#he'll be fine! and i'm sorry for that-

[cosmicwhoreo]

tw: blood If you're not drawing your oc in pain for the fun of it, can you really call yourself an artist?

The cost of sophistication is being a little more "delicate" than one would care to acknowledge. Gold has all sorts of malfunctions and hiccups every now and then. at least one every 3 or 4 months. Usually minor tics that, at worst, he would need to hit his chest like a staticky box tv to get it up and working again. But there are other more... Violent outbursts that require a more involved hand... Either way, they can all be summed up as; unfun.

#playing with greyscale is FUN and good for lighting practice #cookie run kingdom #cookie run #crk #cw: blood #Tell the old man to take his pills (oil) #Gold Choco Cookie #cookie run oc #cookie oc #he'll be fine! and i'm sorry for that-

[starflungwaddledee]

he does this every single year 🍰🎉

#meta knight #king dedede #kirby #bandana waddle dee #starstruck dee #metadede #<- kind of? i guess it's implied but just in case bc i know some people like to avoid #sorry i am running late but i didn't forget him i promise!!!! happy birthday to my favourite blueberry #kirby and starstruck used their FAVOURITE confetti because they LOVE him but he isn't even going to eat it?!?!? smh... 🥺🥺🥺 #the caption was originally additional dialogue! it was starstruck worrying that he didn't like their gifts followed by #kirby saying “no it's fine he does this EVERY year.” i'm sure he'll eat them later; confetti not withstanding. #my art #my comics

[clowndensation]

the thing is roman is literally my primadonna girl my goodtime guy my empty husk of a man who's hollowed himself out to become a better receptacle for daddy's love. except daddy couldn't love him, because roman didn't do a good enough job scraping the last of his entrails out, so he had to go back in with a scalpal and a bucket, fake molars grinding against real ones, until all he's got left inside him are the pieces logan wanted him to keep.

but of course logan dies, and roman (hollow) is left with a hole that needs filling, and no idea what to fill it with. and he tries his family's love, but when has his siblings' love ever filled anything up? when has it done anything but hollow them all out even worse? and so he tries gerri's love, but he carved himself out wrong for that, and she won't fill him up anymore. and so he turns to the bloated corpse of his father, still warm, and he gorges himself on that.

and now roman (rotting) is finally something other than empty. and if every time he opens his mouth, he regurgitates logan roy, then all that means is that he gets to fill himself back up again afterwards. and roman roy (dying) would take the decaying carcass of his dad over the hollow failure of himself any day.

#SORRY for being a roman roy walking corpse enjoyer. i love when he's at his most desperate and least real. unfortunately. #anyways don't even worry about it. i'm sure he'll be fine #all this is okay and a good coping mechanism actually. he'll bounce back. you'll see. #succession

[felizusnavidad]

not swifties saying "stay away from her" because mr. hamilton got the album that taylor sent him? i'm a semi-retired swiftie and just saw a bunch of us talking about it. i'm sorry but we are in nooo position to be telling other people to be staying away from girlie 😭. i'm tired of the fandom and idc anymore, i'm saying all the things in my head - if i was a diehard lin manuel miranda fan, i'd be saying the same thing to her given her recent track record with both song quality and personal actions.

you know what? even from a relatively neutral attitude towards mr. hamilton, he seems to be doing great professionally and personally, so hats off to you sir. the person who sent you that album and her fans are all fucking messes rn don't even worry about it. so disappointed in us for being rude to other artists like olivia rodrigo or even miranda (he's a broadway guy right? he's not even direct competition) when it's all punching down.

honestly swifties being rude towards other celebrities is nothing new. i saw a lot of really nasty comments about beyonce & her new album, don't even get me started on olivia... you don't have to like their music, that's fine, but is it really that hard to at least be respectful?

as for lin, i know he has a lot of haters. but swifties calling him cringe may be the funniest thing ever... cringe is what i would call some of taylor's lyrics on her new album, but then swifties would say that "i don't understand her". or, better, "you hate a successful woman", well then, why do you hate on beyonce & olivia? do you also hate a successful woman?

i feel like everyday is getting worse & worse in this fandom. i'm really tired, you know. as someone who's been a swiftie for 15 years, i'm fucking done with all of this.

