#i am so so so tired and frustrated at the world

[emoclone]

some un-gentle reminders going into year 4 of the ongoing covid pandemic:

- the CDC is no longer reporting case numbers. if things were bad again (which they are and have been), the CDC is not gonna be the one to sound the alarm.

- if you haven't gotten your 2023 covid shot, you're effectively not vaccinated against the current strains of covid. go get vaccinated ASAP.

- any mask is better than no mask, but kn95s and n95s are your best bet to protect yourself and others.

- you SHOULD be wearing a mask in public spaces. everyone should. covid is airborne and it spread wherever people are. that includes your school, your workplace, the grocery store, the hospital, any place where people gather.

- if you're sick with any cold/flu symptoms, get tested and isolate. even if you "just had a runny nose," that doesn't mean it won't kill someone else you've been in contact with.

- the government and the media will do everything they can to convince you that there's no pandemic anymore. that doesn't mean that covid isn't a real and active threat to everyone's health and well-being.

TLDR: mask up, get vaccinated, and remind others to do the same. don't stop talking about it. keep yourself and others safe.

#they speak #covid 19 #pandemic #public health #psa #idk how to tag this #i am so so so tired and frustrated at the world #i'm not putting this in the body of the post but i believe it #the government would rather shoot you point blank than protect you from a deadly virus #it's cheaper for them

[araneitela]

Me staring at test results: It makes so much sense for her, but if I don't specify or elaborate, then we end up with the fanon take. Ugh, how do I easily explain that if you look at the word 'sex' through a much more old-fashioned lens instead of the modern one, that you'll get a vastly different picture of it?

/takes angycat.png typing to my tags

#[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. #[ post-it. ] in a way; you are poetry material. you are full of cloudy subtleties I am willing to spend a lifetime figuring out. #[ i'm so tired. i need to write a post on this or something. and somehow add it to my pinned. in some way. ] #[ 'sex' and 'seduction' are /not/ wrong in my opinion. HOWEVER-- they are /very wrong/ if we go by modern labels and perception. ] #[ god the horror of writing a muse that is so interlaced in a modern world; setting and culture but seems to /ooze/ something archaic. ] #[ this level of refinement isn't of our times in my opinion. these things that she loves aren't commonly loved nowadays. ] #[ there's so much about her that is old-fashioned to me and it's so in my face. and yet fanon doesn't see it. ] #[ i can't believe i'm an old millennial who's screaming boomer or older things. ] #[ but like can we acknowledge that sex in today's age isn't the same as it used to be? not /always/ but more generally so. ] #[ can we acknowledge that /seduction/ didn't always mean what people see it to mean now? ] #[ can we acknowledge that the FEMME FETALE TROPE HAS CHANGED /LEAGUES/ since the 2000s? ] #[ which is my biggest beef actually. and maybe all of my frustration plays into this most. it's that the femme fatale now is sexualized. ] #[ while that is /not/ what the femme fatale used to be. kafka plays into the old school femme fatale so well. film noir days. ] #[ i had this same struggle on yelan where they make VERY OBVIOUS draws to it by her music in her trailer. god; the jazz. ] #[ but kafka suffers from this so very much as well to a point where i don't dare to call her a femme fatale because then it's fanon. ] #[ the fanon i hate so much. ] #[ but just uuuughhhh. UGHHH. it's so much to explain. ]

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#remember when i could draw? when i had time to draw and color? #bleh. im just sorta exhausted and dont feel good and starting to get overwhelmed by all that i need to get done #weirdest version of being sick ive had. i dont have a fever but i feel hot and my throat hurts and i have to take deep breaths but not #really coughing so im like??? am i sick??? #ugh. i dunno ive been going to sleep at like 9pm and its only 7 and im so tired but i have a paper to read #maybe ill read it in the morning and not do pigment analysis tomorrow... but i wanna see those god damn pigment >:-( #i dunno. im also just kinda frustrated bc im running into things that my mum was in control of the info on #so its like: well i cant access my fasfa account. i dont kno where my vaccine info is. i dont kno if my mum had uterine fibroids before it #all turned to cancer. i dunno. im just tired #also i bitched out on a pap smear bc it hurt too bad. so ive had a day. #but ive got a birth control perception again. i dont wanna take it but like i cant really aford to go out of focus and go out of commission #via pain. so like i guess i gotta. ugh. it better not fuck with my medication #hopefully ill wake up tomorrow and all will be well in the world #unrelated

