#i Just wanna. take A fucking nap

[beegswaz]

im Going to Start fucking Maiming no nvm. Anger has become sadness. Again. good Night i cant do this Shit rn

#i Have rehearsals Until 6 every fucking Day until Next friday all Of my silly plans fell through To go to the Movies fuckinnn #im Failing half of My classes i Have to take the AP exam in May #i desperately Need to Clean my fucking room i Have a test friday im Behind on 5 fucking Projects #i Just wanna. take A fucking nap #for Once #the Law of atlas if i Have one fun thing i Must instantly suffer The horrors #fun Thing: me and My friend Played around in the Creek at my School #the Horrors?: extreme Stress and Numbness and Art block and the Gate i use to Go home was locked #so I had to Walk all over Town just to get homr #with a Bad knee and a Stupid fucking Carry bag #sorry. this is Just me complaining #but i Dont want to Annoy tbh gc They all have things to Take care of #i Need to sleep please Ignore all Of this

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!! #its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying) #well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

[crybaby-bkg]

I haven’t been feeling too well physically for the past few weeks so I scheduled an appointment with my doctor and she told me to fill out these forms. I put down that I was allergic to a certain ingredient in most medications. she asked me again during the appt if I was allergic to anything and I told her that ingredient again. she gives me an antibiotic. can anyone guess what was in it (hint: the only thing I’m allergic to)

#I am. SO ANNOYED!!!!!!!! #this is the second time she’s done this #but the first time I didn’t even know I was allergic so I can’t be mad at her #BUT I REMINDED HER OF THE LAST TIME AND SHE STILL!!!!! SHE FUCKIN STILL DOES THE SAME THING!!!!!! #and it’s around my MOUTH this time and it fucking BURNS #like the skin is so tight and red and I hate it. #I wanna take some Benadryl but I have some work to do and it’s really frustrating me #I feel like a fussy baby LOL I just wanna nap #hopefully this work doesn’t take me too long to do :/ #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[thedarklordsnicklefritz]

Me: I know people are horny for ascended Astarion, and they're valid, but unascended is the "good" ending for his character, ascending just reinforces his flawed worldviews about kindness and power, it backtracks his character development and growth-

Someone: Ascended Astarion can turn into a cute Lil bat

Me: ASCENSION TIME

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #Astarion being able to turn into a bat is so fucking adorable okay??? #i have a weakness #i just wanna have him snuggle up into my pocket and take a lil nap while i carry him around

[diabratz]

belphie is real fuckin cute for someone who choked the absolute fuck out of me for fun

#i wanna take one of those big ass cartoon wooden hammers n hit him HARD ASF over the head with it #so he drops items like a fucking video game character #he drops like two pillows n an oversized hoodie LMFAOOOOOOOO #honestly his design……. genius #but also i need to fuck him up for healing purposes #i’ve literally never seen a character get so much development in the span of five fucking seconds #he went from ‘fuck mc and all humans’ to ‘mc can we cuddle 😞👉🏼👈🏼’ in like three secs #the way i hated him for a bit after that #like baby we not gonna zoom past u killing me !!!!!! my body was right there on the floor ?!!!!??????? #talking abt some ‘bae i changed bae 😫😫’ #get the FUCK outta my face with that BULLSHIT #and yk what he’s still more tolerable than levi to me 🤭 #yeah he may have killed me but is he on some ‘im just some weirdo loser otaku’ bullshit ???? no #actually 🤭 belphie needa move over i’m bouta nap too on MEEEEEEEE #obey me shall we date #obey me x reader #obey me belphegor #obey me mammon #obey me lucifer #obey me barbatos #obey me #obey me leviathan #obey me x mc #i love blowing up the tags fr #idc 🤪

[hajihiko]

No bc consider: They find Souda in his workshop, under the car and _oh god he's not moving_ everyone's devastated ofc but they start discussing who has an alibi and stuff... Souda wakes up to his friends discussing who killed him. He was just working on the car & passed out because he hasn't been sleeping well

It is now forbidden to take naps in suspicious locations. They can't take those kinda scares