#i'm glad there are more of us here tho #“retired swifties” #always happy to see you guys here #also anon i'm sorry but mr hamilton literally killed me 😂 #i'm gonna call him that from now on #and i know he'll be fine but i just want swifties to stay away from him #that's all i'm asking for #lin manuel miranda #lmm #ts #ttpd #anon #i saved every letter you wrote me*

[loaflovesdoodling]

Since I can't really draw anything today, but I don't really wanna have the day off either, here's a little fic I wrote for @george228732's Fylass in Wonderland :D

(Well, it's not really a fic, per say, more like a oneshot, but, anyway)

(Context; this happens right after the finale, Ades asks for a couple minutes of alone time before joining the others downstairs to make dinner.)

"what if all that stuff the kid's saying is... even partially true...?"

-Pleiades closed the door behind him, staring into the mirror, muttering to himself.-

"is there actually another me? A soul almost identical to mine? Does he feel the same emotions I feel? Does he feel anger, remorse, madness, pride? And..."

-His gaze temporarily avoided the mirror before him, as he stared at his hands and paws.-

"...does that mean I'm a so-called 'symbol bearer'...? Is he immortal like me...?" -he wondered, seemingly hallucinating as if a diamond-shaped hole had perforated his right hand.-

" ...so if he's exactly like me, then.... his parents..? And... Dulciana...?? No... no.... I must not call her name in vain. Noone must ever hear about her." -he scolded himself, looking away and clenching his fists.-

"even then..." -he walked closer and closer to the mirror, facing it once again.-

"if that Pleiades were to 'shatter'... what would be of......"

-he gazed into his reflection wide-eyed as the mirror suddenly shattered, glass shards flying everywhere. That ruckus echoed throughout young Fylass' house, accompanied by a loud and distinct groan, then being followed by utter silence and the sound of blood dripping-

#DON'T WORRY HE'S NOT DEAD I SWEAR HELP 😭😭😭😭 #HE JUST GOT SOME TINY CUTS HE'LL BE FINE #HELP IF YOU WANNA TURN THIS INTO A RP GO AHEAD ::DDD #DON'T WANNA FORCE YOU THOUGH BESTIE DO WHAT YOU WANT HELPPPP 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 #WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH I'M SO SO SO SO SORRY WAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #tw blood #tw death mention #tw sharp objects

[markantonys]

Ok so Elayne didn't heal that wound did she? Like that's supposed to be hopefully just one of the unhealable wounds. I just hope they remember the wound gives Rand chronic pain that's super important

considering they make a HUGE point of showing how fucked up it still looks, yeah, i'm PRETTY SURE they didn't just forget about all that

#anonymous #answered #wot show spoilers #okay that was a cranky answer haha sorry it's 1am and i'm exhausted by rand stans freaking out about eeeeverything #i adore my boy too but freaking RELAX!!! he'll be fine!!! they know what they're doing!!!

[lucalicatteart]

Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 7: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

The winning option of yesterday's poll was that the adventurer should go on a 5 day journey to find the Innkeeper's weird brother who studies animals, and show him the Suspicious Egg….

~

The next morning he wakes early, buzzing with renewed purpose, and also minor back pain from sleeping on old potato sacks.. After a meager breakfast of more free leftover scraps, the Innkeeper stops him before he leaves, giving him a few extra supplies for the long journey, as she can tell he doesn't have much. He packs up and sets out onto the road once again, crumpled sketchy map in hand...

He has a fairly uneventful journey for the first day - waving at the occasional other travelers as they pass, cleaning his boots in a nearby pond, stopping to eat some dumplings whilst watching the sunset, and finally setting up a small tent a short ways off the main path, resting with his cat by a dim campfire until they both fall asleep......

The second day, however, does not start as smoothly.. Only a few hours further down the road, he's met with a large barricade, guarded by a group of what seems like elven soldiers from one of the larger surrounding cities of the area. Practicing his confidence, he puts on his best "brave face" (which to others, appears more as some sort of pained wince, like he might have something in his eye), shakily striding right up to the authority figures he is definitely not afraid of.

"Halt, traveler! You cannot pass."