[batemanofficial]

hello upper middle class northern usamerican tumblr user. i want to play a game. you will notice that you are in a super america convenience store in rural kentucky - you have three minutes to purchase a snack and drink of your choice and make normal small talk with the cashier. however, if you use the word "cryptid" or generally make reference to appalachia and its inhabitants as "wild", uncivilized, or lacking restraint around alcoholic beverages during your time here, i will personally tie you to the chassis of a four wheeler and tip it into the river. live or die. make your choice

#speak friend and enter #i can appreciate mothman as much as the next guy but can we stop treating appalachia like it's the subject of a richard attenborough doc #i come from a long line of hillbillies and i like to think i've got a good sense of humor about it but sometimes i am tested #like. this is not a lawless land with a moonshine still in every holler and nameless voices in the woods!! this is a normal town!! #idk maybe i'm reading too much into it but i'm just tired of the cultural fetishization of appalachia by people who aren't from here #and who don't know anything about it. like yeah you know mothman and what hooch is and that's all well and good #but do you know what the opioid epidemic really is. do you know about the structural injustices that keep people like mcconnell in power #i'm not saying you have to apply dialectical political analysis to every issue that occurs in the region to be able to have an opinion #but also like. i'm tired of people looking at places like where i grew up and making them into things they aren't #like. on the one hand we have ''ooh spooky hills!! run if you hear the trees whisper your name'' #and on the other we've got ''isn't appalachia so depressing...so hashtag ethel cain core...shame it's got no value beyond aesthetics'' #and on yet another hand we have ''i - a person with no ties to the region - am going to take up the cause of every social issue #occurring across the entire appalachian region so the world will see just how bad these poor hill people have it. i am very smart'' #and like. it's frustrating #i'm not saying you should never speak about appalachia if something we have is interesting to you #nor am i implying that i want to gatekeep discussion of the region's issues to the community bc that won't accomplish anything #i'm just saying that like any place it's complex. it's got its good things and it's got its bad things. #and you shouldn't isolate the good from the bad or vice versa - especially if you don't know the context in which those things happen. #and for the love of god dont let your own ignorance cause you to boil down those issues into a reductive and inaccurate set of stereotypes #learn about us from us. not from tiktok not from movies and for christ's sake not from hillbilly elegy. i hate that fucking book #anyway that got weirdly serious but i mean it. putting appalachia as a talking point up on the shelf until y'all can speak intelligently #ok to rb

[trans-cuchulainn]

everybody should have free and equal access to information and art, and also the people who make that art should be able to earn a fair living. both of these things should happen. unfortunately, we live in a world where neither of them happens. moreover we live in a world where they are seen as oppositional forces where to favour one is to deny the other. but it is not the fault of either the producers or the consumers that these truths haven't already been reconciled, it's a) the middlemen who profit from the labour of both sides, and b) the system as a whole that makes living something to be sweated and bled for and not something we can simply do. furthermore it is deeply unfortunate that action against those middlemen will always hurt first the producers of that art and information, because rather than see their profits shrink, the middlemen will only extract more labour for less money. and this will not be a victory for the consumer in the long run, but if the alternative is for the profit to grow at the cost to the consumer, who would blame the consumer for taking the temporary victory? and the system cannot be allowed to continue to exist in the state that it is, and sometimes those middlemen are making choices that do harm. so how do you change it, if you don't want to hurt the people at the bottom who have no power over the people at the top? can it be changed? or will it always be a case of pitting the producer against the consumer as though that was ever the fight to be won in the first place?

#it is so so frustrating that it is never the ceos and executives and boards and whatever that suffer from boycotts and the like #their salaries will not even take a hit #but the underpaid junior employees at the bottom will be let go #and the ones just above them will work five years on a sub living wage for no promotion #and the freelancers who are the reason the industry exists will be ground down and exploited just a little more #while somebody at the top who produces nothing of value pockets all the money #and if the consumer walks away and goes elsewhere... they'll just take it out of somebody else's pocket instead #how do you resist in a world that is built like this #how can anything get better when the only way to show displeasure with a company is to fuck ordinary people over #i am so goddamn tired of living under capitalism

[salsflore]

