#hes a very no thoughts guy i think [it is autism]

[mobblespsycho100]

which one’s toshiro and whys he autistic?

[ID: full body colored illustration of toshiro from the dungeon meshi manga. /End ID]

THIS FREAKIN GUY!!!! anyway

[ID: anonymous tumblr ask: "would def love to hear ur autistic shuro thoughts". /End ID]

awesome. rant under the cut because it will be long

So before we understand why Toshiro is the way he is we must first understand two things abt him:

1. his household situation is a very traditional clan of warriors type situation. his father is very strict and he left his homeland to go to the Island and explore the dungeon to train and become a warrior to be someone suited as the family head

2. Eastern and Western cultures of respect/propriety are different, and Ryoko Kui highlights it well even in her fantasy world.

With that in mind, heres some bullet point rapid fire thoughts that consume my current state of dunmeshi brain:

Toshiro has an avoidant personality. He fears upsetting others due to his upbringing, and rarely tells others how he feels not because he thinks they would simply understand him but because he doesn't want to seem rude and imposing / cause offense to others especially since he's not in his own homeland / hes a foreigner that should respect the land's customs, not his own wishes.

Setting boundaries is hard for everyone, but especially autistic (and some other ND, like those with Avoidant Personality Disorder) people. Those with ASD, at least in my experience, don't want to be isolated from others. So they mask.

They mask what? their desires. their true selves. their opinions. their discomfort. all for the sake of pleasing others (who are often neurotypical)

With that in mind, suddenly, what Maizuru said abt him as a child makes sense. Due to his strict upbringing, Toshiro had to more or less hide his preferences and force himself to adapt to the rigid constraints of his culture and the pressure to be the next family head, this responsibility is his burden to bear and he cannot be someone who expresses his selfish desires instead of focusing on being a strong warrior and leader

"Why did he say he hate Laios and that it should've been obvious that he disliked/found Laios' treatment of him uncomfortable??" BECAUSE IT SHOULD BE OBVIOUS. I'm not going to write off Laios' autism/autistic coding, but its baffling (note: definitely racism and bias for white autistic ppl) to me that a lot of ppl don't see Toshiro's perspective and straight up ignores it. This is a lack of wanting to be rude by speaking up that is based on culture difference on Toshiro's part, and straight up ignorant of his microagressions/racism and lack of self awareness on Laios' end. They were both right, they were both wrong too. This is a complicated conflict that cannot be boiled down to simple ableist/the NT vs ND divide. There's something called . intersectionality. Which brings me to the next point

Toshiro never actually hated Laios. He found him uncomfortable, yes. But he didn't /hate/ him, he was speaking out because he's had enough!!! he's done tolerating Laios' racist bullshit, and he's done following the arbitrary Eastern rules of respecting others and not being rude!!! He. Wants. Laios. To Understand. What. He. Was. Feeling. Because he just had enough!!!!! alright!!! he's at his limit hes at his breaking point, the one he loves is now probably beyond saving, and this is a good time as any to break the news to Laios that he thinks that Laios is impulsive and doesn't fully understand how his actions have consequences!!! Hes right abt this. His feelings on this is valid, just as valid as Laios'

General autistic traits I find from Toshiro: his admiration of Falin's indifference towards insects ("woah shes so brave and gentle!! just like me, fr!!!"), His lack of regard for his own needs and wants (needing to sleep and eat and drink) because he was super focused on saving Falin, His lack of like drastic expression changes, his discomfort with physical touch when it's initiated without consent (see: Laios hugging ppl extra bonus art by Ryoko Kui), his manner of like speaking short and concise, people pleasing tendencies, his like quick way of combat, rule upholder/routine following enjoyer, he seems distant from others even those he consider family not cuz of like any terrible reason but hes just. someone who enjoys his own time alone like. yeah

aannnnndd. thats abt it? i think.

