#i am being attacked on all sides

[thedreadvampy]

legitimately insane how to some people, "we should wipe out this ethnic group that we've violently constrained to a ghetto because they're just genetically more violent and dangerous" is a reasonable and justifiable statement but it's Nazi Rhetoric to say something like, "it's bad that Israeli civilians are being killed but acknowledging that as tragic includes acknowledging that the almost daily state-sanctioned murder of civilians by the Israeli government is also tragic and unacceptable"

btw guys speaking of Nazi shit - can we check in, alongside what's been done to Palestinians in the last 75 years, what's the Israeli government's take on the Azerbaijani government's newest round of ethnic cleansing of Armenians? oh are the Israeli government's actions maybe not determined by Jewish identity, but by a commitment to colonial supremacy which puts them on the same page as other violently genocidal states like Azerbaijan, the US, and the UK? god can you Even Imagine?

(framing speaking against Israeli war crimes as inherently antisemitic requires understanding the Israeli state as representing all Jewish people, when it doesn't even represent all Israelis.

framing Israeli war crimes as synonymous with Jewish identity is pretty fucked up if we're being honest. I don't think that controlling water and power and movement for a captive population and shooting children dead for throwing stones is an inherent value of Judaism, any more than I think the torture carried out at Guantanamo Bay is an inherent value of Christianity - in both cases they're atrocities carried out by a far right genocidal government using religious identity as a shield.

Calling statements like "Israel is committing genocide against the people it's displaced" inherently antisemitic is doing more to further the idea that all Jewish people are associated with Israel than saying "the Israeli government is doing war crimes," which is a statement of fact about a country that exists and does war crimes. Is criticism of Israel as a nation often used as cover for antisemitism? Absolutely. Does that mean the Israeli government isn't doing literal war crimes repeatedly, on record, while talking publicly about scrubbing an ethnic group off the map? Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh well in the last 48 hours they've definitely cut off water and power to almost 600,000 civilians and allegedly used white phosphorus against civilians so in an extremely factual and unambiguous way yeah man those are Literal War Crimes whoever does them.)

#red said #sorry man saying 'it's bad to do genocide and war crimes' doesn't actually mean 'I'm happy when Jewish people die' #it means 'there is a context to Palestinian militants attacking Israelis which involves Palestinians being killed wounded or imprisoned #very nearly every day by the Israeli state and settlers. so no you can't treat a Palestinian attack on Israel as an unprecedented tragedy #without also recognising that Israeli forces have repeatedly visited attacks of similar magnitude on Palestine which is ALSO tragic #as well as the regular state-sanctioned murder of over 200 Palestinians in the 9 months BEFORE the Palestinian attack on Saturday #It means 'Palestinian lives don't matter less than Israeli lives' not 'Israeli lives don't matter' #this week is literally the FIRST TIME SINCE RECORDS BEGAN that more Israeli lives have been lost than Palestinian #bc for every year since 2000 orders of magnitude more palestinians than Israelis have been killed in this war #you don't get to say 'it's only bad when X ethnic group is killed it's GOOD to kill Y ethnic group' then accuse OTHERS of genocide apologis #it is legitimately a tragedy for Israeli civilians to be killed and wounded en masse. the people are not the nation. #but it's not less of a tragedy for Palestinians to have been killed and wounded en masse week after week for decades. #and when peaceful protest gets you shot and bombed and acting against the military gets you shot and bombed #and just existing doing nothing at all gets you shot and bombed. living near someone accused of terrorism. looking for your fucking cat. #when you're getting shot and bombed daily whatever you do. it's not surprising that sometimes people move to violence against civilians. #because as people from Gaza have said. better to die fighting for survival than die on your knees waiting. #which like. I'm not making a moral judgement one way or the other bc i am intrinsically disgusted by mass killing. as we all should be. #and this might be the movement which liberates Palestine and it might be the excuse which allows Israel to finish Palestine #and either way hundreds of people are dead on both sides and however you slice it that's a fucking tragedy #but we cannot. treat it as if Hamas' strike began the violence. and ignore the 200+ Palestinians killed by the IDF this year beforehand #Palestinian lives matter as much as Israeli lives. 700 Israeli citizens dead is a tragedy. 600 Palestinians dead is a tragedy. #and if you lay out the numbers from this weekend alone you can pretend that Israelis are getting decimated by Palestine. #but to do that you have to ignore the facts that for every 1 Israeli killed in the past decade 3 Palestinians die. #and that Israeli deaths happen in occasional outbursts of violence while Palestinian deaths happen every week #whether or not Hamas or any other Palestinian faction initiates violence