He sways slightly, struggling to keep his wobbly legs under control, "OH, y-yEAH, ssorry, I was-, hh, I was just walking, ~o-out for a stroooll~, haha, so I .. uh.. o-okay. That's.. okay. But, uh.. could, can.. euh.. C-can I ask why? like... why the, uh... blocking off.. of ... the um.. the-"

"Unfortunately, we are not at liberty to disclose any information on the nature of this current road closure. Our sole duty is to maintain security of the barrier."

"hhHeh, ye.. eAh, for sure, I-I get that.. Duty is.. really so... important in ... today's world.. gotta, um.. do the duties.. or, uh.. .. yeah, but.. so, uhhh... wh-Do you know.. maybe, uh... H-how long you'll, like... be here? guarding... and such...??"

"We'll be here as long as we need to be here."

"...O-okay.. but, like.. uh... any,,.... time estimate? hahahehhh?? like, uh.. a day, or... two, or um...??"

"This matter does not concern you, traveler. Move along."

"Aoh, yeahgh, I.. totally.. totally.. it, uh.. Well.. but it kind of does though,, right? B-because I do, in fact, actually have to go down that road at some p-point sssoo, um,... uh.. I-"

"I said move along."

The guard abruptly takes a step forward, causing The Adventurer to yelp as if he'd been hit, tripping over his own feet and scrambling off on hands and knees, lunging into bushes near the rocky roadside.. After exchanging a confused glance, the guards both shrug, resuming their stoic positions at the barrier.

The Adventurer watches from the uncomfortable safety of some berry brambles, surveying the area at a distance and desperately trying to work out how he can still get where he's trying to go. The map given to him by the Innkeeper is pretty straightforward, not showing alternate paths. Based on his primary map, he could maybe think of a few detours, but he's anxiously unfamiliar with the area... How should he proceed?

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Additional Details - (I decided whenever he gets new items or goals or something, I'll list them at the end just to keep track)

items + to inventory (from the Innkeeper): 2 lunchboxes of vegetable dumplings, 2 canteens of water, a box of tea, one rope, 1 pouch of dried meat, 4 candles, a hand-drawn map

main goal: get to the abandoned castle ruins to see the rare animal specialist about the egg

#paventure posting #polls #choose your own adventure #SORRY this took so long. I still want to do this daily or every other day lol. I just had a lot going on the past few days #the story tidbit of this one is slightly longer again because you need spaces to break up dialogue and etc. but much shorter #than the other one still and pretty concise. I tried to leave out a lot of detail and just give the bare minimum again lol #Hopefully his speaking style isn't too grating also ghbjhb.. I'm more familiar with writing dialogue for like.. people to say out loud so #to me I'm always trying to hear it in my head and write eveything exactly how it would be spoken. and to me it sounds fine #if you act it in the exact voice I'm envisioning and have a distinct speaking style where you pause or drag #out words in a specific way - like with particualr cadence and comedic timing - it sounds fine #I'm just not sure if that translates to text as well lol #But he doesn't actually talk often. the past two times have been exceptions since he keeps running into people #And he'll have to talk if he ever actally makes it to the Innkeeper's brother. But most obstacles on the road #are probably prettyy easily dialogue free #ANYWAY... #Love his dramatics.. Imagine if you just take one step towards someone and they scream and throw themselves #onto the ground and run away gjhhjbj #the cat just leisurely trotting over to catch up with him because they're not actually scared #anyway.. ! day 7.. that's like a whole week! except it's been over a week since sometimes it takes me like 2 days lol

[running-in-the-dark]

oh! my nephew stayed here last night, and he told me that his grandma's partner - the most annoying, conceited, boring man I have ever met - said he doesn't like it that I always contradict him :)

I've met this guy maybe... 5-10 times total? and every time he manages to say something even more stupid than the last! it's almost impressive! like, he thinks he knows everything. and no one ever says anything, they just let him talk because it's not worth it (I know that because almost every one of them has told me this).

but I get too pissed off when it's something I care about. and I'm an adult now, I can talk back to shitty adults, I don't give a fuck.

anyway, I just think it's absolutely hilarious that he feels that way and now I'll do it even more often :) it's very fun when I ask him what his sources are for what he's saying and he just stammers some bullshit and tries to say that's not the point (pretty sure it's 100% telegram and tik tok, because that's the kind of useless old guy he is).

