#hes disabled like me <3

[object-yaoi]

petting my computer and poking his off switch (not pressing it) and hearing them make a lil stutter sound :3c

#charlie tag #computer objectum #objectum #18+ #objectophilla #i love Charlie so much im gonna shove my fingers in his broken disc drive #hes disabled like me <3 #and i love pressing my hand onto him and feelin him vibrate or hum #its comforting. like. you're here. i feel you. im here. you feel me. we are together. #1 am yearing for computers #yippie :3 #my beeping

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[lunarharp]

things.. uh... Gentry era au

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i wanted to leave the first images separate but it means they're not looking at each other any more......This aint right #i was reading pride & prejudice and what if oru was like a Mr darcy type figure. yeah. sure #is miss qifrey going to kidnap the 4 poor orphan children whom he is governess to. We can all live in mr oru's estate <3 #There will always be four there will never end up just being 3 i will make it be 4 i will rescue coco in every lifetime. #have thought how qifrey is a bit like mr rochester (jane eyre) though what with keeping secrets and going blind. anyway #maybe that's just because i wrote my fic and the idea of a combination of betrayal of trust & increased disability sits heavy here #& the sadness about how fictional disability often exists alongside narrative punishment and how i fear for qifrey every day and i love him #one good thing about posting art online again is that i really had little drive to bother scribbling little comic type things just for me #then there are things i feel less inclined to draw now that im in Posting mode again. oh life is very mysterious is it not

[bonefall]

If you could completely remove a character from the series, who would it be? Would another character take their place?

gray wing.

Or even just kill him instead of Shaded Moss, have HIM originally been the leader of the Sundrown Patrol and after his death, all these cats start invoking his name like a god.

"I do this in the name of Gray Wing the Wise." "As Gray Wing the Wise once said..." "Gray Wing the Wise wouldn't have approved of this."

And Thunder would have known him like this ancient, wise sage... and been frustrated by it. He doesn't KNOW this guy, but apparently he was a god among cats, and everyone thinks he was on THEIR side. But all Thunder sees, looking at a sea of heartless tyrants and selfish cats clawing each other in the back, is people who make their choices first and then use his sacred name to justify them afterwards.

and the SHOCKKKKK on all their FACES during the First Battle, when Gray Wing comes down from the stars himself, and tells all of them, "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO MY NAME?!" the VINDICATION for Thunder when this God Among Cats turns to him and says, "You. You are the one who has followed my teachings-- by questioning them, by challenging those who misspoke. This is wisdom."

Bright Stream would take all the roles of Gray Wing in-canon and have an arc about realizing that she was defending her abuser. And been Thunder's single mom.

#bone babble #I hate canon gray wing. He's bottom two most hated characters in all of WC for me #Clear Sky is WORSE but Gray Wing is frustrating #Clear Sky is a fantastic villain before they nonsensically decide that killing the weak and disabled is a funnie joke #and war crimes are fine if ur scared #but gray wing is never good. He has like 3 good scenes that promise something good and never deliver. #dotc hate #It's hard to think of a character that needs to be totally removed OTHER than gray wing. for me #I think most characters can work or are just inoffensively bland like Background ThunderClan Bloat Cat 23 #but gray wing........................... WELL I've done my fixes for him #and I have put a lot of love and effort into that fix that I am proud of #But it's only made me like... really realize that this story would have been stronger if he died in Sun Trail like he was supposed to

[evilsanlang]

one thing I'll say is that while I used to agree with the criticisms over hua cheng's whole person revolving around xie lian (different from the "hua cheng has no personality" argument, which is just untrue) the more I reread & dissected tgcf the more it just hit that yeah, that's the point. which is not to say you can't criticize that aspect, but I feel it's kind of pointless to criticize it within the internal logic of the story, because you're just getting what was on the tin - it makes a lot more sense to acknowledge what it is, a self-indulgent fantasy, and why this kind of narrative doesn't do it for you. and while of course it's never wrong to point out the dangers of co-dependency irl etc etc I thiiink we're all old enough to understand that without the addendum of 546726 disclaimers. I adore analysis of hua cheng's character with full acknowledgement of all his flaws ESPECIALLY his lacking backstory (which, again, is more so criticism of the author) but every so often I'll see someone go like oh no... he's such a tragic character he revolves around xie lian that's so sad and unhealthy... I need to fix him and put him in a cuddlepile with characters he never interacted with... as if he hasnt been having a ball on this bitch since he died and became a housewife. devotion and obsession 4 life

