#hm. thinking about death and all that

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hm. thinking about death and all that #bc the other day my mom texted me and my sisters to say shes added another cancer to her repertoire #shes had smooth muscle cancer for the past maybe 10 years but in the last year shes gotten a lot sicker #idk how long shes been stage 4 but shes got tumors in her liver. bladder. and maybe a kidney. and now shes also got like pre leukemia #she like deff got it from chemo treatment so now shes gotta try to go get a different treatment #but the type of mds she has is more likely to be treatment resistant and advance to acute myloid leukemia #so idk maybe itll go well. right now she still feels okay. but it just feels like the beginning of the end #so death has been on my mind the past few days #i feel mostly fine bc i think my medication is actually working. i just feel like im waiting for the other shoe to drop ya kno #and selfishly if she dies in the next 4 years itll b a real clusterfuck for my life #but i dunno her life has been super unfair and it sucks that she has to go thru all this #also when i was home last her hair looked insane bc she lost most of it but didnt shave what was left so she had new hair growing short #underneath and all i could think when i looked at her was: we r at the end of vanity. bc im a goblin #unrelated

[sunnibits]

I think Izzy should get what I call the Marcus Kane treatment (when your hair growth directly reflects your character development)

#yes I know we all obsess over Stede’s potential hair in season two or Ed’s potential hair development #but what about Izzy’s hair development hm?? what ideas are we makin huh? get to work people #izzy hands #ofmd #our flag means death #art #my art #I don’t think long haired Izzy would actually be my ideal endgame but I’m definitely not mad about it #I also don’t want Izzy to be good at all in s2 I want him to be equally deranged. worse even. but my point stands anyways #I just think he deserves the Marcus Kane hair arc 😌 #it would be so good for him

[illdothehotvoice]

Replaying Mario the Music Box with my roommates and.. yeah...hm

#As an RPG Maker Horror fan?? #yeah it's good. i'm enjoying it a lot more this time around i think and i'm understanding the lore better #as a mario fan????? #eeeeeh????? #idk something irks me about heavy gore involving mario characters #the consciences of the dorm has been it #it'd be better if the OCs were Mario characters or more in line with the Mario Universe or Mario and Luigi were also just OCs. #cause again i like it as an rpgmaker game it reminds me a LOT of Mad Father #but eeeeeh??? #not my cup of tea mario hyperfixation wise if you like it for mario stuff that's cool #don't expect me to talk much about it is all i'm saying #also good thing i am saving constantly cause some of these deaths are. hm #i'm playing tbe remake and depending on how I'm feeling I'll play Ark but it's a continuation of an ending i do not like soooo #mario would NOT act like that

[soldier-poet-king]

Bg3's hair customization options are just. Unparalleled. I recreated my exact cut, down to the early faint silvers in the curls. Ofc it is absolutely abysmal wrt face & body shape diversity (where are my short absolute unit, round faced folks at. I am built like an acnh villager)

Did I make my ray of sunshine, orange tiefling monk durge basically a self insert??? Maybe so. I had a WHOLE backstory and made deliberate rp decisions with my drow tav but now I'm just. That's me and I get to be nice except when I'm not :)

There is smthn to be said about being a kindhearted problem solver who always picks diplomatic non violent options but is also consumed by insatiable rage and sometimes extremely violent bloodlust. Y'know how it is

Obvs I don't want to make broad OCD parallels bc ocd and intrusive thoughts are demonized enough as it is, and ppl with ocd are LESS likely to commit violent acts. But also. For me at least, as an OCD haver, it's like. Oh. Playing a durge who's desperately trying to be good and battling with this monstrous self that /isn't you/ and yet it lives in you and you can't escape it and it's terrifying but it's always there and no one takes it seriously and everyone is just like 'oh dw everyone gets angry sometimes :)' and no matter how much you protest that it's WAY worse than that, they still don't take you seriously. Literally the only other person listening is a Literal Vampire because he understands the self as monstrous (even if he early on encourages the violence). And it's just

Well. Yeah. Sure is Something To Think About

#franposting #that got away from me. oops #but yeah playing a really sweet sunlight themed durge who is basically me #its. hm. free therapy?? #ive been ethical moping all afternoon #as rose called it #so plenty of time to think my sad stupid little thoughts #its not a perfect 1:1 parallel. my intrusive Thoughts do not make me the chosen of an evil death god. obvs #but yknow. smthn smthn about self as other self as monstrous persistent unwanted rage and violence #and not being taken seriously in it because youre so nice and people pleasing #and the astarion durge dialogue is just. chefs kiss. recognition of the self through the other.