#some fun recent examples include... my niece gave back my rainbow high doll. he saw it and commented that it's disgusting that dolls #sexualise little girls like that because of crop tops and high heels and makeup and garter belts. what the fuck man. no one is sexualising #anything except YOU #that's a fashion doll. meant to be like 15. wearing fun pretty clothes and colourful makeup. if you look at that and think oh that's #too sexy. then I'm sorry but that's YOUR problem #(and garter belts??? it was some decoration hanging off her skirt what the fuck.) #he didn't like it when I said that no one ever says toys for boys have to be good role models :) #got realllly pissy when I wouldn't stop :) like hello dude you know there's something you can do if you don't want anyone to respond to your #fucking bullshit right? it's called THINKING. just keep that shit in your head #I'll keep doing this until he no longer wants to say dumb shit when I'm around :) (so. forever probably. but he's old he'll die before me so #it'll be fine). #oh and one time he tried to convince us that regular people in the UK are better off since Brexit. hello? dude you don't speak a damn word #of English. you barely know how to order a drink or something. how the fuck would you know #it drives me insane. he couldn't be any more mediocre and stupid if he tried. yet he thinks he's the greatest person ever #can't fucking stand him #and men like him in general. (yes it is only ever men. women like my mother are similar but they're never this fucking sure of their shitty #opinions.) #(in fact they usually give up way too easily. in my experience at least.)

[reddiamondyeet]

Typical Damon-Manfred bonding time.

Also here's a very small sleeping Manfred I drew while trying to do work.

#ace attorney #reddiamond draws #manfred von karma #damon gant #I'm very proud of the hot girl moment one though #fav #tw blood #drawn but I'm getting better at it #also sorry damon looks very off a few of his defining characteristics also happen to be things I cannot draw for the life of me #I had to take away his beard :((( I was able to give him stubble though. #for my first time drawing Damon I would say I didn't actually do too bad #tw eyestrain #lol manfred looks like he's about to pass out on that stretcher #don't worry about him he'll be fine he's gotten over worse - Damon Gant‚ probably #Also decided to change up the eye style for Damon so it'd fit him more #anyway yeah I put way more tags here than I meant to #fav fav fav #t two tool #feeling good (like i should)

[vincentmatthews]

Therapist: What do we say when something traumatic happens?

V: Wow, that's some spicy ✨️Character Development✨️

Therapist: NO-

#Just give him a cookie a juice box and a kiss on the cheek and he'll be fine #It's not trauma It's ✨️Character Development✨️ #I bet Ker could suck the depression out of him- #Yet another reason why I shouldn't be allowed to do tags #Bless y'all who actually read these tags and I'm so sorry xD #cyberpunk 2077 #male v

[youreamonocoque]

"at least with space you can figure things out and maybe it'll be easier" yeah that's not worked, it's got worse.

#i said on twitter i'm counting down the days until he's back in the country #it's pathetic #at this point i'll take anything i can get from him #don't even want a hug (altho would be nice) #just want to be able to spend time with him #it's so so so stupid how much i like him #and i know that it's so stupid to hold out hope that he'll have changed his mind when he gets back #i'm just setting myself up for even more heartbreak #oversharing on this fine day #sorry i'll shut up about this at some point #i just don't want to annoy my friends by continually going on about him lmao

[bcneheaded]

@ artemis when people compliment his appearance like 'oh you're so handsome!' or along those lines in terms of physical appearance immediately thinking you're absolutely FULL of shit and immediately laughing dryly like 'haha :) mhm... yes... how kind.' but not in an accepting the compliment way NOR in a self-deprecating one, but rather in a (subtly) bitchy, dismissive one. like.... listen.... He KNOWS what he looks like and it is NOT attractive in the way people say it like it is? If he didn't wear his suits and hold himself confident and like, elegantly, no one would compliment him that way, surely! That's how he thinks anyway. ALSO there's the whole... 'I'm literally wearing a skull over my face along with several other human bones that cover my body... you can't even SEE what I bloody look like--'