#tgcf #it's not like xie lian is any healthier he just has a fleshed out backstory #like sure it'd be tragic it if was one-sided obsession. but xl learned that hc had been carving thousands of statues of him for 800yrs #and went omg really... so he likes me back...? <3 #unrelaed but I've learned to appreciate insane4insane relationships more since getting with my wife #reblogs disabled because people can't read </3

[glimblshanks]

The thing about TNG is that the space aliens and moral quandaries are always like, the least insane part of the episode

#star trek tng #star trek #tng #watching Loud As A Whisper right now #because I wanted to know more about sign language in the Star Trek universe #and anyways I'm only 15 minutes in and I have notes #1) Picard saying 'cluck cluck cluck' to Riker was so ??? #broski who talks that way #2) your mission is to pick up and shuttle an incredibly important diplomat #and you're telling me the mission briefing didn't include the fact that he was deaf??? #3) I absolutely don't believe that Riva is some exceptionally talented peace negotiator #because every interaction he has with another person makes me want to punch him in the face #4) His initial interaction with Geordie is like... some abled persons weird fantasy of how disabled people interact with each other #You're telling me this guy is deaf. has deaf parents. and still reacts to other peoples disabilities like they're brand new? #5) The Universal Translator Isn't Universal If It Doesn't Translate Sign Languages #6) Why does Picard act like he's never met a deaf person before??? Do they not have deaf humans in the future?? #anyways I understand that this was probably a pretty progressive episode for it's time #but it ages weird #like the world building seems very poorly thought through

[neriumdelusion]

HAPPY DISABILITY MONTH. I LOVE YOU ALL

#wtnv #wtdb #soo I started this super early this month like YES this will be done for this month and I am PUSHING IT with it barely being July still but #just. let me have this. please #happy disability pride month #<3<33 #I know he isn’t covered in blood I know that’s out of character I’m SORRY #kevin desert bluffs #welcome to desert bluffs #welcome to night vale #hashtag main tagging this <33 #open wounds #today? wheelchair Kevin and his great tits. tomorrow? nothing. I will probably not post art again for ages #my artwork<3!

[voidscreamns]

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#i dont think i’ve talked my nonverbal!Diluc hc on here yet #but i keep seeing posts abt disability/chronjcally ill/neurodivergent hcs for genshin characters so here’s one from me #idk i feel like after That Night™️ and being on the run from the Fatui/working with a secret organization #diluc not just learns the ‘value’ of keeping secrets and staying quiet but also internalizes his guilt and trauma of saying smth that could #hurt people #it started with him telling Kaeya that he’s not a Ragnvindr anymore and then is exacerbated by his 3-4 Year Fatui Murder Rampage thru Teyvat #and with all ghat trauma and self-deprecation and paranoia he just. stops talking. #he picks up sign language in Fontaine and still writes but at some point he just stops talking and never speaks again #when he comes back to Mondstadt it was hard to adjust to for both him and the people around him #Kaeya initially assumes that Diluc just refuses to talk to him until he later hears gossip abt how no one has ever heard him speak since he #came back. he goes to Adelinde and/or Elzer abt it and they tell him that they neve even hear Diluc so much as hum or grunt #afterwards everyone changes up real fast— Kaeya and Venti drinking at the bar and seemingly just talking at Diluc but they’re always #observing his reactions and body language even when they’re drunk #Jean tries her best to be patient but she has a hard time reading him bc he’s changed so much in the time he’s been gone #Adelinde & Elzer and the winery staff are the most communicative he’s with— Diluc is far more likely to write with them to communicate #at some point Diluc has a business meeting with some rich dude from Fontaine or smth #Kaeya walks in bc he has an actual important mission thinf to discuss and he sees Diluc and this Fontaine dude and the dude’s wife #moving their hands so fast and with all kinds of gestured and stuff #and it’s the first time Kaeya sees Diluc look so EXPRESSIVE— he’s frowning and raising his eyebrows and mouthing words and all this #and Kaeya just goes ‘what’ #turns out the Fontainian dude is deaf and both him and his hearing wife know sign; she helps interpret this to kaeya for the dude and Diluc #and Kaeya is like ‘oh okay’ and goes to the kitchen like ‘i’ll just wait here till yall are finished’ #and he sees Adelinde and Elzer there with stoic faces and they just. stand there in quiet for so long. #Kaeya finally says ‘…..so. sign language huh’ and Adelinde and Elzer have the most pained looks on their faces #later that week Diluc finds like everyone around suddenly doing basic signs with him #he later learns that the winery has ordered a shitton of signing books from Fontaine and are trying to learn #+ Kaeya and Jean too with help from Lisa bc like dont you know learning several languages is a requirement for graduation from the Akademiya #soon the use of sign starts spreading in Mondstadt— there might be some small communities where they have their own native sign but it’s not #as standardized nor widely known as it is in Fontaine #this is getting really long so I’ll stop here but yeah. nonverbal Diluc who signs fjskdjs