#They have a 'I AM ASLEEP' ribbon to wear when you really did just wanna take a nap under a tree #Souda who is a machine expert: lying under the car as you do when you fix cars #Everyone else (sans Hajime) who doesnt know shit about cars: OH GOD HES BEEN CRUSHED OH FUCK #Akane lifts the entire truck and tosses it off. In an adrenaline fueled panic #Souda wakes up terrified AND SOMEONE WRECKED THE CAR HE WAS FIXING ?????? #Akane: asleep under a palm tree with coconuts scattered around #Everyone else (sans Hajime): SHE GOT BONKED ON THE HEAD NOOOOO #(it was the vitamin and iron deficiency what made her conk out) #Fuyuhiko every time with a little too much gusto: I SWEAR IT WASN'T ME I KNOW IM THE ONLY BORN AND BRED KILLER HERE BUT IT WASNT #Hajime every time: *5 seconds of pure panic before ultra perception sets in and he understands the situation*- #-' stop freaking each other out please. Please #Not an art #Talky talky Tuesday #It's that bear vine #NOOOOOOOO- oh hes fine

[bigolgay]

Which motherfucker gave me the flu😑

I felt a cough coming yesterday (not surprising. Everyone here is currently coughing up lungs).

Today I can’t stop coughing and breathing isn’t fun.

But that’s fine… and that’s all that was wrong this morning…

This afternoon?

Bitch I wish death upon me and whichever fucker came near me and gave me their disease.

Pounding headache (not dehydration related. But that did remind me to go fill up my bottle, thanks!) and feeling weak and shaky and I keep getting really nauseous.

So like textbook flu really.

Anyway.

I am filled with rage and hate.

Not really though, I’m still full of love and whimsy and am still just a silly little guy.

I will commit atrocities against every single person in existence.

With the exception of Reneé Rapp and the guy on tiktok who’s whole account is dedicated to him peeling garlic.

That’s my whole fyp btw. Just Reneé Rapp being stunning and funny and iconic and funny and beautiful and silly and relatable and beautiful and stunning and omg she can sing so well and make ears so happy omg. And then guy peeling garlic and throwing the naked cloves in a bucket of water and it makes nice *plonk* sound. I also had one about a cat who was on the list to be euthanised because she was aggressive after her kittens died, but she got adopted and they adopted her and a kitten to hopefully soothe her but she still wanted to go outside and find her babies and was getting so stressed about it. But then the family had a baby and suddenly she wasn’t stressed about the kittens she’d lost because she had a massive naked kitten that she claimed and I may or may not have cried then and I may be teared up now. IT WAS SO CUTE. SHE WAS CUDDLING THE BABY AND WAS KEEPING AN EYE ON THE SMALL CHILD WHILE IT WAS PLAYING AND SHE KEPT HEADBUTTING HER (which if I wasn’t talking about a cat would sound kinda fucked up?) AND IT WAS SO CUTE AND SHE FINALLY HAD HER OWN BABY AGAIN AND AHHHH NOW IM CRYING AGAIN.

Okay. I took a second to compose myself. I’m calm. I wanna nap but I’m too uncomfy to nap. And I don’t want to go get medicine because my Nan will start babying me☹️if I just don’t move at all and have the fan pointed at my feet I might be able to nap.

Guys be so proud of me, I bought a water bottle and I be sipping. Water still gross though. But we persevere (I dunno if that’s the right word).

I take a nap now maybe. Nunight. Love you. Kisses and handshakes and hugs and high fives.

#I always get the worst flu #so I predict it’s gonna get worse before it gets better #I had the flu for 2 whole weeks when I was younger and I did not stop throwing up the whole time #and then a couple years later I had it again #and I was throwing up so much I burst blood vessels in my face and it looked like I had chicken pox #and then I was free of flu for ages #until now… #I really don’t wanna throw up☹️ #okay I take nap #(I’m aware I’m being dramatic. I’m a pussy. also this is partly me dramatising it for funny’s) #(it’s genuinely not that bad. just uncomfy. but I will rage if this headache doesn’t fuck off) #who threw the tennis ball!?!🎾

[randomwriteronline]

@mcnixie i wrote a second one as a bonus (and apology)

special thanks to @ingo-ingoing-ingone for making me rotate kyurem n emmet in the microwave of my brain and @insane-control-room for figuring out what would be the best dish for the situation

The clicking started much sooner than last time. It started loudly, before the muted sound of human steps could fully reach its hardly functioning ears, and it allowed it to dull its aggression into a general wariness.

