#he’s also autistic bc so am I

[accio-writersblock]

Remus Lupin headcanons that you can pry out of my cold dead hands

Remus loves music but he can’t sing for the life of him

This does not stop him from trying

He had the fattest crush on Sirius starting in third year but he didn’t say a word

No one realized until fifth year, and they were all sworn into silence

Remus experimented with punk in sixth year and that’s where Sirius got his iconic look

When Sirius ran away from home, James let Remus know immediately

Remus fell through the floo in a state of panic

He refused to leave Sirius’ side for three days, which is how long it took for Sirius to recover enough to tell Remus to fuck off

Remus was heartbroken after The Prank, more sad than angry through the summer and Sirius running away was the last nudge he needed to forgive him

Seeing Sirius pale and injured and so so scared broke any anger that was left

Remus was absolutely amazing at Charms

Despite his passion for DADA, he always got the best marks in Charms

Remus was obsessed with The Sandman comics when they came out

He injured his hip during a moon in fourth year and used a cane from then on (when Sirius could convince him to)

Remus fostered werewolf children while Sirius was in Azkaban

Welsh Remus !! (He once asked Sirius what his favorite color was, and upon hearing that it was red started giggling and only stopped to wheeze out “you love coch!” [the ch is pronounced like English ck])

Remus feathered his hair when it was a popular hairstyle

He hated wizarding robes and opted to wear corduroy trousers with his cozy sweaters

He kept an annotated copy of The Picture of Dorian Gray on his person at all times (and used a different color pen for each reread)

He studied with Regulus in the library even after Regulus stopped following Sirius around the castle

He liked to crochet accessories for the marauders’ animagus forms

He never glamoured his scars away because in second year, while riddled with sleep deprivation, Sirius told him that his scars were so so beautiful

Remus always asked for fun socks as Christmas presents

He kept every pair

He taught Sirius a nightlight spell in his first year after he found out that Sirius had nightmares when he was in a dark room

He knew the spell because his father used it every full moon when he snuck into the basement in between the transformation back and Remus’ return to the waking world

When he asked Lyall about it his father denied doing it but did direct him to a spell book

Hope Lupin taught him everything he knew about cooking

He learned sign language to talk to a younger Deaf student at Hogwarts who he found crying in one of his hiding spots

He gifted Lily and James a cat when they went into hiding so that they would have more company (and because Sirius hated cats)

He regularly checked up on Harry (in secret) while he was still living with the Dursleys

Sirius had to keep him from murdering the whole family

He was inconsolable when he came back from a remote Order mission to the news that three of his best friends were murdered by the love of his life

If anyone had been around during his grieving they would have heard his sobs for Regulus, James, Lily, Peter, and the Sirius that he knew and loved

He knew that his Sirius would never do that to James

#marauders era #wolfstar #remus lupin headcanon #remus x sirius #he’s also autistic bc so am I #I’m so sorry about the last couple bullet points #this is a lie #anyways the cat was Crookshanks #Hagrid saw a cat in the ruins and took it along with Harry

[theonewhowails]

silly stuff i drew while reading Feel No Evil by @payasita , in which the Lamb does not know how to propose, Narinder does not know how to be alive, and neither of them knows what an obligate carnivore is

bonus? lmao

#my art #cotl #i am looking into your soul with my huge autistic eyes. read this fic right now. blease #hksfdjghdfghldkfg im sorry it just fucking kills me that for the first 4ish chapters narinder is just. so nasty #like all the followers are like There He Is. The Leader's Favorite Guy. and its this filthy half-dead cat that hasnt bathed in 10+ years #like he has hardly eaten the entire time he's been mortal and he looks like absolute dogshit #and their unbeatable normally serene and gracious leadergod is hovering around his stinky ass like omg nari hiiiiii #its fucking hilarious to me. and also heartwrenching bc this fic does also get into how hard it is to be alive when uve never learned how #gonna draw the twins desperately bringing him soap later i just had so many things i wanted to draw for this