Big part of this is definitely me relating to Shiro as an Asian (specifically chinese indonesian) person who is probably Autistic lmao. I hope this brings more insight on why Toshiro is actually one of the silliest and epiccest dunmeshi characters ever I love him

#asks #dungeon meshi #toshiro nakamoto #dunmeshi #L 👁️‍🗨️🌫️ ! #shuro dunmeshi #(help) #idk if he has tags. does he have fans here. pls say he does

[drdemonprince]

I've noticed a pattern in anticapitalist books I read (specifically I'm talking abt Mark Fisher here, in Capitalist Realism). They do this great anticapitalist analysis etc and then go on to critique their students? and sometimes it's a bit ableist? it's like all the critical thought goes out of the window and they cannot understand the situation because for once suddenly they are in the authoritative position. It always gives me this "I don't understand these kids, back in my day-" vibe, and I see this with lecturers at university too. like Mark Fisher maybe we can think outside the box about your student who "needs" headphones to focus in class "even though no music is playing". and maybe it's not to do with the "Matrix"(????) I'm well aware this was written in 2008 but it's weird that I see this pattern continue today. Not to mention Mark Fisher took part in some ableist studies, and was a guy with questionable intentions on occasion.

it's like you Just said that reducing labour is good why are you calling your students lazy, that's so unprofessional and privileged. I wonder of coincidence that he is anti-meds when his right wing, pro-eugenics, accelerationist friend was addicted to amphetamines.

Or even just the amount of people who have written books about laziness and anticapitalism (excluding you) and just saying the most contradictory shit ever?? or not following their own ideology???

Anyway, I wonder if, when writing Laziness Does Not Exist, you came across any of this and were equally as baffled.

Materialism is just *so* true that high-status academics don't have a vested class interest in seeing their student struggles as legitimate or in recognizing the struggles of disabled people in general. For many edgy academic leftists having the correct opinions is just a way to flex one's intellectual status, not a lived experience they give a shit about. I'm not shitting Fisher in particular in saying this, it's more that it's a really widespread problem in the culture of these kinds of (very white, very academic, very cishet) leftists communities. You see the same kind of thing among some of the Chapo stan types, too, you don't have to be specifically an academic to do it -- lots of people throwing around the r-slur and flexing on how much they have read and doing fuck all for the oppressed people around them. I tend to find it especially common among people who inherited leftism from their (often academic) parents? Whereas leftist communities populated by Black & brown anarchists and working class people tend to fare a lot better in this particular respect.

Note that I'm not saying a person's identities are a guarantee of them being any more radical -- there's lots of liberals lurking in our midsts of all identities for instance -- more that someone's orientation toward power tells you a lot. and unfortunately there is an approach to leftism that puts a lot of stock in either institutional power via the academy, or in a kind of soft power of intellectual authoritativeness that tends to punish anyone who is supposedly less well read, less intelligent, lazy, needs disability accommodations, has trauma triggers, or what have you.

The simple answer is that power and privilege obscures other people's challenges from you, and the desire to preserve one's power (be it actually institutional academic authority or just the status of the person who supposedly knows the most in the room) leads to a lot of oppressive behavior. a lot of these guys that you're talking about believe in communism sincerely but they don't have humility, they believe themselves to be superior to most everyone else. and they tend to be white guys from wealthy families who either do not have any disabilities of their own, or they have the undiagnosed intj mastermind rational flavor of autism that makes you feel incredibly alienated from others but interpret that alienation as a sign of your intellectual superiority. (i had this type but i got better. a little)

[elred001]

(This may be uncomfortable for some people. Please be very careful and proceed with discretion. Hugs and kisses for everyone)

I really don't think you guys understand how obsessed I am with BuckTommy. A month ago I had no more than 100 9-1-1 bookmarks in ao3 and now I'm over 350, all the new ones being about them.

I'm autistic, I have ADHD, I'm asexual and coming to that realization was one of the most precious and liberating moments of my life. Lists are everything to me, they are the definers of my life. I have a hard time understanding social subtleties and metaphorical language, and my biggest drawback that autism brought me was my incompetence to regulate and understand emotions. Mine or others. So I had this huge list of what emotional attraction and/or interest is supposed to feel like, and how my body is supposed to react around those I'm attracted to or like or love, so it was such a mess and an absolute pain that every time someone touched me intimately it felt like ants were running across my skin and biting into my flesh. And I cried a lot about it, and I screamed and I had fits of anger that I didn't understand at all and my parents hugged me to calm me down but that only made it worse because, tact. Touch. Awful. I made myself do things I hated because I thought it was normal and I hated myself for feeling bad about it. Those were hard times.

