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doobea · 9 months

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I CAN MAKE YOUR BED ROCK - RIN ITOSHI

synopsis: You're a famous online smut author, married to an international superstar athlete, and everyone around you thinks you have the perfect sex life. What they don't realize is Rin sleeps in the guest room and you're still very much a virgin.

contents: fem!reader, arranged marriage, suggestive themes but nothing too explicit (read with caution), characters are all in their mid/late-20s, reader has a small supportive friend group of other smut authors, mentions of alcohol, sex toys, and lots of failed attempts to seduce an oblivious (?) husband, mdni word count: 2.4k a/n: you guys already know that this is gonna be a wild one. is this my debut attempt to write smut but make it a romcom? maybe. this is gonna be a four-part series!!

一 : Oh baby, I be stuck to you like glue ->next.

To say that you’re infamous on the internet isn’t an exaggeration but a truth. No, you haven’t posted anything controversial regarding your marital status and haven’t gotten yourself into a crazy D-List influencer scandal; you’re infamous solely because of your erotica literature and, surprisingly, your in-laws were fine with it.

“Whatever brings home the money.” Your father-in-law would always chime.

You weren't ashamed of your career, and it practically all started in college when you wanted to pass the time writing for your favorite fandom. In a short amount of time, you had gained a small devoted following on your blog that made a lightbulb switch go off in your head - what if I could do this for a living? And so you did. Fast forward three years, now you are making a comfortable living working from anywhere with a wifi signal available and have over 950k followers on your socials, all under your alias 'YN Finalis'. With that many followers, most people would feel worried about their personal life being breached, but you're not dumb; you like to keep your personal life on, what you like to call, "low battery" mode.

Here's what your near million followers do know about: you’re 24 pushing on 25, you've come from a rather wealthy background, you’re married to an athlete, you’ve written well over 40 original explicit stories, and you have a plethora of sex toys and contraptions in your master bedroom.

What they don't know is: you're in an arranged marriage with Rin Itoshi for the past year, he only sleeps in the guest bedroom, and you're a virgin with a really creative mind.

Crazy, right?

But it's not like you're alone in your thoughts, today was the day when you decided to finally vent to your close fellow internet authors about your sexual frustrations.

"My in-laws keep asking me the same thing every time they call," Your voice reaches your laptop where your weekly meeting was set up on the kitchen counter. "I mean just how do they expect us to have a kid when my own husband doesn't even touch me?" You finish the remaining wine in your glass in dismay as sudden gasps were heard from the laptop's speakers.

"He hasn't initiated sex with you in these last few months?" Chigiri gasps.

"More like in the entirety of our relationship." You cry as you pour out another glass. You pick up your laptop, frowning seeing everyone's solemn looks, and make your way to your living room couch. "I'm still a virgin for crying out loud, like who's still a virgin at 24?"

Probably a lot of people but this is about you, not them!

"Oh my god," Hiori looks like he was going to cry for you. "Maybe your husband's just shy? Could it be he hasn't found the right time for it?"

"But a whole year?" Bachira is next to speak. "No wonder your stories have been popping off, you've been super horny."

You try to hold back your drunken sniffles. "I just don't understand! It's not like I'm ugly or anything, plenty of people wanted to date me back in college! He comes home to a clean house, I make fantastic meals that aren't just a ham and turkey sandwich, and for his past birthday I even gifted him an all-paid trip to Okinawa!"

"Shit," Shidou whistles, "I'd fuck you if you made me a ham and turkey sandwich."

"Not now for jokes." Hiori scolds and his tone softens when he speaks to you, "Outside of sex, has your husband been good to you?"

You pinch the bridge of your nose in frustration. "God, yes. He's so good to me you have no idea."

It wasn't like Rin was neglecting you in other forms of intimacy. Hugs and brief kisses were frequent both in and outside of the house. He loves holding your hands, shopping for clothes with you, giving you forehead kisses, and kissing you 'good morning' and 'good night' every day. There was absolutely nothing wrong with him, other than the occasional 'I'm irritated and I need my space' phase that required a whole evening to himself - but that was beside the point.

"Have you guys even talked about it?" Hiori continues.

"Oh god, absolutely no, it's an arranged marriage for fuck sake. What if I come off too strong and he doesn't even see me like that? Then the whole marriage will just be awkward!"

"But he's willing to do all those other things you listed down, maybe he is just shy." Bachira retorts.

"You think maybe he swings the other way?" Shidou asks but it's genuine this time.

A long period of silence falls over everyone as they try to figure out what they could help you with. But ultimately this was your husband to figure out, Rin wasn't married to them and they don't even know who Rin Itoshi was.

“Ah, whatever!” You swirl the wine in your glass around, frowning at your sullen reflection. “Maybe we’ll just end up adopting a baby instead of having one, maybe his parents won’t be able to tell the difference. And maybe I’ll just have to resort to reading other smut to satisfy my lack of intimacy. Chigiri, when is that next chapter coming out?”

A few clicks are heard from the other side of the screen before he says, “You’re in luck, I’m about to have my friend beta read this and it should be up by tonight.”

Perfect, you thought.

Chigiri, whose online username is RedPanther, has the third most followers on the adult website that everyone in the group was a part of. He's known for his works centering around the tropes 'forced proximity' and 'enemies to lovers', often the smut he writes will include a steamy threesome that has some sort of pegging involved - but that's always towards the second to last chapter.

"Oh!" Bachira calls out your name with a smile, "Aren't you working on a new story yourself?"

“Remind me again,” Shidou leans forward, "what's this one about?"

You find yourself feeling slightly lighter now that you've vented and the topic has shifted to something you're more confident speaking about. After a few seconds of rummaging through your Word documents, you drag the file labeled "I CAN MAKE YOUR BED ROCK - rough outlines & ideas.doc" to the group chat. Rarely do you ever share your creativity flow with other people but, after your unwarranted trauma dump, you figure it was better than nothing.

"Funny enough, it's loosely based on my marriage." You confess sheepishly, "This is my way of coping with it, I guess."

"Nothing wrong with that." Hiori chimes in, "It's free compared to having a shitty therapist!"

"Damn woman," Shidou's pink eyes dart back and forth from the screen, eyebrows furrowing up and down as he makes his way through your well-detailed outline. "you need to get laid, ASAP."

You click open your story file to follow along. In the tags section, you listed: Arranged marriage, unrequited love/one-sided, brat tamer, BDSM, choking, spanking, spitting, breeding kink, cum slu–

Okay, maybe Shidou is right (which is a surprise), you do need to get laid. But it's also okay to get slightly defensive for the sake of your ego, right?

You playfully roll your eyes at your group mate. "Ok ok, no need to judge that hard coming from the person who literally writes degradation kinks for a living!"

"Well, I think this story will be your best one yet!" Chigiri and Bachira both flip you a thumbs up over on their end of the call.

After a few more exchanges of small story updates in everyone's life, you all decided to end the call since it was getting rather late in the afternoon and you have yet to get started on dinner. You briefly thank Chigiri for his upcoming update and hop off, just in time before you hear the familiar sounds of the front door opening.

"I'm back."

"Welcome back, Rin!"

You can't help but feel slightly embarrassed and guilty that you were essentially gossiping about your husband's lack of sex drive to your friend group, which he hardly knows about, when he comes home with a large bag of takeout and your favorite coffee order. Rin is dressed in his typical workout outfit, which consists of a black form-fitting t-shirt and grey sweatpants that were just loose enough that you can still make an outline of his 'magic jewels', as Bachira likes to write.

"Baby, you didn't have to." You quickly grab the items from his hands so he can set down his gym bag.

He hums in response, briefly kissing your forehead before making his way into the kitchen to fetch a tall glass of water. "You've been cooking all week so I wanted you to take a small break," Rin says with a smile.

Your ears go warm and mimic the smile back, “Thanks, how was practice today?”

He sighs through his nose and wipes away the remaining sweat-covered bangs sticking to his forehead. “Rougher than usual but nothing too crazy. Isagi was more annoying compared to yesterday.” Rin says with a small pout.

“Boo,” You stick your tongue out in agreement, “how dare he annoys my one and only husband?”

“Oh, shut up.” He flicks a finger to your cheek and lets out the slightest fake scoff.

After hydrating, Rin announces quietly that he’ll come back to eat as soon as he takes a shower and darts to the guest bedroom. And with that, you’re reminded of your odd predicament.

He is a good husband and knows that you care for him and vice versa. When both sets of parents first introduced you two, it was awkward and you knew from reading his background that he wasn’t the most sociable of people but you were, and still are, patient. This arranged marriage was more or less a business deal between fathers; your father held the CEO title at a top entertainment company in the nation and Rin’s father wanted to secure the spotlight for the growing star athlete. Rin didn’t say much during that meeting, and neither did you.

