#he jsut gets better and better

[t3ooc]

“I’d bite myself and take my feelings out with my teeth.”

#lacho #i loveeee drawing parallells between my fav characters #i should get an olympic gold medal in gymnastics for the mental hoops i go through #vincent gilligan: heres a character whos gonna do some betrayal #me: OH MY GOD JSUT LIKE MY FAVOURITE MOM FROM ANCIENT GREEK MYTHOLOGY #dreams of ignacio varga #LISTEN LISTEN they both have snakes #idc that snakes r universal betrayal symbols its real bc i said so #lalo (agamenmon) returns from mexico (troy) n gets stabbed in the back by nacho (clytmnestra) #also i think maybe if lalo hadnt carried the salamanca family name nacho wouldve liked him #a bit over the top but u know....... i fink he did like him he just loves his family more #the feeling was mutual lalo didnt trust nacho until further in n then it was 2 late #love story for the ages #insane ramblings: over #better call saul #nacho varga #lalo salamanca #ignacio varga #eduardo salamanca #how do i tag idc #t3art

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Las Vegas Grand Prix - Qualifiying - Fernando Alonso

#half asleep making these istg #yayyyy p9? idk ig i expected him to do better #old man asleep at the wheel whats new 😴 #he was very quick w this interview i wonder if he was eager to get to bed #i certainly am rn #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #2023 las vegas gp #(i wish i could atop feeling insecure abt my gifs. i do it for fun.) #(of course i want them to look somewhat good but i get a bit ill over it) #(there was somw drama on here at some point that made me want to completely stop posting then ngl) #(cause like what is the point if im not as good as others ig :/ this is kinda vague posting but it made me so uncomfortable) #(as i said. i do it for fun in quick time bcs yay jsut wanna post smth i found cute) #(but ever sincce that thing happened its just made me extremely self critical and insecure abt posting) #(idk why im saying this. kinda repressing the urge tk be like 'SRY THESE ARE TERRIBLE. YEAH.') #(i need to sleep. but i often feel like this literally every time i post now bcs some people get on their high horse and ruin people's fun) #(iykyk ig. its smth bothering me lately. but i hate to act so morose. but i still feel bad abt the quality sometimes. i guess.) #we do a little bit of f1

[rotzaprachim]

*breathes in and out through mouth* everyone is scared and grieving and still waiting for news of their families everyone is scared and grieving everyone is scared and grieving*

#Jewish communal leader hurt me very and I mean VE TU deeply today #I mean very #I think in what was to her mind a not passive aggressive way she felt the need to explain the Israeli Side and Israeli history #But like the nail in the coffin was implying that I don’t feel as deeply for the people in Israel #I don’t understand the depth of suffering of the people in Israel #Because I was bothered on Saturday zoom Torah by how Netanyahu has used this for more war crimes #That the fact that I care about Gazans means I don’t feel enough grief or a normal Jewish grief as she sees it for Jews #To me this is jsut unconscionably cruel #Also that the majority of Jews don’t support a ceasefire or at least local Jews #Well if that’s true I want no part of it. Not now or ever again #I can’t believe she felt the need to like. Explain the news cycle to me #I didn’t get this off a tiktok ma’am #I read yo@v g@llant in fucking haaretz. I heard what he said #*no one in Israel is calling for mass death* clearly they are #Anyway she told it was whataboutism to care about the reprisals on a civillians population from what Hamas did #And to feel better being part of a community or doing soemthing active. Maybe read this book on feminism I’ve already read #I’m just so hurt by it all! #Telling another Jew they don’t feel or care enough for ‘am yisrael is the deepest cut there is

[bonnieisaway]

seven's the best protag ever because i could make a million "get you a man who" jokes about him. get you a man who looks at him the way thirteen does. get you a man who has undefeated whimsy and love for the world like seven. get you a man who holds his friends above everything else. get you a man who'd rather go broke and hungry rather than tear apart the bonds between people. get you a man who'd get himself killed for someone who barely knows him. get you a man who'd get himself killed for an island which he's barely familiar with. get you a man who'd dress up as you and settle the arguement between you and your girlfriend including a really long serenade. get you a man who could both save the girl in white like that and also let thirteen save him like that. get you a man who's driven purpose in life is loving others