A couple years ago I went on a sexualities research binge and went down an ADHD rabbit hole trying to learn everything I could because I was so tired of feeling that way, and that's when I found out.

Learning about asexuality felt like magic, it felt like freedom. It felt like crying after years of putting up with it all. It felt like relief. It all made sense and the world opened up to me, and I felt like I was meeting myself for the first time. It was beautiful.

Of course, then came the moments of panic because, how was I going to tell my mom that I am asexual? Or, am I even asexual or do I just want attention? And then the famous "so how do I know I love someone romantically if I don't really want anything physical with them?"

Where am I going with all this? Well, I'm obsessed with the way the series and Oliver have portrayed the realization. The idea that discovering something completely new, and it's actually not as new as you thought, brings more than just fear. Bring freedom. Bring understanding. Brings an "Oh" moment that feels down to your bones and penetrates your soul, and you can never come back from that moment because everything feels like you finally woke up and the whole world opened its arms to you.

And it's something sweet. It is something very delicate, soft, hopeful and so, so precious. And Buck, Evan, is experiencing it all for the first time with a man who is soft to him, sweet, considerate. He is learning about himself from someone kind, so he has the opportunity to have his "Oh" moment and feel freedom, because that freedom is being given to him by someone who knows what it's like to feel imprisoned. So nothing is rushed. So everything is calm and full of understanding. So Evan can feel emotions. And feel good throughout the entire process.

So yes, I am obsessed with them both and I love them and I want them so much that they last a long time and that Tommy stays.

#evan buckley #tommy kinard #ao3 #911 on abc #bucktommy #bi buck #tevan

[qiinamii]

kermit debt

#YESYES YES I FINALLY HAVE THE VIDEO INCLUDED IN ONE SMOOTH POST i love tumblr #the earliest xiao shitpost ever that sparked my lil spree #hes a very no thoughts guy i think [it is autism] #qiiarts #lumine #traveler #nahida #xiao #and kermit in a basin #it wasnt captioned like this but then a priceless reply said kermit debt and its become my label for his karma its the xiao agenda ever

[mulletmitsuya]

random tokrev rant ahead !!

when i first started this blog it was going to be for random shitposts, groupchats once in a while, and mostly tokrev analysis but i was so scared of discourse that i just chose to do the funnier stuff 😭. when tokrev was at it's peak i'd be reading 20k+ words of analysis and it was so fun!! but i felt like i couldn't word what i wanted to say properly so that discouraged me but i wish i'd ignored that because there would have been at least one person who understood what i was saying yk?

#anyway #i used to have a tagging system but i forgot so that's my bad #and the thing about discourse is that you could give a person all the canonical facts of the story and they'll still find a way to pretend #that they're right and i personally cannot handle that #i take things very seriously and someone thinking they won a argument when they didn't would make me rip my hair out #so maybe my blog not going into that direction was good for my metal health #i feel like fandom interactions always end up as fights for some reason #why can't two opinions co-exist #let's discuss and have fun why we gotta tell each other to kill ourselves😭 #like i saw a very well thought out and written theory about sanzu having autism or something along those lines #and a comment was like “stop trying to give him excuses he's a terrible villain and he's just crazy blah blah blah” #whole time this person's an izana apologist #like😐 #i love both these characters but a lot of characters in tokrev are more complicated than just a “crazy villain” #and it seems like they understand that about izana so???? #ok i'm done now i hope you guys get what i mean #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers manga #tokrev

[the-gene-mile]

rewatched the premier definitely super legally and just look at them

#these tags get. very rambly. so expand at ur own risk i'm just kinda yelling here #bob's burgers #ur insane if u think i'm tagging every character #i HAVE to draw gene in this outfit proper u don't get it i just love when they let him go full music man #this premier made me clinically insane i don't think u understand they're consuming my thoughts like brain eating amoeba #catastrophic autism levels rn #god rest the poor souls at uni that'll ask how my weekend was #genuinely surprised they managed to get jjr. zeke. rudy. marshmallow. AND fischoeder in the premier #like they got ALL our fav little guys in here huh #no courtney or alex tho i'm fine. no it's fine that's fine #love how gene just started lying down at some point #lil bro did NOT care abt the chores he was invested in the narrative #there were some rly great bits in this ep too #gene just being dramatic. 'hey guys look at pepperoni the pony'. every time fischoeder was on screen #v strong premier i am clearly very normal abt it #ngl i just made this post to archive all these screenshots for myself bc i love the costumes here

[pipskippy]

reading dungeon meshi for the first time wheeeeeeee!!!!