Your first kiss with him was also on your first date. It was at his apartment, both of you shared the same hobby of playing horror games, and you were sitting thigh to thigh on his two-seater couch. You were dying multiple rounds in, fingers bruised from button-mashing and mind-busied with inappropriate thoughts as you kept stealing glances at your painfully attractive fiance. It didn’t take long for Rin to notice because it was stupidly obvious. He sat his controller down, took one look at you, and asked, “Do you want me to kiss you?” with a weird little smile that was seemingly almost out of character from what you knew of him. And the kiss was … awkward to say the least. You remembered him leaning down and you were leaning up, mashing lips and a little bit of teeth together. No amount of research that you had done days prior could’ve prepped for that. And it was almost as if it was his first time kissing too, but you fixated on your inexperience than pay any mind to his mysterious relationship track record.

One year later and you’re still stuck at first base.

As if on cue, you feel your phone give out a series of buzzes in your back pocket, already knowing that it’s from your online penpals. You break out from your thoughts and scroll to the top of the messages:

Bachira M. [BluntBangs] “You should try seducing him tonight!” Hiori Y. [ChoppyCyan] “You remember reading Chigiri’s fan favorite short story - “Till Death Do Us Part”? There was this one scene where the characters had to share one bed because the other bedroom got ruined by a leak! Maybe you can “accidentally” make that happen too?” Chigiri H. [RedPanther] “I remember I had a fun time writing that scene. You should definitely try and flirt with him, y/n.” Shidou R. [HornyDemon] “And if your husband won’t fuck you then I will /jk” Hiori Y. [ChoppyCyan] “Shut up you’ll fuck anything that has a pulse”

They weren’t necessarily wrong. You didn’t want this dynamic to potentially go on for another year or even for the rest of your life - trying wouldn’t hurt anyone, right?

You quickly fill up a pitcher of water then peer into the spare guest room and notice warm lighting bleeding through the cracks coming from the bathroom door and the sounds of running water. With Rin still busy washing up, you take the liberty to start messing around for your impromptu operation. You weren’t exactly sure when or who suggested sleeping in separate bedrooms to start but, to your knowledge, this is the first time that you’ve actually sneaked around in his room.

You start with the closet, opening its double doors and seeing his clothes all hung in order and by color. His sneakers and cleats were all stored in separate clear cases in the bottom corner while there is a small center shelf in the middle that holds his cologne, deodorant, and moisturizer. He’s neat, you think to yourself before deciding that it’s probably best to leave his belongings alone and focus on ruining something in the room that was less personal. Next is the carefully made bed with extra fluffed pillows, then the freshly well-kept plants on the window sill, followed by the small framed photo of your wedding day on the bedside table. Guilt immediately rushes over your consciousness.

“No, this won’t do either.” You groan, suddenly feeling like this is the dumbest thing on earth now. “I should just give up.”

“y/n?” Rin’s voice calls out and you snap your head towards his direction, soon to be met with a series of incoherent sputtering from the male as you realize that he’s completely wet and naked.

“Oh my god!” Hands and pitcher fly to your redden face as you try to come up with an excuse but nothing comes out the way you want it to, “I-I uh–water! I thought you needed more water–I’m sorry!”

You hear him scrambling around the room, most likely searching for a towel to cover up his impressive lower half. “You’re fine,” Rin’s voice sounds flustered and unusually high pitched, “just give me a second–”

“N-No I’m sorry! I don’t even know why I’m standing here I should just go and–” Closing your eyes might’ve been the worst choice all day because soon your body meets the wall and soon the floor, spilling the pitcher’s contents all over you in the process.

Your phone vibrates again, text reading:

Bachira M. [BluntBangs] “Did it work?!”

#blue lock #bllk #bllk x reader #blue lock imagines #blue lock x reader #doobea writing #itoshi rin #rin itoshi #rin itoshi x reader #itoshi rin x reader #blue lock smut #itoshi rin smut #rin itoshi smut #bllk smut #idk how slow but like slowish #they are not gonna fk until like the last chapter i think #but will do everything else in between #i can make your bed rock - rin itoshi #mdni

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queenshelby · 13 days

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An Illicit Affair

Part 32: Arrest

Pairing: Cillian Murphy (46) x Reader (23)

Warning: Age-Gap, Taboo Relationship, Infidelity

Without giving it a second thought, Cillian sought out his son who he knew was at university that day , planning on confronting him about it. His gut feeling told him that Max had something to do with the charge and, as he drove to university, the erratic beat of the rain drummed furiously against the roof of the car, matching the thundering of his own heart. Anxiety and anger built inside him as a thousand different scenarios played out in his head.

What his gut feeling failed to foresee however is that Max had, just as always, been manipulated by his mother who, according to Max himself, had been using the car for the past few weeks.

"Dad, what is going on?" he wanted to know , his eyes narrowing in suspicion, his body language stiff and defensive as his father stood in front of him, questioning him.

"Mum said that her card had been stolen and I figured that you wouldn't mind if she used yours. She was just going to get some groceries and you had her other accounts blocked, so I just gave it to her and told her to be reasonable, you know," Max explained after Cillian had confronted him about the charges in Chelsea. "And you know that I don't have a license at the moment, so I am not going to drive a brand-new car. Mum has been using it for weeks. She fucking paid for it, so why not," Max continued, his eyes wide and innocent, completely unaware of the betrayal that his mother had committed.

Cillian sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose, frustration building up in his chest. "Max, this is serious. Are you sure she's been using the car all this time?" Cillian told his son, his voice heavy with disappointment and anger.

"Yes, dad! She has been in London for ages now. She didn't want me to tell you because of all that has been happening and since I didn't talk to you for weeks anyway, I didn't think it was an odd request," Max stated, still looking at his father with wide, innocent eyes, completely oblivious to the impact his words had on him.

Cillian sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose with his fingers again. He felt like he was being pulled in every direction, unable to find solid ground, unable to make sense of the senseless situation.

"Max, we need to talk. And then we need to go to the police, together!" Cillian announced, determination shining in his sharp blue eyes as he processed the sudden turn of events.

Max frowned, hesitating for a moment before nodding reluctantly.

"To the police? Why?" Max asked, surprise lacing his words as he glanced nervously at his father.

Cillian turned to his son, meeting his eyes, the gravity of the situation heavy in his gaze.

"I think that your mother has been stalking Y/N and I think that she was responsible for the accident," Cillian explained quietly, donning a serious expression that Max had never seen before.

Max shook his head, confusion drawing his brows together. "Mum wouldn't do this kind of thing, dad!" he denied, his voice trembling ever so slightly, with a hint of disbelief lingering behind each word that left his mouth.

But Cillian disagreed, his mind set on revealing the truth about Danielle's actions. "Max, listen to me," Cillian tried but Max cut him off.

"No! I won't listen to you say these things about her! Mum is a good person, she would never hurt anyone," Max insisted, anger and panic bubbling inside him. He couldn't believe what his father was suggesting. Danielle was his mother, his rock, his safe haven. She was the one person he could always rely on, the one person who had always been there for him, no matter what. The idea that she could be capable of such a heinous act was unfathomable.

"Max, your mother has been trying to trap me in this marriage for a long time and when that didn't work for her anymore and I filed for divorce, she started targeting Y/N. I know it sounds far-fetched, but you have to trust me on this," Cillian pleaded, grasping for straws.

Max sneered, crossing his arms over his chest as he glared at his father. "How convenient. You're blaming her now that you've found yourself someone else," Max exclaimed accusingly.

"Y/N told me about the car following her, Max. I checked and it is the same make and model your mother bought for you," Cillian retorted, trying to break through Max's resistance.

"Y/N is probably lying to get rid of mum because of you. Because she doesn't want the baggage that comes with having an ex-wife and all," Max declared, frustration and protectiveness coursing through him.

Cillian sighed, trying to keep his patience in check. "Look, Max. I know it's hard to accept but we have to face the facts. Your mother has become increasingly unstable over the past few months and her behavior has become increasingly erratic. Believe me, I wish it wasn't the case, but I am worried, not only about Y/N's safety, but also yours," Cillian assured Max, who looked away, unable to meet his father's gaze.

"So you are trying to get mum locked up? Is that it?" Max asked finally, his eyes focused on anything but his father.

Cillian reached out to put a reassuring hand on Max's shoulder, but he recoiled at the touch. Cillian sighed and dropped his arm to his side.

"No Max, I am trying to get her the help she needs while, at the same time, making sure that Y/N and you are safe!" Cillian replied emphatically, frustration creeping into his voice as he raised his hands in a helpless gesture. "I know it's hard for you to hear this, but we can't ignore it anymore."

Max sighed, his shoulders slumping as he finally conceded defeat. "You ruined everything by getting involved with Y/N! So, I hope you are happy, dad!" Max spat, disgust heavy in his voice, and Cillian's heart ached. He hated that their relationship had come to this, but he couldn't stand by and do nothing while Danielle's erratic behavior continued.

"Max, I never meant for this to happen. I never meant to hurt you or your mother," Cillian whispered, his voice thick with regret. "But I can't deny my feelings for Y/N either. I'm sorry."

Max shook his head, his eyes shining with unshed tears.