[bittersweetblasphemy]

hey so i really dont appreciate being confronted with graphic depictions of something that i know is a trigger for me. like. i have a dozen tags and key words blocked around this one thing because i know it's my responsibility to curate my own online experience.

but if you're going to post this thing, which is vastly different from your regular content. with absolutely no appropriate tags. is extremely graphic. all for the sake of guilting me into caring about a current event i already care about but have fuckall control over as a poor cripple who lives oceans away. i really don't appreciate it.

#vent #look i already blocked the person who did it #and sure whatever im the asshole here by not caring enough to stare at something that's extremely triggering #because that's going to magically give me the ability to fix the issue #but im seriously fighting off a major goddamn panic attack rn and i am very not okay #might be quiet for a while #i no longer make any promises about my halloween posts #being bombarded from all sides about political issues i already had filtered so i had ONE place to get way from it #was the reason for my last multi-year hiatus #and this one hit an extremely specific trigger #i hope i can shake it off and be back quick #but fucks sake man what the hell #if you wanna post about something you find important that's great #but please tag #it's not like it was just a general post #i wouldn't be this upset over that #this was a very graphic image with zero warning #not cool

[popsicle-stick]

alexa play take the long way home by supertramp.......................

#i just want to be home so bad..............home being the other side of the planet #i realise how silly and privileged this sounds. #i wish i could appreciate where i am more but im just so tired. and too poor for this. im tired of having panic attacks about money #i was way too polite to say no to this huge trip that i really could not afford and i wish i'd have put my foot down from the start #its all my own fault really for letting myself into this situation #feels a massive shame to be spending what is an extremely expensive once-in-a-lifetime opportunity just counting the days till i can go hom #but that is what i am doing. trying to make what money i have left last #i miss dorset so bad. when im in england i hate it but when im away i miss its soft hills

[curiosity-killed]

i watched one (1) movie about big pharma and now am researching the allergy meds i've been on for 18-13 years and connecting unexpected dots

#i don't actually understand enough about pharmacology to be that confident in anything #but am now curious if being on daily antihistamines for most of my life contributes to having The World's Driest Fucking Skin #and also intrigued by the fact that the reason i was told they didn't keep me on prednisone year-round (despite it being the only med that #actually lets me breathe completely freely + have a sense of smell) is that it causes bone loss #but ??? it apparently also suppresses the immune system? #which ig sort of makes sense if allergies are essentially ur immune system going whack attack at random benign shit #and FASCINATED by the fact antihistamines can be used for insomnia when they r in fact #insomnia making drugs for my family #also this is all a reminder i rlly rlly need to go see an in-person allergist sometime this year #both bc i'm apparently due to get my lungs checked and also bc i would like to talk w/ someone abt the montelukast thing #like i am not eager to go off it bc it's the most effective med i've had in #y'know #18 yr of allergies #but the side effects are. kind of a lot.? and were not explained when i was started on it #so would just like to see what my options are #also start allergy shots x_____x #personal #this has been medical history with curio hour

[shwarmii]

it's just me and my Homegoods' autumn leaf print in black microfiber blanket against the world