#pip speaks #dungeon meshi spoilers #very abridged first thoughts #: #(i’m on chapter 12) #i like the main characters all well enough laios is very autism and he and falin remind me of beat and rhyme (blonde siblings where the olde #r brother is a little insensitive and the younger sister is very kindhearted and also (!!!!!!!!TWEWY SPOILERS) gets eaten by a thing. #TWEWY SPOILERS OVER anyways lots of respect for senshi and my intuition is great bc i assumed chi #chilchuck was not in fact a child and just a type of creature that looks young #although i guess maybe he’s a teenager but i feel like everyone is at least 20s by human standards? #marcille very failgirl energy. i like her hair and outfit. i like everyone’s outfits…i love the unabashed love of fantasy tropes… #but also the rly clever creative creatures like the shellfish armor??? that’s so awesome i’ve never seen anything like that. well i hvent re #read or seen that much fantasy….lol #i like how kui introduces the characters by showing their strengths/specialties and weaknesses and how they learn to work together. its cute #and effective and fun :) joys of writing #oh also this is just me being extremely biased about alphonse but laios always reminds me of him just because blond guy + armor + autistic + #carries a little book of stuff to eat in his armor + looks forward to eating etc. lol #speaking of fma i wonder if the leather shoe on the plate is a fma reference about ed and ling eating ed’s boot. or if #i just think about that any time someone mentions that you can eat leather

[goldiipond]

have i posted this don autism moment here yet. hes stimming <3

#skye's ramblings #ithink abt this panel a lot i love his smile . little guy <3 #he is nowhere near ray levels of erratic hand movements (no one is.) but this and that one bit in ep 2 are good don autism moments #the autism hc for him started as pure projection but tbh the more i thought abt it. yeah theres some canon support #most obvious being how much he struggles with emotional regulation. 'inappropriate' reactions like him laughing before his meldown in ep 6 #and of course how easily he cries from. any intense emotion. he is so important to me #actualy one thing abt don i think is interesting is his relationship w physical touch bc. don is very very physically affectionate #howevef there is a moment where hayato hugs him and he is. very unsure how to handle it. he also doesn't really know hayato at this point #so he could possibly only like physical touch if he's close to the person or if he initiates it. hesjust like me for real .. #and yah basicaly don is autism adhd combo swag to me <3 it is 2am goot night

[raspberryjellybrains]

I've noticed that some fans within the Sandman are laboring under the mistaken conclusion that Dream doesn't understand certain aspects of human culture, and that this is somehow a shortcoming that he not only has but comes into conflict with. This is mistaken on two counts.

1. Humans aren't the only intelligent species across the universe. There are thousands, stretching from the birth of the first star to death of the last, and his purview is over all of them. He is THE Dream of the Endless, embodiment of all that is not and will never be, and has rather a lot of cultures to be keeping track of considering the number that exist even within one species. So there's a lot to sort through in that facsimile of a noggin any time a character refers to some charming aspect of life, but he sorts through it with such promptness and ease (because that's his job) that we forget he's sorting through anything at all. Now, we can go into the blurry mechanics of aspects/facets/manifestations of a greater whole and how those exist separately yet as one being, but while it's an interesting path to stroll at a different time, that's not what we're here to do.

2. I touched on it before, but Dream does know this stuff somewhere in the vast web of minds that he consists of. Sometimes he acts like he doesn't for his own sanity (so to speak), sometimes for the sake of the individual trying to relate things to him, and sometimes because it's more Dramatic. He knows culture and etiquette and invention, he utilizes this knowledge to be the most politest little gentleman but he also uses it to be a cunt. If there is something he's said that's in poor taste, consider what is going on from Dream's perspective. Is he mad? Is he scared? Is he feeling petty? The answer is probably yes to one of these. When he's upset, he is extraordinarily insensitive because most of his energy goes to not committing horrifying atrocities barely conscienable by the waking mind seeing as how he is a cunt. When he's scared he puffs himself up and acts a cunt. When he's feeling petty he is, you guessed it, intentionally being a cunt. If he doesn't seem to know a certain taboo, he either doesn't care enough to, or does and is intentionally breaking it.