[sugarcarnation]

*slams hand on the table* what if chuuya did end up end fighting his ability in dead apple and had to watch a version of himself die for the second time

#the more i think about it the dying part would probably not even be that bad to him #like the abilities all just kinda disappeared #(tbf it’s chuuya so maybe his ability would die a slow and excruciating death just for the added trauma lmao) #but like. maybe it would actually be cathartic to be able to fight his ability #ultimately it is the reason for pretty much everything that went wrong in his life #depending on how self destructive he’s currently feeling he might even enjoy getting to fight *himself* #hm. much to think about #it’s a concept for sure

[tielesiti-eftu]

hey so remember when I posted a while back about stealing a character design from AI slop

this is Celia Whiterose and the art was somehow one of the last things I made in the process of making her. in between making the art, I wrote a fuckload of lore and character info. gonna paste a bunch of it under the cut

✨~haiiiiiii~✨

okay so. the lore I'm working with right now is that Celia used to be the Proper Actual Queen of Hearts in her Wonderland. aesthetics-wise for that Wonderland, I'm picturing a vibe like a mix of the Disney movie and the Tim Burton movie because Lol™. this Wonderland exists alongside a so-called "real" world, otherwise known as Fantasy Earth, and humans aren't able to see an entrance to Wonderland unless someone from Wonderland goes through it. the only Wonderland citizens that are able to go between the worlds freely are the royal family and anyone with one of their pocket watches. Celia, being The Queen, qualifies for that. she ran away into the real world after a mass breakout of a curse-disease-thing called "Unreality Madness," believing it would be the only way to be safe from it and potentially find a solution. she disguised herself (mostly by shrinking herself down to not be ridiculously tall) and left for the real world, where she lived for a long time. she tried to tell people about what happened, hoping for a solution, but people don't tend to believe that a parallel world exists that they can theoretically go to when they can't even see the entrances freely, and Celia was afraid to go back for fear of being (probably rightfully) called out for running away, so she just Didn't. she has depression because of it. her belief is that if she can get close enough with someone in the real world, maybe they'll believe her and she can try to fix the mess she left behind. unfortunately, a continuous streak of bad luck and cosmic joke coincidences routinely keeps that from happening.

some specifics on Unreality Madness: it's something that makes Wonderland citizens effectively disappear, dubbed "becoming not real," after going through extreme mood changes. stage 1 is always severe mania, and stage 2 varies between individual cases, but it's always able to be boiled down to experiencing one emotion at extreme levels, and different subsets have different titles (sadness would be Bawling Madness, depression would be Muted Madness, anger would be Fuming Madness, etc). the only thing that isn't a possible result is more mania. stage 3 is more or less a toned-down version of the person's normal self, but this is the point where they start to believe they may not be real, and this feeling gets worse as the stage progresses. if someone in stage 3 is fully convinced they aren't real anymore, they go into stage 4, which sees them actually becoming not real; this can be postponed by generally being around other people that believe they're real, but the funny thing about believing you aren't real is that you start believing others aren't real either, so if a large group of Wonderland residents came down with stage 4 Unreality Madness, then things tend to get a bit less exist-y pretty fast. once a person with Unreality Madness has been in stage 4 for long enough to also believe nobody else is real around them, and nobody around them believes they're real either, they vanish. technically, stages 3 and 4 can last indefinitely if at least one person without Unreality Madness regularly interacts with them.

personality-wise, Celia is very muted after everything that's happened to her. she's also very particular about time; if you agree to meet her for something, and you don't show up, she's going to find out why. she has a seemingly endless supply of pocket watches, which she uses as mementos to give to people that she considers friends. the watches themselves have some other properties; particularly, if you break one, you can temporarily project yourself back in time as a ghost, so you can see what happened but not affect things. Celia specifically is also able to break these with her bare hand, then jam that hand against a corpse to resurrect the person as something from Wonderland. she also has various props and treats from Wonderland; cookies that make you grow, small drink bottles that shrink you, paints that can alter the natural color of plants or animals, pipes with smoke that forms into letters, and so on. Celia can also create normal versions of any of these items without any effects, with a notable exception being her checkerboard cookies; unlike the frosted lofthouse cookies she can make, the checkerboard cookies are always just normal cookies.