"I don't want to hear it," he mumbled, his voice barely audible. "Just fucking go!"

Cillian sighed, rubbing his temples. "Okay. I will leave," Cillian conceded but Max was beyond reasoning at this point. He had made up his mind, and there was no changing it. "I hate you," he muttered, turning on his heel and storming off.

Cillian watched him go, his heart heavy with sadness, regret and uncertainty.

"Max," he called after him. "Max, please, don't leave like this."

But Max did not look back. Instead, he quickened his pace, disappearing around a corner, leaving Cillian standing alone, the cool wind biting at his exposed skin, a single tear rolling down his cheek.

As he stared at the empty space where his son had just been, he knew that he had to press on. For Y/N, for Max. For himself.

With that in mind, he made his way to the station , determination fueling his steps. He needed to speak to the detective in charge of the case, to share his suspicions, to point out the inconsistencies, to expose the danger that Danielle posed and to plea for their protection.

Upon arriving at the station, Cillian was greeted with a flurry of activity. Police officers rushed back and forth, the buzz of their radios and their hushed conversations filling the air, creating an almost suffocating level of tension. He approached the front desk, a pleasant-looking woman greeted him, inquiring how she could assist.

He explained why he had come, and after a brief moment of discussion, the receptionist summoned the investigator responsible for your case and it was then and there that an arrest warrant against Danielle had been issued.

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thecoleopterawithana · 6 months

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Suicide

If when she tries to run away / And he calls her back, she comes / If there's a next time, he's okay / Cause she's under both his thumbs She'll limp along to his side / Singing a song of ruin, I'd / Bet he says nothin' doin' / I'd, I'd call it suicide

This is likely one of the first songs Paul ever wrote. It predates Rock 'n Roll washing up onto the Mersey shores and the tingles that started going up and down Paul's spine. Not yet acquainted with his "confidante", Paul's earliest compositions were done instead on his home piano.

This particular tune seems to have come about around Paul's fourteenth birthday, in mid-1956. It is not known how this song sounded at its genesis: did it already have the lyrics, or was it like the contemporaneous "When I'm Sixty-Four", for which he originally had only the tune?

We hear "Suicide" for the first time in the Get Back sessions, with complete lyrics and John joining in right from the first verse. From Paul's comments on the song, it does seem like he had the lyrics in mind from the get-go:

That was a song I’d had forever, since I was about 16. I had my Dad’s old piano at home, that I used to tinker about on when there was no-one in the house. And my feelings were, then, that if you were ever going to be a songwriter, the height of it all was Sinatra. That would be the greatest stuff that you could do, really a little bit before rock ‘n’ roll, so you were thinking of standards and things. So around that time I wrote “When I’m 64” and this other thing. I thought it would be a bit of a Rat Pack, smoochy, with words like “When she tries to, run away, uh-huh…” Boom! And stabs from the band, you know.

— Paul McCartney, in the McCartney - Archive Collection (2011) liner notes.

I'm curious about the timing because, in usual McCartney fashion, we have quite dark lyrics being camouflaged by a jaunty little tune (à la "Maxwell Silver Hammer", "Another Day", etc.) And they are made even darker if they were written by a fourteen-year-old boy.

When I first heard of this song, I assumed, based on the title, that it'd been written after Mary's death. So I was quite surprised when I saw its origin dated to potentially even earlier than that (although I don't really know what information these estimations are based on).

Regardless of the exact date of origin, this song had been on my mind since I heard it brought up in @anotherkindofmindpod's Fine Tuning: Ep 2 Shoulder to Shoulder. Together with Ep 4 Shells & Barriers and the wonderful analyses that emerged from it, I've been wondering about what influenced teenage Paul to write a song about a woman trying (and failing) to escape an abusive marriage. From @bidisasterhawkeye's contribution to the aforementioned post:

For those unaware, Paul's mother had a quite tragic background. The second of four children, her younger sister Agnes died at age two (cause unknown) when Mary was around eight years old. When Mary was ten, her mother died giving birth to another baby girl (who also died). At that point, Mary's older brother left their home in Liverpool to join the army and Mary's father took Mary and her toddler brother, Bill, back to his home country of Ireland. In Ireland, they apparently lived in extreme poverty as Mary's father tried and failed to become a farmer. Ten year old Mary was apparently not enrolled in school there because she was given the role of homemaker and mother to her baby brother. When Mary was around 13, her father went to Liverpool and acquired a second wife with children of her own, and this new stepmother was apparently "cruel" enough that Mary ran away at age 14 (as did Bill later).

I might have seen it mentioned somewhere around here recently (please let me know if you know where!), but it's curious that Paul wrote about women running away in "Suicide" and "She's Leaving Home", when his own teenage mother went through the same. The latter song seems to apply better to Mary's situation at fourteen. Whose story is Paul telling in "Suicide"?

Maybe it's not that deep, and "Suicide" is indeed only a joke song. Paul certainly seems to want us to believe that:

It was a real early song of mine, and I used to do it as a joke, really. […] So I never did anything with it but around the time of McCartney, I was just goofing around on piano and at the end of one of the takes there was a little bit of tape left, so I just did it and didn’t think to use it because it was Rat Pack, tongue in cheek. But I used that little fragment at the end of one of the tracks, ‘Glasses’.

Haha, good ol' Paul, goofing around with a meaningless little tune called "Suicide" right around the same time stuff like this was happening:

I was going through a bad time, what I suspect was almost a nervous breakdown. I remember lying awake at night shaking, which has not happened to me since. One night I'd been asleep and awoke and I couldn't lift my head off the pillow. My head was down in the pillow, I thought, Jesus, if I don't do this I'll suffocate. I remember hardly having the energy to pull myself up, but with a great struggle I pulled my head up and lay on my back and thought, That was a bit near! I just couldn't do anything. I had so much in me that I couldn't express and it was just very nervy times, very very difficult.

— Paul McCartney, in Barry Miles' Many Years From Now (1997).

I'll leave further ruminations on the emotional implications of "Suicide" to your discretion. Or we can take a page out of Lewisohn's book and simply conclude:

But though the words wanted work (and didn’t get it), ["Suicide"] was a charming little tune, a dance-band piece with a dash of modernity, light, engaging and original … quite exceptional for a first attempt by a boy on the cusp of 14.

#Suicide #Paul McCartney #The Beatles #Mother Mary McCartney #jim mccartney #when you were young and your heart was an open book #every day I don't want to get up get out of my bed #1956 #1969 #1970 #meta #my stuff

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fizziepopangel · 1 year

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A Fizziepop Take: Let's talk about Stolas and Blitz's Relationship

There's a lot of controversy surrounding the healthiness of this relationship and because it's one of my favorite ships, I wanna break things down. Let's pop the top on this and get into it!

So to start, we have to look at how our favorite business imp and hellish prince learned about love. That of course starts waaaayyyyy back when with baby Stolas and Blizo before the 'o' was silent.

As children, neither boy was ever given a look at a healthy love, nor were they shown love in appropriate proportions. With the little we know of their backstories as of now, it seems that both boys got love primarily from their mothers while seeing their fathers there but not present.... In fact, their fathers are both portrayed as caring only about what the boys could do for them or what they represented at any given time rather than just caring about the boys as their children, with Paimon not even remembering his own son's name and needing to ask the imp assigned to care for him, and Buckzo actually selling his son off to virtual strangers for the day in hopes of robbing the royal family. While I haven't gotten a clear sense of what happened to their mothers, it seems that both women were removed from their children's lives somewhat early on; therefore taking the boys main source of love with them. Given the father figures they had, neither Blitz or Stolas were ever shown love from a masculine point of view, so they had to navigate that on their own.

Going into the two having to navigate love on their own because of the lack of love from parental figures, Blitz has attempted to look for love at almost every turn. This most likely would've resulted in a sting of relationships that were purely sexual or a sting of failed relationships, with Verosika probably being his longest lasting relationship.... Stolas on the other hand had his future planned for him and was told from his childhood that his future wife was already picked for him so he could sire a cautionary heir when the time came. While Blitz went from lover to lover looking for something without knowing what exactly that something was, Stolas tried to make the best of a marriage in which he was constantly reminded that he was unloved and abused.

Now, this is where I think it get's interesting. As he languished in a loveless marriage, Stolas was conditioned by his narcissistic wife to neglect his own emotional needs in order to keep up with meeting hers while also attempting to be a present father for Via once she was born. After not having experienced adequate familial love, then being shoved straight into a major relationship with someone who found her joy in abusing him physically, psychologically, and emotionally, Stolas believed he was supposed to be unwanted and unhappy. The love he knew was "I have to love my wife because....", and then the parental love between Via and him; a relationship that has also begun to hit the rocks because of Stolas not having an understanding of love and therefore getting lost in the slightest inkling of it with Blitz.