FINALLY!! Sometimes he does know and doesn't grasp for... reasons unclear. For example: he knows about chimneys, but doesn't grasp their significance. Or when people use colloquial phrases and he takes it as literally as possible. He understands humans, just not the experience.

TL;DR—Dream knows what everyone is talking about. He just doesn't care or is being intentionally obtuse when he doesn't seem to, for the most part, and when not applicable he still knows and just doesn't fully grasp it. He is very smart insomuch that intelligence can be measured among endless, he's just also very naive and petty.

#the thing to know about dream is that hes a silly rabbit #he is a bitch. he has autism. these things exist separately to each other and the nature of his being. #which is so important to know #during brief lives destiny remarks that if dream doesnt want to think about or remember it he doesnt. if he doesnt care he doesnt know. #which applies... very broadly and explains a lot of things. #but also #felt #morpheus dreamofthendless is the guy of all time #hes fascinating. has seven bajillion mental illnesses. i want to put him under a slide microscope. #this was a ramble and a half #i have more if interest presents itself. ive thought about him way too much. i know so much about him. #dream of the endless #the sandman

[emile-hides]

You requesteth Fairy Tail asks? I have arrived to inquire about my favorite, my love, Laxus. Tell me about him.

Shaking you shaking you You ask about Laxus my Grand Son your favorite guy you are obligated to come back and tell me your thoughts on him as well please

My favorite thing about Laxus and the thought I always have first when I think about him is when we first meet him, and really every time we see him, he's wearing Jeans.

I don't know why this stuck with me so hard, maybe it's because it was Season 1 and up until we meet Laxus and see him in full we're very much in a Fantasy Medieval vague Europe kind of setting? There's Taverns and people ride in Carriages and there's talk of Dragons and Monsters like it is very much solid in it's aesthetic spare like. The Gun Magic.

And then Laxus just showed up in skinny jeans and his beats by dre and his pimp coat and we were all just supposed to go along with that break in aesthetic. The Mangaka knew ONE cool guy outfit in 2009 and that's just what Laxius' fashion is now it's too late to back up.

I think Laxus is gay. I think this is something he himself didn't know until Makarov banished him from Fairy Tail and he started traveling. It wasn't the only thing he realized about himself while just kinda vibing around, but it was the one he looked at and went "This seems like a conversation for later." packed up, and then forgot to unpack until he was back in the guild and around Freed a lot.

Not because he liked Freed that way (yet) but just because Freed is an openly gay man and being near him again made Laxus kind of step back and have basically a second awakening, which prompted him to just. Ask Freed what it's like being Gay? Freed, who thought he was doing a stand up job hiding in the closet from Laxus (he was not), immediately choked on his drink and almost died on the spot.

This gets stupid away from canon because sometimes canon deserves it. Here's all my headcanons on how the Lacrima implanted in Laxus works.

Laxus was born with no natural magical energy, a birth defect that almost always results in death of the infant. It's unknown why this happens and is still being researched, but one of the cures, though with just as high a fatality chance as doing nothing at all, is implanting a Lacrima of a pure type (Fire, Water, Ice, Sky/Air, Earth, Thunder/Lighting, Light, or Dark/Shadow) into the baby to artificially give them enough Magic Energy to survive and live, so long as they don't use too much of it.

You see not having a Natural Source of Magic Energy also prevents Laxus from absorbing Magic Energy from the area around him like other humans do, meaning he (and other's with his disability) can't actually replenish their magic energy naturally, what they have in the Lacrima is what they'll have their whole life. In theory.

Studies show a Lacrima's magic can be replenished if it is exposed to the same element. Basically one with a Lacrima as their magic source could replenish their magic by absorbing their element. The easiest to do this with would be water, as all you'd have to do is Drink Water. However this has a draw back as well, one can over charge a Lacrima with power, causing it to shatter. It’s a lot like a heart attack, can be survived but will be majorly crippling.