the bracelets she wears are made of metal, and are able to transform into gauntlets similar to brass knuckles. Celia doesn't normally have to use them, hence why they turn into bracelets when they aren't deployed. these bracelet-gauntlets cannot be removed, as they are also her royal scepter, an heirloom passed down to the next-in-line when the acting ruler of Wonderland is unfit to rule anymore. it ordinarily isn't supposed to be altered in any way, but due to the current circumstances in Wonderland, Celia is giving herself some leeway. so long as it doesn't leave her side, it's fine in her book.

around people she feels safe around and truly cares about, Celia may remove her disguise and re-enter her normal form, a completely on-demand transformation that Celia performs when she feels like she has nothing to hide from. Queen of Hearts Celia is four times larger than her disguise and sports a different outfit, as well as her having a generally more cheerful default mood. her fur becomes pure white, her eyes change shape somewhat, the colors of her eyes shift around, the somewhat muted blues of her dress have shifted to vibrant reds and blacks, her dress has grown larger and now goes down to her ankles, her socks have changed to be red-and-black stripes with a black sole and red pawpads, her scepter regains its normal form, and the lofthouse cookies she produces have changed shape to appear like card suits (the checkerboard cookies remain unchanged). she now walks with a much more pronounced bounce on every step, and one can often see the latest winner of this royal rabbit's trust peeking from the front pocket of her dress. Queen of Hearts Celia has more control over the world around her, with enhanced time control by using her scepter that allows her to physically go forward and backwards in time temporarily, along with now being able to shape and transform it to mirror her Wonderland as she desires. this world-altering ability, which she calls "Wonderland Shift," is similar in execution to resurrecting someone as a Wonderland creature, but it now extends to non-sentient objects around her and even living people as opposed to only the recently-passed. Queen of Hearts Celia is also physically unable to harm things or people without intent; any building or infrastructure damaged by mistake is repaired by it automatically going backwards in time, passerby who fail to notice her approach and become trampled rise moments later without even a bruise, and so on. on the flipside, she is much more wrathful if upset, leaping into the air and growing thorny rose vines from the ground to ensnare and choke people that make her angry, sometimes even beheading them if she deems the transgression worthy of death. often, she reverts to her disguised form after the anger fades into apathy, and it tends to take some time for her to be able to return to her Queen of Hearts form.

#ask to tag #hm. I should make an art tag that's more creative than just 'my art' #how abouuuuuut #a rustle in the bushes || art tag #that'll do I think lol #I'll go back through and put that on everything I've posted if I find anything #I know I've done at least two other art posts lately‚ both thanks to drawing-prompt-s #lowkey only posting this here Because there were already posts made about this particular character tbh #it's a weird obligation thing in my mind. I said words about this unrealized OC already so now that she's real I have to follow up‚ y'know? #all following tags are for filters: #death #food #murder

[blackmoldmp3]

the b12 thing was so funny in retrospect like i turned fucking yellow but bc i was so fucking depressed. from the lack of b12. i couldnt bring myself to care about literal jaundice

#when food started to taste like ash i was like hm. its just depression probably #and i finally went in bc i missed three straight weeks of class and just laid in bed thinking about death all day #and i was like ok its bad enough i can see a psychiatrist right. and they were like ok u have no b12 #but also u have bipolar disorder. #this was also when i watched hxh for the first time i just mainlined it. which was perhaps a bad decision #for my mental health

[torchickentacos]

anyways. having fun with the album project thing I mentioned. Using the flat small brush from here for krita. One brush only, no undo button, all done on 1/54th of a 1.5k x 1k canvas. it's actually pretty therapeutic, I listen to the album I'm drawing while I draw it. This does mean that for AM I got to like. track 2 though and most of that was bc of formatting issues lol.

#vent in tags though bc i need. somewhere that isn't yet another 4:30 am vent google doc. too many of those and they're not helping #i don't want to talk but i don't want to be fully alone right now but i can't just spring this on someone in dms either so . tags it is #tw death. like really not a fun time over on torchickentacos dot tumblr dot com right now. genuine warning here #but i'm not doing well and i need this right now. anyways told my therapist i feel like i should be more okay right now than I am #and he was like. you. think you should be MORE okay after someone you knew died? #like. ah. hm. i see. now. how that might not be rational thinking. #i mean in my brain it was like. okay we're approaching day three and i haven't reached back out to my other irls #and i'm awake at 4 am #and i feel like need to pull it together because other people need me for stuff #and like. this happened before but harder. i should KNOW that there's no way to expedite this #because unfortunately I've been through this before!!! people make that choice to leave and it sucks and that's that! #like i KNOW how hard this is especially since it's a very personal topic. #but i'm still trying to rush myself here #it stresses me out to think that I'm not there enough for myself to be there for other people right now #sigh. i wonder how much of it's because i feel like i should have been there for those friends more even though it's irrational. #because that's genuinely not how it fucking works and I KNOW THAT PERSONALLY yet I still put that on myself. #people can have all the support they need and still choose to not take it. and there's not a damn thing you can do about it. #well. tomorrow i return to socializing and being a human person again #little bit at a time.