#i think i shouldnt limit it to just “best protag” but im too lazy to think of better phrasing #i know very little medias who would be willing to write a man who's that loving and empathetic and caring and also have him have killed #literal thosuands and those two points of his characters dont contradict his very personality because his actions have genuine sensible mot #a character who is the victim of his own narrative and continues to fight it over and over and over even if he's tired #because being tired does not mean he gets to stop fighting for what he loves #the s4 op lyrics literally say something along the lines of “who's tired of fighting evil?” i cant check the netflix captions of it rn #god i just love seven as a character i love how he's written #i cannot interract with the tiktok side of the fandom because #i feel like i'm pretentous or a gatekeeper when i say this #but some people just wanna see funny badass who should be feared and will not comprehend how empathetic and adoring he is #and that's ok. that's an ok character to want and love #and i will not be the person to burst the bubble but also the bubble chokes me alive LOOK AT HIM /j #explaining the intricacies of his character takes so long and its so fun but also some mfs jsut dont wanna hear it i need mfs who need it #scissor seven #wu liuqi #seven

[dark-elf-writes]

Any Naruto, Harry Potter, mha, or ff7 au idea knocking around that you want to share?

Have I been suspiciously quiet?

I mean yes, but am I causing concern?

Cloud that makes it to Midgar but ends up a bit… lost on the way and finds himself under the plate with barely any gil, a shit sword, and a gaggle of orphans following at his heels no matter how many times he tells them to go home.

It wasn’t like it had happened on purpose, he had been walking through sector five trying to scrounge up any work at all to buy a ticket up to the plate so he could finally apply for SOLDIER, when he heard the faintest sound of children screaming from down a tight alley that had he been any bigger he wouldn’t have been able to fit through.

He arrives in time to save the kids from a monster that broke in their hideout, breaking his first sword and grabbing a second from the towering piles of shit that were everywhere down here. The kids latch onto him immediately, all wide eyes and eager hands tugging him back to the Leaf House where they eagerly tell Ms. Folia all about their new hero.

She doesn’t look to convinced (he is little more than skin and bone if he’s being entirely honest, but Midgar was so expensive and it wasn’t like he could hunt here like he did back home) but she offers him one of the spare rooms for staff and a warm meal as thanks. She is convinced a few days later when she runs into him in the bustle of Wall Market taking out a pushy customer outside the Honeybee Inn before security could get to him.

He becomes something of a guard for Leaf House, often extending his services further to escort Aerith and Folia and even a few other sector five Honeybees. Their little guardian who starts to come into his strength as time passes.

It’s only a matter of time before the Turks following Aerith set their sights on him. He’s hard to miss walking at Aerith to the church, showing the kids how to defend themselves, going toe to toe with men twice his size on his escort trips, but what really deals the deal is when he notices them back.

No one saw a Turk that didnt want to be seen. Just like no one took on the Don’s men without fear. Just like no one looked after the lost and forgotten kids under the plate.

Now the Turks aren’t only trying to get Aerith to Shinra but Cloud as well.

Cloud isn’t entirely sure how he found himself as a potential Turk recruit with enough siblings (younger and older if the dancers and Aerith were to be believed) but he is sure that even if he were to write home about him no one would ever believe him.

#the elf talks #ff7 #cloud with many little siblings messing with Turks is jsut *chefs kiss* #he honestly just wanted enough money for a better sword and maybe a new shirt #he gets an infinite number of siblings and maybe a Turk boyfriend instead #leaf house cloud au

[listenupcupcakes]

for you sergeant doe

*hands you vladimir putins severed head*

:3

GOOD JOB PRIVATE YOU DESSERVE A MEDAL!

THIS IS GOING ON MY WALL!