#i apologize if im being incoherent tonight. its bc i am chatty when ive gone without sleep for too long #all the lines are blurred. the filter is gone. i am just gonna say/do anything to distract from thiS STUPID FUCKING NAUSEA AHHH #v tempted to watch a ghibli movie on my phone if this keeps up. ive been nauseous fOR TWO DAYS STRAIGHT. STOP IT #ive heard of/experienced painsomnia before (insomnia induced by pain). but is nauseomnia a thing?? idk how to spell #me all the time: boo streaming sucks. own movies instead. but the dvd #also me: i am buying these movies to stream from my phone whenever i am sick/have an attack #incredibly illegal that MY FAVORITE MOVIE EVER doesnt have my FAVORITE DUB EVER on streaming anywhere #like bitch Castle Of Cagliostro saved my fucking life bc i was stuck in a pitch dark room with no electrocity and it was in #a strange house and my family was on the opposite side of the house and i was having my first anxiety/panic attack #and i had a fear of the dark and thought i was gonna die. so then i went ''might as well watch something nice while i die'' and my #portable dvd player was all charged up and i had brought 8 dvds with me. i was like 10? maybe younger. and one of them was #Lupin III: Castle Of Cagliostro bc my dad was a Miyazaki nut as SOON as the movies were coming out with English dubs #of course he was grabbing Miyazaki's directorial debut. and David Hayter voice Lupin/the Manga Studios dub iS BETTER #bob bergen as Lupin's english va in Caglisotro is FINE but so much is clunky and unnatural about that dub's script #aND YET ITS THE VERSION ON ALL THE STREAMING VERSIONS. AND NOT THE MANGA STUDIOS DUB. smh let me watch mY #FAVORITE/COMFORT MOVIE WHILE IM SICK. DAVID HAYTER'S VOICE IS PIVOTAL TO MY ENJOYMENT. I AM ATTACHED #someone either let me download that movie onto my phone or else surgically remove Whatever Is Causing My Nausea pls and thanks #diary dump #shwarmi #me

[pepprs]

im discontent and tired but like too discontent and tired to put it into words i think. lol

#purrs #prefacing this as usual by saying that i love my job. but also… every single situation. EVERY situation. is a primal situation in one way. l #like either i am dying of hunger / thirst / sleep deprivation and feeling it so hard i can’t focus on my work or i am so stressed that i am #being chased into a hidey hole by all the pressures or i am projecting my parents onto ppl and reliving primal moments of abaondoment and ex #exclusion LMFAO. And it’s like there’s no wonder i am so fucking exhausted every day when i come home i have lived 746 lifetimes in the last #8-9 hours. but it’s just so insane and im so tired. i literally thought i was gonna have an anxiety attack earlier today and it was bc i had #health anxiety bc my heart was pounding so hard over my facilitation anxiety that i got scared my heart was legitimately going to give out a #and then i started spiralling and like. lol i don’t think that’s healthy. i just want the election to be over so fucking bad but also i cant #just throw up my hands and give up and hope for the best i am literally being paid to give everything i have to making the world better so i #im gonna do it it’s just i am so often like the youngest and least experienced person in the room and im insecure about that and also i am j #just scared like… as a person and it’s just a lot to deal with i guess. lol #guess i was able to put it into words lol. but the moments of me projecting shit are so annoying bc then i get mad and then my feelings get #hurt bc no one notices im mad but also i don’t want anyone to notice im mad bc im being stupid for literaly no reason so. idk im just #ear ripped tated right now over stupid stupid shit that genuinely does not matter and has no bearing but when it’s little things that build #up over the course of the day… idk. it’s just hard 💃🏻 #delete later #this is abt smth that happened in a meeting today brw it’s not abt anyone including irls i saw today / this week i love u 😽 #also side note i saw literally SO many of the ppl closest to me this week. like that used to be an almost every day occurrence and i think t #this week not only did i see… like not to name drop on my tumblr blog with redacted followers but not only did i see you markya and #david but i saw tirzah AND brandon AND radia. WTF!!!!! that’s so many of my favorite people all in one week!!!! :DDDDDDD #(omg pretend i put ‘you’ after all the ppl it applies to)