This is specifically why Ivan went on a Quest for a Dragon Slayer Lacrima, as it'd make it easier to absorb Lighting for Laxus to replenish his magic, and has more strength making it less likely to shatter, allowing him to follow his dream of being a Wizard. Without the Dragon Slayer abilities, Laxus attempting to replenish his magic would most likely bring him pain, as he wouldn't be as immune to electricity as he is now.

#Fairy Tail #Laxus Dreyar #My dear Grand Son #I've really Homebrewed up the Fairy Tail universe I know I'm against canon I know Laxus got his Lacrima when he was like 10 #But canon also says Lucy is 17 years old and I simply refuse to stick to that as well #I've changed many things but the story still functions I am playing Jenga with Canon #I saw a post somewhere in the main Fairy Tail tag once that went on about Autistic Laxus and I think about it constantly #Like his headphones are noise cancelling #I agree I agree Laxus full of Autism I love that for him I agree I agree #Thankyou very much for asking I love to ramble on against canon and think my thoughts out loud and I love Laxus #My Grand Son #I rattle his big thunder head around I love him I love his whole story arc and redemption #He really Set The Tone for Fairy Tail being the biggest bad of season 1 but also still just a guy #And he's family and I love him #And for some reason he wears Jeans

[toastsnaffler]

actually ive been thinking abt this a lot lately like basically for years i assumed i was very (cis)het passing and only recently ive become aware that i am in fact. very obviously perhaps almost comically gay to other queer ppl. like lmaoooo ok then

#i think its bc a) when i came out at like 15 everyone was super surprised so i assumed ppl still found it unexpected even now #+ b) im not super aware of social cues generally (autism) so dont tend to pick up on stuff like that unless its explicitly said #+ also c) ive never felt like i physically appear very conspicuous bc i dont have any piercings/tattoos/never dyed my hair etc #i only cut my hair short relatively recently too..... so idk i just assumed i blended into the background for everyone #but now im interacting with ppl outside of my tighter social circle more often ive become more aware- #of how ppl might perceive me. or rather ive become aware of just how UNaware i am of how ppl might perceive me #and its really funny how many odd interactions ive had in the past suddenly make sense if u assume the other person clocked me as gay #like strangers that have gotten flustered around me that might be bc i was giving off strong dyke vibes etc #the other day i was in a bookstore and the guy behind the counter was very stiff + quiet until i replied to smth he said and suddenly he- #became way more animated + started talking to me more casually + that was the first time i realised i probably sound gay as fuck #like i think i kinda have a stereotypical gay mannerism/lilt to the way i talk... no wonder i used to get called a fag so often lmfao #or like i remember trying to find a lab partner in 3rd yr of my degree + i had to do it on call only bc of covid + there were a bunch- #of us with similar lab interests but it got sorted SO fast bc this one other student seemed to gravitate immediately towards me #and i remember thinking afterward that it was odd how quickly we resolved that. esp bc we didnt even meet it was just voice call #anyway yeah i found out she was a dyke much later but i think maybe she clocked me straight away bc of how i sound....? #and that was why she warmed to me so quickly... but god i remember debating for ages with my ex abt whether she was gay or not #like my gaydar is truly terrible i suck balls at picking up on cues so its funny that to some people im reeking signals #also i met up with an ollldddd old friend last week + 30 secs in she was like oh fuck you must use different pronouns now #gesturing to Me. like oh..... im visibly gnc......? or maybe behaviourally???? idk. also shes v femme which made me realise that- #i rly do come across kinda masc/butch nowadays. even tho ive never really thought abt it that deeply before or made an effort to #i mean yeah i do identify along those lines but ive never directly considered how to flag that to other people etc im just doing me baby #ANYWAY this has been a rly long ramble idr what point i was getting at but just find it fascinating to think abt how im read in public #bc im just genuinely so unaware of it. its weirdly rly validating to find out that im automatically recognised as dykey + a little masc #boosted my confidence a lot as well tbh ive felt rly comfortable in myself lately. partly also cuz im getting a little muscular ;^) #ANYWAYYYYYY enough of all that i need to go sleep if youre reading this ily goodnighttt xoxo #.diaries

[andthebeanstalk]

Dear fellow autistics and people who suspect they might be autistic:

I am mailing you each a metaphorical scented envelope containing a soft sweet kiss on the forehead, which you may open or not open as many times as you see fit.