#fun fact! when mod read this thier brain didnt load quite right and i thought you meant Rasputine #hes like a proud dad yall #hes not gnna ask how tf you got Putin's severed head #he will instead give you a 'medal' #which is a tiny little thing he made with cardbaord and Pyro's crayons #that says 'good job' #he has better made medals #thats jsut what he had on him #all the mercs get medals #for random shit too #medic pulls a tooth and gets a medal #solly speaks #solly answers #anon ask #anonymous

[enden-k]

im sorry to hear people are stomping all over your boundaries, big props to you for sticking up for yourself and putting your foot down. I hope you're doing ok (/gen)

on another, hopefully happier note, i noticed your info post mentions that you self ship! I'd love to hear about your favourite self ships if you're comfortable talking about them some time?

i actually never did or had interest in this but then haitham waltzed in so hes the first and only one (this whole thing flusters me so its smth i indulge in for myself in private by reading or daydreaming or sometimes i babble and ramble about him very in depth)

(most hkvthm things i draw is just me going 'wish that was me' and drawing it LMFAO)

ohh also same w kaveh but in a slightly different way than haitham (theyre both the only ones) i want them to hold hands. i want them to hold my hands. there

#i dont feel attraction to ppl irl mostly bc im just not comfortable around ppl #and the ones i am are my friends and theres obv no romantic attraction #so when i saw haitham and learned more and mroe of him and how he and i share so many traits and ideas and things it was #instant comfort and the feeling of being understood #that its like #if he was real i would seek out his warmth and presence instead of getting away frm it like with my ex partners when it was too much for me #knowing that he would understand me therefore knowing how to handle me without making me uncomfortable or upset #uhh so basically. he made me realize all i want is just someone who perfetly understands me and knows how to treat me #when to come close and when to give me space #perfectly knowing me and reading me #i cant speak and in the rare moments i am able to im often struggling to form my thoughts into sentences that make sense #so he would still understand and put together that garbled mess and know exactly what i mean #not misunderstanding and acusing me of things or tones i never said or used #ppl and things messed me up quite a bit in the past that im having trouble w lots of things unless im alone #only when im alone i feel truly comfortable and safe bc nothing can hurt or upset me but even then you kinda realize in some moments that #you actually want someone with you but it has to be smn you trust and who knows you inside out and all that #i dont have anyone like that and idk if i ever will but rn this character is jsut rotating in my head giving me these things i crave and #thats enough #sorry that was a lot of gay rambling there but yea idk if it sounds stupid or nah but my #mental health issues got way better and balanced ever since haitham so he really #grounds me and gives me strength and comfort to deal with things i would have be unable to do in the past year #bc even if i dont have smn who truly knows and understands me #inside me there is someone #reply #tags tbd #in case i get embarrassed LMFAO

[sapphicautistic]

My gf was listening to "White Blank Page" by Mumford and Sons and I once again told her that song is SO much better if it's gay.

She doesn't listen to the lyrics of songs but she's extremely good at literary analysis and this time she actually looked up the lyrics and has now come to the following conclusion: "It makes no sense if it's not gay."

My (objectively best) reading is this:

The narrator was in love with a guy who strung him along, never willing to be in a committed (or public) relationship with him and maybe insisting that it's extremely heterosexual "helping a bro out" sex, except in more intimate moments. Finally out of nowhere guy is suddenly committed to a woman and when Narrator confronted him, guy spat out homophobic vitriol and claimed he's not gay like the Narrator.

(For extra flavor imagine them as closeted, straight passing Midwestern flannel wearing, love-bonfires-and-camping guys who sat next to each other at church and elbowed and annoyed each other like best friends do and were each other's go-to source of emotional support! And then to suddenly shut Narrator out for the first time ever, by abruptly marrying a woman and insisting that he's always been straight and their relationship meant nothing...)

Here are the lyrics:

Can you lie next to her And give her your heart, your heart As well as your body? And can you lie next to her And confess your love, your love As well as your folly? And can you kneel before the king And say, "I'm clean! I'm clean!" ? But tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Oh, tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage You did not think When you sent me to the brink, to the brink You desired my attention But denied my affections, my affections So tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Oh, tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Lead me to the truth and I Will follow you with my whole life Oh, lead me to the truth and I Will follow you with my whole life

Why call multiple people "you" in a totally unclear way? Why would you claim that your female ex's new man can't love her AT ALL (not just as much as you did, AT ALL)? And invoking the judgment of God is so fucking tedious if you're just shaming your female ex for moving on or even cheating/getting with your friend. Also you look like a creepy asshole if you think a girl broke up with you for "loving her too much".

This song is tepid, badly written, and makes the narrator look like an asshole if it's NOT gay.