Blitz on the other hand, turned his need for love into something almost selfish. I believe he's afraid to be left alone, so in his mind, it makes the most sense to not let anyone too close and/or to be the first to run if something seems to feel too real. I'm inclined to believe that that's what happened with his relationship with Verosika Mayday since, as Moxxie says in the hallucinations in "Truth Seekers", Blitz has become a master of pushing those who do truly try to care about him as far away from him as impishly possible. With this self-sabotage, I believe he's trying to give people a reason to deem him unworthy of receiving love so that he actively knows why people leave rather than being left to wonder what he did wrong to make people want to leave him. The only people he truly seems mostly comfortable with are Millie, Moxxie, and Loona. Blitz's relationship with M&M is actually really interesting because the lack of boundaries he seems to have when it comes to them is linked to him wanting the kind of love they share but not understanding how to get it or what to do when he does because he's spent so much of his life alone and on the run from love like he's a wanted man.

So, now, we have two grown ass demons who struggle to express love while simultaneously craving it. Putting the two together seems logical at this point, so it wasn't super shocking that the ship became canon, but because neither man can express love properly, almost every move they make together seems toxic in some way, shape, or form. And the relationship already started out in a bad place, because of the agreement that was made. With the agreement in place the way it is, Stolas is in a position where he's holding a power over Blitz, and he knows this because when the agreement is made he is the one that puts it in place. This already gives off a very harsh dynamic between the two, but then you also have to add the fact that Stolas also feels like he is only being used for his grimoire. So now you have Blitz in a position where he feels that he is essentially no better than a blow up doll, and Stolas who feels like he is no more than a means to an end. If you add in the fact that both of these men are very bad at communicating, it makes things worse because there are no boundaries or limits set in place for either of them so neither man knows exactly where he stands or how far forward or backward he can step without changing the dynamic of the relationship completely, which is what we see in "Ozzie's".

In the episode "Ozzie's", we see stolas unintentionally change the dynamic of their relationship by not standing up for Blitz when Asmodeus and Fizz started going in on him. He didn't do it to be an asshole, he did it in a moment of panic and self-preservation. Growing up Stolas was constantly taught that he had an image to uphold, being a Prince of hell and dating or sleeping with an imp, which is one of the lowest classes of demons that we see, doesn't go with that image. Stolas has been shamed his entire life and made to feel insignificant and small, and always told if he was not upholding the family standard he was essentially worthless to them. Even his wife would go out of her way to publicly humiliate him in front of family or friends or whoever would go to the parties that she would throw, so he already felt very very low on that totem pole before Blitz drew attention to the fact that they were there and had a spotlight quite literally shown directly on them.

The issue is that Blitz sees this change in their dynamic as intentional. Given the agreement that they have, Blitz already feels as if he's no better than a sex toy because essentially that is what he has been to this man. He does not believe that Stolas could actually genuinely love him, not only because he believes he doesn't deserve love but also because he understands the difference in their statuses and how their dynamic came to be, so he feels very used and taken advantage of. Despite the fact that he does genuinely have feelings for the prince, Blitz believes he's only good for a good time, and Stolas has not done very much to combat that because all of his advances seem sexual or at least sexually suggestive. Well the advances being sexually suggested or sexually motivated is not completely the prince's fault, it's never something he takes into consideration to see if there are other ways to express a desire for the imp. When every other sentence coming out of the prince's mouth has to do with going to bed with him, and Blitz is given nicknames like "my impish little play thing", it would be hard for him to see how he was wanted for something more than just his body. As I said before though, Stolas is not entirely to blame for this issue with Blitz. Blitz is the one who spurred the advances on the first time, and he never stopped to correct him as their relationship progressed to know stolas believes it's just what he likes, and he'll continue to believe that until Blitz himself tells him otherwise.

Similarly, Blitz does treat Stolas like he is a means to an end. I don't believe it's intentional, because you can see in a lot of different scenes where they're together that Blitz does truly care for this man, but his original plan was just to manipulate Stolas into letting him use the grimoire so that he could perform his business and their entire agreement hinges on that exact thing. Outside of taking him to Ozzie's, Blitz never does ask Stolas on a date, or spend very much time with him outside of the bedroom, and even in that episode the only reason he does is because he has an ulterior motive. In the episode taking place at Ozzie's, I believe Blitz is so fixated on studying and living vicariously through what Moxxie and Millie have together, that he himself was not present with Stolas on the date he invited him to, and despite the prince's best efforts, he's not able to reel him back in until the spotlight is on them and Stolas has the immediate reaction to hide himself from the spotlight while leaving Blitz essentially naked and alone in that moment. The action was never meant to hurt him, but it told Blitz that he was an embarrassment to the prince. It solidified the idea that Stolas was essentially lying to him when he said that he wanted him..... And upon leaving, Blitz is so hurt that he wants nothing to do with the prince for that time, and despite trying to show Blitz how bad he feels, Stolas never actually verbally apologizes to him. After Blitz drops him off at home, and verbalizes that he's not in the mood to have sex with him and tells him that he understands that all they are is fuck buddies, Stolas invites him in and offers cuddles but when Blitz ultimately declines he just says good night, rather than offering it real apology, further solidifying Blitz's thinking but he is not worth the care that it would have shown to have an apology.

As I said in the beginning, I do think it is genuinely just coming down to the fact that neither of these men were ever shown how to care for or love another. Well it's true that they are both raising daughters, who they love unconditionally, everything that they have done for their children has been something they had to pull out of themselves. And they have never done that for each other. I don't think the relationship needs to end, especially not on the note that it did the last time they were together, but I think they both need to mature a little bit more and start understanding the communication that needs to happen between them in order for their relationship to move beyond just sex and heartache. If both Stolas and Blitz are willing to put in the work, and communicate with each other openly I think they could have a very, very healthy and wonderful relationship, which they both very much deserve after everything they've been through.

I definitely trust the process of the writing, but I would absolutely love to see this ship continue to be a thing and thrive, but story-wise I don't think either character is there quite yet. Both demons in question still have a lot of growing to do, but even if that is the case and that is the way the story goes, I don't believe that this is the end of their story together. I feel like these characters will always be drawn to each other, and whether or not there is a pause in their relationship well they take time to figure out their own goals, I believe that both of these men find home in each other and they will always be drawn to that peace.

#fizziepop thoughts #helluva boss #helluva boss blitz #blitzy #blitz needs a hug #stolas goetia #stolitz #stolas needs a hug #helluva boss stolas #blitz and stolas #millie helluva boss #moxxie helluva boss #just a thought #fizziepop take

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carlos-in-glasses · 10 months

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Commiseration Monday

Thank you for the tag @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut (and the idea!), @reyesstrand @theghostofashton @lemonlyman-dotcom @heartstringsduet @catanisspicy @alrightbuckaroo ❤️

The rules: While Ao3 is temporarily down, share a little something from a WIP to keep us going through the downtime! Preferably something we haven’t shared before, but whatever works for you!

Please have some Owen and TK time from a WIP (that in my head is called Flashback Fic), which expands on my fic Chasers.

Owen leads TK into the kitchen and sits him at the breakfast bar. "I'm going to make you a spring smoothie, and then you're going to tell me what's up. Is it about your mom? Or did you and Carlos have a fight?"

"I wish," TK says.

"What does that mean?"

"A fight is simple. This is way more complicated." TK shakes his head. A fight would also mean make up sex later, so there are certain pros. "And what is a spring smoothie?"

"Spinach, apples, almond milk, basil, chicory, arugula, fenugreek, and bananas of course."

"Of course."

"Don't knock it until you try it." Owen smiles. "And talk to me."

TK watches his father practically dance around the kitchen, gathering ingredients – and it rocks him, because no matter what’s going on in his life, Owen is always there to make smoothies and talk. He thinks of himself coming out at fourteen. Gay bashed behind the bleachers at fifteen. An addict at seventeen. At twenty-six, relapsing after a failed marriage proposal. Overdosing on his apartment floor. But within all of it, for his whole life, love knelt by his side in the form of his mom and dad.

"Last night, I was in a bad way."

“After that call?”

“Yeah.”

“I thought you were. Why didn’t you talk to me?”

“I don’t know. But Carlos called Cooper, and Cooper came over, and we talked it out. But when Carlos came home, I told him about, um–” Deep breaths. Deep, steady. “I admitted I almost relapsed the day after mom died.”

Owen stills, hugging two green, shiny apples in his hands like they’re precious. “Did he react badly.”

“No. I kind of freaked out. Kind of cried all over him.”

Owen smiles, sets the apples down and picks up a paring knife. “I’m familiar with your style.”

“Yeah. Well. At the risk of crying all over you and probably Buttercup right now, I keep thinking about you.”

"Me?" Owen asks, flattered but confused.

"And mom. And everything I put you through."

Owen looks at him seriously. Then he opens a drawer to retrieve a second small paring knife that matches one he already holds. He places it onto a thick wooden chopping board next to the two green apples and pushes it across the breakfast bar towards TK. "Wash your hands and help me make this," Owen says.