#my friend got mad and stormed away bc i joked abt missing and wishing a friend were with us bc if she was then i wouldnt have to be the- #-one to listen to her rambling abt her crush and whatnot #maybe ive been too rude in the way i went about it but now that i think abt it ive been ridiculously patient with her #shes always bringing me out my class and to the bathroom to talk abt her crushhh and her love lifee and she doesnt consider- #-my feelings at all ! do i even want to hear about it ?! do i give a SHIT ??? #whenever SHE makes me feel awful i don't say anything. she just brushes it off with a sorry my bad loll #but the moment i express my frustration shes like fuck you la >:( #ive been telling her how i feel ive been telling her to stop it stop bringing me into your drama stop talking to me abt him #and yet! #she knew my prev. crush was talking shit about me yet she never told me until i asked her abt it ?! she didnt give a shit when i was- #-in the middle of taking a TEST and she was like um i dont care help me with this #dudeeee #youre so frustrating the world does not revolve around you and your love life shes the type of person to think shes cool for being 13 and- #-dating a 16 yr old baby NOOO!!! #i am so tired so so so tired i feel out of place with my friends all the time i hate everything #to clarify shes not 13 anymore but she sure! does act like it...

[spiritofjustice]

I love Webkinz and it will always have a special place in my heart, but it frustrates me how much of the game that used to be wholly available is now locked behind a paywall. I also understand that Webkinz was always pay to play, like the game already cost money and was basically an active subscription model since you had to buy at least one new pet a year or else they would delete your account. But then they introduced a fucking “deluxe membership” that locked previously accessible features and games behind giving Ganz MORE money is unbelievable. They didn’t ADD new stuff much, they just put stuff you could play or enjoy already behind it like this weird carrot-and-stick bullshit.

So much of the game is as heavily monetized as possible. Feels like a majority of the new items are only purchasable through premium currency that is SO expensive. I understand that at this point the majority of Webkinz users in 2023 are likely adults who grew up on it like me, but that’s such a foul way to run a CHILDREN’S game. I could understand it a bit more if Webkinz had been free to play ala Neopets (which it technically is now but there is very little you’re actually allowed to do) but YOU HAD TO PAY TO PLAY IT. You still basically do because the free members barely get any features.

I hate it, because I love coming back to Webkinz every once in a while and like 80% of the shit I wanna do is behind a paywall. I don’t want to spend 5 dollars for a single monthly deluxe subscription to play this laggy, poorly running game from 2005. And I know it’s designed to frustrate you into buying a membership because it has worked on me time and time again. I wanna get back into Webkinz but to have any fun I have to pay for the deluxe. I hate it.

I tend to assume that Ganz has been in the red on Webkinz for years and years, but increased monetization with a poorly run site isn’t helping it.

#psy's no punctuation posts #i just wanna play Get 11 Solitaire and do classes at the academy #i can only play TWO CLASSES there so I can never fully complete a day without spending real world money to get access #AND THE GAME RUNS LIKE FUCKIN SHIT!!! #i had to log out and log back in multiple times because me just trying to use a feature broke the game multiple times #i had to log out when I tried to open my mail box I had to log out when I tried to open one of the stores #I’m tired of these shitty products that they expect you to pay money for because they make it too frustrating to play without paying #it is an AWFUL running game and here I am! still tempted to give this fucking company money so I can at least enjoy some fucking features

[strwbrymlkshake]

ohh I do want to pass away why am I so stupid

#mine #🎸 #why am i such a terrible person 😇 genuinely what the fuck #me when i want to cry and tear my skin off over a minor mistake ufhdshdjfjg can i stop being fucking stupid for once #crying over a mistake right NOW actually everything is so difficult i dont know what im supposed to do in these situations!!!!!!! #i get in trouble for not knowing what to do in social situations then i have to apologize and i didnt know THAT either. #bashing my head against the wall violence maiming killing death torture bloodletting slicing tearing defenestrating murdering annihilating #me anmd my epic autism powers. shouldnt i know better why csnt you understand!!! who is at fault here! i dont even know #ashshsjdksjfklsfke im wanna cry so hard everything sucks right now im too busy for this shit. for Emotions #why are you punishing me do you hate me?! did you never even like me at all are you trying to make me mad!!! why #im so tired and frustrated i want everything to go perfectly but its not nothing can be perfect in this terrible world he is going to hate #me now. hell why do i have urges like this it always ruins everything im being so selfish arent i aren't i arent i !!!!!!!! why cant we #be FUCKING compatible and perfect snd everything what is the problem am i the problem?!?? why cant you understsnd what im trying to tellyou #maybe it really would just be better if i died nothing good has happened or is going to happen to me since he probably hates me and #my life sucks!!!!! my face hurts from crying i cant cry properly it hurts it feels so hot why cant it end already!!!!!!! why cant #we be perfect like we are supposed to why cant you UNDERSTAND it seems easy to understand to ME whwueh i am mortified my throat hurts #my head hurts i hate this world why couldnt i resist why did i have to be vulnerable id be better off if. well i dont know #i do want to crush bones and flesh beneath my hands to be honest i dont KNOW i thought it was going well i thought it was good #the thread i am hanging on by is quite thin actually why do i care so much why do i care so little im going to explode right meow!!! #my mood is so ruined i dont know if im even used to this whole thing i cannot get in particular moods im so. rgrhrhggr none of this post #is going to make sense i just need to say words while crying then itll be fine probably #this is just another one of god's little tests i think that everyone will hate me no matter what in the end so i have to enjoy it while #it lasts. no matter how hard i try everything always ends up the same way. all this started because of my mistakes and itll end with them