[balladetto]

unprompted / always accepting / anonymous

"How old are you, Link?"

     Link imagines it like this.

     If he could exist the way light does when it refracts, dispersing into a kaleidoscope of colours from a single point, each footstep he takes would be haunted by a hundred different shadows. They are moments he can't sear from his memories, all separated by shapes and spaces he's had to fill for each one: he is the Hero of Time, nine summers, small enough that he only needs to ball up for his shield to cover him. He is the Hero of Time, sixteen summers, big enough that the habitual full-body strength he swings his sword with takes a Wolfos down far quicker than his heart had anticipated.

     He is nine, afraid of touch. He is sixteen, afraid of the dark. He is nine, left behind. He is sixteen, choosing to go back. He is nine, wiping Deku Baba sap from the back of his hands. He is sixteen, closing his eyes against the blood-splatter of a man whose ichor he still feels between his fingers. Link is nine and sixteen and everything beyond and in between—

     He is the distorted reflection of someone's son, cursed to a terrible fate. He is Darmani the Third, so old that they ask him to be the next Goron Elder. He is Mikau, killed too young, but grown enough that the blood of Zoran heroes sings loud in his stolen veins. He is nobody he knows how to be, maybe ten summers, dreaming about years that didn't happen and living through cycles of days he's long since stopped counting.

     If he could exist the way light does when it refracts, he'd wave a hand at these silhouettes. He is any of them. He is all of them. He is none of them. Time is kind of real, and it kind of isn't.

     Link answers like this.

     He holds both hands up, fingers visibly splayed. Ten. His right one drops and his left turns level to the ground, seesawing up and down from thumb to pinky. Give or take. He smiles, a huff of something that might be amused for a joke that's only funny to him — which is to say, it's not very funny at all. However much time needs to be given or taken.

#* lionheart / study. #( this is what link expects from the audience: [canned laughter] #no but thank you! so much for this! you have no idea how delightful this was to see in the inbox!! #the definitive answer is AT LEAST TEN but that would be a disservice to the mounds of floaty murky feelings he has about his own #age that i had to. Elaborate. i hope it reads well because i am admittedly still groggy dslfjdf thank you again <3 #'hm ray why is fd not here' he is Looking Away and Not Comprehending that period of his life at all <3 like that's the one part of 'him' #he REFUSES to acknowledge could be Him. because it's not -- not the way he's 'allowed' the rest of his transformation masks to be #someone should ask though. i think it would be fun for him to elaborate < and by that i mean fun for me ) #* lionheart / ic. #* lionheart / answer. #* ic / para. #* v / the world: unmoved. #death cw #unreality mention #( < just in case? ) #ask to tag /

[timeloopedd]

this is just miscellaneous now

#<- becaus my younger dave design is in there #hm yeah i think my thoughts had junerezi intentions for the first one #also i think chica and sun would be best friends #uhh headcanon time! #to me momiji is genderfluid and akito is a transwoman #i need to continue reading to actually understand and how to go about her and tohru’s relationship #it’s like! yeah fb is basically those stories where the main character helps the characters and tells them #‘hey. you’re doing fine. no need to put yourself down PLEASE don’t put yourself down. i wish you could see what i see in you thatswonderful #<- ran out of space #it’s cheesy but god i love it to death #maybe it’s also nostalgic factor because my friend showed this to me in middle school #but i think between tohru and akito it wasn’t that simple and straightforward #it never really was between all the other characters either but i feel like they were more easier to talk with #as far as i know (which isn’t a lot and also i might’ve skimmed some stuff from wikia (which is a horrible place to get facts) oops) #akito has a pretty toxic ideation based on her upbringing. and she is very stubborn #but that’s where i’ll stop for now with my headcanons because again i haven’t finished or gotten to the other major parts of the story yet #also i forgot to add bi tohru real to me #homestuck #batim #fruits basket #fnaf sb #dsaf