[yardsards]

i needed to express a sentiment in the creative stylings of @dunmeshiminimumwage

#eliot posts #dunme #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #sorry to put toshiro in the roll of shitty job interviewer lmao #but he was the best fit for ''guy that wants me to read their mind'' #laios being my internal monologue here #i was on my THIRD interview of the day i was Dying #tho since the prev two interviews i had were for similar positions and told me their salaries outright at least i could use that number #(though tbh my work persona is more of a kabru. my customer service voice is unparalleled) #(at my first job even my coworkers thought i was sooo cheerful til i got too comfy and casually made a joke abt wanting to asphyxiate on a #plastic shopping bag like a sea turtle. in front of my sweet elderly coworker. oops!) #(also this job was during quarantine and after weeks of working together i took my mask off in front of one coworker for the first time #and she called like half the department over from their registers to look at how pretty i was??? prettyboy powers unmatched ig) #(also my first interview today went SO well i charmed that interviewer so good despite my lack of qualifications) #(she even complimented my social skills and said i seemed like the type who could get along well and make good conversation with anyone!) #(which is important bc i was interviewing for an elder care position. also old people especially tend to think i am a Delightful Young Lad) #(unless i accidentally make a morbid joke around them ig lmaooo. or. well. some of them like those too. but not that one coworker lol) #(if only that skill transferred over to actually making friends irl. my autistic ass has so few close irl connections) #(i hope my exceedingly short list of character references does not prevent me from getting hired) #AND ALSO my first job asked the same wage question and i said twelve dollars #and they were like all our new employees start at 7.75 #the union insists that we pay all new employees a whopping 50 cents above min wage. (we'd pay less if we could) #like dawg why did you ask that then??? if my answer did not matter at all???

[moe-broey]

Forever thinking about this panel

He will NOT be accepting hugs for any mundane reason and if you try he will react like he's being hunted for sport

But I am ALSO thinking about

He will give a little sympathetic pat on the back........ if you're feeling down ......

Alfonse physical affection seems to vary and is situational 👍

#fire emblem #feh #he's better than me tbh but that is exclusively bc i am so autistic about touch #like i get distrected if i'm upset and you try to give a supportive touch even something small like rubbing the back #and really the best thing to do is give me space unless if i say otherwise. and i act as if that is EVERYONE'S default #which results in: 🧍 <- he is 100% supportive and concerned and cares for your plight #still i think these panels are so interesting bc one shows a general baseline/boundary #and it's easy to extrapolate he's like that across the board. but also i think it's interesting that #he will give a little pat on the back. like i would never think to write him/portray that otherwise #when i write alfonse and touch he is very reactive. never thinking and/or daring to initiate #which i think so much about w sharena too like it's SO clear she is so physically affectionate #like that first panel is from a comic where SHE IS. #i am just. always thinking about it. #AH ACTUALLY BEFORE I END THAT THOUGHT. the fact that whole comic is about hugs/differing boundaries #and the implication that sharena had to learn alfonse's boundaries probably the hard way #i am just. ALWAYS thinking about sibling incompatibilities where they love each other anyway. #just... ouuughghhh.......... #fe alfonse #fe kiran #sharena

[jennilah]

I saw your whole bit about cheaters in Saw and I concur completely. For me it doesn't even register as a possibility for Strahm because he has the wombo combo of being a gay autistic. He married his high school sweetheart and chased the white picket dream because that's what he was told to do by authority figures back in the day. I like to think his ex wife is a lovely person that figured out the relationship wasn't working and mercifully started the divorce proceedings so Strahm could finally figure out his own shit. I think he keeps the ring on as a source of stimming comfort

(disclaimer: headcanons, but as an autistic adult, all I see is a man who tried to play by societal rules, but society was not built to accommodate autistics/gay men and work is the only thing that really makes sense to him)

yeah if anything, if he has an ex at all, it was broken off and its 1000% over as of long ago (i really cant do any love still being there w divorces im sorry. whether that means its a clean breakup headcanon or a messy one. they can still be friends, but no love. i will self-insert that headcanon if a fic says otherwise just so i can continue reading it, unless it becomes a big enough plot point.. this is my 1 absolute no im sorry 🙏)

ive also thought of that, of them meeting in school or something, and either Peter himself or Mrs Strahm realizing long ago that they perhaps made a mistake, young and dumb, and itll be better for both of them to go their separate ways and continue exploring themselves

the ring being kept as a reminder to himself for x, y, or z reasons is good 👌👌 ive seen it being a sign to himself to be careful entering relationships because his addiction to work got between the last one, i like that too