My friend Evy framed theirs instead of opening it, which is good too.

And you can throw it away, but if you ever do want to find it again, you will be able to recover it. I won't know or mind either way.

Just know I've sent you something nice because I wanted you to have it.

Love,

Jack

#autism positivity #autistic pride #actually autistic #the tism #autistic positivity #i am making this post bc i thought someone else had made it and i interacted with them in an embarrassing way #as it is my modus operandi #a foolproof MO in other words #if by foolproof you mean proof i am a fool #but also i am moving on and forgiving myself for earnest awkwardness #bc otherwise i think i would die from the years of built up shame #anyway their post was valid i just misread a personal message as a general one and felt very silly about it #self diagnosis is valid btw #in case me using 'actually autistic' has negative implications but I'm p sure it just means what it says #the envelope is not visible or tangible i am sorry it is only metaphorical #but by being metaphorical i can be certain i don't miss a single autistic #except for elon musk whom i do not believe is autistic but if he is he still gets no kiss #these are just for you guys/gals/comrades #my friend Laura is not autistic but she gets a lot of forehead kisses from me bc she is short and has expressed that she loves getting them #and i hold her cute soft little face in my hands and kiss her forehead and then press my cheek against it and we hug tightly #but the kiss i have sent u can be whatever platonic expression of love u want it to be. #original #the scent of the envelope is your favorite scent to have on an envelope

[barnbridges]

i will never frankly get over that at whatever special ed school the corcorans sent bunny to at 10 years old they made them learn a different alphabet, when now there's a debate about that learning another language while young makes you More autistic. (x)

#sure its not a Confirmed thing #nothing can ever be confirmed #but colloqually i know thinking and being able to write in different languages has shaped (MY) thoughts very much #they put my guy on autism steroids and then are like he's so bizarre #he sure is kathy

[catboygirlboss]

god you ever think of a celebrity you like and immediately go “oh god what heinous thing have they done… what heinous thing will they do…” but then you feel bad for assuming they must be awful but also you’re kinda justified because you’ve been let down so many times in the past but you wanna be optimistic cos there is good in everyone but also it sometimes feels like becoming famous just changes you on a fundamental level and you just spiral further and further down

#all this to say i REALLY hope snoop dogg is good #that dude seems so cool and he makes good music and just. the vibes man. the Vibes #everything about him says ‘yeah this guys alright’ but it could be a ruse #like????? do you understand what im saying????? #jack black fooled me. i thought that guy was so dope. but no… hes fucking not #i dont wanna be fooled like that again #and the obvious solution is to just. not. care? about celebrities? #and for the most part that works well for me #but theres a handful of them that im like ‘oh my god i really hope this ones not a bad seed id be so disappointed’ #not because i care about them as a person but because of the entertainment factor #like the reason i adored jack black is because lets be honest that dudes funny #like. his taste in ‘charities’ aside hes a very talented comedian and voice actor like i WISH i was as funny as that guy #and also he has SO MUCH CONFIDENCE #and genuinely i think he helped me gain confidence as a fat person #hes not afraid to be himself no matter what society has to say #and i fucking admired that!!!!! i still kinda do even if he supports autism $peaks like a fuckin cuck #idk if im making sense. i hope my point is being made clear. but it might not be #oh well i fucking tried lmao

[volfoss]

Made it to act 2 of the Witcher btw I'm HOOKED. The plot is so good and they have so many references to the book and augh it's so cool