#( ooc ) #( tbd ) #LIKE DONT GET ME WRONG #he'll take the compliment and be polite about it!! sometimes he might even be flattered. But most the time #he feels its very superficial and doesn't care for it JHDHDGJDF #@ anyone who gets close to him & discovers progressively just how bitchy an old man he can be when he gets VERY comfy enough w them to #let go of the Humble Shopkeeper persona he exudes constantly: ...... I'm so sorry. #i say this but tbh he's fine. he is. he's not that bad. but jgjgdjfdgfg #i was gonna be like 'haha man has issues yk' but hes . literally a demon so i mean yeaH.... HE VERY WELL JUST MAY... FJFJSDF #anyone: you're so good looking! #artemis internally: shut the fUCK up-- // vs artemis externally: ahaha #thats very kind. thank you! :) #I'm sure theres some people that hes close to that he'd take the compliment from and feel they meant it in a non superficial way tho ofc ! #but jjfjgdf in general

[nicholas-wolfwood]

@newsecured​

❝   Did I offend you so bad that you're acting this way? I'm sorry if it's about our last argument.   ❞   This sounded like the most plausible explanation. Why else would Wolfwood be so distant to her? They've been travelling together for a while. There's no way she's that forgettable. It has to be an act to treat her like a stranger, right?

For now she needed to get him back to normal. Should she just go along & answer the question? Maybe that would give her some idea what exactly caused him to react like that. Was there something he wanted to achieve by getting this answer? Hands crossed in front of her.

❝   It's me, Meryl? Meryl Stryfe?   ❞   There was a moment of pause, before idea came up. Could it be that he wants her to use the nickname he's using for her? He knew she wasn't enjoying being called that. If it's all that he wanted, then she's absolutely kicking him later, but for now with a bit of groan,   ❝   you know, little lady?   ❞

It was the usual, somehow a fight had broken out and Vash and Wolfwood had jumped into the fray. Vash’s stupid ‘do not kill’ rule was a handicap in and of itself, the undertaker taking a good number of bullets after he pulled his shot to avoid a lethal blow. Irritating. It had been a good thing he’d gotten separated from the others, ducking behind a building for cover to take one of the Eye’s vials. In a stroke of good luck (or bad luck, depending on how you looked at it), as he’d paused just long enough to bite through the glass, one of the stray shots hit him- through his head. It was sheer luck the drug was already in his system, able to heal it just as fast as the rest of his wounds, but he still had a bit of a headache.

Head still fuzzy, he returned to look for the others once the fighting had stopped, only to be confronted by a stranger. The girl was claiming to know him, but he was pretty sure he’d never seen her before. Wolfwood looked around, wondering where this sassy lost child had come from.

“’Little Lady’, huh? Heh, it sure suits ya!” He tilted his head, giving it a scratch in confusion (bad move, it was still a bit tender). “Fraid I still dunno what you’re talkin’ ‘bout. Probably got me confused with someone else.”

#omg I'm sorry this took so long! D: #also; he'll be fine #minor complication #v: stampede #newsecured

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

i dont know much about trigun but i think it would be silly if vash and knives (they are brothers?) or vash and wolfwood (lovers? enemies? idk) were drawn like that barbie and ken mugshot meme. From what you post Mr Vash Stampede just seems like ken. little silly guy

YOU HAVE THE MOST PERFECT TIMING WITH THIS EVER I'm literally in the middle of drawing a picture of knives and vash that looks like this.

theyre brothers your honor

#i would draw the whole meme but i simply do not have the energy for it tonight #the phrase mr the stampede has been stuck in my head all night hehe u just reminded me of it #drawing vashs tristamp hair is soooo painful to me. i miss the spikey. unfortunately i am doing a style swap thing with this so i have to #sigh </3 #hiiii louis this made me smile hehe thank u #also ive seen like 3 ppl do that meme with vashwood already so the fact that u included knives makes me happy :] #(<< guy who is having a category 12 emotional about millions knives moment tonight) #theyre BROTHERS. theyre brothers..... #i love the idea that after canon knives calms down and stops trying 2 kill everybody bc he realizes #oh i dont want to commit genocide actually. i just need therapy. #but like. he and vash are still both wanted criminals because. gestures at the events of trigun. all that #so its just. silly antagonistic brother adventures. i keep thinking abt that one drawing someone did of them comparing wanted posters #its so silly and its so important to meeeeeee. #knives just needs to smoke some weed and play Minecraft for a few hours and he'll calm down. #hes just got undiagnosed autism and a metric ton of childhood trauma. its fine #sorry i kind of went off on u there. I'm having trigun emotions tonight. if u couldn't tell #making this unrebloggable because its a wip <3 sorry kings #my sketches are sooooo ugly . u get the idea tho #asks #friends!!! #din0draws #shrimp fried rice #also. other file names blurred bc its a spoiler for another ask I'm answering soon. lmao