[miraculouslumination]

Honestly I kind of don't like the way some people talk about tone tags on social media - like it sometimes feels like people are two steps away from returning to the "x accommodation isn't useful for ME therefore it's Morally Bad and Cringe and I'm going to make fun of anyone and everyone who uses it" such as what happened with fidget spinners and other stuff like that

And all I can say is that tone tags are literally just that. An accommodation. Specifically, a personal one

Yes, there are a lot of acronyms, and I do agree it's kind of ridiculous to expect people to remember all of them! Especially fellow ND people with bad memory or even anxiety over having to remember each one! However, literally like everything else, especially with accommodations like this, please remember

What works for you, does not always work for others

I am a highly anxious autistic ADHD person, and I often have had many high anxiety episodes because of something friends would text me and then say "it was just a joke" - when I am already in the height of anxiety, telling me later that "I was joking" hardly helps

For example, I once had a friend say "all of [my] OCs are cringe ass babies" (literally a direct quote from our DMs)

This fucking sent me down, emotionally and mentally, into the crust of the earth - and I told her that "hey, you said something really rude, and I didn't like it" as I could feel my chest growing heavy and tight and my body shaking because this HURT - a LOT

And then she says "wait - what? I'm sorry I was just joking" which she meant genuinely, but my brain still questioned it

Now, for me, personally, if it was "your OCs are a bunch of cringe ass babies /j /lh" then I would be able to decipher and read her message as a light-hearted, poke-to-the-ribs type joke. Otherwise I cannot tell what someone's tone is at all, and with a comment like that, my anxiety (coupled with the fact I've had people irl maliciously attack me for my art + character design skills) will just assume the worst

I have read countless Calm messages as Loud and Angry, and I have read Upset messages as Bored and generally just got confused by them, and it has always created problems that could be so easily solved with an accommodation such as this

I, personally, suck at reading tone. And I've seen some people say "well, you can just slap tone tags on anything, even if you don't mean it" and....yeah. That's the flaw of any language. I can say that I'm not mad at anyone in my friend group, even when I am absolutely furious with one or multiple of them. I can say "jk lol 😂" and "omg it was JUST a joke 🤣" after calling someone's mom a fat, lazy cow who belongs in a barn and subsequently making them upset, even if I was being insulting.

ANYONE can do this. Language existing means people are going to use it to lie, to make themselves and their intentions look better. Hell, everything online revolves around this constant chance of "maybe the 22 year black butch autistic lesbian I'm donating money to online is actually a 40 year old upper class white cishet allistic woman who just wants to scam a bunch of queers"

And yeah, some of the acronyms do have multiple meanings from previous generations of texting lingo. However, again, that's just LANGUAGE!! Especially in the online world!

Hell, ASL and ASL exist. One is Age, Sex, Location? - a question often asked online about another person! And the other is American Sign Language.

And even for text lingo, you'd have so many overlaps!

FTW and FTW - one meaning For the Win, and the other Fuck the World.

Just...I don't know, I think I take all these little "jokes" so personally because I am one of those people who needs this accommodation. I don't expect everyone who interacts with me to use them, and I don't think we should expect everyone to use them - ESPECIALLY some of the more specific ones.

And yes, some people are fine with substitutes, such as saying "genuinely, please stop sending me photos of bugs. I'm not angry, I just don't want to see them" or even "he is my little bastard man (affectionate)" or whatever!

Just. I don't know. I'm just asking y'all to not make tone tags into the next "lol cringe autistics and their fail accommodations" thing. Even if you don't like it or need it.