#twist rambles #other things i love: igni feels SO powerful. it's so fun. the power system is a lot more like?? you're able to get strong vs just choosing #12 traits like in 3. ummm the world honestly. rly like how it feels very realistic w the medieval things. the SWAMP fuck yeah baby!!!!!! #also really enjoying all the war references w stuff it makes me wanna reread the books SO bad #the combat. honestly and genuinely. u get used to it and its rly fun. also ofc. grandpa looks great here #1 hater of how he looks in 3 (i have a mod that makes him look more like 1 bc like. they get it). ALSO his offputting nature is a lot more #in this. like imo 3 has a lot of makimg peepaw be like rly good w socializing a lot of the time and hes never been good @ that. 1 doesnt do #that and i rly appreciate that. his autistic boy nature. also. genuinely the menus its really nice #it reminds me of morrowind a bit where its clunky but when u get used to it it is SO fun. #sorry like genuinely dreading starting 2 bc i hate how it looks w ALL of these aspects. but 1 is so good to me. it is so addicting. #only cons is it keeps crashing lmao #^ guy that has 1 million thoughts about this game im sorry like it's SO good. #also rly prefer vizima in this >3. very excited to replay 3 and be silly about it bc i think I'll really get whats going on far more after #playing 1 and 2 and rereading the books. sorry witcha autism is unfortunately resurfacing fully. sowwy

[sharkboywrites]

Hello! May I ask for the BG3 gang with an autistic gn Tav who is. Very Very Large but also quite young (think like... Older teen.) who just decides that Astarion/Wyll/Halsin/Gale etc is their new favourite person and WILL NOT leave them alone.

It would be very funny if they just... didn't realise Tav was actually A Kid™ and thought they were just a weirdly clingy grownup. Except Halsin. Halsin would know Immediately.

Inspired by my dumb ass being enormous and this having happened to me irl many times.

Bg3 Characters With a Young Older Looking Autistic Tav

A/n: This idea is so silly I love it. This is obviously written as platonic because reader is younger and baulder's gate characters are older and I don't write weird stuff like that lol although I'm sure that's expected. Also also i did all of them together because I do not have the energy to write sperate headcannons for each of them, dont worry they all get their moment

Gn Reader, Child/teen Reader

This was an... interesting situation

Everyone on the team assumed you were just assumed you were a bit childish for an adult

I mean could you blame them? You were massive, anyone would assume you were an adult

Except for Halsin

He could easily tell your age, but it's something he kept between the two of you, mainly for safety

Halsin takes more of a dad approach if you cling to him

He's very protective of you and teaches you new skills

He also keeps anyone else on the team from hitting on you, for obvious reasons, but wouldn't say why

He's also the most attentive when it comes to your autism, he's always keeping an eye out for you and helping when he can

It took the others longer to find, though

Wyll was the second to put two and two together

Once he realized, he grilled you about why you didn't tell anyone about it

He isn't too harsh though, and takes a more "fun uncle" role

He always makes sure to entertain you, he's the guy who's got fidgets on him just for you incase you need them

He also decides not to tell anyone for your safety after consulting with Halsin, but he does wish you said something sooner

Gale is the second to last to find out, after trying to teach you something about magic

He had questioned why you didn't know any of this, it was supposed to be common knowledge for someone your age

Or someone he thought was your age

He just stared at you blankly for a good minute after you told him how old you actually were

He's more upset at himself for not noticing to be honest

He realizes how that actually makes a lot of sense

Gale, like Halsin, also takes a more fatherly approach

he teaches you things you may have not known before, and is one of the most helpful when it comes to working through your autism

He's a knowledgeable man and can tell what you need, probably before you do

He's very protective, often insisting that you stay out of battles, but it's not like you listen to him in that department

For comedy's sake, Astarion is the last to find out, and he is pissed

He's mad that no one told him, even if it wasn't too long Gale found out and most of the party knew

He looked so dumbfounded when he found out and like Gale, was more mad that he didn't realize sooner

He's upset, but he gets over it quickly after a day or two of snarky comments and like Wyll, takes on a cool uncle postion

The whole party suddenly wants to protect you and it's suddenly become one of their top goals to return you to your parent/guardian if you have one, next to y'know, getting the worms out of your head

If you don't have somewhere to go they may or may not argue on who takes you once it's all over

Generally, you're taken good care of from then on, much better than you were before

Everyone's very attentive to you and tries to be aware of what you may need at any given point

Since they all have some type of trauma, they want to make sure the same doesn't happen to you, especially so young

Being in this situation is stressful for anyone, let alone a child, and a child with a disability

They do their best to make you happy and keep you safe

They may struggle, but they do their best, and now you have people to call family

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