#this is also why i have a really really really hard time with “the ex is dead” headcanons bc in my mind theres a LOT of love still there #and its horrifically sad like no thats the greatest fear aside from a remorseful divorce so like its still a no from me #i am also autistic and i agree autistic strahm is good. he may not know social cues very well but damn that boy can interrogate #he may be blunt as hell and come off as rude at times but he can get the job done. its what he knows best #and hes not incapable of being nice and gentle. we see that too. its good #jennilargh #jenna answers #saw #ALSO LIKE yall can headcanon whatever u want!!! i really dont mind if u like the stuff i dont. this stuff is just not for me personally #i’ll even make exceptions sometimes it’s really case by case

[daydreamtoropova]

I'm the [tumblr] person who overuses comments in tags.

[tumblr] autosaved my tags even though I used them once.

Look in the tags and have a laugh.

(Possible tag game?) @author-of-the-year @jenumarts @thonethatflies620 @iamunabletothinkofablogname @ all my mutuals

#yeah i would've done something about it but now it's too late #he is not happy to be there. #why torture me like this #why all are my favorite characters evil??? #like bro why does it sound so ominous #“fedora kink” bro wtf #why is the universe so cruel #you're that mutual that i don't even know why i followed you #and i never played deltarune so idk why i am even doing this #why can't i have them #i like to imagine that humanity wasn't started by adam but by lucifer bc why not #uh is it not normal to chew on nonedible things? #damn i can't do russian or italian because those were already done #also pigeons? damn when i'm at a city i usually chase them #oh my goodness i love this #this is why i love this deer man <3 #i love this deer man (aroace ically) #the autism is autisming #goddamn my femboy obsession is acting up #why is everybody i see autistic these days??? wait i think i might be neurodivergent nvm #nah cause why is he trying so hard lmao #don't ask me how i know #so i usually stay up late on my computer until i'm tired enough to finally go to sleep and not wait hours in bed doing nothing

[whumpshaped]

facing my fears at the hospital (being around people) and i am being so brave about it

#i am suffering i am in agony i want tk cry a little #which means outwardly i must look like this 😐 bc im so fucken autistic #im not here for myself btw i just drove my brother and he also only needs a referral for some physiotherapy #irlshaped

[lesbianbootheng]

hi. not to be autistic on main but. autistic dan heng(tm)

he has a strong dedication to researching (which can be argued as a special interest), finds repetitive tasks engaging (collecting data, sword training), has a hard time verbalizing or describing his feelings, and has a flat tone of voice (a common autistic symptom). he also finds comfort in nature and seems more comfortable being alone to ppl which a lot of autistic ppl connect to. he gets tired out or exhausted by ppl easily and needs alone time to recharge, canonically spending lots of time in his room

tldr: autistic dan heng

#hsr #honkai star rail #dan heng #dan heng hsr #hsr dan heng #i’m also projecting here bc i myself am autistic but also. he does show a lot of the symptoms ESPECIALLY with his flat voice #& i know it isn’t the english va being a bad va bc i hear him talk irl & he has lots of inflections in voice it’s just dh deliberately #being made to sound like that #also me personally i relate a lot to dh by being OBSESSED with research. i’m so into it that dramaturg is my designated role in theater #also im super into genshin lore + majoring in history so! u see where my interest in research comes from :3 #tldr dh 🫱🏻‍🫲🏽 me: being into research (we’re nerds :3 <3)

[bunisher]

i need all future comics writers of frank (and anyone on DDBA) to stop trying to write him as a guy who had a normal childhood and was always just kinda Like That. or that he was simply destined to become the punisher, but that’s kind of a separate topic.

people who go into the military at 18 rarely have normal childhoods, they are often raised in abusive environments that are normalized. the urge to go into the military typically does not come from people who aren’t used to some form of abuse, because why would you willingly want to go into that? unless you are susceptible to indoctrination toward having faith in a system from a young age and aren’t able to discern the red flags? the military system preys on poor young men in particular by scouting them and offering all these bells and whistles (free college, healthcare, community) and feelings of importance, but then just forgets about them afterward.