TK gets up, doing what he's asked without question, smiling to himself because he's a paramedic and doesn't need to be told to wash his hands before food prep, but they've gone back in time to his childhood, when Owen would tell him important things about life while engaging him in something practical. When TK was twelve, Owen came over to TK's new apartment with Gwyn on Canal Street and helped strip orange floral wallpaper from TK's room. While working away at the tired old flowers, which an elderly lady had once loved, Owen gave TK the sex talk. It was hetero in focus, but even then it was like Owen was nudging TK to tell him to stop if he wanted, if it didn't apply to him, or if he needed to discuss it in a different way.

TK shunted his wallpaper scraper up and down to remove a patch with particularly firm adhesive, taking a little plaster away with it.

"Anyway, if there's anything you need to know, or just want to know – if you're ever curious or upset or you have feelings for someone, I'll always want to talk to you about it. You don't need to be worried or shy."

"Okay," TK said, "Can I have some lemonade now?"

When TK cores the first apple, his hands begin to shake. He has to put the knife down. "Dad."

"TK."

"I'm sorry. I'm just so sorry."

Owen looks at his tearful son understandingly. He takes the apple from him, finishes slicing it, and waits for TK to carry on.

I'm late to this so I'm just going to tag @ladytessa74 because I was going to read your new fic tonight :( Otherwise this is an open tag to anyone who wants to do it - please genuinely take it as a tag and tag me back if you post!

#Commiseration Monday #Work in progress #tk x owen #My fic #Flashback Fic

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valaenatargaryensdragon · 9 months

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What would happen to Baelon and his mother after Maegor dies?

Baelon spent his entire life watching his mother suffer and attempting to save her. Maegor was the main reason for her suffering and he hated him for it but he was still his father.

Baelon would do everything in his power to keep the throne for himself because then his mother would be the Queen mother and no other woman would suppress her power. Baelon is no idiot though and knows his cousins would try to take the thrones.

Maegor’s wish did come true and Baelon does claim Balerion the black dread and that was his biggest advantage to the throne. Baelon’s first move was to win the people over by throwing festivities and doing charities. Even going as far as letting peasants into the Red Keep to meet him personally. Baelon knows that power comes with respect not fear.

Then his next move is to end the feud with his cousins and that ensues with his marriage to Alysanne, this way he unites the family once more, his uncle’s blood will be on the throne, his uncle’s wife will not be able to harm him seeing as he is her son in law and also his mother would accept the marriage since marrying cousins was not seen as incest.

Baelon is not cruel and knows that Alysanne is still a child so he vows in their private quarters that he will not touch her before she is of age and ready. Baelon however made it very clear that he plans on resuming the blood line and having children and Alysanne was on board considering the fact that I vision her mother convincing her to bring heirs to the throne so their blood would rise to the throne.

Baelon is a strong king, however he is both brains and muscle, he uses strategy to ensure wining the Dornish war instead of battle like Maegor. The second his firstborn was confirmed to be a daughter who named Vaenora he travels to Dorne to make a marriage pact later on known as the sun and moon marriage alliance for Vaenora’s hair was compared to the moon in color once she married the Dornish prince and moved to live in Dorne.

Baelon is a traditional man so his three daughter Vaenora, Saelys and Elaenerys were pushed back in line for the throne in favor of their younger brother Rhaelor. Baelon and Alysanne were blessss with seven children, after their three daughter and son they were blessed with twin daughters named Lucenya and Daegelle followed by a son named Aelyx. After they had the heir and spare they ceased having anymore children.

Baelon was the king to unite the seven kingdoms by ensuring to marry his five daughter to five different kingdoms, Vaenora to Dorne, Saelys to the Stormlands, Elaenerys to the North, Lucenya to the mountain and the Vale, and Daegelle to the Reach. His eldest son and heir married from the rock and his youngest for the isles and rivers. Baelon was a smart kind yet a strong one, not one to shy from a fight or a war, always joining the tourneys until his age betrayed him and winning almost every time and never failing to crown his lady wife Queen Alysanne his Queen of love and beauty never once embarrassing her in public or private.

Baelon’s mother’s wish if him falling in love never came true but Baelon was content with his wife and children. He never complained and he never once disrespected them or made them feel less than Queen and Princesses and princes.

His mother passed away during his tenth year as king failing to meet his five youngest children. Baelon gave his mother a funeral that will be remembered for centuries to come. Her body was dressed in the purest of whites, silks and laces. A crown of winter flowers upon her head and a bouquet of roses in her hands. Every finger adorned with rings of all shapes and sizes that were hiring with her.

Her corpse was paraded around the streets for people to pay respect with him in the lead with his crown on his head. A crown she had designed herself for him and placed on his head during his wedding as a gift. Alysanne flew her dragon above their heads before meeting Baelon at the Sept and witnessing the funeral. Baelon never truly recovered from her death. He build a statue of his mother in the gardens of the keep and was usually found their during hard times. Some servants swore they heard him talk to the statue, asking for advise.

Baelon went on to be loved and respected as a son, husband, father and king.

#house of the dragon #house targaryen #hotd #house of the dragon imagine #hotd imagine #maegor angst #maegor targaryen #maegor the cruel #baelon targaryen

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adrianasunderworld · 1 year

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Imagine Disney Princess AU in ghost marriage. Obviously they will be sideline since they are girls but I like to think they watch what some of the NRC cast being slapped by the ghosts. Some laugh, some are disappointed, and some are sad. I like to think the princesses feel bad for some like Trey, Cater, and Deuce who are just being themselves and act politely to the ghost, but the ghost is rude because they didn't fit her standards. While they'll be mad at some like Floyd, Sebek, and more.

Ariel: While you did give her flowers and she is dead, I do think giving her Poison flowers isn't a best way to show it

Tiana: I kinda predict Floyd on failing.

Anna: And no women wants to be squish by a stranger.

Belle: Obviously the ghost will be offended if they brag about someone great in this conversation.

Rapunzel: And for a prince, you are being rude to her.

Leona, being sarcatic: Oh I'm sorry that we wouldn't live in the same standards as your perfect boyfriends.

I like to their comments made them more annoyed on how they fell to their perfect princes while they couldn't.

I like to think Mulan joining with Riddle and the rest disguising herself as a man since she did fit the criteria and she did dressed as a man before.

Mulan in her suit in which men are almost speechless that they couldn't recognize her.

Riddle: Sometimes I forgot she can disguise herself as a man.

I also think Idia feeling rejected by the ghost after she end up with someone else.

Idia: I don't know why but I feel offended on being rejected by a girl. Is this how breakups are like in real-life?

Megara: You get used to it.

I like to think Megara experience what's like being heartbroken by a man and she can't help but feel sorry for him despite not showing much.

This ask makes me think Ace wouldn't fall for any of the Disney princess due to his experience to his ex and how he would rather be with friends right now. When the Disney princesses learn about this, they can't help but feel saddened and heartwarming from his speech.

Honestly seeing the Princesses in the ghost bride event would be interesting, because it's clearly poking fun at the fairytale princess trope of classic Disney. What with Eliza mentioning things like a prince needing a sword, expecting a tall handsome stranger, the singing. Eliza is basically a Disney princess gone wrong, and I think the classic princesses would not be here for it. Tiana and everyone after her would especially be like "this girl is crazy." While all the classic girls are going "She's giving us a bad rep. We do not condone her actions."

I do think some of them would feel bad for her, Especially Snow White. She dreamed of love and perfect prince like Eliza, only Eliza met a tragic end. So I feel like Snow would have the most sympathy for her, even though she doesn't agree with with what she's doing.

It's been hundreds of years, maybe Eliza recognizes some of them as the princesses of old, figures she admired and whose stories she wanted to emulate. She wanted what they had, and all her retainers enabling her only turned it from a childhood fantasy to a full blown obsession. All the princesses are horrified, and have to try to bring Eliza to reality.

Eliza: Princess Aroura, you fell in love with your dream prince who slew a dragon for you! How could I not want that?

Aroura: I got lucky is what I got. Even if I didn't like Phillip, I would have still had to marry him. Even my father who arranged thought it would be a good idea to wait. But I certainly never forced him. And look at Idia and tell me he's going to slay anything bigger than a fly! No offense,Idia.

Idia: None taken. But also ouch.

Also I was gonna say Mulan, but then I read the second half, and yeah. lol Mulan will rock the suitor suit and also fight her way through all the ghost. Sometimes the best Prince Charming is a woman.

Honestly the aftermath may be a good bonding moment for Meg and Idia. Because Meg has had her heartbroken before and even though Idia didn't love Eliza, rejection still hurts, especially since Idia isn't used to the kind of attention where he is the object of someone's desire. So Meg is sort of off to the side with him and Ortho going "You'll be fine. It may hurt, but you'll be okay."

And yeah I can see what you mean about Ace not wanting to date anyone, at least not for a while. They all have different wants and needs that I can Ace can recognize and be like "this wont work"

#twisted wonderland #twst ghost marriage #twst ghost bride #disney princesses #idia shroud #ace trappola

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rfxiii · 10 months

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Michael-centric Headcanons

Davey didn’t know Michael was going to show up to his own funeral back in Ludendorff, and when he spotted him; he was mad as hell. But Michael had to be there, for the dramatics.