[fatespins]

sorry but the line "where is the line between awakening and self destruction?" has got me acting some kinda way about riley. like he is awakening in regards to the seraph bullshit but he's not awake enough to recognize that it's kind of destroying him. he has gaps in his memory and can't explain that, and if he exists as ry'ahleh for too long he aches and can't put his finger on why. ry'ahleh is consuming him from the inside out, starting with his very soul, but he doesn't know this and even if he did know this what would he do about it? isn't it his destiny? isn't he able to help people better if he gives himself to the celestial? does riley really matter in the grand scheme of things -

#ooc #riley canon #i'm fine I'M FINE i'm fine #i just put my blorbos in situations and hope for the best. #idk what riley's ending is. if he ceases to exist and becomes ry'ahleh #or tries to find some kind of balance to maintain himself and the celestial at the same time #idk. he'll work it out eventually #sorry for rileyposting so much on main (lying) i'm just really trying to get a handle on him as a character before i start playing him #which happens next week lmao

[army-of-bee-assassins]

so i've identified as autistic for a long ass time now and there are some times when i'm like "hmmm but am i really?? like i don't have x issue that is pretty typical" or "well i do have y issue but it's pretty mild/not a big deal" but then there are also other times when i'm interacting with (ostensibly) neurotypical people and i'm like "oh i'm fucking Autistic™ you and i Do Not communicate the same way."

this has been happening a lot with my landlord/roommate. she really does not state her roommate expectations at all and i think just expects me to know them, which like that's fine i'm a pretty courteous roommate so it hasn't been too much of an issue. but there have already been a few times where she's texted me like "hey actually can you do x please because we share that responsibility" like you know you could just list everything out and tell me at the start my guy. she's been nice enough about it though and it hasn't been that many things so i don't think it's that big a deal.

anyway what ACTUALLY precipitated this post tho was another thing with her today. so she's been getting the patio re-tiled. today they were working on it but she had to go to work. i had class from 1-4. she texted me this morning saying "hey when the tiling guys leave please send me a picture of the patio." i said sure but then when i had to leave for class, they were still working. so i texted her to say as much and then drove to class. i saw once i got there that she had replied (pretty quickly, actually, but i had been driving by then) asking me to just take a pic of the patio anyway with them there. i explained that i didn't see her text until getting to school. she then asked if the patio had looked okay and i answered honestly that i really hadn't looked at it. cut to this afternoon, we both got home around the same time shortly after the tiling guys left and she's really fucking upset because apparently they did a shit job. idk personally i still haven't looked at it. but she was near tears. and she didn't lash out at me or anything but she did say something like "this is why you always have to watch the work as it's done" (using "you" generally) and i feel like she's probably kinda pissed at me for not sending her a picture of the patio. but i straight up had no idea why she wanted a picture (she never stated any reason at all in her texts). if she had just communicated to me her concerns i would've made more of an effort to get one for her. i'm not a mind reader!! if you tell me to do something for what i perceive to be no reason at all i'm probably not gonna put much effort into it. if you explain to me why it's important that it gets done then i'll do it.

#(fun fact i tried to write out most of the above in the tags but it was obvs insanely long even for me) #anyway like i can assume if someone asks me to do something they have a reason for it usually #but that sure doesn't mean i know what it is or how important/unimportant it is #also okay i haven't looked at the patio yet #but i'm such a fucking bad judge of what ''looks bad'' i imagine i will think it looks just fine #i feel like this with my dad too he'll be like 'omg this looks so trashy' about some perfectly innocuous thing #like a scratch on a car or mismatching greenery #like dude it looks fucking fine!!! #and i think with this sorta 'watch them work' thing in this situation #there's a lot of that just straight up boomer racism/classism where they're always assuming that the worker is being lazy or cheating them #anyway i guess i made this post bc like i have a weird feeling of like maybe i should feel guilty but i straight up don't #and i'm feeling very autistic about it all #sorry for the fucking essay #j.txt