Kyurem did not look at him as he approached quietly, slowly, clicking his tongue at steady intervals. He stopped walking when the massive husk shifted and began lowering its body as though getting into a battle stance; instead, much to his surprise, it simply tucked its massive legs a little closer to its torso as it laid down even if still notably tense.

Emmet clicked again, a little louder and much quicker, without moving an inch. He hadn’t expected to be almost welcomed into its like that.

A chilling growl rattled through the chasm, covering the ground before the maw in frost.

Ah. Of course.

The human resumed his slow calming chanting, taking equally slow rhythmic steps forward as he played with the things he was holding onto. Even when he was so terribly, exhilaratingly close to the dragon, it did not in any way turn its head to take him in - a sign which meant it was at ease with him.

He laid out the large bowl as close to the muzzled maw as possible. Taking care to keep clicking his tongue, and to move as slow and silently as possible, he uncorked the thermos and poured part of its contents.

Even with such terribly damaged senses, Kyurem picked up the smell.

Emmet watched it turn blindly towards the ceramic on the cold ground, grunting quietly what should have been a few cautious sniffs; it carefully dipped the icy tip of its muzzle into the warm liquid with a tentative motion and remained perfectly still for what felt like hours.

Then it took a sip that drained half the bowl.

A low rumble reverberated through the cold hollow body.

With a second sip the warm treat was already finished. The man refilled the dish with more broth, and looked as the horrible beast sank its jagged teeth back in it and drank it all in only two laps before diligently awaiting the next serving.

They repeated this curious ritual until the first thermos was completely empty, and then again, until the second one was too, and then Emmet absentmindedly gazed with his cheek pressed against the cold rough skin at Kyurem as it licked and scraped the ceramic for any more warm droplets left in the bowl like any other domesticated well-loved pokémon would have done while whistfully wishing he’d prepared a third one.

This entire situation was...

Awfully surprising.

Who knew the same terrifying, cold, barely capable of feeling beast that had held the region hostage in its own freezing cage happened to apparently have a soft spot for a little too salty vegetable soup.

His warm sigh condensed on the cold scales. No thoughts, no worries plagued him at that moment. A comfortable emptiness enveloped him.

If he could have brought a pot and fire, and grown produce down here... Maybe he would have remained like this, last priest of a long gone Dragon, sacrificing vegetable broth to its shell to appease it. The idea wasn’t necessarily bad. In that moment it was to a new leaf to turn to like any other. A change of pace: stillness instead of constant movement, quiet instead of screaming rails, loneliness instead of passengers stuffed into cars like sardines. Pretty radical for an early midlife crisis but he couldn’t find any complaints about it.

Ah, but it would have grown boring.

Eating the same thing every day.

“Have you ever been to the sea?”

The pokémon growled without any real aggression.

An old memory, maybe. Devoid of color or smell or taste.

Hm.

“I’ll make you seafood soup next time.“

Unless he was imagining things - which he likely was - the grumbled reply seemed to be looking forward to it.

#pokémon #kyurem #submas emmet #random writing #alert! big fucking bioweapon of a dragon has a sippy #i keep thinking of drawings where emmet is just laying on kyurem like hes takin a nap #huggin its neck loosely #kyurem is just chilling. loafing even. best time of its life tbh #also very funny scenarios are kyurem with one of those yellow NERVOUS harnesses you see usually on dogs #and emmet actually taking this huge thing back home #drayden: uhm. what the fuck have you got there. #emmet (trying to hide kyurem under a comically small blanket): a thermos full of soup #unfortunately i Cannot Fucking Draw so im just stuck thinking #if any of yall ever wanna draw anything of what i said. please. please show me