[zukoromantic]

Does anyone have advice on how to just. Write.

#i am so tired #i'm the only mf in this world shipping naru/seku and i take plenty of notes on them and talk and think abt them #but i never actually really write anything and it is so frustrating bc if i don't put out content for them literally no one wilk #*will

[americanredragger]

Fuck, I get Magneto now that I'm grown up and in the world as it is versus as my parents portrayed it.

I get all his anger and fear, his frustration, and his utter mistrust that the people in control would EVER willingly change the system unless he forced them to by one means or another.

I completely, absolutely, brutally and entirely get Magneto now.

And I am now similarly frustrated, angry, afraid, and utterly mistrustful of the system and the values and motives of the people behind it. And I similarly feel like this overly conservative system we all live in will change nothing of meaning or substance unless we somehow figure out a way to make them do it.

How do we do that without becoming bad guys, or especially as bad as what we're fighting against in the first place? How do we compel --force, even-- the powerful into acting the way that we want, nay, NEED without turning into something like them?

I wrestle with this question every fucking night and I have no good answer for it. I doubt anyone does.

All I know is that we'll never accomplish the world we dream of if we allow the oppressive owner class and their stooges in government to define the rules we might operate by. As long as we're playing their game, they'll see to it we never win in a way that matters; we'll just be told to accept rainbow coffee mugs and a once yearly event where corporations and politicians declare how they "stand with us" without doing a damn thing to actually alleviate suffering despite their nearly limitless ability to do so.

I hope I'm never as far gone as Magneto was at his worst, but I keenly understand and sympathize with the man in a way I never thought I would as a child.

#magneto #Max Eisenhardt #erik lensherr #erik lehnsherr #magnus #I feel like I finally understand the man #everything about him #because he is where I am right now #and the hell of the thing is? if my moral code weren't so strongly ingrained I fear I'd be a LOT more like him #at least the comics acknowledged that Xavier's dream only works in a world where the other side was willing to operate in good faith #and having seen that it won't #Even Professor X got TIRED and FRUSTRATED and ANGRY #but we can't make our own nation like the X Men did #we have to operate with the nations we have #hence the hand wringing

[shoreline-system]

i think one of the things we struggle most with is adjusting our expectation of ourself - especially during flareups. This body cannot do what it used to, and if we keep trying to meet those unrealistic expectations, we're going to hurt ourself.

Accepting that we can't do as much as we want to, that some things are simply out of our reach, that we aren't who we used to be - that shit is so hard. We have so much to grieve.

#water world #vent #disability #fibromyalgia #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #i am Struggling rn alright- #everything hurts real bad. it's only going to hurt more when i go lie down #i'm too tired to do anything but i have so much i want to get done #i sleep so much these days. it feels like i hardly have time for anything else #and i'm so frustrated!!!! but so nauseatingly tired too. #tired and sore and sad and afraid i guess.