Michael has a collection of old vhs tapes that he’s carried around with him since the 80’s- a good percentage consisting of Solomon Richards films.

Michael’s drinking habit started in his mid-teens- he’d steal alcohol from his father and sneak out to go drinking with his friends. He liked how cool everyone thought he was for being able to get them alcohol, but eventually the weekend drinking with his friends spiraled into a dependence to escape the realities of his home life.

When they first met, right when Trevor shot that guy with his flare gun, Michael thought Trevor was honestly the coolest person he’d ever met.

Michael had always suspected that something went on with Amanda and Trevor/Brad or both of them. And when it happened, he honestly didn’t care. But as a little time passed, she got pregnant, and then they got married, it started to bug him. But too much time had passed for him to openly confront any of them about it, so he just stews in his suspicions and over-analyzes every interaction.

Everyone seems to agree that Michael was probably raised catholic. That being said, he doesn’t practice, and tells himself he doesn’t believe in anything but his ability to shoot a gun and take a life. But he still finds himself subconsciously “praying”, or something close, when bad things happen; and it’s a habit that pisses him off so badly.

He cannot handle spicy food, like, at all. He had chili with jalapeño in it once and cried because he honestly couldn’t even handle that.

Basically canon, but he always has to be in control, to the point of micromanaging everything everyone does. Brad and Trevor being so out of control back in the day was one of the main points of contention between them- because he couldn’t tell them exactly what to do.

One of the reasons he likes Franklin so well is because he does follow orders. He may question Michael, but he also wants to learn from him and so he’s easier to order around. He does genuinely like Franklin- obviously, but he loves being listened to like he’s the leader.

Big classic rock and old school country enjoyer. Lynyrd Skynyrd, AC/DC, Hank Williams Jr., etc.

He genuinely wishes Franklin was his son- he’s such a smart, adaptable, skilled young man that Michael wishes he could have raised him as his own and shown him the ropes from the get go.

Michael and Amanda genuinely try to love each other, but because of how their relationship started, it’s always been forced. And with Michael’s persistence to try to be “the perfect family”, he’s put even more strain on them to the point where she genuinely doesn’t feel like she can fit his image of what a family “should be”.

He secretly enjoys yoga, but he’d rather die than admit it to anyone.

He’s incredibly self conscious about himself. After becoming Michael De Santa, he had to let Michael Townley go. But Michael Townley was the dangerous stick up artist, he was the high school jock, he was a leader; to him, he was someone important. But Michael De Santa is just a fat, washed up, old man in a failing marriage with kids that resent him. And he’s honestly grown to hate being Michael De Santa.

#gta v #gta 5 #grand theft auto v #grand theft auto 5 #michael de santa #michael townley

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infinityhype · 1 year

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pls give me your morel headcanons NOW

and also knov

please and thank u

Once again went overboard, I did answer one NSFW question (sex headcanons) if anyone wishes to skip.

Other than that, here's all the questions I answered, which was...most of them.

☾ - sleep headcanon

If Morel's sleeping in the same bed as someone, he doesn't necessarily have to cuddle (though he wants to) but does have to be touching them in some way. Is also a "boxers only no matter the weather" sleeper because he gets hot.

Knov wears pajama sets though he'll occasionally "forget" so he can wear one of Morel's old t-shirts that are super soft and comfy. Always cold so sleeps with at least one blanket.

★ - sad headcanon

Morel acts like he was fine with dying during That Moment in CAA but. He wasn't at all, even if it meant saving the world, and while he was initially angry at Knuckle for not sacrificing him to win, he realized afterward he's grateful Knuckle made that choice.

Knov still blames himself for not being by Morel's side during the Palace Invasion, because he feels he broke their promise to one another.

☆ - happy headcanon

Morel and Knuckle go to rock concerts together, it's their father son bonding activity

Knov could have never imagined how many people would love him and in turn be loved by him, and even though he's not super open with his feelings, it makes him so, so happy.

☠ - angry/violent headcanon

Morel's a pretty patient dude, so when someone pushes him to legitimate anger it's guaranteed to be bad for the person on the receiving end. Violence is a regular occurrence as a Hunter, and there are times it can even be enjoyable in Morel's mind.

Due to his upbringing as a lil mafia boy Knov is rather disaffected by violence, it's simply a tool to use if necessary. Doesn't normally swear very much, so it's easy to tell he's mad when he starts swearing.

✿ - Sex headcanon

Morel definitely has a preference for partners who boss him around, he wants someone else to take the lead most of the time. His partner's pleasure gets him off as much as his own. Also great at oral no matter your downstairs parts.

Knov would never admit it, not even under duress, but he's a size queen, bigger is better in his opinion. And probably a foregone conclusion, but he wants to be in charge, dude's a top through and through.

■ - Bedroom/house/living quarters headcanon

The main place Morel lives is the captain's quarters on his ship, The Vesper. There's not a lot of windows and dim light so he can take off his sunglasses. A bit sparse (don't want stuff flying around when the ship's in bad weather) but homey. Definitely also has a room in Knov's mansion too. The bed is at least a king size because even if he isn't expecting company, he's a big dude and likes his space.

Knov has a room in his mansion and buys a beach house when he "retires" from being a Hunter because he doesn't want Morel to be too far from the ocean when he comes to stay. He likes neutrals and blues, just kind of plain, calming colors.

♡ - romantic headcanon

Morel is bisexual, and dated/slept with a number of different people. He's on good terms with the vast majority of his exes, probably got close to marriage at least once before he and Knov got together. A great romantic partner, as long as the partner in question understands his first love is being a Hunter.

Knov is a different story, it took him a long time to realize he's gay, and that he has deep, abiding feelings for Morel. Had many failed relationships with women and a couple of relationships/flings with men before he and Morel got together. Was like, the world's okayest partner to his previous romantic entanglements, but there's probably at least one woman who'd still slap him on sight.

♥ - family headcanon

Morel is the son of two Hunters: Ursaline Mackernasey and Dr. Lysander "Sandy" Markovic. His mom is a double star Blacklist Hunter, and his dad is a single star Paleograph Hunter. His parents never married but are best friends and love Morel dearly. Also has an adopted brother named Jacquard "Jac" Mackernasey whom Ursaline rescued from a human trafficking ring when he was nine. Jac is also Morel's first mate and a fierce Hunter in his own right.

Knov is the son of Vladislav Galkin, the head of the Galkin Syndicate and de-facto ruler of a resort/gambling town called Port Fortune. His mom is Svetlana "Lana" Galkina, who ran away from her weird religious family in an outlying village and became a waitress at a casino. She caught the attention of Vladislav and they were married in a matter of months, and she gave birth to Knov (real name Evgeny Galkin) less than a year later. He also has a half-sister named Alexsandra "Shura" Galkina who's eight years older and one of their dad's faithful lieutenants.

☮ - friendship headcanon

Morel's the kind of guy who makes friends wherever he goes and is overall a pretty likable dude. A great friend to go to for advice, because he'll be honest but not mean, if that makes sense.

Knov is a bit standoffish and kind of an ice queen, but loyal to anyone he decides is his friend.

♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon

Morel likes hobbies that give him something to do with his hands and where he can utilize his abundant well of patience. Stuff like maintaining pocket watches, fountain pens, whittling/woodworking, and fishing. Also flower arranging! In terms of quirks, if he has to write anything by hand in pen, he keeps the cap in his left hand and plays with it while he's writing. He has a couple of machined metal fountain pens he likes to use because Knov gave them to him and they can survive anything, he has at least one in his pockets at all times.

Knov's main hobby is reading, he has to have a book on/near him at all times. He also loves fountain pens, especially gold nibs. He's usually very plain with what he likes but. Has a couple he got because they reminded him of Morel somehow. (They're pink, or purple, or have shell inlays). He also takes up knitting. In terms of quirks, Knov refuses to dog-ear the pages of his books.

▼ - childhood headcanon

Morel grew up on his mom's ship, raised by her and the rest of the crew. He had to spend at least one part of the year with his dad, usually at an archive or library in a college/university town. A pretty active kid who got into everything when he was younger, especially had to be watched around any large amount of water because he'd just…jump in. Other than that, a good kid with a strong sense of justice, not booksmart outside of his interests, but clever and great at understanding people. Finished the equivalent of high school via homeschooling before he went to take the Hunter Exam at 14.

Knov grew up in much different circumstances, in a large house overlooking Port Fortune. His dad took a great interest in molding Knov into a worthy successor, so he got the best of everything. Once Knov learned how to read it became a lifelong obsession, and he would read anything he could get his hands on. His dad didn't allow him much interaction with his mom, but she did teach him how to play card games and the basics of casino games, which became another large part of his life. Eventually, despite all of his successes, Knov grew bored and longed to see the world beyond Port Fortune. He ran away right after his 15th birthday to take the Hunter Exam, where he met another boy around his age named Morel.