[coulson-is-an-avenger]

can we please talk about how fucking funny it is that hermann and newt were canonically pen pals for three years (three years) then met face to face and absolutely hated each other LIKE??? that’s absolutely fucking hilarious

what the fuck happened. did newt bring a kaiju specimen. did hermann hate on newt’s music. did they both just explode from polar opposite neurodivergent means of communication. i’m obsessed

#back to pacrim posting <3 #literally its such funny lore like it has no effect on the movie but it’s arguably hystericsl #ngl i feel like it was 100% newt’s fault bc god bless him i feel like he has a decent academic persona #and then irl he’s like an unmedicated adhd kid on 7 cups of coffee whereas hermann strikes me as very nervous to meeting new ppl #like he doesn’t talk to raleigh at all when they meet whereas newt is like HIIIIIIII you’re going to hear abt Things now #idk im just rotating it #trying to piece together lore for the hermann fic i started at 6am the other day #also again fascinated by all this lore from the novel that’s not movie relevant However theres Zero info abt his on screen disability #hsgdjfjdjjd god bless #mossy speaks #pacific rim #newmann

[randomgooberness]

Gordon should NOT get a biological hand back(if he does it’s busted to all hell and mostly numb). And any prosthetic he gets sucks ass unless it has a cartoony switchable feature that lets him adapt to certain tasks because even high tech prosthetic hands with the correct reaction speeds will never beat gun arm if your goal is shooting something.

What im saying is he makes a million different hands for himself to the point where he has “fork hand” and “screwdriver hand” and “scissor hand” ect

#hlvrai #gordon feetman #HAPPY 5 AM IM STILL RUNNING ON 3 HOURS OF SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #like look. i dont expect the RTVS gang to put thought into their disability rep in a comedy series on gmod. i dont #but also i get so tired seeing people be like. oh his arms back :) AT LEAST LEAVE IT SCARRED AND NUMB……DAMN! #not to mention people constantly sleep on how interesting mobility aids are to flesh out for characters #though that might be from my years of experience writing an amputee. #DISCLAIMER!! I MYSELF AM NOT AN AMPUTEE JUST BTW!!!!!!!!! LISTEN TO ACTUAL AMPUTEES BEFORE ME #though im repeating everything ive ever heard ESP that prsothetics tend to fucking suck #not saying he cant HAVE a robot hand. i draw him with one. i just think itd be funnier and more realistic if he swaps it out #might draw examples when i wake up bc its silly and fun :) #wait adding more tags despite the fact that NO ONE WILL READ THEM. this is esp the case bc hes right handed #he needs his right hand for fine motor skill you will NOT get that with a prosthetic

[anotherpapercut]

smth that I've found difficult in navigating life as an autistic adult is that I don't want to be infantilized, like I want/need to be viewed as a full adult, but sometimes my needs seem childish to people. so like I fight to be taken seriously but then when I do actually need help I can't get it because only a child would need it and I should be able to handle if I really want to be viewed as an adult

#i just. i do not feel like i am fit to work. but its incredibly difficult to obtain ssi and then ssi sucks #literally only have found 3 jobs that meshed w my autism and 2 of them i cant do anymore bc of physical disability #and 1 of them is still my job (math tutor ❤️) we're only allowed to work up to 19.5 hrs a week whoch i cant live off of #anyway this is all to say i feel like a dumb childish idiot because i cant function if im not wearing my favorite comfy shirt #and i know its ridiculous but i just will not be able to focus on anything else all day sometimes #i just need to be in my comfort clothing sometimes so i can feel like it's giving me a hug all day #and i know theyre just never going to understand that because of how stupid it sounds #i wish i had like a cool relative who was rich. i mean i do but hes not THAT cool. who would let me live in like an apartment they rent

[lokislittlesigyn]

Loki would love the fact I’m autistic I’ve decided

Stimming? Lovely. Adorable

Special interests?? Delightful. He’d listen about my special interests especially because one of them is HIM he’d feel SO LOVED

he’d have no problem accommodating me or looking out for me

I mean he is a literal g o d he can help out

checking food? Helping me with sounds/sensory issues? NONVOCAL COMMUNICATION???? I mean he has a LITERAL SPELL to see in peoples minds I’d absolutely give consent for him to use it when I can’t speak

It’d be SO HELPFUL

He’d even help with meltdowns - and try to keep me from overextending myself and getting to that point because hoooo boy I need help gauging my limits better

And I think if I was vulnerable and open about the fact I need help sometimes … he’d enjoy feeling needed

Wanted and needed. Necessary. Like a provider - someone trusted enough to help.