#Jean rants #Tone tags #Accommodations #Autistic #ADHD #Long post #Yeah this got longer than I wanted to #But literally I am just asking for people to keep being open-minded on this #What doesn't work for you may work for someone else #And that's okay!! that is literally how people are built!! #I just hate people dogpiling and dunking on an accommodation that literally saves me from so many anxiety attacks in my day to day life #I feel so erased in these discussions and like my side of things don't matter #Because ''lol acronyms'' #Yes it is ableist to expect people to remember all tone tags #And even for everyone to use them #And YES it is ableist to say that tone tags are evil bad and useless and anyone who uses them is an asshole #Both of these can should and DO coexist

[transgaysex]

my emotions are all over the place

#wind howls #i feel like i am in a state of a mild anxiety attack. #perhaps i am anxious. huh. #atsv left me feeling weird which isnt a bad thing and i know that Specifically will pass. it happened with totk as well #but the travel to the movie and back were not great #so now im not feeling great. my body hurts and i feel vaguely sick. #i think a big part of it is me just. ranting to my boyfriend abt those events and my sibling listening in on me and texting me abt it #i think. that really really bothered me. my own privacy is very important to me. and i hate when it feels like thats taken from me #next time ill just text from the get go i guess. but also im just upset still. #i dont know how my sibling expects me to take their side in an 'argument' when the other side is my 11 year old baby sister. #and its not even an argument. its my baby sister just being a child and my sibling taking offense to her being a kid. #and like. its not even a case of me liking one of my siblings more than another. this is a case of 'youre being needlesly cruel to a kid.' #and somehow they havent realized by now that a kids wellbeing will always be more important to me than literally anything else. #especially when the kid is my own baby sister. #i dont like getting into arguments with my sibling because theyre strong and confrontational but also theyre just 18. almost 19. #theyre an adult ! but they still have all their teenage immaturity and fragility. #which obviously they refuse to acknowledge. because of the aforementioned immaturity and fragility. #genuinely if i had to pick anyone in my family that should talk to a therapist first. it would easily be my sibling. #i hope they get better soon for their own sake because i love them but my patience is running thin.

[mejomonster]

You know when your anxiety is so bad it's physically obvious :/

Yeah I have no idea how to unlearn that

#rant #was Harshly reminded recently that i still hunch my back and tilt my head like igor and try to look small #and do a fake smile that looks awkward (but pitiful so im hopefully not attacked more) #when im in an even remotely emotionally vulnerable sitatuon with new people #its so ugly. i know its ugly. i know if a stranger saw me theyd say HEY relax! stand up straight its okay! youre safe bro! #but here i am :c i swear i look normal and even sociable and confident when i am with safe friends or alone #but yeah i had to talk to some strangers ane be on public and i physically felt my body contorting to look small and twisted up almost like #its curling inward like a turtle. and even being AWARE of it i could not stop it #i do it in videos when nervous too. my shoulders hunch and my mouth starts moving only one side of it #so i talk in a peculiar way that i personally find so ugly and awkward but seems instinctive when strangers are looking #the other day i sat in q chair and felt myself contort i hate it. i want to make my body stop doing all of that!!! #but i dont know how!!! #i already have fairly low anxiety its not even like im real anxious! its just a physical ingrained habit from almost a decade ago! #when id feel Too Big then have public panic attacks. so i got super physically locked down and tried to phyiscally hide #to try and keep the panic attacks from being as highly visible

[kanene-yaaay]

Nothing better than to think about Mob Pyscho 100 and how it is a story about self acceptance and love and how you are able to impact everyone around you just like everyone can change you as well and then when I realize I am already crying about that awesome anime once again literally twice because it's *beautiful*

#spoilers #mp100 thoughts #it's just..... this anime is so much full of love #love for your friends that accepts you and make you discover new things to be happy about. #love for your brother that is there for you no matter what and that cares so much that it hurts him #love for your master that is silly and pretentious but that *cares* and guides and helps and listens and and and #love for your childhood crush because she was the one that knew all the sides of yourself and accepted them anyway #love for the spirit that is grumpy and sarcastic but that would do anything to help him when he needs #love for the club that still accepts and cheers him thro all the challenges again and again #love for his friend who once was an enemy but now is at his side at any moment that he needs for absolutely anything #there is just..... aaaarg! so much of it! for the people that attacked him but now is out there living their normal lifes! #and love for himself. that last part of him finally starting to accept his powers healed me in ways that I didn't even realize that I neeed #gosh #maybe I will rb this with all my rambles about the characters and especially Ritsu because they give me so much feelings #kanene being kanene #it's 12 am which means that is the perfect time to hug my sis while sobbing ny hearts content because a bunch of 2d characters made me #wonder about the beauty of live and the importance of giving yourself a chance to live #f u c k #and gosh the bean is like 14 years old calm down mah man calm down