♒ - cooking/food headcanon

Morel is a really good cook and would be the perfect house husband if he ever gave up the Hunter life but. He'll never do that. He learned how to cook from his dad because his mom has a very limited repertoire of things she can make, mostly involving dried pasta or box curry mix.

Knov is an absolute disaster at cooking but eventually gets good enough to make easy things. Baking though? He's an excellent baker, because baking is a science, and appeals to his fussy nature.

☼ - appearance headcanon

Morel's natural tendency, when he doesn't exercise constantly, is towards being a bit chubby, definitely has a dad bod in his later years.

Knov has freckles, you can't see them on his face because he's always covering them up, but he has a bunch on the rest of his body. Morel loves to kiss them and Knov acts annoyed but loves it.

#ask and ye shall receive #I'm sick and have spent most of today laying in bed writing this up #knov hxh #morel hxh #morelknov #headcanons

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ladyfenring · 11 months

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1 - Edward & aethelflaed

A shadow falls over the grass in front of his feet. When he looks up, he sees Aethelflaed carrying two plates.

“I brought you some cake,” she says, handing him one of the plates.

“That was nice of you.”

“Yes, well, you looked very sad out here, a grown man sitting on a swing by himself in his dress clothes. I thought I’d come join you.”

“Thanks,” he says dully.

“Welcome.” She takes the swing beside him, toeing off her sensible heels.

They sit in silence for a long moment, watching people in black dresses and suit jackets move through the garden.

“I think,” Edward says at last, “I might have made a huge mistake.”

“Which part?” she asks lightly. “Marrying Aelflaed, or breaking up with Ecgwynn?”

“Maybe both.” He rests his head against the plastic covering the swing’s ancient chains. “Do you want to hear something awful?”

“Yes.”

“I don’t even think I love Aelflaed.” He gives himself a small kick-off, gripping the plate so it doesn’t wobble as he rocks back and forth. “I liked her a lot when we first met. I liked how she made me feel.”

Aethelflaed snorts.

“Not like that. I mean, she made me feel…I don’t know, my age. Not like a father of two.”

“But you are a father of two,” Aethelflaed points out.

“It’s been hard, having kids so young,” he defends.

She licks the icing from her fork. “I bet it’s been hard on Ecgwynn, too.”

He deflates. “Yeah. Yeah, it has.”

“So what are you going to do?”

“I don’t know.” He’s quiet for a moment. “What would you do?”

Aethelflaed sets down her fork. “I’m probably not the best person to ask.”

“But you—“

“I’m getting a divorce.”

His swing creaks to a halt. “Oh.”

“It’s been a long time coming,” she says conversationally, as though she’s talking about replacing some shingles in the roof. “I think we were just…playing some stupid mind game with each other. We both knew it was over, but I wanted him to say it first, and he wouldn’t, because he was so scared of Dad.” She sighs. “And I thought I was being so clever and cunty by not saying it first, but I think…I was scared of Dad, too. Not the same way Aethelred was, but…I think I wanted to prove to Dad that the fault wasn’t mine. That if the marriage failed, it was because of Aethelred, not me.” She picks at her cake. “But now…”

“Yeah.” He pushes off in his swing again. “Now…”

Aethelflaed’s voice grows thick. “I wish he was here.”

“I don’t.”

She turns to him in surprise. “Edward—“

“He’d hate this cake,” he says calmly.

Her lips twitch. “He couldn’t eat this cake. The icing alone would do him in.”

“Exactly. He’d hate the spread in there, it’s all food he couldn’t eat, not to mention Aethelwold toasting his memory with a Lagunitas Island Beats—“

Aethelflaed laughs loudly. “He’d hate that.” Her eyes fill with tears. “He’d fucking hate this funeral.”

“Good thing he isn’t here to see it, then.”

She laughs again, tears streaming down her cheeks. “I cannot believe you.”

He sets down his plate. “Do you know, I think this is the worst cake I’ve ever had in my life.”

“It’s really bad.”

“Sorry, Dad.”

#lol idk #the last kingdom #fic by me

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oflowtides · 6 months

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⸻ DOVE CAMERON. SHE/HER / have you ever heard of I SO HATE CONSEQUENCES by relient k? it describes BARBARA ‘BABS’ ALLERDYCE to a tee! the twenty seven year old CASHIER AT UTTERLY SWEET was spotted walking down the beach - do you know them? would you say SHE is more awkward or more HEARTFELT instead? anyway, they remind me of almost always running late, the guilty pleasure of watching reality tv all day, the vague realization that something is burning in the other room, and eating ice cream directly from the container with smudged makeup because you tried your best but it wasn’t good enough, maybe you’ll bump into them soon!

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Babs started life being dealt the wrong hand; the second child, it's not that Babs wasn't loved - because she was, very much. She was just an extremely unlucky child; she was often sick, and somehow Murphy's Law seemed to follow her around. Things were constantly going wrong in her life, be it a fight between friends, flunking assignments, or just her constantly getting sick and her parents trying to figure out what they could do.

She was undoubtedly a daddy's girl, and she adored Viktor with her whole heart. She liked when he'd take time off to stay home with her, and even when small stress fractures began developing between him and her mom, she often ran to his defense. It wasn't that she didn't love her mother - because she did. But as a child, she didn't understand the complexities of adult relationships and how Viktor taking time off work was an issue.

While things were rocky, they were stable - until Babs' older brother, Jason, got into an accident. He had been dropping off a friend and someone had driven by, mistaking him for someone else and shot him before screeching off. The entire Allerdyce family was rocked from that moment on. Soon the foundation of the marriage came tumbling down, and Babs found herself a child of divorce with a father who was both trying to be there for her as much as he could but someone who was also drowning himself in work.

Babs felt lost; she lost motivation in most things and only finished high school because she had to. It was around this time that she met Hero Dixon, and their on again/off again relationship started. With his inability to commit, and her insistence that she was a magnet for bad things happening, it felt like a cursed pairing from the start - no matter how deeply the pair loved or cared about each other, there simply wasn't a world where it could work long term.

Babs flit from job to job every six months; her bad luck continuing to follow her and often get her fired from jobs or needing to leave because she'd gotten sick (she just had a weaker immune system than most, but occasionally it caused her to wind up in the hospital from dehydration) and couldn't work.

When Viktor brought Vivienne into Bab's life, she was nervous, but also excited. She had mended her relationship with her mother, but Vivienne didn't seem to want to replace that role in Babs' life - she just wanted to be another form of support for her, which Babs welcomed with open arms. Her life constantly seemed to be spiraling out of control, and even just one more extra pillar sounded like it would make all the difference.

Despite her constant misfortunes, Babs is extremely social, managing to make friends every time she goes out and even finds herself falling in and out of different romances (some better than others). While she does view herself as cursed and a hashtag girlfail, she tries to take it in stride most days, cracking jokes with friends and rolling her eyes to keep things light. If it wasn't for Auggie by now she'd have gone completely inside, but girls that fail together gotta stick together, and as long as she has her family on her side, Babs feels like she'll be able to get through whatever life throws at her.

#babs allerdyce ; biography #the last line is corny i know but it's also true

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theonlypastel · 9 months

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Recently I watched the 2016 romance/drama “The Unmarried Wife”, per watching a video Kenny J.D. posted about said movie. The amount of actual rage that filled me when I watch it can’t even be put into words unless I write a review about so, here we are. Anywho, these are my thoughts on

The Unmarried Wife.

⚠️WARNING ⚠️ SPOILERS AHEAD. READ WITH CAUTION.

If you haven’t watched the movie and don’t plan to, I will bring you up to speed. Our main character Anne meets her future Husband and father of her child Geoff and they hit it off instantly. They get married and move in together and everything is fine, until Anne gets a promotion because the former employee was accused of infidelity. This seems to cause a rift in Anne and Geof’s relationship and they start to grow apart. In attempts to bring some spark back into their relationship Anne surprises him at work when she catches him in the act with his co-worker. She ultimately makes the decision to stay with him for the sake of their son Ino, even though it is awkward between them. As they are mending their relationship Geoff cheats on Anne again even after constantly reassuring her he isn’t cheating on her again. At her breaking point Anne meets Bryan, whom she meets at a family function. They bond over failed marriages and eventually form a relationship. In the midst of all this Anne is trying to get a divorce from Geoff finalized. Things are going relatively well when Anne and Geoff are advised to have a “family outing” with Ino by Ino’s teacher. During said outing Bryan gets jealous and follows them there, forcing Anne to tell him she loves him over the phone. They get into an argument back at Bryan’s apartment when Bryan’s supposed ex wife barges in. Turns out he lied to Anne just to be with her, making her his mistress, her worst nightmare. She pretty much blocks him until one day he comes throwing rocks at her house angrily to get her to talk to him, and he almost hurt Ino. Because of the insistent she cuts all ties with Bryan. Fast forward a little bit in time and Anne and Geoff are happily co-parenting Ino. Geoff asks Anne if she would ever be up to starting over between the both of them, despite the fact that he cheated more than once, and while Anne is still healing from everything. However Anne says no, at least not now, and we end on a beautiful shot of a happy family playing together.