The gay reading is the ONLY compelling one.

#i don't even care about m/m romances lmao i get bored when there's no women BUT #this is objectively the best reading #anyways my gf and I came up with the main beats for an entire romance story about these guys #as a dyke raised in the church i really like the religious midwestern reading here too #also there's SUCH a phenomenon of guys having secret sex out in these rural areas and insisting even to themselves it's not gay #so this reading is very compelling to me #i also like to think the woman is like fine. there's nothing wrong with her she's sweet and friends with both of them. #gf said what if she's Narrator's sister? #like i think it's better narrative wise if the woman has no idea and isn't trying to 'turn him straight' #bc the ex CHOSE this. he caved and all so he can stand before God and insist he's 'clean' #which to me... very very resonant #updates on my boring life #also I think the ex can be either bi or gay like it doesn't matter because either way Narrator is convinced ex loves HIM still n not wifey #god i could go line by line but no one wants that lmao it's extremely funny that i fixated on this #i did not even know it was a mumford and sons song or that they are british until gf told me both facts today #i am in no way a fan #im jsut a sucker for religion flavored gay angst i guess or at least this variety of it

[maybeonedayillfindout]

nothing worse than a character you liked being really popular in the fandom but in the wrong way . if no one liked them then to see good posts all you'd have to do is go into a tag or something but if there is a thriving community of people who ship him with a guy you hate it gets several times harder to find posts you agree with

#this post is about armitage hux. #im sorry im not a hater but i genuinely understand those who hate his ass so much better then the huxxkylo shippers. like come on #be so for real. kylo ren would not under any circumstances fidn hux attractive. you could not waterboard it out of him #and anyway even if the ship was fine now he's just a twink!! #now he's misunderstood and really quite a nice guy at heart #NO #SHUT UP #i am probably the only enjoyer of the “i dont care who wins i jsut need kylo ren to lose” line because that was so in character for me #i started giggling i was like yes be a petty bitch. go against your own interests because he was mean to you. #anyway anyone else out there thouroughly enjoy hux as a character but not kylo ren? lets talk i need to get out of this nightmare #star wars #one day i will stop putting 75% of the post in the tags #general hux #izzy hands #ofmd

[serethereal]

on the episode where lorelei tells luke that jess is a bad kid (mind you this is after a < 10 min talk with him on his very first day after being sent away by his mother to live in a new town with an uncle he doesn’t know during his junior year of high school) and i’m furious again

#also one of my fav luke moments is when he goes “you ever consider you just got lucky with rory” FUCK YEAH #like lorelei ily but like. get real. rory is not some perfect child FIRST OF ALL but more importantly the reason she is the way she is #as in studious and honest and blah blah blah could really be more nature than nurture like be serious #just really hate how lorelei is about jess like oh my goddddd get off your damn fucking high horse his life and rory’s life are #incomparable so stop stacking them side by side. (and also jess ended up doing better so HA) #sorry y’all i love lorelei i do but this one scene jsut gets me so bad (this and when she goes crazy about the accident UGHH)

[pyrriax]

hi everyone remind me to never look at deviantart again

#haunted ecosystem #probably jsut take this post at face value tags are if youre really curious 👍 #i was trying to find something. immediately got blasted with a person who i did not want confirmation was out of prison is out #if im weird the next few days this has been an un-fun experience 👍i just wanted to look for some furry bases ok not. dread. #i just wanted to work on beest & saturn </3 #actually feel nauseous ah this is going to be fun im going to go. draw things. do something. i need to get rid of this dread #why did he fucking follow my new account there? why? didnt he get enough? didnt he fucking get enough god i. #sorry chat im feeling things and if i remember this later i'll probably delete these tags but i need to just put this somewhere #im not a kid anymore i can handle this i shouldnt be this scared but fuck i am. maybe it wasnt just paranoia! joy joy joy oh joy! #tomorrow will be better tomorrow i'll forget about this and i'll move on like i never saw it and i'll continue being happy #i have people that love and care about me and that i talk to every day i have people that i trust and know i can rely on #i don't have to be scared anymore i don't need to worry i'll be fine and that has to be true because things are better now

[ahaura]

so um during dinner my brother just. said out loud that homosexuality is a sin. to my face. lol

#it was that 'love the dinner hate the sin' bullshit which imo is so fucking cowardly #like....... this WASNT his view a few months ago but now he gets offended at pride flags #soooooooooo i guess we're here now. #idk man it jsut. sucks so bad. and he said to my face lol like #like. fuck you. you self righteous judgemental spineless piece of shit #i cried after he left but im better now. sorta. #ahvañe

[mostesteemedgingeroverlord]

I watched Scrubs for the first time in college, when I knew nothing about hospital culture or the weight of working in medicine. I liked it, I laughed, I cried, but I didn’t fully get it.