side note: it’s actually such a disservice to many veterans to forget about how the military is an abusive system. it literally strips you of everything with no help in reintegrating back into society (other than by members of the same community). i get TPS1 tried to do something with this but dropped the ball. it feels like many writers just use his marine background as some sort of fun fact that only comes into play with certain things, but it very much shapes who you are and changes your identity. it’s a very cult-like system.

many people who want to serve are related to others who have prior. many people (especially men) who want to serve at that age have an underlying need that they think can be met. many people are brainwashed by military propaganda and believe it is the right thing to do. especially when it comes to religion, there’s this idea of men using their bodies to protect the innocent that goes back hundreds of years, and this idea of serving god, which we see young francis try to do in two ways. (side note: why do they keep removing his religious background? i liked the nod to it in the nmcu but it seems modern comics writers (looking at you jason aaron) just forget this?) besides, the functions of religion for people are very similar to the functions of the military as far as members go, namely community and a sense of greater purpose.

to me, as a reader/watcher, threads of probable abuse history are present in frank’s character, and i wish we had a writer brave enough to write about it. why else would he care so much about innocents and victims? why else would he become suicidal and guilt stricken when he hurts an innocent? it makes you think: was there no one who protected him or someone else he knew?

and this may not mean anything but idk i think he’s so much more tragic and juicy if you look at him like someone who is not the perfect victim (and maybe doesn’t even recognize their abuse) but someone who instead of healing and becoming soft, becomes angry and violent afterward. trauma, especially repeated trauma, does not effect people all the same way and i really wish they would just be bold enough to work with that. i get trying to piss off the alt right but completely changing the character to fit the same stereotype of a ‘psychopath’ (which is an outdated term) as they do in horror movies about killer children is just poor writing. again, talking about punisher 2022, but this was kinda in nmcu too. and sure yeah they’ve retired his character (but not the punisher….? ok) in the comics, but for when he inevitably does come back, yeah.

#and i’m not a huge fan of ennis but i think tyger was fairly well written but that’s MAX so it’s separate #especially since it’s saying he was a child in the 1960s which would be different than growing up in the 80s as in NMCU #and same thing for comics like they could do a miniseries on his real childhood in order to retcon what happened in 2022 #but i think him witnessing a traumatic event or having multiple traumas in childhood fits his character #especially when it comes to the whole ‘no authority figures did anything so he took matters into his own hands’ #the types of people who go into cults have prior indicators in childhood #mfer went it seminary and still sometimes seeks out his rosary… something something fathers and masters #something something guiding force #also ​the military is a very culty system and so is catholicism so it's interesting nobody has done anything with that #but the idea that he was searching for community and brotherhood to some degree is not that far fetched #which is why he latched so hard onto his family and became utterly unable to attach himself to others out of fear #a person with good attachment wouldn’t react like this and yeah he’s unhealthy but that rarely comes from just being Like That #so i am begging once again for people to stop retconning his past #i also think reading him as an autistic child helps bc autistic children are often taught to ignore their needs and wants #which is something we see with his character later on that’s so prevalent #anyway this is just a blurb that i’ve been thinking about #frank castle #the punisher #comics inspired #ddba #nmcu the punisher #character analysis #bun.txt

[horsemage]