So my immediate fist thought after finishing this movie is Omg, the audacity of men. The whole movie not a single man that Anne is romantically involved with treats her with the bare minimum of respect. Geoff cheats on her on way more than one occasion, AND even gets another woman pregnant and still has the AUDACITY to beg Anne for forgiveness?!??

And at the end they act as if Anne being cheated out of a good relationship by stupid men had barely any effect on her. She WILLINGLY keeps Geoff around. There are so many things wrong here.

Her first inclination should have been to end it with Geoff the first time because even if she was staying with him for Ino, having parent that won’t talk and/or trust each other and argue all the time is more than likely worse that mmm having 2 Christmases.

Also one thing that doesn’t make sense is why she stayed with him even after her past. [For some context her mom got cheated on by Anne’s dad.] Considering her relation to cheating and how it can effect feelings, it doesn’t really make sense for her to tolerate Geoff cheating.

On the topic of things that don’t make sense, the way the production team was trying to tell the story was quite confusing. It was told through a series of flashbacks due to Anne getting hit in the head with a glass bottle and falling.

The pacing of the story is a bit odd as well. Something dramatically would happen and they just brush it off almost as if it didn’t happen.

At any rate, the Unmarried Wife is a decent watch if you like messy movies like me. Once you get used to the flash back, it gets easier to understand the story. The writing is bearable and the shots are pretty good. The musical score is probably my favorite part of the whole movie.

Anyways I could talk about how bad this movie is, but I will spare you my thoughts. If you choose to watch “The Unmarried Wife”, it can be found in Netflix.

And if not, watch gameboys it’s better :)

#philipines drama #Netflix #netflix drama #pinoy drama #the unmarried wife

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penname-artist · 2 years

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Excuse me I would like to dump a few random headcanons now so here you go:

-Avalanche is dyslexic, though the rest of his team helps him with harder words or any misreads.

-Patch has been married to a man for around eighteen years, but he stays home in Sacramento while she works at the base. He visits on rare occasions, though; he's more of a homebody.

-Cabbie had a daughter with his ex-wife during their roughly four years of marriage. Her name is Charlotte. She is basically a younger, female version of her father; cold, intense, and just the right amount of batshit crazy. She's unmarried and doesn't have any kids, but she owns a German Shepherd furbaby and still works in the trucking business. She's on alright terms with both of her parents, but we all know if she had to pick, she's more of a daddy's girl. They always try to have rematches with Texas Hold 'Em, though.

-Speaking of the big man, came across a sexuality label that - for now - I think fits him better than what I had previously. I'm still convinced he's in the grey-ace spectrum, but autosexual (aka, a sexual attraction to ones self more than attraction to a partner) is probably the best fit I have so far. Basically he fucks because fucking feels nice, and not because he has any sort of attraction or bond with the partner/s.

-Nick was a magpie for as long as he lived. I mean he collected the weirdest shit for the weirdest reasons. Had a bin full of rocks and shells, a box of literally just shiny glass beads, and a lot of trading cards. As far as Blade knows, his mom inherited the things, but he may or may not have swiped a few of his known favorites to keep with his own memories.

-Dusty has tried and failed to go on hunting trips with his family throughout his life. Both Chase and Charlie (his older brother and father, respectively) hunt regularly, and as a kid, Dusty would cover his eyes and bawl every time an animal was shot down. He still doesn't really get the thrill of hunting, so he prefers to spend his time with them fishing instead.

-Speaking of Dusty yes he can wiggle his ears and yes everyone he knows thinks it's insane and weird

-ALSO speaking of Minnesota boy, he was raised to say "duck, duck, grey duck" instead of "duck, duck, goose" because that's what all the rest of the town said. Now he says it in front of Ripslinger on purpose to piss him off. He has since been punched in the stomach eight times and thrown off a dock into the lake once.

#disney planes #disneyplanes #planes fire and rescue #disney planes 2 #dusty crophopper #nick lopez #blade ranger #cabbie #the smokejumpers #patch #avalanche

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obsessivelollipoplalala · 1 year

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Forget ‘if your marriage only works when you’re either on holiday together or apart for months at a time’ considering he really only married her to satisfy his father, I’m surprised they lasted as long as they did. Having kids probably greased the way for a while, but looking back, Brian and Chrissie were pretty doomed from the start

I do think they were doomed from the start if they couldn’t live a normal life together, because of the pressure they had to get married, and because I think pretty much every relationship with a rock star is doomed to fail. But I don’t think Harold was the only reason why Brian married her. Don’t get me wrong, Brian might not have actually gone through with it if not for the rejection from his hurtful, conservative father, but I’m thinking of that quote where Brian recalled that living in a tiny flat with Chrissy during college when they had no problems was one of the happiest time of his life; Brian is a hugely sentimental person and he clings to the past a lot, so I could picture him treasuring those days (he still does decades later to an extent) and wanting to get that magic back, and feeling like marriage could do that. It’s easy to picture him like, “Well, I haven’t been a good boyfriend to her since the band started, but I can’t break up with her after those golden days we had together, so I’ll just promise to commit to her and our problems will get better once we’re married and have kids.” A lot of people think that way, sadly.

Having kids probably did extend the life of their relationship in the short term, since it gave them something to bond over and he loved becoming a father. But yeah, I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Brian finally decided to marry Chrissy around the time he finally got his father’s approval for the band after flying his parents out to NYC and setting them up in a hotel he couldn’t really afford. He’s still guilty about disappointing his father at age 75, so Harold disowning him absolutely played a huge role in him getting married, I’m just saying that knowing what we know about Brian, I think a part of him probably really wanted the magic of the early days of living with her, and he naively thought marriage and kids would do that.

#reminds me of that song on his solo album #like ‘why don’t we try again’ or something like that #he said it was a song he felt was too personal for Queen #it might’ve been about Chrissy #and how reluctant he was to let go of their relationship #and how he thought they could just keep starting over #he must’ve talked himself into that mindset a lot tbh #until he couldn’t deny reality anymore from ‘86-‘88 #Brian May #replies #Anonymous

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What if Robert asked Stannis to be hand of the King?

Stannis would have told Robert about Cersei right away. I think Cersei would have had the foresight to see this and flee with her children. Jaime would abandon his post and they would have escaped off to Essos together, Robert putting hits out on them the entire time.

He would have brought Tywin and Tyrion in for questioning, which would not have gone over well with the Westerlands. He would have had them executed along with the entirety of House Lannister. His hatred for them would rival the Targaryens. He would appoint someone new for Casterly Rock, maybe handing it to Stannis since he gave Renly Stormsend.

He also annuals the marriage to Cersei because he is King and can do that.

Robert would linger in the bitter resentment of Cersei's betrayal for a few years. Stannis would suggest that he marry again but for awhile Robert would not hear of it. The small counsel suggests bride after bride but Robert feels he cannot trust any of them.

Until Petyr suggest he choose a bride from a family he does trust. This brings him to Ned. Robert travels North and meets with Ned, asking for Sansa's hand in marriage (I think at this point, she would be about 17)- making her queen. Ned is not thrilled because Robert has changed and unsure if it would make Sansa happy, but Ned knows that he doesn't really have a choice.

She is not happy AT ALL.

Sansa and Robert marry. Robert is far kinder to Sansa than he was Cersei, mainly out of respect for Ned. They have a very distant marriage that only produces one child, a girl they name Lyanna. Sansa suggests the name, knowing that Robert lost the love of his life- her aunt. I think this story would soften Sansa to Robert a little, especially when he stops coming to her chambers at night.

Lyanna is named heir to the Seven Kingdoms and Robert dotes on her because she reminds him of the woman he once loved.

Sansa and Petyr grow close but it is not physical at first. Petyr does fall in love with her and Sansa is reluctant to feel anything because she is married; the knowledge of what Robert did to Cersei.

Petyr probably marries Lysa at some point and tosses her out the moon door, making him Lord of the Vale.

They hear that across the narrow sea, Joffrey is making a name for himself with those he kills, which makes it easy for the Faceless Men that Petyr hires to find them.

Robert is gleeful when all five of their heads are shipped to him.

When Lyanna is about seven, Petyr arranges for Robert's death but it is deemed an accident. Perhaps he had a heart attack while in bed with a whore. Sansa is named Queen Mother until Lyanna reaches maturity.

Stannis goes to Casterly Rock due to Sansa naming her father as the Hand. Ned and Catelyn come to King's Landing, leaving Robb (who probably married someone like Margaery) as Warden of the North. Things would be tense between Catelyn and Petyr, but it is obvious how loyal and devoted he would be to Sansa.

He even arranges for Daenerys to be assassinated where he failed in doing so when Robert was alive.

On top of realizing how intelligent their daughter has become, they also see the lingering feelings between Petyr and Sansa. Ned is concerned that they were having an affair but believes Sansa when she told him that it never happened.

But confesses that she did love him.

They dance around one another for awhile, eventually marrying when Lyanna is ten years old.

#petyr x sansa #what if

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