[caffeinatedopossum]

I just realized something really sad

I have two best friends outside of tumblr (my only irls that aren't roommates basically) and one of them I try to talk to constantly but she doesn't always respond, in fact she kind of barely does. I want to talk to her all the time but I always feel like I'm boring her or like she doesn't understand why I can't do some of the things I can't do.

The other one is always trying to talk to me, usually trying to call me. But I rarely ever pick up or respond or text first. My relationship with her is really complicated because some of my alters are very hurt from some things she did a while ago, others just don't trust her, and then the ones that front when we talk love her.

I have so many mixed feelings and the switches triggered by that mean I always don't answer or forget because I have dissociative amnesia about her trying to contact me in the first place... I don't know, I don't want to make excuses for myself but I genuinely don't know if this is a valid reason for treating her the way I do or if I'm an awful friend. Of course, it could also be both. I just don't know what to do. I don't want her to feel neglected by me like I sometimes do with my other friend.

#for some context about what the things that hurt these alters were ill elaborate here in the tags #so me and friend 2 have been friends for a very long time. since i was about 13-14 and were both adults now #i was raised Christian and it deeply traumatized me. i didnt deconvert until i was about 17 and even then was back and forth #i know theres a lot of variability in Christianity and maybe not everyone raised Christian will be traumatized #but i really really was. and if youve seen some of my posts about my religious trauma youll know why #when i was 18 i had just moved out of my moms house and was basically crashing on a friends couch/floor #i was extremely stressed and vulnerable at the time #and during that time my friend tried to reconvert me #i dont remember exactly what she said but it devolved into arguing and i had a panic attack over it at least once #we didnt talk for a while #shes also stated pretty directly before that she believes being transgender (which i am) is wrong #i let it slide because she apologized and stopped pushing the matter #she almost never brings it up anymore #and parts of me forgive her but other parts don't #i feel like i should also talk about the ways that shes a good friend because this is gonna make it seem really one sided otherwise #so for one shes been with me through the hardest years of my life #talking me down from taking my life late into the nights... being there when no one else was... reminding me that im worth something #shes been patient and kind and supportive all this time #she was also the person who eventually got me to realize that my parents and even my siblings were abusive and neglectful #which was a very big deal for me #i wouldnt have lived this long without her suppory #even now she checks in on me #making sure im not suicidal and reminding me that shes here for me #always reaching out if i havent responded in a while just to make sure im okay #she also struggles with a lot of the same stuff as me having had ptsd depression and an eating disorder before #so she helps me feel less alone #but now i dont ever feel close to her #and i dont know if i ever will again #i feel cruel for not telling her the truth if i haven't forgiven her yet but I don't think itd do any good for her to know

[ampharos-posts]

can i PLEASE report my problem to the tumblr staff?

#i am being SIEGED #attacked from all sides #god.