[skitskatdacat63]

There's this nearly 4 hour movie I've been meaning to watch for a while and I was like "ah maybe ill watch it tonight hehe 🥰" and then I remember...quali is at 9 🫠

#i actually despise abu dhabi being the seaosn closer ngl #basically since Japan the race time has suited my timezone pretty well #1 am. 1 pm. 3 pm. 4 pm. 12 pm. 1 am. #<- like look at that. look at they absolutely delicious schedule #every race for the past 2 months has been at an ideal time and ive really settled into it #wow you mean i can sleep in on weekends and actually wnjoy the schedule!? oh boy! #and then they put fucking ad at the end which is at 8 am. who wants to wake up that early on a sunday #it would be fine if it was earlier in the season bcs during the middle i got pretty used to waking up before 9 bcs all the European races #but to have this one at thw end is literally horrible #its really down to timezones but fuck it really does bother me #bcs wow youve made me have zero desire to watch the season closer! thanks!! #id sooooo much rather brazil be the season closer still #like whh do you have to completely switch timezones right at the very end. its terrible #i think ill do waht i did last season and take a bit of a nap beforehand #it makes it much worse that this on a holiday wknd too. yeah bcs i rly wanna spend the last two days of my break waking up in the morning #sry im being ultra salty rn but i really dont wanna wake up for it but i hate missing race events UGHHHHHH #last yr i literally fell asleep during the first lap of AD 😭 #yeah im concerned abt if nando will retain p4 or not but...waking up before 8 am...?? #yeah idk i just rly dislike this scheduling #i actually kinda like AD as a track but its position in the season makes me resent it #catie.rambling.txt

[cherry-bomb-ships]

God such a shame that timeline-wise it wouldn't make much sense for my s/i to be in the PPG movie because I am thinking so hard abt it right now

#ALREADY WANNA REWATCH THAT GODDAMN MOVIE. FUCK #specifically thinking about the climax eh. ehehehehehehe EEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE #if u know u know (i feel like maybe. three people will know 😂) #love how when i watched this movie 3 weeks ago i was just focused on how hard that last 15 or so minutes goes #and now im still doing that but also kinda go 😳😳😳👉👈 #ANYWAYS. imma try to take a 30 min nap bye. 💖💖💖💖💖 #ruby rambles #💜: loving you's a felony #🍒🧬: emotional processing lag

[daincrediblegg]

don't you just love when you have been absolutely gagging to write your fanfic and to have some free time to do some serious progress but when you finally have a fucking day off you can't write fuck all? 🙃🙃🙃

#boy they were right that existence sure can fucking prison #this madness has to end like just let me write about my babygirl. why can't you let me do that? I had FOUR HOURS TODAY #and ALL I WANNA DO is TAKE a NAP

[wanghyunjiin]

A reminder that no one asked for: DO NOT convince yourself you can pack up your apartment in one day. You can’t.

#I- #I’ve only been packing for 2 hours but holy shit I can’t wait for it to be over I just wanna be in my new place and take a nap on the floor #packing is the fucking worst #UNpacking is the fun bit #😭 #someone do it for me

[screambirdscreaming]

ok this is a long fucking shot but does anyone out here know anything about. Allergies but rather than having itchy runny-nose symptoms you just feel systemically like shit. Like fatigue, nausea, vague headache, moderate-to-severe excercise intolerance, that sort of thing. But correlated to like, pollen exposure. Or just air quality in general?

The best ballpark diagnosis I have is asthma, but I've never actually had An Asthma Attack so I don't know if that's.... right. And even if it is, I can't really find good research or resources on managing systematic effects of asthma at this like... non-acute, non life-threatening severity.

Sometimes with weird medical shit like this, there's information that exists if only you can find the right keyword to search.... maybe somebody's got something?

Or even just, it'd be nice to hear if anyone elae deals with this and I'm not, like, completely insane*

*for this. other insanity unspecified.