I’m rewatching it on the other side of the covid pandemic and three and half years of nursing later. Now it’s like therapy. It may lean more towards satire and be pretty silly at times, but it captures hospital dynamics and the emotionality and trauma of working in healthcare in a way that makes me feel seen.

#Im crying more this time around #i jsut watched the episode where JD Turk and Elliot all lose a patient after emotionally bonding with them #and it reminding me of the first patient I lost who I really had a connection with #i had worked so hard to recover him from septicemia #and he was getting better and crashed out of nowhere #I’d never cried like that before #my charge nurse and another nurse literally envolver me while I sobbed #anyways that’s a lot but this episode made me feel understood #tw death #tw illness #cw death #cw illness #tw medical #cw medical #scrubs

[flashhwing]

now i don't really ascribe to the whole "every character needs to be paired off in the end" but i DO feel kinda bad in warden!hawke verse giving garrett and bethany loving partners but not carver. unfortunately the only person that i like carver with who isn't already in a relationship is alistair who is king in this world and also in a political marriage

now i'm not saying carver CAN'T be king alistair's mistress but it does take some wrangling to make it work

#warden hawke au #the other characters i like him with being merril and fenris #who are in a situationship with isabela and zevran #now i'm not saying carver can't be a fifth there but i am saying that he would not engage with zevran which makes things awkward #there would also be some Weird Developments with isabela which ends up just kinda ruining the vibe and y'know carver it's nothing on you #really we just think it would be better if you uh. left the polycule. no offense of course we still love you just. don't want you here #so it's really better if he jsut doesn't get in it to begin with y'know? #it has occurred to me that this is just. isabela + elves. interesting #this has been a post #also. granted i haven't like scoured the tag but i've really only seen carver with warden!alistair #the dynamic with king!alistair would be different for sure #but still good i think

[jamesdotmp3]

rare (actually very common) james vulnerability post um im kind of hating having bpd right now. i reeeeally really hate how the smallest thing completely sets me off and i HATE gettinf close to people and then having to hit them with the “btw if i get even the slightest feeling you dont like me or that im being replaced i absolutely will not confront it directly and will instead opt to just never ever speak again and be mad for 6 months straight” and its cost me a lot of close friendships! i’m in therapy and i am on medication and i have been for months but for some reason it’s just ??? not working??? i dunno but im feeling very Not great tonite james nation 💔 sighs soo hard and goes back to drawing star trek yuri

#jamesdottxt #i jsut want to be normal tbh #its so embarrassing #getting close to people and then realizing its Too close #and suddenly your entire day revolves around how theyre feeling/what theyre doing #i really wish that i didnt have to be like This #because once i get mean and i start freaking out people tend to drift away and find other people #and its like Oh i really am the problem #but whats the point of recognizing youre the problem when… youre the problem lol like im not purposefully staying like this #and im trying to get better #but at what point does it start being pathetic #i hate freaking out over the smallest shit #and losing sleep because of overthinking #ive fallen out with um. Both of my favorite persons in the past few months #one of them was lowkey a predator and the other one. man idk what the other one even did #he didnt do anything #i jsut kind of sucked i think #but yeah . being fp-less and only having a very select few friends is FREAKIN ME OUT!!!!! #you’re nice to me? I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU ALONE NOW! AHA! #embarrassingggg…. #but um real talk i would so love to be able to maintain relationships properly without fucking it up so bad because of my outbursts #sighs so hard. the only thing that can fix this is drawing self insert x hughie campbell yuri #back to the coal mines (drawing program) i go #ant with bindle image #bpd #tw vent #personal vent #rare james vulnerability post #vent