[megagrind]

*heart pounding, body shaking, losing feeling in the extremities, genuinely feel like I’m about to die rn* damn those Starbucks refreshers have caffeine in them don’t they

#rip to the girlies who drink caffeine to stay awake my body cannot handle that #pulled an all nighter last year. immedietly had a caffeinated cider. had my first major panic attack in 6 months #you think I’d learn but no #I’ve been up since 8am pacific time #it’s currently 5 am pacific time #made the mistake of getting a tasty Starbucks drink and here we go again #I did just take a big shit and feel a little better but still #cant sleep now cuz panicking ✌️ and also waiting for plane number 3 #found out the hard way I cannot sleep on the plane #so maybe I’ll get some shit eye at noon…or 9am pacific time #on the bright side I bought a book and a plushie and my whole emotional well being is currently resting on those two object #never doing a red eye again jeezus Christ

[spade-club]

Was it really leading you on if I also let you down? Or do you really just hate the idea of me being happy without you? /not at you

#im getting angery about things from almost two years ago again haha oops #but honestly. you cant just fucking traumatize me and expect me not to be pissed??? #just tell me I'm a monster and you hate everything I am. #like. do you know how hard it is to be going through someone sexualizing you constantly no matter how much you ask them to stop #and have your best fucking friend yelling at you because you're such a monster who's going to ruin this poor boy #and have her tell you she tied her self worth to your capacity to like men?? #like. cool. okay. fuck you I guess. #its so bullshit #like. I'll admit I didnt treat her great. i let her believe she had a chance with dating me #when ultimately that was probably never going to happen again #but also like. I just like having close friends I flirt with. thats how I do relationships. and I made that clear. #and I even toned it down and we talked about it all the time #so maybe actually I didnt??? idk #point is its still fucked up that she would honestly tell me how much I suck as a hostile way of attacking me for not dating her #and THEN a few months later managed to get mad at me again for.... being triggered by something she said #so anyway uh. when you have someone in your life and you know how mean they can be #dont tell yourself its okay because they arent hostile to you. they could just as easily be hurting you the moment their rose glasses fall #if you dont want to be on their bad side. do you really want to be on their good side? #sad posting #<- not really but its personal and I'm scatterbrain thinking #soz if it doesnt make a lot of sense I'm. strugglebus #I might try to explain better later because those moments have really lodged their way in my brain and it sucks

[anditendshowyoudexpect]

Spotify says Kim Yuna's new album is out and i think well maybe this is something to listen in the shower to as a break from the dark towering tonight

but it's not like i'm a fan, i suspect an album would be too much, all the previous ones have been

i think i first heard Kim Yuna in Mr. Sunshine's "Day Without Tears" (gawd what a misnomer, i still can't not tear up whenever i listen to that song, it's been six years ffs) but BUT it so happened that i watched Signal after MS and fell in love with "The Road" and somehow i didn't quite make the connection, so now when i think Kim Yuna i see Kim Hye Soo's face (it doesn't help that the cover of the single is her actual face)

#kim yuna #kim hye soo #man the inside of my head is such a mess #i mean messier than usual #i think it's heightened by all the fangirling #i am being attacked from all sides #세상 어딘가

[totallynotcensorship]

tags update: rafah is 8th on trending

edit: it is now at 7th

FOR CONTEXT:

israel has launched an invasion and heavy bombing of rafah(a.k.a the "safe zone" 1.7 million Palestinians were forced into) after the UN approved a ceasefire resolution for the rest of ramadan... all 2 weeks of it. results were 14 votes for YESes. 0 NOs. and 1 didn't vote(take a guess who it was) the resolution called for an unconditional release of all hostages on both sides. so yes, mr "i am totally just doing this to get my hostages back whom i totally care about and totally didn't kill" Israel is launching harder attacks even after being promised all hostages release. just in case anyone was still questioning if Israel was using hostages as just an excuse for colonialism

russia tried to turn it into a permanent ceasefire but the US vetoed it. i guess vetoing a ceasefire looks less bad when russia is the one proposing it

DON'T STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE

#also bibi cancelled his visit to the US because of this... Oh ThE TraGeDy #i read about the resolution and was like “huh i wonder how long it will take israel to break it” #i didn't even have time to post THAT and they already did it #yemen #jerusalem #tel aviv #current events #palestine #free palestine #gaza #free gaza #news on gaza #palestine news #news update #war news #war on gaza #settler colonialism #genocide #gaza genocide #Gaza port #rafah