[zuble]

i am going to stop playing genshin for the rest of the day and perhaps the rest of the week

#i am so tired and frustrated #why do they keep adding new gameplay and rules??? just give me new characters and a new world to explore and that’s it #today started off SO strong by getting diluc and it all went downhill #sumeru looks good but it also all looks the same and there’s so much climbing and i hate it

[barmeciide]

{ Updated my rules, muse list, and pinned post! Honestly nothing super important! I’m not remotely fast with replies, but I’m here every so often! }

#| ☩ out of time ☩ (ooc) | #{ I still don't know who gave Lillie the right to be the face of this blog but here we are } #{ Months later and I can't be bothered DGFJLGLFDKS } #{ I need to do a tag masterlist for my canons } #{ might make a promo post at some point } #{ Maybe over the weekend we'll see if I have time! } #{ an attempt to be around is being made but I am having some absolute medical BS at the moment (more like I need to get a thing done #{ but the system is set up to make getting said thing done very very difficult despite the fact that I've repeatedly proven my quality of #{ life is being ruined and said thing will vastly improve said quality of life) } #{ So I exist in a constant state of exhaustion for roughly 100 different reasons at this point hfjdhgfks } #{ And that is probably half of them GDFJLJFGDKS } #{ So I could be 50% less tired of the medical world would LET ME } #{ Anyway an end to my rant but my frustration with this process is indescribable ghdjfhkfds }

[ethereiling]

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#avpswjy #really feeling how difficult it is to live in the world today #getting real anxious about trying to find a job and its kinda depressing also bc like #the process of trying to find a job is so stressful and then also im haunted by the knowledge that i may not even be able to support myself #even if i do get a job #like man. everythings so expensive and im disabled and im not gonna be able to rely on other people for much longer #and if i think about that too much i start to get deeply afraid bc like. how am i supposed to survive like this #i wish i could just get a job that i dont hate and have a friend to live with so i dont have to be so scared all the time #but things are complicated and harder to manage than that so ill just die i guess #art isnt currently viable by a long shot either so thats not smth i could pursue so :^) guess ill just die ! #its just so frustrating bc theres so much value in living even if you struggle with some things others find easy #but theres no value for that in society #i look at my nephew smiling at me and im like well maybe things arent so bad #and then i have immense difficulty in an interview and im like well. maybe they are #anyway i hate how society is structured but theres nothing i can do about it #except die but unfortunately i have an immense amt to live for with all the people i care about #idk im just very tired and scared and frustrated

[train-inthedistance]

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#omg sb i follow just rejoiced in d*pps ‘’freedom’’ and i went to their blog and ………… #literally baffled with the arguments ….’do you realise that by siding with h*ard you’re siding with t*rfs’ like ?????? #do people actually think before they speak anymore like first of all in what world is that an argument at all and #second of all oh my god. just bc you want the same thing doesn’t mean you want it for the same reasons ??? #yeah im actually against unconditional basic income now bc the neolibs also want that but bc out of diametrically opposite reasons🤡🤡 #but I’d side with a neolib so what can you do like ??!!!??!?!?!? #i am literally SO tired of this dogmatic moralising on the internet like people please !!!!!!!! you have a brain!!!!! #the way the post was answered w dude he’s literally a tr*nsphobe like ? ?? crying w frustration over here #*sb i followeD lol

[piplupod]

so frustrated tonight bc i want to participate in society, it is so lonely being unemployed and disabled, but even if i woke up tomorrow with the fatigue miraculously cured i still wouldnt rly be able to get a job unless i wanted to risk catching covid every single day. this is so fucked up. im so tired. i hate how my parents see me as lazy when I am fucking crying out of frustration and the unfairness of it all and how achingly lonely and isolated i am. I don't understand how they think im choosing to do this to myself, i am not living im simply existing. i can't even make the art i want to make because im so impossibly tired all the time !!!

i cleaned a chair today and im barely able to sit up tonight bc it exhausted me so much. but god forbid i ever say that im tired because then suddenly its a contest, or show that im tired because then im "pouting"(????), but also "I've never seen you tired, I would've noticed if you were tired all the time, you seem fine!"

#i genuinely WANT a job. #i want to have money. i want to have a life that i enjoy living. i want to be able to purchase things that make me happy #i want to eat food without getting scared about how much im eating bc i know its expensive so i have to be careful w it #i want to talk to people and have opportunities to make friends #i want to feel okay physically again #i want to feel like im contributing to the world in some way #i want to make people happy by being useful in an employment setting #i want to feel like im actually a part of the world #....i want to move out of this house. i want to not be scared all the time. i want to feel okay #but all of it is so far out of reach or impossible and i am tired and trapped #i want to be happy I really really do. I've been so miserable and scared lately #i miss being pleasant to be around #im just so frustrated with the way the cards have been dealt. im so jealous of my brother who keeps squandering away what I'd love to have #i dont even know what to discuss with the counselor at this point like... if she doesnt have a miracle then theres nothing for me #i want there to be a solution but there doesn't seem to be anything #pippen needs 2nd breakfast