#every day for the last week I've woken up and my immediate first thought has been #Ugh i wanna take a nap #Not even like “i didn't sleep enough I want to sleep longer” #But like. I need a completely different kind of sleep. That makes me rested. #In a way that neither sleeping or any type of restful activity or non-activity I've tried has accomplished. #fatigue is stupid!! It sucks!! #And every time I have had a bit of energy I've immediately totally overdone it and fucked myself up #Because I'm BORED I'm TIRED of being too fucking tired to do anything!! #Finally just put together today that it might be the same goddamn allergies that always get me #At this time of year. #After going outside to walk around in the sun and look at plants (always good for my brain) #And getting lightheaded and short of breath #So that's super cool and completely unhelpful. I already take daily allergy meds #And they help! But only so much #I've tried an inhaler and corticosteroid spray but the side effects suck #So it's just. Untreatable unless it gets bad enough for the side effects to be worth it I guess? #I feel like I should be more grateful it's not more severe. #I know a lot of people have it worse. #But it's frustrating also to be stuck in a place where it's not bad enough to *do* anything about #Ugh sorry this is very long and self-involved #And i will possibly delete it in a minute #I just gotta yell into the void here

[annieisyourfavourite]

today might be the day i've been the most uncomfortable and upset at treatment from the trainees, even tho it's not even by far the worst stuff they've said

a man was cutting me off and acting in an accusatory fashion because i was acting tired and "your eyes look droopy". Which, people sometimes question my tired demeanor, but not usually so insultingly and aggressively. And then in the notes after, he said if he was in charge, he would have ordered a urinary test for drugs or medication by the end of the day. Based on meeting me for 15 minutes. And because I was tired at 8:30 in the morning.

Like. Not even close to the most egregious shit someone has said to me in character. But to have him in the debrief be even LESS compassionate and more suspicious of my "abnormalities", even taking into account that I got annoyed at him for asking. Like I'm playing a traumatized person for the scenario. And I, the actor, have many different disabilities related around fatigue. So the fact that he wasn't even listening to me, and couldn't FATHOM any reason why the human being in front of him would be tired and a little slow in the morning.

And then even after explaining that, another woman noted that I had both a coffee cup and a water bottle, and was suspicious as to why I had both, or why I coughed a couple times. And that made me mad enough to log off. I left for lunch after reminding them that the actress in front of them was obviously also a human being with needs, who had been having interviews for almost an hour straight. So I just needed water. Like not everything that someone in CPS does is suspicious!!!!!!

And it's hard, normally I wouldn't log off bc I was mad. But like. I just simply couldn't take it anymore. Like the disrespect of me, the actress, as a person, was so gross. And the inherent suspicion that someone who is tired or speaking slowly or drinking different beverages MUST be hiding something Bad is just. Blech. Usually the interviewers aren't like this but it just felt very ableist and personally dehumanizing

#mine #professional theatre life #fuck work #idk they might talk to me about it later #but i mentioned i was personally insulted by these degrading comments #bc i AM a disabled person #like the charatcer is supposed to be 'normal' so anything I do that isn't 'normal' #is suspicious and looked down on and insulted #idk. ableist and gross and i kinda wanna cry #but i have 2 take a nap and go back for the afternoon :( #fyi i work as a simulation actor for training CPS workers #so they practice interview me so they can get notes and work on their stuff #before they get in front of an actual person #so i know this is a good learning experience #i just wish it didn't come on behalf of me experiencing ableism #whatever this is a rant i just had 2 get my feelings out

[tamyonmyonmyon]

I keep learning the hard way that letting neurotypicals or institutions know I'm disabled is the worst fucking idea

#I just got a note on ny grades saying I've received curriculum modifcations and extra help #when that's an absolute lie #My disability doesn't come from having problems learning it comes from rushing things #which I think any literal basic human does #anyways if they have adapted the classes (they did not) then all the non neurodiv students that fail classes are less able than me then?? #like fr if this is “classes with modifications” I don't even wanna know what type of shit they do to classes that don't have autistic people #Do they want to take the credit for my high grades or say that I only got those because they adapted them to me?? #Fucking bastards fr I am napping to not think #tam's insane ramblings