I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂

#welcome to another Mick Airs Out Their Grievances and by god is it a VERY long one #prob best if u don't expand the tags #am I being maybe a bit meaner about this than I would be for any other movie? maybe but pac rim is one of my favorite movies of all time #so I think I get a pass on this one. #one of the groups on campus is hosting movie nights & I went to this one bc I've only ever watched pac rim on my laptop and wanted to watch #it on a larger screen. yay yippee I love this movie! #there r maybe 10-ish of us in this room and a three person friend group is sitting on the couch one of whom has seen the movie and two who #have not. okay so far so normal. #and then the movie starts and they won't! stop! fucking! commentating! the whole fucking movie!!! I don't have a problem with doing that #when I'm in just my friend group because I know that I can tell my friend to stop talking or pause the movie or whatnot but not when I'm in #a large group w people I'm not good friends with ffs #and the comments aren't even funny or anything they're all oh this is JUST like in iron widow!! oh they're SO gay and autistic!!! and #they're talking so loud about this that it completely drowns out the movie audio which has already been turned up a few times #like. be considerate!! some of us want to yknow actually listen to what's going on and not whatever bullshit you're saying #I nearly walked out three or four times before I actually wound up doing so #I may have been a bit of a bitch at the end but I don't care. I got up to leave because this was not an enjoyable environment and one of #them offered to turn the movie down if it was too loud. this caught me a bit off guard since I expected them to still be so wrapped up in #their convo and. well. I may have said 'it's not the movie that's too loud' before closing the door #this also reminds me a lot about my issues with online shipping culture and it bleeding through into how we interact with media irl #this is probably heavily influenced by my aromanticism but I'm so sick of people constantly reading romantic relationships into everything #AND placing more importance on those relationships than any other form. I don't mind romance in media. I think if done right it has great #emotional impact on a story but when a movie is running and when other people who may not want to hear it are in the room watching it too #is not the time to be loudly saying 'he's autistic!' 'they're in love!' 'she has a crush on him!' #I have my own interpretations of the movie some of which agree with what they said and some of which don't but that's beside the point of #knowing how to coexist politely in public #anyway. I think they were awful and annoying and they ruined my night out. #I think I'm just so incredibly mad about this because I love the movie and I was looking forward to watching it in a group of people who #found it cool as well while still having some modicum of politeness #I almost wish I had been meaner but that's the extreme annoyance talking I think #hater hour over love u guys bye

[dhmis-autism]

update on watching dhmis with my mom; we are on transport, she immidiately noticed the lesley lisence plates in the animated sequence on her own and kept guessing which character was named lesley

the car died and she went ohh poor lesley :( and the GPS showed up and she was like OH! that must be lesley because thats a girl!

also for all u duck kin truthers out there she doubled down on comparing me to him and said that "its ok that you dont want to be him, but you are" so thts great for my allegations ; v ; )

#NEVER beating those #she was like listen...its ok that u dont want to be him. #and i was like yr making it sound like i am him and im just in denial. and she was like yeah bc u are <:] #THANKS MOOOOM #also she liked this one gskdvdn she said it was the least gory so far and so she liked it #SHE ALSO DBDKHS #in the mullhoven sequence when lesley asks if yellows new in town she nodded her head along with him it was so funny #i asked her about it and she was like well i thought she was talking to us!! :O #like mom this is NOT dora #my dhmis postings #SHE JUST THINKS IM DUCK BC HE WORE HEADPHONES AND DIDNT LIKE BEING IN THE CAR AND IM LIKE #IM ONLY THAT WAY BC IM AUTISTIC PLS #she sees any character with headphones and shes like omg! just like my baby girl! :D

[ipusingularitae]

my dad: *telling me i do have socialization deficits, that i need to step out more and interact with people and look like i am part of the environment and that i am "there" and present*

me, knowing damn well i have socialization deficits and feeling overwhelmed in social situations, especially when I don't feel like i fit and when I don't know the other people: ... okay

my dad: did you get upset with me telling you this?

me, dissociating so I don't start crying in front of him: ... no

#like it's not that I think he shouldn't have told me that #because unless he tells me i have no idea what he's thinking and I'll just go about doing my stuff #but it's kinda upsetting to know that on those situations that I'm feeling like shit and wanting to cry #and that i just start using reading as a way to feel better on the situation #I'm actually looking like j don't wanna be there at all and that I'm in a bad mood #like- i am not. I'm just so overwhelmed that I can't think straight so i need to use this to regulate #maybe if i start using a sign saying “I'm not upset if you wanna talk just start the conversation” things might work #idk it's frustrating bc it's not that I don't wanna interact at all it's just so fucking hard #and i feel like ppl knowing that you're neurodivergent means that they can isolate you instead of just looking for better ways to interact #this is so fucked up #like yeah i can make an effort and mask as i do all the fucking time #but at the same time i know that the main reason i do this is bc ppl also don't wanna look for other interaction options #anyway that was a big rant #autism #actually autistic #autistic #neurodivergent #personal #life stuff

