We don't talk enough about the fact that Amelia Pond, s5 Amelia Pond, before the timeline is reset, isn't just a normal orphan. Her parents didn't die, didn't abandon her, and didn't send her away. They never existed in the first place.
And if her parents never existed, then Amelia cannot exist. She is a causal impossibility.
"People fall out of the world sometimes, but they always leave traces." A photograph. A face carved into an apple. Yes. Sure.
A child.
Now that's too big, surely.
But that's what she is. She is exactly the same as these things. A trace. An echo of something that could never be, never was, never could have been.
And the universe should never allow it. A whole person, that's just too much. She could not have continued to exist indefinitely, in normal circumstances, after her parents never existed.
In normal circumstances.
Because the Doctor didn't just save her from things coming out of the crack in her wall. He saved her from going into it. And he didn't just save her from the threat of going into it simply because of its vicinity.
No, by arriving when he did, he interrupted a process that was probably already in motion. And then by arriving again only moments later on a cosmic relative timestream (too quickly for the process to complete) and yet in the local relative timestream, years later --- years of a potential future caught midway through the process of rewriting -- he solidified that existence. Amy is a creature from another timeline, caught in amber. The Doctor prevented her from never existing, but only after she could already never exist.
And so, no one around Amelia thinks about it. Neither does she. There's some kind of consciousness block, because if you thought about it, really thought about it, for two seconds you'd realize she cannot exist. And the human mind can't deal with that. So, to protect itself, everyone's brain simply slides off it before ever noticing. They just assume that her existence makes sense, and don't question it, and don't notice what they don't question, that is staring them in the face.
But of course, to some extent they do notice. They can't think it, but they notice subconsciously that there's something they can't think. They notice there's something wrong with her, something uncanny. And they don't like it, and they alienate her even more because of it.
"Does it ever bother you Pond that your life existence doesn't make any sense?"
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im thinking about first year healer akihiko again and how he would try his best to heal shinji & mitsuru through each battle since he’s the only one who can. how he might accidentally miss them getting injured occasionally because he’ll quickly focus on fighting instead … so he has to patch up what he missed when they get back to the dorms …
+ thinking about shinji and mitsuru sitting there as akihiko bandages them up, n he’s telling them to be more careful n they’re just thinking “how are we the ones being scolded here… by him of all people” 💆
++ akihiko years later being hella good at patching ppl up bc he was put on healing duty in their first year on top of his boxing & general rowdiness… hes so serious about making sure his team is properly healed & bandaged… im so very ill about medic akihiko… thank you…
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I think it is pretty uncharitable to read shuro's love for falin as disingenuous because "he likes falin for the same reasons he hates laios!!" (their Weirdgirl swag). While I can see where it comes from, a lot of people seem to think that falin and laios are exactly the same person except with the genders switched? Falin obviously gets less characterization than laios, but I think its clear that they differ pretty markedly in the ways that they interact with the world.. and I think their main difference is the fact that falin is just as interested in humans as she is in monsters and magic. And laios just is not. Whether that's a result of falin being a girl and so having to be more careful about her masking is another topic but like Falin is a healer... Her prime motivation is to help other people, and she sees the good in them, things that shuro specifically points out as the reasons why he loves her (which are also things that marcille points to as reasons why she loves falin. Btw). Over the course of the story Laios shows he cares too, but it takes him much longer to warm up to people (he didnt even ask kabrus name LOLLL and hes pretty disconnected from their old party in general (except for shuro 😔)). Anyway I dont have anything really to say about this except that shuro's surprise proposal isnt an indication of his entitlement (at least not directly) and is instead a result of his upbringing, as most of the misunderstandings in regards to shuro are. And to reduce his feelings to just "he wants a manic pixie dream girl" is kind of mean I feel :(
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