends up working out and I end up in a better place for it all. I wish for some good things

Boy that was long. Thank you though!!

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