[caspersscareschool]

i have this friend who's a straight guy in theory but in practice has a boyfriend who transitioned while they were dating but they kept seeing each other bc it worked for them and they didn't feel like anything in their relationship had changed etc. which is completely fine and 100% their business. but anyways me and this friend are very comfortable talking about sex so he hears a lot of my woes about getting no bitches and it seems like we share some of the same kinks and i don't know if he's joking but he has sort of straight up invited me to a 3way with him and his hot trans boyfriend . and anyways I'm trying to decide if I'd rather accept a pity fuck from a self-ided """straight""" guy (reiterating that he's definitely attracted to some men, but just doesn't feel comfortable identifying as bi because he wouldn't actively pursue men..? or doesn't consider it a significant enough part of himself to identify with? i think?) or potentially die a virgin because i have literally 0 other sexual prospects and I can't take it anymore. Anyways

#mdni #he's also offered to set me up before which is extremely generous but he seems to be under the impression that I'm primarily attracted to #men which. is not the case. like my attraction to men is so sparse that i thought i was a lesbian for the better part of 10 years #much to think about #disclaimer to this post i am hot I'm just autistic and live in the middle of shit fuck nowhere with my parents and don't have a car #ig it's just weird bc i thought he ided as straight bc he wouldn't pursue men.but then he's the one inviting me #despite my being a man for as long as we've been friends sooo..? is it unconscious transphobia is it internalized biphobia is it none of my #business idk. who knows #this is why i can never get dicked down cause i can't not overthink it

[moe-broey]

I need like. A Don't Make Me Tap The Sign about Alfonse Fire Emblem specifically about his character and how he's perceived sometimes. Like Book 7 Chapter 12 he's just like that. He's always been like that.

I feel like I've def said it more eloquently before probably in Book 5 (regarding Reginn and Fáfnir), where like. He Will try for and favor a peaceful solution, but if it's clear there's no way out without violence and killing the threat/adversary. He won't hesitate. He won't falter. Crit line literally references this actually, "Above all, the mission".

Like I feel like the difference between Alfonse just doing Alfonse things (most recent chapter Seidr having to kill Kvasir, no way out of it -- plus also even considering killing Seidr herself, if that were to end Gullveig) and the Letizia moment was like. The Letizia moment was a BOLD gambit he played, which is WHY it was so shocking in the story and as an audience member, and why I think it left such a deep impression. Still very in character for him and the way he thinks/problem solves on the fly, carefully evaluating the situation and what would be the best move with the highest rate of success. (THAT LAST BIT ACTUALLY........ he'll do this even with low rates of success, out of sheer stubbornness as well. Which is why I still stand by him being rash at times, a LOT of his rashness is disguised as "calculated risks" and he just has the willpower to pull it off. The worst-best type of guy to me LMFAO)

Going back a bit though, the Letizia moment also stands out as an example of how far Alfonse is willing to go to win, especially if his back is pushed against the wall. It gives you a FASCINATING glimpse into his character and into his mind. A lot of times Lif would be an enigma to me, beyond the basics, character wise. Like yeah I guess that would fuck up a guy. But his methods (working and making contracts with gods when especially as Alfonse he knows better than that??) would be inscrutable to me. But everything absolutely finally clicked when Alfonse made that gambit, playing to Letizia's personality and whatever preconceived notions she may have, that maybe Alfonse could find a weak spot in and take advantage of. Lif is doing the exact same thing. His judgement is maybe a little worse for wear on account of, well *gestures vaguely to all of him* but he's still very much doing The Same Thing.

LIKE. I'm def straying from my point which is. Alfonse isn't shy about having to resort to violence. It Is a resort. But if it has to be done, it will be done. Any damage control (such as Sharena's feelings -- she has CLEARLY been extremely upset these past chapters) can be resolved later. (This.... is also fascinating to me..... bc it's always been clear to me his loved ones are the people who ground him, who stop him from losing himself, from becoming cruel in his practicality and tendency for detachment. There Is his morality as well -- but his loved ones are a huge part in what keeps him kind.)

I guess what I'm really trying to say is. Hit me up next time Alfonse is playing 4D chess with the enemy or throwing himself in a ditch on purpose just to indulge his baby sister's current pet project. THOSE feel like standout examples of Alfonse Off The Shits (but still completely in character for him tbh), while like. The rest is just par for the course for him. Just another (especially traumatizing) Tuesday.