[akkivee]

so in regards to the bat charm, esp in the hella awesome banquet mv!!!!

the tag itself is called ofuda, a protective talisman!!! there are many different types of ofuda (omikuji are also classified as a kind of ofuda for instance) and throughout the hella awesome banquet mv, we do see the bat charm used as said various types!!!!

here in these two shots, we see the bat charm used as a senjafuda!!! senjafuda are these talismans with personalised designs that, once upon a time ago in japan, were passed around in secret councils like trading cards. ofuda typically have a deity written on it to call for luck, wealth, health, whatever said deity presides over. senjafuda, however, tend to have the person’s name on it and when people would go on pilgrimages, they’d stick the senjafuda on temple shrine gates like a very decorative ‘we were here’ tag lol

fits with the journey to hell narrative that seems to be happening in the mv!!!

and this type of ofuda is known as fuin no ofuda!!!! this one is used as a type of seal to keep evil, vengeful spirits enclosed and away from humans. the more powerful the spirit, the more seals are required to contain in the enclosed space. it’s already a little worrisome to see imagery of kuukou getting killed but this puts a evil spirit/vengeful spirit spin on top of it 🤔

#this is vee speaking #and i want to say there’s a traditional buddhist ofuda in a shot with jyushi #where the will o wisps are blazing on the charms behind him #those ofuda are imbued with the spirit and virtues of different buddhas and buddhist deities #but will o wisps are dead spirits lingering so hm 🤔 #and lol ofuda (お札) and bank notes in jp are written the same way (お札=osatsu) #so anytime the bat charm was falling on screen was bat making it rain— #i’ve been thinking ​if kuukou does have progressive memory loss that part in the mv could be a ref to it #it hasn’t REALLY been that long since we’d had kuukou associated with some sort of death imagery when the mv came out #like kuukou had thrown out the name of the tree gautama buddha died under in his cross a line verse lol #but MAN it feels like it’s been a minute since i had to think about it lol #still hoping all these death red flags kuukou waves around like a pro flag bearer don’t mean anything LOL #EDIT: posting as is but even tho this may have been only a hint to kuukou’s ability #i am still concerned WHY it needed to be depicted this way #it could be a red herring kinda thing to throw you off the trail and that might be what i’m hoping for lol #c: kuukou👑 #c: jyushi #c: hitoya

[llycaons]

Fengmian finally divorces Madam Yu and sits down with his kids after to have a talk. They all go to family therapy, even Yanli because she snapped at her boyfriend once and started crying after because she didn't want to turn out like their mom. Wei Ying probably gets properly adopted into the family.

wow guys good thing myu was the only problem in the jiang family dynamic and excising her will solve all the problems they have/s

#lets be real they would never fucking divorce first of all #myu and jfm are bound until death #also the problems in how jfm treats jc and wwx will not go away if myu leaves #family therapy is a start I guess but I don't think jfm cares about jc enough to try being better for him #the part abt jyl I do buy #also at this point he's an adult so legally I don't think they can adopt him? hm. anyway. FOOLISH #ficblogging

[rabiosass]

if the writers want me to care about tb in s2 i think it would do them some good to give them some good flaws and complex relationships

if they delved into jace's problems then i might start paying more attention to him. Dude's clearly got some type of complex about being a bastard but they didn't do much with that. they'll have a lot more time to explore his anger and any resentment he might be feeling.

Don't even get me started on baela and rhaena. I really want to know rhaena's thoughts about being a dragonless targ teen and her feelings toward her dad. Does she feel incompetent? Is she upset that he ignored her when she was younger? Does he still ignore her??! Throw me a bone please.

#once again this all kind of goes back to the writers' weird refusal to let tb have intrapersonal conflict with the exception of daemyra #and corlys/rhaenys too i guess?? in reality they discuss stuff then rhaenys goes along with what he decides so is that really conflict lol #also very weird but funny that people get offended when someone points out these things. im sorry but i just don't like how this unfolds. #peopl like. REFUSE. to admit that it's possible for there to be animosity between the kids and parents. just the act of thinking about it #is sacrilegious i guess. 'there is no evidence of resentment in the show! they clearly love and care for each other!' #ok but that's my whole problem. how is it possible they're 100% ok with everything that's happened so far. how are you watching this + #&not wondering 'hm i wonder how jace would react if it's revealed that rhaenyra and daemon faked laenor's death and laenor agreed to it?' #or 'i wonder how the girls reacted to daemon and rhaenyra's marriage?' #'that doesn't matter. they don't care. they love each other and don't hate or betray one another!' #idk ok.it just baffles me how many people are content and happy with the writers choosing the least compelling storytelling choices for tb #i guess that makes me and others absolute weirdos lol #me #HotD #HotD Headcanons