And maybe it’d help him too

Help him feel less like a monster

And more like someone safe. And trusted. And loved

#loki #<3 #loki my beloved #I just think about this a lot #I’m having to really #really accept that I Am disabled #I am not able to do some things #and other things I have to do differently #and that’s okay #he doesn’t love me based off what I can and can’t do #he loves me because I’m me #just like I love him because he’s him #:’) #Sigyn loves Loki a lot #autism <3 #f/o #f/o community #I guess?????

[crippledanarchy]

I am silently going insane tonight

#my dad was rushed from urgent care to get a full cardiac workup cause apparently covid destroys your heart #who could have seen this coming? except for me who has been warning about why precautions are important for 3 fucking years #its fine. it's cool. I'm being so normal about it. i definitely don't feel like an ignored scientist in an apocalypse movie #it's fine. it's not like covid damage to the cardiac system is what killed Papa...oh wait. it did. #he'll *probably* be okay tonight? but like. he's not gonna cope well with disability #bex talks to themself

[8rujaa]

to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened #i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close #and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way #i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao #now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest #and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell #i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop #but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again #i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier #it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men #and i find myself unable to connect with anyone… #i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed #i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it #i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly. #i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad #i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so #i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized… #when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was #like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u #i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function. #plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized #how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone… #i went thru all that for nothing… #and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why #brain vomit

[nirvanai]

oh actually random thought time but genuine shoutout to aini for honestly having one of the most real depictions of RSD to me that I’ve seen in fiction? Ryuki’s reaction to the potential demotion and the full-on catastrophizing that comes from it is just [nods]

it also just hit me with like. he’s described as an honors student, there’s a lot of instances of ppl talking abt his “potential” to be great in ABIS, but he crumbles whenever he’s reprimanded even slightly. Which... is an adult diagnosis ADHD mood. The questioning of why you can’t live up to that “potential”, why you can’t be what you think you Should be, I really liked how it was written.

its also part of why I adore Tama so much... she’s so good for him. she helps him ground himself and work through his problems constantly through the game, and whenever he’s Actually in a bad spot she’s always very gentle. They are such excellent partners, I really really love how they work off each other. Tama helping him by reminding him of what he wants, his own personal goals and why he wanted to join ABIS in the first place... she’s helping him reconnect with why he cares. It’s just good and important and I love it.

Ryuki neurodivergent icon

#kuruto ryuki #nirvana initiative spoilers #aini spoilers #aini #nirvana initiative #the adhd Mood i felt at that scene... #obviously i can't say whether or not he was written intentionally to be adhd #but the coding is intense and i love it #disability just being a part of the lives of many characters was something i loved #im disabled i like seeing disabled characters!! #and to me at least it felt very compassionate abt it which i liked a lot #mizuki will beat up every ableist piece of shit in the world <3 love her for that

[yo9urt]

local man completely obliterated by strength of narrative and character writing in 2023 game of the year

#mine #last night after putting it off for essentially as long as i possibly could because i knew it would decimate me #i finally attacked c4z4dor and (of course) kept ast4r10n as a spawn and basically finished up his quest #FUUUUCK ME DUDE....i knew what was coming in advance but that did not make it any less impactful #i mean holy shit the writing on this guy......the fucking graveyard scene (DO NOT GET ME STARTED)... #and of course neil's performance ohhh my god he deserves every award he can possibly have #god i love asta so much i'm literally never going to be the same this game is soooo insane #the only things i have left are the house of hope and then disabling the foundry and killing gort and doing the final fight stuff #i am ... nervous lol #ive heard the raphael fight is HAAAAAAAAARD #i'll find a way... #i think in the future i may reorder my act 3 quests i think it would be interesting to tackle some (ex companion quests or raphael) #sooner in the story #shadowhearts quest was like...3rd or 4th last thing i did cause i think i did that and then ansur and then astarion #i'm actually SO excited to replay the game i think im gonna have the time of my life doing roleplay and making diff choices #plus i know i missed a TON of stuff in this run so its gonna be fun to see what else is out there #after this im planning to do my first durge run which is REALLY exciting !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i may do another regular tav run simultaneously but not totally sure.... #anyway yeah... awesome game everyone should buy it and play it its on sale right now go buy it and play it