#i'm. vaguing and i am so sorry for commiting the sin of vaguing. #but i do want to make it clear i'm not actually mad or judgy that would be silly #but like that aspect of alfonse specifically is what draws me in so completely... #it's a fascinating study and also. feels like one extreme opposite to my own. #and it's actually really nice to have it be an extreme bc it's easy to pick out what tracks where it frays #and where it crosses a line and becomes hurtful and/or harmful for the parties involved (including the self) #like... i absolutely use both alfonse and sharena as autistic proxys. to help me conceptualize/recontextualize/process info. #things that don't come naturally to me or things that feel beyond me and out of my grasp. #which is to say alfonse's practicality is actually something that is sooooo personal to me LMFAOOO #which is why. i've got to tap the sign. he has ALWAYS been like this it is a HUGE CORE PART OF HIM‼️‼️‼️‼️ #his greatest strength his biggest flaw. ect. the reason why i'm constantly chewing on his arm. #WHATEVER..... #fe alfonse #again i do want to emphasize i'm not mad or judgy LMFAOO i'm just devastatingly autistic about him. #if anything the autism was just. aggro'd. you know how it is.

[somecunttookmyurl]

non-queer/gender boyfriend content incoming

rhys: *showing me an image on his fb feed that says 'autistic play is not inappropriate play'* what does this mean? inappropriate play?

me: autistic children will often play or interact with things differently to their neurotypical peers like... instead of building something with lego just sorting the blocks into size and colour or what have you and non-autistic adults see this as doing it "wrong" or not "appropriately" and try to stop it and force you to "play" how you are "supposed to". but there is nothing wrong with engaging in play differently as long as it isn't hurting someone, you're simply having fun in a way they don't understand. repeatedly trying to force autistic children to "play properly" isn't going to work it's just shitty and will make them feel bad because they don't understand what they're doing "wrong"

rhys: ohhhhh! is that why my mum would get frustrated with me for just posing my action figures on a shelf in cool ways and would try to get me to like. bash them together

me: yep! the "normal" way of playing with action figures is to act out scenes and make them interact with each other. but you had more fun arranging them nicely and looking at them.

rhys: i don't think she meant anything bad by it

me: not intentionally, no. she just didn't understand that is how you played and thought you just didn't know what you were doing and were confused

#i'm adhd not autistic #so forgive me if i'm incorrect on anything #but he's never been part of an accepting or informative neurodivergent community #so he's autistic but doesn't have any understanding or connection to that really you know? #only that he was in a special class at school with other kids who were autistic and he didn't like them #because they were loud and 'weird' and he didn't want to be that #he did not even know the term 'stim' until we started dating #and his ex of 7 years has an autistic brother like... #anyway again apologies if i mess this up at any point i am doing my best i'm just more connected than he is because of tumblr #i know adhd/asd is like 'well that venn diagram is basically a circle' but you know #also as a result of all this he has NO 'nd radar' which is funny #bc naturally everyone irl he vibes with is nd and i notice immediately like #you think you don't like other autistic people but i have news for you my love

[brittlebutch]

truly i’m so beyond insane about the Bill and Ted Musical song “Don't Surrender” that Bill sings when he thinks Ted got killed by the castle guard. i'm being so normal and okay about it tho i promise

#N posts stuff #look! i'm kind of insane about the whole album. Soldier's Heart and Future Dudes! especially also #but you have to know about me that i'm Eternally Haunted by that old version of the movie script where Bill - #before he realizes Ted isn't actually dead - calls HIMSELF a fag for mourning so hard #and so like. in the copies of the musical script we have the 'don't surrender' scene seems to have been omitted for whatever reason #but we know what scene it's for bc Linda Kay did an interview with the guy who wrote the thing and he told her it was that scene #so in my head like. not only is the song Alone enough to drive one to autistic shrimp emotions Beyond comprehension #but my brain superimposes that old movie script onto this song bc we Have no written scene for what it would look like musically #so in my head bill finishes That Song and then looks down at ted and calls himself a faggot for having sung it and i'm ...... just #it’s like. oughhhhhhhhhhhhhh dude i am LOOKINg at you i’m being so normal fuck #(<- he is not being even a LITTLE bit normal about it) #bnt