[cinnabeat]

im gonna be straight honest i think half the reason why i stopped reading dgm is bc lavi hadnt showed up in AGES

#he was my fave back then #if you ask me now its kanda tho #i stopped reading around when kanda finally found allen and i was like omg!! <3 #but yeah i stopped reading mostly bc there was so much time in between chapters that i forgot what was happening #also the fact lenalee hadnt shown up in forever either? #also it was getting a little too much depressing for me #thats my reason for stopping reading a lot of things ive realized which realy goes to show how amazing pandora hearts is for managing to kee #keep my interest through tears and all #i think maybe bc hm most stories that get really sad depressing tragic whatever is the lonliness #i think most of those stories focus on a single main character obvs and often the mc becomes isolated in some way #but ph strength was the character interactions and for me it was how even tho oz was the main character there was still a lot of #hmm like it showed so many different peoples povs you know? it wasnt focused solely on one person #so i dont feel like im drowning in angst? also the depressing bits were like. scattered? #i havent thought too hard about it but off the top of my head ph is about healing and acceptance? maybe?? #or idk #i really couldnt tel you what is it about ph that makes me like it so much despite the inherent tragedy to it all #im trying to think of the final death count but?? all im thinking of is break elliot oz and alice??? no wait and oscar too #so in the end its not like fucking everyone died #oh well i guess vincent too but that was in the fucking epilogue and also idc about him too much #omg im really trying to think of other people who died #ECHO omg forgot about my girl echo #i forgot where i was going with this #if i were so inclined i could totally write an essay about the themes of ph but that requires a heart of steel that i do not possess #michi tag #god i would kill for a ph anime i swear

[bitegore]

god one day i'll post my one-step-away-from-an-oc First Aid character takes and every first aid liker on the site will block me and then everything will make so much more sense to everyone

#in sum but not in detail: mad scientist with ethics and who just loves helping people but he wants to vivisect SOOOOO bad #if you gave him long enough for the sparkly eyed optimism to wear off and kicked him in the teeth long enough that he'd stop thinking he #could protect people he would be no different from someone like uhhhh hm. ....hm. we dont have a lot of well-intentioned mad scientists in #tf. he'd be closer to if wheeljack did experiments on people #best of intentions! beautiful goals! vivisection and trail of death behind him! #but he doesn't live in that kind of world so he doesn't become that kind of person. and he's able by the time he's mature enough to do #stuff to make sure he will never live in that kind of world #but he super wants to vivisect people. it's different if they're alive. the systems work differently than when they're reanimated pls pls p #and he's still hugely sweet and ethical about it all too. just. he wants to know how everything works. so he can make it work better #so he can help people so he can protect them. and fix them and make them better. but first he has to understand and to understand he has to #disassemble and reach in and touch and feel and change and *learn* and at some point that kind of thing becomes difficult to do ethically

[badwatervideos2009]

Either one, but the Jeff lore sounds neat!

i think that the most important canon jeff lore i could possibly give to you is the fact that jeff and liu live on a farm in ohio togather with liu's 3 kids and haven't killed a single person since 2017. this sounds so made up but it genuinely isn't

#another interesting jeff fact for you. he's tormented by a demon called The Hat Man. and also the hat man's real name is Angus #he's also being hunted by a bounty hunter because he killed the dude's parents when he was younger so that's a thing #creepypasta #instead of killing for the fuck of it in this story jeff apparently kills people he deems evil or corrupt. #but it's funny because sometimes he actually does just kill people for the fuck of it. he's quirky like that i guess #i was going 2 write out more but i genuinely cannot think of a way 2 word any of it #uh. hm. what are some horrid facts i can give you that aren't super complicated. #jeff is addicted to hard drugs. this is an important part of his lore apparently #all of liu's kids come from different moms. this man Fucks. also his wife is dead #jeff and liu are italian-american and from new jersey which isn't important in the slightest i just think about sometimes #jeff faked his own death and 'jeff the killer' is an actual urban legend in his own universe. #liu. has ptsd and is said to hate himself PLEASE get therapy sir............ #ask #anon #brody.txt